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I Pretend To Be Okay

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    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    It's exhausting to bottle everything up inside and pretend like you're okay all the time. But at the same time I don't want to burden people with my problems. I don't want people...
    lon12 lon12 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I pretend I'm okay with it. Just being friends. Hooking up when you were home. I pretend that it doesn't bother me, the promises you broke. You promised me a life, that you asked...
    jh3557 jh3557 18-21, F Sep 3

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    I've been pretending I'm okay for so long I've mastered the art. I tell myself that someday I will take a time out and go somewhere out in nature all alone and scream until I can...
    thescarletibis thescarletibis 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 16

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    Day after day, i fake a smile Why? Cause i dont want the attention of people asking what is wrong and feeling sorry for me. But its nice at times to know they care. She thinks im...
    TilDeathDoUsApart TilDeathDoUsApart 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    Everyday. I get up, get ready and leave for school. I'll smile and nod whilst my mum and brother talk. I get to school and do the same. Smile, Nod and laugh at things. But deep...
    NobodyCaresOkai NobodyCaresOkai 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I wake up some mornings and fake smiles. It kinda gets old when everyone ask you are you ok or how are you. I beat brain cancer twice so that is why I fake smiles. And there are...
    warren103 warren103 26-30, M Sep 6

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    Those deluded, repressed types who always think 'positive' and never have real emotions will hate you if you don't play pretend. Still, at least I'm authentic unlike them. :)
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I'm sick of people asking me if I'm okay or not so I just smile and laugh as if everything's fine.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I constantly pretend that I am a movie star or celebrity, acting out their movie lines. You would think that I am acting as myself but I am not. I act out their scenes as if I am...
    Heaven360 Heaven360 18-21, F Sep 7

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    I can keep pretending being Happy when im actually feeling empty inside.. But.... I CAN'T keep pretending being Happy when im mad...
    Unstableteen Unstableteen 13-15, F Sep 2

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    When I have the house to myself, I pretend I'm a murderer. I get the biggest knife I have and sneak around the house while wearing gloves. I also pretend I'm the victim.
    WhatTheFrenchToast WhatTheFrenchToast 18-21, M Sep 11

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    Me to I have been doing it for years and I try to stop but I couldn't. I pretend to be characters from movies, TV shows and comics I it started when I was a little kid because I...
    Thenorthdragon Thenorthdragon 18-21, M Sep 11

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    Most times I believe that I am. I have been able to achieve a lot, travel places and survive despite difficult circumstances. Yet still there are times that I feel like I'm not...
    Karliya Karliya 31-35, F Sep 4

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    Why pretend to like someone if you don't? Why talk to someone you don't want to want to talk to? Why be bothered with people who you don't like? Why do something you don't want to...
    HazelEyedWolf HazelEyedWolf 18-21, F Sep 19

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    Some days is more difficult then others but I try to pretend I am ok. I have struggled with depression since I was a teenager. About 8 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical...
    Edanamarie Edanamarie 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Why would you pretend? If you don't like me just either go away or tell me nicely you don't like me. I don't want friends that don't appreciate me for who I am....
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I always pretend nothing bothers me when in reality I'm not this big, tough, emotionless ***** I make myself out to be. I'm actually really scared and fearful and just want to be...
    Katiepoohmm Katiepoohmm 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I think.. im gonna just stop talking to people.. and just start cutting... unclip my hair so it falls over half my face.. just start doing things that make me feel better I dont...
    KovusShame KovusShame 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I am an amazing liar and people are so oblivious just look into my eyes ... Do i look okay ? No i dont but they never listen and they never look so they'll never know
    piercetheveil22 piercetheveil22 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    Since I met her, I haven't been able to get her off my mind. Last night, she had sex with my best friend. I guess they're a thing now. I know he'll treat her right, and that they...
    HopelessRomantic6 HopelessRomantic6 18-21, M Sep 21

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    Does this make me look cheep before my boyfriend new me he split with his ex he was with 4 years kind of lost everything but he was talkin drity with this girl he knew she was fat...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Sep 2

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    My boyftiend shouts at me coz I go on aboit is past and he says he hate talkin aboit it coz the past is the past and a lot of things was a mistake coz I asked him aboit a girl he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 2

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    Can someone read my experiences
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    And I'm really good at it.
    imworthless0 imworthless0 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 3

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    Does anyone no aboit mortages ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    Sometimes when I don't want to get out Of bed and see the world I tell my self to keep fighting because I've been through hell and this is nothingđź’€
    nicoleR98 nicoleR98 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Right I need a little bit of help I asked my boyfriend when 2 bill come thou from is flat for his n is ex gf will he tel me n he said yes when thy come all tell u one came and he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    It's very easy. I keep everything in. Nobody actually knows the real ME or what I go through on a daily basis.
    nemophilist8 nemophilist8 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    So good at it. You'd never know I'm dying inside :)
    KissItAllBetter0 KissItAllBetter0 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 15

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    Not even my bestfriend knows I'm this broken..
    AlyseJay AlyseJay 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 18

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    So married for a year now and we are both miserable, he spend all his time with his friends and he seem much happier , he doesnt like my parfum the way I dress thinks am a bubble...
    susieqew susieqew 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    Today people are actually believing me. Im flat out not having a good day and people go how are you and I'm like I'm good and they believe it. I must be that good at hiding it now...
    suchi715 suchi715 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    I think something is wrong with my emotional responses, because the more depressed I get, the more I smile. It's weird.
    imjackandimdark imjackandimdark 16-17, M Sep 23

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    Tomorrow I am doing a presentation for 100 people and I need help . I have no desire to talk but I have no choice - how do you do things you don't want to ?
    Dancemomisme Dancemomisme 46-50, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    Seriously, why do people assume I want to tell them about my problems? I keep everything bottled up until one day I break down. Last time I cried, it was 4 years worth a tears.
    ChanelLove12 ChanelLove12 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    a fake smile a day keeps the questions and judgments away
    kevinnc1 kevinnc1 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The most beautifull eyes that cry when its about to sleep ; the most beautifull smile that is fake ; a very dark mind ; dead soul living body ; laugh alot feeling empty .. Story of...
    Unstableteen Unstableteen 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    All it takes is a beatutiful fake smile to hide an injured soul, and they will never notice how broken you really are.
    lon12 lon12 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    i ac like im ok because i dont want to tell everyone whats really wrong with me
    selenakissmyass selenakissmyass 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago