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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 2,253 People

    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    starve to see blood, to run a razor over my

    skin, and it takes over any strength I have to say no. A smile appears on my face as soon as I cut. I want to go deeper, see more blood, I want the thrill of hitting my vein and dying. I feel so alone, I cant take the pain anymore, I feel so empty and worthless all the time...
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 19 hrs ago

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I don't cut for about 5 days

    and then I'm back at it every time.
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It calls me closer, its calls me near "Just

    once and it'll be over" Death whispers in my ear Irresistible is its sweet entice Staring down, which one to slice, I observe my previous tries My unseen hurt and earlier cries No peace in my mind, no peace in my head The quiet intelligent me, long since fled Anger and...
    butthumbs butthumbs 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    You know what's funny about self harm?

    They made you harm your self and then the call you a cutter and they star judging you such a fool world some times i fell sorry for myself that i'm living in a world like this
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I want to ******* die already.

    Just take me out of this hell hole. I want to be dead. I can't ******* take this pain I feel so god damn numb and hopeless. I just want somebody to hold me and help me threw this. But at the same time I want to be alone. I want to cut my wrist so deep. And honestly tonight will...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Cutting: A Love/Hate Relationship

    I love it. The sweet, relaxing sting of the blade. The bright red blood that drips out. But I know I need to stop and I always tell myself to. But every night, I convince myself to do it. And in that moment, it's beautiful and calming, and I'm happy. Then I go back to being...
    sunny1818 sunny1818 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    neverthoughtiwould neverthoughtiwould 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    It seems that I need to sometimes

    and I feel no shame. I'm meeting others like me too. I'm smiling.
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    JaydeLyndaMay JaydeLyndaMay 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Abuse

    She never smiles, her pain she hides. She stares blankly, only in herself she confides. she doesn't let anyone in, too afraid to take the risk. If you looked, you'd see the bruises, the scabs and the scars on her wrist. She has been abuse for too long. Insanity has taken it's...
    RecoveringAddict RecoveringAddict 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2012

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    sarah1928 sarah1928 22-25, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    It's truly sadistic how much I love the sight

    of my own blood. I don't think I will ever be able to overcome this addiction. How I've progressed into this so forcefully over the last 2 years is truly horrifying. I don't know what to do anymore...
    FreeMyHeart FreeMyHeart 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I kind of told my parents.

    I say kind of because it didn't exactly go to plan. My guy called them up the day before and told them we had something to tell him (without me knowing) and then tricked me into going to talk to them. I only had 3 hours to prepare myself to tell them, so I kind of wimped out and...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I'm two weeks clean today .

    My wrist is begging to be open . I need to cut & I don't even know why anymore . I do because I have to . It's like my mind is making me . I do it if I eat or slip up or get yelled at . I do it just to make sure I'm actually alive . It's a struggle everyday & I just want to take...
    awkwardprincess98 awkwardprincess98 16-17, F 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    To anyone who self harms: Come here,

    and let me love you and tell you how perfect you are. ❤
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I started self harming at the age of 13.

    I'm 16 now, and still continue every know and then when I feel like things are just too much. But what really makes me mad is when people assume we self harm for attention. If we wanted attention, why would we be hiding the cuts and scars we don't want people to find out about...
    thatonecheerleader thatonecheerleader 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    not just overdoze but i came to cut myself.

    i realize its so fun whenever i am stress. my teacher asked me not to lie to the counselor but i plan to since the wound is so easy to cover. but what will and can the counselor do if he found out ?
    holyallyssa holyallyssa 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I was 2 months clean.

    Why does life have to be so hard
    NoahBarwell4 NoahBarwell4 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    She developed an addiction Nevertheless to a

    prescription Furthermore, she was enticed By an invisible vice That no one could see Or did they just not want it to be? She can’t look at herself anymore Not to say that she could before To open the door, she twist the knob Only to lock it shut just to sob She’s nothing to...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Why do I even both getting up in the morning

    and trying to be happy when in reality life's **** and everything i do good or bad just ends up hurting someone i just want the pain to stop but I'm not gonna give those haters the satisfaction of watching me give up so I'm gonna keep trying and trying and hopefully I can make...
    NoahBarwell4 NoahBarwell4 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    I went to the bathroom

    and just sat there. I used to self harm a lot when I was younger. But tonight, I felt the need to do it again. My life may not be the best, but it's also not the worst. I've been through a lot, with school, with work, and with my family/friends. I did it, as many people say..to...
    missmotox missmotox 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    I cut again. Couldn't help it.

    Notices tho. LOLL. ignorances. But i couldn't careless about them. I'm tired of everything piling up everyday.
    4everShiNee18 4everShiNee18 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I NEED to cut myself.

    .. I just have this internal restlessness because of my strong overwhelming urge to cut myself...it's driving me insane... 🔪📏
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F a week ago

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    Who knows that she’s artistic on her arms?

    Who is truly and honestly blinded by her charms? The “art” she lines up on her wrist Just show hurt covered up by the heavy mist How does this happen to someone so loved? Feel the need to release the pain through blood when push comes to shove How can someone so trusted feel...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 13-15, F 9 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 16

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    i have seen a counselor today

    and told him about i tried having excessive sleeping pills but it gors fail because i end up vomit like ****. He said he is worried because this is one of the self harm. Then he asked me to get a prescription from doctor and go bck to him next tues. But the thing is i dont want...
    holyallyssa holyallyssa 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    deadinside0220 deadinside0220 13-15, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    Last year, my addiction to cutting myself had

    begun. I would cut myself in the shower, locked in a bathroom at school or at home, and anytime I felt that I was losing grip. I doubt it would have really mattered where I was. At that time, I had lost an incredibly important person in my life. I was a senior at one of the most...
    nhammoud nhammoud 18-21, F 19 Responses Jan 23

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 11

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    I cut for the first time yesterday.

    ..I'm ashamed. And I need help. But I can't tell my mom. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm torn apart inside, and so confused...
    XxSempiternalxX XxSempiternalxX 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So lately I've gone back to cutting

    and today, I just went crazy. It's now covering my legs, arms, and ribs. And there's blood seeping through like little streams, although they've stopped bleeding.
    killyourhero killyourhero 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TeenyTheTwisted TeenyTheTwisted 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I was thinking about cutting

    after an emotional day...not wanting to do it for once, just thinking about it in general. And i wrote this. If someone were to ask me why I cut, I could answer it in a million different ways. Because there isn't just one reason, it's not a simple explanation like some people...
    ArtistLove16 ArtistLove16 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    What if my mum find out i cut?

    ? :'( i'm so afread
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    My Craving

    I can feel it. It's deep in the pit of my stomach. The acid churns and pops and the muscles ache. My chest aches and becomes tight. It's hard for me to take a deep breath. The muscles in my throat constrict and the air catches. My heart speeds up and slows at the same time. I...
    JessRuthless JessRuthless 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    A Poem.

    An empty room, an empty girl Sitting silently on the floor Her sleeve rolled up, exposing skin She drags the blade and presses in The pain it brings cannot compare To the joy she knows will soon be there It's worth the scars that never heal For just a moment, not to feel
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I try to stop. I was clean

    for a while but then I got shoved into lockers and walls and threatened. I'm trying to stop and all I want is people who understand
    Nonbelieverssuck Nonbelieverssuck 13-15 3 hrs ago

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    4everShiNee18 4everShiNee18 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Today, I was with the love of my life.

    ..he had his hand on my hip and at first he didn't notice. But he rubbed his hand over it a little and said "What are those?" Of course, I said nothing. But he knows I cut. He immediately grabbed me and held me and told me everything will be ok, and his voice sounded funny, so I...
    ArtistLove16 ArtistLove16 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    I'm so close right now,

    I don't know if I can cope with this life anymore 😢😔
    georgiecrouch georgiecrouch 16-17, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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