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I Secretly Suffer From An Eating Disorder

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    I secretly suffer from bulimia,

    i am not skinny or average weight I am over weight and I'm not stupid, I know that having an eating disorder is horrible. I know that I should really tell someone but I can't. I have the fear of letting my family down, I have a fear that people will laugh at me at school. I have...
    falloutsarah falloutsarah 13-15, F Sep 28, 2014

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    I guess a lot of people have it worse

    than I do. But I still wish I didn't think the way I did about food and weight. I really don't think body size matters in other people so why do I care so much about myself? I "on-and-off" starve myself and last week I lost around 5 pounds in 3 days and I'd give anything to do...
    annafairy annafairy 13-15, F Jan 22, 2014

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    I Don't Know What To Do...

    I suffer from an eating problem (disorder sounds like skin and bones, and that isn't me) I've recently told my boyfriend and my very best friend. My boyfriend doesn't know how to help, one because he doesn't understand the mind of a women and two, he worries and doesn't know...
    mandycat992 mandycat992 18-21, F Apr 9, 2012

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    I Hate Myself..(possible Trigger For Some)

    I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder because I haven't seen a doctor personally about it. I just told my case manager I have body issues. I fit some of the criteria for anorexia nervosa, but I fit nearly all Ednos criteria. I am so ashamed. I have been binging several...
    brokenangel82 brokenangel82 26-30, F 3 Responses May 31, 2012

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    Clueless

    I have been battling with Bulimia and Anorexia since I was 11. I have gone to the hospital twice from dehydration, my voice is always raspy, I always feel lightheaded, But my family has no idea. Sometimes I wish they would find out so I dont have to fight this anymore, but I'm...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2012

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    Compulsive Eating & Food Addiction

    I'm very sure that I suffer from Compulsive Eating Disorder and food addiction. Nobody knows this. Everyone thinks I just need to make myself stop eating. Like all EDs, it just doesn't work that way. I've done a lot of research on both and I fit so many of the criteria. I'm...
    DietIcedTea DietIcedTea 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    I used to weigh myself everyday.

    I don't now because my scale is broken. I purposely skip meals sometimes. I calorie restrict a lot. I binge. I am on both extremities of eating and not eating. Sometimes I don't tell people what I eat. I exercise randomly. Sometimes accessively. I am an emotional eater...
    Jackiebh Jackiebh 22-25, F Aug 25, 2014

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    I don't eat on purpose.

    When my parents call my name to come eat, i eat as less as possible. Before i take a shower, i look in the mirror and hate what i see. I exercise everyday for tennis in order to obtain a scholarship. I weigh around 110 and i still want to go down. I want to stay skinny and get...
    jess53139 jess53139 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1, 2014

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    Can't Stop

    I have had an eating disorder for years. My family and friends knew about it and for a while I stopped, but I started doing it again. I can't bring myself to stop it. Its so hard I would stop for a few days, but the whole day I would be driving myself crazy thinking about it and...
    shellzz shellzz 18-21, F May 22, 2012

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    Depression and Eating

    I go 5 day straighy without eating.Im not hungry ,sometimes I want to vomit from the smell of food. When we have to go out to eat w/fam i worry  that im going to have ti eat. I understand depression and eating go hand an hand, Im dealing with my babies deathits only been 5...
    eyeonu1020 eyeonu1020 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    Surprised?

    i have lately have been getting so sick, people look at me and say but why is she so sick? its because i skip meals, i dont eat. i just dont eat. i run everyday, and do lots of exercises to get rid of all the fat. i weigh less than what i should. but i stop at a certain point...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F Aug 24, 2013

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    Secrets

    I don't consider myself anorexic per se, only because I haven't been diagnosed. Although to say that I don't have an eating disorder would be a lie.  In the beginning of October I started having some health issues, the doctors originally thought it was an ulcer because  I was...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage 18-21, F Nov 21, 2012

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    My Ed

    iv had an eating disorder for nearly 3 and half years now. its been a secret for these years - everyone thinks im really happy and normal etc but i feel so sad all of the time. its like i cant do anything right. i tried to tell my friend but it was awful and now our...
    mia27 mia27 18-21, F Feb 11, 2010

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    My Secret Battle....

    Its a secret battle that I deal with....When you hear about eating disorders, you think of skinny girls, who just think they are fat, you don't expect to see a fat girl who is struggling to lose weight, and who will skip as many meals as it takes to be skinny. So what if a fat...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 4, 2010

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    I secretly suffer from EDNOS.

    . I mostly suffer from symptoms of Anorexia but if I feel like I've eaten to much or I feel sick, I then feel the need to make myself vomit, which makes me feel better.. I'm currently around 173cm (5ft.7)and weigh 64kg (141.1 pounds) and currently I want to be about 60kg (132.3...
    catho catho 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Here Goes Nothing

    So I am new here and I don't exactly know if it qualifies an eating disorder (I am not stick thin yet). I have had issues with my weight almost all my life (I am 15 yrs old) My parents have always told me to lose weight. My mother tells me I have to lose weight almost every day...
    Anonymous1297 Anonymous1297 13-15, F Apr 11, 2012

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    Tomorrow I start a strict starving diet.

    I can't take this anymore. :'( im giving in...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Feb 15

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    What a Waste...

    For me, it's the best secret I've ever kept. Nobody knows. Some suspect, but it is so easy to make them believe otherwise. "Ana consumes me. I don't consume anything." That's what these pro-anorexia websites say. I am disgusted by them. I don't think these stick...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2008

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    Selfish Needs.

    I feel embarrassed about myself. I don't fit in with other girls... I don't eat during the day, but when I get home, and my mom has made dinner, I take a few different laxatives and eat as much as I possibly can. When I'm sitting in the bathroom, I repeat over and over to myself...
    slowlyinternallyeat slowlyinternallyeat 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2010

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    My Secrete

    I've secretly been having a eating disorder and i've been making myself throw up after I eat. I can't even eat without throwing up I'm in the middle of a really confusing situation I either starve myself or eat and throw up. I do it about 9 times a day. I can do silently now I'm...
    666zamara 666zamara 16-17, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Be Happy

    I am scared, genuinly scared. It's like there is a hand tightening around my neck. With every passing day, I feel it's closing my windpipe more. How is it that you believe you are so in control of everything, but in fact you'll find that that's not much the case? It starts out...
    AllysonH AllysonH 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2008

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    None Of My Friends Know.

    It's sooo hard to have anorexia and not be able to tell my friends! I don't want to be judged, one of my friends even said that people "choose" to have an eating disorder!! The only person that knows (Other than my family) is my boyfriend! I have no one to talk to about this!!
    Hannahs30 Hannahs30 13-15, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    I had an eating disorder onec or twice where I stopped eating but a little bit maybe a bit a day or nothing at all even if there was food infront of me. this would start fights...
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 18-21, F Feb 11

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    I have a eating disorder but I'm getting better, and eating from once or twice a day, to about 3 times a day but I'm still skinny
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    I have been struggling with an eating disorder (Ana Mia) for almost 15 years. I have had outpatient therapy on and off for the last several years. My boyfriend knows, I was very...
    meanoldstepmom meanoldstepmom 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    It sucks being a transguy with an eating disorder. I get viewed as a FEMALE with an eating disorder, and I'm too socially awkward to tell them I'm a male.
    drugsandscales drugsandscales 13-15, T Feb 18

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    I seem to restrict what I eat, only eating at the right times socially and often not eating anything all day until 7pm. I can then often overeat and lose control. EDNOS (Eating...
    Matineeidle79 Matineeidle79 31-35, F Feb 2

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    I feel as if I am really chubby. My family and friends say I am the right size. I have been skipping meals, and limiting calories. Then exercising even when I am sick. I end up...
    puppylove16 puppylove16 16-17, F Feb 14

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    Can guys have eating disorders because i'm the only guy know that has one
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 5 Responses Jan 28

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    I'm 27, almost 28. I lost my grandmother to a heart attack in May 2013, and I lost my brother to suicide in August 2013. Ever since then, my appetite has severely diminished. Not...
    libbyslice libbyslice 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I have a weird eating disorder. I love to eat chalk especially after having spicy food.
    Samsalsa Samsalsa 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    My eating disorder feels like it's coming back to me and I don't want to have it anymore.
    RedDog123321 RedDog123321 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    Okay so it seems I don't write enough here, so this will be the start into my world and mind. For the first edition I'd like to talk about a girl from my childhood. This girl was...
    Hoboetic Hoboetic 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 27

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    Hi i am 15 and i suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. i have been suffering anxiety for 3 years and i have been suffering panic attacks for 5 years and i hate it so much
    cortneylilymarshall cortneylilymarshall 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I dont know when someone can say that they HAVE suffered from it, when the worst is over, when you feel great (even though it can sneak back at you.). I, suffer from depression, i...
    Soldottern Soldottern 18-21, F Feb 9

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    My anxiety and panic attacks got so bad, to the point where it caused a lot of physical problems, such as breathing, swallowing, sleeping, etc. I finally went to see a doctor about...
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    iam suffering from maladaptive daydreaming since I was a child I didn't notice until now because I enjoy it iam always alone have no friends only anime character but now I have to...
    whiterose2 whiterose2 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    Do any of you succeed in reducing the amount and intensity of daydreams? If so please share because I've had enough of it. Today i googled 'constant daydreaming' and found out...
    Tomster111 Tomster111 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming; if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response 6 days ago

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    His words keep floating back into my mind. How ugly I am, fat, disgusting. I don't why I listen to the man who r.aped me, but I do. Why would he go to all that trouble if I wasn't...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    I'm always switching it up. Someday I'll stop eating period. Maybe breakfast. Some chocolate too keep me calm. Then I'll just drink water and call it a day. I've been back at it...
    IvyRed15 IvyRed15 16-17, F Jan 29

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    So lately I've been restricting... And since I've been sick, it helped a lot because my appetite dropped, and I haven't let it come up much!! I've been eating a mostly vegan...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I have dealt with MD all my life and I can say it probably closed some doors for me. It was impossible to hide. I can daydream about anything at any time. I often zone out...
    spaceyrick spaceyrick 56-60, M 6 days ago

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    Tbh I just joined this site ... So my struggle has been going on since I was little you see I was always compared or go called chubby that I began getting used to it growing up I...
    itsmagsdoe itsmagsdoe 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I've had so many incarnations of ED. Right now, I'm overweight. People have no idea that when they tell me that I should just stop eating, that they are triggering my ED... :(
    sugarbabysub sugarbabysub 31-35, F Jan 29

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    i fainted today for the first time since i went back to dieting, i should be happy. i mean, if i faint, then i dont have energy, if i dont have energy im not eating, therefore i...
    KatherineSnow KatherineSnow 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29