I Really Hate Myself Sometimes

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 547 People

    The Most I Can Give Is a Sigh

       I have been playing upright bass for almost 5 years now.  For the majority of that time it was my release, my outlet for everything I couldn't handle.  But what does one do when that outlet suddenly becomes another source of stress and pain?  ...
    yuhj7nhju yuhj7nhju
    18-21, F
    Sep 4, 2009

    I really do at times.

    ..a lot actually for so many all over the place reasons...- I hate myself because in my younger days I was such a messed up, destructive person to people, close and not close. I have BPD / BP2 and it ran me hard, being I knew nothing about them at the time, so I was caught up in...
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    1 Response Sep 19, 2015

    I'll always be your second choice ,

    but no matter what you'll always be my first .
    saddisaturs saddisaturs
    13-15, F
    Jun 17, 2015
    felicitydunlap felicitydunlap
    16-17, F
    Jul 5, 2015

    Why am I even breathing ?

    I just want to disappear for good
    oktbby oktbby
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    I've hated myself ever

    since the 28th of November. I picked a dance over my boyfriend at the time. Now we've gone separate ways. I think of him often, but I'm not sure I cross his mind. I never should have even gone to the dance. It was stupid and the guy I went with hated it. It's hard to see my ex...
    jaks26 jaks26
    18-21, F
    Dec 19, 2015

    Change that "sometimes" to "all the time"

    and this page will definitely apply to me.
    Kittygirl17 Kittygirl17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2015
    XxSimplyMexX XxSimplyMexX
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 29, 2015

    I am disabled on the left side due to a car

    accident when I was young at age 3 . And there are times I would be trying to do something and my left hand just would not cooperate . That is when I hate myself and wish I was normal like every one else .
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    Jan 9, 2016

    I am Trying to Break Your Heart I am

    hoping to hang your head on my wall in shame— the slightest taxidermy thrills me. Fish forever leaping on the living-room wall— paperweights made from skulls of small animals. I want to wear your smile on my sleeve & break your heart like a horse or its leg. Weeks of...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    1 Response Jul 4, 2015
    felicitydunlap felicitydunlap
    16-17, F
    Jul 4, 2015

    I Hate Myself For Hating Myself...

    I should be happy with who I am and what I have right now in my life, but I'm not. Does anyone really know how soul-crushingly awful it is to have so many positive things in your life, at least compared to others, and still feel so bad about yourself? Such is my lot in life I...
    Tuva Tuva
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2010

    I really hate myself sometimes

    when the person that I love so much appears I say something to push him away because I feel nervous but I made him jealous of another guy that I don't even feel for but is just my close friend.
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX
    18-21, F
    Jun 11, 2015
    geeconniexxx geeconniexxx
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 14, 2016
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    1 Response May 10, 2015
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    Jul 5, 2015
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 5, 2015

    Well don't lean on me 'cause I am falling,

    please don't fall with me. I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave. And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning, please don't drown with me. Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me. And you think I don't read every message that you send? You think I turn...
    OrangeViolin OrangeViolin
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2015

    I am the worst person ever many times I do

    awful things. I test people I care about to see if they care. I hang with people I don't care about so those I do don't hurt me. I go with those who I can fake a friendship. I lie and make it seem as if I don't care when I care so much. I love someone who dose not love me and am...
    herealways2017 herealways2017
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2014
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