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I Punish And Hurt Myself More Than You Ever Can

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    My Beating Session

    "uhhhhh so bored" I said. So I then remembered that I went shopping yesterday and bought new clothes: a pink crop top with a silver star! I then decided to try them on with my short shorts! I put both items on along with some make up and the new brown heels I bought and went to...
    Pie11644 Pie11644 18-21, F Sep 28, 2012

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    Urges . I Need To Cut !

    Hi . Basically i have reall bad urges to cut and cant controll them iv jad to have stirches 9 times and im i one of thoes moods right now but i do t want to cut however i cant help it !!! Soneone told me to cut my neck and wear a scarf but i dont see how that could help Could...
    invisiblekid invisiblekid 13-15 1 Response May 24, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I would like to say thank you, to all of you, for sharing your thougts with me and letting me to see you. Thank you EP for allowing me to express myself in a written word and...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Take It All" Didn't I give it all, Tried my best, Gave you everything I had, Everything and no less? Didn't I do it right? Did I let you down? Maybe you got too used to Well...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    There are so many things I would like to say to you. But we have already said and done enough to each other. Still I would like to tell you so much more. How much I'll miss you...
    Brownie27 Brownie27 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 15

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    When you said, "I love you", I knew you loved me. When you said, "Goodbye", to me, I knew you stopped loving me. All I know that I will never stop loving you.  Goodbye, my swan...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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    Dear angel Okay so a lot has happened in the last week. Things I would not have imagined it in my wildest dreams. The things i have done was unacceptable. My fear of losing u was...
    justlikejessejames justlikejessejames 36-40, M 5 Responses Dec 16

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    I guess this group is about loss not just of those who have passed on, but people that we don't have in our lives anymore. I've had a lot of people disappear on me that I'll never...
    MelMel68 MelMel68 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    People should sleep when it's dark outside. I wonder how was your day yesterday. That information is missing in my world and makes my tummy groan. Hungry to know. It hurts not...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    Got a beautiful surprise this morning. But yet, you still gave me that look, or maybe because you're tired.... I was really happy to see you. Wish you knew it. Everybody knows it...
    DaddysGirl24 DaddysGirl24 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I'm just a walking pain, I need to speed up, in order to make it. I need to run away from feelings, and from myself, too. I need to learn how preted. I can't afford to feel my...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F Dec 4

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    I miss her. My heart is lost. She still carries it. I miss her face. I miss her smiles. I miss the way her eyes sparkle. I miss the way it feels to hold her and be held in return...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    toylycc11 toylycc11 26-30, F Nov 26

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    Ever since you went away I've had nothing but bad luck. Little did you know my soul depended on you.. Now the demons can tear upon my flesh, as they try to take whats left. They...
    dropitnow52 dropitnow52 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    Donnacc12 Donnacc12 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    Hearing your voice after so long, truly broke my heart. I can't ever stop loving you... I have made peace with the fact that we don't belong together, but it still stings...
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F Dec 6

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    I've had many boyfriends but 1.was a jerk and controlling 2.was my best friend(superman) and I still love him always will 3.was only a week and he cheated on me in the process 4...
    TheHurting TheHurting 16-17, F Dec 6

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    It's sad when you love alone. You give everything to someone, make plans, offer all you can and get nothing in return. But that's nothing in comparison to have a break up with that...
    Joerobert2 Joerobert2 41-45, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been so heartbroken thinking about him so much since the past week and especially last night. I thought I would be dreading to come today and that I would have to fake a...
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    The last time we spoke I told you to give me just one day without messaging because I was dealing with some stuff and I told you that I loved you and you said I love you too. All...
    simesetwin simesetwin 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    "I think it's time to say goodbye to each other. It is not what we think it is. " And with these words, she took my broken heart and closed the door. It may not be what you...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you're doing something and wishing...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 3 Responses Nov 24

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    Did you know that you are the only woman I dream about? Nothing bad. Just us holding hands and being with each other. The saddest part of the dream is when I wake up and reality...
    Burai Burai 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 3

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    Hey babe :) This is just a nice thing that you may see either before I go or after. But you'll see it eventually tonight. I want you to know when i'm gone I will miss you so much...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    Christmas is approaching...and...I wish that we could celerbrate this together... I really do. Ltp
    SwanLake78 SwanLake78 36-40, F 10 Responses 6 days ago

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    R.I.P. LT. Nathaniel James Richards AKA NITEFLYER
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm making my loudest cry for help, but no ones seems to hear it... I hate myself for everything I do... I just need to die before I hurt someone else or even myself more than I...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 24

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    More than you will ever know boo :* I'll have to post this on my account too so it fits better :P Oh! This isn't the wonderful David :P it's Emily :P But I love him more than he...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    Every time I make any kind of mistake- even just getting a bad grade on a test or saying something stupid- I feel like I deserve to be punished for it by hurting myself. I cut my...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    So this message is really long... And If you actually finish it... I hope that you feel the same way I do... And that is that the next generation should be kinder to our people...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 25

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    on the face i seem really screwed up but once you get to know me i can seem far more normal but in reality i am very unwell. i feel like i should die everyday. i am violent in my...
    BenjaminChapman BenjaminChapman 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    Hi everyone I do love my girlfriend, more than anything in the world:)! She is my rock, she is my second half, she is the person who keeps me grounded, keeps me sain, keeps me...
    Cassandrae Cassandrae 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    My life got better and I have people that make me happy but it seems like I just can't be ok. When I'm with them I feel good and fine but something deep inside me hurts. Something...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    Animals care for you they will love unconditionally. Something most humans never do. If you pick up a starving dog and make him prosperous he will not bite you. This is the...
    Sk13k Sk13k 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    As the years have gone by, dunno exactly where to start but merely understanding things cannot be replayed. In a roll of life, I guess I need to bleed for once just to stop this...
    Choirayla Choirayla 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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      First and foremost Lupe Fiasco has always and will always be my number one, when it comes to the art that is Rap. I fell in love with Rap/HipHop because of Lupe. Because of...
    AnnieDreams AnnieDreams 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    Let my pre-Thanksgiving stuffing begin! I'm going to eat basically non stop until Wednesday night. Then on Thursday my stomach will be nice and stretched for thanksgiving dinner...
    fatgenie fatgenie 18-21, F 10 Responses Nov 25

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    I have never hurt myself but it has crossed my mind multiple times. I like to think that its just a thought and I would never hurt myself but I am afraid that one day I really wont...
    cheybear96 cheybear96 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1

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    im glad I'm being pushed more I'm glad I'm pushing myself more ...I'm glad I'm stubborn ,I'm glad I'm not giving up , I'm glad I'm stronger than I think I am at times ,I'm glad...
    Chernobylplayground Chernobylplayground 36-40 1 Response Dec 8

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    I think of hurting myself a lot its been a bad couple of years my apartment burned with everything in about a year ago and I lost my job 3 months ago I didn't even get to get my...
    tremaine37 tremaine37 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    Really want to hurt myself right now. :(
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Sometimes I hurt myself on purpose just to have an excuse for crying. It's different from cutting, because I don't do it to hide my feelings. I do it so I don't feel as bad for...
    LoveMusicDreams LoveMusicDreams 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Thank you god for today, you had been give me an amazing blessing and important moment for my growth. Once before i was very sad and feel tremendous pain because of my blindness...
    blackravencat blackravencat 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 12

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      My first story under this title might not of made much sense to most, but anyways I just wanted to post this song as a much better example of J. Cole's material. An example...
    AnnieDreams AnnieDreams 22-25, F 6 days ago

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