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I Pretend to Be Apathetic

because not caring is so much easier. Right. 23 People

    I Can Do It, But It Hurts So Badly.

    I totally have the tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve.  When I love someone, I pour it all out, I answer their calls and texts and really never leave them guessing about how I feel about them.   Well, one day a guy I was TOTALLY into blew me off for about the...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F Feb 18, 2010

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    Oh, She's So Good At Pretending!

    Oh, I've always been so wonderful at pretending. Pretending I'm happy, pretending I'm okay. Pretending that life is so ******* fantastic. I've discovered lately that more than anything, I pretend to be apathetic. I care so intensely about so many things, my heart is so damned...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2009

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    Sometimes

    I have found that through the years looking back and currently I tend to use apathy as a defense mechanism when really I feel the opposite entirely.  I'm sure this is pretty common though the extent to which I have sometimes used this is a little rediculous.  For...
    waterdroplet waterdroplet 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    But really I'm dying from the inside out. I pretend I'm okay so I don't get my feelings hurt. I see happy faces and it kills me because I know I'll never truly be happy with myself...
    goldengirl24 goldengirl24 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 10

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when...
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    This could be and is a long story, but I'm going to condense it here. I pretended to be depressed to get a guy to like me. We would text for hours, and I would lie about stuff and...
    candacemac24 candacemac24 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    You know what bugs the crap out of me.... People thinking I'm a lazy person, a person that doesn't give a crap about anyone but themselves! Im far from lazy and i care about...
    Kelloggz90 Kelloggz90 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 26

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    So I made 3 accounts of guys and pretended to be them. I got the pictures of them off instagrams of random guys I don't know. Today while only my sister was home police came to the...
    purelaurs purelaurs 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Sometime, it is really hard to pretend that everything is fine when you know it is not. Sometime, I wish someone would just tell me "it is okay to cry".
    amyD99 amyD99 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I fake my smile and pretend like I am not breaking, but in reality I am worse than you will ever know.
    LivinLovinLaughinSomethin LivinLovinLaughinSomethin 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I tore at my chameleon skin, a messy and painful process... The crowds turned their head. I stepped outside, dizzy, ill at ease... Trying to conceal what I had discovered beneath...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 2

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    On numerous occasions I've seen people pretend as if they like people and then the second the person is out of their presence they will either disparage them with vile hatred ...
    Marah613 Marah613 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    If you don't like someone you should not pretend to like them. That's my philosophy anyway.
    projectgwyn101 projectgwyn101 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    Sometimes I try my best to be happy as I can when I'm at school I can sometimes feel like my life is about to end but sometimes every ounce a week or somehow everyday I can be...
    vivienhuang13 vivienhuang13 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I pretend that i have alot of friend and i'm okay but the truth is i dont have any real close friend that i trust 😕
    YElRashidy YElRashidy 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    Its one of the hardest thing to do. Pretending your not depressed. Faking a smile. A laugh. Just to show to everyone that your "okay". When in fact, everything is falling apart...
    Meloryne Meloryne 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    U just can't pretend to be a good person when deep down you are full dark! You only know your self! #judgement day
    AYEZOOS AYEZOOS 18-21, M Apr 10

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    I have just been given the opportunity to visit my very first home for the very last time. It's been sold again. The family who bought it off of us are moving again, so they've let...
    ForeverIsOver ForeverIsOver 13-15, F Apr 10

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    I smile and pretend that everything is ok. I'm not depressed just sad and lonely. I miss having that one person who is for me. That one person who can be my best friend and my...
    Findingteesh Findingteesh 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I would like to say that I'm one of those people who "sees the world for what it really is." I say this because I seem to be one of the only few people picking up on the faults of...
    KeithPrice94 KeithPrice94 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    Everybody around me seems to be so bloody oblivious and legitimately just plain thick minded that it frustrates me so much. I always feel like I have to wear a mask and act as if I...
    aylaaxo aylaaxo 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    I want to be me you either accept who I am or you don't I will do the same. I am here to be me and not to be called names and told I cant be myself. I love people and there...
    jellybean113 jellybean113 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    This week has been unbelievably bad. Schools ****, family's ****, everything's ****. I miss you so bad you know? I was so close. So close to swallowing the whole bottle, but...
    prettybr0wneyes prettybr0wneyes 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    There's Jehovah witnesses knocking on the door right now. I'm pretty sure they saw me look outside. Oh well. I'm not answering that.
    kels789 kels789 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 24

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    faking a smile everyday. it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 24

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    most days I feel I am really depressed. Most of my emotions either don't exist or show. Like tonight for example. It was a good night. hung out with friends and played darts and...
    paintballfan247 paintballfan247 22-25, M Mar 25

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    I've never been an open person, always being closed off. And I like it that way, having things for myself. I hate talking about myself in general. I think I've never really told...
    dysfori dysfori 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 26

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    i just dont know why they act..... this makes me more annoyed and depressed towards myself that why i m like this :/
    ayushvats ayushvats 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 27

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    For a few weeks now I've been faking a smile to help her. Sometimes the smile is real, because of her. But alot of it is to make her feel safe. But I ask myself alot. Is it always...
    XxSaintsEyesxX XxSaintsEyesxX 16-17, M Mar 27

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    I smile and act happy everyday but within is depression and lonely emptiness
    colbyonyx colbyonyx 16-17, M Mar 27

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    I feel like I shouldn't even be here, I wanna go and never come back.
    ellavalencia ellavalencia 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Everything is not okay! And sometimes I wonder "is it ever fogging to be okay?" "Is it ever going to get better?" I've been searching for the correct answer for so long! Sometimes...
    InMemoryOfMe InMemoryOfMe 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    More like a love hate type deal. I love they way they look and their drive to acquire life goals but once I get to know them I find them mean and unaffected rigid and unforgiving...
    just2lovelee just2lovelee 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Y do I hide still ?? ... I dnt understand ..
    chrisisawsome chrisisawsome 16-17, M Mar 30

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    After 9 months, my ex finally have a new girlfriend. I am just curious why that month before he even contacted me and asking my number again. I thought we can fix things up until i...
    meca08 meca08 22-25, F Mar 31

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    He lies about working after 12 years he still lies. It hurts but I try not to show him
    03done 03done 31-35, F Apr 1

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    Everyday... Mostly at school :/
    01sparkly 01sparkly 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Outside; typical stupid girl who's never not smiling bc she has nothing wrong in her life has a bunch of ' true ' friends dosent scream, never asks for help, is the happyist person...
    RavenHearts RavenHearts 16-17, F Apr 1

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    It's amazing what you can hide from just putting on a smile, The thoughts inside your brain they stay there for a while, The numbness and the pain only leads to the shame, The...
    olivias78 olivias78 13-15, F Apr 1

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    This smile, there's tears and blood behind it. Can you see it?
    calicorex4 calicorex4 13-15, F Apr 1

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    We try hard to be someone's "number one", the best and all they are looking for. We fake smiles to hide the pain inside. We force a laugh to hide the pain inside and to please...
    DrowningInEmotion DrowningInEmotion 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Not even family members... If I don't like someone... I believe they have a right to know :/ well... In all honesty I really don't want to make the effort to hide it .
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F Apr 2

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    Simple as that. I can not & will no longer go out of my comfort zone to make another feel comfortable. Sometimes I may like you sometimes I may not but sometimes & in the end my...
    cycloneange cycloneange 70+, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I put on a smile an try and keep my chin up. So no one can tell how much I'm really hurting. I cry, my makeup runs, and then I just put it back on like it never happened. When I'm...
    bloomingrose23 bloomingrose23 13-15, F Apr 2

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    Elysiaaaxo Elysiaaaxo 18-21, F Apr 3

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    I've chased a million things Bright lights and empty dreams Now here I am Right where I thought I wanted to be I'll trade it all right now Leave it all and lay it down To get back...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 4

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    This search is kind of stressful. The subject is so taboo that the information is so hard to find.
    milwaukeenene milwaukeenene 22-25 1 Response Apr 4

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    -This life I live isn't as peaceful and calm as it is. This world I'm in is filled with hate and chaos. This roof I live under has it's yells and it tears. The school I attend has...
    BabyDgay BabyDgay 16-17, F Apr 5

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    When I suspect lying it isn't too bad, but when I have proof someone is lying and they continue to lie, even more forcefully, it REALLY annoys me. It's to the point where I don't...
    Aldmeri Aldmeri 70+, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 6

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    I don't really know how to start off, but this faking thingy started when I was in 4th grade. When I was young, I always knew that I am boyish and that, I like being a boy. But...
    UnknownForLife UnknownForLife 18-21 1 Response Apr 7

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