I Secretly Think I Have Gone Mad

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    I'm talking to guys and just want to talk to

    more and more and could so easily get caught by my husband. But I can't stop.
    iRunAway84 iRunAway84
    31-35, F
    17 Responses Feb 29, 2016

    It's actually not a secret.

    I tell people and then they laugh and say you're not crazy. If they can look around in the depths of my mind, they would take those words back.
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion
    6 Responses Apr 7, 2015

    "Have I gone mad?" Mad Hatter "I'm afraid so.

    You're entirely bonkers. But I will tell you a secret. All the best people are." Alice
    Lelukiki Lelukiki
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    You Say That Like Its a Bad Thing?????

    Actually I don't even bother to pretend it's a secret. I have begun to revel in it and I may be mad as a march hare ....But I'm lots more at ease in my own skin. This is not to make light of others pain . Just the reflections of someone who has been on this path for a long while...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518
    56-60, M
    4 Responses Jun 6, 2007

    Is it possible to go crazy from being

    so isolated? I don't talk anymore. I feel like everything I say is stupid. What happened to me? I used to be funny. Now I'm just a ghost. I feel like I'm fading away. I just want to hear someone say my name. I just want 5 minutes of personal conversation. I can hardly sleep...
    LeChatCurieux LeChatCurieux
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jun 3, 2015
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    2 Responses Jul 15, 2015
    CatWomen21 CatWomen21
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 5, 2015
    playr435 playr435
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 13, 2015

    i keep thinking about

    that guy who discovered honey, like how did he know? was he like looking at a beehive and said to himself " i know those bastards are hiding something!"
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 26, 2015

    Sometimes i legit think i've gone mad.

    ... Pretty sure a lot of college/uni students have had the same experience? D:
    farawayforfartoolong farawayforfartoolong
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2015

    i almost died in the shower today.

    .. i slipped and my dumbass tried to grab the water
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Aug 27, 2015


    Run if you wish Pray your legs will save you Cry if you wish Pray your tears will clean your wounds Jump into the ocean if you wish Pray your soul will flee with the water But in all your passion for nonexistence I'm praying you would stay Us, nobodies Here, nowhere to go In my...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 30, 2011

    I wonder just how much hurt

    and emotional pain the human heart can actually take...before it just ceases to beat.
    tenderhearted1 tenderhearted1
    46-50, F
    6 Responses Dec 15, 2014
    ShantelH ShantelH
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Jul 16, 2015

    I have an extra voice in my head thats louder

    than the other and it disagrees with everything I say/think unless I say that I want it gone. Its the same voice as the other but just louder and it responds without me having to think of what its going to say. I've had it for as long as I can remember, is it schizophrenia?
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses May 4, 2015

    why are clothes so expensive?

    ? i should not have to pay this much to not be naked. people should pay ME to not be naked
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    Imagine a nightmare where you're trapped with a

    serial killer but all your lights are clappers.. So you are running for your life from this psychopath while both of you are just aggressively clapping the lights on and off?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 27, 2015

    i feel good around people

    who are as weird as me .. I am asking all the people out there , do u feel the same way??
    vallarmorguilis vallarmorguilis
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jul 23, 2015

    Sometimes reality just doesn't seem "real"

    enough for me and I think I'm in a dream .... Have I gone mad
    Rapsest99 Rapsest99
    18-21, M
    Jan 4, 2015

    One soul can't live without another?

    Perfect. What if there are two souls in one body? Those two can exist together and what is more they can love each other. But the things change when one hurts another. Then you try to get rid of one. It is really very hard to do it. Oh, it is your personal hell.
    natalypetrvicki natalypetrvicki
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2016

    ok, i dont think i will continue to be secret

    about it. My understanding of the world thats happening around me is that of a madman....
    monty1212 monty1212
    26-30, F
    Jan 18, 2016

    I really do hate myself sometimes.

    I feel like I'm intentionally being a horrible person and it's killing me. I'm horribly mean to my family members but super nice to others.. I always blurt **** that embarrasses me later on and then I get angry about it. Gosh, I keep putting myself in these positions where I...
    PandaVibes PandaVibes
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Sep 3, 2015

    'But I don't want to go among mad people,

    ' Alice remarked. 'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: 'we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.' 'How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice. 'You must be,' said the Cat, 'or you wouldn't have come here.'
    hotwasabizen hotwasabizen
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015

    Pssshhh...im just gonna start typing someshit

    and see where it takes me. I've realized over this past year that it's hard to take something devastating to you, and turn it around, learn from it, and consider it a life lesson. Whether it was a bad break up, the death of a loved one, or even just a connection loss with...
    BillytLovette BillytLovette
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Feb 16, 2016
    ElSabre101 ElSabre101
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    I Do Not Understand "normal".

    I'm a smart person.....i can tell you what an Atom is made of, what a quark is, what a gluon is, about all the earth like planets we have discovered so far, the largest star, the smallest particle, binary star systems or about how color is actually just a reflection.....etc...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jul 2, 2012

    I used to and maybe still get paranoid

    when I overhear random bits of conversation and think people are talking about me instead of to me like I am Mr. Scrooge in the Christmas carol when he's out and about with the ghosts. It's very weird.
    Releasinginyour Releasinginyour
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 10, 2015

    I've been crying for months

    now (im lying...years) silently. oh, you could never tell by the way i carry on day to day. everything is just peachy over here (its not) today something different happened...today i sat in my car and cried. real tears. i don't know why i cried (i do), but i did. and i cried...
    surviving30 surviving30
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    The thoughts in my head sow my mouth closed

    Because civilization cant a truth overdose It's simple but true Thoughts that I brew or not normal These thoughts comes from the minds of the deranged and the few But there's no need to worry because at the end of the story The world is still ****** up not because of the...
    thetamedbeast thetamedbeast
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016

    It's not really a secret though,

    everyone who's talked to me knows.
    PyroSpyro PyroSpyro
    18-21, M
    Jun 6, 2015

    can't blame sharks in these shark attacks cases.

    . like,imagine a bucket of fried chicken came skateboarding through your living room. what do you do?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 6, 2015

    I shaved my head the other day,

    I guess since I can't control my mind anymore I took control of my looks and shaved all the hair! It's going to be a long ride in this is state of mental health
    lostneverfound lostneverfound
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2015

    i love waving at random people,

    because i know for the rest of the day they will try figuring out who i was
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    Bloody Nightmare

    I had this dream last nite, the entire length of the dream I was hoping it was only infact a dream. But the entire time i thought that " no this is it.. its not a dream and this is crazy" My dream took place outside of a house, just like every other dream I have. My...
    ginger ginger
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 11, 2006

    Yep. Im There.

    This last year has been the absolute hardest and most traumatic years of my life thus far.And it literally has driven me insane.YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Oct 13, 2011

    What Was I To Do

    spring break, I noticed she was always stealing a glance at me her boyfriend was a close new friend, we all went for a vacation together in a group i went with them just because one of my friends forced me all i wanted was to have a vacation on my own, to release some of the...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2011

    the word "sad" can't

    even describe me anymore
    societykillss societykillss
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 20, 2015

    I constantly feel like I'm on acid :/ like right

    now it feels like the room is moving young getting bigger and smaller. Expanding like a ballon then shrinking again... I think I'm going crazy again.
    drawmysmile drawmysmile
    18-21, F
    Dec 24, 2014

    Sometimes really late at night.

    . to get really fast to another room in my house, I run full speed laughing like a maniac!
    lilmissdgaf lilmissdgaf
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 2, 2015
    openingthedoor openingthedoor
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jun 16, 2015

    I don't know that it is much of an secret,

    and pretty sure I was just born this way. I have a hatter to keep me in check, who am I kidding the hatter Is as mad as I am. So curious as this soul. I must not be impassible. So I am indeed entirely bonkers, let me give you a lil smidgen of a secret- ALL OF THE BEST PEOPLE...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2015

    The things I said I ll never do are the ones I

    do first I ve been curious about life in aspects that I never thought I would How programmed we are we ve been pretty much conditioned to be that that was accepted and ok... but are we happy?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    There are days were I think I could lose my

    mind! Between work drama, drama with my kids, and my family not supporting me, it would be quite easy
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 23, 2015

    Some days don't u feel like u want to give up?

    To not do anything.. To be away from the world? To not talk to people or text them anymore... Sleeping is worst because then you think so much and it gets to you... And idk some days you just want to forget every memory you have
    fragmentsoftheheart fragmentsoftheheart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2015

    I Think I've Gone Crazy!

    My Cousin Is Always Calling Me A Physcopath Which Is Annoying! I Mean Yeah At Times When I Get Mad I Throw Stuff Across The Room, I Kick The Wall Or Fence. My Crush Thinks I'm A Physcopath. Everyone Is Always Talking Behind My Back! It's Annoying. But This Is Who I Am! And I...
    IsabellaChutaa IsabellaChutaa
    13-15, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    I used to have nice long hair,

    then one day I thought it got dry and I cut it and it was ok. Then I started cutting it with my own hands which made it look ridiculous and ugly, until now I just can't stop cutting it and it looks so horrible. I think I have gone mad it's really out of my control I can't stop...
    nx10 nx10
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 11, 2015

    Sometimes I get these random moments

    where I feel like I need to have a good cry. Everything I hate about my self creep up and it gets so overwhelming I can fell my eyes water.
    KyungAli KyungAli
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 23, 2015
    Mike3569 Mike3569
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 5, 2015

    I am not sure I think

    and behave like everyone else, especially in my internal world. My thinking seems to make less sense than it used to, and a part of me feels a little homicidal.
    case222 case222
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 12, 2015

    I told my older brother i dont think am normal

    i trust him not to say anything so one weekend i went up to see him after a few drinks i told him i need to see a doctor see if he can give me tablets after i told my brother a fraction of what i was in my head he told me they would litreally just lock you up. Keep that to...
    Kripper252 Kripper252
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    I feel anger all the time

    and wish i could punch people making stupid comments online
    darkangellights darkangellights
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 13, 2015

    After realizing how much motivation I've lost

    to direct myself into setting goals, I looked up "how to change your core beliefs" as if I'm a robot, programmed into transforming my train of thought on my perspective of life...but aren't we all programmed? We hear our own voice in our head, telling us what we feel we're not...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2015

    Though last night a newer friend was talking

    with me. He told me that he knows I'm going through some heavy ****, but my light never fades. I said thank you, and that I felt extremely broken, so I'm glad someone can see my light still. He said that I shine like a steady sun in the night sky and my light shines brighter...
    Calbie5 Calbie5
    36-40, F
    Jan 27, 2016

    I remember my earliest thought being "This is

    my new body and mind." As if I had died and this was a new me. I have never heard of reincarnation as I was only about five, and I pondered day and night about how I got here and why was I here. I would test out my mind a lot by saying things in my head, then saying it out loud...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    This one time I was in class

    and everyone was working on something. I guess it was a test, I'm not sure, but I spaced out completely and was really unaware of my surroundings and this song by Disturbed just blasted in my head really loud as if I were wearing headphones. It was like three minutes long start...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015


    MadiDewar MadiDewar
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2015

    you call it kidnapping.

    .. i call it surprise adoption.
    deleted deleted
    Jul 1, 2015
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 16, 2015
    shortbrunette3 shortbrunette3
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 10, 2015

    Now I really am feeling it.

    .I feel like I'm not where I want to be, and be doing and be with. Let me just close the door to my thoughts. . .
    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 11, 2015
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