I Self Harm Whenever I Could Not Take the Pain

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    I cut , I'm a cutter,

    feels good to release's the pain I can't deal with.. Has nothing to do with dieing or for attention. I have scared my body. I mask the scars I have inside with the ones on the out.. Cutting may not solve my problems. It may make people see me as weak. But I'm not weak I'm...
    cosciatony cosciatony
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 28, 2015

    The Mirror

    I'm supposed to be dead. Am I dead? But I'm still breathing now. What happened? I thought I had already slit my wrist that night. I'm sure that I've been gone for seconds. But why am I lying on this hospital bed right now? Do I want to live? There, my boyfriend came through...
    hellsdevil hellsdevil
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 15, 2009

    The Man On The Side Of The Road

    This email is written in sorrow and tears as I again plead for the very lives of hurting people everywhere. I had the misfortune a few minutes ago of viewing the body of a probable murder victim; I say probably because the gentleman's body was wrapped in a tarp except for the...
    girl4god girl4god
    36-40, F
    Feb 27, 2012

    Am I Strong?

    Since my freshman year started, I adopted a new, horrible habit of pulling my hair, scratching myself, and literally beating myself up because of not being able to cope correctly with pain and dissapointment because of personal issues that have been going on for the last 3 years...
    bathanie bathanie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 21, 2010

    I Do Not Currently.

    I have not hurt myself in quite a while, I am not saying I will never. I am trying to learn to be my best person, and I am going to strive to not allow my stress levels to get to the point that I do not need to hurt myself.
    TheHatterAndHisMuchness TheHatterAndHisMuchness
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 19, 2011

    She Is The Reason I Cut.

    She beat me. Made me feel worthless. Hurt me. Made me cry. Made me feel so low about myself. Made me lose my confidence. Made me want to give up. Made me want to cut. I cut because of her. Told me no one loved me. That I wasn't beautiful. That I wasn't anything special. Thank...
    bestrongokay bestrongokay
    18-21, F
    Mar 29, 2013

    The Gift Of Responsibility

    "We are each responsible for our own conduct." Galatians 6:5It is very easy if we have been victimized at some point in our life to then step back and blame our own mistakes and actions on others when in reality we should be stepping up to the plate and being responsible for our...
    girl4god girl4god
    36-40, F
    Mar 3, 2012

    Have a Moment With Me

    Hey you there, do you have a moment to spare with me? I want to know if anyone out there ever feels the way I felt. It used to be small matters but now the urge is getting deeper. Do you feel alone? Not alone as being left alone but alone when everyone is there for you but not...
    hellsdevil hellsdevil
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 15, 2009

    My Three Best-friends

    My three best-friends will always be there for me… Oh! What would I be without my three dear friends… The first one will always be there for me to help me coping with the stress in my every pitiful day The second one will always help to put me to sleep when I...
    hellsdevil hellsdevil
    22-25, F
    Sep 15, 2009

    Most Days

    i can't deal with the pain of everyday life now.  i cut my wrists almost every day going deeper every time.  i put myself in the hospital more than once because of cutting but its the only way i can deal with the pain now.  im not sure i want to stop either.  i love the pain...
    MyImpendingSuicide MyImpendingSuicide
    13-15, F
    May 10, 2012

    Lol I Am Bleeding

    i feel so much pain inside me i hope all those nothing that have hurt me go to hell just mad cause i am different and i can make a change i am going to be something so to all of them kiss my *** i cut to take away pain and i hope that all those who hurt me get what coming to them...
    pinkapp pinkapp
    13-15, F
    Mar 20, 2011

    So Many Scars.

    I look at my arms. Seeing how many pointless scars I have. Some cause I couldn't handle the pressure and gave in to my pain. Everything I do wrong makes me think if it will help if I cut. Once I cut I feel the sudden rush of oh sweet pain I've created. I always smile. I smile at...
    moonlightglace moonlightglace
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2013

    Please Help Researchers Understand Self-harm

    Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)! Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in...
    PERL2009 PERL2009
    Jan 2, 2010

    What Helped Me

    "When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer." Psalm 94:19I am writing this today for everyone reading this who deep down feels less than, who feels like they might not be somehow "eligible" for healing and blessings, who feel like God is there for...
    girl4god girl4god
    36-40, F
    Feb 24, 2012

    So...yea Hey

    Okaay I have never done this before so I'll come out and say it I have so many reasons to cut and people just think, 'oh shes a cutter she must have like rabies or something we have to stay away from her.' And the worst part is that I live in an extremely small town so everyone...
    fightuntilidie fightuntilidie
    18-21, F
    Apr 9, 2011

    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    16-17, F
    Jan 24, 2016
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