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I Push People Away When I Am Hurt

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    I Am Hexed

    i don't want to push them away and hurt them but often I do... in a nasty way... i don't know why I am hexed..
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 2, 2011

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    When I feel I'm getting to close to someone

    or someone is getting to close I do everything to shut down and push away sometimes to see if they'll stay and what not ... Just tired of hurting
    Ellen1503 Ellen1503 22-25, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I Push And Push And Push

     When I go through something troubling, I push all those I love away.  I think I got myself into this mess, I need to be the one to get myself out of it.  I don't do it intentionally, I just don't want to burden them with my problems ever.  I want to be that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 1, 2010

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    It's almost as though I feel I'm not deserving

    of their help. It's just so much easier to push people away and say it's fine because why should people spend their time helping me when they should be making themselves happy, I feel like when I show that I'm upset around people it brings them down, I don't want to be that...
    Nethaly Nethaly 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    And I Feel Even Worse

    When someone hurts me,i can't tell that person how i feel,and very soon i just stop talking to her/him.i want to get an apology without saying what hurt me.but i rarely get one,because nobody can read my  mind,so..i end up fighting with people i am close to (they are the...
    wilddarksick wilddarksick 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2010

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    I Push People Away..even When I Dont Want Too

    This is something that has plaqued me awhile now. Whenever I get hurt, I can't seem to get the words out without struggling so I shut down. It is a bad habit of mine but and I try hard not to do it. I don't do this to everyone I know, but I do it to the people I love and am...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 5 Responses Nov 11, 2010

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    Always

    I always push people away when I am hurt, most of the time, I do it without meaning to, I guess it just happens. I am Just so scared to let anyone in, and so scared of getting hurt again, that I just lock my emotions up, and don't show them, And I don't let anyone else see them...
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    I Do

    I always have. I'm the type of person who has to sort things out for myself. Nobody else can do it as I know me better than everyone else. I will ask for help if I really do need it, that however is really rare. When I'm hurt all I want is space to sort through what I'm going...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 3, 2012

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    Lick My Wounds

    There are a few animals I've been compared to, or compared myself to. One of them is a dog. When I'm hurt, I bite. Of course, I'll try to growl first.
    pratyekayan pratyekayan 18-21, M Sep 21, 2010

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    Always Have

    I don't know why, but I've always pushed people away when I need them the most. I guess I just figure I should be able to handle things on my own and don't want to bother anyone else iwth my petty problems. I've been doing it for as long as I can remember.
    doglover1984 doglover1984 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    Unintentional

    I have a Big tendency to do so. I Feel the need to just be isolated when I get hurt. It's hard to open up When You are hurt. And I hate to be pressured so when I get hurt I just am a pissy person altogether. No talking to me or comforting me. Wait and allow me to Come to you I...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    I'm Doing It Now As I Don't Know What Else To Think...

    Like I have done so much for my co worker but now her child is all grown up, I feel like she just isn't bothered by me anymore. It hurts me that she sends pictures of him and updates on his life to other co workers but not me-the one who has looked after him for years and who...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Jun 30, 2011

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    Sometimes it's even a test,

    to see if they will stay..
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I Dont Want To But I Have To

    whenever i am hurting i push every person i love away. i hurt them because i am afraid they will hurt me. they want to help but i just cant seem to break down my wall and let people in. i scream and tell them to go away and leave me alone whist a part of me wants them to hold me...
    thisaccountisgone thisaccountisgone 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2012

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    Very Guilty of This

    it doesnt make sense to me at all. When i am hurting i shut everyone out and kind of put myself in a coccoon. Its not their fault but when im hurt i can not get rid of people fast enough, i will pick fights and ignore them because i can not cope with their presense i am trying...
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 12, 2008

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    I Do....

    I push people away when I am hurt. Its a bad habit of mine. Its a way I cope with things that are going on in my life. I push people away. Sometimes I wish someone would push back, stop me from trying to push them away.I push people away....Its something I have done all my life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 1, 2010

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    I Am Hexed

    i don't want to push them away and hurt them but often I do... in a nasty way... i don't know why I am hexed.. but if I love them most of them die or end up hating me and rejecting me anyway...  its painful. so I learnt to push them away when I was young as a means to protect...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2011

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    I Swear, Im Doing It Right Now.

    I know i am, and i dont care. The less people that care the better. All i have to offer is disapointment. And thats all i recieve. I cant talk to anyone of my friends right now, the few i have. I get angry at Andy for telling me that im better than i think i am. I yell at him...
    Takemewithyou Takemewithyou 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 12, 2011

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    and I'm doing it again. one by one. why can't I just be the person my psychiatrist medicates me to be. people either get pushed away or they leave me. I never notice until it's too...
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    I have let a few people into my life and let them see the real me, however it's scaring me that they know that person. I think it's time to retreat back into my "concrete box" and...
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    Ugh and I hate it... It used to be that way That's why now I push them away first.
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    Sometimes they leave, sometimes they get sick of me leaving and coming back so they choose not to re-add me, sometimes they block me, and sometimes I block them. I really am...
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    Yeah... It kind of sucks to be honest. I just don't want to drag anyone into the hell that's called my thought process.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Why push me away when I'm trying to get closer to you. All I think about is you. I wish I didn't because I'd at least have my heart together.
    KayKay90210 KayKay90210 16-17, F 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    Just don't drag me into this situation. I don't want to be involved and i will pretend i know nothing. Thank you .
    myraaxx myraaxx 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Not generally everyone but I'm afraid of it. I'm afraid of people disappointing me as I am afraid of disappointing them. I'm prideful. I take a lot of pride in the work I do and...
    Spagoodles Spagoodles 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I wish that people wouldnt be hurting so much in lives.
    lonely4560 lonely4560 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm sick of everyone. I don't like this generation. I can't deal with it. Everyone I ever trusted betrayed me; abandoned me. How can I have faith in other people? How can I trust...
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    I am not always as confident or joyful as I seem. Me hurting is one thing but there is no point in making others feel bad because of me. If I can help someone with their struggles...
    pandasky pandasky 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I'm a twenty two year old slightly overweight single lesbian woman who is mainly looking for friends of older age. I battle borderline personality disorder, which makes...
    rainbowsmangos2015 rainbowsmangos2015 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I actually thought this was a metaphor. I saw a Far Side panel some time ago about a gifted child who can't get into his school for gifted children because he can't open the door...
    DanteBlake23 DanteBlake23 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    Right now I wish I could just hide and be alone....but my problems will still be here if I come back. Sometimes it's so hard that I have to put everyone else before me as running...
    tootiness tootiness 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Oh your gay? Then why did you choose a girl? Ohhhh you like me and see a future with me? Is that why your girlfriend is pregnant? Oh ok thought so dude. Oh you promise not to leave...
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    I'm so tired of remembering all of the stuff I tried so hard to forget, I can't do this anymore, I complain I need someone to talk to but then I just push them away. I don't trust...
    IwillBePretty4U IwillBePretty4U 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    There are so many people sad and hurtin here i wish i could jus put my hand on their hearts to show them its gona be ok
    JennaRee JennaRee 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    I tend to get an attitude, and I think I might be pushing a few people away. I don't mean to. How can I fix this?
    blindangel92 blindangel92 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I'm great at making friends but not great at keeping friends. I'm great at dating but I suck at relationships. I feel loved but I don't know how to give it. I lose interest in...
    LanaKane LanaKane 70+, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I help people always when i can total strangers it matters not it makes me feel useful as being of service to those that are need of assistance be it of someone needing detections...
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    I love this guy I went to k-4th grade together.. I moved away when we were 13 and have seen him about 8 times since I moved.. 5 being since February. We're 27 now. I like him a lot...
    surioregon surioregon 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    Right now I feel like my heart has been pierced, I feel like crying. I hate how my mom makes my dad sound so disposable when they divorced when I was 12. Just now on the phone she...
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