I Recently Lost a Loved One and It Still Hurts

A place to express your grief. 150 People

    I've just began seeing a psychotherapist

    for my grief! It's hard ,life is strange, I'm a very strong person who's had to deal with a lot, I feel my past experiences has made me the person I am today! But carrying around all that emotional baggage was exhausting me! My first session was about trying to identify where...
    dahliamoon dahliamoon
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

    Idk if a year is recent

    but my mother in-law passed away from a heart attack last year and I miss her so much. sometimes I feel guilty for feeling so bad because she isn't my mom but my husband's mom. she still meant a lot to me!
    mpthatsme mpthatsme
    26-30, F
    May 4, 2015

    I Am Sorry

    My uncle . Less then 2 months ago. Same Day we lost my grandpa a couple ofyears ago. Same month as my aunt. I hate april. Now I think i am just shotting off my feelings, and know its wrong etc. But i dont know how else to deal with it. He used to live abroad so sometimes i still...
    lsy13 lsy13
    22-25, F
    Jun 27, 2013

    Funeral For a Friend

    On May 6th my daughter called me from the vet's office. Her dog KongoMongo had been poisoned by someone he loved and trusted.  She was so distraught she couldn't give the o.k. for him to be put down. Out of love for Kong and my daughter, I was the one who held him and told...
    kittyanna kittyanna
    3 Responses May 26, 2008

    I Miss Him So Much.

    I am a RN and have dealt with death on an almost daily basis for many years. I have experienced the loss of my parents, friends, and in my profession so many patients both young and old. I have seen times where death was a relief to not only the patient and family but to me...
    nursejano nursejano
    56-60, F
    1 Response Jan 9, 2013

    My beautiful cat died yesterday.

    My grief is agony. She was sick with a rapid progressing cancer for about two months. But we spent five years together loving each other day in and day out. I took the day off of work today and I need to go back tomorrow. But I've never experienced a loss like this. The...
    greensapphire greensapphire
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015

    My Father, My Best Friend

    my father died one yr. ago. seems like yesterday.  I know he's in a better place.  Wish I could join him now.....but not my choice.  must go on. going through the motions of "living" (?)
    carolynglass51 carolynglass51
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2010

    The Loss Of My Mother

    My mother passed away on 7th June 2012 after a very brief illness. She was taken into hospital on the morning of the 6th June with breathing difficulties and a pain in her leg. Little did we know how serious it was but I was told by the doctor that night that she was not going to...
    True109 True109
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2012

    I Never Knew You Daddy

    when i was young my father was unpredictable with bouts of violence.  we never know what would set him off.  it was a horrible exerience.  when he was older and us kids were out of the house, he realized what he had done to us and apologized to my sister. ...
    sunnyblues sunnyblues
    1 Response Aug 31, 2008

    My father recently passed away.

    He was laid to rest on the 29th of April, 2014. He was a great man with hundreds of friends. A union employee in the Motion Picture industry, and a jack of the trade. For 30+ movies, he had worked on films such as Backdraft, My Best Friend's Wedding and Home Alone 2. He was...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 4, 2014

    Funny how grief creeps up on you

    when you least expect it. I lost my mum in March this year. I've lost a couple of friends through tragic circumstances recently also. Another family member attempted self harm. I feel I've coped well with it all.....maybe a little to well. Tonight I'm a couple of hours away...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses May 22, 2014

    3 months tomorrow my boyfriend of nearly 3

    years passed away in a scuba diving accident, though some believe he was taken by a shark. To make matters worse his ex wife (still legally married) came and changed the locks on our house and took everything from me because he had no will and I wasn't on the lease. I didn't...
    lizeh lizeh
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2014

    My grandmother passed away early this morning,

    and her last words to me were, "I love you too, sweetie." Nana, I love you so much, and though it hurts so badly that you've passed away... I am so grateful for the happy times we have shared, and I am forever honored that you are my grandmother. I miss you, and I will always...
    iCaii iCaii
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2014

    Almost two years ago I lost my best friend to

    cancer. From initial doctor visit because he felt like he had the flu to time if death was 5 weeks I knew he was sick a few years prior but I couldn't get him to see a doctor! I feel like maybe if I pushed a little harder maybe he would still be here with me. I keep dreaming of...
    mini79 mini79
    36-40, F
    Feb 13, 2014


    I lost my bubby to an rare extra intestine . It ruptured and it slowly killed him . I was watched him pass away and it hurt so bad...He only got to live for a month. He was born on January 3, 2010 - February 3, 2010..
    HatEWithiNMe HatEWithiNMe
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 2, 2011

    My Little Girl

    I will never get over the loss of my little girl Heavenly Joy was born April--24-2008 at 8months she had a problem with her head and spine and no one could do anything for her I went in for a check up and was told I would be haveing her that day so I went to get all the things...
    JessesWife JessesWife
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 27, 2009

    I Guess I Was Just Born This Way

    My name is Nick and if I could tell you one word to describe myself it would be sad. You see I was never normal, nowhere even close. There is no way to cover it and you can yell and hate me all you want but I'm coming out to you guys, I'm bisexual. But right now I don’t need...
    Nicksan Nicksan
    Jul 16, 2013

    Ich Habe Meinen Vater Verloren... Für Immer

    Mein Vater starb am 01.01.2012 die Ursache war Alkohol. Aber ich fange von vorne an damit ihr wisst was er mir bedeutet hat: Als ich 4 war kriegte ich eine Kinderkrankheit die bis zu meinem 7 Lebensjahr anhielt. Es war irgendeine komischer Husten den ich öfters am Abend kriegte...
    Feuerkatze Feuerkatze
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 7, 2012

    I Lost My Dad and Step Mom 3yrs Ago and It Still Hurts

    On dec 31 2004 I was 15 at the time. I living with my grandmother and had a friend over for the night. i got a phone call abou 8pm from my brother who told me he was watching the news and saw that my father had been in a wreck that morning. i called my uncle and found out what...
    ncpunkgirl89 ncpunkgirl89
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2008

    I Have Dealt With Death.

    It will be 5 years on January 16, 2011 since my mom has passed away. Now before I begin any further, this experience I'm sharing isn't one to gain pity or sorrow from anyone, it is only to show that no matter how terrible a death can be to someone else it is still possible to...
    supernovaChic supernovaChic
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

    For almost two months,

    you've been gone, my white furred angel... After fourteen years of your fur all over everything, your sudden death hit me hard. I'm getting a tattoo, in your memory... I remembered this, tonight, Kitten. I wrote it a month ago, when your loss was far more raw and gaping... I...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude
    3 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    My daughter (21) recently lost her boyfriend

    (20) due to a sudden tragic accident. Jan 14th. I am still so sad. I was able to meet him only once, they live in NV, I am in CA. I fell in love with him before I ever met him though. I fell in love with him through my daughter and her love of him. Once I did meet him I loved...
    claralv claralv
    46-50, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2014

    I lost my mom a year ago

    and the pain in my heart never seems to go away. Everyday I wake up and realize she's not here... I regret a lot of things, things I should have told her. I would have done things differently if I knew she was going to leave me so early in my life. Me and my mom share our...
    CuteMonster CuteMonster
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 20, 2014

    My friend Shane. It was only a few days

    after he graduated high school. Sometimes it's so surreal... I'll start thinking about him and it will take me a few minutes to remember that he's gone. It's heart crushing, every time. I see him everywhere I go, then remember there's no way it could be him. I am not a religious...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 11, 2015

    My Daughter And My Mum Killed In An Accident 20.04.12

    My 20 year old daughter and my 80yr old mother were killed by a driver who it seems went to sleep at the wheel.  I dont know know how to get over this. i feel like nobody understands how much i miss my girl. She was unemployed so used her time to help my mum who had just fallen...
    MetalMorticia MetalMorticia
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

    It Was Time...

    That nights details are still so fresh in my mind. The call from the hospital that my mother's blood pressure was seriously low and we should come. We knew the drill, we had all done it before. I was praying it was just another time like that. My Dad, 2 sister's, myself, and my...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Jan 28, 2008

    May She Rest In Peace.

    I've never really been through this whole thing but boy it sure is hell. I guess theres 5 steps and im still in step 1 and its been 3 weeks. Yup October 29 was the day but found out November 2nd I really dont wana say more or i will literally cry into my phone. Any advice would...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 19, 2012

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