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I Pretend to Be Apathetic

because not caring is so much easier. Right. 24 People

    I Can Do It, But It Hurts So Badly.

    I totally have the tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve.  When I love someone, I pour it all out, I answer their calls and texts and really never leave them guessing about how I feel about them.   Well, one day a guy I was TOTALLY into blew me off for about the...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F Feb 18, 2010

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    Sometimes

    I have found that through the years looking back and currently I tend to use apathy as a defense mechanism when really I feel the opposite entirely.  I'm sure this is pretty common though the extent to which I have sometimes used this is a little rediculous.  For...
    waterdroplet waterdroplet 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    Oh, She's So Good At Pretending!

    Oh, I've always been so wonderful at pretending. Pretending I'm happy, pretending I'm okay. Pretending that life is so ******* fantastic. I've discovered lately that more than anything, I pretend to be apathetic. I care so intensely about so many things, my heart is so damned...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2009

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    "The difference between ignorance

    and apathy is.....I don't know and I really don't care.
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    ''i am good at pretending that i am okay'' wow,this is what i want to feel all the time...!! even if i have anxiety,i don't show.'Cos almost people around me doesn't care about...
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    OK so yeah I pretend... I hide what I feel inside from everyone cause I know they won't care anyways. I smile and laugh like nothing hurts or ever has. I show emotions on the...
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    I'm sick of faking a smile and pretending I'm okay when on the inside I'm slowly dying. People stare at my scars and I quickly tug my sleeve down. It's not fair that every single...
    derby123 derby123 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I absolutely hate that,i once had a friend who was pretending to be my friend and then she betrayed me with the worst way, and i have done nothing to her.
    Tessa3 Tessa3 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    I can't pretend that I'm OK anymore. Guess what everybody?! I'm not OK. I haven't been OK in a very long time. I guess I can say I'm great at acting.
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    I pretend words don't hurt but no matter what they still do.
    Lovelife090994 Lovelife090994 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 18

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    It's getting harder to pretend I'm okay!!!
    alexjohnson28 alexjohnson28 18-21, F Dec 18

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    Honestly, pretending to be happy is so hard and it takes all of my energy. My problem though is I can't be sad around friends and family because I don't want to have to explain why...
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    I hold my head high every day. I've mastered the fake smile and laughter. I pretend that nothing has changed. If anyone asked me, I'd tell them I'm okay. I'm fine. I'm always okay...
    Scorpio116 Scorpio116 36-40, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    VirtualGinger VirtualGinger 13-15 5 days ago

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    Spot the fake 101. 1) They will have pictures of "perfect" model quality women. The 10. Granted yes hot perfect people exist buuuuuut on social media hey most of us are "normal...
    Ownedforaprice Ownedforaprice 22-25, F 9 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I don't know why I lack happiness, or emotion
    KittyKayKat KittyKayKat 13-15, F Dec 8

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    Just FYI theb1tchx So fake it hurts. I sent her a picture of me and she replied with some picture off some ***** site. I reverse image searched it and when I called them on it...
    Gemma1990 Gemma1990 22-25, F 10 Responses Nov 29

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    I don't want to bother people with my problems.
    JuleSinger JuleSinger 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    Well, either I gained a few pounds from Thanksgiving or I'm 'preggo' again. Squeezed into a pair of jeans that are barely buttoned (my belly is really straining the button). At...
    shinigami709 shinigami709 31-35 1 Response Nov 29

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    My boyfriend said that he sleep with a girl when he was single and he only wanted sex off her coz he was messed up he said he took her out once but I found pic from his mum wedding...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Can't get over my boyfriend past realy upset me
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I fake a smiley also because I dont want to bother people with them. I feel that the people around me have their own kind of problem to worry about. so I don't want to add my own...
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    Jasmine99floyd is fake. Just trying to save people some time :)
    tryingtohelpothers tryingtohelpothers 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    But at home I watch **** and **********
    tj740 tj740 36-40, M Dec 2

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    What my boyfriend talks about with his mates on his phone is it anything to do with me ?
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    If you ever want to videocam/skype with my huge pregnant belly, send me a PM! :D
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    Yes, I to fall into this category, but I must say this, I do it because I must be strong for myself and my family, I have most of the time been honest about my feelings with the...
    Moonsilver Moonsilver 31-35, M Dec 3

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    What my boyfriend talks to his mates about texting is it any of my bussiness ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 3

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    Men you're not original. You jump immediately to let's trade pics send one then start demanding select poses or Specifics while You yourself can only send 1-2 pics. Trust me ... A...
    Ownedforaprice Ownedforaprice 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I Love when men try to be women online. They really don't get how obvious it is
    Ownedforaprice Ownedforaprice 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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    There are few events in our adult lives that change our fundamental beliefs. They are fundamental, after all, for a reason: when they change, you change. And I have to decide if...
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    I hope you step on a lego. ?
    piercethevicx piercethevicx 16-17, F 18 Responses Dec 3

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    I think that ive grown a little!
    nightwolf2350 nightwolf2350 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 4

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    Damn i love to be like this. If you want to see me live, send me a pm and i'll go on omegle cam. You don't have to show yourself. I'll even take requests :p
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    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4

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    Nine years ago today my mother passed away. The pain never goes away when you lose a love one but time help ease the pain some. We miss you. I love you ma.
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