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I Pretend To Be Okay

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    I usually say not bad

    or I'm good just because I don't want people asking me whats going. Sometimes I don't want people to know whats going on. I have another touchy subject on my mind which worries me but I'm afraid to tell anyone. Only told 1 person (best mate) but having more than one opinion is...
    Adam352 Adam352 18-21, M Jan 14

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    I keep too many secrets from everyone in my

    life. At school, and in public in general, i smile and and laugh. They don't know the thoughts going through my head. I'm thinking about my trichotillomania or I'm thinking about how i will have to go to florida in the spring and pretend everything is okay (I'm afraid if the...
    erinbear123 erinbear123 13-15, F Feb 7

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    Hey! My name is Olivia

    and I would love if you could help me out on Instagram. It's always followforfollow and I really need all the help I could get:) thankss Livvyyy_16
    olivias78 olivias78 18-21, F Jan 15

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    I know its okay not to be okay,

    i dont want to sound greedy or what but i think there is something is missing with my life, Im not a big Jesus person but whenever i ask for a prayer he always make it come true, but i still feel not contented . Yeah i know i sound lonely as hell, but swear to God i pretend to...
    justasmileaway1927 justasmileaway1927 18-21, F Jan 12, 2014

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    This Is Bothering Me

    He makes me answer questions all the time and doesn't even mind my own privacy. He wants to know what I'm doing every second. He's criticizing me but not being controlling. I don't have to answer to no one every time they cant get a hold of me... Just leave me alone and let me...
    Littlebutterfli Littlebutterfli 22-25, F Sep 23, 2011

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    I never really am okay.

    :( but no one ever can tell.
    kittayninja kittayninja 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Fake Smile

    I put up a fake smile so people will think I'm fine. The only problem is, the more I smile and the more they think I'm okay, the more they think I can handle. I just want someone to realize I'm not okay, and I can't handle it all. Or even for them to notice that I don't want to...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2011

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    What They Don't Know

    At school I smile laugh and play around with my friends. At home I just survive. But what they don't know to get out the pain in have I've been scratching myself till I bleed. Its a form of cutting but not true cutting. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I'm tired of just...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F Feb 23, 2012

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    Trying To Be Okay

    Okay, well today is the second day my husband has been gone. it is killing me that he isn't here with me. i miss him like crazy and i honestly have realized how much i love him. its crazy what distance can do, it makes you realize that you do love the small things he does, your...
    annacbennett20 annacbennett20 18-21, F Oct 2, 2011

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    Inside Me Theres A Voice Saying Its Gonna Be Ok..

    I realize somtimes I have put myself in a dark cave of misery, is there someone I can talk to? Weres a good friend when I need one.., I feel lost and cold alone sitting in a dessert of crying people, saying help me, help me, Out of the mix of thoose who are crying is me, I tend...
    noonie1978 noonie1978 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    It's A Skill

    And it takes a long time to master. I've practiced my entire life. I used to watch my face in the mirror, see how I react to certain things to know what I would look like when Dad came home, or when I got yelled at. I don't practice anymore, but my emotionless thing still...
    StrippedxPride487 StrippedxPride487 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    Every Freaking Day

    I've been pretending since elementary school. Are you okay? Oh sure I'm fine. Does our taunting bother you? No, please, continue. Are you depressed? No, of course I'm chipper. You look upset, are you? Nope, nope, I'm great. Are you sure? Of course, I am. Yeah, I pretend every...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    AnnPe AnnPe 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I pretend I am, but I'm not.... I want to feel okay, I want to look okay, I want to ACT okay. I want things to go back to when they were easier. Back to when I didn't feel like a...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F Feb 9

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    ^Life for me is something else , i have become a person i didnt expect to be :/ i look in the mirror & i see alot of changes in me ,the loving & understanding person i use to be...
    H143 H143 18-21, F Feb 5

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    Pretending to be positive. Pretending to be okay. Even pretending to be mature about a situation when I am internally throwing a fit. I absolutely hate pretending.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 23

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    I have been painting a smile on my face to show family and friends that everything is okay for years now. It's a daily routine to laugh and smile on the outside but to cry and die...
    AngelCakes37 AngelCakes37 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    "Are you okay?" No. The last time I am really okay was before I met you. Before I became so needy about you. Before I became too worried about you. I could be okay without you...
    rockettothemoon08 rockettothemoon08 18-21, F Feb 9

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    It hurts that people think that I am happy because I laugh at everything and make jokes and act that I'm really okay when I'm not. When I fake a smile that it's supposed to be a...
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 4

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    alright. well yesterday was fine, but today is a complete ******* mess, i've been crying for the past hour for no damn reason and it's ******* annoying. i dont know what to think...
    angelgoinghome angelgoinghome 13-15, F Feb 24

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    I wanna give up. I'm tired of pretending I'm happy when I'm crying inside.
    bribra1091 bribra1091 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    So my day consisted of a 6 hour rehearsal for my school's play, in which we had a fire and a crazy dance party. But afterwards, I had no ride home, and was locked out of my house...
    theperz217 theperz217 16-17, F Feb 14

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    When I was in high school, I was often bullied for not looking good enough. I was always picked on because I do not have redeeming qualities except for being able to pass pop...
    crisseysaurus crisseysaurus 18-21, F Feb 16

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    I'm so tired of tell people in fine when I'm really not okay ... Everyday someone new asks If I'm okay ... I don know why? Maybe because I have lost the will to fake a smile...
    suicidalblonde suicidalblonde 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    when I was a child, I used to stuff balloons down either my shirt or pants to pretend to be pregnant but when I was in school I became terrified of pregnant women after I was...
    ninetales666 ninetales666 22-25, M Feb 4

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    when I was a child, I used to stuff balloons down either my shirt or pants to pretend to be pregnant but when I was in school I became terrified of pregnant women after I was...
    ninetales666 ninetales666 22-25, M Feb 20

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    I became clinical depressed when I was 15. I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was 16, after my emotionally abusive boyfriend dumped me. I am 20 years old now, I don't...
    terrywill15 terrywill15 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 17

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    I love how I say I am not okay and then you keep asking me if I am. My answer is still no, I am not okay. When I tell you I am tired of people asking me if I am okay, you turn...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I was having my fake belly on as I was on a leave from work as I had stomach pain.I was feeling that I was in labour as the pain in my stomach was real bad.I love to pretend to be...
    ilovetobepregnant ilovetobepregnant 26-30, F Feb 13

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    I'm some kid that pretends he needs nobody else, and he knows everything about everything, and is super confident. He is always on top of life, and doesn't need the company of any...
    charkzilla20 charkzilla20 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    Ever since I can remember I've always enjoyed dressing up like I'm pregnant. When ever I can get some time alone I dress up and enjoy it. Sometimes I will talk to my belly and...
    anegative10 anegative10 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 15

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    I went out today with my friend and I pretend that I was 9 months pregnant with twins and when we went into shops, all the staff didn't notice that I was faking my pregnancy.I went...
    ilovetobepregnant ilovetobepregnant 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I'm currently at home and I'm pretending to be 9 months pregnant with 7 babies. My belly is so big that I can't really see the television and I'm faking that I have contractions...
    ilovetobepregnant ilovetobepregnant 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    When I was young I looked at adults and thought that when you were an adult you knew what to do and how to do it and when to do it. Now that I'm older and experiencing life as an...
    DeluxedEdition DeluxedEdition 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 21

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    I am tired of acting and pretending. I am so sick of it. It's gonna be over. Today imma start making changes. No more acting. No more faking. I don't have anymore energy for that...
    iamnoor iamnoor 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    It's easy when there's lots of time when I feel nothing at all, it's a new coping mechanism perhaps. I can smile, laugh and joke about anything even what hurts me the most. Why...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    "Are you really okay?" I am acting like I am okay. Please don't interrupt my performance.
    OrangeViolin OrangeViolin 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I post something and I immediately get asked if I'm okay. If I was okay, would I post something negative? I dunno why, but it's been irritating the hell out of me -_- And I don't...
    XxFuckYouxX XxFuckYouxX 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    Today that is. There are certain songs that make me feel as if everything is going to be okay, forever. Of course, that could change at any moment. But as for right now, my...
    Dreambrother Dreambrother 18-21, F Feb 4

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    people think they know me as the girl who absolutely doesn`t care when she gets in trouble, or as the girl who doesn`t care that she is being bullied. well, i am not, and i say...
    WolfsParadice WolfsParadice 36-40 1 Response Feb 6

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    I miss her so much it makes me cry sometimes. I don't know what's going on with her, I know she's not 100% upfront with me but thinking about her and hopes she's okay. I love...
    josh221992 josh221992 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    "You have to forget it." "You can't freak out that badly." "It scares people. They get worried about you." I'm sorry that it's on my mind. I'm sorry that I can't control when I...
    terrywill15 terrywill15 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Let's be fair. Bush was N unmitigated disaster so anyone who follows that and does not drive our nation off a cliff AGAIN is going to come out looking okay. But has Obama done...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M Feb 19