I Self Medicate

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    I self medicate to take the edge off my intense emotions. I'm like ADHD/Bipolar. Very upsy and downsy. Like a rollercoaster. My mood is volatile. When I'm focused I'm really peaceful. When I'm down I can be really depressed or irritable. When I'm high I'm wilde. I use meds...
    jerrychap jerrychap
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    End Of Self Medication After 18 Year Of Self Medicating.....

    Well I stuck it out and got a little luck. Been through numerous shrinks; and a few docs; have all ailments; anxiety, depression, major depression, szyophrenia, syzoaffective, etc.......but it took 18 years of psychiatric treatment and drug abuse, and abusing drugs to finally...
    stuckwthpain stuckwthpain
    36-40, M
    May 27, 2013

    It Never Fails

    I drink beer to get over my social phobia.  I smoke cannabis to get me through my writer's block. The booze makes me depressed in the long run, the cannabis can give me the fear in the short term. To medicate against both I reach for my guitar.
    CrookedMan CrookedMan
    Apr 10, 2011

    I self medicate with a variety of drugs

    for a variety of reasons, none over the counter or prescribed. I smoke heroin to help me cope with anxiety and emotional meltdowns. I smoke ice to keep me productive on major projects. I smoke weed to help me sleep, I drink high caffeine drinks to wake me up in the morning. I...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 3, 2015

    I Stubbornly Feel I Know Better

    I have been self medicating ever since I was fifteen, I think. Whatever the doctor prescribed, I would take, but I would up the dose or stop taking the medication where I saw fit. The same thing goes for the warning labels; I ignore them. I don't let a piece of paper tell me what...
    AllysonH AllysonH
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 31, 2009


    "I smoke and I dink and every time I blink I have a tiny dream. As bad as I am, I'm proud of the fact that I'm worse than I seem" I self medicate. I drink and will take any drug I can get my hands on...besides crack. Will never do it.
    MountainGhost MountainGhost
    31-35, F
    Jun 20, 2011

    No More Stubborn Pride

    I’ve tried many different drugs to calm myself over the years, or accelerate myself as the case may be. But long story short, I can easily get carried away and overdo it which I’m sure has lead to irreparable damage. Thus I’m going to do what I think is best for me, I’m...
    LordNothing LordNothing
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Feb 26, 2011

    How To Stop Myself From Self Medicating?

    I'm 18. I don't self-medicate with illegal drugs or alcohol. I regularly overdose on over-the-counter drugs, panadol mostly. I have read what this will eventually do, but I don't believe it will happen to me - call it immaturity or a disillision, I don't mind. It makes me feel...
    Tasser194 Tasser194
    Jul 13, 2012

    So what's the best way to self medicate?

    The pain is getting real bad. Day to day is becoming an immense struggle. Thinking about starting to smoke again, but the cost (in $) is gonna be kinda high. Same for booze. Besides, I gotta be able to function somewhat normally to meet my obligations and responsibilities. Any...
    fubar71 fubar71
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 14

    I might be going down a slippery slope.

    I get so much anxiety during the end of the school year (I'm a senior in college) I can't handle it. I get anxiety. I FREAK out. I started taking small amounts of Xanax once I finish studying to calm myself down. I'm not prescribed. I buy it from a drug dealer. And I literally...
    sweetbee33 sweetbee33
    22-25, F
    Dec 4, 2014

    right now

    I took 6 valerian, a klonopin, and a muscle relaxer....to numb the dissapointment at so many things
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Nov 11, 2009

    I don't recommend too much of this though.

    For several months I was having multiple seizures especially during work - not the classic type that is recognized as seizures, but a really bothersome variety that often gets misdiagnosed as fainting, stupidity, or panic attacks. Since the doctors continued to refuse testing...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2014

    Self Medicating

    I self medicate just to get myself out of bed, it's a horrible feeling thinking that I can't get up or go out or talk to someone without a couple of pills or a bottle or 2. If it makes for a better more positive day then whats the harm, I think the stuff I get from my doctor...
    myselfxox myselfxox
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2009

    Things are always better

    when I am sleeping.
    absolom absolom
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015


    ............and.............etc (Like stuckwtpain said)
    stillwthpain stillwthpain
    36-40, M
    Nov 17, 2013

    Holds Me Over For The Moment

    i feel content, happy, and secure when i self medicate. i feel invincible when i drink, like i can do what ever i want and not have a care in the world. for once there is no worrying about what people think or how they see me. i can open up, talk and laugh with people. i can...
    concreteangelxx concreteangelxx
    18-21, F
    Jun 1, 2011

    What of it? Is there really someone out there

    who expects me to go to the doctor every time I have a runny nose, or an ear-infection, or I can't sleep? Cause that **** ain't gonna fly. I grew up in a self-medicating household, and at least that aspect of it all worked out. I picked up the habit there and will likely...
    Lullacus Lullacus
    22-25, F
    Jan 4, 2014

    I Turn To Alcohol When...

    ... when the going gets rough, when I'm upset or angry or just need to relax and get rid of this awful anxiety. When I'm depressed and fed up and just want, no, NEED to feel some "happiness" (even tho it's a fake happiness) after a long hard lonely week. I have to be very...
    IndigoPeachblossom IndigoPeachblossom
    36-40, F
    Jan 22, 2011

    Tonight Included

    I have a headache and going through a pretty down time and I've just about had it. The little ones are at the idiots and the teen is with her friends at the pool. I hunted through the cauldrin and finally found a few lost tablets. I'm giving them a chance to get in before I ...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Jul 3, 2009
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