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I Relapsed

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    Again And Again

    Last night I relapsed back into self harm and purging. But it seems like the self injury is something that I relapsed back into every other month. It's getting really annoying. A few hours ago, someone also posted a triggering picture that ended up on my tumblr dashboard. I wish...
    JustForTheStories JustForTheStories 18-21, F Jul 4, 2013

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    I relapsed again Saturday night,

    I was thinking about doing it for so long. I craved it, and it just kind of happened. I feel much better now after I did it, hopefully I'll make it longer next time. Summer is coming and I don't need more scars/cuts on my legs!
    trippyprincess trippyprincess 13-15, F Mar 17

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    I haven't cut since before Christmas,

    I go on these long brakes without it and I think I have it all under control but everything just comes back harder. I tried to resist, but I broke apart a disposable razor and relapsed. I did it right before my boyfriend got home and even when he walked in they didn't stop...
    FarrahRelates FarrahRelates 18-21, F Jan 31

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    Orrale Pues

    I fuck1n relapsed god dang it life is a ***** was set up to fail since birth ..plus god is toying with my emotions ....its like COME ON f uCK ............IT LIKE A ROLLER COASTER AND IM NOT BIPOLAR
    AngelTrey AngelTrey 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 19, 2012

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    Insanity

       Here I am after a relapse,  hating myself for it but wanting to go out and pick-up again,  I am really sick and need help but think I am one of those addicts that will never quit, this is my 2nd relapse, 1 after 8 months clean and this one with 11 months...
    LanBobway LanBobway 51-55 2 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I Am The Definition Of Relapse

    Whether its cutting, throwing up, not eating, or getting high. I relapse. Time and time again. I don't know why and I don't know how I just know that I can't stop. However I do know that my mom is such a *****. She causes me to feel like i need relief and I have to cut to feel...
    southernbelle864 southernbelle864 18-21, F Apr 17, 2012

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    Relapse

    I've been battling these feelings off and on for eight years now. Sometimes it's months in between them, but the longer in between, the worse it feels when it returns. This weekend my ex came to visit, and it affected me so much more than I ever thought it would, I ended up...
    PaigePerry PaigePerry 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2013

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    What Else Is New?

    Well once again i've relapsed after i've told myself a number of countless times that I would do my best to stay focused, and remain sober...so tired, and so sick that i've gotten to the point where I no longer make promises that i'm going to stay sober bcuz, there's always a...
    Alan132 Alan132 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2012

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    Yesterday I Cut

    i cut yesterday during church....not the best place to do it...long story short i cut because i felt fat so i tried to cut away at my ugliness and my fattiness...
    bellamajors bellamajors 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 10, 2012

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    The Stuggle of An Artist

    I relapsed, my drug of choice was crack cocaine, and alcohol.  I entered a rehab group a few weeks ago and Ive been learning alot.  At first I was struggling with talking about my emotions especially guilt, which is ironic because i can express my feelings fluently...
    reichofthedead reichofthedead 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 12, 2009

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    Should I Feel Bad!?

    Long story short, I first tried crystal Meth with my two older brothers and my sister-in-law. That was about 5 years ago. We used to tweak every day. Thought we had it all under control but eventually things got ugly in a blink of an eye. So my oldest brother and his girl moved...
    M060110M M060110M 18-21, F Aug 15, 2012

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    I Relapsed For The First Time

    I stopped cutting for 2 weeks, not very long but it's a start, and i cut a few minutes ago, i don't know why i even try im only going to fail, i promised my best friends that i wouldn't ever cut myself, now how do i tell them i broke my promise and that im a failure? I hate...
    Myscarsofselfhate Myscarsofselfhate 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    I Hate This ****

    I relapsed after 11 months clean.  ******* crack, what an evil drug itr is,  I thought I was done with it, was doing all the right things, went to treatment, was attending N.A., have a sponsor and was working the steps.  One month away from my medallion too, ...
    LanBobway LanBobway 51-55 10 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    ****

    Argghhhhhh....I have relapsed and spent the last 24 hours smoking crack.  After 8 months of sobriety.  There were various triggers that contributed to my relapse like excess money and time off work.  Plus I don't think I ever fully accepted that I don't want to do...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Sep 20, 2007

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    You knew I’d fall in love with you the from

    the very first day when you eliminated my sadness and numbed all my pain. You gave me the confidence that before you I lacked but deprived me of things that I'll never get back. The whole time I believed you were harmless and fun; I was blinded of the damage you truly had done...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F Feb 13

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    My Sweet Prince..

    I could never feel this good sober..here I am, I admit it.. The human mind is a great sophisticated thing.. And i agree that the power of the mind overcomes it all.. Well this is why i wanna get so high.. I don't want to have all this "power" that is quite useless especially in...
    Rauw Rauw 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2012

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    ive been doing okay but ive completely relapsed.

    i havent self harmed in a while now, probably a month and everything just got all bottled up inside me and i just cant deal with anything anymore i really just want to jump in front of a train or traffic lately life has been really difficult i feel like im going crazy
    mariie97 mariie97 16-17, F Jan 29

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    Recovery Vs. Relapse

    I have been an addict to self harm and a victim to bulimia since 7th grade but it had gotten progressively worse throughout high school. After a bunch of warning signs, my social worker and my therapist both had me checked out at the "crisis center" just to make sure I wasn't...
    FarrahSpada FarrahSpada 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2013

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    Legalizing Pot

    I've convinced myself that marajiuana is a safe, medicinal and harmless plant that actually trumps the pharmacucdical drugs that are synthetic and unsafe. I am an alcoholic, but pot is safe.
    gcaiken gcaiken 36-40, M 2 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Better Now

     Coming up to six months clean, feel great, went to treatment and it was a great help, feel confident in my recovery and myself.  My spirit is growing strong and my faith is powerful, have lots of hope today,   :D
    LanBobway LanBobway 51-55 1 Response Aug 10, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    the worst part of relapse is all the work that you've done before was for nothing and you have to do it all over again. it's exhausting and disappointing.
    maggieee5086 maggieee5086 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    I stopped cutting for 3 months and relapsed during the summer. I was then clean for like 5 weeks and then I relapsed again. then 3 after that and another relapse. I can't stop. I...
    madybreen madybreen 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Been doing this since I was 13- I was clean for three years but relapsed my sophomore year of college. I've been hospitalized three times. I think I'm getting worse but unlike past...
    adorabletwist adorabletwist 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Anyone else like me? I relapsed earlier this year and regret it. I just hope I'm not alone on this
    palant palant 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 23

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    Okay so to start off I am 17 years old. My mother passed away from an overdose when I was 10 and my father is still an avid cocaine addict. When my mom passed away my sister who...
    coolbeansdani coolbeansdani 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    My boyfriend has been trying to get sober for almost a year now. We have been together for 2 and a half, I started dating him right after he'd gotten out of rehab. I much later...
    mwarre3 mwarre3 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I relapsed..................
    kidrawrr kidrawrr 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Well I relapsed. Shocker. I haven't seen my therapist in 2 weeks going on 3 so that may contribute to it. I cut deeper than I've ever cut before. The bleeding took awhile to stop...
    ncon08 ncon08 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    Me and my bf have been dating for 3 years. In february 2013, we broke up and he was so outta his mind, he relapsed and started smoking meth until he got a dirty UA with his...
    roxysurfergurl02 roxysurfergurl02 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I miscarried this morning and then I relapsed. I'm super depressed and I don't know what to do. I was super happy when I found out I was pregnant but then I lost it.
    icewitch3 icewitch3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I lost my son, 30 years old, just before the holidays, Dec. 18th, 2013. He and I were very close, he was successful, but had this feeling of no self-worth. He had been on and off...
    donnalittlekitty donnalittlekitty 51-55, F 4 Responses Apr 2

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    After 41 days clean I've relapsed with self harm. Disappointed in myself but also worried that I'm going to become bad again. It looks like I need stitches but honestly I'm too...
    ameliap ameliap 16-17, F 8 Responses Apr 2

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    I am a meth addict. I've been to rehab twice. This second time was only a week ago. I am 30 days sober today. Before I relapsed I was clean for 8 months. I have been on dope since...
    morgannmckenna morgannmckenna 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 3

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    Relapsed. It was only 3 days but it was something.
    traemorgan traemorgan 13-15, F Apr 11

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    I relapsed and cut on my legs and wrist so many times . Why did it have to be like this ?
    teenprobs66 teenprobs66 16-17, F Apr 13

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    ^^Random logo for my chemical romance Kay not from everyone. I tell people online so does that count?.... Probably not. But anyway. I was free of it for a while but I have...
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F a week ago

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    I again got relapsed on nicotine after 11 hours of abstinence. Sick and tired of being sick and tired of quitting again and again.
    Invinciblehuman Invinciblehuman 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have suffered from an eating disorder for most of my life. I am 23 now. Anorexia developed in me when I was 10, by the time I was 15 it was severe and included bits of bulimia. I...
    Mslip Mslip 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was 4 months self harm free but then I relapsed. Now I'm 3 weeks clean no where near 4 months but I'll hopefully get there. I'm just fighting the urge, fighting the addiction. It...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Where do I start? The last time was in Cancun six years ago. Then it is almost as if a switch went off. Nothing since then. We have a platonic relationship now I guess. She says...
    panaggie panaggie 46-50, M 17 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was getting close to a week without, then I relapsed severely and now I don't know what to do.. Wrote stuff like "HELP","WHY" and stuff like that... I'm just done with it all.
    PazzaMillie PazzaMillie 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Last year I relapsed on crystal meth but this time I took way too much that I almost died from it. It all happened in November of 2013 when I ended up getting $600 from and decided...
    blablabla444 blablabla444 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So I just relapsed quite bad after a good few days pull free. Both my eyebrows have been affected. Hate when I allow this to happen! My eyebrows are so sore now I can't even...
    TrichWarrior TrichWarrior 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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