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I Recovered From My Eating Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 55 People

    I Finally Gained Gained Control of It

    i have finally accepted that there will always be a part of me that wants to starve myself.  that being said, i now know the warning signs and can combat them.  now i am healthy and whole.
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    I Am Trying To Recover From My Binge Eating Disorder, But I Feel Down. Are You Recovered? Can You Help?

    I am a freshman in college and my whole life I have always been overweight. It wasn't until I was thirteen when I started to actually "Do something about it". Anyways bottom line is for about 5 years I was a chronic dieter. I starved myself, overexercised, counted calories etc...
    Moralesleydi Moralesleydi 16-17 Jan 12, 2013

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    Four Years Down...

    It's been around four years now, and I've done really well. In middle and high school I struggled with anorexia nervosa, which went undiagnosed and essentially untreated because of my parents' aversion to psychological treatments/counseling. With the help of my best friend (who...
    lianhua lianhua 21-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2007

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    Recovered

    It has been about 2 1/2 3 years since I have last purged. Which for me is amazing. I feel great! It started in 10th grade and went until 12th grade. And I thought I would never recover. One day I woke up in 12th grade the week before graduation and was like "I need help" I went...
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2013

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    Spoke Too Soon...

    today it feels like i just cannot make myself eat...  just want teh world to go away.  why does this feel so good? 
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F Aug 24, 2007

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    always here if someone needs advice

    or help or anything concerning recovering from an eating disorder, relapsing, etc. I'm happy to help!
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I Finally Recovered From My Eating Disorder But....

    It's taken me years to recover from my batte with anorexia. It wasnt through wanting to lose weight or because i don't like food. I just generally had an issue with eating..like i couldnt be bothered to do it, or i'd put myself off eating something. I really want to gain weight...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2011

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    Ah...

    It's strange, sitting here and reading some of my older stories about my experiences and struggles with Anorexia. So much has happened through the past 2 years of recovery. Sure, there has been some ups and downs, some memories are pretty clouded to me and it takes a lot for one...
    lillybet007 lillybet007 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 30, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    The worst aspect of them is that even in recovery, you never entirely let go of the thought-patterns and emotions that link so deeply with the behaviours that drove you there...
    morea morea 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3

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    When I was younger I never ate. Not because I was scared to gain, but because when I was hungry I never felt like actually eating. The thought of it even made me nauseous at times...
    MiniMe57 MiniMe57 13-15, F Dec 6

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    PART 1 Went through other posts on Binge Eating Disorder, glad I'm not alone. However, its still not a good thing. I've been binging for a while now, and if counting calories work...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F Dec 8

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    I last puked from my bulimia a week ago (I'm trying so hard to curb My eating disorder and not make it worse) And now My food still doesn't want to stay down. I never purged daily...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I don't think I could say that I "had" an eating disorder. I think it's like being an alcoholic. You're just constantly in recovery. I relapsed this week. Mentally and physically...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I've been eating a lot to gain because my clothes are loose but it's not working! I think I just want to gain weight to tell my eating disorder "You don't control me!"but i still...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I struggle with eating disorders. I chew and spit, I starve myself and sometimes I overeat junk food and then sometimes take diet pills and laxatives. Please someone message me and...
    kristen18p kristen18p 18-21, F Dec 9

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    I was 220 pounds.... my mom has depression and my dad always works so of course all I ate was fast food it was easy on my mom but twist I took ballets from age 2-13 now I'm 17 my...
    hsch212 hsch212 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F a week ago

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    Idk, i guess i've always been this way...it simply got worse with time. I'm not anorexic, or bulimic or a binge eater or anything along those lines. I don't have issues with my...
    IAmOptimusPrime IAmOptimusPrime 22-25, F Nov 30

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    It's undiagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have a disorder. Sometimes I eat just to make me feel better about myself. For instance, I was having a ruff morning the other day. I woke up...
    Soccerman5 Soccerman5 31-35, M Nov 21

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    I had been doing so well with my eating, and I just relapsed. I feel like such failure.
    Rmarie17 Rmarie17 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    Day 4 not eating. where tf is my appetite. I licked a spoon with tomato soup on it earlier today and that's the closest I've gotten to food. My body rejects even the thought of...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F Nov 24

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    I want to stop eating again.
    reverofniht reverofniht 16-17, F Nov 24

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    Hi. A few weeks ago i started this 'diet'..which isn't a diet..it's my way to death...i know that. I have a really good breakfast everyday. My friends, my parents, my teachers...
    BeancaBiaa BeancaBiaa 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Purged last night. Saw so much blood but I'm so used to seeing blood when I purge it doesn't scare me. I know I should be more worried but I just don't care. I'm feeled with apathy...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 27

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    Never eating a ******* thing again!
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 6

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    Im falling back into my old ways i cant even eat dinner or anything else with out counting the calories or thinking how fat i am and hating my self for eating that i want to feel...
    desitor desitor 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    There was this one time I was going to make enough tuna to make sandwiches for a few days but i ended up just eating all the tuna probably within 15 seconds.
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Im losing weight... But still feel like **** at the end of the day... Though I'm so hungry, I don't want to eat... I end up forcing myself to... But I really don't want to... I'm...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I weighted myself today...the first role in months. I lost it. Guess who isn't eating tomorrow.?
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hi. I'm fifteen, 5'2", and I don't know how much I weigh. I know that four months ago I was 150 pounds. I skip breakfast ad lunch and sometimes I only have my snack after school...
    Lbh1999 Lbh1999 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    its co,e to the point, that i have panic attacks before or after eating small meals or sometimes a drink
    itsjustlucy123 itsjustlucy123 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have been recovering from an ed for over half a year. I am getting worried because I've missed my period for a while year. What should I do?????
    comfortablynumb9 comfortablynumb9 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I'm really struggling lately. I managed to go nearly a year with very few slip ups. I gained two stone and felt very happy. But over the past month or two I have relapsed. I feel...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Part 2 This is a crazy vicious cycle. I dont know how to deal with all these crap. People judge. ALL THE TIME. People do not look up to me, and i want to prove them wrong. I can be...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F Dec 8

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    They want and make me eat so I have to... Sadly I don't want to so I'm sitting here crying... I'm sorry I'm not perfect for you two..
    vyrlox vyrlox 18-21, F Dec 6

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    I don't like to eat, because that's the only thing I can control in this utterly chaotic life of mine.
    TaylorNicole312 TaylorNicole312 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    So hungry... The feeling of control... Don't eat... I can't eat...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 20

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    and I am looking for someone who understands what I'm dealing with. I don't want to stop right now and if there is someone who can relate.. I'm looking forward to a message :)
    letsequinox letsequinox 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I'm hurt. I just realize i'm too fat. Si FAT. I want be Thin. Please help me or i do suicide. ?
    BeThinAndBeauty BeThinAndBeauty 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    all of the above for the last 5 years
    lilellie415 lilellie415 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I'm really not meaning to starve myself. I don't feel overweight at 85 lbs. Actually I feel the opposite. Like I am too tiny. I feel like I don't take up space. But no food is...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    When I don't eat, I feel so in control of myself. I can't eat, I'm too fat. if I eat, I'll get sick.
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I didn't eat for 3 days. I just can't and when I don't eat I feel better and happy.
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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