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I Push People Away Even When I Dont Want to

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    I've recently figured that I don't push people away. I pretty much drive them away.  What I'm noticing is that I keep people at arm's length.  Apparently this is something everyone has major issues with.  Which is a whole different novel for a whole different time.  I'm...
    SooperSarah SooperSarah 22-25, F 8 Responses Oct 2, 2013

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    Even when I felt like i needed to talk to them,

    I am just to scared to say what i need to say. My feelings might just be hurt even more just by misunderstood judgement. When ever i have reached out to people to help me through the problems that i had they would only just end up making me feel worse. Now I don't even know who...
    Onlyoneme18 Onlyoneme18 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    norahcc11 norahcc11 26-30, F May 25

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    I do it because I don't want people to get

    close to me. Because once they do, they'll hurt you..
    ladysapio ladysapio 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 11

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    eioncc11 eioncc11 26-30, F Aug 12

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    Goodbye My Light

    Apologies whisper behind my lips. Memories ring inside my head. The pain, the loss, the tears. Dancing with my heart, many do. Light fingertips turn to blades. I let go. So, I've blown out my light. So warm and bright. Lighting my way in the shadows. Crackling peacefully...
    SgtWalrus SgtWalrus 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    You say it's love. You say it hurts

    so much. But could it really be love when all you've done from the start is be afraid? The fear of ending up hurt never left your mind. It made you vicious. The fear crept towards your heart until it became cruel. It taught you to strike back, to strike first. It didn't give him...
    heymarie heymarie 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    First off I will start by saying- 1) I am a

    very Conscious person 2) I have strong ethics 3) I care about finding answers to my problems and like helping others with there's - if asked. 4) I enjoy helping others and reciprocating the kindness others show and I hope to do the same 5) please excuse grammatical errors...
    nsight nsight 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    when I think there's a chance

    for me to get hurt I immediately defend myself and by that I push people away, by being mean to them, and most of the time I don't mean to do that.
    Myself1myself2 Myself1myself2 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    I push people away because I feel I'm not good

    enough. I push people away because I'm scared to let them know the real me. I push people away because I don't want unnecessary attention or the backbiting or the gossips. I push people away, Even when I don't want to.
    Dictatorse Dictatorse 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I Need You

    I want to tell you how I feel. I know that you would understand. I know that you could help me but I just can't seem to get it out.  Rather I watch myself avoid your hugs and tell you I am fine; When actually I feel like I am burning to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 1, 2009

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    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    amelcc11 amelcc11 26-30, F Aug 3

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    I guess you could say I'm just tired of bein

    left behind. I've lost so many important people to me in recent months. They just kind of left me behind. And now, getting close to people terrifies me a little. I mean, yeah, of course I love to have friends and people to talk to. But I hate being left behind. And there's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 8

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    You push people away

    because you cared before and gave your everything for some and as time has passed it proved you of how wrong you were in doing such thing, because all youre left with in the end is nothing but a damaged ego and a heavy heart.. So you just push people away, because you really...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    Pull.

    I always push. I never have a good reason to push. Things can be going just fine but then I get scared and push. Or the fact that even when things are truly OK, my head won't let me believe it. Thoughts will enter my head, thoughts that will tear myself down and give me some...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    I'm always getting hurt

    so I can never trust anyone not even my closest friends I keep everything locked up inside I can't trust anyone..
    MyScarsTellAStory2000 MyScarsTellAStory2000 13-15, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    I do that a lot. I push people away

    before I realize that I don't want that. It sucks.
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 3

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    I wish I didn't because I know I need them in

    my life one way or another, whether it's to be best friends or a potential love interest I guess. I think it's the fact that I'm so scared to get close again because I've been hurt so many times by being close to someone and it all just backfires and I'm not ready for that kind...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I do this because I'm afraid to get close to

    people, Because I don't want hurt again
    taid2000 taid2000 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    I don't really know why i push people away

    but I just do. I've never had a boyfriend. Probably because I don't let guys get too close or too comfortable with me. There's this one guy, I kind of like him & he tries constantly to be nice to him , but I'm rude to him & take everything as a joke, even in a serious moment. As...
    amanda856 amanda856 16-17, F Jun 12

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    I don't like to push people away.

    but I have done it before. sometimes I have to be apart from people I love and when I really need them the most. It's because I'm afraid. I'm afraid if I get too close to them, they will leave me like anyone else has. or.... It's for their own good. cause I know that I'm a...
    evewalter evewalter 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    Aquarius255 Aquarius255 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    I don't like to...but I do.

    I do to protect them from my sadness and problems. I make sure they are okay and happy...as long as they are, I don't care if I'm breaking inside.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 26

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    I do push people away

    and I can't help it. When I feel I'm getting to close to a prson, my first reaction is to pushed them away first before they leave me. I don't want to push them away and I try so hard not to but it happens, then when they are gone I miss them. If you're not my family I'll...
    highlyfavored8000 highlyfavored8000 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 22

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    I just have a hard time trusting people.

    I've been screwed over by people who meant the world to me and because of those past experiences I always will keep my guard up.
    AlexisH94 AlexisH94 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    I hope later down the road,

    if we meet again, and we're older, and we've done things with our lives, that we just sit down together and have a drink. You were very special to me... And I know you are with people you love and care about and you need them to tell you that.. The words just could not escape my...
    Shoutittotheworld23 Shoutittotheworld23 26-30, M 3 Responses May 26, 2014

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    I mean I can't blame em .

    .. I mean what would you do if some guy cut a fart loud as a freight train and smelled like rotten fish guts !!?
    wolffive wolffive 51-55, M Aug 26

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    and I'm doing it again.

    one by one. why can't I just be the person my psychiatrist medicates me to be. people either get pushed away or they leave me. I never notice until it's too late.
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    I don't get why do I keep pushing people way I

    mean I want friends in this new town and when I'm about to make friends I ignore the person like garbage I don't want to do this I hate hurting other but I just don't know how to stop this
    Didi33 Didi33 18-21, F Feb 5

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    Anytime I even make new friends I just push

    and push..it's not until someone really stops and pushes back that I try and not push. I know a lot of people but no one knows me
    Janstis Janstis 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Being without a job and without anything to do

    since June, the isolation tends to make me feel as if I am alone and freaky, since I physically have no place to work that puts me in the presence of coworkers and acquaintances. It would be nice if I had people who were okay with my financial dependency on parents and some...
    WayOfDominique WayOfDominique 36-40, M 4 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    norahcc11 norahcc11 26-30, F May 25

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    I can't help it; I dislike being around other

    people in general. Besides, once they got to know me, they probably wouldn't like being around me either. ;-;
    misanthropicpessimist misanthropicpessimist 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I always think "what if"?

    What if I never pushed that person away? It only takes one person to betray you and you completely change, you learn not to trust and keep your guard up. I always question people and their motives, it honestly scares me when people have pure intentions, it seems too good to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 16, 2014

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    I really wish I knew how to stop this.

    I've literally had a friend give me the ultimatum "this is the last chance I'm giving you---if you push me away again I'm leaving." Predictably, I lost another friend and all because I'm so incapable of being a decent human being. Why do I always have to hurt those who care...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    I Am My Own Worst Enemy.

    I don't understand why I do this, I don't mean to. I cannot help but push people away. I want to let people in and get close, have a loving group of friends and talk and just I don't know, feel normal. But something always does this, it pushes people I love away as well. It is...
    AreYouMadCool AreYouMadCool 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2013

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    Eh I often want to push most people away lately.

    It's not that I don't want anyone to get close it's just I look around at all those around me and I know they won't be here long so why bother?
    ZacharyGray19 ZacharyGray19 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    He pulled the covers over her naked,

    sleeping body. She seemed at peace with herself he thought as he brushed the hair from her face. In the corner a candle flickered, sending dancing shadows around the bedroom. It had been an eventful night, one that he hadn't planned for. Stepping silently into his trousers he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    I am terrible when it comes to pushing people

    away with hurtful words because I am angry or upset. I don't think about what I said until after I see the hurt in their eyes.. especially when it's my fiance
    emotionalmommy emotionalmommy 22-25, F May 29

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    I'm afraid to get close to people,

    and when I feel vulnerable, I go into what I like to call a "self destruct" mode. I burn all the bridges I've ever built because I know I still have control of the flame. It's scary to be able to fully trust someone, and I'm scared of getting hurt. I don't let many people in.
    hornewrecked hornewrecked 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    Whenever anyone gets too close to me I find

    ways to push them away. I build a wall around myself to keep them from getting closer and I distance myself from them in an attempt to make them go away. The twisted thing is I want someone to push back. I want someone that will push back and not let me push them away.
    curiousgirl1214 curiousgirl1214 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    And I continue to hate myself

    for pushing them away, because I get super upset over the fact that they don’t try very hard to stay. I’m sorry, please don’t let me push you away.
    ImAlivingParadox ImAlivingParadox 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 22

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    susancc12 susancc12 26-30, F Jul 13

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    I disappointed him. I tried to run

    and in doing so, I lied... I feel awful about it. I need to be more open and let him in. I know this now. I know it hurt him. I've learned how important it is for me to work on opening up. Letting him in. Trying harder.
    May2407 May2407 26-30, F 2 Responses May 28

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    When someone approach me

    or meets me i always seem to come out very brutally honest, more then i sometimes should. This is actually me pushing people backwards so they don't get to close, i don't like that feeling. Feelings of being to close makes me feel like someone is going to hurt me or i'm going...
    Autumnflowers Autumnflowers 18-21 3 Responses May 29

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    I just keep ******* screaming

    and screaming at him and I know he's just seething waiting for the perfect opportunity to get away from me. he just doesn't want me to hurt myself and blame him or get him in some sort of trouble. idk why he even bothers to call me we don't even talk. he bullshits me all the...
    justtellinthetruth justtellinthetruth 18-21, F 2 Responses