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    I Became Who I Promised Never To Be.

    I was always a happy kid. I was bullied when I was younger but that didn't effect me too much. My dad died from cancer when I was only 11 years old. It didn't set in until 8th grade. Everything kind of hit me then. I started writing really dark stuff in my English class. Some of...
    TheMisunderstoodMistake TheMisunderstoodMistake 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    Stupid Kourtny...

    I abuse myself because its my way of putting myself in place. I simply pinch my skin until i bruise, or burn it. It takes alot for me to try and stop, but i just feel like im always doing something wrong or stupid, so to punish myself for my stupidity, thats what i do. ive gotten...
    kotonilove kotonilove 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 16, 2012

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    i self harmed and i am 4 weeks clean i have

    scars and im proud of them cause as my friend says they are battle scars now my life is back on track and im joining cadets in september and going to make the most of teen years live life !
    katiealex11 katiealex11 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    Up and Down and Repeat

    i self harm wen im angry or sad. i often wonder if im depressed or jst ****** up in the head. i like the marks the knife makes, thats not rite is it? i used to slice across my arm, now i sortof stab the side of my arm. my parents saw the cuts once, the asked about them and sed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 25, 2007

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    Why

    How will you know I am hurting if you cannot see any    pain?    To wear it on my body tells what words cannot   explain   from the web im shure someone has seen it before   feb 8 2010 cut again tonight the feeling u get just before the...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M 9 Responses Jan 29, 2010

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    This Is A Poem I Wrote. It'S Called 'Scars'

    Tick-tock tick-tock That's the sound of my clock TV's on but the volume's down Wishing I wasn't here right now Pull up my sleeve, look at my wrist Should I really take the risk? Scars will fade but they leave a mark A reminder of a broken heart Scars on my feet, scars on my arms...
    AmyxLink AmyxLink 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2013

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    Sometimes when I am so angry at a person,

    instead of expressing it to them directly, I kind of self-destruct and go apeshit. Lateron, I'd notice I got bumps and bruises. I, then, will realize that I did that to me. Hurting other people is out of the question because, based from experience, whenever I directly express...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2014

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    The Warning Sings Are Obvious To Other Self Harmers

    I am a self harmer. I notice when other self harmers are doing the little things I do to hide the scars. I notice that you dont take off your jumper. I noticed the scars when your sleeve came up and how fast you pull it down. I notice when you pull alway if someone toches your...
    Butterflycutter Butterflycutter 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    Well I'm officially 5 months clean

    so far. I honestly don't know how I managed to do it. But I guess I just used other alternatives besides cutting. For all those who are struggling, I want to let you know that there is hope and you can get through this. Even if it's tough right now. As the saying goes "you can...
    HelloLovelyPerson HelloLovelyPerson 18-21, F Apr 4

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    Hi guys, I m not sure

    if i fit in this category, but i d love to hear your opinions. I did cut maybe 4-5 times in past few years. As you can see i do cut very rarely. Mostly it s a rash decision while I m depressed. However i do cut only slightly to feel the calming pain and see just a very little...
    ladymerylin ladymerylin 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I've been going through some really bad stuff

    recently and like recently I've just decided that I really like the feeling of burning on my skin. I've started to do things like putting cigarettes out on my hand or my arm.
    CasualSphinx CasualSphinx 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    ... and I Enjoy It.

    I hurt myself, and I have no intention of stopping either. I used to wish I could stop - but that's when I thought I had a problem. What I do is no worse than smoking or drinking. SI won't give me cancer, it won't rot my liver, it won't paralyze me or give me a horrible STD. As...
    slowrewind slowrewind 18-21, F 10 Responses May 6, 2007

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    Im Not Depressed

    I dont cut myself when im feeling depressed when im depressed i write poetry or music but its when im angry at myself that i cut. I hadn't done it for a while until the other day when my mum was yelling at me for locking the dog outside in the rain for half an hour (by accident...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 15, 2007

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    It Stops The Hurting

    Writing this is both painful and, hopefully, cathartic.I'm 48, and have only really been self harming for a year or so. I wonder whether it's my equivalent of alcoholism (both my late parents were alcoholics), a self-destructive behaviour to try and blot out mental pain.It's been...
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 27, 2012

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    I recently began slicing my arm

    and tried overdose.. I drank 6 bottles of cider 1 after the other popping 40 paracetamol pills. Don't know what has come over me recently I'm never usually like this
    Mustangkid2020 Mustangkid2020 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    Scratches

    I am 15 years old. I'm a self harmer. My method is scratching. I feel alienated because I don't think I can be taken seriously by the majority of self harmers because I don't make myself bleed. It started one day when I had a doctor's appointment. I have an extreme phobia of...
    1keepingfaith 1keepingfaith 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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    I have harmed since i was 14 (I'm 24 now) i lie

    to everyone that knew i did it they all think i stopped but really its worse than ever:/ a few cuts are not enough anymore i can do upto 50 cuts each time and even that is not enough i have to take a small overdose its never enough to kill me but enough to do damage and kill...
    rockchick1990 rockchick1990 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    The Scars Wont Fade Away

    I may have overdone it a bit this time. I was just dying inside and I was cracking down. I couldn't stop myself. The razor was so sharp and welcoming. It bled more than it has in a long long time. So deep and painful. They burn everytime my heart beats. Or every time I move I can...
    JessiZombies JessiZombies 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    "Beautifully Broken"

    "Beautifully Broken" By M.I.D They look at her and see a girl nothing more nothing less. They see her crying and screaming and they say she's just a mess They have no idea the pain she holds inside the pain that always churns the pain is so bad she wants to hide from this ever...
    UndoubtedlyBroken UndoubtedlyBroken 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2011

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    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder

    and BPD 2 years ago, I didn't start self-harming until last year. First was when I hit my wrist really hard that I broke it. and now I can't stop cutting, I have to cut everyday just to feel something, I feel empty inside.
    bipolar13 bipolar13 22-25 Mar 8, 2014

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    Numb The Pain

    I hold the scissors in one hand, blood already drying on the metal razors. I feel the burning tear on my arm which in itself is a satisfaction. Blood red scratches have sunk into my skin while stinging lines begin to rise in the places I haven’t cut deep enough. The tears I had...
    imaginethis13 imaginethis13 18-21, F Apr 19, 2011

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    As a truck driver, nothing ****** me off more

    than other people who want to drive like tards. This crete carrier driver wanted to sit there and be an a.s.s.hole. and got my company safety dept called on me when I'm not the one in the wrong. He's the one who decided to pace me and cause the traffic back up. Up yours crete...
    Jackem82 Jackem82 31-35, M Jul 30, 2014

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    lovelyy25 lovelyy25 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    WorkInProgress2012 WorkInProgress2012 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I cut myself when I lost a close friend to her

    battle. Sometimes I wish I was there for her more and that I was there more. My family life is no better. No one really gives a monkey what I'm doing and if they do all they seem to do is call me a disappointment or treat me like an outcast. They say your friends are the...
    Georgedinozzoo97 Georgedinozzoo97 18-21, F a week ago

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    I have a type of skin disease

    that brought me nothing but misery in the second and third grade when i just moved to the town I had to ride the bus and from me riding I met the people who made fun of me that called it sage disease and like the cheese touch they called it sage touch they would make me leave...
    natsufairy12 natsufairy12 13-15, M 2 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    Just kind of wanted to talk about it

    and am feeling really bad. If someone replys, At what age did you start? I started when I was 11 :/. Feel free to ask anything in the comments, I will reply back. I have been fighting depression for a long while and anorexia.
    JadeSoulless JadeSoulless 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2014

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    Thinking About Self Harm

    When I was a teenager I used think about suicide a lot but never attempted it. As I got older I stopped thinking about it & started thinking about self-harm instead. When I was a child I was keeping a secret (which I never should have kept a secret) & I started to think...
    neuronice neuronice 26-30, F 9 Responses Jun 17, 2007

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    I use to self harm all the time

    when I would feel depressed, it not fun at all I could of lost my life a couple times. I still to this day have thoughts of self harm but I try different things to take my mind of it like slapping a rubber band against your wrist and or going on a little walk. my advise for...
    angelbunniluv angelbunniluv 18-21, F Feb 20, 2014

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    I started in 2005 when I was 21 years old.

    I have not cut/burned myself since April (this year) I think. It did not seem to work anymore. I don't see anything wrong with it. In my mind, everyone self harms in one way or another - smoking, eating, etc. Sometimes I will wear short sleeves. A lot of the time, I still...
    Sncats Sncats 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    i relapsed again. i held it all together during

    the move, through finding out that one of my friends from college had died and going to her funeral that's when the feeling of being alone kicked in. i started to feel empty, like i was numb and it all got just too much, before i realised what i was doing i took a stanley knife...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F Aug 10, 2014

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    ..why?

    some people say they don't why they do it, but i think deep down every one of us really know some reason why we do it. release anger held inside think of other pain adreneline rush attention death lonliness like pain like blood like wounds like struggles there are so...
    hayleymeike hayleymeike 18-21, F 17 Responses Apr 7, 2007

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    I have self harmed since I was 6

    and I am 16 now. I always liked cutting once I started I couldn't stop. When I was 10 my best friend died of suicide I got worse when she died.
    scarsfadeaway scarsfadeaway 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I self harm everyday.

    Sometimes I'm not even sad or feeling down when I do, but I am just so addicted to the feeling that it happens as almost an impulse, like I'm doing it without even realizing that I am. And when I do realize that I am, I don't stop, I just acknowledge it as if acknowledging...
    tthistooshallpass tthistooshallpass 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    No one will miss me when I'm gone The darkness

    that surrounds me, That's captured my soul, Is my only friend. Well, my only other one, Other than the voices in my head. They whisper seductively to me, persuading me to do bad things. But I fight to resist, go against my will, Because I don't want to keep bleeding. However...
    AlyShine AlyShine 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2014

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    I stopping cutting myself only

    because I don't want my mom to see what I have done.. and now I started cutting again..
    minri92 minri92 22-25, F Mar 11, 2014

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    My 3 Year Journey

    When people see self harm scars or fresh cuts, they often turn their head. They just label that person as "emo" instead of taking the time to learn what drove them to it. This happens far too often in today's society. So, i'm putting my story up on here in hopes of having at...
    psp0815 psp0815 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    That One Minute....

    May Trigger: Just for them couple of minutes, everything rushes away, out of my body, I dont think about anything or anyone, all my worries dissapear, the hurt I have inside dissapears, and even though it only lasts for a couple of minutes its great to have that, its great to...
    xXsammiXx xXsammiXx 16-17, F 11 Responses May 6, 2007

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    My Self Harm Story

    I've self harmed for a couple of years now. It started off with rather blunt blades that didn't do an awful lot of damage unless I constantly dug them in, and then I went onto using sharper blades, and cutting deeper. I do it to help relieve the stresses in my life, I find alot...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 8, 2007

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    I started self harming aged 14 back in they

    days no one understood or spoke about it. It became my secret, id cut in places no one could see, the souls of my feet, ankles, underneath my hair line, inside my thighs, my shoulders. It wasn't the pain i cut for, id feel empty inside almost dead and if I cut and could see the...
    sirslilangel sirslilangel 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    I relapsed Sunday night

    after being almost 4 months clean. I told my boyfriend and myself that i wouldn't do it again but I failed. I'm afraid that if I tell him or he sees the cuts on my arms he'll be disappointed and he won't think I'm as strong as he thought I was. But I'm just so overwhelmed with...
    HelloLovelyPerson HelloLovelyPerson 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I don't want to stop.

    I don't do it often anymore - maybe once a month - but I don't want to stop. I don't regret cutting. I hate hiding the cuts from my family. They don't understand why I'd do this to myself. They don't understand why I wouldn't want to stop. Cutting is a comfort to me.
    elleohzed elleohzed 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2014

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    they used to say that there were stars

    and galaxies in my head but the moon ran off and the stars long burned out so looking around now it looks like it's dead and now no one hears me, no matter how loud i shout my desperate pleas go unheard and now i can hear the metal sing so now i can't even say a word and...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F Apr 8

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    Because I'm not yet at the point

    where I can put the words "used to" in between. It started well over a year ago (getting closer to two) and was pretty bad at one point. But I don't want to talk about the past, because even though I've learned from it, there's nothing more to gain by dwelling on it. I want to...
    julie024 julie024 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2014

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    I am 37 and just started to self harm again.

    I first started when i was in high school and was being bullied and had very few friends,I reached out to the school counselor who in turn went behind my back and told my parents. Then i went to a counselor once a week, I stopped for a while and then started having health issues...
    carrik carrik 36-40, F Feb 2, 2014

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    My Addiction, My Life.

    It all stared before I was even born. My parents were junkies, abusing Methamphetamines and other hard drugs since their meeting in 1987. Lets jump foreward several years, its 1991 they marry and I was born. A rocky, drug filled relatinship ensued until 1995, when they finally...
    srv91red srv91red 18-21 1 Response Sep 30, 2010

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