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I Push People Away Even When I Dont Want to

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    I push people away because i'm tired of people

    judging me and feeling sorry for me. When i try to open up to some one its hard since i almost never do it yet when i do i feel i annoy them. Even when i don't want to it some how comes 'naturally' because i have gotten use to it.
    yiyaa yiyaa 16-17 1 Response Jan 30

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    I don't get why do I keep pushing people way I

    mean I want friends in this new town and when I'm about to make friends I ignore the person like garbage I don't want to do this I hate hurting other but I just don't know how to stop this
    Didi33 Didi33 18-21, F Feb 5

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    norahcc11 norahcc11 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Pull.

    I always push. I never have a good reason to push. Things can be going just fine but then I get scared and push. Or the fact that even when things are truly OK, my head won't let me believe it. Thoughts will enter my head, thoughts that will tear myself down and give me some...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    I Do It Unintentionally

    I don't want to push people away but whenever i am hurt. I just want to disappear, not talk to anyone and be on my own. In the process i cut off all the people from my life. I know that i need time alone to deal with the situation. I've realized that it effects the people...
    lazyangel lazyangel 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    I just have a hard time trusting people.

    I've been screwed over by people who meant the world to me and because of those past experiences I always will keep my guard up.
    AlexisH94 AlexisH94 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    Have you ever been so in love with a person

    that you can't even face them when you have to part for awhile? When you look at them, you know that they're leaving. The thought of it hurts. It hurts so much that when you look at them, they will see deep sorrow on your face. You want to tell them not to go. You're fine until...
    sweetice007 sweetice007 18-21, F Feb 1

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    do you? don't you? for the good of everyone.

    or do you wait it out and see if it all comes crashing down....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I do this because I'm afraid to get close to

    people, Because I don't want hurt again
    taid2000 taid2000 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    Anytime I even make new friends I just push

    and push..it's not until someone really stops and pushes back that I try and not push. I know a lot of people but no one knows me
    Janstis Janstis 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Have you ever stopped something from happening,

    cause you felt like it was a mistake later realizing that you screwed up everything?
    Mak2396 Mak2396 13-15, F Mar 29

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    I always think "what if"?

    What if I never pushed that person away? It only takes one person to betray you and you completely change, you learn not to trust and keep your guard up. I always question people and their motives, it honestly scares me when people have pure intentions, it seems too good to be...
    mystiquebeauty mystiquebeauty 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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    I'm always getting hurt

    so I can never trust anyone not even my closest friends I keep everything locked up inside I can't trust anyone..
    MyScarsTellAStory2000 MyScarsTellAStory2000 13-15, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    If you began to know the muti faceted mess

    that makes me you may began to dislike the same elements about myself as I..... everything.
    2lil2L8 2lil2L8 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 26

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    There are numerous older men in the world

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    norahcc11 norahcc11 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I can't let anyone not

    even my best friends get close to me. I want to so much but old habits are hard to break. I smile everyday and laugh so their happy but I'm so scared from my past I don't want to get anymore. I'm so scared that someone will be that one person to break me. I'm already hanging by...
    Frozensilence Frozensilence 16-17, F Dec 12, 2013

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    I don't want to blame anyone

    for my choices and behaviour overall I simply want to find the cause of what's happening to me or how I can help myself. People are constantly telling me that I am paranoid but I do not think so. I had issues with my mom and we are not in frequent contact We talk mabe...
    kimberlee1876 kimberlee1876 22-25, F Apr 9

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    Lately I've just felt like dying I don't want

    to take my life but I wish I would fall asleep and never wake up so going through this people around and what's going on around me doesn't matter to me my sister well Both sisters and parents are trying to get me a date for prom I don't even want to go to prom I've always...
    Dalia4ever Dalia4ever 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    Great. I just pushed someone

    who actually cares for me. And I made her cry too. And I made it even worse when I asked her to stay away from me, thinking that by staying away from me, her life would be much better. What should I do? I am confused. For once in my whole life, I couldn't think of a solution...
    EmotionlessDude EmotionlessDude 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 18

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    I Am My Own Worst Enemy.

    I don't understand why I do this, I don't mean to. I cannot help but push people away. I want to let people in and get close, have a loving group of friends and talk and just I don't know, feel normal. But something always does this, it pushes people I love away as well. It is...
    AreYouMadCool AreYouMadCool 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2013

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    It seems that way lately.

    I'm feeling fine today, but I know I have a lot to work through. I've considered keeping my emotions to myself, but anyone who knows me can see right through me. So, how can I manage? Don't want to lose anyone.
    blindangel92 blindangel92 22-25, F Apr 20

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    joeflowrow joeflowrow 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    He pulled the covers over her naked,

    sleeping body. She seemed at peace with herself he thought as he brushed the hair from her face. In the corner a candle flickered, sending dancing shadows around the bedroom. It had been an eventful night, one that he hadn't planned for. Stepping silently into his trousers he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    Even when I felt like i needed to talk to them,

    I am just to scared to say what i need to say. My feelings might just be hurt even more just by misunderstood judgement. When ever i have reached out to people to help me through the problems that i had they would only just end up making me feel worse. Now I don't even know who...
    Onlyoneme18 Onlyoneme18 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    Of all the ways that women often react to inner

    panic, SHUT DOWN is my primary reaction; just plain disconnection. If something happens that upsets me, or when someone says or does something that I dislike or disagree with, my first response can go something like this: "Uh oh, that was upsetting! I'm starting to feel mad...It...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    Alone

    I think I'm supposed to be alone.
    FallenAngelWOOT FallenAngelWOOT 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    They think I snapped at them

    for attention but, I pushed them away and now they pushed me further from them....what do I do??????!!!....
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    I used to be really bad about it.

    As time went on and I got older, I began to realize that I do need support from people; pushing help away was stupid of me. I never go asking for help, but I'm smart enough to realize when I cannot do something on my own. We as humans need to help one another, and while some...
    quietfighter quietfighter 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    Goodbye My Light

    Apologies whisper behind my lips. Memories ring inside my head. The pain, the loss, the tears. Dancing with my heart, many do. Light fingertips turn to blades. I let go. So, I've blown out my light. So warm and bright. Lighting my way in the shadows. Crackling peacefully...
    SgtWalrus SgtWalrus 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    I Need You

    I pushed you away to keep you safe from hurting further.I broke your heart to make you hate me otherwise you wouldn't give up and leave.I need you in my life and miss you but I know you will not forgive me.I have lost you forever.
    memoriescargo memoriescargo 66-70 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    Whenever anyone gets too close to me I find

    ways to push them away. I build a wall around myself to keep them from getting closer and I distance myself from them in an attempt to make them go away. The twisted thing is I want someone to push back. I want someone that will push back and not let me push them away.
    curiousgirl1214 curiousgirl1214 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Well I did it again I keep doing it

    and I don't understand why. Every person that gets close to me I wait a while feel really strong about them then push them away . I am so depressed Tim is really gone this time we talked last night for hours and then I did it push push and he gave in and said he didn't want to...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    swegmoney swegmoney 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    Being without a job and without anything to do

    since June, the isolation tends to make me feel as if I am alone and freaky, since I physically have no place to work that puts me in the presence of coworkers and acquaintances. It would be nice if I had people who were okay with my financial dependency on parents and some...
    WayOfDominique WayOfDominique 36-40, M 4 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    I push people away because I feel I'm not good

    enough. I push people away because I'm scared to let them know the real me. I push people away because I don't want unnecessary attention or the backbiting or the gossips. I push people away, Even when I don't want to.
    Dictatorse Dictatorse 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    It's much easier plus I won't get hurt

    when they don't need me.
    ANNI3PI3 ANNI3PI3 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I stopped texting my friends.

    I feel a little guilty. Bella has been texting me non stop to the point she's texted my sisters. She texted me: "What's going on Lauren?" I know it's rude and this shows she cares about me but I just can't. They leave me out of so much I'm sick of it! Part of the depression and...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I feel like I isolate myself

    because I end up caring too much. Friendships, relationships, etc. they all end sadly in my case. I contradict myself because I want to have close meaningful relationships but at the same time I don't wanna get hurt. When I feel myself caring too much I kinda retreat into my own...
    FireQueen10 FireQueen10 22-25, F 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Pushing away my bestfriend,

    my childhood friend has been hard. I almost can't believe I just did that. I haven't felt anything for a long time, till now. My cheeks are burning, my throat feels dry and my heart hurts. My head is playing memories of me and her laughing so much and having fun. "Why are we...
    AviatorHH AviatorHH 18-21, F Feb 1

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    ClaireH19 ClaireH19 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    here are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    anneluna anneluna 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 27

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    Whenever I have a problem

    and someone try's to talk to me about it I shut down and push them away I don't mean to I'm just scared I feel like no one really cares idk how to fix this problem and I know if I keep doing it I'm going to loose the people I love most
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    I really regret pushing away

    that one person that was so important to me. We got to know each other via internet and found out we had quite a few things in common. Almost half a year passed by and he turned out to be much more imporant than I could've imagined. Even though we had never seen each other in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 23

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    it just makes it easier

    for them. I don't want people to miss me because I have "plans" so it keeps them from hurting
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I'm afraid to get close to people,

    and when I feel vulnerable, I go into what I like to call a "self destruct" mode. I burn all the bridges I've ever built because I know I still have control of the flame. It's scary to be able to fully trust someone, and I'm scared of getting hurt. I don't let many people in.
    hornewrecked hornewrecked 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    So my therapist told me

    that I need to not push people away when I get scared. Oops, guess I am still afraid of commitment.
    berrecks berrecks 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 11

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