I Self Injure

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 411 People

    Si-free For 14 Months

    This is an all time record for me. I'm trying to quit - I mean, I've been trying to quit since I was 14, and now I'm 20, but this time I'm not sucking at it.
    emmy emmy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2006

    Triggered

    I've been self injuring since I was around 6, back then I would hit my thighs and shins until they bruised when I felt anxious. After moving to Florida I stopped for a long time, that is, until my parents got divorced. I was very sheltered before my parents divorced, I had been...
    necromanticboy necromanticboy
    18-21, T
    Aug 10, 2010

    Screeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaam

    would any body help me scares will last forever
    depressedgirl19 depressedgirl19
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2012

    That's What They Think..

    I've been trying to stop self injuring for about three weeks now.I've been unsuccessful.I stopped cutting on my wrists..because then my parents and teacher, even my friends will think I'm getting better.And I won't have to go to therapy.It's for my parents mostly. It tares my...
    ashatteredhope ashatteredhope
    18-21, F
    Jan 11, 2012

    Inner Pain

    I have not done it in over a year,but the temptation is still there,so I cant say that I am done with it for good.Sometimes though things get so messed up in life and you have no immediate options to control the pain or let it go.No one I have ever talked to understands this,they...
    blackcat blackcat
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2007

    I Cut Myself

    I honestly hate feeling pain. I hate cutting myself. I hated burning myself, too. But it makes getting through another day so much easier. When my mom tells me for the fifth time that day that I'm incompetent, when my friends start making fun of the lesbians in my school, when...
    TrafalgarLaw TrafalgarLaw
    18-21, F
    Nov 25, 2012

    Switchblade Parade

    With the knife in my hands, I tremble, fully aware of what I shouldn't do.  My trembling hand rolls up the sleeve of my sweatshirt. My hate filled eyes fix upon the fresh scars of terror. The blade touches my skin, I press a little harder. Nothing. Nothing. I slice the...
    AnAugustSunset AnAugustSunset
    22-25, F
    Mar 23, 2008

    I have self injured since I was 8 years old

    today I am sixteen and 26 days no self harm. Hardest thing ever. I am in a residential treatment facility have been for 8 months and 3 months prior to that I was in the hospital. I know what it's like to wake up daily and want to die. Stay up all night crying it's not just you...
    lizbesaw lizbesaw
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2014

    Everyone wishes they can go back in time

    and undo certain actions or events in their lives. I am like no other and wish i could undo a lot of mistakes that I have made over the years. I have always had very strong emotions for as long as I could remember. Everyone has their own way of thinking which I think is the...
    Remy1317 Remy1317
    22-25, F
    Feb 7, 2014

    I Was Doing So Good.

    Last week I would wake up and cut in the morning. I would cut before I went to bed. I would cut when I was lonely. Last Wednesday I decided i was done cutting. I stopped for two days. 2. I was proud of myself, because of how often I cut. But today, my mom tells me to weigh...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 30, 2012

    When People Say It's So Stupid...

    It makes me very very upset. For me to hear them say such things...I mean who the hell are you to tell me I'm stupid and am being stupid about the whole cutting situation some people pose...and some people don't or even maybe for a cry of help. But in my case I don't give Not...
    DUBST3ps DUBST3ps
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2012

    I Started Again.

    I think it was two or three days ago. I was home and it was late at night. nobody but me was up. i was bored so I decided to go into the bathroom and I put makeup on. See this is what I do when I am bored. And I had just gotten some new eye shadow, lipstick, and a brush. Along...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2012

    No One Said

    No one ever said that to self harm you have to cut. You could burn yourself. You could scratch yourself, you could beat yourself, you could bang your head against a text book. No one said it had to be physical either. You could mentally degrade yourself till you are crying on the...
    CandleInTheDark CandleInTheDark
    13-15, F
    Oct 27, 2012

    Accidental Self Injury - Photo

    On the way out of the door of my cabin,I see that the quilt I have hung over the window is still tied open with pink yarn. My arms are full of halters and horse blankets and I don't have a free hand to untie the yarn that holds the curtain. The curtains MUST be closed ...I will...
    PeaceOnEarth PeaceOnEarth
    46-50, F
    9 Responses Jul 4, 2008

    He Saved Me From Myself

    I had known this guy (my current boyfriend, we'll call him "X") for years before we actual started talking. We met through a mutual friend when we were both probably around 11 but didn't speak to each other for like 2 more years. A few months before I started talking to X as...
    ashatteredhope1 ashatteredhope1
    13-15, F
    Aug 2, 2013

    Its Very Strange...

    I hate being lectured about it. I always wear long sleeves. I have cut my arms up so much. And since im tan, the scars show easily. I dont mind the pain. I dont cut for attention. I cut because it reminds me im still alive. I love the feel of it. And i never want to stop. i...
    xSummerofBiohazardx xSummerofBiohazardx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2012

    I'm Sick Of This

    I'm sick of going to sleep at night praying I don't wake up, I'm sick of wearing long sleeves everyday, I'm sick of people complaining about how bad they have it, and I'm sick of being afraid of people knowing who I really am. I'm just tired of never feeling truly happy. When I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2012

    Well, I Used Too...

    Not all that long ago, I used to cut myself a lot. I never went for the deep cuts that bled a lot, because it was something I wanted to hide from some people... But I made up for it with numbers. I used to see how many times I could on one part of my arm. Or how many could run up...
    KaoticReverie KaoticReverie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2012

    I have had a lot of bad things happen to me in

    my life, and I think that those plus many other things caused me to start using self harm as a coping mechanism. Over the years, I have come to the realization that I don't cut to feel pain. When I cut, I cut very quickly and deeply, to minimize the pain, but to maximize the...
    thelisagrace thelisagrace
    18-21, F
    Jan 18, 2014

    I Cut Myself

    and i hate it... at least a part of me hate it. I hate the fact that I love it, that I  need it, that I need it the most when I feel like I'm going to drown in my own darkness. I hate the pain, and love it I hate my scars, and love them I'm to tired to write something...
    BlotGoth BlotGoth
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2007

    I'm Hurting

    I'm 14 &&' I'm in the 8th grade . I have Secrets , I have a Past . When I was in 2nd grade I was molested on a church bus , but nothing could be done because they were under age . I've ALWAYS felt like this was my fault , &&' still do . I was good dealings with this . Until , I...
    StayingStrong11 StayingStrong11
    13-15, F
    Oct 29, 2012

    I Don't Know What To Do

    I always wanted to stop cut myself but when I try, I would break down, grab razor and deep cut into my legs ( I stopped cut in my arms when 1 friend saw it) I just wanna be free from this sh*t but I can't do this. I tried everything to distract me from it but none doesn't help...
    TheAgnes TheAgnes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2012

    I'm feeling very depressed lately,

    I am having trouble eating. Like I will only eat a few bites then start to feel sick because the though of eating is gross. I haven't cut in about a week or so but I keep getting the urge to cut... No one I care for has been here for me. They seem to have started ignoring me...
    brooketheunicorn brooketheunicorn
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 4, 2015

    Self Injury

    I don't know. It feels good, feeling the blood come out. The pain from the brand new, sharp blade. Seeing the scars and marks a few days later. It pleases me, and I'm not sure why. Yes, I think about suicide. I don't think I'll ever do it, but I have a plan for if I ever need to...
    Hiway202 Hiway202
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2012

    Everyday I Bleed

    i stay up all nightcutting into my skini stay up all nightjust so i dont have to wake upi dont remember what happiness feels likei hate what ive become, but nobody can help me, can really truly help me, but i dont want helpso **** off
    brokeninside3 brokeninside3
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2012

    Uncut.

    Today is my year anniversary. It has been exactly one year today since I have cut myself and I gotta tell ya, it feels amazing! There have been times where I've wanted to relapse, but luckily I haven't. Take it from me. Recovery is possible. I did it, and so can you :) 365...
    ashatteredhope1 ashatteredhope1
    13-15, F
    1 Response Aug 3, 2013

    I Owe It All To Him.

    My story has been written, erased, and rewritten so many times on this website. The struggles I have been throw and my battle with self injury and depression have been expressed on here many times as well. The last time I cut myself was on August 3rd, 2012. I can proudly say it...
    ashatteredhope1 ashatteredhope1
    13-15, F
    Jun 22, 2013

    Bent Over And Sideways.

    I was in the hospital for 9 hours yesterday. Left around 2 am. There's nothing I hate more than ******* trying to control my life. I cut myself again- this ***** I no longer talk t told my guidence counsler- my guidence counsler called my dad and told him to pick me up and take...
    ashatteredhope1 ashatteredhope1
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2012

    I Think This Could Help Us All

    Coping Techniques I'm sure a lot of us are on the path to quitting, that's the whole point of talking about it isn't it?? What i wanna do here is start a list of things that we have done/not done to help ourselves wait it out, another hour, another week another day...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 7, 2008

    Yes I Cut My Arm With a Razor ...

    yes I cut my arm with a razor in self-disgust  
    Arijoy Arijoy
    18-21
    4 Responses Feb 16, 2008

    I cut my self in school it started with my

    friend then my girl friend then I started because my girlfriend broke up with me so I was depressed and now I want to stop if u no and easy way to stop plz tell me💔
    Someonehelpme1231 Someonehelpme1231
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 26, 2014

    I really hate school

    and i have bad anxiety, i left school early today because of my anxiety and it makes me gassy. I really want to harm myself but i know it's not right.
    mikebsynergy mikebsynergy
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 13, 2014

    I Still Call It Recovering.

    I used to post stories on here a lot, about everything that was going on, in my life and in my head. I was suicidal, cut myself everyday on more than one occasion. Hospital visits, acute mental institution stays. I would always ask myself "when is this going to end?" Well, I can...
    ashatteredhope1 ashatteredhope1
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2013

    I Burn My Amrs

    I self injure, yet I am supposed to work with student and ensure they don't self injure and treat themselves in a healthy manner. I burn my arms with a heated safety pin. Its the only thing that calms me down. I wonder if I will ever be able to stop.
    trumpet166 trumpet166
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 16, 2006

    My Life

    well i am new to all this and i just want some help... i started hurting my self about year ago and i have been doing it seen i try and stop but then its all i can think about and just resonant i haven't been cutting but the torts are billing and its making me ill i really don...
    imsorry1 imsorry1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2012

    Broken Bones

    it stareted with cutting, but i stopped for a while, then it became punching, walls trees, the ground, and concrete... my knuckles are pretty effectively busted by now.  the last time i broke my right hand, i didnt even feel it.  worse though, is that when im really...
    TheReverendVortex TheReverendVortex
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 19, 2007

    I Thought I Was Too Young To Feel Like This...

    Here's my story. My family has some financle issues so we've been living at my grandma's house for almost 5 years now. I love my grandma to death. She was so much help to my family. However, on September 11, 2010, my grandma passed away. And we still live at her house. That's...
    ashatteredhope ashatteredhope
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2012

    I Wonder If...

    Someone told me I don’t know anything about pain. She said that I don’t understand the pain that she endured all her life. Well, fair enough I don’t know about your pain, and I know very little about self-injured aside it was driven by self-hatred, but I will tell you about...
    charmingpurple charmingpurple
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Oct 23, 2012

    Not a Stranger

    I thought I was the only person who SI'd because of self-disgust.  That is never my only reason, but it is often the main one.  For me, cutting is like alcoholism.   You never stop being addicted, you can only stop turning to cutting all the time for...
    OrionSilver OrionSilver
    22-25
    Mar 3, 2008

    I just zone out and forget everything

    when I self injure. I don't like hurting myself, but I never know when I'm going to.
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 29, 2015

    I Can't Stop...

    I cut myself. I can't stop cutting, I've tried everything and nothing helps. If I'm with people everything is ok..till I'm alone. When I'm alone I just feel like I have no one. No one will answer my calls or my texts or anything when I need people the most. When no one is around...
    AddictiveToMe AddictiveToMe
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 2, 2012

    I'm Not ashamed of my scars.

    I don't try to hide them. Hell I don't really even both hiding the cuts. People stare. People give me nasty looks. Look at me with disgust and horror. Alarmed, Offended... And So on. People can stare all they want. I'm just trying to get attention? H*LL NO! I honestly hate...
    AShatteredSoul AShatteredSoul
    22-25, F
    Mar 28, 2015

    I think of killing my self everyday I cut

    myself every week at least 4 times cuz I am bullied and I feel unwanted and not loved
    Someonehelpme1231 Someonehelpme1231
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2014

    I'm a Cutter, and I Hurt Myself.

     It started back when I was between 11-12yrs old. When I started cutting myself. The first time, I was mad at my Dad. He was drinking, drunk off his ***. He had just cut a goat you know what off. Handed me the knife and told, me to go clean it. I walked into the house, to...
    Sourtherngirl Sourtherngirl
    22-25, F
    15 Responses Oct 17, 2007

    Hello My Name Is Caska,

    And I'm a cutter.  I hold the firm belief that when i manage to make it years from cutting (I'm 4 months from my last cut now) i will still be a cutter.  I really don't think anything can change that. Because when it comes down to it, and I'm having a problem and...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 3, 2008

    Self Hatred Makes Me Self Injure

    I dont know if there is MUCH of a story to tell; because I cut for only one reason... It makes me feel good: calm and in control. How people see me has ALWAYS been very important and acting out my anger and hurt was never really an option. I found cutting to be a quick, discreet...
    13YrsOFCutting 13YrsOFCutting
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 16, 2012

    A Year Ago

    Exactly one year ago today I started cutting. I tried to stop. Then got worse. Tried again. And went right back to it. I honestly don't know if I can be a part of this world anymore. I want to leave and i want everything to go back to the way it was when I had friends, a...
    monstar29 monstar29
    16-17
    Oct 30, 2012

    I Need To Stop But I Don't Want To.

    Failure. Alone. Hopeless. My fault, fat, stupid, worthless, loser, lame, ugly, piece of s**t, . These are all the words my skin has acquired over the past 7 months. 2078 lines. I need to stop. I need help. All my friends think im fine they have only ever seen the small cuts on...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 1, 2014

    I Hate My Family!!

    My Family are the top reason for me to cut
    depressedgirl19 depressedgirl19
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 6, 2012

    I'm super depressed and literally have nobody

    who cares about me. I self harm with my hair straightener and slowly press it against my skin and wait for it to slowly burn away at my skin until it blisters. Does anybody else use a hair straightener?
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 25, 2014

    The Reason I First Cut...

    Okay, this is going to sound completely ridiculous. But every story has a beginning and with out a beginning... Well everything's confusing. So I'm staying back to the day it all started. Here we go...l I was about 13 years old, ( I'm now 16) I was sitting on Facebook, talking to...
    DemixXLoveXxXfan DemixXLoveXxXfan
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2012
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