I Secretly Think I Have Gone Mad

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    Sometimes i legit think i've gone mad.

    ... Pretty sure a lot of college/uni students have had the same experience? D:
    farawayforfartoolong farawayforfartoolong
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2015

    I wonder just how much hurt

    and emotional pain the human heart can actually take...before it just ceases to beat.
    tenderhearted1 tenderhearted1
    46-50, F
    6 Responses Dec 15, 2014

    One soul can't live without another?

    Perfect. What if there are two souls in one body? Those two can exist together and what is more they can love each other. But the things change when one hurts another. Then you try to get rid of one. It is really very hard to do it. Oh, it is your personal hell.
    natalypetrvicki natalypetrvicki
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2016

    I have been increasingly paranoid lately.

    first it started off after I did a bunch of triple cs everyday for like 3 weeks and got hospitalized bc I started losing my mind. Literally. at first I thought I could telepathically communicate with people. but I was really faded then too so that doesn't count. now, a month...
    mayflowersspringshowers mayflowersspringshowers
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 10, 2016

    i almost died in the shower today.

    .. i slipped and my dumbass tried to grab the water
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Aug 27, 2015

    I've been crying for months

    now (im lying...years) silently. oh, you could never tell by the way i carry on day to day. everything is just peachy over here (its not) today something different happened...today i sat in my car and cried. real tears. i don't know why i cried (i do), but i did. and i cried...
    surviving30 surviving30
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Aug 18, 2015
    ElSabre101 ElSabre101
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    I really do hate myself sometimes.

    I feel like I'm intentionally being a horrible person and it's killing me. I'm horribly mean to my family members but super nice to others.. I always blurt **** that embarrasses me later on and then I get angry about it. Gosh, I keep putting myself in these positions where I...
    PandaVibes PandaVibes
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Sep 3, 2015

    Imagine a nightmare where you're trapped with a

    serial killer but all your lights are clappers.. So you are running for your life from this psychopath while both of you are just aggressively clapping the lights on and off?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 27, 2015

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    why are clothes so expensive?

    ? i should not have to pay this much to not be naked. people should pay ME to not be naked
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    If you think your crazy take acid

    when you peak have your trip sitter force you to smoke dmt when you breath out have them remind you your looking for an answer then wait when you come back you'll know everything you'll ever need to know and you'll spend the next week trying your hardest to forget it. Remember...
    khenry15 khenry15
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 6, 2016
    skyglad skyglad
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2016

    I did. I am on antipsychotics now.

    Things might turn out okay.
    grayalien grayalien
    18-21, M
    Mar 16, 2016

    I have an extra voice in my head thats louder

    than the other and it disagrees with everything I say/think unless I say that I want it gone. Its the same voice as the other but just louder and it responds without me having to think of what its going to say. I've had it for as long as I can remember, is it schizophrenia?
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses May 4, 2015

    I told my older brother i dont think am normal

    i trust him not to say anything so one weekend i went up to see him after a few drinks i told him i need to see a doctor see if he can give me tablets after i told my brother a fraction of what i was in my head he told me they would litreally just lock you up. Keep that to...
    Kripper252 Kripper252
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    Sometimes reality just doesn't seem "real"

    enough for me and I think I'm in a dream .... Have I gone mad
    Rapsest99 Rapsest99
    18-21, M
    Jan 4, 2015

    Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm crazy,

    the dreams I have, they should not be seen by someone my age. I just wake up with no reaction to how disturbing it was. Its really disgusting having some evil dreams and not having it affect me in any way.
    MrBugsyMalone MrBugsyMalone
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 9, 2016

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    The thoughts in my head sow my mouth closed

    Because civilization cant a truth overdose It's simple but true Thoughts that I brew or not normal These thoughts comes from the minds of the deranged and the few But there's no need to worry because at the end of the story The world is still ****** up not because of the...
    thetamedbeast thetamedbeast
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016
    ShallWeShaggyNow ShallWeShaggyNow
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 10, 2016

    I can't stop sending naughty

    and crazy messages via dating websites. The weird thing is sometimes it works. The ****** part is when I get excited about it, it stops working. Why do I even care anymore?
    Releasinginyour Releasinginyour
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Feb 27, 2016
    CatWomen21 CatWomen21
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 5, 2015
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 14, 2016

    "Go in peace, you pieces of ****.

    " God(is mean)- Jackie Best quote I ever heard..
    deleted deleted
    Mar 23, 2016

    Sometimes i have a conversation with myself.

    It usually goes like ... " You fake people into liking you, the tricks you play to get what you want. You're a fake, oh you're a great pretender. You think you're ACTUALLY talented ? HaHaHaHa, you've just manged to trick everyone that you're NOT a piece of **** ! Goodjob, piece...
    Shahedansharif Shahedansharif
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2016
    ShantelH ShantelH
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 16, 2015

    I don't know if it's just me.

    I don't know if I have a disorder a all. I just have anxiety and depression; nothing more, nothing less. Ever since last year I've been suspecting that I had schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, multiple personality disorder, and even dyslexia. These were impossible, I knew that. I...
    lonelyisolationist lonelyisolationist
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    It's actually not a secret.

    I tell people and then they laugh and say you're not crazy. If they can look around in the depths of my mind, they would take those words back.
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion
    6 Responses Apr 7, 2015
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2015

    I'm talking to guys and just want to talk to

    more and more and could so easily get caught by my husband. But I can't stop.
    iRunAway84 iRunAway84
    31-35, F
    17 Responses Feb 29, 2016


    Run if you wish Pray your legs will save you Cry if you wish Pray your tears will clean your wounds Jump into the ocean if you wish Pray your soul will flee with the water But in all your passion for nonexistence I'm praying you would stay Us, nobodies Here, nowhere to go In my...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 30, 2011
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2016

    Ok so my boy friend passed away in September

    and I just worked up the courage and self-acceptance to go on a date. Yesterday was the second date with a girl I've had a crush on. Is it too soon? I feel ready but I don't want to deceive myself or get hurt. She's really cool and down to earth. I think I really like her but I...
    LetsGoToLetGo LetsGoToLetGo
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2016

    'But I don't want to go among mad people,

    ' Alice remarked. 'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: 'we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.' 'How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice. 'You must be,' said the Cat, 'or you wouldn't have come here.'
    hotwasabizen hotwasabizen
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2016

    I seriously think about this.

    I think I've created my own wonderful world sometimes that I can be considered crazy and don't make me start on the sudden and often changes of moods and thoughts that I have. It's scary to think that I've gone mad. I hope not. I pray not but lol...if you'll know me, I think...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2016

    i feel good around people

    who are as weird as me .. I am asking all the people out there , do u feel the same way??
    vallarmorguilis vallarmorguilis
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jul 23, 2015

    Is it possible to go crazy from being

    so isolated? I don't talk anymore. I feel like everything I say is stupid. What happened to me? I used to be funny. Now I'm just a ghost. I feel like I'm fading away. I just want to hear someone say my name. I just want 5 minutes of personal conversation. I can hardly sleep...
    LeChatCurieux LeChatCurieux
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    I used to and maybe still get paranoid

    when I overhear random bits of conversation and think people are talking about me instead of to me like I am Mr. Scrooge in the Christmas carol when he's out and about with the ghosts. It's very weird.
    Releasinginyour Releasinginyour
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 10, 2015

    You Say That Like Its a Bad Thing?????

    Actually I don't even bother to pretend it's a secret. I have begun to revel in it and I may be mad as a march hare ....But I'm lots more at ease in my own skin. This is not to make light of others pain . Just the reflections of someone who has been on this path for a long while...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518
    56-60, M
    4 Responses Jun 6, 2007

    OMG haha he's so stupid on ep a hater just

    called me ugly thats so funny u ain't even got a pic of me yet stupid
    leahxlife leahxlife
    13-15, F
    Feb 19, 2016

    It's not really a secret though,

    everyone who's talked to me knows.
    PyroSpyro PyroSpyro
    18-21, M
    Jun 6, 2015

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 10, 2016

    i keep thinking about

    that guy who discovered honey, like how did he know? was he like looking at a beehive and said to himself " i know those bastards are hiding something!"
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 26, 2015
    playr435 playr435
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 13, 2015

    I Do Not Understand "normal".

    I'm a smart person.....i can tell you what an Atom is made of, what a quark is, what a gluon is, about all the earth like planets we have discovered so far, the largest star, the smallest particle, binary star systems or about how color is actually just a reflection.....etc...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jul 2, 2012

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Mar 31, 2016

    I will start with what happens.

    I have episodes. I used to think they were panic or anxiety attacks but quickly found that that was not the case. My whole world zooms in and my mind stops functioning correctly. These episodes come and go seemingly at random. My vision zooms in and everything is so detailed...
    grayalien grayalien
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    Pssshhh...im just gonna start typing someshit

    and see where it takes me. I've realized over this past year that it's hard to take something devastating to you, and turn it around, learn from it, and consider it a life lesson. Whether it was a bad break up, the death of a loved one, or even just a connection loss with...
    BillytLovette BillytLovette
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Feb 16, 2016

    ok, i dont think i will continue to be secret

    about it. My understanding of the world thats happening around me is that of a madman....
    monty1212 monty1212
    26-30, F
    Jan 18, 2016

    "Have I gone mad?" Mad Hatter "I'm afraid so.

    You're entirely bonkers. But I will tell you a secret. All the best people are." Alice
    Lelukiki Lelukiki
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    Soo, basically I've been crying a lot,

    honestly I blame it on the weather that we've been having lately, but I did something strange that was in public... So I was telling my fam jam about a funny childhood story with me and my friends and I started to laugh, and then started to cry... Doing both, actually. I got...
    jayystarr420 jayystarr420
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    This girl to ld me tiger off my phone during

    school and I was texting my dad cause he's in the army and is coming home in July and I rarely get to talk to him so I got in her face and yelled he is serving for YOURS and MY country and if I was you I would shut my damn mouth!
    madisonbearden2003 madisonbearden2003
    22-25, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    Sometimes I just randomly laugh I don't know

    why it just happens strangely enough I think there is someone in my brain telling me to laugh and random times. HAHA
    ShadowCat25 ShadowCat25
    16-17, F
    Mar 11, 2016
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