I See Myself As An Anomaly

For Those Who Just Don't Fit - Period 49 People

    "dear God, Please Don't Let Me Be Normal"

    Like that quote from "The Fantasticks", I always strove to be somewhat of an anomaly. And...in addition to having a physical anomaly...I've learned to live my life in my own way, just a little bit offbeat in some ways while conforming to the norm in other ways. I'm not a...
    Dragon56 Dragon56
    56-60, M
    Apr 5, 2010

    According To The Dictionary Folk

    According to those dictionary folk - an anomaly is defined as the following: 1. a deviation from the common rule, type, arrangement, or form. 2. someone or something anomalous: With his quiet nature, he was an anomaly in his exuberant family. 3. an odd...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 5, 2010

    I Am A Freak But Not Ashamed

      I sometimes will refer to myself as “plain” or “normal” but neither word is in actuality true.  I am more of a freak or an anomaly. There is no one else on this earth that is anything like me. I know this and it is kind of a good and bad...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 5, 2010

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