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I Pretend to Be Apathetic

because not caring is so much easier. Right. 24 People

    "The difference between ignorance

    and apathy is.....I don't know and I really don't care.
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    I Can Do It, But It Hurts So Badly.

    I totally have the tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve.  When I love someone, I pour it all out, I answer their calls and texts and really never leave them guessing about how I feel about them.   Well, one day a guy I was TOTALLY into blew me off for about the...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F Feb 18, 2010

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    Oh, She's So Good At Pretending!

    Oh, I've always been so wonderful at pretending. Pretending I'm happy, pretending I'm okay. Pretending that life is so ******* fantastic. I've discovered lately that more than anything, I pretend to be apathetic. I care so intensely about so many things, my heart is so damned...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2009

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    Sometimes

    I have found that through the years looking back and currently I tend to use apathy as a defense mechanism when really I feel the opposite entirely.  I'm sure this is pretty common though the extent to which I have sometimes used this is a little rediculous.  For...
    waterdroplet waterdroplet 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    Alright, it just started off as an alternate account on a site. I thought I clarified that it was me on both accounts, but for some reason, people seem to think I am two people...
    Splashtail Splashtail 13-15 Jul 14

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    I pretend to be an extrovert so people wont ask me why I also quiet or ask me if I am ok.
    Shizuka000 Shizuka000 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    I'm almost 16 years old, and I've been pretending to be several people for over 5/6 years. I don't do it for fun, I don't do it to hurt others, I don't like that I do it. I've had...
    everydayregret everydayregret 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    Yep they pretend to care when really there just like everyone else they hate me so much that they tell people every secret I've shared thinking they cared shows how smart I am ..I...
    noolybabe14 noolybabe14 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I am 19 years old. And I've been pretending to be other people online off and on since I was 14. I honestly feel like I can't stop. I'm so ashamed of doing it and ashamed of myself...
    Knope77 Knope77 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I pretend I'm okay but in reality I wish I could fix what's broken but I know if I do that I will tear my house apart, my children, my home, everything. Why is it so hard to...
    devilseye1996 devilseye1996 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    50% of guys on here pretend to be girls just so they can get pictures. How sad is that?
    KylieLaine KylieLaine 18-21, F 71 Responses Jul 22

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    I tried to kill myself so they put me in a facility. In patient scars you more than the world. A girl tried to kill me with dull @$$ scissors and they said it was my fault because...
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    My whole life I've been pretending/ faking it. When I close my door and turn out the lights i'm left with just me and idk who I am. I'm hiding from everyone, including myself.
    PrettyGirlDarkSecerts PrettyGirlDarkSecerts 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I pretend to be happy for everyone except ep. No one cares really, but it usually makes people happy when you're happy and smiling. That's all I want, for everyone to be happy.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F Jul 23

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    I am 15 years old, and I hate to admit it, but pretending to be someone else online & hiding behind someone else's looks kind of comfort me. It sounds horrible, I know. But I'm so...
    bekoveranything bekoveranything 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Hi guys this may be embarrassing but I pretend to be someone else in my mind creating a story in my mind but I'm the hero or the evil person but I'm always daydreams. Thank you for...
    mehdiamiri mehdiamiri 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    I have to pretend I'm happy for happiness of others, if I'm not ok other people will harm themselves, if I feel upset other people cry, if I feel like just sleeping all day people...
    Meeppeep Meeppeep 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    I was alone and bullied all the time but one of the things I know about me is that I'm afraid I reality and I choose to create a story in my head and I pretend to be someone else...
    mehdiamiri mehdiamiri 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I honestly just can't bring myself to care about most things in life.
    Alyss22 Alyss22 18-21, F Jul 3

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    I feel like I have no passion. No interest. The world just exists and I just exist and there's no point. I feel broken. Everyone seems to have dreams and aspirations and I just...
    chels32 chels32 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I met a friend here on ep a couple weeks ago. We started talking and after a couple of days he became the closest friend I ever had . He knew all my secrets and I knew his. We both...
    bahirro bahirro 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    Finally a place 2 chat wit strangers , tired of nosy friends n perps . F/b boring & so is twitter !
    123blubird 123blubird 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I am writing this because I want to get it out there. Now, I won't go into much detail, but I'll give enough so that there's a story. The act of creating an account on said sight...
    Thisisanaccountusee Thisisanaccountusee 31-35 Jul 2

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    Honestly what has the world come to? Both guys and girls lie about their gender on apps like EP. Just be honest! Who am I kidding-.- * sighs* People will continue to do this...
    FunnyandNerdy FunnyandNerdy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I'm slowly falling back into the hole where all i want to do is disappear
    jojo82897 jojo82897 16-17, F Jul 2

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    I don't really feel i can tell people anything when I'm annoyed. I just keep it to myself and stay quiet.
    samdavis3 samdavis3 16-17, M Jul 3

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    I am definitely not a writer and my English sucks. I always wanted to write. I want to keep a diary. I've tried many times in the past in doing that. But every each time after I...
    candicedxj candicedxj 18-21, F Jul 3

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    I almost forgot about this website so I went to go read up on my experiences and in all honesty I can't even recognize who I used to be. It's difficult to experience a past feeling...
    wiinterhorchatas wiinterhorchatas 16-17, F Jul 4

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    She depresses me... I need her... She plays with me too much, I CAN'T STAND HER!!! Yet she brightens my day when I see her... We show endless affection too each other we act like a...
    Jr2299 Jr2299 13-15, M Jul 6

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    I go on with my day as if I'm ok. I give my self excuses everyday tell my self i look wonderful. But really on the inside I'm lying to myself. I lay awake at night crying because...
    TATK02 TATK02 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I'm tired very tired I stay up till 4 in the morning and sleep all day can that be because I'm sick I'm missing something I've always had something up till now I think I'm losing...
    Pablo71214 Pablo71214 16-17, M Jul 6

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    Usually plus ppl always seem to fall for it except two people noticed I have changed from happy as rainbows to dark and dull :/. Anyone else here fakes a smile ? And say that ur...
    bananarama99 bananarama99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Well emotions are not welcome on earth, so you gotta be strong.
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M Jul 7

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    Trip to the hospital again, I'm pretty sure my parents are gonna stop bringing me if I keep it up, so I will :)
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F Jul 7

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    The day I told my parents I was Bisexual was terrible. I got in huge trouble for not being straight?? I would spend everyday since then faking a smile and going through my day. But...
    LesboFourtrisShipper LesboFourtrisShipper 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    A fake smile can hid a million REAL tears
    foreverANDnever14 foreverANDnever14 13-15, F Jul 7

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    I have depression and I hide it well but I am lonely because the only mask that could cover this up is the crazy one so I act crazy I do funny stunts and I tell weird jokes and I...
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F Jul 7

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    I lost my virginity to a one night stand. The experience itself was good and I really enjoyed the moment. Now that the dust has settled, I feel a bit empty and I hate that I feel...
    sabrinalina sabrinalina 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    Life has been so hard lately coming out gay is harder than I thought it would be. A lot of people think I am strong but I suffer from depression, anxiety and a weak heart.
    Benji77 Benji77 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    I wouldn't say I'm fully depressed... I would just say my past isn't a good place to let my mind wonder... Yet that seems to be the only place it wants to go. I have a boyfriend...
    keepkeepinon keepkeepinon 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I constantly smile and laugh everyday like my life couldn't be better when in reality my world is crashing down around me. I can't tell anyone because they would never understand...
    sassafras1025 sassafras1025 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I don't really like it when people worry about me. I feel bad that I am causing them stress. So a lot of times when I have problems or I'm just not okay, I won't tell anyone. I...
    theanonymousloser theanonymousloser 18-21, F Jul 9