I Search For Myself

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    Why Can't I Be Truly Carefree?

     I miss escaping the idea of reality by traveling/ living abroad. Sure it was "wasteful" and now I am "paying" for having been just a little bit carefree ( I am not all that capable of being truly carefree as I am too much a worrywart at heart and bound...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 2, 2009

    But Don't Seem to Find Myself

    You know the expression "be yourself", fine, but who am I? I've been searching all my life, looking for "it" or at least something. Rather soon I lost any religian I had, I don't believe. And Darwin is soooo logical, evolution is sooooo obvious, I don't...
    denTom denTom
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 11, 2009

    Just In Case...

    somewhere, someone is talking about me. whenever my ears start to burn im right here looking! not really, but its been known to happen, to see if anyone is thinking/ talking about me
    Tesse Tesse
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    7 Responses Feb 7, 2008

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