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I Pretend To Be Okay

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    I keep too many secrets from everyone in my

    life. At school, and in public in general, i smile and and laugh. They don't know the thoughts going through my head. I'm thinking about my trichotillomania or I'm thinking about how i will have to go to florida in the spring and pretend everything is okay (I'm afraid if the...
    erinbear123 erinbear123 13-15, F Feb 7

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    I usually say not bad

    or I'm good just because I don't want people asking me whats going. Sometimes I don't want people to know whats going on. I have another touchy subject on my mind which worries me but I'm afraid to tell anyone. Only told 1 person (best mate) but having more than one opinion is...
    Adam352 Adam352 18-21, M Jan 14

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    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12, 2014

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    Hey! My name is Olivia

    and I would love if you could help me out on Instagram. It's always followforfollow and I really need all the help I could get:) thankss Livvyyy_16
    olivias78 olivias78 18-21, F Jan 15

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    I pretend I'm okay, sometimes. I just don't show it but whenever I'm alone, I cry. I cry because of what I feel towards someone and whenever I think of something. I know, it's...
    AnnPe AnnPe 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Tired of pretending. I want to actually be okay.
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    In the last six months, my whole life has falling apart on my last birthday my father announced he was leaving my handicapped mother after he converted to Christianity from...
    lonelyASgrlfrnd lonelyASgrlfrnd 22-25, F Mar 9

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    I am not okay. I am missing you so much but just I pretending I don't care ,I can move on and stand by myself when I saw your face and It 's not.
    nimkansiri nimkansiri 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Pretend pretend pretend - backspace backspace backspace
    lilbiatch lilbiatch 16-17, F Mar 4

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    I always do pretending that I'm ok when I'm with my old friends(I'm not sure if they are still my friends). Yup I have a lot of problems but I dont want to tell them cause I know...
    thecolorisGray thecolorisGray 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Everyday i put on a fake smile in order to make everyone else happy but its tiring. I just cant take this anymore! I dont understand why everyone is expecting me to be okay now...
    cheyseason cheyseason 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    I'm not okay ...I'm just not okay
    jbea46 jbea46 51-55, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I wanna give up. I'm tired of pretending I'm happy when I'm crying inside.
    bribra1091 bribra1091 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    I can't pretend any more. Today I will be checking in to a hospital. im afraid it will turn out to be more of the same medicate and forget philosophy.
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 10

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    Today words hurt me..quite profoundly..and no one knew how deep. The words were lies but if they say it loud enough.... if enough people say the same, one questions the truth...
    Lastpoppy Lastpoppy 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 11

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    Hurting is hard but trying to pretend I'm Ok is even harder
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F Mar 11

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    I always do this because I hate answering the question 'whats wrong?'..also I find it hard to express my feelings to others, I like to pretend everything is okaay even though i'm...
    gabii354 gabii354 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    Everyday I put on a fake smile and pretend everything is fine while in reality, I'm broken. My heart is in shambles. I try to avoid the subject of "her" just so I wont have a...
    dkcorde13 dkcorde13 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I really am... Today was just one of those days. It was hard hard enough getting out of bed. But walking around my campus today, running into good friends and pretending that I...
    madusand madusand 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Pretending to be fine is the worst but it shows who's a true friend. I am bad at hiding how i feel but very few people ask whats wrong and i say "nothing" or "i'm fine" and they...
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I swear people genuinely don't give an f about how bad the things I do to myself or what I deal with are.. I only know 1 person who 100% understands me and what I deal with and 1...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    THIS IS A TRUE STORY ABOUT ME, PRETENDING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE. BEFORE YOU START READING IT, I'D LIKE TO SAY THE GUY IN THIS STORY IS THE REASON WHY I DECIDED TO FINALLY TELL THE...
    anzenyan anzenyan 70+, M 1 day ago

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    I'm so tired and sick of this.. I'm tired of pretending to be strong.. I really want to give up.. >.<
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I just went out with a couple of my love pretending to be pregnant friends as it was my friend's birthday.I went out with a friend that lives with me and two others that I just...
    ilovetobepregnant ilovetobepregnant 26-30, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    Well, just like what the title says... I'm pretending to be someone else, a girl that I'm not. :') Basically I'm a 19 year old boy and I met this amazing guy on an online game...
    rsjrj12 rsjrj12 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    I am not okay. I haven't been okay. Everytime something good happens, something worse happens. I am not okay. My manic depression has been going crazy, and I can't even keep up...
    RxpperGirl RxpperGirl 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    It took me a while to get to this point, but I really am okay with people not liking me. It used to consume my thoughts when someone didn't like me. I would wonder why and would...
    obscureriddle obscureriddle 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    The cuts on my thigh. The cuts on my wrist. The cuts on my stomach. They're not making it okay. I am not okay. And when you tickle me or u move the wrong way the pain is so great I...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Mar 5

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    Sometimes, being not okay is okay. We grow. We learn new things. Most importantly, being okay means we try to be OK and this means, we're getting stronger. I guess this life is...
    chocolateinmyblood chocolateinmyblood 16-17 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am tired of acting and pretending. I am so sick of it. It's gonna be over. Today imma start making changes. No more acting. No more faking. I don't have anymore energy for that...
    iamnoor iamnoor 13-15, F Mar 2

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    It's easy when there's lots of time when I feel nothing at all, it's a new coping mechanism perhaps. I can smile, laugh and joke about anything even what hurts me the most. Why...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F Mar 3

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    Thats just me , always I pretend the things dont hurts but always always I die inside of me .. The ugly truth
    lenyn lenyn 16-17, F Mar 5

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    I've been pretending for years. Bought and completely paid off my cars, my houses, my businesses. Care for a family, make proper investments and all I really want to do is lift my...
    myzterieboy myzterieboy 41-45, M Mar 8

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    My Experience was unintentional at first and grew into something bigger and then i don't know what happen. It all started the summer of 2010 I'd been dating this girl we were in a...
    AustynMonroe AustynMonroe 18-21, M Mar 9