I Push People Away When I Am Hurt

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 463 People

    I Am Hexed

    i don't want to push them away and hurt them but often I do... in a nasty way... i don't know why I am hexed..
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Apr 2, 2011

    And I Feel Even Worse

    When someone hurts me,i can't tell that person how i feel,and very soon i just stop talking to her/him.i want to get an apology without saying what hurt me.but i rarely get one,because nobody can read my  mind,so..i end up fighting with people i am close to (they are the...
    wilddarksick wilddarksick
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2010

    I Push And Push And Push

     When I go through something troubling, I push all those I love away.  I think I got myself into this mess, I need to be the one to get myself out of it.  I don't do it intentionally, I just don't want to burden them with my problems ever.  I want to be that...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 1, 2010

    I Swear, Im Doing It Right Now.

    I know i am, and i dont care. The less people that care the better. All i have to offer is disapointment. And thats all i recieve. I cant talk to anyone of my friends right now, the few i have. I get angry at Andy for telling me that im better than i think i am. I yell at him...
    Takemewithyou Takemewithyou
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 12, 2011

    Sometimes it's even a test,

    to see if they will stay..
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 2, 2014

    Lick My Wounds

    There are a few animals I've been compared to, or compared myself to. One of them is a dog. When I'm hurt, I bite. Of course, I'll try to growl first.
    pratyekayan pratyekayan
    18-21, M
    Sep 21, 2010

    I Push People Away..even When I Dont Want Too

    This is something that has plaqued me awhile now. Whenever I get hurt, I can't seem to get the words out without struggling so I shut down. It is a bad habit of mine but and I try hard not to do it. I don't do this to everyone I know, but I do it to the people I love and am...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Nov 11, 2010

    When I feel I'm getting to close to someone

    or someone is getting to close I do everything to shut down and push away sometimes to see if they'll stay and what not ... Just tired of hurting
    Ellen1503 Ellen1503
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 2, 2014

    I'm Doing It Now As I Don't Know What Else To Think...

    Like I have done so much for my co worker but now her child is all grown up, I feel like she just isn't bothered by me anymore. It hurts me that she sends pictures of him and updates on his life to other co workers but not me-the one who has looked after him for years and who...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 30, 2011

    I Do

    I always have. I'm the type of person who has to sort things out for myself. Nobody else can do it as I know me better than everyone else. I will ask for help if I really do need it, that however is really rare. When I'm hurt all I want is space to sort through what I'm going...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 3, 2012

    It's almost as though I feel I'm not deserving

    of their help. It's just so much easier to push people away and say it's fine because why should people spend their time helping me when they should be making themselves happy, I feel like when I show that I'm upset around people it brings them down, I don't want to be that...
    Nethaly Nethaly
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

    I Am Hexed

    i don't want to push them away and hurt them but often I do... in a nasty way... i don't know why I am hexed.. but if I love them most of them die or end up hating me and rejecting me anyway...  its painful. so I learnt to push them away when I was young as a means to protect...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2011

    Unintentional

    I have a Big tendency to do so. I Feel the need to just be isolated when I get hurt. It's hard to open up When You are hurt. And I hate to be pressured so when I get hurt I just am a pissy person altogether. No talking to me or comforting me. Wait and allow me to Come to you I...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jul 17, 2008

    I Do....

    I push people away when I am hurt. Its a bad habit of mine. Its a way I cope with things that are going on in my life. I push people away. Sometimes I wish someone would push back, stop me from trying to push them away.I push people away....Its something I have done all my life...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 1, 2010

    Always Have

    I don't know why, but I've always pushed people away when I need them the most. I guess I just figure I should be able to handle things on my own and don't want to bother anyone else iwth my petty problems. I've been doing it for as long as I can remember.
    doglover1984 doglover1984
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jan 17, 2011

    Very Guilty of This

    it doesnt make sense to me at all. When i am hurting i shut everyone out and kind of put myself in a coccoon. Its not their fault but when im hurt i can not get rid of people fast enough, i will pick fights and ignore them because i can not cope with their presense i am trying...
    Donalh Donalh
    22-25, M
    Sep 12, 2008

    I push people away when I believe they have

    wronged me, or just don't want me anymore. I know it's stupid and unfair to them, but I can't stop this bad habit. I didn't think it was a problem, until I realized I've done this to numerous people, family included, who were undeserving of my anger. I'm afraid I'm not good...
    SomethingCute SomethingCute
    18-21, F
    Mar 27

    Always

    I always push people away when I am hurt, most of the time, I do it without meaning to, I guess it just happens. I am Just so scared to let anyone in, and so scared of getting hurt again, that I just lock my emotions up, and don't show them, And I don't let anyone else see them...
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 25, 2008

    I Dont Want To But I Have To

    whenever i am hurting i push every person i love away. i hurt them because i am afraid they will hurt me. they want to help but i just cant seem to break down my wall and let people in. i scream and tell them to go away and leave me alone whist a part of me wants them to hold me...
    thisaccountisgone thisaccountisgone
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2012

    It is something I wish I didn't do.

    But for whatever reason I do.
    imnotyourfriend imnotyourfriend
    41-45, M
    Nov 26, 2015

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