I Push People Away Even When I Dont Want to

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    I've had several opportunities to have lasting

    friendships, maybe even satisfactory relationships. However it always happens. I see something and think it could lead to trouble so the dominoes start rolling, waiting for an event that will never happen. Eventually I push that person away. Every single guy, girl that tries to...
    FriscoWolf FriscoWolf
    22-25, M
    Nov 7, 2015

    It's only been one day

    since I pushed away my now ex boyfriend, but it feels like an eternity. We met on an amazing two month backpacking trip across Europe and it was as picture perfect as you could imagine. When he started to get too close to me on the trip though I pulled back because I couldn't...
    littlebird99 littlebird99
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 23, 2015

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    carlyccaa carlyccaa
    26-30, F
    Oct 19, 2015

    Oh the joys of being dumped I pushed him away

    and eventually he gave up.....for the second time. I feel like crying but I'm running out of tears. I just want someone to take the pain away.
    DeathMeansFreedom18 DeathMeansFreedom18
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    I don't know why I do it.

    Just every time anyone gets too close I completely shut down. Every time. I can try to put reasons to it but I don't think I'll ever have a definitive answer. There was a boy who I hung out with a lot, we always had a good time together and I told him some personal stuff...
    mountainseal mountainseal
    18-21, F
    Oct 16, 2015

    I always do it. I honestly HATE

    when I push people away because [most of the time] It was never intended. I always push people away without realizing it and before I know it they're already so far away to reconnect again.
    Ominousity Ominousity
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

    One last talk No tears No emotions One last

    time to tell each other what happened Why are we fighting One last time to say goodbye No more "see you later" No more "text me when you get home" It's all over Once both sides say what they need to say, it'll be the last I will see you Last time you'll be my best friend Last...
    SmallSpeck963 SmallSpeck963
    22-25, F
    Oct 6, 2015

    That is a problem.. Even

    if i feel lonely and some comes to my to make me happy i usualy walk away
    Bijakuja Bijakuja
    26-30, M
    Oct 2, 2015

    I have trust issues,its

    so bad I trust no one but myself. I am horrible at relationships. and I am not even sure I want kids Because of how my biological mother messes me up. I happen to have a boyfriend who I met wen I was 15 anyway he want to leave me now, I know this because he keeps making all...
    kimberlee1876 kimberlee1876
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 21, 2015

    If you seriously disrespect

    or hurt me, you might as well just say goodbye. Don't even bother chasing after me because things will probably be worse. I won't say much or show it either as long as I'm not angry. I'll slowly fade away.
    RoastedCycki RoastedCycki
    70+, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2015

    I mean I can't blame em .

    .. I mean what would you do if some guy cut a fart loud as a freight train and smelled like rotten fish guts !!?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 26, 2015

    I don't like to push people away.

    but I have done it before. sometimes I have to be apart from people I love and when I really need them the most. It's because I'm afraid. I'm afraid if I get too close to them, they will leave me like anyone else has. or.... It's for their own good. cause I know that I'm a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 25, 2015

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    eioncc11 eioncc11
    26-30, F
    Aug 12, 2015

    I do it because I don't want people to get

    close to me. Because once they do, they'll hurt you..
    ladysapio ladysapio
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Aug 11, 2015

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    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    amelcc11 amelcc11
    26-30, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    when I think there's a chance

    for me to get hurt I immediately defend myself and by that I push people away, by being mean to them, and most of the time I don't mean to do that.
    Myself1myself2 Myself1myself2
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    I really wish I knew how to stop this.

    I've literally had a friend give me the ultimatum "this is the last chance I'm giving you---if you push me away again I'm leaving." Predictably, I lost another friend and all because I'm so incapable of being a decent human being. Why do I always have to hurt those who care...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2015
    Aquarius255 Aquarius255
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    I just keep ******* screaming

    and screaming at him and I know he's just seething waiting for the perfect opportunity to get away from me. he just doesn't want me to hurt myself and blame him or get him in some sort of trouble. idk why he even bothers to call me we don't even talk. he bullshits me all the...
    justtellinthetruth justtellinthetruth
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 14, 2015

    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    susancc12 susancc12
    26-30, F
    Jul 13, 2015

    I can't help it; I dislike being around other

    people in general. Besides, once they got to know me, they probably wouldn't like being around me either. ;-;
    misanthropicpessimist misanthropicpessimist
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jul 10, 2015

    I'm not sure what's started it.

    Every time I sense someone getting close to me I immediately push them away unless it's a very rare occasion. I keep playing these sick games with myself and other people. It's like there's an indescribable force that makes me want what I don't have, as soon as I've got them...
    shygyal30 shygyal30
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 10, 2015

    First off I will start by saying- 1) I am a

    very Conscious person 2) I have strong ethics 3) I care about finding answers to my problems and like helping others with there's - if asked. 4) I enjoy helping others and reciprocating the kindness others show and I hope to do the same 5) please excuse grammatical errors...
    nsight nsight
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jul 1, 2015

    Eh I often want to push most people away lately.

    It's not that I don't want anyone to get close it's just I look around at all those around me and I know they won't be here long so why bother?
    ZacharyGray19 ZacharyGray19
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2015

    I don't like to...but I do.

    I do to protect them from my sadness and problems. I make sure they are okay and happy...as long as they are, I don't care if I'm breaking inside.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 26, 2015

    I wish I didn't because I know I need them in

    my life one way or another, whether it's to be best friends or a potential love interest I guess. I think it's the fact that I'm so scared to get close again because I've been hurt so many times by being close to someone and it all just backfires and I'm not ready for that kind...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2015

    You say it's love. You say it hurts

    so much. But could it really be love when all you've done from the start is be afraid? The fear of ending up hurt never left your mind. It made you vicious. The fear crept towards your heart until it became cruel. It taught you to strike back, to strike first. It didn't give him...
    heymarie heymarie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 23, 2015

    When I develop feelings

    for someone, I'm afraid I'm going to get hurt and I take everything they say as them playing a game or something. I push them away when things start to get serious. As if everyone is going to hurt me. I hate feeling like this. I wish I wasn't so guarded.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

    And I continue to hate myself

    for pushing them away, because I get super upset over the fact that they don’t try very hard to stay. I’m sorry, please don’t let me push you away.
    ImAlivingParadox ImAlivingParadox
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 22, 2015

    I don't really know why i push people away

    but I just do. I've never had a boyfriend. Probably because I don't let guys get too close or too comfortable with me. There's this one guy, I kind of like him & he tries constantly to be nice to him , but I'm rude to him & take everything as a joke, even in a serious moment. As...
    amanda856 amanda856
    18-21, F
    Jun 12, 2015

    I guess you could say I'm just tired of bein

    left behind. I've lost so many important people to me in recent months. They just kind of left me behind. And now, getting close to people terrifies me a little. I mean, yeah, of course I love to have friends and people to talk to. But I hate being left behind. And there's...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 8, 2015

    I push people away for many reasons; I find

    that when I meet someone I talk to them for a bit and we get to know each other and then I push them away. In my head, if a person will resist this and continue to try then they are likely to be a good genuine friend and as a result our friendship strengthens. sometimes, I...
    Lostinabigscaryworld Lostinabigscaryworld
    18-21, F
    Jun 3, 2015

    I do that a lot. I push people away

    before I realize that I don't want that. It sucks.
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2015

    When someone approach me

    or meets me i always seem to come out very brutally honest, more then i sometimes should. This is actually me pushing people backwards so they don't get to close, i don't like that feeling. Feelings of being to close makes me feel like someone is going to hurt me or i'm going...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 29, 2015

    I am terrible when it comes to pushing people

    away with hurtful words because I am angry or upset. I don't think about what I said until after I see the hurt in their eyes.. especially when it's my fiance
    emotionalmommy emotionalmommy
    26-30, F
    May 29, 2015

    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    norahcc11 norahcc11
    26-30, F
    May 25, 2015

    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    norahcc11 norahcc11
    26-30, F
    May 25, 2015

    And I always rationalize it is

    as they don't love me "enough"
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    2 Responses May 24, 2015

    Well I did it again I keep doing it

    and I don't understand why. Every person that gets close to me I wait a while feel really strong about them then push them away . I am so depressed Tim is really gone this time we talked last night for hours and then I did it push push and he gave in and said he didn't want to...
    monica0215 monica0215
    56-60, F
    1 Response May 19, 2015

    I have always distanced myself from people

    and built walls to protect myself. Every time someone would try to get close to me or discuss commitment, I would push them away, and cut them off without hesitation. If someone told me they loved me, forget it, I was gone in the blink of an eye lol. I'm not proud to admit it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 18, 2015

    I stopped texting my friends.

    I feel a little guilty. Bella has been texting me non stop to the point she's texted my sisters. She texted me: "What's going on Lauren?" I know it's rude and this shows she cares about me but I just can't. They leave me out of so much I'm sick of it! Part of the depression and...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 18, 2015

    It seems that way lately.

    I'm feeling fine today, but I know I have a lot to work through. I've considered keeping my emotions to myself, but anyone who knows me can see right through me. So, how can I manage? Don't want to lose anyone.
    blindangel92 blindangel92
    22-25, F
    Apr 20, 2015

    I don't want to blame anyone

    for my choices and behaviour overall I simply want to find the cause of what's happening to me or how I can help myself. People are constantly telling me that I am paranoid but I do not think so. I had issues with my mom and we are not in frequent contact We talk mabe...
    kimberlee1876 kimberlee1876
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 9, 2015

    It is easier to have people at a distance

    than to let them get close and hurt you. Easier to push them away than to tell them the truth
    Harper101 Harper101
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 9, 2015

    it just makes it easier

    for them. I don't want people to miss me because I have "plans" so it keeps them from hurting
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02
    18-21, F
    Mar 30, 2015

    do you? don't you? for the good of everyone.

    or do you wait it out and see if it all comes crashing down....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 29, 2015

    Lately I've just felt like dying I don't want

    to take my life but I wish I would fall asleep and never wake up so going through this people around and what's going on around me doesn't matter to me my sister well Both sisters and parents are trying to get me a date for prom I don't even want to go to prom I've always...
    Dalia4ever Dalia4ever
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 29, 2015

    Have you ever stopped something from happening,

    cause you felt like it was a mistake later realizing that you screwed up everything?
    Mak2396 Mak2396
    16-17, F
    Mar 29, 2015

    I do push people away

    and I can't help it. When I feel I'm getting to close to a prson, my first reaction is to pushed them away first before they leave me. I don't want to push them away and I try so hard not to but it happens, then when they are gone I miss them. If you're not my family I'll...
    highlyfavored8000 highlyfavored8000
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    It's always the people close to me.

    like my family. All the stuff I hear about 'family being all you have at the end of the day' may be true to a certain extent but to me it's a load of crap. My parents always want to be there for others instead of their own child. It's an emotional roller coaster. I'll be fine...
    DarkGoddesss DarkGoddesss
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2015

    So my therapist told me

    that I need to not push people away when I get scared. Oops, guess I am still afraid of commitment.
    berrecks berrecks
    18-21, F
    Mar 11, 2015
    joeflowrow joeflowrow
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    If you began to know the muti faceted mess

    that makes me you may began to dislike the same elements about myself as I..... everything.
    2lil2L8 2lil2L8
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 26, 2015

    I really regret pushing away

    that one person that was so important to me. We got to know each other via internet and found out we had quite a few things in common. Almost half a year passed by and he turned out to be much more imporant than I could've imagined. Even though we had never seen each other in...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 23, 2015

    They think I snapped at them

    for attention but, I pushed them away and now they pushed me further from them....what do I do??????!!!....
    nomnommings nomnommings
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2015

    Great. I just pushed someone

    who actually cares for me. And I made her cry too. And I made it even worse when I asked her to stay away from me, thinking that by staying away from me, her life would be much better. What should I do? I am confused. For once in my whole life, I couldn't think of a solution...
    EmotionlessDude EmotionlessDude
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2015

    I don't get why do I keep pushing people way I

    mean I want friends in this new town and when I'm about to make friends I ignore the person like garbage I don't want to do this I hate hurting other but I just don't know how to stop this
    Didi33 Didi33
    18-21, F
    Feb 5, 2015

    Pushing away my bestfriend,

    my childhood friend has been hard. I almost can't believe I just did that. I haven't felt anything for a long time, till now. My cheeks are burning, my throat feels dry and my heart hurts. My head is playing memories of me and her laughing so much and having fun. "Why are we...
    AviatorHH AviatorHH
    18-21, F
    Feb 1, 2015

    Have you ever been so in love with a person

    that you can't even face them when you have to part for awhile? When you look at them, you know that they're leaving. The thought of it hurts. It hurts so much that when you look at them, they will see deep sorrow on your face. You want to tell them not to go. You're fine until...
    sweetice007 sweetice007
    22-25, F
    Feb 1, 2015

    I push people away because i'm tired of people

    judging me and feeling sorry for me. When i try to open up to some one its hard since i almost never do it yet when i do i feel i annoy them. Even when i don't want to it some how comes 'naturally' because i have gotten use to it.
    yiyaa yiyaa
    18-21
    Jan 30, 2015
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