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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,985 People

    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I wore short sleeves today

    for the first time in months. I didn't even think about it. I looked down eventually, and realized that my scars are barely visible now. Thank goodness. For some people they don't go away, and they're nothing to be ashamed of. I'm just glad that they aren't going to be something...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M Jan 23

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    I cut my self for the first time in about 4

    years I was hoping I would never cut again it was triggered by the loss of someone close to me I feel so ashamed
    JClove33 JClove33 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Trying to cope with this knot in my chest

    without cutting myself, so I'm heading to the gym again. What do you do if you don't want to cut but you feel like you're on the edge? Because cutting and smoking are the only things that seem to alleviate the weight now a days. Happy Monday.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    If we cut for attention,

    why do we try so hard to hide it? You don't understand it unless you've been through the things we have. <3
    MemoryLane1137 MemoryLane1137 16-17, F 1 Response May 11, 2015

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    Went to dinner with some friends tonight

    and we talked about the hashtag "cut for Zayn" and half way through someone started showing pictures of what it looked like and thankfully my friend was like, "no, thats really triggering for people, put it away." but it was too late and now I'm supper triggered. Trying not to...
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F Jan 23

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    It was the cat, I swear.

    I burnt myself on the stove, I swear. I'm fine, I swear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    whenever someone mentions self harm I tense up

    worried they'll find out my secret
    tamzin100 tamzin100 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 24, 2015

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2015

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    I'll be honest. I've never had the urge to cut.

    I prefer to play with fire. It's something about the flame hitting my skin makes me feel, I don't know, I guess, better. I know it's a terrible coping method, but I guess I could be doing worse.
    AverageWeirdo AverageWeirdo 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    WhyNotMe555 WhyNotMe555 18-21, F Feb 1

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    I am fighting the erge to cut

    as deep as possible I keep screwing everything up the people I care about more than life are walking away I just feel like I'm worthless
    JClove33 JClove33 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    Cut myself again today.

    I keep telling myself **** will get better, but it never actually does.
    BornMysterious BornMysterious 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    Sometimes at night I cut

    until I fall asleep.
    RainbowCrayon666 RainbowCrayon666 16-17, F Jan 24

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    I can't even stay clean

    for one freaking day. I don't think I'll ever get over this
    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I am scratching myself

    and I don't care
    enguyen619 enguyen619 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27, 2015

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    I miss it. I miss it every day.

    Every day, I make the decision to not cut myself over and over again. And I'm tired of making it. I have razors in my room for the day I need them again, my most reliable friends. For a long time, they were my only comfort. So much so, that nothing else helps. There are no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 4, 2015

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    I'm almost a week clean

    so I'm kind of proud of myself for that
    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    a poem for you My battle scars are dark

    and mental, hard to find with the naked eyes. The cuts u see up my arms are nothing compared to the gashes u'd find running down my thighs. You might be startled to observe the violent side to the imaginary conversations of my silent mind, Praying for sleep but too afraid to...
    quietlucy quietlucy 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    i do this often and plz dont say "ur hurting

    others" because i aint only me and there is no one who cares no family no friends no love and as a stranger who just reads this and says "i care" that is very frustrating because i know u dont, you dont know me and thats probably the only thing you reply then you go about your...
    warcraftlover16 warcraftlover16 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    slit your wrist and cut your thighs.

    fake a smile and dry your eyes.hate yourself and hate your life wlcome to my world of lies
    blossomingangel blossomingangel 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I just started to self harm a few days ago.

    ..my parents still don't know... It burned like my arm was on fire but I liked the pain...i don't know why I do this to myself...i don't know why I'm typing this whatever you don't care...bye
    LonleyWolf99 LonleyWolf99 16-17, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2015

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I have cuts all over mu left leg,

    and they itch really badly.
    selfharmer101 selfharmer101 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    llIPanadIll llIPanadIll 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    People self harm for different reasons.

    For some it's for attention. For others out there, like many of my close friends, other EPers and me, it helps. We do not seek for your attention. We do not take photos of our scars and post them on Facebook. We fight internally, every day and every night. If you gave us a...
    ThatPyroChick ThatPyroChick 16-17, F Jan 25

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    I'm fighting the urge to cut

    so bad, cuz tonight it ain't no telling how deep I might go.
    quietlucy quietlucy 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Last night I ruined it my clean streak.

    I wish it was so addictive. I'm a mess
    jess965 jess965 13-15, F Jan 25

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Relapse after three months clean.

    I'm disappointed in myself.
    consciousmindlessness consciousmindlessness 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I'm gonna try to explain the feeling,

    okay, so you know how when you know you have to take a bandaid off? How when you start taking it off, it kinda hurts, but you know you have to? But once you take it off you feel so much better, and free? That's exactly what it feels like
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    A reminder of my place in this world.

    Weak, sad and pathetic. Clean for only about 2 weeks. Trigger? The thought of facing people from the past. Having to admit and face my failures. Realising what an embarrassment I am. Seeing the expectations in other people's eyes that I don't meet. Etc etc etc... Day 0 starts...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I cut myself sometimes.

    I take a nice hot shower, then get out my knife and cut into the soft skin. It's so satisfying watching the blood roll down my body, feeling the stinging pain, and ignoring the part of me that's screaming to stop. It's so addicting. When I was a teenager I cut because I was...
    PsychoticFlower PsychoticFlower 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    When a person says your stupid

    for cutting ect. that person doesn't know how much pain you are in and how hard your battle is..
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 2

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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