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I Pretend To Be Okay

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    I usually say not bad

    or I'm good just because I don't want people asking me whats going. Sometimes I don't want people to know whats going on. I have another touchy subject on my mind which worries me but I'm afraid to tell anyone. Only told 1 person (best mate) but having more than one opinion is...
    Adam352 Adam352 18-21, M Jan 14

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    Hey! My name is Olivia

    and I would love if you could help me out on Instagram. It's always followforfollow and I really need all the help I could get:) thankss Livvyyy_16
    olivias78 olivias78 16-17, F Jan 15

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    Hey! Anyone is dealing with something should

    read this. So I know a lot of people know that I have been struggling with who I am and my sexuality and fun stuff like that:b anyways yesterday I did something that I never thought I would ever do. I told people about my problems.. I told them that I have been struggling with...
    olivias78 olivias78 16-17, F May 25

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2014

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    I may seem like I'm okay,

    but inside.. I die again every day.
    MissNexp MissNexp 26-30, F Jun 20

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty.

    But I'm smiling at everything
    getbetter15 getbetter15 16-17 Apr 10

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    I keep too many secrets from everyone in my

    life. At school, and in public in general, i smile and and laugh. They don't know the thoughts going through my head. I'm thinking about my trichotillomania or I'm thinking about how i will have to go to florida in the spring and pretend everything is okay (I'm afraid if the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 7

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12, 2014

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    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    I do if I'm home alone because I'm usually naked. I figure nobody wants to see that!! Lol
    fortfan fortfan 56-60, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Worst pay I've had in a long time, I can't afford all of my bills. Terrified about how I'm going to make it 30 days, literally can't afford to buy food and I'm hoping the pasta I...
    AnxiousTG AnxiousTG 31-35, T 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    now not to say i would like to do it wit a boy but i first pick would be a girl or a woman that would like girls my age
    maryroseone1 maryroseone1 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    Is it ok to sometimes spin into a wealth of insecurity knowing that someone anyone will bring me back? Is it ok to bare my soul and hope upon hope that this time it'll be...
    JosephinaBallerina JosephinaBallerina 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    or the other way around.... girls pretending to be dudes! what's the world come to people? C'mon now!!!! Lol
    Fated2be Fated2be 36-40, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    would anyone like to pretend to be in labor for me? :)
    bellylove232 bellylove232 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    one day I was curled up on the bed with my owner Asheoakseed, I was a huge pregnant Japanese Nekomata Sabertooth demon cat named kilala, I was 8 weeks pregnant and was almost ready...
    ninetales666 ninetales666 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I lack so much self confidence right now, and it's becoming more of a problem than I ever imagined. Anxiety keeps me up at night and stops me from doing almost anything in life...
    HollyMaria954 HollyMaria954 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    The new trend in middle school each month is weird... People pretend to be the "nerdy, insecure girl" or the "rich beautiful girl who hates the nerdy insecure girl" example: Dork...
    WeirdAlyank WeirdAlyank 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I'm fine. I'm okay. I'm good.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay. I'm NOT okay
    IAmSuicidalEmma IAmSuicidalEmma 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't pretend anymore.. I'm not
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    its become an art form for me over the years.. with my work gotta keep upbeat vibs.. I don't let that many people get to know the real me.. I am always having to hide the real me...
    missjdragon20 missjdragon20 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    not only good i m an expert now in pretending
    mannankaur3 mannankaur3 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I used to be. I'm not so good at it any more. I think I'm just tired of pretending. I've explored my options of being honest, upfront. Living a life, out in the open. it gets a...
    fortheloveofmyleftshoe fortheloveofmyleftshoe 36-40, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm not okay. I'm so scared. I'm so lost at the moment, constantly telling myself that everything will be back to normal. But the more I tell myself it will be okay the more it...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    It's okay for everyone else. I'm still trying to convince myself that I'm in fact part of "everyone else" and not some exception to this rule :p.
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 4 days ago

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    It really saddens me to think you can know so many people in your lifetime, but not everyone of them is your friend or can be trusted. The people that you thought would make time...
    Sutten Sutten 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm a mom I hide crying myself asleep the scars on my thigh from the many blades I hide how much I truly hate myself I hide my eating problems I hide it all and fake a smile I don...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    Today was the hardest day . I realised I was fat . The guy I've had a crush on for a year . I worked up the courage to ask him out and he said no . I've only wanted to be like my...
    Cassidymilo Cassidymilo 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Today and maybe tomorrow I will be home alone with my sister and I want to tell her that I pretend I'm pregnant like we used to when we were kids before she leaves for college in a...
    VirtualGinger VirtualGinger 16-17 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Pretending is how I cope with BIID. Ever since I was about eleven, I have tucked my legs fully inside my pants and walk on my knees when I am home by myself.
    asd1324 asd1324 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    Its okay where I live. Ive never had any problem being nude in my yard.
    RitJaCa RitJaCa 51-55, F 12 Responses a week ago

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    My best friend has been going through some stuff lately and now is arguing with me about it. She has not had her phone for 2 weeks and both of us were out of town. She is now...
    NarryCake NarryCake 16-17, F Aug 19

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    I always do this. I'll be on my bed, rubbing my bloated belly and then I'll start feeling some pain. I breathe through it and grit my teeth, until it gets so bad that I need to...
    BigBellyMama BigBellyMama 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    if I dont say im okay then ill have to see the faces of my family they don't and can't understand why im depressed, when I tried to take my life I had to se them cry and I don't...
    Eyedea9 Eyedea9 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I got no sleep at all and I think it's because I couldn't stop thinking about him and I wouldn't stop crying
    gabbieceleste gabbieceleste 18-21 Aug 17

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