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I Remember Feeling Pain

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    Still Here

    you knowa thousand times i have thought about killing myselfbut honestlyI DONT WANT TOI WANT TO BE ABLE TO LIVE MY LIFE BE SUCCESFULLGO TO HARVARDTRAVELSEE THE WORLDNOT BURIED UNDER THE GROUNDi need to learn to handle the painand if i cant ....ill get helpovercome what happened...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Oct 29, 2011

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    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Feb 8, 2012

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    A Letter To God

    when i pray to you i cry i cry because i know how tired i am i cry because im lost i cry because im sick. do you know how it feel to wonder around life clueless, to read books to look around and not know how it was made or why it was made when i pray i cry ,i cry because im...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jun 16, 2013

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    Fly To Me

    i breathe in you dear god i ask you to watch over the ones that can not be stopped god i ask you to watch over the ones that have given up the people who want to walk that line but cant cant because their legs have been bruised beaten to death by each and every sin they...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jun 17, 2013

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    Dont Touch Me

    there something said about the people who waits for the sun to rise to close their eyes the way they hide from the bright light almost as if they want to be unseen each tear rolling down their faces as the time past laughing at their own mistakes poisoning themselves with drunken...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2013

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    ....

    every tear i feel going down on my face im stuck...confused i dont know whats wrong with me why am i crying this doesnt make since i went to theropy i talk about it a hundred times i have wrote about it yet im still crying i feel as if im deing slowly i dont understand i...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jul 27, 2013

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    A Lust For Pain Part 2

        Never walk away from someone you love...that was somthing i couldnt do . I gave up my frienship with amber because i wasnt ready to face the fact that she picked someone over me.Yes i could have just been a good friend and said "oh i understand ." but when your use to...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jul 30, 2011

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    Rjg

    that is when i well go to the other side to feel something because in the dark my soul is captured dragged in..surrendered to him i am so weak to his lust his touch my core ,my heart,my mind,.. to much to handle at night
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jun 19, 2013

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    Wanted

    i ask myself over and over again am i running away? what if i start to ask myself that what if question? im confused im scared i honestly dont know were im going im sick im drained im pissed im happy i crave arms to be wraped around me not the arms of family or friends...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Sep 10, 2012

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    The Pain That Made Me Suffer

    The pain that made me suffer is intense, It is not emotionally but physically, I wanna forget those days of pain but everytime I remember it I feel much stronger and I learned how to take care of my self. This pain I suffered for more than a year due to PID is gone now. I...
    Ladymix23 Ladymix23 26-30, F Sep 11, 2013

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    Cant

    my brothers in jail .....just when everything becomes great something bad has to happen ......i wish i did not love my brother...i wish it didn't effect me.......im scared...im scared that ill just give up an kill myself..this is not normal..i am not normal everything is just to...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Sep 14, 2011

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    Falling In Depresion pt1

      is it normal to have a ****** up life and still be happy?.....That is what i told myself . i wanted to believe  that i could live half a life and still be happy. What i meant by half a life is that i really was not being a kid . i was in love with a 21 year old who didn't...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Aug 4, 2011

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    A Lust For Pain? Part 1

      A lust for love is a lust for pain. i never knew that until it was over :(.  i wanted to feel love to much that i didn't realize what i have done to myself. being in 7th grade and having you life turned around was something i couldn't control. when you lust for something...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jul 29, 2011

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    Iefh

    people are deing babies are living yet everyone never stops to find answers no one never wants to know
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jun 16, 2013

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    Killing

    .......i have to learn to get over things stop hating myself for what happen and just live life !........i am only 14 i really need to just act and live my age and stop being so dramaticp.s i am  going to only write stories when i have a breakdown no more breakdowns yep yep...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2011

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    ignorance is bliss

    you do not scare people into going into heaven that's not and well never be how you do things its not fear that should lead people its respect, respect god enough to do the things you do i honestly don't know if i well go to hell or not but i know that its not the reason to why i...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jun 18, 2013

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    Hey

    Just wanted to say I'm still here.....
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Apr 26, 2012

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    Shelter

    "why does she cover her face?" they askyou would see my pastyou would see my futureyou would see my presenti have nothing to offeryou may not see my eyesyou may not see the tears i have lostyou may not see the worry they causeyou may not see the hope i haveyou can not see the...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Nov 11, 2011

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    One Down..So Many To Go

    i cant feel you i feel as if your so far away from me my heart is acing for your touch my heart cant handle not feeling you i didn't mean to make her cry i just wanted to know how can someone know what they are feeling is real i could feel the battle she was fighting with...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jun 19, 2013

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    Seated In The Back Seat

    do i love god..see i don't know i am not afraid to say that i do not have a relationship with god im slowly getting their taking each step cautiosly reading every scripture that is thrown at me slowly feeling grace flow inside me when you ask someone why they love god their...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Jun 18, 2013

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    I cant... i'm content in living my life

    following my dreams being in the spot light but i cant be attached everyone dies .its a fact its something that everyone knows yet everyone walks around acting oblivious to the fact...im scared i scared to lose my family im scared to be something and see that everything i have...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F 1 Response May 25

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    A Lust For Pain Part 3 The End ...for Now

                     Sorry about yesterday i began to feel frustrated ....When you blame someone for messing up apart of your life and you  realize its been you this whole time .....its scary ...Why/?      Because you began to.... Well i began to wonder if  my...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Aug 1, 2011

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    Long Time No See

    Ready to kill my self with a big huge knife
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Aug 28, 2012

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    Being Inlove Again

    ...it hurts...i don't know if i can handle these extremely powerful emotions i wanted to tell her that i want to be hers tonight but i couldn't even do that! i cried...every time i tried to force the words...i cried ive learned that being in love at a young age...isnt ok it isnt...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F May 5, 2012

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    God Must Hate Me

    brother in jail moms sick I look around finding MYself being blocked by HER own fears this isnt a game she tells me you lost she screams hearing violets voice again burn thoughts coming back to haunt me you know your future she tells me hold this knife im here with you i...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Little By Little

    I'm trying..somtimes i feel that trying is not going to change anything. sometimes i think about ending it.jumping in front of a Bart train and just leave...leave everything. but then i think about my family and how much they care. then i think of my future. i really want to grow...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Oct 26, 2012

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    Rsoses

    i cant get over it. i cant get over anything in life im constantly going over it in my head over and over trying to make since of everything.life is to real. feelings are to real for me to just forget everything . i cant handle most of the thoughts i feel but that doesnt mean im...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Apr 4, 2013

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    Draw A Picture

    If you were to ask me to draw a picture of my souli would draw you flowers to show that i am growing .........only when the sun touches mei would draw a shadow of my past lingering over meA sky .......to symbolize my peacei would draw you my eyes   that will show you my soulbut...
    violetkillsme violetkillsme 16-17, F Dec 1, 2011

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    Why I Can't Forget You

    Well, this feeling never goes away. The feeling of sadness, pain, jealousy & despair each time I think about you, Manu. You were the perfecr girl for me, yet differences which you stressed out so much seperated us. How could you? How could you leave the guy you said you loved so...
    manesh515 manesh515 22-25, M Apr 26, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    We'll, I don't really "like pain" i just don't care.. I have a REEEAAALLLY high pain tolerance.. Like.., I broke my Nose one time and it was gushing blood out and I just laughed...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F Aug 23

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    So, it's been 3 months since my boyfriend broke up with me. We were together for almost a year. He is two years younger than me. He broke up with me over text. I remember calling...
    Mitsuko15 Mitsuko15 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 20

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    My first kiss was on the borderline between a silly childhood game and a real first kiss...one that had adult emotions behind it, so I have always considered it my first kiss. I...
    KatieInSoCal KatieInSoCal 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    My boyfriend broke up with me two weeks ago after a 2 year relationship. We were 16 when we got together and he was my first love and my best friend. Now I feel so hurt, scared and...
    livvyy321 livvyy321 18-21, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    People say depression is a passive kind of feeling.I digress! Everytime my little bubble breaks and the reality bites back at me,I feel an intense pain on my chest.It is both like...
    UrANUS101 UrANUS101 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    I thought feeling lonely is just for me.. but i can see here in ep a lot of people have same feel!! why we are all alone??what the hell is feeling loneliness ?we are together but...
    CassieJess CassieJess 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I remember when caps on bottled soft drinks and beer used cork on the inside of cap to make an air tight seal. I remember when children would pay games that also taught hand-eye...
    Jones47 Jones47 61-65, M 2 hrs ago

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    Ok guys yes I know I've posted in this category before but oh well it was my imagination. Anyways I actually had my first kiss on a Wednesday. Lol. Anyways me and my boyfriend were...
    katiebug07127 katiebug07127 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    It was a few years ago. My mum went into the store to get some things since we just moved here, I told her I had to pee but she told me I would have to hold it. I never pee outside...
    ilovehalo ilovehalo 13-15, M 1 hr ago

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    I had breakups before but they were never painful. The first breakup that really hurt me was when I was 14 years old. I remember that we could see each other only every two weeks...
    zyakkui zyakkui 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    So I'm a little nervous about posting this here, but I guess I just felt the need to talk about it. I've had what I believe are some very vivid past life stuff, mainly what I talk...
    acerbuskeeper acerbuskeeper 18-21, T 3 days ago

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    I've been with my now ex-boyfriend for about 10 years ( on and off ). We broke up about 3 1/2 months ago. You would think that I would get use to breaking up since we've done it so...
    According2Me According2Me 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 21

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    Ppl who have a significant impact on my life i always remember. i remember them like something pages in a book that I've memorized. If you're one of those ppl count urself lucky...
    000SadisticBitch000 000SadisticBitch000 31-35, F 13 hrs ago

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    It does seem that way. It seems like what "happiness" i seem to feel is always so short lived. then i go into this numb like state that at times can turn painful emotionally. it...
    000SadisticBitch000 000SadisticBitch000 31-35, F 13 hrs ago

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    I was asleep when it happened. My clock radio turned on and i could hear it as i was sleeping. Maybe it woke me up or maybe it was coming into whatever i was dreaming. I remember...
    violet1698 violet1698 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    I was only 13 at the time. I didn't exactly know what love was but I felt happy and sky high. Well, I was a straight A girl and the guy I was with was more of a trouble maker. One...
    Arcencielx Arcencielx 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    I was 13 at the time, this guy was a friend of mine, not every popular, ehh alittle cute, we started just talking here and there, then we became closer and soon caught feelings, we...
    naydinexx3 naydinexx3 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    So today although the feeling of emptiness continues it is defidentely minimizing. I was able to sleep slightly better last night and this morning I got up to workout, im not gonna...
    miae13 miae13 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 12

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    I ******* remember my 1st painful breakup. actually we don't have a proper breakup. we're a childhood friends. we grew up together until I'm 17 and his 19?? I guess? I don't...
    RegineAbiertasPalencia RegineAbiertasPalencia 18-21, F Aug 24

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    I remember both 3 1/2 inch and 5 1/4 inch floppy disks.
    OzarksTrucker OzarksTrucker 36-40, M 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    If we have meaningful talks...or share secrets...or just enjoyable conversation...hope you also remember me...
    LuckyGirl14 LuckyGirl14 26-30, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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