I Self Harm

When I was a little girl, my mom walked out of my life.
After she left, I was sexually, physically, and emotionally abused for about two years..
Since I was just a young girl... I didn't know how to deal with it... That's when I started...

So I have lasted a full week without depressed thoughts or thoughts of self harm!
It feels like an achievement to me.

I have been trying to stay positive. I am reading 'The Happiness Project' and in diary of sorts I write what I did...

Run to your room

Slam the door

Turn up the music

Fall to the floor

Scream in yourself

Let no-one hear

Tell no secrets

Show no fear

Grab the knife

No-one will care

Pull back your sleeve

Your arm in bare

Lay the...

I self harm because I'm numb. I'm not necessarily sad, angry, or even happy. I never feel any emotion. When I'm stressed, I don't get angry or upset like other people do, I just get this feeling in my stomach and my wrists beg for it...

Writing this is both painful and, hopefully, cathartic.I'm 48, and have only really been self harming for a year or so. I wonder whether it's my equivalent of alcoholism (both my late parents were alcoholics), a self-destructive...

If someone took a photograph of the worst time of your life and displayed it to you every day, you would never, forget. On the one hand, you probably would never forget anyway. Afterall, it's imprinted on your brain.But on the other...

I hurt myself, and I have no intention of stopping either. I used to wish I could stop - but that's when I thought I had a problem. What I do is no worse than smoking or drinking. SI won't give me cancer, it won't rot my liver, it won't...

i'm sitting here with nothing to do.

what the hell am i going to do?

i go to the bathroom and reach for the blade,

put it by my wrist and there it laid,

pushing it deeper until i bleed,

this is exactly what i need,

the...

I dont cut myself when im feeling depressed when im depressed i write poetry or music but its when im angry at myself that i cut. I hadn't done it for a while until the other day when my mum was yelling at me for locking the dog outside...

I quit for a month or two and two days ago something snapped in me and i was just done. I cut alot and everywhich way. I cut down my wrist and i kind of regret it now because its going to take a very long time to heal. It wasnt to bad i...

I am a self harmer. I notice when other self harmers are doing the little things I do to hide the scars. I notice that you dont take off your jumper. I noticed the scars when your sleeve came up and how fast you pull it down. I notice...

since i was 4 i've been a cutter. obviously as i got older my methods "improved" if one would like to say it that way. i am in my early 20s, i still self harm. this and dissociation are really my only ways of coping. i don't think...

some people say they don't why they do it, but i think deep down every one of us really know some reason why we do it.
release anger held inside
think of other pain
adreneline rush
attention
death
lonliness
like pain
like blood...

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Just for them couple of minutes, everything rushes away, out of my body, I dont think about anything or anyone, all my worries dissapear, the hurt I have inside dissapears, and even though it only lasts for a couple of...