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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,661 People

    I was 2 days clean...

    Not any more 😭😭😭😭😭🔫kill me
    michaeldax10 michaeldax10 18-21, M Jul 12

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    PLEASE LISTEN TO THE LAST NIGHT BY SKILLET!

    !!!!!! You come to me with scars on your wrist, you tell me this will be the last night feeling like this....
    StahpCopyingMyName StahpCopyingMyName 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 10

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    Someone help me, what's an alternative

    for self harm that doesn't involve me hurting my self... If that makes sense
    cheyemarie cheyemarie 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    i burn myself when I get down

    for me it's an escape, but I need less scaring ways and effective any suggestions/help?
    Strivexwolf Strivexwolf 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I had a little set back

    but I don't feel bad . the blisters are less than an inch. Honestly when they heal I can call them cat scratches . Once in a year or more is not that bad . It's better than once every 6 hours .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I can feel it pulling me under again.

    two days clean but I don't think I can do it, it's so hard
    tamsin100 tamsin100 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    Hi, I'm Jaden. This is my story of self-harm.

    I'm 16 years old. When I was 8, I lost my Mum, Carolyn, of cancer. I missed her so much.. This caused my Dad major depression. He ended up moving out around three years after she died, so I was forced to live alone. When I turned 14, the battle began. I took out a razor...
    JadenSOS JadenSOS 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I don't promote self-harm.

    .. I suffer from it.. And I talk about it here because people have already judged me. And it's already getting into my head, which is why I'm just ranting.. It just hurts....... And I'm dissapointed in myself because I never thought I would ever do it. I never thought I...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    i have self harmed for over a year now

    and i am trying to stop but no matter how hard i try i end up failing and the cuts just get deeper and deeper and i dont what to do, my mum checks my arms, i constantly feel like a waste of space and a freak, makes me wonder if i should just listen to people
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 22

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    I've got a history of self harming

    but my method has changed as I got older. When I was 15ish, my method of release was cutting with the sharp point of a maths compass (unusual I know but it did the job and didn't leave the same permanent marks as a blade would have). Gradually I progressed to hitting myself in...
    Anon0188 Anon0188 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Just cut again for the first time in months.

    Today I went to go look at some student housing apartments but because I don't make 3x the rent I have to get a co-signer. My dad is the only option I have but he refuses to co sign for me. He knows it's not a good idea if I stay home but he's not making it any easier for me to...
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    Trying to cope with this knot in my chest

    without cutting myself, so I'm heading to the gym again. What do you do if you don't want to cut but you feel like you're on the edge? Because cutting and smoking are the only things that seem to alleviate the weight now a days. Happy Monday.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 20

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I'm stuck in a mental hospital

    and I desperately need to self harm but I can't because I'm on 1:1 and don't have any blades. I'm going insane, I need to cut my arms and legs and stomach and chest and face. I need to cut my entire ******* body. But I can't. And it's pushing me over the edge.
    DespicableMind DespicableMind 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I missed it until tonight.

    .. Just me, my blade and my skin... the blade is my paint brush and my skin is my canvas.. And just like magic, red appears on my canvas...
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    For about two to three years,

    I have self-harmed. Mostly cutting, but I also punched myself, punched objects, starved and made myself throw up {not sure if that the last two are classed as self harm or whatever}. Anyway, I'm not one of those emo kids or a person who self-harms for attention. I would still...
    luciethedepressedllama luciethedepressedllama 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Haven't cut for 2 months,

    but started again last week. I just feel so crappy and now looking back, I wish I hadn't done it. But made me feel so much better at the time
    WhyCantIBeYou WhyCantIBeYou 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    my parents said I couldn't get a tattoo

    so I cut one into my skin instead
    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel 18-21, F Jul 15

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    I burned myself with my cigarette.

    It helps me forget about everything else because all I do is focus on the pain. It helps me still know that I'm alive. See those 2 black dots?
    xoxoxxooxoxo xoxoxxooxoxo 18-21, M Jul 13

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    I know what you're going through

    so if anyone needs someone to talk to I'm here for ya.
    masterjai masterjai 22-25, M Jul 13

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    I miss it. I miss it every day.

    Every day, I make the decision to not cut myself over and over again. And I'm tired of making it. I have razors in my room for the day I need them again, my most reliable friends. For a long time, they were my only comfort. So much so, that nothing else helps. There are no...
    CigaretteEater CigaretteEater 18-21 Jul 4

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    The scars are deeper this time.

    . I've basically lost any will to care about anything. The one person I really cared for... Yea... I'll never see him again... Why does nothing ever get better? Why must it all get worse?
    Drifter15 Drifter15 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    The other day my teahers made me have another

    meeting, there was about 7 teacher and they were talking to me, i had no idea why i was there again and then they told me it was because when i was getting changed for PE someone how know about it saw and they told them i did it again and they said from now on they are going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7

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    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I can go weeks with out cutting,

    or branding. However, I NEVER quit self harming; I just take a break from it. I'm at a point in my life where I have accomplished what someone my age should have accomplished. I got a advanced college degree, bought a car, condo, pay bills etc. The funny thing is none of these...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    My mom found out about the self harming

    and is now always looking for scars and cuts. So I have found another way. Stuff like staying up till really early morning, not drinking enough water and then holding my hands in boiling water can do the trick. Also walking on burning hot asphalt or sharp stones can help...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    So tomorrow my mum is making me go to the

    doctors to get help about it...which I'm not to keen on but if it makes her feel better then I'll go...I'm just wondering if anyone on here has had to speak to their doctor about self harm and how they did it...like what they said or anything :/
    daisyelz daisyelz 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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