I Punish And Hurt Myself More Than You Ever Can

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    Urges . I Need To Cut !

    Hi . Basically i have reall bad urges to cut and cant controll them iv jad to have stirches 9 times and im i one of thoes moods right now but i do t want to cut however i cant help it !!! Soneone told me to cut my neck and wear a scarf but i dont see how that could help Could...
    invisiblekid invisiblekid
    13-15
    May 24, 2012

    I self harm to relieve stress but most of the

    time to suppress my homicidal urges. I inflict the pain on myself that I want to do ton others.
    Xzxvxzx Xzxvxzx
    18-21
    1 Response Nov 11, 2015

    My Beating Session

    "uhhhhh so bored" I said. So I then remembered that I went shopping yesterday and bought new clothes: a pink crop top with a silver star! I then decided to try them on with my short shorts! I put both items on along with some make up and the new brown heels I bought and went to...
    Pie11644 Pie11644
    18-21, F
    Sep 28, 2012

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