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    Because I'm not yet at the point

    where I can put the words "used to" in between. It started well over a year ago (getting closer to two) and was pretty bad at one point. But I don't want to talk about the past, because even though I've learned from it, there's nothing more to gain by dwelling on it. I want to...
    julie024 julie024 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2014

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    It Stops The Hurting

    Writing this is both painful and, hopefully, cathartic.I'm 48, and have only really been self harming for a year or so. I wonder whether it's my equivalent of alcoholism (both my late parents were alcoholics), a self-destructive behaviour to try and blot out mental pain.It's been...
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 27, 2012

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    I started in 2005 when I was 21 years old.

    I have not cut/burned myself since April (this year) I think. It did not seem to work anymore. I don't see anything wrong with it. In my mind, everyone self harms in one way or another - smoking, eating, etc. Sometimes I will wear short sleeves. A lot of the time, I still...
    Sncats Sncats 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    I have self harmed since I was 6

    and I am 16 now. I always liked cutting once I started I couldn't stop. When I was 10 my best friend died of suicide I got worse when she died.
    scarsfadeaway scarsfadeaway 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    This Is A Poem I Wrote. It'S Called 'Scars'

    Tick-tock tick-tock That's the sound of my clock TV's on but the volume's down Wishing I wasn't here right now Pull up my sleeve, look at my wrist Should I really take the risk? Scars will fade but they leave a mark A reminder of a broken heart Scars on my feet, scars on my arms...
    AmyxLink AmyxLink 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2013

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    Up and Down and Repeat

    i self harm wen im angry or sad. i often wonder if im depressed or jst ****** up in the head. i like the marks the knife makes, thats not rite is it? i used to slice across my arm, now i sortof stab the side of my arm. my parents saw the cuts once, the asked about them and sed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 25, 2007

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    the one thing i don't think i can do without is

    self harm. i'm done it for so long and it's always been there for me, even when i couldn't tell people.... sone day i won't do it any more and that scares me
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    I relapsed Sunday night

    after being almost 4 months clean. I told my boyfriend and myself that i wouldn't do it again but I failed. I'm afraid that if I tell him or he sees the cuts on my arms he'll be disappointed and he won't think I'm as strong as he thought I was. But I'm just so overwhelmed with...
    Allcatsareawesome Allcatsareawesome 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    Sometimes when I am so angry at a person,

    instead of expressing it to them directly, I kind of self-destruct and go apeshit. Lateron, I'd notice I got bumps and bruises. I, then, will realize that I did that to me. Hurting other people is out of the question because, based from experience, whenever I directly express...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2014

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    Hi guys, I m not sure

    if i fit in this category, but i d love to hear your opinions. I did cut maybe 4-5 times in past few years. As you can see i do cut very rarely. Mostly it s a rash decision while I m depressed. However i do cut only slightly to feel the calming pain and see just a very little...
    ladymerylin ladymerylin 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    WorkInProgress2012 WorkInProgress2012 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    Im Not Depressed

    I dont cut myself when im feeling depressed when im depressed i write poetry or music but its when im angry at myself that i cut. I hadn't done it for a while until the other day when my mum was yelling at me for locking the dog outside in the rain for half an hour (by accident...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 15, 2007

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    The Scars Wont Fade Away

    I may have overdone it a bit this time. I was just dying inside and I was cracking down. I couldn't stop myself. The razor was so sharp and welcoming. It bled more than it has in a long long time. So deep and painful. They burn everytime my heart beats. Or every time I move I can...
    DetachedCitizen DetachedCitizen 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    i self harmed and i am 4 weeks clean i have

    scars and im proud of them cause as my friend says they are battle scars now my life is back on track and im joining cadets in september and going to make the most of teen years live life !
    katiealex11 katiealex11 31-35, F Feb 23

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    My Self Harm Story

    I've self harmed for a couple of years now. It started off with rather blunt blades that didn't do an awful lot of damage unless I constantly dug them in, and then I went onto using sharper blades, and cutting deeper. I do it to help relieve the stresses in my life, I find alot...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 8, 2007

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    I have harmed since i was 14 (I'm 24 now) i lie

    to everyone that knew i did it they all think i stopped but really its worse than ever:/ a few cuts are not enough anymore i can do upto 50 cuts each time and even that is not enough i have to take a small overdose its never enough to kill me but enough to do damage and kill...
    rockchick1990 rockchick1990 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    I hate admitting this.

    It makes me really mad at myself that I did this again. I haven't since early 2011. I don't even know what to think of it, and I don't want anyone to find out because I'm not suicidal. I mean I'm always battling depression but I still have things that keep me alive. I still have...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M Apr 30

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    No one will miss me when I'm gone The darkness

    that surrounds me, That's captured my soul, Is my only friend. Well, my only other one, Other than the voices in my head. They whisper seductively to me, persuading me to do bad things. But I fight to resist, go against my will, Because I don't want to keep bleeding. However...
    AlyShine AlyShine 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2014

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    Why

    How will you know I am hurting if you cannot see any    pain?    To wear it on my body tells what words cannot   explain   from the web im shure someone has seen it before   feb 8 2010 cut again tonight the feeling u get just before the...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M 9 Responses Jan 29, 2010

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    they used to say that there were stars

    and galaxies in my head but the moon ran off and the stars long burned out so looking around now it looks like it's dead and now no one hears me, no matter how loud i shout my desperate pleas go unheard and now i can hear the metal sing so now i can't even say a word and...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F Apr 8

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    "Beautifully Broken"

    "Beautifully Broken" By M.I.D They look at her and see a girl nothing more nothing less. They see her crying and screaming and they say she's just a mess They have no idea the pain she holds inside the pain that always churns the pain is so bad she wants to hide from this ever...
    UndoubtedlyBroken UndoubtedlyBroken 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2011

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    I Do It Too

    I started self harming about a month ago when I split with my boyfriend. I feel hurt, rejected and unwanted. The emotional pain became so umbearable and thats when i started. I think about self harming all the time. When I do it I have such a sense of relief afterwards...
    lucylou lucylou 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 24, 2007

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    I cut myself when I lost a close friend to her

    battle. Sometimes I wish I was there for her more and that I was there more. My family life is no better. No one really gives a monkey what I'm doing and if they do all they seem to do is call me a disappointment or treat me like an outcast. They say your friends are the...
    Georgedinozzoo97 Georgedinozzoo97 18-21, F Apr 13

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    I recently began slicing my arm

    and tried overdose.. I drank 6 bottles of cider 1 after the other popping 40 paracetamol pills. Don't know what has come over me recently I'm never usually like this
    Mustangkid2020 Mustangkid2020 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    I stopping cutting myself only

    because I don't want my mom to see what I have done.. and now I started cutting again..
    minri92 minri92 22-25, F Mar 11, 2014

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    Well I'm officially 5 months clean

    so far. I honestly don't know how I managed to do it. But I guess I just used other alternatives besides cutting. For all those who are struggling, I want to let you know that there is hope and you can get through this. Even if it's tough right now. As the saying goes "you can...
    Allcatsareawesome Allcatsareawesome 18-21, F Apr 4

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    As a truck driver, nothing ****** me off more

    than other people who want to drive like tards. This crete carrier driver wanted to sit there and be an a.s.s.hole. and got my company safety dept called on me when I'm not the one in the wrong. He's the one who decided to pace me and cause the traffic back up. Up yours crete...
    Jackem82 Jackem82 31-35, M Jul 30, 2014

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    I Became Who I Promised Never To Be.

    I was always a happy kid. I was bullied when I was younger but that didn't effect me too much. My dad died from cancer when I was only 11 years old. It didn't set in until 8th grade. Everything kind of hit me then. I started writing really dark stuff in my English class. Some of...
    TheMisunderstoodMistake TheMisunderstoodMistake 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    I already stop cutting myself like two months

    ago..and I promised my self to not do it again and move on..and I feel peace.. I stop doing thing's that I used to like because it always trigger me..I don't why I feel like I have this big misunderstanding in people..and when I try to think when I'm in their place I might do...
    minri92 minri92 22-25, F Jul 17, 2014

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    Scratches

    I am 15 years old. I'm a self harmer. My method is scratching. I feel alienated because I don't think I can be taken seriously by the majority of self harmers because I don't make myself bleed. It started one day when I had a doctor's appointment. I have an extreme phobia of...
    1keepingfaith 1keepingfaith 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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    I've been going through some really bad stuff

    recently and like recently I've just decided that I really like the feeling of burning on my skin. I've started to do things like putting cigarettes out on my hand or my arm.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 21

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    Keep Counting

    One, two, skip a few...sixteen. Sixteen cuts, red and glaring, running up and down my thigh. I stare at them, mesmerized. The guilt has not yet set in. Right now, all I feel is relief. Relief and euphoria. Relief because, despite the pain, it replaces every other pain. The sting...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    I feel like I have nothing left to put up

    against life. Any energy I manage comes from a desolate place with very little to give. In all honesty I'm tired of existing but if I were to stop, I feel the guilt and sadness I would leave behind is unacceptable. So I am here not for me, but for the comfort of others. Maybe...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 31-35, F May 21

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    I started self harming

    when I was 17. I never thought I would because I couldn't cut myself but then I discovered that there are other ways. The first time I burned myself with a lighter I did so on my arm... later moving to other parts. I still self harm on and off. I'm 23 now and find that I use...
    ElouiseLou ElouiseLou 22-25, F 2 Responses May 23

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    I Need Help

    heey . im a 13 yearold femal who aint really had the best of starts to like and it sounds terrible but i self harm and smoke .everyone says self harming gets better but mine only seems to be getting worse for example , bigger urges = harder to controll = bigger cuts .iv seen that...
    invisiblekid invisiblekid 13-15 2 Responses May 22, 2012

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    lovelyy25 lovelyy25 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    It's been exactly one month

    and 6 days since the last time I hurt myself in any way. the last two days have been really rough, everything I do and see reminds me of it and I want to hurt again. It feels like my skin is itching for it, like my body is screaming at me to do it and I hate this feeling. It...
    DevilsDontFly DevilsDontFly 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    A Gateway To Hell

    When I was a little girl, my mom walked out of my life. After she left, I was sexually, physically, and emotionally abused for about two years.. Since I was just a young girl... I didn't know how to deal with it... That's when I started self harming. I punched myself in the face...
    ALovelyLostLoner ALovelyLostLoner 13-15 May 6, 2012

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    Another Self Harm Poem

    i'm sitting here with nothing to do. what the hell am i going to do? i go to the bathroom and reach for the blade, put it by my wrist and there it laid, pushing it deeper until i bleed, this is exactly what i need, the pain and suffering i just felt, all begins to...
    DarkenedAngel DarkenedAngel 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 16, 2011

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    My 3 Year Journey

    When people see self harm scars or fresh cuts, they often turn their head. They just label that person as "emo" instead of taking the time to learn what drove them to it. This happens far too often in today's society. So, i'm putting my story up on here in hopes of having at...
    psp0815 psp0815 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    Numb The Pain

    I hold the scissors in one hand, blood already drying on the metal razors. I feel the burning tear on my arm which in itself is a satisfaction. Blood red scratches have sunk into my skin while stinging lines begin to rise in the places I haven’t cut deep enough. The tears I had...
    imaginethis13 imaginethis13 18-21, F Apr 19, 2011

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    Thinking About Self Harm

    When I was a teenager I used think about suicide a lot but never attempted it. As I got older I stopped thinking about it & started thinking about self-harm instead. When I was a child I was keeping a secret (which I never should have kept a secret) & I started to think...
    neuronice neuronice 26-30, F 9 Responses Jun 17, 2007

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    That One Minute....

    May Trigger: Just for them couple of minutes, everything rushes away, out of my body, I dont think about anything or anyone, all my worries dissapear, the hurt I have inside dissapears, and even though it only lasts for a couple of minutes its great to have that, its great to...
    xXsammiXx xXsammiXx 16-17, F 11 Responses May 6, 2007

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    A Little Poem About Self Harm

    Run to your room Slam the door Turn up the music Fall to the floor Scream in yourself Let no-one hear Tell no secrets Show no fear Grab the knife No-one will care Pull back your sleeve Your arm in bare Lay the blade against Your Skin Pushing hard the...
    DarkenedAngel DarkenedAngel 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    i relapsed again. i held it all together during

    the move, through finding out that one of my friends from college had died and going to her funeral that's when the feeling of being alone kicked in. i started to feel empty, like i was numb and it all got just too much, before i realised what i was doing i took a stanley knife...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F Aug 10, 2014

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    Just kind of wanted to talk about it

    and am feeling really bad. If someone replys, At what age did you start? I started when I was 11 :/. Feel free to ask anything in the comments, I will reply back. I have been fighting depression for a long while and anorexia.
    JadeSoulless JadeSoulless 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2014

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