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I Push People Away When I Am Hurt

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    I always push people away when I am hurt, most of the time, I do it without meaning to, I guess it just happens. I am Just so scared to let anyone in, and so scared of getting hurt again, that I just lock my emotions up, and don't show them, And I don't let anyone else see them...
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    I Swear, Im Doing It Right Now.

    I know i am, and i dont care. The less people that care the better. All i have to offer is disapointment. And thats all i recieve. I cant talk to anyone of my friends right now, the few i have. I get angry at Andy for telling me that im better than i think i am. I yell at him...
    Takemewithyou Takemewithyou 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 12, 2011

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    When I feel I'm getting to close to someone

    or someone is getting to close I do everything to shut down and push away sometimes to see if they'll stay and what not ... Just tired of hurting
    Ellen1503 Ellen1503 22-25, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I Do....

    I push people away when I am hurt. Its a bad habit of mine. Its a way I cope with things that are going on in my life. I push people away. Sometimes I wish someone would push back, stop me from trying to push them away.I push people away....Its something I have done all my life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 1, 2010

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    I Push People Away..even When I Dont Want Too

    This is something that has plaqued me awhile now. Whenever I get hurt, I can't seem to get the words out without struggling so I shut down. It is a bad habit of mine but and I try hard not to do it. I don't do this to everyone I know, but I do it to the people I love and am...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 5 Responses Nov 11, 2010

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    I Am Hexed

    i don't want to push them away and hurt them but often I do... in a nasty way... i don't know why I am hexed.. but if I love them most of them die or end up hating me and rejecting me anyway...  its painful. so I learnt to push them away when I was young as a means to protect...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2011

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    Very Guilty of This

    it doesnt make sense to me at all. When i am hurting i shut everyone out and kind of put myself in a coccoon. Its not their fault but when im hurt i can not get rid of people fast enough, i will pick fights and ignore them because i can not cope with their presense i am trying...
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 12, 2008

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    It's almost as though I feel I'm not deserving

    of their help. It's just so much easier to push people away and say it's fine because why should people spend their time helping me when they should be making themselves happy, I feel like when I show that I'm upset around people it brings them down, I don't want to be that...
    Nethaly Nethaly 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    I Dont Want To But I Have To

    whenever i am hurting i push every person i love away. i hurt them because i am afraid they will hurt me. they want to help but i just cant seem to break down my wall and let people in. i scream and tell them to go away and leave me alone whist a part of me wants them to hold me...
    thisaccountisgone thisaccountisgone 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2012

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    I just want to be alone at

    that time and sometimes I do it without noticing.
    DangerouslyMe DangerouslyMe 16-17, F Apr 19, 2014

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    Lick My Wounds

    There are a few animals I've been compared to, or compared myself to. One of them is a dog. When I'm hurt, I bite. Of course, I'll try to growl first.
    pratyekayan pratyekayan 18-21, M Sep 21, 2010

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    I'm Doing It Now As I Don't Know What Else To Think...

    Like I have done so much for my co worker but now her child is all grown up, I feel like she just isn't bothered by me anymore. It hurts me that she sends pictures of him and updates on his life to other co workers but not me-the one who has looked after him for years and who...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Jun 30, 2011

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    And I Feel Even Worse

    When someone hurts me,i can't tell that person how i feel,and very soon i just stop talking to her/him.i want to get an apology without saying what hurt me.but i rarely get one,because nobody can read my  mind,so..i end up fighting with people i am close to (they are the...
    wilddarksick wilddarksick 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2010

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    Unintentional

    I have a Big tendency to do so. I Feel the need to just be isolated when I get hurt. It's hard to open up When You are hurt. And I hate to be pressured so when I get hurt I just am a pissy person altogether. No talking to me or comforting me. Wait and allow me to Come to you I...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    Always Have

    I don't know why, but I've always pushed people away when I need them the most. I guess I just figure I should be able to handle things on my own and don't want to bother anyone else iwth my petty problems. I've been doing it for as long as I can remember.
    doglover1984 doglover1984 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    Sometimes it's even a test,

    to see if they will stay..
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I Do

    I always have. I'm the type of person who has to sort things out for myself. Nobody else can do it as I know me better than everyone else. I will ask for help if I really do need it, that however is really rare. When I'm hurt all I want is space to sort through what I'm going...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 3, 2012

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    I Am Hexed

    i don't want to push them away and hurt them but often I do... in a nasty way... i don't know why I am hexed..
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 2, 2011

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    I Push And Push And Push

     When I go through something troubling, I push all those I love away.  I think I got myself into this mess, I need to be the one to get myself out of it.  I don't do it intentionally, I just don't want to burden them with my problems ever.  I want to be that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 1, 2010

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    I do push people away and I can't help it. When I feel I'm getting to close to a prson, my first reaction is to pushed them away first before they leave me. I don't want to push...
    highlyfavored8000 highlyfavored8000 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 22

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    It is easier to have people at a distance than to let them get close and hurt you. Easier to push them away than to tell them the truth
    Harper101 Harper101 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Today in school, a chinese girl from academic level come and approach me. But i do not feel comfortable because i want to be by my selves. I wouldn't say she is innocent , but...
    myraaxx myraaxx 13-15, F Mar 25

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    I keep my distance from others because I don't want to be hurt again and I don't want to hurt others. People try to make friends with me and all I do is ignore them so I can be...
    sakuma9 sakuma9 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    it just makes it easier for them. I don't want people to miss me because I have "plans" so it keeps them from hurting
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I don't mean to hurt you, but I probably will. So you'd better run while you can, mate
    Nessa11231 Nessa11231 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 25

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    I don't want to get hurt anymore than I already have.
    purplepaperdragons purplepaperdragons 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    Lately I've just felt like dying I don't want to take my life but I wish I would fall asleep and never wake up so going through this people around and what's going on around me...
    Dalia4ever Dalia4ever 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    I don't want to blame anyone for my choices and behaviour overall I simply want to find the cause of what's happening to me or how I can help myself. People are constantly...
    kimberlee1876 kimberlee1876 22-25, F Apr 9

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    Become a ***** and people don't want anything to do with you. That's what I did and it's working :)
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F Mar 25

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    It seems that way lately. I'm feeling fine today, but I know I have a lot to work through. I've considered keeping my emotions to myself, but anyone who knows me can see right...
    blindangel92 blindangel92 22-25, F 15 hrs ago

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    Have you ever stopped something from happening,cause you felt like it was a mistake later realizing that you screwed up everything?
    Mak2396 Mak2396 13-15, F Mar 29

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    do you? don't you? for the good of everyone. or do you wait it out and see if it all comes crashing down....
    mrsskayl mrsskayl 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    How do you do this tho ?!?!
    kirsty56 kirsty56 18-21, F Mar 25

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    I keep on fighting for this light. For her to forgive me. I keep going, keep pushing. But the day I give up, the day I let out my emotions, she is about to forgive me. I'm done. I...
    Rhonarr Rhonarr 13-15 7 Responses Mar 24

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    my best friend has been making me feel like I don't have a place in her life now that she has a bf & new friends so I decided to end the friendship. idt she did it on purpose but...
    AutumnCarielle AutumnCarielle 22-25, F Apr 4

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    I once had a boyfriend that I dated for 2 years. We broke up for certain reasons. But he wanted to be friends. So we started talking as friends a few months later and then he...
    Dontcare10111 Dontcare10111 18-21, F Apr 4

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    so I finally tell my best friend how I feel in an effort to let her in and what does she do... not give a single ****. she can tweet her new friends all day but not respond to a...
    AutumnCarielle AutumnCarielle 22-25, F Apr 6

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    This is generally the reason I do not let anyone within arm's distance to me, in regards to who I am on the inside. My facade is made up of walls. No outward projection of who I...
    AScarletDream AScarletDream 22-25, T Apr 8

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    If I feel you're rejecting me, I will reject you first.....
    throwawaychild throwawaychild 46-50, M Apr 10

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    Quicker now. After heart attacks. And too much pain. From moronically abusive bipeds. Who sold their humanity. For power to be jerks.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 11

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    Strike one, I take some time, we're ok. Strike two, I shut you out for a while then we're okay once you've earned my trust. Strike three... You're out biatch!
    Ennah Ennah 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    turned it into an artform........... :(
    scottie1974 scottie1974 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I don't know why I feel like somebody has stabbed me in the back and messed up with my emotions. I'm tired of not being myself these days and pushing people away. I'm just faking...
    innocentflower innocentflower 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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