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I Secretly Think I Have Gone Mad

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    There are days were I think I could lose my

    mind! Between work drama, drama with my kids, and my family not supporting me, it would be quite easy
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 23

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    Some days don't u feel like u want to give up?

    To not do anything.. To be away from the world? To not talk to people or text them anymore... Sleeping is worst because then you think so much and it gets to you... And idk some days you just want to forget every memory you have
    fragmentsoftheheart fragmentsoftheheart 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    i love waving at random people,

    because i know for the rest of the day they will try figuring out who i was
    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have brutal dreams like my last dream was

    about a girl being tortured. she wanted it to resemble the saw movies .-. its either I've gone crazy or im just weird and love horror and gore
    SxuccessfuI SxuccessfuI 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    CatWomen21 CatWomen21 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5

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    got so drunk i had to hold onto the ground to

    keep myself from falling off the earth
    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    Mike3569 Mike3569 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    Is it possible to go crazy from being

    so isolated? I don't talk anymore. I feel like everything I say is stupid. What happened to me? I used to be funny. Now I'm just a ghost. I feel like I'm fading away. I just want to hear someone say my name. I just want 5 minutes of personal conversation. I can hardly sleep...
    LeChatCurieux LeChatCurieux 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 3

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    fragilewarrior fragilewarrior 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Imagine a nightmare where you're trapped with a

    serial killer but all your lights are clappers.. So you are running for your life from this psychopath while both of you are just aggressively clapping the lights on and off?
    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    I laugh a lot and act extremely crazy.

    That's who I am but right now I may be going overboard. You won't understand exactly what I mean unless you witness it. But it's how I've learned to cope. No one will question my happiness or get upset at me for being upset if I'm being crazy and look like I'm having fun. I...
    Elliearellano Elliearellano 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 15

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    I was depressed in my early 20s

    and I felt like I could see this bottomless pit I was going to fall into. But it got better. I became a working professional, I have a beautiful life. But that pit just appeared out of nowhere and I am hanging over the edge. I just fell right in. I just called my doctor for an...
    hotwasabizen hotwasabizen 41-45, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    This breakup is exhausting.

    I'm going thru different emotions..... I'm angry and then I turn deeply depressed and then I'm fine and the pattern repeats. I don't feel like this is real and I don't even feel like myself. It's like I'm watching a movie. I hate that I hate him now. I hate he pushed it over the...
    Withmywoes Withmywoes 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 3

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    Sometimes really late at night.

    . to get really fast to another room in my house, I run full speed laughing like a maniac!
    lilmissdgaf lilmissdgaf 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    playr435 playr435 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 13

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    i feel good around people

    who are as weird as me .. I am asking all the people out there , do u feel the same way??
    chaoticthoughts chaoticthoughts 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 23

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    Yep. Im There.

    This last year has been the absolute hardest and most traumatic years of my life thus far.And it literally has driven me insane.YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
    Punk1n Punk1n 31-35, F 9 Responses Oct 13, 2011

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    What Was I To Do

    spring break, I noticed she was always stealing a glance at me her boyfriend was a close new friend, we all went for a vacation together in a group i went with them just because one of my friends forced me all i wanted was to have a vacation on my own, to release some of the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    It's actually not a secret.

    I tell people and then they laugh and say you're not crazy. If they can look around in the depths of my mind, they would take those words back.
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion 26-30, F 10 Responses Apr 7

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    I've made some bad decisions in life.

    Is it wrong to secretly wish that my life is some long hyper realistic bad dream that I will one day snap out of? Maybe I will wake up soon and be ten years old and get to try everything again but this time I'd do it right. Is wanting that so horrible?
    CasperLeGhost CasperLeGhost 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Let me rephrase this,

    I'm convinced I have gone mad.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I am not sure I think

    and behave like everyone else, especially in my internal world. My thinking seems to make less sense than it used to, and a part of me feels a little homicidal.
    case222 case222 31-35, F 2 Responses May 12

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    You Say That Like Its a Bad Thing?????

    Actually I don't even bother to pretend it's a secret. I have begun to revel in it and I may be mad as a march hare ....But I'm lots more at ease in my own skin. This is not to make light of others pain . Just the reflections of someone who has been on this path for a long while...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M 4 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    ShantelH ShantelH 13-15, F 7 Responses Jul 16

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    Sometimes I wonder if the problem is

    that I'm sane in a world where everyone else is nuts, like Frank Grimes on The Simpsons. Because I seem to be the only one who notices how this **** isn't working and that trying the same thing over and over again but expecting different results, is the very definition of...
    Emeryael Emeryael 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    I have an extra voice in my head thats louder

    than the other and it disagrees with everything I say/think unless I say that I want it gone. Its the same voice as the other but just louder and it responds without me having to think of what its going to say. I've had it for as long as I can remember, is it schizophrenia?
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 4

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    I think I've lost grip of reality.

    . I can't tell if the things I feel are real anymore. I'm just sick of being shunned for it
    QuanMarquis QuanMarquis 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    After realizing how much motivation I've lost

    to direct myself into setting goals, I looked up "how to change your core beliefs" as if I'm a robot, programmed into transforming my train of thought on my perspective of life...but aren't we all programmed? We hear our own voice in our head, telling us what we feel we're not...
    blazinbree blazinbree 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    got so drunk once at a party

    that when i walked across the dance floor to get another drink i happened to win the dance competition going on
    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M Jul 1

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    I have a crush on a close friend.

    Even though I know nothing could ever happen.
    JustHereForThePie JustHereForThePie 22-25, M 4 Responses Jul 23

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    Bloody Nightmare

    I had this dream last nite, the entire length of the dream I was hoping it was only infact a dream. But the entire time i thought that " no this is it.. its not a dream and this is crazy" My dream took place outside of a house, just like every other dream I have. My...
    ginger ginger 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2006

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    i keep thinking about

    that guy who discovered honey, like how did he know? was he like looking at a beehive and said to himself " i know those bastards are hiding something!"
    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    I've been very stressed lately.

    With school and projects and those exams, I felt like I was going down. Luckily school is over. But when school was still in session I was going mad. You may think "Everyone has to go through stress in school" I know that but that's not the only thing that was stressing. I've...
    OtsanaWolf3344 OtsanaWolf3344 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    I've been having bad anxiety attacks 3-4 times

    a week for about 2 months now. I don't know why or what is going on with me. I get so bad I can't speak and I stutter and repeat myself over and over. I just get triggered and then afterward I hate myself and degrade myself and pull away from everyone isolating myself because I...
    Morgue13 Morgue13 31-35, M 4 Responses Jun 29

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    going high to a restaurant

    and the waitress asks me if i want soup or salad... and all i hear is a super salad.. wtf brain
    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 29

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    Nowhere

    Run if you wish Pray your legs will save you Cry if you wish Pray your tears will clean your wounds Jump into the ocean if you wish Pray your soul will flee with the water But in all your passion for nonexistence I'm praying you would stay Us, nobodies Here, nowhere to go In my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 30, 2011

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    I wonder just how much hurt

    and emotional pain the human heart can actually take...before it just ceases to beat.
    tenderhearted1 tenderhearted1 46-50, F 7 Responses Dec 15, 2014

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    I Do Not Understand "normal".

    I'm a smart person.....i can tell you what an Atom is made of, what a quark is, what a gluon is, about all the earth like planets we have discovered so far, the largest star, the smallest particle, binary star systems or about how color is actually just a reflection.....etc...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 2, 2012

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    today looks like a perfect day to leave a note

    on a random car that says "I KNOW WHAT YOU DID"?
    kunfirekun kunfirekun 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    the word "sad" can't

    even describe me anymore
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 20

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    I don't know that it is much of an secret,

    and pretty sure I was just born this way. I have a hatter to keep me in check, who am I kidding the hatter Is as mad as I am. So curious as this soul. I must not be impassible. So I am indeed entirely bonkers, let me give you a lil smidgen of a secret- ALL OF THE BEST PEOPLE...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I used to and maybe still get paranoid

    when I overhear random bits of conversation and think people are talking about me instead of to me like I am Mr. Scrooge in the Christmas carol when he's out and about with the ghosts. It's very weird.
    Letmebepatient Letmebepatient 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    openingthedoor openingthedoor 31-35, F 5 Responses Jun 16

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    Sometimes I get these random moments

    where I feel like I need to have a good cry. Everything I hate about my self creep up and it gets so overwhelming I can fell my eyes water.
    KyungAli KyungAli 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    I need help I don't remember anything I lost my

    memory, who am I what do I do ? Who are my parents, and how did I land on Germany? Every thing is so freakin confusing damn it?
    Aamir316 Aamir316 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I constantly feel like I'm on acid :/ like right

    now it feels like the room is moving young getting bigger and smaller. Expan