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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,511 People

    I bought the blade this Sunday,

    haven't cut myself just yet, but the urge is just so sweet. I haven't done that in over an year but can still imagine the blade running over my soft flesh and the sting that I feel with that.... After that the blood starts rushing out and I can't feel the pain. Pleasure is...
    apersonlikeme apersonlikeme 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 19

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    Yes I spent all day thinking about cutting.

    No I'm not ok. Yes I want your help. I need your help. Things I want to say to all of my friends, but I'm too scared to.
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    u know what. i feel like i derserve it.

    i feel like im failing everyone i feel like i shouldn't do it but i just ....... i don't know the right words for it but i feel like i derserve the abusiveness that my guardian throws at me or the lies my parents tell me or the backstabbing or the other little things that hurt...
    drowningandfalling drowningandfalling 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    Sit back, relapse, sit back,

    relapse again....
    mcrxforever mcrxforever 13-15, F Apr 21

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    I'm so stupid that I can't

    even self harm right, will these leave scars or be gone in a week and nobody will find out?
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    i cut myself because i dont wanna end up

    killing my self, that probley doesnt make sense.
    lililou12 lililou12 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    I wake up every morning

    as a fighter, and go to sleep having lost the battle. How do I stop losing, and who should I talk to? (BTW, I'm in middle school)
    Aselfhart Aselfhart 31-35 1 Response Apr 7

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    I haven't cut for 2 weeks

    and I relapsed it's so upsetting but at the same time I want more
    wolf124 wolf124 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    How am I supposed to get these damn screws off?

    ! I'm going CRAZY! I have to cut! :(
    Lovelybaby18 Lovelybaby18 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    my friends saw and want to send me to

    counceling. I'm scared :'(
    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10, 2014

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    After more than a year without

    even thinking about it today y was so down I started to feel the urge again. I didn't do it, but the thought is still in my mind
    l1l1h4 l1l1h4 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 23

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    I cut myself half because I'm depressed

    but half because I love doing it it makes me horny
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 25

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    I have some pretty faded scars all over my hips

    and upper thighs that are really white but they're impossible to see unless you stretch my skin there or run your fingers across it 'cause I'm really pale right now. What I'm worried about is when I tan in the summer and wear a bathing suit, will they become extremely visible...
    paintakesthepainaway paintakesthepainaway 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    BrokenInnocence BrokenInnocence 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 21

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    I sometimes find myself surprised

    that I didn't self-harm earlier on in my life because there’s so many reason why I would have; a) because giving myself physical pain could help suppress a much more powerful and destructive pain, emotion; b) pain can make it feel as though nothing else matters and all my...
    lunightandday lunightandday 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I always before used to think self-harming is

    really bad and stupid and I never understood why people used to do it but the yesterday I realised why people do it and you get to a certain point where you have to do it because once you've done it once you feel like it's the only option. I don't cut myself but I do try and...
    JoshKilbride JoshKilbride 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    when my insomnia hits i can't sleep,

    i try to ignore the voices in my head, beg them to stop but they won't. i know there's no one i can talk to about it. no friend i can ring to try and get away coz i know that no one cares about me like that. i am left with the demons that i try so hard to get away from but in...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I cut an I know it's bad

    for me but it is hard not to do it. It got so bad that I was hospitalized the week of my birthday for 12 days. I just want someone that I can care about and love without them leaving me bc im messed up.
    Wannafallhard Wannafallhard 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    Summer is so hot here.

    Especially with a jacket on.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 21

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Last night was the first time I've ever cut

    myself. I've hurt myself before but never like this. I'm not really sure why I did it exactly. The whole thing felt like a dream. I felt insane. I've just been feeling like I am a totally boring unlike able and forgettable person, with many recent experiences to back that up. I...
    abby13579 abby13579 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Years ago when I was younger used to self harm.

    Got over it was fine my daughter started self harming so could give her some good advise. Worst thing is I have now started again and im scared i cant stop.
    angelcakebaby angelcakebaby 41-45, F Apr 3

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I self harm and cutting deeper

    than ever I don't think I can go back
    wolf124 wolf124 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses