I See No Hope, My Life Seems Over

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 147 People

    I Struggle Through Devastating Hopelessness On A Daily Basis

    I'm inherently a cheerful person - so now that I have been coping with depression for several years it just looks like I'm only a little bit down. Because when I'm happy - rarely so, I'm bursting with life, but in my depression I still maintain some of my original demeanor. This...
    megsays megsays
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2013

    Hopeless To Death..

    I had a bad relationship experience with a guy when i was 16, he was a jerk, he told everyone he had sex with me and that i'm a B**ch !  it took me 3 years to get over him and over the depression that i had, the first two years i was all alone struggling, but then i met a guy...
    teetol teetol
    18-21
    1 Response Oct 24, 2011

    Just Meaningless

    life is just of no hope for me. once fine next moment it changes. this whole world is a very miserable place, full of lies and domination. there is no where reality and goodness, all bullshit and cheating, no forgiveness, if u try to over come and become a good person no one...
    divr divr
    22-25
    3 Responses Apr 21, 2012

    Wake up everyday with severe anxiety.

    So severe the only thing I can concentrate on is myself. It is not right. Can't take it anymore. I wish I was dead.
    kennyjay kennyjay
    51-55
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2014

    My Life Really Does Seem Over

    I am just 14 years old. From being conceived my life have been ******.. My Mother was with my Father (a millionaire at the time) for nothing other than his money. He was just one year younger than her Father - My Grandad.. The day I was born no one was phased. Dad went to work...
    Laura30997 Laura30997
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Jun 10, 2012

    Nothing To Tell

    I've done all I could on this earth. I raised a successful daughter, I've given everything I possibly could to my husband. Neither need me any more and I don't know how to live outside personal connection.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2012

    My Life May Really BE Over...

    What do you do when you are a born again Christian who has backsided his way from God? I was/am a Baptist and we believe once saved always saved. I got away from the Lord for a few years and came back. But it's not the same. I started doing research and have discovered that "Once...
    LordIsJesus LordIsJesus
    46-50, M
    6 Responses May 18, 2013

    As Long As He's Happy

    My boyfriend and I were together since freshmen year in high school, and it ended a couple days ago, a year and a half. I was on vacation, and he told me straight up that he wanted to be single. I had no idea this was coming. So I told him to make the choice of what he wanted...
    Gabbygabs2797 Gabbygabs2797
    18-21
    3 Responses Jul 17, 2013

    The End Is Nearer Then I Could Ever Imagine

    I will try to make his as simple as possible.  In 2003 I had two major surgeries and gained over 80 pounds, had o sell home and filed bankrupcy.  Have built my credit back, had good job unill 2 years ago, company sold out to horrible corporation.  Still haven't lost weight...
    Surrenderer Surrenderer
    56-60
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2012

    The End.

    I am a 29 yr old father of 3 boys, I work a full time job and pay my childsupport on time. Now I'm at my stopping point. With my lights getting cutoff next week and driving an unregistered uninsured car,no food and unable to get any type of government assisstance (I've tried em...
    Corlil Corlil
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Apr 11, 2013

    Life Ruined

    So I am supposed to go visit my sister is Australia in January, I got a second job that I hate I took out a huge loan of a few thousand euro. I changed my college course to accommodate going in January, I paid out hundreds on gym membership to go and she informed me today that it...
    Torytoe Torytoe
    22-25, F
    Sep 30, 2012

    Everything I love is being taken away,

    my family is making me move schools and possibly across the country in the middle of my junior year. I was so close to preventing all this. So close to coming out victorious. No lies. Freedom. So close to being free from the thing that's always pulling me down and has been for...
    livisdone livisdone
    18-21
    Jan 2, 2014

    LOVE IS LOST

    Okay so i was dating a 30yr old im 14 he acted so nice i meet him and he was so nice i didnt suspect anything everything was fine till the cops got involved long story short today they came to my house to tell me that he is a pedo and been convicted many times before and was...
    samitrailer99 samitrailer99
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2013

    This Is Rich

    This is rich, I can not even do this right.
    yugofys yugofys
    51-55
    1 Response Sep 25, 2012

    Why Not Me?

    My whole life I have wanted to be a famous country music singer. I have done all I can to get my foot in the door but I am ignored on all sides. Now I am 33 years old and my life is over. I'm too old now. They only want the 19 year old " Taylor Swift" type. I wish I was dead...
    FML1979 FML1979
    31-35
    1 Response Dec 15, 2012

    I Used To Be Trusting And Hopeful But It Was A Lie

    I'm 54, divorced in 2009, 2 adult kids who despite a couple of major setbacks are doing okay. I was an awkward & quirky (but sensitive and smart as well) little kid and teen with body image issues and some problems but I did okay for the most part. I chased a cute, guitar-playing...
    ajg58 ajg58
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2013

    Hopeless

    Lost my job after 24 years, lost my home and then my wife filed for divorce on me. This all happened in a 90 day period. Still gave 3 kids at home, they live with their mom. Living with my brother at age 55, in different town. Totally depressed and I see no way to start my life...
    San4rd San4rd
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2013

    The title says it all.

    .. Why can't they just understand me? Just let me die.
    Sakihiro Sakihiro
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Feb 12, 2015

    Depressed And Pregnant

    I have a verbally abusive boyfriend who smokes pot everyday and does crystal meth sometimes. I was planning to leave next year as I don't do drugs or belong in his world. But now I've found out I'm pregnant with his child. I feel trapped and ashamed. I am employed casually ATM...
    Jaci121 Jaci121
    22-25
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2012

    Marriage

    I loved a guy for 3 years. all my friends and parents were against it. they told he will never make me happy dont believe him and marry. but i was so in love that i married him. but as everyone told now i am very unhappy. i hate my life. i cant even talk to anyone openly as the...
    sandra90 sandra90
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2013

    My Life Is Over.

    When i was in high school u had to take the high school exit exam and i only past one part of the test. i past nath but did not pass english so have been going to adult school. And i just found that i cant take the cashee because i took the wrong class and they told me that i had...
    209army89 209army89
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 28, 2011

    As Long As There Is Life There Is Hope---

    OKAY EVERYONE, HERE GOES----I WAS BORN TO TWO PEOPLE WHO SHOULD NEVER HAVE HAD A CHILD--ONE ALCOHOLIC AND CONNIVING, ONE SCHIZOPHRENIC AND PARANOID. I HAD A SAD AND LONELY CHILDHOOD, WAS MOLESTED/RAPED AT AGE THREE BY OLDER KIDS, MOLESTED BY MY FATHER AT AGE 9, AND BY A SON OF MY...
    Gwenofcrowhaven Gwenofcrowhaven
    61-65
    1 Response Oct 23, 2013

    No Hope

    some times its like life just isn't worth living . I fill like the most gutless person in the world i can't even talk to people in person I'm such a coward. I would love to meet someone nice who understands what  I'm going through but sometimes I fill like I'm all alone...
    katemum katemum
    26-30
    5 Responses Oct 28, 2011

    I Would Do Anything To Trade Places With Any Of You

    There has been much happiness in my life. I am very lucky to have gotten all that I have had. Life had been wonderful for a long time for me. At 22 I fell in love with an older very pretty lady. She conned me into thinking she cared about me. She and I had, what I thought was...
    1 Response Jan 13, 2013

    It's not as dramatic

    as that. In fact, it feels pragmatic. Things are only shocking at first - if you think about something enough, it loses any shock it may have held. I'm 37. I don't want to die, necessarily, I just don't want to be alive anymore. I'm tired. I'm exhausted, actually. Long...
    idonotwantausername1024 idonotwantausername1024
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2014

    I Don't See Hope

    But I feel it. And my life doesn't "seem over," it is. It's been over for a few weeks now. I have watched many things die. Not living things, but things that meant a great deal to me. You cannot tell me I will get those things back. A lot of those things were irreplaceable...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2011

    My Life Is Over

    i am married,living with my husband ,my family is in overseas i don't have anyone next to me when i married i got my stress started my husband lied to me and distroyed my life but he loves me to death but i can't forgive for him i lost all my friends everyday i live in my own...
    hamareena55 hamareena55
    22-25
    Aug 3, 2012

    Ungrateful

    Ungrateful really, that's how it would appear to a stranger. I live in a nice home, in a good part of town. I have nice parents, and decent friends. I go to college during the week, and go out with my girls on the weekend. And yet, despite all this, despite the good relationships...
    brielladivine brielladivine
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 29, 2013

    Im Finished

    i love her, she doesnt love me, and i just found out that the guy i was gelous of because she liked him more, also has feelings for her. All i ever wanted was for her to be happy, and she will be more happy with him. So im done, im giving her up, she is the only reason i even...
    djpanda djpanda
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 24, 2010

    All I see are dark heavy clouds.

    My arms are physically weak from the thought of what i know is about to happen. But no one is listening. Every time He strikes it is covered up like nothing ever happened. I'm standing alone in the dark. I can't live like this anymore.
    gabby861 gabby861
    31-35
    Mar 21, 2014

    Ok so to some of you this may not seem like a

    big deal but it is. at least to me. So my dreams to love by the beach, but today my parents completely crushed it. They kept giving me hope and saying that they wanted to move to the beach too and were considering it. But today in the car I was on my phone checking my Instagram...
    ThatFallenMer1 ThatFallenMer1
    13-15, F
    Jan 27

    I'm Soo Lost...

    It's been a rough year for my husband and I. As soon as we got married my dad was diagagnosed with stage 4 cancer and ended up passing away very traumatically in April. About a month ago my husband wanted a divorce. Then he changed his mind and wanted to work it out. We went to...
    Lost1180 Lost1180
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 20, 2011

    A Real Man Gone To Waste!

    I was a down to earth aussie boy that loved sports the beach & everything else that life had to offer.Then I met reality! Go to work! Pay your tax! Find a wife! Buy a house! Harden the#%** up & get on with it! Being a ex surfboat rower & rugby league player I know what hard is...
    deano44boofhead deano44boofhead
    41-45
    1 Response Nov 17, 2012

    The Sun Always Shines On TV

    Never give up . A long time ago someone told me that if we ever piled our troubles on a table to swap with someone else that we'd want ours back after seeing theirs - I don't know if that's true but let me tell you about what I've been and am going through not to evoke sympathy...
    Mojojojo1961 Mojojojo1961
    51-55
    1 Response May 1, 2013

    Hope Is Burning Inside

    Perhaps hope is inside all of us, but locked behind a door. Hope is what we all want to have, with hope almost everything is possible. Without hope it seems that everything we all know and love is at an end (coming to it). Not being able to see it, touch it, smell it, taste it...
    TheMythLives TheMythLives
    18-21, M
    Sep 28, 2008

    The Sense of Hopelessness I Feel Is Almost Too Much to Bear

     I've been in dark places before in my life and right now is one of the darker ones.  I feel like I have lost all hope.  Those on the outside would probably look at me and think I should be happy but I am not.  My life so far has not been easy, nor has it been happy...
    Ayla74 Ayla74
    51-55, F
    9 Responses Sep 28, 2008

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