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I Pretend To Be Okay

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    I usually say not bad

    or I'm good just because I don't want people asking me whats going. Sometimes I don't want people to know whats going on. I have another touchy subject on my mind which worries me but I'm afraid to tell anyone. Only told 1 person (best mate) but having more than one opinion is...
    Adam352 Adam352 18-21, M Jan 14

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    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    I keep too many secrets from everyone in my

    life. At school, and in public in general, i smile and and laugh. They don't know the thoughts going through my head. I'm thinking about my trichotillomania or I'm thinking about how i will have to go to florida in the spring and pretend everything is okay (I'm afraid if the...
    erinbear123 erinbear123 13-15, F Feb 7

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    Hey! My name is Olivia

    and I would love if you could help me out on Instagram. It's always followforfollow and I really need all the help I could get:) thankss Livvyyy_16
    olivias78 olivias78 18-21, F Jan 15

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12, 2014

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty.

    But I'm smiling at everything
    getbetter15 getbetter15 16-17 Apr 10

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    Because I have to.. I pretend Im okay because there is no other choice for me right now.. I pretend Im okay because its easier for me to smile and be with the people.. I pretend Im...
    theoabern0741 theoabern0741 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30

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    im done pretending everything is okay. because if i try to talk to someone what is really going on in my life nobody will understand. this is not just some "stage of depression...
    NoraCipriano NoraCipriano 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I pretend I'm okay to make everyone else think I'm strong that I can do it for me and my baby. But I can't always have my head up high without shedding a tear, my life isn't or has...
    ox97 ox97 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    I'm past the point of being okay with pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    i got used to it. i learnt that showing your feelings to others and making yourself "weak" in front of them doesn't always turn out good. you'd be surprised of how others are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 18

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    I am not okay. I am missing you so much but just I pretending I don't care ,I can move on and stand by myself when I saw your face and It 's not.
    nimkansiri nimkansiri 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    i hate pretending i give a **** about living each and everyday. I'm so heartbroken, stressed, confused, anxious about life that i feel myself falling apart. I know where i want to...
    Tristechica22 Tristechica22 22-25, F Mar 29

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    I just keep f**king up and im sick of it. I hate pretending to be okay when I'm really not, im broke. I'm not the same person I used to be. you've changed me. I've changed. and...
    chlojjs chlojjs 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    I'm not okay, I'm really not. I don't know why I bother pretending I'm okay either. I feel like I can't breathe anymore because of the pressure around me. I can't cope and I can't...
    maebaldoza maebaldoza 16-17, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm not okay ...I'm just not okay
    jbea46 jbea46 51-55, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I never want to put my problems on my friends or family so I fake a smile and pretend everything is going just great when inside I'm dying. People already have their own problems...
    bieverything bieverything 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    I'm so heartbroken. Ex of 3years dumped me cause I couldn't make him happy. I miss him so much and I'm trying to move on but I can't. I've never felt this way before about anyone...
    ccarol9073 ccarol9073 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    This is so true right now. Pretending is my favorite thing.
    cmt334 cmt334 16-17, F Apr 13

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    This is the only place I talk about my problems. I don't talk to other people about what's bothering me in real life, so I put on a face and pretend nothing is wrong and that I'm...
    Becky555 Becky555 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    It's how society wants things to be. Remaining stoic and pretending all is good and avoiding 'negativity', that's the why they like it, even if you're not okay. :(
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 31

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    no its not okay :'( .......
    tukie14 tukie14 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm so tired and sick of this.. I'm tired of pretending to be strong.. I really want to give up.. >.<
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 26

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    Everyday I am screaming on the inside, I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of being invisible. I'm tired of lying to myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 3

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    I regret the day that I left him.. Now he's getting married.. I smile in front of him just to show him Im okay with it but the truth Is, it's killing me.. Yeah, we still talk.. But...
    Gayle0311 Gayle0311 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I awoke this morning to be greeted by my three little angels. They were so active this morning. It's hard to believe I'm 7 months pregnant and will continue to grow but that's...
    anegative10 anegative10 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I can't deal with this, I'm not strong enough and I'm tired of pretending that I am.
    Madhatter135 Madhatter135 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I know they're not. It's just a fa├žade. Sooo many people pretend to have perfect lives. Why do they settle for pretend? Don't rush into a relationship because you feel you're...
    hmmhmmhmm hmmhmmhmm 26-30 Apr 6

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    I dont pretend or fake anything about my self - some ppl may hide their certain sides - but I pour everything I am about openly - some ppl may misunderstand , some may not like my...
    Stephenrko Stephenrko 31-35, M a week ago

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    Just because I say okay doesn't mean it's okay sometimes it is and sometimes it isn't I guess you will never know I'm usually never okay or never fine
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Mar 29

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    he keeps giving what's mine to others...when he is caught I still stay with him... pretending it doesn't hurt telling him how much I forgive him... and we can make it work... deep...
    synexus synexus 31-35, F Apr 7

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    Yeah, I pretend to be the confident me that I would like to be elsewhere.
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 1 Response Apr 10

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    I love pretending to be pregnant I dream to wish I was really pregnant
    fotobug86 fotobug86 22-25 3 Responses Apr 13

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    I got really good in hiding my feelings over the past years. People around me say that I am always looking so happy even though I am fighting depression. And when people I like lie...
    Miridia96 Miridia96 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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