I have been playing upright bass for almost 5 years now. For the majority of that time it was my release, my outlet for everything I couldn't handle. But what does one do when that outlet suddenly becomes another source of stress and pain?  ...
please don't fall with me.
I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave.
And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning, please don't drown with me.
Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me.
And you think I don't read every message that you send?
You think I turn...
accident when I was young at age 3 . And there are times I would be trying to do something and my left hand just would not cooperate . That is when I hate myself and wish I was normal like every one else .
since the 28th of November. I picked a dance over my boyfriend at the time. Now we've gone separate ways. I think of him often, but I'm not sure I cross his mind. I never should have even gone to the dance. It was stupid and the guy I went with hated it. It's hard to see my ex...
..a lot actually for so many all over the place reasons...- I hate myself because in my younger days I was such a messed up, destructive person to people, close and not close. I have BPD / BP2 and it ran me hard, being I knew nothing about them at the time, so I was caught up in...
awful things. I test people I care about to see if they care. I hang with people I don't care about so those I do don't hurt me. I go with those who I can fake a friendship. I lie and make it seem as if I don't care when I care so much. I love someone who dose not love me and am...
to hang your head
on my wall
the slightest taxidermy
thrills me. Fish
on the living-room wall—
of small animals.
I want to wear
your smile on my sleeve
your heart like a horse
or its leg. Weeks of...
I should be happy with who I am and what I have right now in my life, but I'm not. Does anyone really know how soul-crushingly awful it is to have so many positive things in your life, at least compared to others, and still feel so bad about yourself? Such is my lot in life I...