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I Secretly Suffer From An Eating Disorder

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    My Secret Battle....

    Its a secret battle that I deal with....When you hear about eating disorders, you think of skinny girls, who just think they are fat, you don't expect to see a fat girl who is struggling to lose weight, and who will skip as many meals as it takes to be skinny. So what if a fat...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    I secretly suffer from bulimia,

    i am not skinny or average weight I am over weight and I'm not stupid, I know that having an eating disorder is horrible. I know that I should really tell someone but I can't. I have the fear of letting my family down, I have a fear that people will laugh at me at school. I have...
    falloutsarah falloutsarah 13-15, F Sep 28, 2014

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    I used to weigh myself everyday.

    I don't now because my scale is broken. I purposely skip meals sometimes. I calorie restrict a lot. I binge. I am on both extremities of eating and not eating. Sometimes I don't tell people what I eat. I exercise randomly. Sometimes accessively. I am an emotional eater...
    Jackiebh Jackiebh 22-25, F Aug 25, 2014

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    What a Waste...

    For me, it's the best secret I've ever kept. Nobody knows. Some suspect, but it is so easy to make them believe otherwise. "Ana consumes me. I don't consume anything." That's what these pro-anorexia websites say. I am disgusted by them. I don't think these stick...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2008

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    I don't eat on purpose.

    When my parents call my name to come eat, i eat as less as possible. Before i take a shower, i look in the mirror and hate what i see. I exercise everyday for tennis in order to obtain a scholarship. I weigh around 110 and i still want to go down. I want to stay skinny and get...
    jess53139 jess53139 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1, 2014

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    Compulsive Eating & Food Addiction

    I'm very sure that I suffer from Compulsive Eating Disorder and food addiction. Nobody knows this. Everyone thinks I just need to make myself stop eating. Like all EDs, it just doesn't work that way. I've done a lot of research on both and I fit so many of the criteria. I'm...
    DietIcedTea DietIcedTea 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    My Secrete

    I've secretly been having a eating disorder and i've been making myself throw up after I eat. I can't even eat without throwing up I'm in the middle of a really confusing situation I either starve myself or eat and throw up. I do it about 9 times a day. I can do silently now I'm...
    666zamara 666zamara 16-17, F Aug 25, 2013

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    I guess a lot of people have it worse

    than I do. But I still wish I didn't think the way I did about food and weight. I really don't think body size matters in other people so why do I care so much about myself? I "on-and-off" starve myself and last week I lost around 5 pounds in 3 days and I'd give anything to do...
    annafairy annafairy 16-17, F Jan 22, 2014

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    I secretly suffer from EDNOS.

    . I mostly suffer from symptoms of Anorexia but if I feel like I've eaten to much or I feel sick, I then feel the need to make myself vomit, which makes me feel better.. I'm currently around 173cm (5ft.7)and weigh 64kg (141.1 pounds) and currently I want to be about 60kg (132.3...
    catho catho 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Clueless

    I have been battling with Bulimia and Anorexia since I was 11. I have gone to the hospital twice from dehydration, my voice is always raspy, I always feel lightheaded, But my family has no idea. Sometimes I wish they would find out so I dont have to fight this anymore, but I'm...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2012

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    I Hate Myself..(possible Trigger For Some)

    I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder because I haven't seen a doctor personally about it. I just told my case manager I have body issues. I fit some of the criteria for anorexia nervosa, but I fit nearly all Ednos criteria. I am so ashamed. I have been binging several...
    brokenangel82 brokenangel82 26-30, F 3 Responses May 31, 2012

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    None Of My Friends Know.

    It's sooo hard to have anorexia and not be able to tell my friends! I don't want to be judged, one of my friends even said that people "choose" to have an eating disorder!! The only person that knows (Other than my family) is my boyfriend! I have no one to talk to about this!!
    Hannahs30 Hannahs30 13-15, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    Surprised?

    i have lately have been getting so sick, people look at me and say but why is she so sick? its because i skip meals, i dont eat. i just dont eat. i run everyday, and do lots of exercises to get rid of all the fat. i weigh less than what i should. but i stop at a certain point...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F Aug 24, 2013

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    I Don't Know What To Do...

    I suffer from an eating problem (disorder sounds like skin and bones, and that isn't me) I've recently told my boyfriend and my very best friend. My boyfriend doesn't know how to help, one because he doesn't understand the mind of a women and two, he worries and doesn't know...
    mandycat992 mandycat992 18-21, F Apr 9, 2012

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    Selfish Needs.

    I feel embarrassed about myself. I don't fit in with other girls... I don't eat during the day, but when I get home, and my mom has made dinner, I take a few different laxatives and eat as much as I possibly can. When I'm sitting in the bathroom, I repeat over and over to myself...
    slowlyinternallyeat slowlyinternallyeat 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2010

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    Secrets

    I don't consider myself anorexic per se, only because I haven't been diagnosed. Although to say that I don't have an eating disorder would be a lie.  In the beginning of October I started having some health issues, the doctors originally thought it was an ulcer because  I was...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage 18-21, F Nov 21, 2012

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    Tomorrow I start a strict starving diet.

    I can't take this anymore. :'( im giving in...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Feb 15

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    My Ed

    iv had an eating disorder for nearly 3 and half years now. its been a secret for these years - everyone thinks im really happy and normal etc but i feel so sad all of the time. its like i cant do anything right. i tried to tell my friend but it was awful and now our...
    mia27 mia27 18-21, F Feb 11, 2010

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    Be Happy

    I am scared, genuinly scared. It's like there is a hand tightening around my neck. With every passing day, I feel it's closing my windpipe more. How is it that you believe you are so in control of everything, but in fact you'll find that that's not much the case? It starts out...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2008

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    Depression and Eating

    I go 5 day straighy without eating.Im not hungry ,sometimes I want to vomit from the smell of food. When we have to go out to eat w/fam i worry  that im going to have ti eat. I understand depression and eating go hand an hand, Im dealing with my babies deathits only been 5...
    eyeonu1020 eyeonu1020 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    Here Goes Nothing

    So I am new here and I don't exactly know if it qualifies an eating disorder (I am not stick thin yet). I have had issues with my weight almost all my life (I am 15 yrs old) My parents have always told me to lose weight. My mother tells me I have to lose weight almost every day...
    Anonymous1297 Anonymous1297 13-15, F Apr 11, 2012

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
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    I've had depression for over 5 years. I've been bullied an sexually abused and I just care to much about things and no one understands me I don't even understand myself sometimes I...
    bieverything bieverything 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I just don't know if this makes sense to anyone else. Support appreciated. Thanks. I have an eating disorder. I have had an eating disorder off and on since I was 14 or so, maybe...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    Help... I am 16 years old, and never been more stressed in my life. I am recovered from my Eating Disorder for under a year now but had a relapse yesterday, and it's because I...
    marchdahl marchdahl 18-21, F Mar 4

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    It has taken me years to admit that I, in fact, do have an eating disorder. Ever since I was young, I've been obsessed with my weight. I was always heavier than other girls, even...
    angelique422 angelique422 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I've suffered from depression and anxiety since 6.....
    bribaby43 bribaby43 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    It's hard to admit that I have an eating disorder. I never asked for this, and I'm sure no one ever asks for this. Overcoming my problem should be as easy as eating, but it's not...
    InsaneFlowerGirl InsaneFlowerGirl 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Growing up, weight was always an issue. Not my own weight but my mothers. She's struggled with an eating disorder since her late teens. She "has been in recovery for 20 years". I...
    DizzieDazie DizzieDazie 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    What was the main factor that helped you to recover from your eating disorder? Was it medication, seeing a nutritionist or therapy? My mum wants to take me to the doctors about my...
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    I fear that my boss is catching on to my eating disorder... He commented on it... In a way... Not towards me about having an eating disorder, but he notices that I don't eat much...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 3

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    Is it weird my eating disorder feels comforting like I don't need anyone else as long as I have a eating disorder
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Really wanting some new ana friends on snapchat to share pics and help along. I've had an eating disorder since I was younger, I'm now 20. 7 years down the line I'm still here...
    NavyGirlfriend94 NavyGirlfriend94 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    It has been 2 years since I became normal looking again after my eating disorder. It still bothers me so much though.
    Happybri123 Happybri123 18-21, F Mar 16

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    I have a freaking eating disorder since my depression got worse and start feeling lonely I started eating like a freak and I took 17 kg in 6 months I'm desperate
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Lately I've had a hard time keeping food out of me... I just ate a lot of food hoping to remind me how terrible it makes me feel... Please someone help me? What are some ways to...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 8

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    So yeah, I have an eating disorder, I'm an anorexic with bulimic tendencies. I know some people might think that I can't ever be an anorexic just because anorexics are thin and not...
    s0ciety s0ciety 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I suffer from it since childhood days. I am a single child of my parents and they had a very abusive relationship and also they were struggling with jobs. Though they never abused...
    ujjainih ujjainih 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    The urge to binge at night becomes ten times stronger. As long as I have something in my mouth, like a wrapper or straw, everything's okay. It's to the point to where I need to...
    Madison677 Madison677 13-15, F Mar 9

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    I would just like to say that I have suffered from depression since I was a small girl. Not until recent therapy sessions have I realized that all my life I have been told I am...
    bervie89 bervie89 22-25, F Mar 8

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    I think i found something important about the negative side of maladaptive daydreaming...those of us who have it to escape from the real world because of how we are treated or how...
    Rosethewolf Rosethewolf 18-21, F a week ago

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    suffer from MDD and I have for around 3 years.. I smoke weed constantly but my therapist doesn't know.. is weed stopping me from feeling better
    hgarza95 hgarza95 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I've had night-terrors/nightmares for as long as I remember. There is one in particular that I've suffered from almost every night since I was 5 years old. It leaves me destroyed...
    JaiTor JaiTor 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 21