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I Secretly Suffer From An Eating Disorder

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    Here Goes Nothing - So I am new here and I don't exactly know if it qualifies an eating disorder (I am not stick thin yet). I have had issues with my weight almost all my life (I...
    Anonymous1297 Anonymous1297 13-15, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Be Happy - I am scared, genuinly scared. It's like there is a hand tightening around my neck. With every passing day, I feel it's closing my windpipe more. How is it that you...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2008

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    I Don't Know What To Do... - I suffer from an eating problem (disorder sounds like skin and bones, and that isn't me) I've recently told my boyfriend and my very best friend. My...
    mandycat992 mandycat992 18-21, F Apr 9, 2012

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    My Secret Battle.... - Its a secret battle that I deal with....When you hear about eating disorders, you think of skinny girls, who just think they are fat, you don't expect to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    Selfish Needs. - I feel embarrassed about myself. I don't fit in with other girls... I don't eat during the day, but when I get home, and my mom has made dinner, I take a few...
    slowlyinternallyeat slowlyinternallyeat 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2010

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    None Of My Friends Know. - It's sooo hard to have anorexia and not be able to tell my friends! I don't want to be judged, one of my friends even said that people "choose" to have...
    Hannahs30 Hannahs30 13-15, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    Surprised? - i have lately have been getting so sick, people look at me and say but why is she so sick? its because i skip meals, i dont eat. i just dont eat. i run everyday, and...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F Aug 24, 2013

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    I Hate Myself..(possible Trigger For Some) - I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder because I haven't seen a doctor personally about it. I just told my case manager I...
    brokenangel82 brokenangel82 26-30, F 3 Responses May 31, 2012

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    Can't Stop - I have had an eating disorder for years. My family and friends knew about it and for a while I stopped, but I started doing it again. I can't bring myself to stop it...
    shellzz shellzz 18-21, F May 22, 2012

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    My Ed - iv had an eating disorder for nearly 3 and half years now. its been a secret for these years - everyone thinks im really happy and normal etc but i feel so sad all of the...
    mia27 mia27 18-21, F Feb 11, 2010

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    I guess a lot of people have it worse than I do. But I still wish I didn't think the way I did about food and weight. I really don't think body size matters in other people so why...
    annafairy annafairy 13-15, F Jan 22

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    Depression and Eating - I go 5 day straighy without eating.Im not hungry ,sometimes I want to vomit from the smell of food. When we have to go out to eat w/fam i worry  that...
    eyeonu1020 eyeonu1020 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    Clueless - I have been battling with Bulimia and Anorexia since I was 11. I have gone to the hospital twice from dehydration, my voice is always raspy, I always feel lightheaded...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2012

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    What a Waste... - For me, it's the best secret I've ever kept. Nobody knows. Some suspect, but it is so easy to make them believe otherwise. "Ana consumes me. I don't consume...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2008

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    My Secrete - I've secretly been having a eating disorder and i've been making myself throw up after I eat. I can't even eat without throwing up I'm in the middle of a really...
    666zamara 666zamara 16-17, F Aug 25, 2013

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    I don't eat on purpose. When my parents call my name to come eat, i eat as less as possible. Before i take a shower, i look in the mirror and hate what i see. I exercise everyday...
    jess53139 jess53139 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    Compulsive Eating & Food Addiction - I'm very sure that I suffer from Compulsive Eating Disorder and food addiction. Nobody knows this. Everyone thinks I just need to make myself...
    DietIcedTea DietIcedTea 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    Secrets - I don't consider myself anorexic per se, only because I haven't been diagnosed. Although to say that I don't have an eating disorder would be a lie.  In the beginning...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage 18-21, F Nov 21, 2012

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    Eating disorder was never my main illness, it think it developed due to my Schizotypal Personality and Depression, but I know what is to struggle with eating disorder...I can say...
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    My adult son has binge eating disorder. We have four children, all living at home, and this problem puts a gigantic shadow over the whole family. My son is totally obsessed with...
    perseverer perseverer 51-55, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I don't know, honestly. Everyone thinks I have an eating disorder. I'm not sure. Honestly....I don't really know what anorexia is...*sigh*. I just know that medically.....I'm...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I have an eating disorder, but know one in my family takes me seriously. I know I have Binge Eating Disorder and I have had it for a long time now. I can't stop putting food in my...
    Marisa67002 Marisa67002 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Well my dad used to tell me off for eating. I always had a revved up metabolism which continued well into my teens. I could rival any teenage boy. But I was active- I never...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I find my biggest confliction with my eating disorder is my weed habit. I smoke pot for my insomnia/depression and I love it. I was on a whole bunch of meds that made me feel...
    FarrahRelates FarrahRelates 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    So yesterday was eating fast food. From getting Arby's, to froyo and then a very greasy pizza. Well when I woke up this morning I thought I gained a lot. Like it feels like my face...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 23

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    I am at war... with myself. Actually, it's more like tug-of-war. My Life is in a long game of tug-of-war with My Body (either way, I consider myself a soldier, but you can think...
    Amsch95 Amsch95 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    So, I think my anorexia is coming back. I've been eating a lot recently, but throwing it all up. I'm sick of doing that. All I want is to be skinny. I hate myself and when I...
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Well, im in recovery again. eating is a sometimes ok thing. Some days im hungry and give in, other days anna's in control. i cant wait to be rid of this eating disorder once and...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Apr 3

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    Yep. I still experience traces of it shining through when I get really paranoid about food, but I remind myself that I never want to go back to that eating disorder hell, and it's...
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    always here if someone needs advice or help or anything concerning recovering from an eating disorder, relapsing, etc. I'm happy to help!
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Dear eating disorder, please go away. I thought you were my friend, i thought you were helping me, looking out for me. At the start you reassured me that everything would be ok...
    pinkisperfect pinkisperfect 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    Getting sick on a daily basis... What was causing it at first was my stress/anxiety. But I a fine, not stressed or having anxiety attacks as bad at least for now, it's to the point...
    advicegiver01 advicegiver01 16-17, F Mar 16

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    I have an eating disorder that I struggling with. It started in highschool my junior year and I was cheerleading. Something triggered it again about a year ago and I am traveling...
    Anarai Anarai 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    recently diagnosed with binge eating disorder and going to start CBT group in May. does anyone have experience with this treatment
    troyabout troyabout 51-55, M Mar 27

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    Bulimia nervosa was my eating disorder!
    cowboy331 cowboy331 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Absence. I've been gone due to my eating disorder and its repurcussions. I apologize to my friends.
    Toukos Toukos 18-21 4 days ago

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    I didn't really have a full-blown eating disorder. I used to make myself throw up. a lot. I would eat a meal then feel so sick and so gross that I would immediately run to the...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I suffer from anxiety and borderline personality disorder. I am in treatment and will be in ongoing treatment to learn how to cope with this mental illness and get the help I need...
    Khentges0728 Khentges0728 18-21, F Apr 6

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    I don't remember how or when I started daydreaming. I just know that it had always been this way. I find it hard to pay attention in class or get my school work done. I often find...
    MsGardevoir MsGardevoir 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Hiiiii! Now where do I start?! Since finding out there was even such thing as MD I'm now feeling very self conscious about the fact I do it! It's something I've done since I was...
    Charlotteee89 Charlotteee89 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I suffer from depression, anxiety, and I think I suffer from night terrors :/ I was abused most of my life, I stress a lot, and I selfharm :/ I need to know I'm not alone here?
    cutedarkandcuddly cutedarkandcuddly 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 22

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    I've not been diagnosed but agoraphobia is my only explanation. It scares me to know I may be suffering, but I have not stepped outside my house since last year. I don't know how...
    pokeball pokeball 13-15, M Apr 1

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    I never realized I suffered from this till a short while ago. I just thought every teenager daydreamed. Then I realized I would zone out when my friends would talk to me. I didn't...
    Dreamer122554 Dreamer122554 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I have arthritis all over my body and I suffer from migraines. I have had a headache everyday for the past 14 years. Sometimes the pain is unbearable.
    Benchar10 Benchar10 41-45, M 7 Responses Mar 16

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    I suffer from Sleep Paralysis and have done for nearly a year now. I can't move at all, I have hallucinations, palpitations, and the feeling of a presence in my room which I can't...
    missmae95 missmae95 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 25

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    i was diagnosed when i was 22 but began having symptoms at 19. i experience synchronicity all the time. i either believe people can read my mind or that things speak to me through...
    Jerrid36 Jerrid36 36-40, M Mar 31

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    Hopefully I can find someone that is going thru what i'm going thru eventho i don't wish this upon anyone! well i get those palpitations/ flutters for like a year now, recently...
    Migs510 Migs510 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    So it's got to that time of night where I feel like a big ball of sadness yet again, it's day in day out...I'm getting tired of feeling like this constantly, I guess most of my...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I suffer from depression anxiety and self harm. I have been on so many meds, begged for help and I will always be this way. I have always felt this way. I wish I was dead.
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I do not personally suffer from Night Terrors but I do in a way. My 5 year old son has been experiencing this for as long as he has been dreaming. He wakes up in the night and I...
    PrayingMother PrayingMother 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Ok so last night I saw my friend do Cinderella ballet. Well after that her family took me and my other friend to dinner......at 11 pm. We went to Denny's and it was the first time...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    Ana and Mia. My two best friends, who have almost killed me, but I desperately need them around. I feel lost without either one. Some days I will eat all day, and feel so guilty I...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27