I Relive Horrible Moments In My Imgination

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    I'll Not Sing You A Lullaby

    I know you cant hear me, it's just therapy for myself, unwritten words on blank pages, dusty books upon the shelf. I know that you can't see me, eyes loiter beyond the veil, a memory is like a photograph, your face has now turned pale. I can no longer hold you, the warm...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions
    41-45, M
    1 Response Dec 5, 2012

    Burn In My Soul

    In my room feeling trapped;a prison without bars.Stay dreaming of escape in my get-a-way car,or a ship from outer space-maybe Venus, maybe Mars,I just want another place: this one seems too hard.Maybe another state; this one seems to large,for me to navigate. Man, my compass...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 19, 2013

    Weird, Odd Moments That Still Creep Me Out

    Maybe nothing even happened, but I would imagine something worse. I can still hear the nuns screaming at me. Heck, I still can't draw a dog very well. They should have known I wasn't an artist, or that I had attention deficit, which wasn't even diagnosed until I was an adult. No...
    rickie53 rickie53
    41-45, M
    Feb 23, 2013

    Done To Others

    Horrors imposed upon me don't live as long as the horrible things I believe I've done to others. Forgiving myself is usually harder than forgiving others. And forget about forgetting. Usually, my horribleness is overrated and overdone; speaking with the persons I've felt I've...
    auroramaru auroramaru
    46-50, F
    Jul 6, 2013

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