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I Pretend To Be Okay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 218 People

    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty.

    But I'm smiling at everything
    getbetter15 getbetter15 16-17 Apr 10

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    I keep too many secrets from everyone in my

    life. At school, and in public in general, i smile and and laugh. They don't know the thoughts going through my head. I'm thinking about my trichotillomania or I'm thinking about how i will have to go to florida in the spring and pretend everything is okay (I'm afraid if the...
    erinbear123 erinbear123 13-15, F Feb 7

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    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    Hey! My name is Olivia

    and I would love if you could help me out on Instagram. It's always followforfollow and I really need all the help I could get:) thankss Livvyyy_16
    olivias78 olivias78 16-17, F Jan 15

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12, 2014

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    I usually say not bad

    or I'm good just because I don't want people asking me whats going. Sometimes I don't want people to know whats going on. I have another touchy subject on my mind which worries me but I'm afraid to tell anyone. Only told 1 person (best mate) but having more than one opinion is...
    Adam352 Adam352 18-21, M Jan 14

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    I'm past the point of being okay with pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 25

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    I have to pretend i'm okay. No one wants to listen to whats on my mind or how my day really was. No one wants the full story. I just have to keep pushing myself through these...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response May 1

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    I pretend I'm okay. What other choice is there? When you are surrounded by absurdity and then are greeted by people that have never experienced absurdity in their lives and give...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Most of the time I'm really not okay but I act like I am so people won't ask me what's wrong or to explain myself because I'm tired of feeling like I bother people with my problems...
    emylauren27 emylauren27 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    This is the only place I talk about my problems. I don't talk to other people about what's bothering me in real life, so I put on a face and pretend nothing is wrong and that I'm...
    Becky555 Becky555 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    So i pretended to be guy ! Thought im a girl :( My story started in the month of april where i was so bored and created a fake account of a guy "i dont know why i did that"but to...
    Chateu10 Chateu10 18-21, F Apr 30

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    I love my wife and I'm pretending it's OK, I know there's still something out there even though it makes no sense why it happen or how it happen but I live with it every day...
    68bear 68bear 46-50, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am more than good at pretending.. my whole life is one giant act.. do I even know who I truly am anymore
    svencerr svencerr 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    no its not okay :'( .......
    tukie14 tukie14 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    It happens, almost like a record player or a level on a game I cannot pass. You get hurt so much that it just starts to be a everyday thing. You laugh sarcastically and say "I knew...
    Latiaaaa Latiaaaa 16-17, F May 3

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    in front of many people . But seriously am i okay ? NO !!!!! I AM NOT OK AT ALL..
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response May 4

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    I'm not fine when I say that I am. It usually means I'm not okay. But I say I am fine anyways because it's the easy answer.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Nevermind, I'm okay... *lies lies lies*
    UNDecodable UNDecodable 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go. It's better off this way. For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend...
    VampireWithoutFangs VampireWithoutFangs 13-15, F May 10

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    I don't pretend to be people from movies or celebrities, I pretend that the characters from a movie, for example Thranduil, are real and live with me,(with me as my regular self...
    LittleWren93 LittleWren93 22-25, F Apr 29

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    I was talking to a friend, and he never thought I was. Until I told him, well what do I have to do? Mope around every time I am? I'd rather pretend fine and not bother the people...
    grrrey grrrey 22-25, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I'd love to spend a day with a girl while she pretends to be pregnant :) Something I've always wanted to do
    Pushingtriplets Pushingtriplets 22-25, M May 3

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    I want to tell my sister that I pretend that I'm pregnant like we used to as kids, but I don't know how to bring it up
    VirtualGinger VirtualGinger 16-17 1 Response May 8

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    I'm like everyone else here then.. All started with an online game (ourWorld)and fb i just randomly create a dude account for fun.. Then girls started to talk to mi and love the...
    Rekawa Rekawa 18-21, F 1 Response May 9

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    I used to train sales to new and those not hitting targets salespeople. Pretending or rather choosing to see things as it helped identify the client needs became so much the norm I...
    tabbycat72 tabbycat72 41-45, F May 14

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    Any one want to chat on omegle? If you also like to pretend you're pregnant you can put your belly on too, we don't have to show faces
    VirtualGinger VirtualGinger 16-17 22 hrs ago

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    For me it can be just words...A few extra kind and gentle words can make a world of difference. What a great way to ward-off reactivity and fear to settle my heart. No babying, no...
    blueyedreamer blueyedreamer 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    IM TIRED OF LYING :'''(, seriously, and don't comment asking if I'm okay as a joke because its not funny anymore
    philex2014 philex2014 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I'm so ******* tired of feeling this way. I'm broken. No matter how hard I try to feel something else, I cant. I just want to feel okay. I've lost myself and I can't even remember...
    dkcorde13 dkcorde13 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I'm definitely not okay, I am really good at hiding how bad it is and it's pretty bad. I just wish I could sleep forever then I'd never have to deal with the pain.
    GodsArte GodsArte 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 29

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    I sometimes say im okay, wven when im not and it might be weird but our house doesnt feel like home to me anymore :(
    alotharder alotharder 16-17, F 3 Responses May 7

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    Everyday my parents ask me if I'm "ok" I tell them "I guess" and go back to doing my thing. I don't know If I'll ever be ok. I tell people I am ok so they'll leave me alone but I...
    snakeyes1123 snakeyes1123 26-30, M May 9

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    18 years of living hell, and never a single person that cares enough to do anything about it. I don't want to be held and told everything will be okay, I need it.
    stewartgreen stewartgreen 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    In conversation with one of my best friends at work recently, we came to the conclusion that our generation is taking over lead positions all over the place. So, we're in charge...
    ThirtySevenX ThirtySevenX 46-50, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    You see that girl? she looks so happy right? telling jokes, smiling, having a great time... and dying inside. she's hurt and tired. Tired of all the drama, tired of not being good...
    ElizabethSwanTurner ElizabethSwanTurner 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 23