I Self Harm

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    WorkInProgress2012 WorkInProgress2012
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2014

    I've been going through some really bad stuff

    recently and like recently I've just decided that I really like the feeling of burning on my skin. I've started to do things like putting cigarettes out on my hand or my arm.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 21, 2015

    I Became Who I Promised Never To Be.

    I was always a happy kid. I was bullied when I was younger but that didn't effect me too much. My dad died from cancer when I was only 11 years old. It didn't set in until 8th grade. Everything kind of hit me then. I started writing really dark stuff in my English class. Some of...
    TheMisunderstoodMistake TheMisunderstoodMistake
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Apr 8, 2012

    i relapsed again. i held it all together during

    the move, through finding out that one of my friends from college had died and going to her funeral that's when the feeling of being alone kicked in. i started to feel empty, like i was numb and it all got just too much, before i realised what i was doing i took a stanley knife...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday
    22-25, F
    Aug 10, 2014

    I Do It Too

    I started self harming about a month ago when I split with my boyfriend. I feel hurt, rejected and unwanted. The emotional pain became so umbearable and thats when i started. I think about self harming all the time. When I do it I have such a sense of relief afterwards...
    lucylou lucylou
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Jul 24, 2007

    A Little Poem About Self Harm

    Run to your room Slam the door Turn up the music Fall to the floor Scream in yourself Let no-one hear Tell no secrets Show no fear Grab the knife No-one will care Pull back your sleeve Your arm in bare Lay the blade against Your Skin Pushing hard the...
    DarkenedAngel DarkenedAngel
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Oct 3, 2011

    I'm so mad at myself!

    ! I want to stop this but I am so weak!!! Once I get the urge to I can't stop myself. I'm afraid this will control and dominate my life. I don't know how to deal with loneliness, depression, stress, and emptiness. I've tried so many methods of controlling my feelings and urges...
    holdontilmay holdontilmay
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Jan 21, 2014

    I cut myself when I lost a close friend to her

    battle. Sometimes I wish I was there for her more and that I was there more. My family life is no better. No one really gives a monkey what I'm doing and if they do all they seem to do is call me a disappointment or treat me like an outcast. They say your friends are the...
    Georgedinozzoo97 Georgedinozzoo97
    22-25, F
    Apr 13, 2015

    ... and I Enjoy It.

    I hurt myself, and I have no intention of stopping either. I used to wish I could stop - but that's when I thought I had a problem. What I do is no worse than smoking or drinking. SI won't give me cancer, it won't rot my liver, it won't paralyze me or give me a horrible STD. As...
    slowrewind slowrewind
    22-25, F
    10 Responses May 6, 2007

    Because I'm not yet at the point

    where I can put the words "used to" in between. It started well over a year ago (getting closer to two) and was pretty bad at one point. But I don't want to talk about the past, because even though I've learned from it, there's nothing more to gain by dwelling on it. I want to...
    julie024 julie024
    18-21, F
    Jan 24, 2014

    I punch myself. A lot.

    Usually on my arms. Once I get into it I can actually hit quite hard. Often I'll just focus on one spot and hit it repeatedly. After a while the bruises start to show, but I like bruises so I almost never try to hide them. Sometimes instead of the arms I'll punch myself in the...
    ZeroShadow ZeroShadow
    26-30, M
    Mar 12, 2016

    I Need Help

    heey . im a 13 yearold femal who aint really had the best of starts to like and it sounds terrible but i self harm and smoke .everyone says self harming gets better but mine only seems to be getting worse for example , bigger urges = harder to controll = bigger cuts .iv seen that...
    invisiblekid invisiblekid
    2 Responses May 22, 2012

    Well I'm officially 5 months clean

    so far. I honestly don't know how I managed to do it. But I guess I just used other alternatives besides cutting. For all those who are struggling, I want to let you know that there is hope and you can get through this. Even if it's tough right now. As the saying goes "you can...
    BeautifulSoul09 BeautifulSoul09
    18-21, F
    Apr 4, 2015


    How will you know I am hurting if you cannot see any    pain?    To wear it on my body tells what words cannot   explain   from the web im shure someone has seen it before   feb 8 2010 cut again tonight the feeling u get just before the...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul
    41-45, M
    9 Responses Jan 29, 2010

    No one will miss me when I'm gone The darkness

    that surrounds me, That's captured my soul, Is my only friend. Well, my only other one, Other than the voices in my head. They whisper seductively to me, persuading me to do bad things. But I fight to resist, go against my will, Because I don't want to keep bleeding. However...
    AlyShine AlyShine
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    This Is A Poem I Wrote. It'S Called 'Scars'

    Tick-tock tick-tock That's the sound of my clock TV's on but the volume's down Wishing I wasn't here right now Pull up my sleeve, look at my wrist Should I really take the risk? Scars will fade but they leave a mark A reminder of a broken heart Scars on my feet, scars on my arms...
    AmyxLink AmyxLink
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2013

    I Self Harm

    When I started I never thought it would get this bad. I just thought once or twice but never that I'd be addicted to watching my blood flow on my skin, slowly making the water red. I've never been so in love.
    Kmb143 Kmb143
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2013

    I have a type of skin disease

    that brought me nothing but misery in the second and third grade when i just moved to the town I had to ride the bus and from me riding I met the people who made fun of me that called it sage disease and like the cheese touch they called it sage touch they would make me leave...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2014

    I have harmed since i was 14 (I'm 24 now) i lie

    to everyone that knew i did it they all think i stopped but really its worse than ever:/ a few cuts are not enough anymore i can do upto 50 cuts each time and even that is not enough i have to take a small overdose its never enough to kill me but enough to do damage and kill...
    rockchick1990 rockchick1990
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 10, 2015

    Stupid Kourtny...

    I abuse myself because its my way of putting myself in place. I simply pinch my skin until i bruise, or burn it. It takes alot for me to try and stop, but i just feel like im always doing something wrong or stupid, so to punish myself for my stupidity, thats what i do. ive gotten...
    kotonilove kotonilove
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2012

    I relapsed Sunday night

    after being almost 4 months clean. I told my boyfriend and myself that i wouldn't do it again but I failed. I'm afraid that if I tell him or he sees the cuts on my arms he'll be disappointed and he won't think I'm as strong as he thought I was. But I'm just so overwhelmed with...
    BeautifulSoul09 BeautifulSoul09
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2014

    i self harmed and i am 4 weeks clean i have

    scars and im proud of them cause as my friend says they are battle scars now my life is back on track and im joining cadets in september and going to make the most of teen years live life !
    katiealex11 katiealex11
    36-40, F
    Feb 23, 2015

    Wanting To Forget.

    If someone took a photograph of the worst time of your life and displayed it to you every day, you would never, forget. On the one hand, you probably would never forget anyway. Afterall, it's imprinted on your brain.But on the other, why make the pain real, instead of just a...
    Dayloverr Dayloverr
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2011

    I recently began slicing my arm

    and tried overdose.. I drank 6 bottles of cider 1 after the other popping 40 paracetamol pills. Don't know what has come over me recently I'm never usually like this
    Mustangkid2020 Mustangkid2020
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 15, 2014

    I have been clean for 3 weeks,

    but I feel like cutting so bad right now and I feel like I won't be able to stop. Will someone please talk to me so I don't do something I will regret later..
    deathbysadness deathbysadness
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Aug 12, 2015

    the one thing i don't think i can do without is

    self harm. i'm done it for so long and it's always been there for me, even when i couldn't tell people.... sone day i won't do it any more and that scares me
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    "Beautifully Broken"

    "Beautifully Broken" By M.I.D They look at her and see a girl nothing more nothing less. They see her crying and screaming and they say she's just a mess They have no idea the pain she holds inside the pain that always churns the pain is so bad she wants to hide from this ever...
    UndoubtedlyBroken UndoubtedlyBroken
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2011

    It Stops The Hurting

    Writing this is both painful and, hopefully, cathartic.I'm 48, and have only really been self harming for a year or so. I wonder whether it's my equivalent of alcoholism (both my late parents were alcoholics), a self-destructive behaviour to try and blot out mental pain.It's been...
    mizzen123 mizzen123
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2012

    A Gateway To Hell

    When I was a little girl, my mom walked out of my life. After she left, I was sexually, physically, and emotionally abused for about two years.. Since I was just a young girl... I didn't know how to deal with it... That's when I started self harming. I punched myself in the face...
    ALovelyLostLoner ALovelyLostLoner
    May 6, 2012

    My 3 Year Journey

    When people see self harm scars or fresh cuts, they often turn their head. They just label that person as "emo" instead of taking the time to learn what drove them to it. This happens far too often in today's society. So, i'm putting my story up on here in hopes of having at...
    psp0815 psp0815
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 28, 2013
    lovelyy25 lovelyy25
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2015

    I feel like I have nothing left to put up

    against life. Any energy I manage comes from a desolate place with very little to give. In all honesty I'm tired of existing but if I were to stop, I feel the guilt and sadness I would leave behind is unacceptable. So I am here not for me, but for the comfort of others. Maybe...
    Emmy508 Emmy508
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 21, 2015

    they used to say that there were stars

    and galaxies in my head but the moon ran off and the stars long burned out so looking around now it looks like it's dead and now no one hears me, no matter how loud i shout my desperate pleas go unheard and now i can hear the metal sing so now i can't even say a word and...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday
    22-25, F
    Apr 8, 2015

    That One Minute....

    May Trigger: Just for them couple of minutes, everything rushes away, out of my body, I dont think about anything or anyone, all my worries dissapear, the hurt I have inside dissapears, and even though it only lasts for a couple of minutes its great to have that, its great to...
    xXsammiXx xXsammiXx
    18-21, F
    11 Responses May 6, 2007

    I never realised what I was doing to other

    people when I was hurting myself, until I met my best friend at uni a few weeks ago. My best friends from home found out about my cutting a while back, and every time they saw the scars they would be upset and scared and all that. I never knew why, I thought, "its me I'm cutting...
    DreamsOfDrowning DreamsOfDrowning
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    Keep Counting

    One, two, skip a few...sixteen. Sixteen cuts, red and glaring, running up and down my thigh. I stare at them, mesmerized. The guilt has not yet set in. Right now, all I feel is relief. Relief and euphoria. Relief because, despite the pain, it replaces every other pain. The sting...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Jul 9, 2012

    I already stop cutting myself like two months

    ago..and I promised my self to not do it again and move on..and I feel peace.. I stop doing thing's that I used to like because it always trigger me..I don't why I feel like I have this big misunderstanding in people..and when I try to think when I'm in their place I might do...
    minri92 minri92
    22-25, F
    Jul 17, 2014

    I have self harmed since I was 6

    and I am 16 now. I always liked cutting once I started I couldn't stop. When I was 10 my best friend died of suicide I got worse when she died.
    scarsfadeaway scarsfadeaway
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

    I'm 18 year old male,

    and i have everything a kid could ever want. I'm spoiled. I admit it. I drive a BMW, i have a 2k dollar gaming PC, two laptops, all the music gear i could ever need, and a nice home. Yet, i still feel like my life sucks. I have depression, anxiety, adhd, dyslexia, etc. I feel...
    anonynovel anonynovel
    26-30, T
    1 Response Aug 15, 2015

    I started self harming

    when I was 17. I never thought I would because I couldn't cut myself but then I discovered that there are other ways. The first time I burned myself with a lighter I did so on my arm... later moving to other parts. I still self harm on and off. I'm 23 now and find that I use...
    ElouiseLou ElouiseLou
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 23, 2015

    My friend cold steel,

    Realistically; I hate that word. Of course I know exactly where my place is in reality. Reality: I am destroyed, if you look close enough (which I don’t recommend) you will see the damage caused by my inability to crave existing. Light does not shine through the cracks of my...
    Emmy508 Emmy508
    31-35, F
    Apr 30, 2015

    The Warning Sings Are Obvious To Other Self Harmers

    I am a self harmer. I notice when other self harmers are doing the little things I do to hide the scars. I notice that you dont take off your jumper. I noticed the scars when your sleeve came up and how fast you pull it down. I notice when you pull alway if someone toches your...
    Butterflycutter Butterflycutter
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

    I have struggled with cutting

    for years now and it seems like it's pointless battle that I can never win because I don't really want to fight it. My razor brings me far too much comfort for me to just throw it away. Is there better? Maybe. But I have never come across anything as faithful as a blade.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 11, 2015

    I don't want to stop.

    I don't do it often anymore - maybe once a month - but I don't want to stop. I don't regret cutting. I hate hiding the cuts from my family. They don't understand why I'd do this to myself. They don't understand why I wouldn't want to stop. Cutting is a comfort to me.
    elleohzed elleohzed
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2014


    some people say they don't why they do it, but i think deep down every one of us really know some reason why we do it. release anger held inside think of other pain adreneline rush attention death lonliness like pain like blood like wounds like struggles there are so...
    hayleymeike hayleymeike
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Apr 7, 2007

    Im Not Depressed

    I dont cut myself when im feeling depressed when im depressed i write poetry or music but its when im angry at myself that i cut. I hadn't done it for a while until the other day when my mum was yelling at me for locking the dog outside in the rain for half an hour (by accident...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Aug 15, 2007

    Just kind of wanted to talk about it

    and am feeling really bad. If someone replys, At what age did you start? I started when I was 11 :/. Feel free to ask anything in the comments, I will reply back. I have been fighting depression for a long while and anorexia.
    JadeSoulless JadeSoulless
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2014

    I hate how I always go back to this.

    Always going back to self harming is an awful habit. I'm just getting worse too. I'm having trouble stopping, but I just can't help it.
    PiecesOfPeace PiecesOfPeace
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 14, 2015

    For those who know me on this topic I hold no

    judgments. I deal with this so I don't have a right to. What I will not tolerate and what will make me loose sleep is people doing personal attacks on others who are reaching out for help. I understand how hard it is for others to ask for help. I'm tired of people saying...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell
    41-45, M
    Nov 15, 2015

    I hate admitting this.

    It makes me really mad at myself that I did this again. I haven't since early 2011. I don't even know what to think of it, and I don't want anyone to find out because I'm not suicidal. I mean I'm always battling depression but I still have things that keep me alive. I still have...
    starling156 starling156
    22-25, M
    Apr 30, 2015

    Up and Down and Repeat

    i self harm wen im angry or sad. i often wonder if im depressed or jst ****** up in the head. i like the marks the knife makes, thats not rite is it? i used to slice across my arm, now i sortof stab the side of my arm. my parents saw the cuts once, the asked about them and sed...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 25, 2007

    Hi guys, I m not sure

    if i fit in this category, but i d love to hear your opinions. I did cut maybe 4-5 times in past few years. As you can see i do cut very rarely. Mostly it s a rash decision while I m depressed. However i do cut only slightly to feel the calming pain and see just a very little...
    ladymerylin ladymerylin
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

    As a truck driver, nothing ****** me off more

    than other people who want to drive like tards. This crete carrier driver wanted to sit there and be an a.s.s.hole. and got my company safety dept called on me when I'm not the one in the wrong. He's the one who decided to pace me and cause the traffic back up. Up yours crete...
    Jackem82 Jackem82
    31-35, M
    Jul 30, 2014


    I am 15 years old. I'm a self harmer. My method is scratching. I feel alienated because I don't think I can be taken seriously by the majority of self harmers because I don't make myself bleed. It started one day when I had a doctor's appointment. I have an extreme phobia of...
    1keepingfaith 1keepingfaith
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 17, 2013

    Another Self Harm Poem

    i'm sitting here with nothing to do. what the hell am i going to do? i go to the bathroom and reach for the blade, put it by my wrist and there it laid, pushing it deeper until i bleed, this is exactly what i need, the pain and suffering i just felt, all begins to...
    DarkenedAngel DarkenedAngel
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 16, 2011
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