I Relapsed Again

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    i havent cut for a year

    that may ******* be next
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 13, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    I was disgusted with myself

    for losing it by eating today so i freaked out and had to cut my arm in a bathroom stall in the middle of school. I haven't cut in months, and i haven't eaten much in days (I'm anorexic) but today i broke down on both fronts. Im a failure on so many levels. :/
    AliceInHungerland AliceInHungerland
    18-21, F
    Sep 24, 2014

    Ah, SI relapse. I lasted 20 days -

    even though I know I could of lasted a bit longer. I know my triggers a little bit better now, which is great and all, but I still feel like I'm back to square one. I don't go looking for my triggers (unlike someone I know who 'likes' pages on facebook of gore-y and self-harm...
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 30, 2014

    On Wednesday I relapsed

    after two weeks of being clean from cutting and today I did it again. I can't control it anymore. I need to feel something cos I'm going I'm going back down again and again. I hate this. I'm so stupid ;(
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Dec 8, 2014

    I stopped cutting for the longest time,

    but school started and so did I. It's been gradually getting deeper, too. The only person that actually cares hasn't been talking to me much. He's been distant lately and I can't stand it anymore. Probably going to cut tonight. Who knows?
    aelizabeth3300 aelizabeth3300
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    I hadn't cut for months,

    then I went and ruined my progress a few nights ago. It freaking sucks. And I'm going swimming tomorrow with my mother and sister so it really freaking sucks.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99
    18-21, F
    Jun 18, 2014

    I think it's getting worse.

    I noticed today they were deeper. I thought after 3 weeks I was better.
    bakanatsu bakanatsu
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2014

    I Cut Last Night

    I cut last night, really badly too. And I don't even regret it. I'm so down hill ill never get better...
    xxxalonexxx xxxalonexxx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2013

    I have been clean from self harm

    for nearly 5 months.. But last week I relapsed and I'm scared that I'm going to do it again.. There's just way to much stress right now
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    1 month clean but there have been

    so many triggers around me lately.. I couldn't take it.
    LexyMarie LexyMarie
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2015

    I was a month clean, my cuts were healing,

    I was eating. In that time I never starved myself or vomited or cut. I relapsed. Badly. Yesterday night I ate quite a lot and I bloat easily so that just made my body image issues worse. So I went in the shower, and I purged. Earlier tonight I was stressed out to the max. I was...
    TheMorticiansDaughter TheMorticiansDaughter
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    I relapsed........again.

    I obviously didn't learn my lesson the first three times. Here I go again down the road I know all too well. God help me.
    hadyourchance hadyourchance
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Jan 28, 2014

    I was almost 5 days clean

    but I relapsed last night I've cut the deepest cuts I've ever did :( I can see myself hitting a vein and bleeding out **** I hate my life I hate myself I just want to leave this earth :(
    SavedByBands SavedByBands
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2014

    I hadn't cut for months.

    . I was proud
    Escapinginsanity Escapinginsanity
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Jul 20, 2014
    ooak67 ooak67
    22-25
    Jan 8, 2016
    AnorexicHiddlestoner AnorexicHiddlestoner
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 28, 2014

    After six months of doing just fine,

    I relapsed with my cutting. I don't know what had gotten over me...I've been really stressed out lately and I can't seem to do anything right..
    Alto2Soprano Alto2Soprano
    18-21, F
    Aug 11, 2014

    i was clean off pills

    for what would have been a year in 3 weeks and i just ******* relapsed again because of my stupid ******* pathetic moodswings god needs to ******* kill me
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 13, 2015

    ****. ****. ****. I fear it everyday.

    .. I guess I didn't fear it enough today because I ******* relapsed.... Worst cuts this year:( I hate myself.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    Relapsed Right Out Of Rehab

    Yesterday I got back home from rehab. That evening I relapsed by going back to cutting myself. I cut my left arm! Damn! I thought I was going to be able to resist temptation!! I now fear the near future. I am afraid I will end up back inpatient at UCLA's Resnick Neuropsychiatric...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12
    26-30, T
    Oct 28, 2012

    Recovery is too hard.

    I ate almost nothing nothing today (I feel fat anyways) and I cut myself for the first time in a week.
    sighselly sighselly
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 23, 2014
    KylieLaine KylieLaine
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2014

    Relapsed Right Out Of Rehab

    Yesterday I got back home from rehab. That evening I relapsed by going back to cutting myself. I cut my left arm! Damn! I thought I was going to be able to resist temptation!! I now fear the near future. I am afraid I will end up back inpatient at UCLA's Resnick Neuropsychiatric...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12
    26-30, T
    Oct 28, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 18, 2015

    I have relapsed for the thousandth time.

    After multiple rehabs And lots of money spent I'm back at square one. I hope to change my ways ASAP. :-/
    Whatever1234556 Whatever1234556
    31-35
    1 Response May 29, 2014

    I have been clean off drugs

    since July, main one was heroin. Other drugs I have been good staying away from but as I have gone through severe depression and anxiety, heroin was my best coping mechanism. This week I have been an emotional train wreck, I felt like all this hard work I have done to get my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    I ******* relapsed. This is bullshit.

    I'm so done with my life.
    AGreenDayToRemember AGreenDayToRemember
    18-21, F
    May 10, 2015

    I am constantly disappointing myself.

    But the blade calls my name in a way that no lover could and to resist would be foolish. After all, scarlet is my favorite color and when it peaks through my skin, I am free.
    Carissamae Carissamae
    18-21, F
    Apr 8, 2016

    I'm sorry guys. I don't know what.

    Happened. I don't even know what to do anymore. I feel so ******* guilty for it and I just don't know what to do and I'm a ******* idiot
    UndeadGirl13 UndeadGirl13
    18-21, F
    Aug 13, 2015
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