I Put Up Walls

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 265 People

    I Wish I Didnt...

    but I do. And it doesnt take much anymore. As soon as I feel threatened, ....ashamed.... embarrassed...hurt.....I put up a wall. Its a defense mechanism I guess...and I use sarcasm to decorate my wall. I hang pictures of him...of you...of her...all my pains on their individual...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 5, 2012

    I've been used and used

    so many times.. Do people not see that? I won't let anyone hurt me anymore.. I've put up these REALLY strong walls and it's hard to let it down because when I do and I'm kind.. I get used again. Life sucks.
    AriannaMariee AriannaMariee
    18-21, F
    May 30, 2014

    I Do. Thick And High Walls

    I remember back in 2008 when i first talking to my muse, i asked him if he was afraid of heights, meaning to climb my walls...the fortess i build around my heart and soul...he giggled and said "i dont have a ladder high enough, i'll have to find another way"...when i told hubby...
    WindyCityCat WindyCityCat
    41-45, F
    Sep 20, 2010

    I've built walls, A fortress deep

    and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain. It's laughter and it's loving I disdain. I am a rock, I am an island.
    Arcadeus Arcadeus
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 30, 2014

    I have a massive wall up right now.

    isolation is bad period but at the same time human beings irritate me or let me down so often, and I cant trust myself to always say the right thing so being around nothing, nature, or animals is better and it comes with no expectations unlike people....even ourselves.
    Clipz4her Clipz4her
    26-30, F
    Sep 15, 2015
    copenhagenkyle copenhagenkyle
    18-21, M
    Apr 1

    I let people in for a while,

    and end up having to throw them out. I should just stop trying because it never works out. I just had an anxiety attack because of someone I let in. Why is it always me?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 7, 2015

    You'll be her knight in shining armor,

    but not mine? You'll turn to her rescue, yet won't come to mine...is that fair? I know you two have history, but seriously. She's not the only one hurting.
    mystiere13 mystiere13
    16-17, F
    Mar 16, 2015

    I've always had my defenses up.

    Always trying to be 20ft tall and cold as ice, yet in reality I'm far from it. I've come to the decision that it's time I be the real me. If I survived my past and I'm still here then I can survive anything. I don't need those walls. All they do is stop me from truly living...
    ChainedHeart ChainedHeart
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 18, 2015

    Because i always get hurt

    when i let people in. I will not hesitate to deny you access into these walls if i feel like it. Call me cold hearted or not willing to move on if you want to. I know thats what im doing and until i know for sure whether or not i have let the love of my life get away i will...
    violet1698 violet1698
    31-35, F
    Aug 12, 2014

    I try so hard not to cry

    so much it's getting ridicules the only time I find it's acceptable for me to cry is during either a) a funeral b) a film. I feel as though I have to be strong for others it's not that I'm a cold person it's just I've had my heart broken too many times so I keep people at arms...
    snazzygal3000 snazzygal3000
    16-17, F
    May 2, 2014

    Only about three people know what goes on in my

    head. My worries My fears My failures And my stresses. These people: my best friend, her sister (who is my youth group leader), and one of my really close friends who I recently told the night before Memorial Day while we were laying on her trampoline for two hours and...
    musicgirl0213 musicgirl0213
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 30, 2014

    It's not hard to gain my trust

    but it's very easy to lose it. I've been backed stabbed so many times that I've lost count. Either they were looking for another friend and I was just the middle man or I was kicked out of the group. It f***ing sucks to be kicked out.
    AManOfFewWords AManOfFewWords
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Sep 9, 2015

    I Put Up Walls.

    I put up walls for different reasons. I learned to do this when I was very young. If I were to see something I didn't like or being in the presence of someone who made me feel uncomfortable, I would run away. People who are always negative (even in positive atmosphere) and those...
    macadamx macadamx
    26-30, M
    Jul 29, 2013
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