I Punish Myself

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    I dont like being this way, but punishment is what i always 'crawl' back to. Its my default. i like to cut..but what i hate is unwanted attention. im only doing this for myself and i dont give anyone permission to know or see what im doing. so its really annoying if someone...
    GreyDaze GreyDaze
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2013

    anyone able to give me punishment ideas?

    ? Preferably silent ones. I can send pics after I've finished them. TIA
    au101 au101
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    Anyone want to punish me via Skype?

    ? (Not willing to show face yet tho!) (F/18) (nipple/boob punishment, maybe?)
    au101 au101
    22-25, F
    5 Responses May 15, 2015
    Heffie0504 Heffie0504
    41-45, F
    Mar 24, 2016

    I Hate Myself

    I cut myself, but it's less of a punishment and more because it temporarily distracts me from the intense emotional pain I experience. I mentally punish myself because I hate everything about myself. I can't forgive myself for the mistakes I made, especially if other people...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 16, 2011

    I Know I Shouldn't

    A lot of times I do it just to hear me cry, but I don't.I know, it is weird, but FUN! So there, I confessed. (Comment below punishments I can give to myself, I'll do ANY punishment!)
    Boopadroop Boopadroop
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2012

    HI all I need some help.

    I need a selfspanking (and cornertime?) I have lots of implements like wooden paddles (heavy light with without holes in it) bathbrush hairbrush cane belt wooden spoon slipper - maybe you can think of other household items. I have experience and leave the severity up to you...
    missevie828 missevie828
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jan 2, 2015

    Her Pointless Cries (An Older Piece I Wrote)

    Her pointless cries, her screams unheard. Placed on mute she holds her thoughts and pain inside. Everything about her is broken, twisted with despair, eating at her making her become more aware of what actions she should take to gain her satisfaction. Her hand was once stretched...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout
    31-35, F
    Aug 8, 2013

    Since my wife won't spank me,

    I have to do it myself. I have found some quiet ways to punish that really isn't spanking, but feels like it. Today was my birthday, so I thought I would "treat' myself to some really good punishment. I use those little black clips--the ones that squeeze down. I place those on...
    hickorytravail hickorytravail
    1 Response Dec 31, 2013

    How I Spank Myself

    Hi I'm 12 years old going on 13 in the end of November. I punish myself because my parents don't. I spanked myself today because I have bad grades. I have a B+ and a C!! So I needed a hard spanking today. First what I do is get the wooden spoon and brush and set it on my bed and...
    ThatGurl12 ThatGurl12
    18-21, F
    19 Responses Sep 29, 2012

    I Always Spank Myself Bare......

    Hello everyone when i spank myself, i always do it on the bare bottom, here is what i do. first of all i lay face down on my bed or the floor depends where i am then i start off with my hand, i reach round to my bum and git myself a few times on each cheek to warm myself up a...
    paulspankme paulspankme
    15 Responses Nov 4, 2010

    Idk about you but a plastic window shade rod

    tears me up and leaves welts but if you do something wrong you will never be able to deliver the amount of pain you need to truly be disiplined if you're not screaming and crying and begging someone to stop then its not a real spanking and that but isn't tore up enough so find a...
    blueeyedblonde21 blueeyedblonde21
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    ladies give me some ideas,

    I'm to h0rny and need to be punished
    squirterlove squirterlove
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 2, 2015

    I am no longer a Roman Catholic

    but one aspect of that I still believe in is lent. I participate in mortification of the flesh, self mortification for my sins, every day for a 45 minute session. It needs to be done quietly so I use my "Bed of Nails" I purchased on line, but I don't use it for relaxation as...
    hickorytravail hickorytravail
    Mar 10, 2016


    When i say I punish myself, when I am at the gym I take it to the extreme sometimes.In my case, "NO PAIN,NO GAIN"! So when you see something or read about something, might be a good idea to get all the info first befor assuming something.......wonder how many of you seen this and...
    mrjody mrjody
    36-40, M
    May 30, 2010

    "Misery loves company,

    and madness calls it forth."
    FreedFromFallacy FreedFromFallacy
    26-30, F
    Dec 23, 2015

    In Too Many Ways ....

    I have punished myself in so many ways for such a long time now .... I can cut my skin I have starved myself to the point of making myself poorly I put myself in dangerous situations I have burnt my skin I have given myself frostbite I have let people emotionally be abused I...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 5, 2013

    My Scars Are My Reminders.

    For the last two years, I have carved words into my legs. Words I see when I look into the mirror, words I feel.Every time I get changed, I remind myself that I am worthless, hopeless, stupid, ugly, unwanted and pathedic.
    Jynxiexo Jynxiexo
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Mar 13, 2011

    All The Time!

    You remember when you were a kid, you were raised with if you made a mistake you should be punished for it?  Well, due to my autism, I took this literally!  I punish myself for everything that I do wrong.  It used to be so bad, that I would literally...
    compulsion2 compulsion2
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 8, 2009

    I Am In Need Of Punishments

    I am 16. Exams is coming soon. And i am procrastinating as ******* hell. I really need some punishments right now. So guys, please punish me severely. I need something to push me on. Anything just any punishment wld do. Thanks :)
    girlygirly97 girlygirly97
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 27, 2013

    I have had this problem with myself

    since I was a kid. I think this may have something to do with my autism but I get a bit hard on myself and put myself down all the time. Every time I make a mistake I always talk down to myself "well done dumb c$?t" or sometimes I yell horrible words to myself and remind myself...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 27, 2015

    Naked Spanking

    I for some reason always feel the need to be spanked naked.I used to get it done on a daily basis but now I have to do it myself.Normally I use a 3 foot stick or a wooden paddle and give myself about 40 to 60 hard hits on my naked skin.First I can feel the sharp sting and the...
    pwllp pwllp
    3 Responses Jan 17, 2011

    I was writing lines for my mentor

    and I felt really guilty. I got a wet cloth and spa.nked the hell out of sit spots, and va.g.ina. I did it so hard that the wooden spoon broke!
    iDeservemySpankings iDeservemySpankings
    31-35, F
    Oct 27, 2015

    Spanking My Self

    i am 12 year old and a girl and i spank my self with a brush       on my pants 2 min underwear  2 min and naker 5 min
    andrea123kent andrea123kent
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 18, 2011

    I was never the kind of person

    who wanted to leave a scar. I'm proud to say that I have not been self harming for quite a while now and have found distractions.
    deleted deleted
    Nov 10, 2014

    Bad Me!!!!

    I punish myself a lot. Like on March 22, 2013 in my math class we're doing a practice test which isn't that big of a deal, but I've gotten a few questions wrong so I got my pencil and started to cut myself. I've kind of always done this but I'm trying to keep it under control.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2013

    I punish my body daily!

    I push it past its limits then I do more! I love being in pain!
    deleted deleted
    Nov 27, 2015

    I Love To Torture Myself

    Please comment on my next PAINFUL punishment except, cutting. I really am a bad person and I need discipline. So I will do any punishment
    ghjklu ghjklu
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2013

    if I make someone important upset

    or make myself upset I'll say negative things to myself and lock myself in my room and starve myself no matter how hungry I am
    LilahWolf LilahWolf
    18-21, F
    Jan 5, 2015

    I Deserve It.

    Every time I make a mistake and hurt people, I punish myself in every possible way. I starve/cut/burn/slap/whip/bruise myself. I feel like I deserve the pain because I am so stupid and bad. Besides, I need to warn myself that I won't do that again.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2010

    I do punish myself when I get angry .

    And I have worst mood right now
    Johnnystha Johnnystha
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    Well, I found a way to punish myself silently

    that is very much like a spanking. I purchased a "bed of nails" , (you can get it on Amazon) its advertised use is for acupressure to help relieve back pain. But it can be used very effectively as a punishment tool. Sitting on the bed of nails, bare seat for five minutes--wow...
    hickorytravail hickorytravail
    Mar 18, 2015

    Having the ability to reduce your being to its

    lowest, most painfully pathetic form is no simple feat.
    FreedFromFallacy FreedFromFallacy
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 11, 2016

    It's the Only Explanation I Can Come Up With

      - The only thing that makes even a bit of sense. I punish myself daily in little ways by remembering bad things, calling myself names, beating up on my esteem. I never cut myself a break & rarily am I happy if I get something right. -   - Now EP & my...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Aug 20, 2009

    I would really like someones help with my

    punishments. Either just walking me through a self-spanking and or other punishments, or watching as I do them.
    Bismuth989 Bismuth989
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Nov 27, 2015

    Just Another Mark

    I press the blade to my skin I really know i'm about to sin I don't know for how long i hold But i don't listen to everything i am told I feel the pressure as i press down No Longer must a frown This feels so good i always knew it would I feel a trickle down my arm But it doesn't...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout
    31-35, F
    Aug 6, 2013

    Bulimic Pain

    Hey guys, I have Bulimia but I can't get better... I thought I was on track but I just keep relapsing. Its like I'm an addict. To make things worse I can't even work out whats triggering me. I've tried everything, I even told one friend about it (but not my family) and that made...
    mistyopal mistyopal
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2011

    I Spank My Self

    i love to spank my self i have for years now it startted back whin i was about 10 i would go out to the barn and do it now i have someone that will spank me just not as much as i would like so i still do when i can
    lcowboy lcowboy
    41-45, M
    1 Response Dec 26, 2012


    I look in the mirror and all I see is fat. Fat and more fat. "Curvy" as I've been described is Beyonce. I am two tonne tessie with no one to blame but myself. I can't stop eating then I feel worse so I cut then eat then cry and sleep and start all over when I waken. Every days...
    Givenupallhope Givenupallhope
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2013

    I Am The Worst To Myself

    I am a kind and good person, to everyone but myself. I hurt myself in ways that people won't see for a while. If I do too many bad things or if I allow myself to get too stressed out, I stop eating. I eat the bare minimum to allow myself to live until I feel it's good enough. It...
    Shebby88 Shebby88
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2012
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