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I Secretly Think I Have Gone Mad

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    "What's That Bird Doing?!"

    The other day me and my mum were walking down the road on our way to the bus stop, we were going to the opticians for an eye test... A little way ahead of us I saw a bird fly from the roof of a house and onto a grass verge. As we got closer the bird caught my eye again, it was...
    SaharaOdeil SaharaOdeil 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2008

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    Not Secretly...

    I think everyone knows I am crazy -_-
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 17, 2010

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    Bloody Nightmare

    I had this dream last nite, the entire length of the dream I was hoping it was only infact a dream. But the entire time i thought that " no this is it.. its not a dream and this is crazy" My dream took place outside of a house, just like every other dream I have. My...
    ginger ginger 19-21, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2006

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    I Don't think, I Know

    I'm going crazy in my head Somedays I know I'm better off dead
    AlleyFreakingKat AlleyFreakingKat 18-21, F Sep 26, 2012

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    If This Is Madness...

    It's not so bad.   Sure there's more than one voice in my head sometimes but none of them are telling me to kill people.   So what, my dad's schizophrenic and I have a 30% chance of inheriting it... He's killed/attemtped to kill people and animals. I'm a vegetarian...
    SaharaOdeil SaharaOdeil 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2008

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    What Is Happening To Me..?

    I've always had an assortment of issues but lately things have been getting weirder and weirder. I have been assessing myself and have noticed that I frequently have very strong ideas & thoughts about things and at the same time I have completely different thoughts that go...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Due To Recent Events In My World...

    ...let's just say ive crossed over and not making it back any time soon... :)
    notholdingback notholdingback 36-40, F Aug 28, 2012

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    Holy Crap!

    I think I'm insane :PI mean really problems here and there but still surviving. Hell yeah I love this feeling.
    polo8907 polo8907 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2011

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    I Do Not Understand "normal".

    I'm a smart person.....i can tell you what an Atom is made of, what a quark is, what a gluon is, about all the earth like planets we have discovered so far, the largest star, the smallest particle, binary star systems or about how color is actually just a reflection.....etc...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 2, 2012

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    So Many Reasons...

    There are tons of reasons i think i'm crazy, but i have to decipher MY voice in my head from the Goddess' voice in my head. (I'm Pagan) And there's also all this extra stuff i have going on that involves faeries and magic and.... its' very very very complicated, and worse to...
    candiipup candiipup 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2008

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    I Admit I Am Just Not The Same Anymore... Crazy, Mad, Nutz -call It What You Like!

    I lost the plot a few times in life trying to get a job, study, keep everyone happy- keep the therapist happy ... but mean while I was dead unhappy .... I guess that is what sent me crazy in the end.   never being invited ... being pushed around by abusive men... being...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F May 6, 2012

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    These voices are here are not my own,

    and it's hard to tell if these tears are. It seems as though nothing's working. I had medication and it stopped working. I'm on natural remedies and they're not working. I have a psychiatrist and that's not helping. I fear more mood changes. I fear more anxiety attacks. I'm...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    Shut Up....no You Shut Up....

    so i have been having this conversation for the last two hours,before adding here , in depth ....discussing every possibility, checking facts, just talking it out first  .... with myself. we have come to the conclusion... im just fine.awesome stuff!
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    Yes, Yes I Have.

    I feel the madness eating away the saneness inside of me. It's like "OH HELLO NORMAL, GOOD-BYE NORMAL. HI CRAZY!! COME SIT WITH US, WE WANT YOU HERE. YOU'RE WELCOMED. FORGET EVERYTHING ELSE!!" That's how it feels. Have I secretly gone mad? Or was I always secretly insane? Will we...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2010

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    Yep. Im There.

    This last year has been the absolute hardest and most traumatic years of my life thus far.And it literally has driven me insane.YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
    Punk1n Punk1n 31-35, F 9 Responses Oct 13, 2011

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    But It's All Ok Because...

    You wouldn't like me if I was sane anyways.
    RenBean RenBean 31-35, F 4 Responses May 25, 2011

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    Probably am if I have to take antipsychotics.

    But seriously, my mind races with perpetual thoughts of philosophy and science and math and random things that would drive anyone else insane. Sometimes my mind clutters up with so many thoughts, I just have to sit there and wait for my brain to calm down. There are so many...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    I Definitely Am A Madman...

    ...or am I? There's no way to definitely prove that I am a madman, and yet there isn't a way to prove that I am not a madman. I might not necessarily think I am mad, but in the views of today's society, I could be considered a madman because the way I think and view things are...
    MagneticRadiation MagneticRadiation 18-21, M Sep 11, 2013

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    I wonder just how much hurt

    and emotional pain the human heart can actually take...before it just ceases to beat.
    tenderhearted1 tenderhearted1 41-45, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Laughing It Off.

    What was I thinking when I fell for you? Lol, honestly, what the hell was I thinking?
    LookWithinMe LookWithinMe 18-21, F Jun 4, 2012

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    When Did It All Start?

    I have no idea when my madness started. I had recently watched an anime called Soul Eater. And at one point a character had gone completly insane. It reminded me what I had felt before but put aside. A few weeks later I felt as if it had grown worse. My symptoms are these: I see...
    CheshireCat10 CheshireCat10 26-30, F Apr 25, 2013

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    A Conversation With The Parents

    On sunday night, I was quietly preparing my slides for tomorrow's presentation as I watched White Collar when my parent walked into the room and sat down to watch T.V.. They talked about the goings-on of the church until they said something about our neighbors and I inquired of...
    Calicoder Calicoder 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 13, 2012

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    I have had couple of times frustrated could not

    figure way out, most of the time it happens when I can't find my way out. During that time spent thinking, I have hunch of 'doubt' what I decided to do, I shock me if I decided to do it even it's not what I think I would do. At times I felt **** after, at times, I felt I have...
    Puckerlipjunkie Puckerlipjunkie 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Just Plain Stupid!

    At first I was just being emotional going with the motions of my father passing away.. But now i think i really have become mad... I apologise even though im dieing inside out & should be the one being apologised to. I forgive so easily when at first i was close to clawing some...
    LadySoulist LadySoulist 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2012

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    See Out of My Eyes

    I saw a squirrel the other day on the sidewalk and I jumped, surprised and not wanting to step on it. Then I realized it was a tiny squirrel statue made out of stone off to the side. I examined it closely and laughed at my mistake. I was walking away as I turned to look at it...
    realitychallenged realitychallenged 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 22, 2008

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    when I get really upset

    and angry. or when someone really hurts me (mentally or physically) I break down, cry. then my mind forgets things. like.. what just happened. why I was upset in the first place. it scares me
    Krisxo Krisxo 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    Gone

    Meg: Where WERE you?! Cassie: yeah! Me: I was gone Cassie: to where? Meg: why are you here now? Me: I was gone until I returned. Cassie: so let me get this straight.... you were gone, until you returned? Me: yes.
    NarutoShippudenFanGirl NarutoShippudenFanGirl 16-17, F Apr 9, 2013

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    ForbiddenSubmissive1 ForbiddenSubmissive1 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I do think I'm going crazy,

    it's a complicated thought though. It's just kind of hard to describe why because it's all in my head and it makes sense there but not in word form
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 Jan 1

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    Not Secretly.

    I am fully aware of my insanity, more to the point I believe that sanity is overrated. Bland. It's the madness that makes life worth living. Also, the last sane person I met tried to kill me.
    MissRiot MissRiot 18-21, F 1 Response May 6, 2012

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    You Say That Like Its a Bad Thing?????

    Actually I don't even bother to pretend it's a secret. I have begun to revel in it and I may be mad as a march hare ....But I'm lots more at ease in my own skin. This is not to make light of others pain . Just the reflections of someone who has been on this path for a long while...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M 4 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    If I Am I Like It

    I honestly think that I have my mood can swing from been happy to sadness and depression in a blink of an eye the amount of times my doctor has referred me to people is astonishing but I always get the same answer from them we have not got the finances to help you your just...
    gelroller gelroller 46-50, M Apr 5, 2013

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    Feeling Little

    I feel "small" right now.  I guess it's something that's hard to explain... no i don't harbor the belief that i have multiple personalities as i am almost always cognitively aware of what's going on... but some times.... its just like a part of me shrinks...and...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Stickers

    So I wrote a story for my breadth subject at uni... had to hand it in a few days ago... let's hope it goes alright... Thought you people might enjoy it. NOTE: the bits that are supposed to be italicised are in *askterisks* because you can't italicise stuff on here... STICKERS...
    CaitieLynn CaitieLynn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2012

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    Nowhere

    Run if you wish Pray your legs will save you Cry if you wish Pray your tears will clean your wounds Jump into the ocean if you wish Pray your soul will flee with the water But in all your passion for nonexistence I'm praying you would stay Us, nobodies Here, nowhere to go In my...
    frankenstaine frankenstaine 26-30, M 5 Responses Sep 30, 2011

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    What Was I To Do

    spring break, I noticed she was always stealing a glance at me her boyfriend was a close new friend, we all went for a vacation together in a group i went with them just because one of my friends forced me all i wanted was to have a vacation on my own, to release some of the...
    frankenstaine frankenstaine 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    Not Really A Big Secret

    And I'm not the only one who thinks so, either.It happened a long time ago. Sometimes I can function quite well, and people think I am all better, quite sane...but then, life becomes too overwhelming and I snap again. My psyche can only take just this(---)much adversity, before...
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Oct 21, 2012

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    ...

    Mines no secret all my friends think I'm nuts
    teemonkeysocks teemonkeysocks 18-21, F Oct 22, 2013

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    Why Does Everyone Think I Am Over Reacting?

    Everyone I know just doesn’t believe me I am depressed neither understand what I am going through psychologically neither my anxiety problem. They tell me that I am over reacting or that I am doing it for attention because I fake my smiles and try to act like I am having a...
    BeingChasedInTheFullMoonOften BeingChasedInTheFullMoonOften 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2012

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    I Want To Run Away From Home...

    I want to opt out of real life. Just so stressed all the time at the moment. I do feel like a crazy person. I can't get my thoughts lined up, I'can't get things going, I feel so frustrated. I would like to be able to calmly plan a nice holiday, but I don't think I can last long...
    Elpis2012 Elpis2012 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Crazycakez

    I dont think its so much of a secret anymore honestly.
    EdieQuinnz EdieQuinnz 31-35, F 31 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    Jiminy Crickets, How Could I Not Be?

    I comes in waves. The sadness happens when I'm alone, late at night, and I get a chance to think. I think, "There is no way I could be worth the air I breathe and the space I take up." I know, I know, I'm hilariously emo. Im not trying to be. A while ago I was lying in bed...
    Psychosquid Psychosquid 16-17 Jan 8, 2013

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    Wtf?

    I grew up in San Francisco, a very social party animal. Now I live in the Midwest, a nice quiet home in the country on 18 acres. There is nothing I have in common with the locals, no hunting, no Church, no NASCAR, no country music, etc. I now find myself a hermit, closing people...
    neonshades neonshades 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 1, 2012

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    Yes, We Have! No, We've Gone Happy!

    Unfortunately, the secret is out and they make us take meds so that we all get along.
    Jerielle Jerielle 46-50, T Nov 29, 2012

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    Sometimes

    Sometimes,Think I've gone mad,Don't say anything,That's my secret,And for you to find out!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

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    I don't think random urges to take part in

    'sadistic' pleasures are normal. Anyone else? I cannot sleep, I cannot stop thinking, and I'm pretty sure that I will be paranoid for the rest of my life.
    StopLookingAtMe StopLookingAtMe 16-17, F Apr 29

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    Mad

    Who is a mad person? Is it a person who is socially accepted as mad? or A person who himself thinks that he is mad? or Can it be possible that a person is accepted as mad by society and him. hmmm. Tell me think... OMG , I am getting mad????? :P
    Somexyz Somexyz 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2012

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    So, who's to determine who's gone mad

    or not? Much like every other emotion, the individual dictates if they have gone mad. I feel nothing anymore. To the point where I'm suffocating and I don't care. I don't blend in with this cruel world. I don't feel I belong. Who's to say I've gone mad and that I am just...
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F Dec 17, 2013

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    Im so **** at my lover,

    I have argue with him all day, sure I'm still mad, but I also want to be around him. but I don't... I'm confused...
    sealedfresh sealedfresh 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    It's the moments I'm left in my own thoughts

    after having a million struggles with different parties, I feel like I wanna shoot my self. I hate self petty, but for **** sake, I'm going crazy .......
    Gemma3sahara Gemma3sahara 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 23

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