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    I had to cut , but not to deep,

    I start to bleed, I feel my pain start to drain. I cut my self, but not to deep for punishment ,because I am to blame, I had cut , but not to deep, to ease the the pain, I could not tame. I had to cut, but not to deep.
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I guess, I have a bunch of pocket knifes (cause,

    hell, who doesn't like a good pocket knife) and I kinda jut cut myself. I've been thinking about it for a long time but I couldn't do it before. It was weird, it was the worst pain I've ever experienced (more painful then having appendicitis) but it didn't hurt at the same time...
    GayBoyyyy13 GayBoyyyy13 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 17

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    This picture is of the plaster i had to make

    because u cant buy any big enough. I've massively relapsed. About 2 weeks ago I had a fight with my best friend and to release the pain I cut. Now I'm cutting every day. I've tried elastic bands,I've tried glow sticks an everything else. I need help This is starting to really...
    ElCharlotte ElCharlotte 13-15, F Feb 11

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I cut only where my watch covers it.

    There is a centimetre wide space on my wrist absolutely covered in cuts.
    alicebro alicebro 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    What do you cut with?

    I use a pocket knife
    alicebro alicebro 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't cut myself anymore.

    I bite my hand. I have to, I do it because I... When I get angry, I become powered by rage. I do it so I won't hurt anyone else. It hasn't left any scars yet, but I did accidentally bite through my skin las time... So there was some blood.
    UnfinishedStar UnfinishedStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I feel I always screw up

    and must punish my self.. so I do
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    Self harm has been my drug.

    And now i'm addicted. I've been 1 week clean but i got hurt and i relapsed. So **** it. I'm tired of getting hurt i'm tired of everything. It's just gonna be me and my blade now.
    xxxalyssabrownxxx xxxalyssabrownxxx 13-15, F Feb 20

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    I don't necessarily mean cutting.

    I used to cut- I still do occasionally- but I'm trying not to do that anymore because I don't want to leave scars. I have other ways to hurt myself. I know some of the reasons I do it, but a lot of the time I can't work out why.
    EverythingYouNeverKnew EverythingYouNeverKnew 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    I have been self harming on

    and off since I was 14. It started when my mum met her new fella but wasn't that bad. I then did it again when my friend passed away at 16. And have been battling with depression and anxiety ever since. I hate people who think we do it for attention as it is nothing like that...
    silentbe89 silentbe89 22-25, F Feb 24

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    The pain feels really good right now.

    I'm probably just being overdramatic or whatever but I'm not having a good night, not even for any particular reason. Things are just generally ****** right now.
    SheSaid15 SheSaid15 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 13-15 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I know it's bad but its the pain it makes me

    feel soooo good it makes me forget about all the dicks in my life
    silverstrike silverstrike 13-15, M Feb 26

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    i pull my hair out.. started in age of 7 maybe

    earlier but i don't know for sure, now i'm about to turn 15 it hasn't stopped. No pity needed i'm not here for that, just want to talk
    browndeadeyes browndeadeyes 13-15, F 10 hrs ago

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    I was clean four months

    now there's these 15 cuts help my life sucks and chill I'm not suicidal just need pain because I feel numb pain is the only thing I can feel
    Trappedinsadness Trappedinsadness 13-15, F Feb 17

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    i ended up self harming last night.

    .. and i still dont feel better
    maddymo23432 maddymo23432 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    I wonder if any could love someone with

    as many scars as I have on my body..
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    0zzy2597 0zzy2597 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10, 2014

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    I cut , I'm a cutter,

    feels good to release's the pain I can't deal with.. Has nothing to do with dieing or for attention. I have scared my body. I mask the scars I have inside with the ones on the out.. Cutting may not solve my problems. It may make people see me as weak. But I'm not weak I'm...
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Today. Now I'm liking across my bed room to the

    box where I keep all my scissors and cutters for school. And now I'm really considering taking one of them and mark myself again. The reason is simple im empty inside. It's not a cry for attention. I just want to feel anything else what what I'm feeling now.
    HiIAmHana HiIAmHana 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    wow all I just found out by an ex

    that I could of been a dad sept she aborted the child. it was a few years ago. yet finding out now hurts just as bad as it would if then.. I really just feel the strong urge to cut and to cut deep.. ****!!
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 16-17, F 11 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I've been self harming

    since 7th grade. I'm currently a sophomore in Highschool and I don't do it as often but I still get strong urges to do it all the time. My mom knows that I used to do it and she made me see a therapist and tried to send me to a mental hospital. She tries to make me feel bad by...
    Gerardfuckinway Gerardfuckinway 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I just hate feeling alone

    and I hate being so insecure and all those rude comments just get to me sometimes.I've got cuts on my arms.I literally have no space to cut anymore and I just feel like I can't do anything anymore.It feels like I should give up.
    Lizebeth92813 Lizebeth92813 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    Lately I've been feeling depressed,

    lonely, insecure, anxious, all of that stuff... I feel like I annoy many people just by being alive; it's been this way for a while. I always sense people talking behind my back. I'm always happy and wild around people, but that's to hide how I'm actually dead on the inside. My...
    Erenjaegertitans Erenjaegertitans 13-15, F Feb 17

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    never have before I have a blade in hand

    but I am to scared to anyone wana help me out n convince me one way or another?
    killerjrm killerjrm 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 26

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    I was 3 watch my dad make swiping movements

    with a knife and then throw it .. don't think he cut but don't know.. its probably why when I needed an escape from the pain I went to a blade.. only memory I have of him before mom sent him packing..
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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