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I Punish Myself

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    Spanking My Self

    i am 12 year old and a girl and i spank my self with a brush       on my pants 2 min underwear  2 min and naker 5 min
    andrea123kent andrea123kent 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 18, 2011

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    Fat

    I look in the mirror and all I see is fat. Fat and more fat. "Curvy" as I've been described is Beyonce. I am two tonne tessie with no one to blame but myself. I can't stop eating then I feel worse so I cut then eat then cry and sleep and start all over when I waken. Every days...
    Givenupallhope Givenupallhope 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2013

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    "Misery loves company,

    and madness calls it forth."
    FreedFromFallacy FreedFromFallacy 22-25, F Dec 23, 2015

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    I Beat Myself

    I've been self-punishing myself since I was younger. My father would yell at me and say cruel things to me for accidents so I would go into a corner where no one could see me and just grab at my hair and hit myself in the face and silently cry. Other times with my grandmother I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 18, 2012

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    anyone able to give me punishment ideas?

    ? Preferably silent ones. I can send pics after I've finished them. TIA
    au101 au101 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    I would really like someones help with my

    punishments. Either just walking me through a self-spanking and or other punishments, or watching as I do them.
    Bismuth989 Bismuth989 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    Raw.

    I dont like being this way, but punishment is what i always 'crawl' back to. Its my default. i like to cut..but what i hate is unwanted attention. im only doing this for myself and i dont give anyone permission to know or see what im doing. so its really annoying if someone...
    GreyDaze GreyDaze 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2013

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    Bad Me!!!!

    I punish myself a lot. Like on March 22, 2013 in my math class we're doing a practice test which isn't that big of a deal, but I've gotten a few questions wrong so I got my pencil and started to cut myself. I've kind of always done this but I'm trying to keep it under control.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 22, 2013

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    I Love To Torture Myself

    Please comment on my next PAINFUL punishment except, cutting. I really am a bad person and I need discipline. So I will do any punishment
    ghjklu ghjklu 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    ladies give me some ideas,

    I'm to h0rny and need to be punished
    squirterlove squirterlove 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2015

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    In Too Many Ways ....

    I have punished myself in so many ways for such a long time now .... I can cut my skin I have starved myself to the point of making myself poorly I put myself in dangerous situations I have burnt my skin I have given myself frostbite I have let people emotionally be abused I...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    I have had this problem with myself

    since I was a kid. I think this may have something to do with my autism but I get a bit hard on myself and put myself down all the time. Every time I make a mistake I always talk down to myself "well done dumb c$?t" or sometimes I yell horrible words to myself and remind myself...
    32forever2016 32forever2016 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2015

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    if I make someone important upset

    or make myself upset I'll say negative things to myself and lock myself in my room and starve myself no matter how hungry I am
    LilahWolf LilahWolf 18-21, F Jan 5, 2015

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    I Am The Worst To Myself

    I am a kind and good person, to everyone but myself. I hurt myself in ways that people won't see for a while. If I do too many bad things or if I allow myself to get too stressed out, I stop eating. I eat the bare minimum to allow myself to live until I feel it's good enough. It...
    Shebby88 Shebby88 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2012

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    Gym

    When i say I punish myself, when I am at the gym I take it to the extreme sometimes.In my case, "NO PAIN,NO GAIN"! So when you see something or read about something, might be a good idea to get all the info first befor assuming something.......wonder how many of you seen this and...
    mrjody mrjody 36-40, M May 30, 2010

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    HI all I need some help.

    I need a selfspanking (and cornertime?) I have lots of implements like wooden paddles (heavy light with without holes in it) bathbrush hairbrush cane belt wooden spoon slipper - maybe you can think of other household items. I have experience and leave the severity up to you...
    missevie828 missevie828 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2015

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    I Know I Shouldn't

    A lot of times I do it just to hear me cry, but I don't.I know, it is weird, but FUN! So there, I confessed. (Comment below punishments I can give to myself, I'll do ANY punishment!)
    Boopadroop Boopadroop 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2012

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    I punish my body daily!

    I push it past its limits then I do more! I love being in pain!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2015

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    How I Spank Myself

    Hi I'm 12 years old going on 13 in the end of November. I punish myself because my parents don't. I spanked myself today because I have bad grades. I have a B+ and a C!! So I needed a hard spanking today. First what I do is get the wooden spoon and brush and set it on my bed and...
    ThatGurl12 ThatGurl12 18-21, F 18 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Well, I found a way to punish myself silently

    that is very much like a spanking. I purchased a "bed of nails" , (you can get it on Amazon) its advertised use is for acupressure to help relieve back pain. But it can be used very effectively as a punishment tool. Sitting on the bed of nails, bare seat for five minutes--wow...
    hickorytravail hickorytravail 56-60 Mar 18, 2015

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    Having the ability to reduce your being to its

    lowest, most painfully pathetic form is no simple feat.
    FreedFromFallacy FreedFromFallacy 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I Deserve It.

    Every time I make a mistake and hurt people, I punish myself in every possible way. I starve/cut/burn/slap/whip/bruise myself. I feel like I deserve the pain because I am so stupid and bad. Besides, I need to warn myself that I won't do that again.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F Jul 19, 2010

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    I was never the kind of person

    who wanted to leave a scar. I'm proud to say that I have not been self harming for quite a while now and have found distractions.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2014

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    It's the Only Explanation I Can Come Up With

      - The only thing that makes even a bit of sense. I punish myself daily in little ways by remembering bad things, calling myself names, beating up on my esteem. I never cut myself a break & rarily am I happy if I get something right. -   - Now EP & my...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 20, 2009

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    All The Time!

    You remember when you were a kid, you were raised with if you made a mistake you should be punished for it?  Well, due to my autism, I took this literally!  I punish myself for everything that I do wrong.  It used to be so bad, that I would literally...
    compulsion2 compulsion2 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    My Scars Are My Reminders.

    For the last two years, I have carved words into my legs. Words I see when I look into the mirror, words I feel.Every time I get changed, I remind myself that I am worthless, hopeless, stupid, ugly, unwanted and pathedic.
    Jynxiexo Jynxiexo 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    Naked Spanking

    I for some reason always feel the need to be spanked naked.I used to get it done on a daily basis but now I have to do it myself.Normally I use a 3 foot stick or a wooden paddle and give myself about 40 to 60 hard hits on my naked skin.First I can feel the sharp sting and the...
    pwllp pwllp 41-45 3 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    Bulimic Pain

    Hey guys, I have Bulimia but I can't get better... I thought I was on track but I just keep relapsing. Its like I'm an addict. To make things worse I can't even work out whats triggering me. I've tried everything, I even told one friend about it (but not my family) and that made...
    mistyopal mistyopal 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    I Spank My Self

    i love to spank my self i have for years now it startted back whin i was about 10 i would go out to the barn and do it now i have someone that will spank me just not as much as i would like so i still do when i can
    lcowboy lcowboy 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2012

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    Idk about you but a plastic window shade rod

    tears me up and leaves welts but if you do something wrong you will never be able to deliver the amount of pain you need to truly be disiplined if you're not screaming and crying and begging someone to stop then its not a real spanking and that but isn't tore up enough so find a...
    blueeyedblonde21 blueeyedblonde21 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 24, 2015

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    I do punish myself when I get angry .

    And I have worst mood right now
    Johnnystha Johnnystha 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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    Just Another Mark

    I press the blade to my skin I really know i'm about to sin I don't know for how long i hold But i don't listen to everything i am told I feel the pressure as i press down No Longer must a frown This feels so good i always knew it would I feel a trickle down my arm But it doesn't...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Aug 6, 2013

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    Anyone want to punish me via Skype?

    ? (Not willing to show face yet tho!) (F/18) (nipple/boob punishment, maybe?)
    au101 au101 18-21, F 6 Responses May 15, 2015

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    Self Spanking

    Is there anyone out there who would like to read my story of self spanking over the years. It is not spanking at all but sticks twigs and home made leather floggers that have been so much fun. If there are interested parties I will spill the beens.
    happycat1 happycat1 56-60, M 5 Responses Jul 2, 2012

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    I Hate Myself

    I cut myself, but it's less of a punishment and more because it temporarily distracts me from the intense emotional pain I experience. I mentally punish myself because I hate everything about myself. I can't forgive myself for the mistakes I made, especially if other people...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 16, 2011

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    I was writing lines for my mentor

    and I felt really guilty. I got a wet cloth and spa.nked the hell out of sit spots, and va.g.ina. I did it so hard that the wooden spoon broke!
    iDeservemySpankings iDeservemySpankings 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2015

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    I Am In Need Of Punishments

    I am 16. Exams is coming soon. And i am procrastinating as ******* hell. I really need some punishments right now. So guys, please punish me severely. I need something to push me on. Anything just any punishment wld do. Thanks :)
    girlygirly97 girlygirly97 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27, 2013

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    I Always Spank Myself Bare......

    Hello everyone when i spank myself, i always do it on the bare bottom, here is what i do. first of all i lay face down on my bed or the floor depends where i am then i start off with my hand, i reach round to my bum and git myself a few times on each cheek to warm myself up a...
    paulspankme paulspankme 22-25 15 Responses Nov 4, 2010

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    Since my wife won't spank me,

    I have to do it myself. I have found some quiet ways to punish that really isn't spanking, but feels like it. Today was my birthday, so I thought I would "treat' myself to some really good punishment. I use those little black clips--the ones that squeeze down. I place those on...
    hickorytravail hickorytravail 56-60 1 Response Dec 31, 2013

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    Her Pointless Cries (An Older Piece I Wrote)

    Her pointless cries, her screams unheard. Placed on mute she holds her thoughts and pain inside. Everything about her is broken, twisted with despair, eating at her making her become more aware of what actions she should take to gain her satisfaction. Her hand was once stretched...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Aug 8, 2013

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    I Punish Myself For Not Having Enough Money

    Im really ashamed to say that but Im extremly superificial and love money and what money can buy - a LOT.because today I couldnt celebrate my bday in the most expensive and coolest club I ended up not celebrating at all,I do not want anything.I dont even want gifts and people...
    panther0008 panther0008 18-21 Sep 29, 2012

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