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I Pretend To Be Okay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 138 People

    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    i dont want people see my emotions. i dont know why. maybe because most often they are just giving their opinions that are not really suited on that. they will judge me all over...
    lynzeerxz lynzeerxz 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I often just pretend I'm ok, not very many people know what goes through my head and it's better that way. I have more friends on the internet than I do in real life, people I grew...
    Dickard101 Dickard101 22-25, M 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Very damn good at covering up and pretending that I'm okay. I use a smile and humor to cover up, only to be cracking inside. Lately I can't pretend that I'm okay anymore
    cjohnson1983 cjohnson1983 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    It's exhausting to bottle everything up inside and pretend like you're okay all the time. But at the same time I don't want to burden people with my problems. I don't want people...
    lon12 lon12 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    I don't...but if you are pretending to be okay, it's time to stop people do care about how your feeling and people will listen...sharing how you feel and maybe why you hide it...
    JPSS JPSS 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 7

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    I been pretending with my family. They do or say something. I say I'm okay I don't care. But in reality I do care. I don't think I ever showed them Me upset. I probably did once...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F Oct 11

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    Just like it says. I do pretend I'm okay. I know it's unhealthy to bottle up my emotions, but I can't help but think what people would say about me. and everyday it gets worse. All...
    LoseYourMind LoseYourMind 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I fake a smile and pretend everything is okay, and I laugh to hide the pain.
    Matthews14 Matthews14 13-15, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Everyday. I get up, get ready and leave for school. I'll smile and nod whilst my mum and brother talk. I get to school and do the same. Smile, Nod and laugh at things. But deep...
    NobodyCaresOkai NobodyCaresOkai 13-15, F Sep 27

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    I pretend that the remarks about me don't hurt. I pretend when people are mean to me just for being me that I am 200% find when I fire back some smart *** remark. I talk back to...
    trs1999 trs1999 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    Those deluded, repressed types who always think 'positive' and never have real emotions will hate you if you don't play pretend. Still, at least I'm authentic unlike them. :)
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M Sep 27

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    ivv been bullied my whole life and I always have that fake smile everywhere everyday but when no ones really around I break down cause there's no one in the end for me to be at my...
    josephinematti josephinematti 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I'm sick of people asking me if I'm okay or not so I just smile and laugh as if everything's fine.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F Sep 25

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    I used to be a generally happy person. Use to be. However, lately I have been quite terrified to notice how good I have become at hiding my feelings. Every once in a while I...
    Skittles2587 Skittles2587 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    i act like im okay because tbh i want people to remember me as wow she was so amazing and nice. i also dont like to bother people with my problems, and its hard to sit there and...
    katdaughtry katdaughtry 70+, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    i always tell my friends and family that im okay cause they cant really help me and i dont want my friends to worry about me but i want help and i need help :/
    thatdepressedgirl thatdepressedgirl 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I am under 18 years old, over 10 years old. Much over 10, actually. When I was 12 I created online personalities along with a group of friends. They were online friends, of...
    swaggedy swaggedy 18-21 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I wonder why the same people who pay you a lot of attention when you are online don't even leave a message if you are offline.I try to be supportive towards them whenever I am...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Someone once told me that I was good for nothing but bringing others down.... The thought never leaves my mind... I used to care so greatly for you but you hurt me and now I'd be...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Oct 5

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    Okay so this all has a big ol' back story of course. It all started when my friend made me a virtual account when I was 11 or so. I enjoyed my new friends' company so much. I...
    w4steoflife w4steoflife 13-15 2 days ago

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    This may sound weird but ever since I was 12 (I'm 15 now) when I'm alone I pretend to act like I'm someone else (usually a anime character or a character from a movie) when I watch...
    xxYukixx xxYukixx 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Everyone goes through hard times in their life. It's inevitable and unavoidable. You're not gonna always be okay, sometimes you're gonna want to cry. Do you know what you should do...
    nowimawarrior nowimawarrior 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm okay, I'm good, I'm fine ... that's what I always say. I say it to just about everyone, even when I'm shattered and broken inside and absolutely at my darkest. . Last night I...
    SolitaireDiamond SolitaireDiamond 46-50, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Some days is more difficult then others but I try to pretend I am ok. I have struggled with depression since I was a teenager. About 8 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical...
    Edanamarie Edanamarie 26-30, F Sep 26

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    Why would you pretend? If you don't like me just either go away or tell me nicely you don't like me. I don't want friends that don't appreciate me for who I am....
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    I always pretend nothing bothers me when in reality I'm not this big, tough, emotionless ***** I make myself out to be. I'm actually really scared and fearful and just want to be...
    Katiepoohmm Katiepoohmm 18-21, F Sep 30

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    People that prey on others that have misfortune in their life by pretending to have psychic abilities in my opinion are the lowest forms of life on planet earth.
    kauaiboy76 kauaiboy76 36-40, M 5 Responses Oct 7

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    Sometimes when I'm home alone I pretend I'm not there. Like when a mail person or delivery person comes to the door and knocks I just like run into the bathroom or downstairs...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    This is something that is very fun and enjoyable for me. Feeling my belly as I sit around, and when I move. Pretending that I am going to become a mommy, and feeling the kicking of...
    Eikenmaster Eikenmaster 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    If you pretend to be stupid and they the motormouth go on rambling you can get a gist of how full of it they are.
    OzarksTrucker OzarksTrucker 36-40, M Oct 11

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    I'm 47. I was abused as a child - sexually, physically, emotionally, spiritually. The way I got through it was by pretending to be someone else - characters from TV, movies, books...
    SheppiesMom SheppiesMom 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    When I'm out of town where no one knows me, I sometimes like to pretend. I have been a brain surgeon, a scientist, a movie producer, movie script writer, writer for sitcoms...
    Ub12 Ub12 61-65, F Oct 13

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    While writing this, I just feel ashamed and horrible that I was able to do something that cruel. As long as I can remember, I always wanted to be a girl. I felt that I was a girl...
    ALostSoulisInsideMe ALostSoulisInsideMe 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    Hi I like to pretend that im not depressed to everyone around but the truth is I am severely depressed and I have even tried to end it all. I don't like people knowing how I feel...
    rhondaclarke rhondaclarke 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    The freedom I feel just to be able to walk around knowing I no longer have a penis is just so totally awesome. Being born a girl with a penis made my early life very difficult. I...
    Iamsasha Iamsasha 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    If somebody asks me "how are you?" or "Are you ok?" I WILL respond with "I'm fine!! How are you?" I will plaster that smile on my face and avoid talking about myself at all costs...
    ToBeAnOtaku101 ToBeAnOtaku101 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Yesterday and the day before (September 30 and October 1st) are the days I consider to be my "anniversary" for the day I was sexually assaulted. I just had a smile on my face when...
    bubblefishkiss bubblefishkiss 26-30, F Oct 2

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    cheating is not okay. it hurts the other person. if you love them then you shouldnt cheat. there is no reason for it. even if you got drunk and had sex. thats no reason you should...
    picofire picofire 22-25, M Oct 4

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    To me cheating Is okay when you know the guy or girl is cheating in you. If I know a guy is cheating I just cheat on them back play their game and then leave him
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5