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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 2,949 People

    I find self harming utterly stupid.

    Why don't you take a look at the bed you sleep on, the good you eat, the roof you have over your head. If you have problems why don't you just deal with them. Every scar you make is just another problem to deal with, another memory. If you self harm just stop and GET HELP.
    ChaoticCaroline ChaoticCaroline 13-15, F 14 Responses Jul 27

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    depressedmusiclover depressedmusiclover 13-15, M Sep 12

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    scarredbutrelentless scarredbutrelentless 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8

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    BelieveInRecovery BelieveInRecovery 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 7

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    Wonder if I should bring my blades

    when I go away for a week. I feel like I really really need to but then I'm scared that my nona might walk in on me while I'm cutting. I know some people might say oh hey this is a good time for you to start to quit, but I know that if I don't bring my blades I'll get home and...
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    I stopped cutting. I want to

    but I cannot. I want to talk to someone. Someone who can tell me what's going on with me. I can't reach out for help. If I did, it would backfire. I'm confused.
    jonho10 jonho10 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    I haven't cut in weeks

    but slowly the pain is increasing and I am dying to feel the blood run down my wrist.. I don't want to I have promised so many people I won't but I am losing my grip on life and I just want to fell a little better.
    Muppo23 Muppo23 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    surfingwby surfingwby 13-15, F Sep 10

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    Starting at the peak of my depression,

    when I stabbed myself with a pencil repeatedly and felt as the blood came out in middle school. I did that almost daily for a while and now my left arm (under the hairs) has dotted scars. Several months after I pledged to fix my life and live how a normal person does (obviously...
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 8

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3

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    From burns, to cuts, it's my way of releasing

    pain.. I didn't choose to be this way, it's like it found me, and just made everything pitch black, I don't feel like myself. I feel lost. The scars on my arms won't fade, so I now use them as guidelines
    teebagg teebagg 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 6

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Used to cut but now this is

    why I do my emotions are this.
    NeverLooseYourFlames NeverLooseYourFlames 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I have been since I was 9 years old.

    I always want to tell others, but yet I'm so afraid that I'll be made fun of, or yelled at, or rejected so I just cover it up and make dumb excuses to why I'm wearing long sleeves. I just feel so pathetic at times. I do it less than I used to(Which was like everyday) but still...
    cyanidemaxwell cyanidemaxwell 16-17, F Sep 11

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F Dec 11, 2013

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    I finally told someone about my depression,

    anxiety and suicidal thoughts but I still can't get enough nerve to tell them I cut but I feel so much better to tell someone I know all of this!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 18

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    I can't drown my demons they know how to swim.

    The razors are back tonight taunting me...
    LightEmUpCollins LightEmUpCollins 16-17, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Oh wow. I haven't done this in

    so long. It hurts sooo good xD My gosh I haven't feel this high in a long time. It's morbid and I know it's a little bit wrong but I do not regret it. After all, self-harm is a better that suicide, right?
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    I'm self harming really bad,

    and my mom just saw a pile of blood on the floor, that I haven't noticed when I did it last time. please, I need some excuses to tell her
    averageme1 averageme1 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    depressedmusiclover depressedmusiclover 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 12

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    I started becoming depressed

    when I was 12 in the middle of 7th grade. My depression got worse and I began to self harm during the summer (when I was going into 8th grade). I had been able to talk to my friend who lived in another state, but he started to make it worse almost. At the time I was cutting my...
    livinglifeinpain livinglifeinpain 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've been clean for a while,

    about a month, just because I have constant doc appointments and counselors too and I don't want them to see.
    polyglotparrot polyglotparrot 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    I dont know if it will scar,

    does anyone know?
    BelieveInRecovery BelieveInRecovery 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 14

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    I haven't in a long time.

    ..but things keep testing me and I want to so very bad. I want to end my life also but I can't because of my babies. It's hard it feels like withdrawals.
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I cut today. my mom was yelling at me

    for wearing sweaters all the time. but if she only knew what was beneath it..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 5

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    Recovery... Realising your worth it.

    Experiencing true happiness. Caring about yourself. Over coming your own demons. Validating your worth it. Eating with no regret. Relapse, its will happen, and thats okay. Yearning to live.
    TheGirlFullOfSecrets TheGirlFullOfSecrets 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Today my parents found out.

    .. iv been put on anti-depressants and have to be referred to a childs mental health clinic because im only 14...
    TheGirlFullOfSecrets TheGirlFullOfSecrets 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I crawled to the end of the room on my knees.

    Head phones tangled along my legs as loud music played. The music that still plays. Anything to drown out these thoughts. Wading through the accumulated rubbish I push aside plates which held dishes I'd thrown up in self-loathing. I crawl through wrappers from sweets I didn't...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 16-17, F 11 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    Today, I made my first appointment with a

    mental health service. I am yet to hear back from them. I'm scared, relieved, excited, nervous and a part of me wants to call up to say to them, "Disregard my message! Never mind!" I won't, of course. I need this appointment. Self-harm has been a problem for me for too long...
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    Right now I'm laying in bed on the verge of

    crying.Today was not a good day at all i tried to not let it get to me but it did. It hit me hard. Homecoming is soon and i just found out that my ex boyfriend left me for this girl that goes to my school..they will be at homecoming. I don't want to be with him, or have feelings...
    BabyGirlAtHeart BabyGirlAtHeart 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 11

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    I have been two weeks clean

    but i think I have met my breaking point! I think I will go back to cutting every night to release all this stress, anxiety, hatred, sadness, madness, etc. I am thinking about suicide more! I'm tired of feeling this way! I'm so tempted to take the easy way out, leave a note...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    People don't understand I don't do it to kill

    myself I do it to save myself
    sg123457 sg123457 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 6

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    RogueStrikerSXA RogueStrikerSXA 13-15, M 5 Responses