I Secretly Think I Have Gone Mad

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    skyglad skyglad
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2016
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 14, 2016

    This girl to ld me tiger off my phone during

    school and I was texting my dad cause he's in the army and is coming home in July and I rarely get to talk to him so I got in her face and yelled he is serving for YOURS and MY country and if I was you I would shut my damn mouth!
    madisonbearden2003 madisonbearden2003
    22-25, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 10, 2016

    I have been increasingly paranoid lately.

    first it started off after I did a bunch of triple cs everyday for like 3 weeks and got hospitalized bc I started losing my mind. Literally. at first I thought I could telepathically communicate with people. but I was really faded then too so that doesn't count. now, a month...
    mayflowersspringshowers mayflowersspringshowers
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 10, 2016

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2016

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Mar 31, 2016

    "Go in peace, you pieces of ****.

    " God(is mean)- Jackie Best quote I ever heard..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 23, 2016

    I did. I am on antipsychotics now.

    Things might turn out okay.
    grayalien grayalien
    18-21, M
    Mar 16, 2016

    I seriously think about this.

    I think I've created my own wonderful world sometimes that I can be considered crazy and don't make me start on the sudden and often changes of moods and thoughts that I have. It's scary to think that I've gone mad. I hope not. I pray not but lol...if you'll know me, I think...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2016

    Sometimes I just randomly laugh I don't know

    why it just happens strangely enough I think there is someone in my brain telling me to laugh and random times. HAHA
    ShadowCat25 ShadowCat25
    16-17, F
    Mar 11, 2016
    ShallWeShaggyNow ShallWeShaggyNow
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 10, 2016

    Ok so my boy friend passed away in September

    and I just worked up the courage and self-acceptance to go on a date. Yesterday was the second date with a girl I've had a crush on. Is it too soon? I feel ready but I don't want to deceive myself or get hurt. She's really cool and down to earth. I think I really like her but I...
    LetsGoToLetGo LetsGoToLetGo
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2016

    I don't know if it's just me.

    I don't know if I have a disorder a all. I just have anxiety and depression; nothing more, nothing less. Ever since last year I've been suspecting that I had schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, multiple personality disorder, and even dyslexia. These were impossible, I knew that. I...
    lonelyisolationist lonelyisolationist
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    I'm talking to guys and just want to talk to

    more and more and could so easily get caught by my husband. But I can't stop.
    iRunAway84 iRunAway84
    31-35, F
    17 Responses Feb 29, 2016

    I can't stop sending naughty

    and crazy messages via dating websites. The weird thing is sometimes it works. The ****** part is when I get excited about it, it stops working. Why do I even care anymore?
    Releasinginyour Releasinginyour
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Feb 27, 2016

    I will start with what happens.

    I have episodes. I used to think they were panic or anxiety attacks but quickly found that that was not the case. My whole world zooms in and my mind stops functioning correctly. These episodes come and go seemingly at random. My vision zooms in and everything is so detailed...
    grayalien grayalien
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    Sometimes i have a conversation with myself.

    It usually goes like ... " You fake people into liking you, the tricks you play to get what you want. You're a fake, oh you're a great pretender. You think you're ACTUALLY talented ? HaHaHaHa, you've just manged to trick everyone that you're NOT a piece of **** ! Goodjob, piece...
    Shahedansharif Shahedansharif
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2016

    Soo, basically I've been crying a lot,

    honestly I blame it on the weather that we've been having lately, but I did something strange that was in public... So I was telling my fam jam about a funny childhood story with me and my friends and I started to laugh, and then started to cry... Doing both, actually. I got...
    jayystarr420 jayystarr420
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    OMG haha he's so stupid on ep a hater just

    called me ugly thats so funny u ain't even got a pic of me yet stupid
    leahxlife leahxlife
    13-15, F
    Feb 19, 2016

    Pssshhh...im just gonna start typing someshit

    and see where it takes me. I've realized over this past year that it's hard to take something devastating to you, and turn it around, learn from it, and consider it a life lesson. Whether it was a bad break up, the death of a loved one, or even just a connection loss with...
    BillytLovette BillytLovette
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Feb 16, 2016

    Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm crazy,

    the dreams I have, they should not be seen by someone my age. I just wake up with no reaction to how disturbing it was. Its really disgusting having some evil dreams and not having it affect me in any way.
    MrBugsyMalone MrBugsyMalone
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 9, 2016
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2016

    I told my older brother i dont think am normal

    i trust him not to say anything so one weekend i went up to see him after a few drinks i told him i need to see a doctor see if he can give me tablets after i told my brother a fraction of what i was in my head he told me they would litreally just lock you up. Keep that to...
    Kripper252 Kripper252
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    If you think your crazy take acid

    when you peak have your trip sitter force you to smoke dmt when you breath out have them remind you your looking for an answer then wait when you come back you'll know everything you'll ever need to know and you'll spend the next week trying your hardest to forget it. Remember...
    khenry15 khenry15
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 6, 2016
    ElSabre101 ElSabre101
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    The thoughts in my head sow my mouth closed

    Because civilization cant a truth overdose It's simple but true Thoughts that I brew or not normal These thoughts comes from the minds of the deranged and the few But there's no need to worry because at the end of the story The world is still ****** up not because of the...
    thetamedbeast thetamedbeast
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016

    I'm pretty sure I'm crazy,

    I may be 15 but the things that go through my head are not normal in any way what so ever.But let's keep it lowkey
    MrBugsyMalone MrBugsyMalone
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2016

    One soul can't live without another?

    Perfect. What if there are two souls in one body? Those two can exist together and what is more they can love each other. But the things change when one hurts another. Then you try to get rid of one. It is really very hard to do it. Oh, it is your personal hell.
    natalypetrvicki natalypetrvicki
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2016

    Though last night a newer friend was talking

    with me. He told me that he knows I'm going through some heavy ****, but my light never fades. I said thank you, and that I felt extremely broken, so I'm glad someone can see my light still. He said that I shine like a steady sun in the night sky and my light shines brighter...
    Calbie5 Calbie5
    36-40, F
    Jan 27, 2016

    Sometimes I feel like no one can

    even hear me and I just want to scream it's like I'm invisible
    KittyLannister KittyLannister
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 24, 2016

    I am still living in the aftermath of being

    with a narcissist pathological liar who stolen my daughter and used her as a tool so sad
    usesynergy usesynergy
    46-50
    1 Response Jan 24, 2016

    True..I have thoughts n ideas

    which I never had in the past. Some are logical n some are not instantly logical but do start appearing so after some time. But to another person who hasn't thought about those ideas I would definitely appear out of sorts
    XbandoleerX XbandoleerX
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jan 19, 2016

    ok, i dont think i will continue to be secret

    about it. My understanding of the world thats happening around me is that of a madman....
    monty1212 monty1212
    26-30, F
    Jan 18, 2016

    I'm not sure why but I keep having recurring

    sleep paralysis and as it happens, I feel these strange vibrations throughout my body and the more I focus, the stronger they get, which makes my heart accelerate faster.
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2016

    This is called imposter syndrome.

    Look it up. It's quite interesting. If you are employed in a low level job even though you have an advanced degree then you might be able to relate to this. If you are in a high level job but are hard on yourself because you lack the experience just yet then you will be able to...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2015

    I shaved my head the other day,

    I guess since I can't control my mind anymore I took control of my looks and shaved all the hair! It's going to be a long ride in this is state of mental health
    lostneverfound lostneverfound
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2015
    shortbrunette3 shortbrunette3
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 10, 2015

    Someone just "demanded" I follow their orders.

    Really? You're a stranger. Not happening.
    shortbrunette3 shortbrunette3
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2015

    So, I have a history of paranoia.

    Now, I have been using a Moto G(1st gen) phone with a broken screen for the last 5 months. Recently, I noticed that fine glass particles from the screen were sticking to my fingers whenever I used the phone. The glass particles were very very fine and you would need to have a...
    akhilnsec akhilnsec
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2015

    I Think I've Gone Crazy!

    My Cousin Is Always Calling Me A Physcopath Which Is Annoying! I Mean Yeah At Times When I Get Mad I Throw Stuff Across The Room, I Kick The Wall Or Fence. My Crush Thinks I'm A Physcopath. Everyone Is Always Talking Behind My Back! It's Annoying. But This Is Who I Am! And I...
    IsabellaChutaa IsabellaChutaa
    13-15, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    Sometimes I have a voice in my head

    that tells me to do things. Or it will tell me things, things I don't know, like test answers or how to get out of a situation. Maybe it's because I usually don't have anyone to talk to, but sometimes i'll find myself speaking out loud to myself (the voice) when i'm alone.
    IAmTheFire IAmTheFire
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Nov 26, 2015

    I get a little worried at times

    as I have a second voice in my head which questions everything and picks it apart. This could be normal, I don't know, I get a little more worried at my third voice which ignores the first two and generally meanders along telling a story of its which only passingly interacts...
    thenewts thenewts
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Nov 26, 2015
    Rosdfio Rosdfio
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

    It's not so secret since I added this

    as a group. Sometimes I think I'm crazy because I have these ideas about myself and others . And I feel like they are true but I feel really scared about expressing them with people who can help confirm them.
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 16, 2015

    I remember my earliest thought being "This is

    my new body and mind." As if I had died and this was a new me. I have never heard of reincarnation as I was only about five, and I pondered day and night about how I got here and why was I here. I would test out my mind a lot by saying things in my head, then saying it out loud...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    This one time I was in class

    and everyone was working on something. I guess it was a test, I'm not sure, but I spaced out completely and was really unaware of my surroundings and this song by Disturbed just blasted in my head really loud as if I were wearing headphones. It was like three minutes long start...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015

    Did anyone know that it's actually "The

    Berenstain Bears" and not "The Berenstein Bears"? Psychics graduates are saying its part of the "Mandela Effect" where people who remember Curious George with a tail, "The Berenstain Bears" being "The Berenstein Bears", and Nelson Mandela dying in prison have come from an...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2015
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    Nov 14, 2015

    OH MY GOSH I AM SO EXCITED I HAD THE COURAGE

    TO ASK MY 'CRUSH' TO A SOCCER GAME THIS SUNDAY AND AHHHHHHH HE SAID YES SO THAT MEANS I GET TO SEE HIM AND IM LITERALLY DANCING AND JUMPING ON THE AIR RIGHT NOW!!!!!!! MY LIFE IS AMAZING. I AM AMAZING. HIS DIMPLES ARE AMAZING!!!! What?
    MadiDewar MadiDewar
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2015

    Dear Insomnia, Please go away.

    You make everything worse. Nothing is better when you hang around. Thanks, Can't Think Clearly
    catlady25612 catlady25612
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2015

    Something went wrong with me.

    I'm perfectly same but ended up on the opposite side of the world of sane people. No idea how I got here. Trying to get back to safe land.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    Once my father told me

    that when he was by the stove cooking, he saw me walk from outside, through the door, and I continued to walk through the hallway until I got through my room. He told me he looked down the hallway and saw that I had disappeared. He also told my brother and I that he had seen a...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    This one time, I woke up early

    for school. I opened the door to my room and peeked my head out to look down the hallway. I saw my dad looking out of the door (our door was transparent) and I got scared cause I though he was going to tell at me to hurry up for school. I got dressed and did everything I had to...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 21, 2015

    This isn't really weird

    but it's something, so I thought I'd might share it. Well, this one time I was in class with a friend of mine and he turned around in his seat (he sits in front of me) and started talking to me. I don't even remember what the whole conversation was about, but I do remember...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 21, 2015

    This isn't really creepy

    or fascinating or anything but I just had to share it.. Okay, so today I came home from school pretty hungry and I thought I might make a sandwich or two to eat before taking a nap, so I went to the kitchen and made two sandwiches with the new mayo my mom had just bought the day...
    PastelPlacidity PastelPlacidity
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Oct 21, 2015
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