I Pretend To Be Okay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 286 People

    I keep too many secrets from everyone in my

    life. At school, and in public in general, i smile and and laugh. They don't know the thoughts going through my head. I'm thinking about my trichotillomania or I'm thinking about how i will have to go to florida in the spring and pretend everything is okay (I'm afraid if the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 7, 2015

    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2011

    I've been trying to be happy,

    especially now that I'm pregnant but i cant. I hide it from everyone, only this baby knows how I feel. Sometimes I feel like not moving on, but it's not fair to this baby. I know it's wrong but I sometimes want to die and take this baby with me so he or she doesn't have to deal...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 3

    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 26, 2014

    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20
    18-21, F
    Oct 2, 2011

    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli
    22-25, F
    Sep 23, 2011

    Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty.

    But I'm smiling at everything
    getbetter15 getbetter15
    16-17
    Apr 10, 2015

    Every day I think people see it more

    and more that I'm really not okay.. I get asked a lot if I'm okay I just say yeah cuz I don't think people really care and I don't want to bore them with my problems
    brokenprincess08 brokenprincess08
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 24

    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

    I may seem like I'm okay,

    but inside.. I die again every day.
    MissNexp MissNexp
    26-30, F
    Jun 20, 2015

    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927
    22-25, F
    Jan 12, 2014

    I usually say not bad

    or I'm good just because I don't want people asking me whats going. Sometimes I don't want people to know whats going on. I have another touchy subject on my mind which worries me but I'm afraid to tell anyone. Only told 1 person (best mate) but having more than one opinion is...
    Adam352 Adam352
    18-21, M
    Jan 14, 2015

    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow
    13-15, F
    Feb 23, 2012

    Hey! My name is Olivia

    and I would love if you could help me out on Instagram. It's always followforfollow and I really need all the help I could get:) thankss Livvyyy_16
    olivias78 olivias78
    16-17, F
    Jan 15, 2015
    CoraIsAwesome CoraIsAwesome
    16-17, F
    Nov 12, 2015

    Hey! Anyone is dealing with something should

    read this. So I know a lot of people know that I have been struggling with who I am and my sexuality and fun stuff like that:b anyways yesterday I did something that I never thought I would ever do. I told people about my problems.. I told them that I have been struggling with...
    olivias78 olivias78
    16-17, F
    May 25, 2015
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