I Ruin Everything Good In My Life

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    I've Ruined The Only Good Thing In My Life And Now Dont Want To Go On....

    A week ago my fiance of nearly 6years out of the blue dumped me. The only answer I got at the time was that I could not be a Fiance and a father at the same time. We had 2 little girls together and them and my fiance were my princesses. When I met my fiance I didn't think it...
    andyprichard1982 andyprichard1982
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2010

    I feel like I have ruined everything good I

    have ever had. I cant seem to feel satisfied and have a self destructive negative nature. Any time something good is going on, I focus on the bad and work myself up into a frenzy. And then it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. Now I don't feel positive about anything and I...
    Fdizzle Fdizzle
    46-50, M
    Apr 17, 2014

    I let past experiences scare me out of being

    happy. After having lots of feelings for someone for months, finally something happened between us. And now i'm really nervous because i feel like he won't respect me. I feel like he won't listen when i say "no" to something im not comfortable with. I've been in abusive...
    corazondeoro corazondeoro
    18-21, T
    Aug 27, 2014

    Sick And Tired Of Me

    Im such a pathetic excuse. I destroy...hurt...poison. I make myself vomit. What is wrong with me...why dont i ever feel worthy. I dont feel like i bring anything good...I know i dont. Im just so tired of letting myself down. this is what i have become..a fake..a fraud..and...
    againreally againreally
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2012

    Recently

    I got into a fight with pretty much my only friend over something simple. I'm afraid I've lost her. She hasn't talked to me in days. I always do stuff like this. To make it worse, right after that one of my ex-friends confessed they stopped being friends with me because they love...
    BlenderDear BlenderDear
    22-25, F
    Oct 26, 2013

    i thought i had found the perfect guy

    for me. i thought he understood my anxiety and my need for constant attention and reassurance. two days ago he said he'd die with out me. today he barely will talk to me. i have chased him off with my anxiety.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 29

    i always **** **** up it never fails,

    idk what my next move is welp
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 16, 2015

    Where To Start??

    I've been on a trail of self destruct since I was 17. Rebelled without a cause and have spiralled into a trail of destructive behaviour patterns.On one hand, I'm privately educated, have good jobs, pay the rent and consider myself to be reasonably educated enough to hold a decent...
    nvrcalm nvrcalm
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 16, 2012

    I found a guy.. Something special he is.

    . He's all I've ever wanted, he's the first guy that I've actually had that feeling that he "was the one" I see our future, I feel like he has everything I need... I'm about to lose him, I'm so stupid, I ruin everything.. My complaining, fear of losing him, all of it... I hate it...
    Dejai11 Dejai11
    18-21, F
    Dec 23, 2013

    I loved that boy (that i kinda still love now

    and i guess i'll always love him) and he lives in another country but i see him every summers but last summer we saw each other for like a week and i guess i ruined every single chance i had/have with me and i hate myself so much for that... i just ruin everything
    unicornbooty unicornbooty
    13-15, F
    Mar 31

    My Happiness Always Gets Ruined.

    his smile...his voice...his laugh. i can't get him out of my mind. when i'm with him, i'm happy..i'm carefree. when i'm apart from him, everything seems to turn bad again. my depression always ruins my relationships. it's all good and happy at first but after a while i end up...
    iwishiwasgone13 iwishiwasgone13
    13-15, F
    Jun 16, 2013

    My Life

    I don't really have an amazing story too share but I feel like I need too share it with someone. Ever since I was young I have always made life difficult for myself, I have always been defiant towards authority, failing too realize that authority only wants what is best for me...
    dgreepe dgreepe
    18-21, M
    Jul 16, 2013

    I fall in love with my best friends,

    who by my freaking luck, don't love me back or end up being disgusted and leaving me. I get attached easily. I hurt people. I hurt myself. I push people away. I say things I don't mean. I want to cry. I'm a general **** up.
    RuinedAndLost RuinedAndLost
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 12, 2014
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