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I Self-harm

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    I have been two weeks clean

    but i think I have met my breaking point! I think I will go back to cutting every night to release all this stress, anxiety, hatred, sadness, madness, etc. I am thinking about suicide more! I'm tired of feeling this way! I'm so tempted to take the easy way out, leave a note...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Right now I'm laying in bed on the verge of

    crying.Today was not a good day at all i tried to not let it get to me but it did. It hit me hard. Homecoming is soon and i just found out that my ex boyfriend left me for this girl that goes to my school..they will be at homecoming. I don't want to be with him, or have feelings...
    BabyGirlAtHeart BabyGirlAtHeart 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    I have always been bad around knives

    and sharp objects like broken glass, and it's gotten beyond a joke. Every day I fantasise about self-harming, thinking about the pain it will cause me and the sting of my blood. I don't want to self harm but I keep thinking about it.
    Rowenya Rowenya 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    Today, I made my first appointment with a

    mental health service. I am yet to hear back from them. I'm scared, relieved, excited, nervous and a part of me wants to call up to say to them, "Disregard my message! Never mind!" I won't, of course. I need this appointment. Self-harm has been a problem for me for too long...
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Stopped self harming

    for this girl I liked...turned out she didn't like me back :( ever have that one crush that you just felt something with? Ya..it was like that
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    Recovery... Realising your worth it.

    Experiencing true happiness. Caring about yourself. Over coming your own demons. Validating your worth it. Eating with no regret. Relapse, its will happen, and thats okay. Yearning to live.
    TheGirlFullOfSecrets TheGirlFullOfSecrets 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    My sister saw my cuts today,

    she's probably going to tell my mom. I'm ******
    xAwakeAndUnafraidx xAwakeAndUnafraidx 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't cut in weeks

    but slowly the pain is increasing and I am dying to feel the blood run down my wrist.. I don't want to I have promised so many people I won't but I am losing my grip on life and I just want to fell a little better.
    Muppo23 Muppo23 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    Wonder if I should bring my blades

    when I go away for a week. I feel like I really really need to but then I'm scared that my nona might walk in on me while I'm cutting. I know some people might say oh hey this is a good time for you to start to quit, but I know that if I don't bring my blades I'll get home and...
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Today my parents found out.

    .. iv been put on anti-depressants and have to be referred to a childs mental health clinic because im only 14...
    TheGirlFullOfSecrets TheGirlFullOfSecrets 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    depressedmusiclover depressedmusiclover 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've been clean for a while,

    about a month, just because I have constant doc appointments and counselors too and I don't want them to see.
    polyglotparrot polyglotparrot 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    depressedmusiclover depressedmusiclover 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    People don't understand I don't do it to kill

    myself I do it to save myself
    sg123457 sg123457 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 6

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    RogueStrikerSXA RogueStrikerSXA 13-15, M 5 Responses May 29

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    i haven't for a few weeks

    but only because i don't want my parents to find out, but now we are going Portugal and i have to where the bikini's and just looking at all of the scars, im scared about what will happen, it will never fade in time...
    missysavy2666 missysavy2666 13-15 2 Responses Sep 8

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    scarredbutrelentless scarredbutrelentless 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7

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    From burns, to cuts, it's my way of releasing

    pain.. I didn't choose to be this way, it's like it found me, and just made everything pitch black, I don't feel like myself. I feel lost. The scars on my arms won't fade, so I now use them as guidelines
    teebagg teebagg 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 6

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    So I had some cuts on my left arm & they were

    near my elbow but on the opposite side of it, & I went to the doctors and I git really nervous that when she'd check my blood pressure shed notice & tell. But she didn't say anything & she saw them.. Why didn't she say anything? To me, my mom or whatever?
    suckmyclass suckmyclass 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18

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    I find self harming utterly stupid.

    Why don't you take a look at the bed you sleep on, the good you eat, the roof you have over your head. If you have problems why don't you just deal with them. Every scar you make is just another problem to deal with, another memory. If you self harm just stop and GET HELP.
    ChaoticCaroline ChaoticCaroline 13-15, F 14 Responses Jul 27

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    BelieveInRecovery BelieveInRecovery 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 7

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    I haven't in a long time.

    ..but things keep testing me and I want to so very bad. I want to end my life also but I can't because of my babies. It's hard it feels like withdrawals.
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I stopped cutting. I want to

    but I cannot. I want to talk to someone. Someone who can tell me what's going on with me. I can't reach out for help. If I did, it would backfire. I'm confused.
    jonho10 jonho10 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    Recently my parents found out I self harm

    because my sister told on me when she discovered it. Now my dad wants me to go to counseling, but the thing is there's nothing to tell them! There's no reason for my depression, it's just the way I feel. I'm always sad for no reason and when I'm sad I cut. I don't want to be put...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 16-17, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I scratched my hand with my nail

    until it burned away a couple of layers of skin and when it healed I picked the scabs. I had a plaster on it but had to take it off because it made it more noticeable. The wound itself doesn't look infected but there is thick red all around it and 3 lines of red spreading...
    eyeslikeacarcrash eyeslikeacarcrash 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    Oh wow. I haven't done this in

    so long. It hurts sooo good xD My gosh I haven't feel this high in a long time. It's morbid and I know it's a little bit wrong but I do not regret it. After all, self-harm is a better that suicide, right?
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    surfingwby surfingwby 13-15, F Sep 10

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    I'm self harming really bad,

    and my mom just saw a pile of blood on the floor, that I haven't noticed when I did it last time. please, I need some excuses to tell her
    averageme1 averageme1 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F Dec 11, 2013

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I have been since I was 9 years old.

    I always want to tell others, but yet I'm so afraid that I'll be made fun of, or yelled at, or rejected so I just cover it up and make dumb excuses to why I'm wearing long sleeves. I just feel so pathetic at times. I do it less than I used to(Which was like everyday) but still...
    cyanidemaxwell cyanidemaxwell 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3

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    I cut today. my mom was yelling at me

    for wearing sweaters all the time. but if she only knew what was beneath it..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 5

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    I dont know if it will scar,

    does anyone know?
    BelieveInRecovery BelieveInRecovery 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    Used to cut but now this is

    why I do my emotions are this.
    NeverLooseYourFlames NeverLooseYourFlames 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Starting at the peak of my depression,

    when I stabbed myself with a pencil repeatedly and felt as the blood came out in middle school. I did that almost daily for a while and now my left arm (under the hairs) has dotted scars. Several months after I pledged to fix my life and live how a normal person does (obviously...
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M 2 Responses