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I Push People Away

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    I Used To Push Away The Wrong People...

    ...nowadays, I only push away toxic people who try to drag others down with them. Like so many others with a lack of self-respect, I used to push away decent and supportive people, and it is a surprise that I am still on speaking terms with at least a couple of them today. To...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2012

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    I tend to push my current boyfriend away.

    He doens't deserve that. So every time he opens up and tells me what bothers him, I feel extremely guilty straight away. He is a sweet person, he is (thank god) not the clingy, overcaring, jealous type. He' s funny and cuddly, he barely gets mad (... found out yesterday that he...
    Guuguubarra Guuguubarra 31-35, F Dec 26, 2013

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    Hate Who I Am..

    I feel the more I get to know myself the more issues I've come to discover. One of my biggest issues is the way I feel about myself. When I sit down and think about who I am it's hard for me to find a single thing I love about myself. . I find it hard to believe someone would...
    best0fme best0fme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    I've Pushed Away Everyone I've Ever Known

    and I don't even know why. I can't stand to be close to people, it freaks me out and drives me up the wall. I hate when people know everything about me. I've driven away all of my friends, and now I'm so closed up I can't make any more. Some days I feel like a recluse, just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 26, 2011

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    I can't have friends

    or best friends because I get to a stage and I push them all away I can't help it but I do it all the time
    worthlessdancer worthlessdancer 13-15, F May 11

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    Inner Voice

    I do it all the time. I'm quite hard to like so when I finally find someone who is compatibile with me, I start pushing away that person. I don't want to, I always think that I want a true friend, but when that occasion happens, I'm too scared to let that person in. I think...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 5 Responses May 23, 2010

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    Demanding To Be Loved

    On this rather depressing evening, something hit me. The proverbial "light bulb" went off in my head.. I realized more details about a pattern of mine. The pattern is pushing people away..especially the people who i care about the most.. Often, people i have had or currently am...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    I Push People Away

    Like most of you I had a bad childhood to. I got to know my birth parents, saw a lot of violence at an early age. Then at the age of 6 I got To be in my first group home, was there 3 different times. Nothing to brag about but at least I was safe and had food to eat, next I got...
    runawaybride3 runawaybride3 31-35 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I Like Being Alone But I Hate That I Love It

    i had a hard childhood screw it i had a hard life. still do. i battle myself constantly. i love being alone. when im with people i get anxious and sometimes a little intimidating. i push everyone who loves me away. i am alone, because i made it this way. but i hate it also. i...
    shadowhuntersoforegon shadowhuntersoforegon 22-25, F Mar 31, 2012

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    Yup I do this all the time with guys

    once they do something that hurts me say something to offend me or mess up in any little way I start I push them away it's cycle since my last relationship (5years) I haven't had anything longer then a month (happily)
    lostgirl1993 lostgirl1993 18-21, F Feb 27

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    I Didn't Mean To..

    i push people away alot and i did not mean to.  I guess it comes natually because I'm a loner at heart i guess...
    shadowwings shadowwings 18-21, F 5 Responses May 30, 2010

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    Because they will eventually leave.

    they always do.so why not be the bigger person and save them the hustle
    jollie90 jollie90 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    I normally push people away

    when I'm upset. I can't control it. I just have so many negative things in my mind. They don't understand and I only hurt them. I'm scared to hurt people. So I close myself up normally and keep my distance. Tbh. When I push people away. I wish they would just hug me & stay. But...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F Jun 20

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    I crave close relationships with people

    but I always end up pushing friends away cause I feel like they don't know the real me or something. When I'm alone I feel lonely and want to be with friends but when I'm with friends I just want to be alone. What gives?!
    marskie05 marskie05 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 23

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    Friends travel in and out of my life constantly.

    I am a difficult person and I tend to shut down. I turn off the world. I wish I could find a way to fix myself. But it's just who I am.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    I never used to be like this,

    but ever since I lost my first best friend in 8th grade, I feel like something happened to me. Like I never want another person to be that close to me because I'm afraid of getting hurt. It could also be that everyone around me is kind of a jerk… and I don't mean thats their...
    dessertqueen dessertqueen 16-17, F Feb 27

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    Im Too Scared To Be Hurt.... So I Push U Away

    i let my first boyfriend get way too close to me and he took over my life at a young age. He controlled my thoughts, my actions and my friendships. He dictated my life for 8 years and i lost my identity as well as all my friends. So when the next man came along i was very stand...
    Happymum1313 Happymum1313 26-30, F Aug 1, 2012

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    Please Just Go Away...but Stay.

    You're so flipping irritating and clingy. I appreciate and am grateful for all the care that you show to me, but I don't like the extents you go to to show me how much you like/care about me. It was cute for a little bit, but then it just got annoying. And then you act all hurt...
    behindthefacade behindthefacade 16-17, F Jun 16, 2012

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    I push people away. I can get deep involved

    with myself at times. I forget the ones important to me. I fear I'm losing my wife because of this. I don't have many friends a few that I don't really talk to too often. I don't like much socializing anyways but I do enjoy one on one conversations from time to time. My wife and...
    brza1 brza1 36-40, M 1 Response May 28

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    And don't know how to stop.

    Had so many opportunities to be 'happy' but something stops me. It's like something isn't quite right
    arabella1108 arabella1108 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I hate people. Just everything in our nature.

    Our human nature to get jealous. Our human nature to make bad mistakes, which can f-up everything. &So much more. I just don't understand why we're created like this. Of course sometimes it can do good but and can also do bad. Oh, and what about our human nature feelings. Like...
    ThatGirlAhtumn ThatGirlAhtumn 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2013

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    I Done It Again and i will pay the price.

    . I said i would't push you away again but you made me feel rejected in so many ways and it hurt me so my walls went up and i pushed you away. I felt you did't want me in your life anyways so maybe i done the right thing? I feel so mad at myself for doing it again but i can't...
    Raindrops18 Raindrops18 36-40, F Jun 18

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    I Feel Comfortable Being Alone

     I am friendly with everyone, easy to talk with, a good listner and can make peaple laugh. But there is always this red line, a front that I can't let people pass it. Once I feel that I am getting closer with anyone, I withdraw immediatly, especially with friends. I ...
    ransha ransha 26-30, F 9 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    I Can'T Stop

    Over th years i'm not too sure how or when I did pick it up, but I've been pushing people from getting close to me almost every and any aspect. Family, relationships, friendships, etc... And its become almost a subconcious addiction,like a safey mechanism that should only be a...
    lon3lygam3r lon3lygam3r 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 30, 2013

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    I keep pushing people away

    when all I really want is a hug
    InternetKid905 InternetKid905 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    Oh My, There's A Group For Everything, Eh?

    Okay, well I could probably write a book on this particular topic because it has truthfully been the story of my life.  I consider myself to be a pretty good guy with a pretty bad past when it comes to family and that has caused terrible trust issues.  I make a great...
    lonely031 lonely031 31-35 Dec 4, 2011

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    Whenever I get attached to someone I think,

    this is going to hurt like a mother ******
    Wynnieskye Wynnieskye 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I always do! I learned

    that from my father and now I'm in therapy ! Why do we do it?
    rubysmom rubysmom 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    I keep pushing away the one good thing I have

    in my life. I'm so insecure and I guess you could say paranoid when it comes to my boyfriend about the dumbest things. We have a rocky last with him cheating on my with my best friend, ex friend now. So the past has brought on so many problems. He hides his plans from me and it...
    courtneyxchaos courtneyxchaos 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I am a type of person

    who cares for people close to then but ends up hurting them unintentionally.
    scarredbutrelentless scarredbutrelentless 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5

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    ... Yeah...

    I sure do. I get attached way too easy.. and my heart goes all out. and I've been done with it. I'm kinda tired of "my friends" stepping on it.. like I'm some kind of rock to kick when they're bored or pissed off about something. Not my fault your life sucks. Everyone has...
    Cosreal Cosreal 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2012

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    I'm pushing my family away sometimes they are

    nice people and this is an awful thing to write . I talk to them sometimes but I'm trying to spend as little time with them as possible these days. I don't feel that they fully understand me. I think the dynamics between us are somewhat better than they used to be, ( at least...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 27

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    I have trust issues. I want a friend I can talk

    to and feel like I'm free to say anything. A friend I'm not nervous or scared to talk to. And she will be with me through hard times, not just the good times. I just want someone who actually cares about me. She would tell me if I'm right or I'm being a jerk. She would be honest...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F May 11

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    I Push People Away

    I have a big problem with pushing people away.... I have huge trust issues and when they come close to me I end up pushing them away when I don't want to...I just don't want to get hurt like I did in the past... and I push them away so I won't be sad when they walk out my life...
    rae16 rae16 18-21, F 4 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Yep. I just broke up with my Girlfriend cause I

    Refuse to let myself get hurt, but it still hurts like hell.
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Whatever

    Well, there's a reason I do it. Most of the people I associate with are dickheads! They just dont give a **** about anyone other than themselves, including the *person* I confided in most. I just hate the human ******* race
    LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou 18-21, F 3 Responses May 17, 2008

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    I'm use to losing people

    that it doesn't even hurt anymore. I hate the feeling I get when I know it's inevitable. That because of how I am, people won't like me. But I know that I can't change it. I'm not gonna worry about it. Just gonna do school and live my life.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    I push people away, guys especially.

    They did nothing wrong but I hate getting attached. Once they start liking me, I get scared and annoyed. Ill feel pressured and I hate it. And the worst part is ill end up feeling guilty and lonely. I feel lonely all the time. Im scared of getting attached.
    blcvk blcvk 16-17, F Jul 12

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    Sure Way - If You Get to Close ....

    I know that this is a defense mechanism, but I can't stop. When I care for you, and you start getting to close to the 'real' me, the one who hurts, who is scared, who really needs you -- I will push you away.  It hurts me to do this - but it is so much...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 22, 2009

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    You people walked away

    but I am not surprised. Why? Because this isn't the first time. I dont mind though. I befriended you but I bored you with being myself. So goodbye friends. Just know that if I befriended you, I'll be here as a friend for you. Just know that you have someone to talk to when...
    scarredbutrelentless scarredbutrelentless 18-21, M Jun 7

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    I have commitment issues

    so when someone starts to get close I get scared and I try to push them away. I don't like doing this because I often care about the people I'm pushing away. Like my exes I've broken up with all my bfs after they told me they loved me I don't know why and then they continue to...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 1 Response Jan 2

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    Since I was a young girl I always loved the

    thought of being in love, getting married and having the fairy-tale life. I thought this until my dad broke my heart he was the first person to do this and I never thought somebody could do this to anyone let alone their daughter. My mum helped build my broken heart over the...
    undefinedhope undefinedhope 18-21, F Feb 13

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    Good and Bad?

     I've always pushed people away. Okay, not pushed, but shoved.  I guess in some ways it proves to be useful.  I don't have "fake" friends.  On the other hand, I assume I miss a lot of potential relationships.   
    Seattlegirl Seattlegirl 16-18, F 2 Responses Mar 2, 2008

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    A guy, a jerk said he cared

    for me. I really want to believe it but i know it's fake. Love i will never feel it ever.
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I don't want to push people away

    but I'm afraid I'll hurt them either way
    InternetKid905 InternetKid905 13-15, F Sep 14

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    I've Changed Because Of You

    It feels like EP is the only place where people can understand this.  More than that, there are people here who actually do it. I feel the strong urge - a sad urge - to push you away ...  because I'm afraid of hurting you. So go on, please just go away.  Go back...
    TheThird TheThird 36-40 1 Response Aug 8, 2010

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    I'm tearing apart my relationship with my

    boyfriend whom I love. I can't seem to let myself be happy.
    Encumbered Encumbered 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    A Void

    Sometimes I don't believe it's possible for anyone to infiltrate the heavily guarded fortress that is my psyche. If they somehow do manage to get close to the heart of "me" (probably because I've stupidly let them in), I quickly and unconsciously adjust my labyrinth walls, and...
    AllySecretSubmissive AllySecretSubmissive 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2011

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    I pushed my so called best friend away

    because he changed since he lost weight. Now that he's in shape he's confidence went sky high and speaks before he thinks I've been biting my tongue because I hate arguing with him but I can't take it anymore. He keeps texting and messaging me I don't know how to make him...
    IamaKhaleesi IamaKhaleesi 22-25, F Jun 18

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    This is about the 5th time this has happened.

    I talk to a girl for a couple weeks, get to know her, we start to like each other. Then it is like a switch goes off in my brain. I lose all interest, i turn reclusive, and just want to be left alone. Slowly conversation degrades till we lose touch, then I feel a great sense of...
    System113 System113 18-21, M Jul 3

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    I push people away when all I really want is

    someone to hug me and tell me it's okay.
    skeletonskater skeletonskater 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I try so hard not too

    but I know they'll leave when they realize how annoying,immature,and hideous I am as a person, so I have too.today my aunt told me she thinks I'm embarrassed of my family but it's the exact opposite I feel like I come short to my families expectations
    xosydneeox xosydneeox 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    It's Not Me.. It's Someone I Care About...

    I've been having a hard time dealing with it, she keeps pushing me away and I miss her.. I really do.. . I wanna talk to her, hear her voice, tell her I'm just here, but I don't know what to do.. I haven't done anything wrong.... So I needed a friend's advice.. I asked a friend...
    jazzME jazzME 26-30, F Oct 30, 2011

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