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I Secretly Suffer From An Eating Disorder

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    I Don't Know What To Do...

    I suffer from an eating problem (disorder sounds like skin and bones, and that isn't me) I've recently told my boyfriend and my very best friend. My boyfriend doesn't know how to help, one because he doesn't understand the mind of a women and two, he worries and doesn't know...
    mandycat992 mandycat992 18-21, F Apr 9, 2012

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    Selfish Needs.

    I feel embarrassed about myself. I don't fit in with other girls... I don't eat during the day, but when I get home, and my mom has made dinner, I take a few different laxatives and eat as much as I possibly can. When I'm sitting in the bathroom, I repeat over and over to myself...
    slowlyinternallyeat slowlyinternallyeat 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2010

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    Clueless

    I have been battling with Bulimia and Anorexia since I was 11. I have gone to the hospital twice from dehydration, my voice is always raspy, I always feel lightheaded, But my family has no idea. Sometimes I wish they would find out so I dont have to fight this anymore, but I'm...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2012

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    What a Waste...

    For me, it's the best secret I've ever kept. Nobody knows. Some suspect, but it is so easy to make them believe otherwise. "Ana consumes me. I don't consume anything." That's what these pro-anorexia websites say. I am disgusted by them. I don't think these stick...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2008

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    Surprised?

    i have lately have been getting so sick, people look at me and say but why is she so sick? its because i skip meals, i dont eat. i just dont eat. i run everyday, and do lots of exercises to get rid of all the fat. i weigh less than what i should. but i stop at a certain point...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F Aug 24, 2013

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    I don't eat on purpose.

    When my parents call my name to come eat, i eat as less as possible. Before i take a shower, i look in the mirror and hate what i see. I exercise everyday for tennis in order to obtain a scholarship. I weigh around 110 and i still want to go down. I want to stay skinny and get...
    jess53139 jess53139 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    Be Happy

    I am scared, genuinly scared. It's like there is a hand tightening around my neck. With every passing day, I feel it's closing my windpipe more. How is it that you believe you are so in control of everything, but in fact you'll find that that's not much the case? It starts out...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2008

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    Secrets

    I don't consider myself anorexic per se, only because I haven't been diagnosed. Although to say that I don't have an eating disorder would be a lie.  In the beginning of October I started having some health issues, the doctors originally thought it was an ulcer because  I was...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage 18-21, F Nov 21, 2012

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    I guess a lot of people have it worse

    than I do. But I still wish I didn't think the way I did about food and weight. I really don't think body size matters in other people so why do I care so much about myself? I "on-and-off" starve myself and last week I lost around 5 pounds in 3 days and I'd give anything to do...
    annafairy annafairy 13-15, F Jan 22

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    Here Goes Nothing

    So I am new here and I don't exactly know if it qualifies an eating disorder (I am not stick thin yet). I have had issues with my weight almost all my life (I am 15 yrs old) My parents have always told me to lose weight. My mother tells me I have to lose weight almost every day...
    Anonymous1297 Anonymous1297 13-15, F Apr 11, 2012

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    My Secrete

    I've secretly been having a eating disorder and i've been making myself throw up after I eat. I can't even eat without throwing up I'm in the middle of a really confusing situation I either starve myself or eat and throw up. I do it about 9 times a day. I can do silently now I'm...
    666zamara 666zamara 16-17, F Aug 25, 2013

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    I Hate Myself..(possible Trigger For Some)

    I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder because I haven't seen a doctor personally about it. I just told my case manager I have body issues. I fit some of the criteria for anorexia nervosa, but I fit nearly all Ednos criteria. I am so ashamed. I have been binging several...
    brokenangel82 brokenangel82 26-30, F 3 Responses May 31, 2012

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    My Ed

    iv had an eating disorder for nearly 3 and half years now. its been a secret for these years - everyone thinks im really happy and normal etc but i feel so sad all of the time. its like i cant do anything right. i tried to tell my friend but it was awful and now our...
    mia27 mia27 18-21, F Feb 11, 2010

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    Compulsive Eating & Food Addiction

    I'm very sure that I suffer from Compulsive Eating Disorder and food addiction. Nobody knows this. Everyone thinks I just need to make myself stop eating. Like all EDs, it just doesn't work that way. I've done a lot of research on both and I fit so many of the criteria. I'm...
    DietIcedTea DietIcedTea 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    My Secret Battle....

    Its a secret battle that I deal with....When you hear about eating disorders, you think of skinny girls, who just think they are fat, you don't expect to see a fat girl who is struggling to lose weight, and who will skip as many meals as it takes to be skinny. So what if a fat...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    I used to weigh myself everyday.

    I don't now because my scale is broken. I purposely skip meals sometimes. I calorie restrict a lot. I binge. I am on both extremities of eating and not eating. Sometimes I don't tell people what I eat. I exercise randomly. Sometimes accessively. I am an emotional eater...
    Jackiebh Jackiebh 22-25, F Aug 25

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    None Of My Friends Know.

    It's sooo hard to have anorexia and not be able to tell my friends! I don't want to be judged, one of my friends even said that people "choose" to have an eating disorder!! The only person that knows (Other than my family) is my boyfriend! I have no one to talk to about this!!
    Hannahs30 Hannahs30 13-15, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    Depression and Eating

    I go 5 day straighy without eating.Im not hungry ,sometimes I want to vomit from the smell of food. When we have to go out to eat w/fam i worry  that im going to have ti eat. I understand depression and eating go hand an hand, Im dealing with my babies deathits only been 5...
    eyeonu1020 eyeonu1020 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    Can't Stop

    I have had an eating disorder for years. My family and friends knew about it and for a while I stopped, but I started doing it again. I can't bring myself to stop it. Its so hard I would stop for a few days, but the whole day I would be driving myself crazy thinking about it and...
    shellzz shellzz 18-21, F May 22, 2012

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    It truly feels like a demon lives inside my head. I'm so sick of living with these illnesses. When I talk to my fiancé about what I'm thinking about and what I'm going through, he...
    Mileena28 Mileena28 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    I debated wether to join this group or one that uses the term "might have" an eating disorder. I've studied it. Logically I know I do. But sometimes I feel just utterly paranoid...
    danii92 danii92 18-21, F Aug 27

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    So basically i have an eating disorder and i think my teacher was figuring out that i had one and i need to know if you guys think that he started to figure it out or not. At lunch...
    flowerqueenx flowerqueenx 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    About a week ago, I realized that I am suffering from depression. That I have been for about 7 months. I never realized it before because I would just push my feelings and thoughts...
    LameyC LameyC 18-21, F Aug 21

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    The urges are coming back stronger than ever and I'm going back to what I was doing before. I have 3 types of eating disorders, B.E.D (binge eating disorder) Anorexia, and bulimia...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Having an eating disorder and hearing people constantly nagging you to "just eat" really sucks.
    bibaaa bibaaa 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 21

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    I would love to give a big ef' you to all of the people in my life who ever believed I developed an eating disorder for attention. 20 years later, I guess I must have not achieved...
    staleMommyof4 staleMommyof4 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    It's the sixth month of my ED now. I've lost five kilograms , don't feel weak at all tho. The same routine continues everyday college, studies, work , home, the tiring cycle...
    CrushednBroken CrushednBroken 26-30, F Aug 28

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    I've had an eating disorder in the past (November 2013 till June 2014) and just as I started to think I could just have a normal life again, the voices came back and everything...
    liana10 liana10 13-15, F Sep 2

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    Can you ask me stuff on ask.fm my username is skinnydream_123. The link is http://ask.fm/skinnydream_123 thankyou. Preferably eating disorder related questions
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 16-17, F Sep 7

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    I think i might have an eating disorder. I puke up my food. I cry after I eat. And I starve myself. I'm too afraid to admit the truth to myself.
    sydthekid15 sydthekid15 13-15, F Sep 11

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    Finally after years of suffering from debilitating depression, anxiety, panic attacks, flash backs, nightmares & living all day everyday with that terrible sense of dread in the...
    LunaGypsy LunaGypsy 31-35, F Aug 26

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    I have suffered from Body Dysmorphic Disorder for 11 years. I am at my lowest point and feel completely exhausted and depressed. My two biggest concerns include my skin and hair. I...
    ShyRach ShyRach 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    I suffer from Pteronarcophobia (Fear of Flies) In fact, I suffer a fear of most flying insects. However, flies and wasps are by far the worst. When I was a child, I caught a scene...
    Foreigntraveller Foreigntraveller 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 10

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    I need to say something. Please realize when you tell a depressed person (who actually suffers from true depression), that "things will get better" or "you have people that care...
    Jpeavey Jpeavey 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 27

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    Since middle school and before entering high school, this problem has caused me a lot of social pains. I have trouble socializing, even having conversations. My school grades...
    OperaG OperaG 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 1

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    I have a friend suffering from depression but never talks about it and thinks that he doesn't need help. He cuts himself, his "hobby" is doing drugs and he thinks he's ok. I want...
    MistressAlexandraDark MistressAlexandraDark 18-21, F Aug 24

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    In the past four years, I've had two work-related back injuries and one serious car crash. Without prescription medication, there isn't much I can do without suffering from pain. I...
    Jononymous Jononymous 26-30, M Aug 25

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    why are so many females are suffer from loneliness and depression ?
    ShakeWellBeforeUse ShakeWellBeforeUse 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    I suffer from depression for 3 years now. The past 2 years I pushed my best friends away in a sec, I showed a lot of hatred towards my family, my respect was 0%, my goals were not...
    nkbbb nkbbb 18-21, F Sep 8

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    I Suffer From Sleep Apnoea and sleep with a cpap machine with a full mask. I had Sleep Apnoea for 4 year now.
    blackcat055 blackcat055 41-45, M Sep 11

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    Just suffered from a panic attack in my second week at school, and I pushed away the only person I could truly talk to it about. I just ****** it all up.
    LocketRainbow LocketRainbow 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    But I am now worried about my future because I heard the statistics: 40% of men in their forties suffer from this, and the percentage increases ten percent every decade. Yikes...
    KnightMoves KnightMoves 46-50, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    So for the past couple of years, (2011-now) i would go to school and just push through without eating, and by my last year in school I wasn't eating everyday, I could go the day...
    TaylaT21 TaylaT21 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    Ugh I don't know. Before you read this I'm just letting you know that I really hate the word "trigger" it's very misused and it makes me angry. So when I use this word, I am being...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 5

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    When I was 16, I was diagnosed with a Massive Bilateral Pulmonary Embolism caused by multiple Dvts. I am now 27 going on 28, and for the last twelve years I have suffered multiple...
    rmd12 rmd12 26-30, F Aug 28

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    Hey I just wanted to check if I have this or if im doing the google diagnosis thing, I tend to worry a lot in the past I’ve self-diagnosed myself with gingivitis and Asperger...
    baddancer baddancer 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    Alright, I don't starve myself or make myself throw up or anything. But I binge. I haven't been eating as much in the past week or so (Not starving, I've just cut down and started...
    raehmm raehmm 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I'm really not sure what experience this would fit into, so I'll post it to a few because I need help. The past few days I haven't spoke a lot or eaten a lot. I've just been in my...
    raehmm raehmm 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 25

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