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I Search To Find Myself

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    And The Search Continues

    Yeah it's true I am searching to find myself, and I am searching for myself high and low and I can't seem to find myself anywhere. But don't worry I know one day I shall be reunited with my sexy self and things will get a whole lot better for the future.And this was my very...
    JimMorrisonRocks JimMorrisonRocks 26-30, M Feb 9, 2013

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    Lost And I Don'T Know Why.

    I’m lost and not sure why I know I’m standing here but where am I Where is here I’m lost and don’t know how I got here Lost and don’t know why Why I’m here Or how to get back to reality Which way is reality do you know? Can someone help me? I’m lost but I don’t...
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 11, 2013

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    It's so weird to feel so sure of your way, yet so lost at the same time. I am pretty young, yet I know exactly what I want to do and where I want to go in the future. I've planned...
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    I remind myself I was never lost in the first place. Like that song. Didnt know I was lost... When do we lose ourselves? Do we really? or just learning and wanting more means we...
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    Not trying hard enough.. I lost my resilience when I lost myself.
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    Ah, it's quiet. All ready for bed but not quite yet. Needed to sit in the quiet and let the thoughts roam some first. Bundled up in my I-apparently-live-in-the-arctic jammies...
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    I honestly find myself very ugly. I am not at my idea weight. I feel like I break out to much. yet this school year 5 people have told me they find me attractive. two of my guy...
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    Dear World, I am aware that there is no such thing as 'true love', that happiness comes through hard work, and that for most, the harsh reality of 'settling down' is just another...
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    When you said apathetic, it struck me in many ways. The most apparent intent behind that was the team switch, from offense to neutral. Now it's only me left fighting, which is a...
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    It's a struggle, but I know inner peace comes from it. Perhaps I'll never be 'happy.' I think I can be okay with that, as I have lost something that was so dear to me, but perhaps...
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    *No connection whatsoever to anyone here on EP; be it human, robots or otherwise. Just some fictional writing.* I have kept my word, kept to what I quoted. I thought it would just...
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    Hidndesires Hidndesires 41-45, F Feb 7

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