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I Pretend to Be Apathetic

because not caring is so much easier. Right. 24 People

    I Can Do It, But It Hurts So Badly.

    I totally have the tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve.  When I love someone, I pour it all out, I answer their calls and texts and really never leave them guessing about how I feel about them.   Well, one day a guy I was TOTALLY into blew me off for about the...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F Feb 18, 2010

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    "The difference between ignorance

    and apathy is.....I don't know and I really don't care.
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Sometimes

    I have found that through the years looking back and currently I tend to use apathy as a defense mechanism when really I feel the opposite entirely.  I'm sure this is pretty common though the extent to which I have sometimes used this is a little rediculous.  For...
    waterdroplet waterdroplet 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    Oh, She's So Good At Pretending!

    Oh, I've always been so wonderful at pretending. Pretending I'm happy, pretending I'm okay. Pretending that life is so ******* fantastic. I've discovered lately that more than anything, I pretend to be apathetic. I care so intensely about so many things, my heart is so damned...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2009

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    Very damn good at covering up and pretending that I'm okay. I use a smile and humor to cover up, only to be cracking inside. Lately I can't pretend that I'm okay anymore
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    This may sound weird but ever since I was 12 (I'm 15 now) when I'm alone I pretend to act like I'm someone else (usually a anime character or a character from a movie) when I watch...
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    Some days is more difficult then others but I try to pretend I am ok. I have struggled with depression since I was a teenager. About 8 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical...
    Edanamarie Edanamarie 26-30, F Sep 26

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    Those deluded, repressed types who always think 'positive' and never have real emotions will hate you if you don't play pretend. Still, at least I'm authentic unlike them. :)
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M Sep 27

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    It's exhausting to bottle everything up inside and pretend like you're okay all the time. But at the same time I don't want to burden people with my problems. I don't want people...
    lon12 lon12 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    Why would you pretend? If you don't like me just either go away or tell me nicely you don't like me. I don't want friends that don't appreciate me for who I am....
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    I always pretend nothing bothers me when in reality I'm not this big, tough, emotionless ***** I make myself out to be. I'm actually really scared and fearful and just want to be...
    Katiepoohmm Katiepoohmm 18-21, F Sep 30

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    I don't...but if you are pretending to be okay, it's time to stop people do care about how your feeling and people will listen...sharing how you feel and maybe why you hide it...
    JPSS JPSS 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 7

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    People that prey on others that have misfortune in their life by pretending to have psychic abilities in my opinion are the lowest forms of life on planet earth.
    kauaiboy76 kauaiboy76 36-40, M 5 Responses Oct 7

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    Sometimes when I'm home alone I pretend I'm not there. Like when a mail person or delivery person comes to the door and knocks I just like run into the bathroom or downstairs...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    This is something that is very fun and enjoyable for me. Feeling my belly as I sit around, and when I move. Pretending that I am going to become a mommy, and feeling the kicking of...
    Eikenmaster Eikenmaster 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    I been pretending with my family. They do or say something. I say I'm okay I don't care. But in reality I do care. I don't think I ever showed them Me upset. I probably did once...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F Oct 11

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    If you pretend to be stupid and they the motormouth go on rambling you can get a gist of how full of it they are.
    OzarksTrucker OzarksTrucker 36-40, M Oct 11

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    I'm 47. I was abused as a child - sexually, physically, emotionally, spiritually. The way I got through it was by pretending to be someone else - characters from TV, movies, books...
    SheppiesMom SheppiesMom 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    When I'm out of town where no one knows me, I sometimes like to pretend. I have been a brain surgeon, a scientist, a movie producer, movie script writer, writer for sitcoms...
    Ub12 Ub12 61-65, F Oct 13

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    While writing this, I just feel ashamed and horrible that I was able to do something that cruel. As long as I can remember, I always wanted to be a girl. I felt that I was a girl...
    ALostSoulisInsideMe ALostSoulisInsideMe 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    Hi I like to pretend that im not depressed to everyone around but the truth is I am severely depressed and I have even tried to end it all. I don't like people knowing how I feel...
    rhondaclarke rhondaclarke 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    Just like it says. I do pretend I'm okay. I know it's unhealthy to bottle up my emotions, but I can't help but think what people would say about me. and everyday it gets worse. All...
    LoseYourMind LoseYourMind 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    ivv been bullied my whole life and I always have that fake smile everywhere everyday but when no ones really around I break down cause there's no one in the end for me to be at my...
    josephinematti josephinematti 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I fake a smile and pretend everything is okay, and I laugh to hide the pain.
    Matthews14 Matthews14 13-15, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    The freedom I feel just to be able to walk around knowing I no longer have a penis is just so totally awesome. Being born a girl with a penis made my early life very difficult. I...
    Iamsasha Iamsasha 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Tomorrow I am doing a presentation for 100 people and I need help . I have no desire to talk but I have no choice - how do you do things you don't want to ?
    Dancemomisme Dancemomisme 46-50, F 7 Responses Sep 25

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    I'm sick of people asking me if I'm okay or not so I just smile and laugh as if everything's fine.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F Sep 25

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    Seriously, why do people assume I want to tell them about my problems? I keep everything bottled up until one day I break down. Last time I cried, it was 4 years worth a tears.
    ChanelLove12 ChanelLove12 70+, F Sep 26

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    a fake smile a day keeps the questions and judgments away
    kevinnc1 kevinnc1 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    The most beautifull eyes that cry when its about to sleep ; the most beautifull smile that is fake ; a very dark mind ; dead soul living body ; laugh alot feeling empty .. Story of...
    Unstableteen Unstableteen 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 27

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    All it takes is a beatutiful fake smile to hide an injured soul, and they will never notice how broken you really are.
    lon12 lon12 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 27

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    Everyday. I get up, get ready and leave for school. I'll smile and nod whilst my mum and brother talk. I get to school and do the same. Smile, Nod and laugh at things. But deep...
    NobodyCaresOkai NobodyCaresOkai 13-15, F Sep 27

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    Any ideas as to how I can make myself look morbidly obese and pregnant? I have trash bags, a few large clothes and water and stuff. Want it to look like an obese and pregnant...
    hagiharan211 hagiharan211 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 27

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    i ac like im ok because i dont want to tell everyone whats really wrong with me
    selenakissmyass selenakissmyass 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    I broke down in a target fitting room today looking at the bruises she left on me and because the 00 slim pants didn't fit me because I was to small. I've lost ten pounds in one...
    Madis9957 Madis9957 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    Time to go to work and fake yet another smile.
    nicoleleightonx nicoleleightonx 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I have been working on my self-actualization with laser-like focus and it amazes me how much I have evolved in such a short time --- from years of a hermit-like, workaholic...
    ErisiaErisia ErisiaErisia 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    every single day. if other people dont know im suffering, they'll be happier, right?
    bowsandarrows bowsandarrows 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    Seriously! I was not designed for adulthood. I suck at this! I was made for daydreaming. Appreciating sunshine sprinkles on the sidewalk and soft breezes. Philosophical...
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    So at this school i go to its my first year of sixth (its post high school in England) no one really knows who I am. Its been 5 weeks. I've managed to keep low. But recently i've...
    YamiKaze YamiKaze 18-21, M Oct 2

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    It depends on how I feel. But there are some jerkish people around here. I've had someone knock on the door...wait about ten seconds....knock again....wait ten more seconds then...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 2

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    Mainly when they call. It's always some automated message. When they ring it's usually a kid selling candy for school or it's the Jehovah people.
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Oct 3

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    myohmy623 myohmy623 18-21 1 Response Oct 3

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    OH all the time!! Don't care if the dog barks or the TV's on. If you don't look familiar I'm unlikely to answer. I have no desire to buy anything or join a new religion, and your...
    niklb niklb 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    Outwardly no one can tell. Actually most people I meet comment on what a happy person I am. But on the inside I am dying. I want someone to choose me. I want to be someone's...
    Mbyh20 Mbyh20 31-35, F Oct 3

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