Post

I Recently Lost a Loved One and It Still Hurts

A place to express your grief. 83 People

    It Was Time...

    That nights details are still so fresh in my mind. The call from the hospital that my mother's blood pressure was seriously low and we should come. We knew the drill, we had all done it before. I was praying it was just another time like that. My Dad, 2 sister's, myself, and my...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 5 Responses Jan 28, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ich Habe Meinen Vater Verloren... Für Immer

    Mein Vater starb am 01.01.2012 die Ursache war Alkohol. Aber ich fange von vorne an damit ihr wisst was er mir bedeutet hat: Als ich 4 war kriegte ich eine Kinderkrankheit die bis zu meinem 7 Lebensjahr anhielt. Es war irgendeine komischer Husten den ich öfters am Abend kriegte...
    Feuerkatze Feuerkatze 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Daughter And My Mum Killed In An Accident 20.04.12

    My 20 year old daughter and my 80yr old mother were killed by a driver who it seems went to sleep at the wheel.  I dont know know how to get over this. i feel like nobody understands how much i miss my girl. She was unemployed so used her time to help my mum who had just fallen...
    MetalMorticia MetalMorticia 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Have Dealt With Death.

    It will be 5 years on January 16, 2011 since my mom has passed away. Now before I begin any further, this experience I'm sharing isn't one to gain pity or sorrow from anyone, it is only to show that no matter how terrible a death can be to someone else it is still possible to...
    AshleyCarole AshleyCarole 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Miss Him So Much.

    I am a RN and have dealt with death on an almost daily basis for many years. I have experienced the loss of my parents, friends, and in my profession so many patients both young and old. I have seen times where death was a relief to not only the patient and family but to me...
    nursejano nursejano 56-60, F 1 Response Jan 9, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The morning after my father died in a tragic

    accident at our house I sat my children down and tried as best as I could to explain. Papa fell I told them. He hit his head and was hurt very badly. We took him to the hospital where the doctors tried very hard to help him. But he was hurt too bad and he died. Pause. Silence...
    Sweetman17 Sweetman17 41-45, M Feb 10

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The morning after my father died in a tragic

    accident at our house I sat my children down and tried as best as I could to explain. Papa fell I told them. He hit his head and was hurt very badly. We took him to the hospital where the doctors tried very hard to help him. But he was hurt too bad and he died. Pause. Silence...
    Sweetman17 Sweetman17 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Father, My Best Friend

    my father died one yr. ago. seems like yesterday.  I know he's in a better place.  Wish I could join him now.....but not my choice.  must go on. going through the motions of "living" (?)
    carolynglass51 carolynglass51 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 22, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Lost

    I lost my bubby to an rare extra intestine . It ruptured and it slowly killed him . I was watched him pass away and it hurt so bad...He only got to live for a month. He was born on January 3, 2010 - February 3, 2010..
    HatEWithiNMe HatEWithiNMe 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Funeral For a Friend

    On May 6th my daughter called me from the vet's office. Her dog KongoMongo had been poisoned by someone he loved and trusted.  She was so distraught she couldn't give the o.k. for him to be put down. Out of love for Kong and my daughter, I was the one who held him and told...
    kittyanna kittyanna 41-45 3 Responses May 26, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Never Knew You Daddy

    when i was young my father was unpredictable with bouts of violence.  we never know what would set him off.  it was a horrible exerience.  when he was older and us kids were out of the house, he realized what he had done to us and apologized to my sister. ...
    sunnyblues sunnyblues 36-40 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My grandmother passed away early this morning,

    and her last words to me were, "I love you too, sweetie." Nana, I love you so much, and though it hurts so badly that you've passed away... I am so grateful for the happy times we have shared, and I am forever honored that you are my grandmother. I miss you, and I will always...
    iCaii iCaii 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Grief is exhausting. It drains me from soul to

    toe. Stealing happiness and rest. Sucks calm from my heart. Breath from lungs. Leaving only emptiness of solitude. The echo of life once enjoyed I am now am unable to decipher. Blasts of cold and miserable -- etched with despair. Stop now. Stop please. Stop grief.
    Sweetman17 Sweetman17 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 10, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Guess I Was Just Born This Way

    My name is Nick and if I could tell you one word to describe myself it would be sad. You see I was never normal, nowhere even close. There is no way to cover it and you can yell and hate me all you want but I'm coming out to you guys, I'm bisexual. But right now I don’t need...
    Nicksan Nicksan 18-21 Jul 16, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My daughter (21) recently lost her boyfriend

    (20) due to a sudden tragic accident. Jan 14th. I am still so sad. I was able to meet him only once, they live in NV, I am in CA. I fell in love with him before I ever met him though. I fell in love with him through my daughter and her love of him. Once I did meet him I loved...
    claralv claralv 41-45, F Feb 4

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Loss Of My Mother

    My mother passed away on 7th June 2012 after a very brief illness. She was taken into hospital on the morning of the 6th June with breathing difficulties and a pain in her leg. Little did we know how serious it was but I was told by the doctor that night that she was not going to...
    True109 True109 31-35, F Nov 26, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Sorry

    My uncle . Less then 2 months ago. Same Day we lost my grandpa a couple ofyears ago. Same month as my aunt. I hate april. Now I think i am just shotting off my feelings, and know its wrong etc. But i dont know how else to deal with it. He used to live abroad so sometimes i still...
    lsy13 lsy13 18-21, F Jun 27, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Little Girl

    I will never get over the loss of my little girl Heavenly Joy was born April--24-2008 at 8months she had a problem with her head and spine and no one could do anything for her I went in for a check up and was told I would be haveing her that day so I went to get all the things...
    JessesWife JessesWife 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 27, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Almost two years ago I lost my best friend to

    cancer. From initial doctor visit because he felt like he had the flu to time if death was 5 weeks I knew he was sick a few years prior but I couldn't get him to see a doctor! I feel like maybe if I pushed a little harder maybe he would still be here with me. I keep dreaming of...
    mini79 mini79 31-35, F Feb 13

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Lost My Dad and Step Mom 3yrs Ago and It Still Hurts

    On dec 31 2004 I was 15 at the time. I living with my grandmother and had a friend over for the night. i got a phone call abou 8pm from my brother who told me he was watching the news and saw that my father had been in a wreck that morning. i called my uncle and found out what...
    ncpunkgirl89 ncpunkgirl89 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    Danny I still miss you. You were so loving and caring. I can see you making goofy faces in class trying to make me laugh. It makes me want to cry now. Why didn't I go with you...
    courtneyblue courtneyblue 18-21, F Mar 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Gabriel Garcia Marquez. Nobel prize of literature. Inspired me during my younger years with his magic realism and the fascinating town of Macondo. Rest in piece brother of...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think everyone is afraid of losing someone their loved ones especially the people they are very close with. I just had this bad and weird dream and I know that words are not...
    trishhh04 trishhh04 22-25, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i was twelve, and was coming up to my first year in high school. i was absolutely dreading my first day at a new school, because i had never been the new girl before. the only...
    eviemay6 eviemay6 16-17, F Apr 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My best friends sister committed suicide about three years ago... I can still remember the day it happened. It was June 21. We had just gotten done with our play practice and I...
    sarahjade123 sarahjade123 13-15, F Mar 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My gran died of a serious illness a few years ago, I don't remember which year it was or how old she was when she passed away. I still feel guilty for not taking her loss so...
    HMSaph HMSaph 16-17, M 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
    lilcarey lilcarey 22-25, F Mar 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's been almost an hour since I received the news of my grandma about her health. My family and I have known few months ago her health has gotten worst and the doctor said she has...
    raldy raldy 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    We had an awesome relationship...but then it all crumbled when she met this guy Joshua. She completely changed. She used to be so sweet now she's pure mean. So I told her we can't...
    TwdFireflyy TwdFireflyy 16-17, F Apr 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I lost my best friend when I told her I was bisexual. She accepted me at first but later said. She doesn't feel comfortable around me. I have been bi this whole time and never once...
    meganayyye21 meganayyye21 16-17, F Apr 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Three people now actually.... When i was 7, i lost my Grampy to suicide. He hung himself while intoxicated... November of 2011, My eldest brother, James, ended his life with me...
    TeganLynne TeganLynne 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I got a text message from a friend telling me that one of my best friends had killed himself. I was in total denial due to him not showing any signs or symptoms of being unhappy...
    kiara95 kiara95 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, i dont really know where to start or what to do so i figured id join this forum, maybe it could help ease my mind. i have been seeing this guy on and off for a year. We would...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I can't believe that he won't be around anymore , his voice , his warm hands , his smile...I can't believe that fate would ****** my father from me. How quickly things come to pass...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    On April fools day we had a conversation that ended it all. I thought she was kidding. She wasn't.
    beyondthebreakingpoint beyondthebreakingpoint 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It all started with gossip…she was mad at me and I said that I didn't care right now and wanted to have fun. Someone told her I said that I was talking smack behind her back and...
    Iwillloveyou4ever Iwillloveyou4ever 13-15, F Apr 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    and they are miles away. I cannot hold her..
    saltydog74 saltydog74 22-25, M Mar 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It is not so much that I love cooking ... but it is that I love the people I cook for and their response. I love how they devour everything. I love when they ask for seconds and...
    chocomint chocomint 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Yesterday was a 3 year anniversary of my biological grandfather'a passing Only knew him for only 5 years. I miss him so much.
    smilesx36 smilesx36 22-25, F Mar 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So, my grandma isnt in the best shape. She sits in her chair all day and can never really leave her house. She gets pretty bored and unhappy sitting there all of the time. Im a...
    chooseyourownlife chooseyourownlife 16-17, F Apr 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    "I bleed for you Forever I will lie awake I would Die For You I see the truth I've given you my heart to break I would Die For You"
    LunaOanaAris LunaOanaAris 16-17, F Apr 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    "the problem is not so much dying for a friend. it is finding a friend worth dying for"
    mstud17 mstud17 22-25, F Apr 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I fell for someone I simply could not have because of this persons parents and religion. We are both girls. Um, I love her. A lot. And now I have to let her go. I even just found...
    GiambonaB GiambonaB 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Last night, i dreamt my mom died. But its strange cuz she said goodbye first before she ride a car and go. Me and my dad were really sad. I've dreamt my mom died 3 times now. Some...
    MelodyInMyHead MelodyInMyHead 16-17, F Apr 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    To H.,I miss you so much. But more, I wish I had been a better husband. I wish I had not made you sad. I wish I had more time to love you
    marc19 marc19 66-70 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My uncle Leon. You were an awesome uncle. I miss you so much. I went to your funeral and tried my hardest not to cry. But I did anyway. It's been a few years. I know you're in...
    01sparkly 01sparkly 13-15, F 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My uncle died last night. I feel like, honestly, I feel like nothing's worth it anymore. Maybe I just need time, but right now, I just, I just wanna give up.
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    And when I say recently, I mean in the last couple of weeks. It's only (nearly) 4 months in to 2014 and it amazes me just how quick things can change. One day your life is just...
    maqeurious maqeurious 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I actually still love him but I recently discovered he is an asexual and even though we dated a while ago it actually makes a lot of sense! It still hurts though.
    kitcat2013 kitcat2013 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    She was my dearest friend and I loved her like I love all my close friends. We did everything together. She was like a sister to me. It still hurts me to know that while I'd have...
    engarde12 engarde12 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Having broken up with my ex, about 3 years ago, I went through the usual cycle of depression, obsession and craving. Its not unlike an addiction... So while I was in this funk, I...
    v33rh0ra v33rh0ra 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    On October 19th 2012 I lost my boyfriend to suicide. After a long journey of trying to help with his ever deteriorating behaviour he took his life. I am still struggling to...
    Nats07 Nats07 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 3