I Punish Myself After Bad Things Happen

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    It's Been Three Years.

    Ever since eighth grade I've cut myself whenever I did something wrong, or something bad happened in my life. Anytime I make someone I love hurt, cutting is all I can do to make to guilt go away.I tell myself that I want to stop, but when I really think about I don't.I've been...
    darkprincess9231 darkprincess9231
    1 Response Mar 9, 2011

    If I Don'T, Nobody Has To

    The worst thing that ever happened to me? Or what did I do that was so terribly bad that I had to muster up a self-punishment? Probably not too much. If someone asked my younger brother, he would say something to the effect that I didn't take most of his "suggestions" after I...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine
    61-65, F
    Jun 11, 2013

    In a Way...

    It use to be very brutal on myself! I would make a mistake, fall into guilt, and then the punishment would be to starve myself. The most I went without eating was almost two weeks. :-o And then I began cutting myself too.... and slamming myself into walls. I really did hate...
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    4 Responses Aug 11, 2009

    ... At Least I Got Hurt, Too.

    Two examples:I have a pit-bull who reacted violently to attacks by smaller dogs on two occasions. The first, he bit a dog on the neck, and instead of doing any number of more intelligent things to make him let go, I grabbed him by the mouth and attempted to pry it open, only...
    andthelawwon andthelawwon
    22-25, F
    Jan 29, 2011

    I Can't Help It...

    I’m second guessing myself every where I go. It’s been making me nervous and anxious. When I screw up at work, school or with other people I can’t but get mad at myself. I’m second guessing all the small thing I shouldn't and I just end up hurting myself… I’ve been...
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    1 Response Jul 23, 2011

    Bottle Of Wine

    I start feeling sad about something and I drink cheep wine. That's what I've been doing lately. I'm mad at myself for being such an autistic loser and I punish my liver for it. I don't like wine too much but it's cheeper then whiskey. So in my belly it goes and soon I'm asleep...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Oct 20, 2011


    I know I am a good person.  I never hurt anyone.  I usually get hurt because I don't speak up for myself and let everyone walk all over me.  I am kind, generous, sweet, patient, you know, all the good stuff.  What I don't understand is why do people...
    van9162 van9162
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2009


    No secret that I have told people that I don't need criticism from others or attacks for I am my own harshest critic. I can cut myself efficiently with a scalpel to the bone with my rapier of a tongue. I can verbally berate myself to the point where I feel lower than dirt, where...
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    1 Response Jun 3, 2010

    I Punish Myself After Bad Things Happen

    Whenever bad things happen, I punish myself. There was one time, where I had a big mid term. I have studied hard for it, doing extra work, and forming a study group. I entered the test with confidence, after relaxing the day before. I had a great breakfast, and prayed for a...
    dave0903 dave0903
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 15, 2010
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