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I Pretend to Be Apathetic

because not caring is so much easier. Right. 23 People

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    I have found that through the years looking back and currently I tend to use apathy as a defense mechanism when really I feel the opposite entirely.  I'm sure this is pretty common though the extent to which I have sometimes used this is a little rediculous.  For...
    waterdroplet waterdroplet 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    I Can Do It, But It Hurts So Badly.

    I totally have the tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve.  When I love someone, I pour it all out, I answer their calls and texts and really never leave them guessing about how I feel about them.   Well, one day a guy I was TOTALLY into blew me off for about the...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F Feb 18, 2010

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    "The difference between ignorance

    and apathy is.....I don't know and I really don't care.
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Oh, She's So Good At Pretending!

    Oh, I've always been so wonderful at pretending. Pretending I'm happy, pretending I'm okay. Pretending that life is so ******* fantastic. I've discovered lately that more than anything, I pretend to be apathetic. I care so intensely about so many things, my heart is so damned...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2009

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