I Self Sabotage

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    Last weekend I met a great guy

    and we hit it off immediately. But somehow I found myself doing what I ALWAYS do around guys I find interesting - I started acting flaky and unavailable, making comments on how I might move somewhere else in the near future (I have considered it but I'm 98% sure I will not do it...
    yellowtrees yellowtrees
    26-30, F
    Oct 3, 2014

    Consciously, I know I have a lot of things to

    do. I plan them out in my mind how I want the next day to go. Then the following night I have trouble sleeping. I read somewhere that if you don't seem to fall asleep within 20 minutes, get up and go read or something. Which actually is probably a bad thing. Since light and...
    MeTheMightyMe MeTheMightyMe
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 24, 2015

    Let Me Ruin You

    How do I look, as im walking away, am I as beautiful as you say? Sure I smell nice and do my makeup well, but lets be honest hunni does anybody really care? With a heart like mine getting too close is an invitation straight to hell. Stop right now. I don’t think I know how...
    desireefunke desireefunke
    22-25, F
    May 11, 2013

    Here To Gain Wisdom

    I just read some of the stories here, trying to gain insight to why I self-sabotage. Of the stories I read, seems common issues are control, trust, self-destruction, anger, and poor self-esteem. Here's my personal story on self-sabotage:I was abused as a child, and neglected...
    TotallyMiffed TotallyMiffed
    4 Responses Oct 8, 2011

    I Definitely Do...

    I don't know what my problem is, but I just can't stop sabotaging myself. I was supposed to graduate college over a year ago, but I've wrecked that. I could have even graduated this very semester, but I sabotaged myself again and had to drop classes I just didn't complete, I...
    justmyself35 justmyself35
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2012

    Not Worthy?

    I have self sabotaged myself, since i can remember. I honestly feel as tho, i am not worthy of being happy. I know most of this stems from my childhood, but that's not an excuse. I can exceed in anything i do. Only, i want to fail in everything. I feel like happiness doesn't last...
    Razorgirl Razorgirl
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2012

    I just ate a large bag of potato chips by

    myself. Good job me. A few things are bound to happen now. I'm sure to get a migraine. Potatoes give me migraines. I'm sure to feel absolutely gross, as if I don't already. Hm, what else? Oh, my sugar- that's going to spike. I'll prob feel like a linebacker when I go out with my...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 19, 2015

    Grand Sabotage -- Self

    Self sabotage can play out in a number of ways, I think. One, for me, is that I feel like happiness will always end, and that it is better to end it of my own choice rather than to wait for to end when I’m not expecting it. So, the first excuse that comes along, I’m on it...
    wundayatta wundayatta
    56-60, M
    4 Responses Mar 10, 2011

    Every time a guy gets close to me,

    and I almost feel I could trust him, he disappears. Just poof. Gone. No texts, no calls. I am afraid to love someone deeply because I'm afraid one day, when I wake up, he will disappear. I am afraid of losing the people I love. But no, if you look at me, you wouldn't guess I'm...
    Annawattion Annawattion
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2015

    Not Sure Why I Do This

    I'm about to be suspended form college, because I have decided to do other things rather than homework. I can not stop this from happening because I only have week left and I can need bring my grades high enough to not get suspended. I've been trying to change this but it just...
    ShaneStoner ShaneStoner
    22-25, M
    2 Responses May 2, 2012

    I Sabotage Myself

    i don't know why but for as long as i can remember i have sabotaged everything in my life. i'm with a very wonderful man who loves me, who gave up everything that was familiar in his life to move 6 hours from home to be with me and i still can't believe that he really cares about...
    sengasong sengasong
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2010
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