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I Pretend To Be Okay

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    I pretend I'm okay but I'm not. I am exhausted, depressed and injured. I smile and laugh to hide the pain but I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. I've been in non...
    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Even though today is a holiday that I spent with my family, I have successfully pretended that I was okay all day. My brother has driven me insane. My best friend has been becoming...
    jaks26 jaks26 16-17, F Nov 27

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    ''i am good at pretending that i am okay'' wow,this is what i want to feel all the time...!! even if i have anxiety,i don't show.'Cos almost people around me doesn't care about...
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    It's getting harder to pretend I'm okay!!!
    alexjohnson28 alexjohnson28 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    Ugh seems like I'm gonna have to pretend 2 be ok and start 2 hide certain aspects of me 4m tomorrow becuz u knu I tried 2 be myslef in front of my family today and I'm like just 2...
    mynameisismyname mynameisismyname 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    So I'm just gonna suck it up, smile, and move on. Received heartbreaking news and that definitely didn't help to my already crappy day. All aboard the struggle bus! Haha but really...
    Sweetgirl120 Sweetgirl120 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    So, earlier, my friend decided to switch the lids on two of her pens, which she knows really irritates me. Then she said "don't worry though, I never put them in my pocket like...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    I don't get why I have to sit and watch priests chant hymns that I don't understand. Why should I sit through all that smoke and fire? What's worse- people are all watching! Like...
    mridulaharihar mridulaharihar 22-25, F Nov 30

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    I'm sick of faking a smile and pretending I'm okay when on the inside I'm slowly dying. People stare at my scars and I quickly tug my sleeve down. It's not fair that every single...
    derby123 derby123 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Honestly, pretending to be happy is so hard and it takes all of my energy. My problem though is I can't be sad around friends and family because I don't want to have to explain why...
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    sometimes you just can't keep pretending that everything is okay for the sake of the people you care about...
    Ariiane Ariiane 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    story of my life. angsty but yeah disconnected to life when im inside my own space, but when im outside a mask is put unto face yet after a while some cracks may have formed...
    Efoile Efoile 22-25, M Nov 28

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    Im tired to be the one to make the joke and try to make everyone laugh and smile. Im tired of retreating,giving up and say 'im sorry' over and over because I dont want to hurt...
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    It's okay not to be prettiest girl or the most handsome boy in school. It's okay to be upset and have your ups and downs. It's okay to take a break from feeling. It's also okay...
    xxhappilyeverafterxx xxhappilyeverafterxx 13-15, F Dec 6

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    i love to pretend to be a dog or wolf. i wear a collar and tail. i even have the ears and claws if im feeling like it. i guess pretending to a dog makes me feel like different...
    yaritza16 yaritza16 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Yeah. Yeah it's okay. It's okay that you ignored me when I needed you most. It's okay that I was up all night crying and you wernt there to comfort me. Yeah no it's okay :) Really...
    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I feel like at the moment my life resembles a lukewarm bath. Not to hot , not to cold ..just "okay" I feel sad sometimes I get depressed but I'm not as dramatic as I was when I...
    GG1234 GG1234 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    If you are wondering where my previous posts have gone, I have purposely deleted them. I have for the first time, successfully pretended outside of my home or a hotel room. I...
    Rmetruck Rmetruck 51-55, M 1 Response Nov 19

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    I pretend that I'm OK, that nothing hurts me anymore. I put on a smile and deep down I can't smile. I laugh even though it hurts worse when I do.
    wannaloveyou wannaloveyou 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    OK so yeah I pretend... I hide what I feel inside from everyone cause I know they won't care anyways. I smile and laugh like nothing hurts or ever has. I show emotions on the...
    wannaloveyou wannaloveyou 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    I absolutely hate that,i once had a friend who was pretending to be my friend and then she betrayed me with the worst way, and i have done nothing to her.
    Tessa3 Tessa3 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    I can't pretend that I'm OK anymore. Guess what everybody?! I'm not OK. I haven't been OK in a very long time. I guess I can say I'm great at acting.
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    right now I am pretending I am pregnant with twins in a short dress, it feels good. I might take pictures. It feels good having a living being inside of me and having full breasts...
    VirtualGinger VirtualGinger 13-15 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I pretend words don't hurt but no matter what they still do.
    Lovelife090994 Lovelife090994 18-21, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    When people tell me they're fine, whe clearly they're sad, I want to be there for them and talk to them and let them know it's okay to cry. But when I'm sad or upset, I say I'm...
    SomeDepressedTeenx SomeDepressedTeenx 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I've been through a lot lately.. but I've been taking to someone and they truly bring out the best in me. When my ex of 9 years and I called it off sure it was mutual but it didn't...
    SaraBear87 SaraBear87 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    I think we've all done this before when someone has asked us what's wrong. I tend to hide it better than some other people can, but some people still see straight through me and...
    lovedownunder lovedownunder 16-17, F Dec 9

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    Deep breath in ! Deep breath out! Everything will be okay Lyndie..
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F Dec 10

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    Last night me and my boyfriend was goin watch a DVD and he made a joke saying watch one of my dad **** dvd come out of this DVD player u think he wud of been jokin coz I said why u...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    Tonight I said to my boyfriend how many times have u been out with work at Xmas time and he went a couple and I said I thought u never used to go out when u had your flat becouse...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    I told a million lies but now I tell a single truth, theres you in everything I do
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F Nov 21

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    If I love you I'll let you go If I love you I'll protect your from far And when Im alone in my room, its my turn to cry
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    you know your life sucks when a dream you had is the only thing that makes you happy after months of wallowing in sadness
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    Guys please help me out here I still can't get over my boyfriend past I seen when he was single he was talking to few girls on Facebook but one he was talking in a sexual way to...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    When im sad.... I put on a happy smile When im upset.... I chuckle or simply laugh When i get caught crying.... i simply make up a stupid reason why i am crying. but still no one...
    TheWiseRedOwl TheWiseRedOwl 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 24

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    Ryt yesterday I did sonwyjing crazy Made a fake account on Facebook to find sonwyjing out when my boyfriend ewe single he was talkin to some girl in sexual way he told me he never...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    Ok so can someone help me with this ???? Before my bf took me out on a date he was texting this girl in a sexual way he was doin this for aboit the last convo they had I seen on fb...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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