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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,628 People

    I just started cutting

    and I wanna know what I the best thing to cut with that is likely readily available in the home
    BiersackBabe73 BiersackBabe73 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Tonight has been the worst,

    I just keep crying, I can't stop...I don't know what wrong with me but I need to leave my head...I feel horrible and I don't know how to deal with myself in any other way...
    daisyelz daisyelz 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 25

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    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I just started to self harm a few days ago.

    ..my parents still don't know... It burned like my arm was on fire but I liked the pain...i don't know why I do this to myself...i don't know why I'm typing this whatever you don't care...bye
    LonleyWolf99 LonleyWolf99 16-17, F 7 Responses Jun 13

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I relapsed. I just cut myself.

    I haven't cut myself in several months since my mom took away my razors. But tonight I found an old razor in my room and cut. I was feeling really lonely and hating myself. The past several months I have missed self harming a lot. I think I'm. going to start again. Even though I...
    princessSadness princessSadness 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I use to cut when I was a teen,

    before it became trendy it seems..I did it to see the blood mostly,but fell in love with the pain. I stopped before I hit my 20's the urge just faded away. But now it surfaced again due to a serious discovery and it triggered me something fierce but instead of cutting I have...
    chickenkiev chickenkiev 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 13

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    HidingInTheMusic HidingInTheMusic 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    I pick at my skin a lot till it bleeds

    and I burn my arm I haven't done it lately because my fathers checking my arm and I don't feel like getting hit again or sent to a mental institution
    Insane0k Insane0k 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I was clean for two days!

    But I relapsed...
    HelpMePlzSOS HelpMePlzSOS 13-15, F Jun 13

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    I'm 30. I've started scratching at my arms with

    a bobby pin with it's plastic removed. I've started to go deeper each time I do it. I'm usually right at the end of my strength when I scratch and it hurts but it helps me stop crying my heart out. I deserve to hurt I've amounted to nothing.
    PrincessPhie PrincessPhie 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    Scar tissue still hurts

    when I press my hand against it. I was wondering how many people have to find new places on their body to cut because they don't want to cut over scar tissue. I can tell you, it hurts much more but I do it anyway. I'm kind of thankful I can still wear a T shirt.
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 2 Responses Jun 11

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    you have no idea what its like to be left out

    in the dark to be kicked when your down too feel like you've been pushed around to left out of the dark to be on the edge of breaking down were no-one understands you, were no-one life's stright to your fever were no-one ever stabs you in bac no you don't pin what likes. welcome...
    vernaee vernaee 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I need ideas to hide my self harm

    for school please???
    xomisslovely xomisslovely 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    I love running my finger across my scars it

    feels nice.... Who else does this
    wolf124 wolf124 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 23

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    imapainter imapainter 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 13

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    It happened again only this time I bruised

    myself. I felt like cutting but the people around me notice more and get upset. I don't want to do this anymore but I don't know how to stop. I've been doing this since I was 12 and it's just part of me, maybe it always will be. I hope not, I really hope not, I dislike like this...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    I don't know if I will ever be able to heal,

    people keep saying that time is a great healer but how could that be when your past keeps coming back in different ways to haunt you? There is something inside me that wants to destroy me... I function yes... But emotionally and mentally I feel trapped inside my own head and...
    mizzcomplicated mizzcomplicated 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I've been clean for 3

    or 4 months, then a month ago I started cutting again
    sonyalezzz sonyalezzz 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 14

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    [Trigger Warning] It's kind of sad.

    I can't stop even though I want to. When I feel really sad or angry I hurt myself and it makes me feel better. I was only 11 the first time I self harmed. I was stabbing myself with a pen. After that I started to cut, hit myself and I purposely hit hard walls to hurt myself. I...
    ThatOneUsername ThatOneUsername 18-21, T Jun 18

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    So today my doctor called my mom,

    she doesn't know anything yet other than we're going to the doctors tomorrow... I'm not sure how she's gonna take it all, and what's gonna happen next. Not even sure I wanna know... What's a mental hospital like?!
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I feel so numb. I need the pain.

    I feel like I'm suffocating or drowning, I can't breathe. When is the end ? why am I alive ?
    ihatemegirl ihatemegirl 18-21, F Jun 10

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...