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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,118 People

    I've been self harming

    since I was 10 years old and I'm 18 now. I don't really want to stop. It helps me in ways nothing else can. Well nothing else except maybe drugs, but I don't want to go there. I refuse to. That's why I won't see a therapist. They'll just drown me in pills until I don't know who...
    DarkEyedDreamers DarkEyedDreamers 18-21, F Nov 6

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    My first time I was in the bathroom crying,

    looking at the mirror. I took off all my clothes, nd just started to scratch at my skin, nd if I had any pimples or something I'd pop it. Then I started to do it more often but instead used needles, and poked myself with it, nd curve circles on my chest. I started to cut, but my...
    Tognoni2 Tognoni2 13-15, F a week ago

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    there's many problems at home ,

    with my friends & I can't take life anymore , I do self harm , I feel stressed most of the time & I feel lonely .
    julissaaxx julissaaxx 18-21, F Nov 2

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    RogueStrikerSXA RogueStrikerSXA 13-15, M 5 Responses May 29

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I finally told someone about my depression,

    anxiety and suicidal thoughts but I still can't get enough nerve to tell them I cut but I feel so much better to tell someone I know all of this!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 18

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    I went to the doctors today

    and he has now referred me to CAMHS for further diagnosis and treatment. I'm kind of scared, I don't do well with new people and it took me literally ages to build up the courage to tell the doctor I've confided in since the deaths of my grandparents. It's just a very scary...
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F Nov 14

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    From the age of 13 iv'e had bouts of crippling

    depression, developing into insomnia, losing dangerous amounts of weight from not eating, and generally hating myself. I remember walking into science in yr11 with my hand bleeding and completely covered in cuts, my hand is mostly scar tissue on the surface now..the reaction...
    smokentokes smokentokes 22-25, M Nov 7

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F Dec 11, 2013

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    I didn't used to think

    that what I was doing really counted as self-harm--I dig my nails into myself, or, recently, scratch myself with plastic silverware I've snapped in half to make it sharp--but it doesn't seem bad enough to count. The one friend who does know is pressuring me to get help, but I've...
    Flutist343 Flutist343 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    Not only do I do it but I am obsessed with it.

    When I watch famous youtubers or even celebrities on tv I listen carefully to hear for them to mention self harm of any kind. Even if the movie doesn't involve it. At the time I want to know that these people I love and admire understands and knows what it is. But then moments...
    battlefighter battlefighter 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    imjusttrying imjusttrying 18-21, F Nov 13

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3

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    Last night I burned myself.

    i haven't told my mom yet she'll be so disappointed if I do tell her but hiding it will not help anything so at some point ill have to be brave and tell her
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I hate the fact I keep getting urges.

    I can't seem to ignore them
    midorijane midorijane 16-17, T 1 Response Nov 14

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    because I hate myself,

    simple really.
    24wildroses 24wildroses 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I use to hit myself, really hard in the shower

    on my hip with any object, whether it be my fist, soap bottles, shower head! Anything.. The bruises were beautiful & I loved them, they helped me through everything, so I thought anyway.. I stopped about 4/5 months ago. But the last few weeks everything kinda got to me...
    Kodie99 Kodie99 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 7

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    last night a campus police officer saw my cuts.

    i know he did- i am NOT being paranoid. he didn't say anything but i almost wish that he had. because cutting hurts and although i don't want to stop- sometimes i kinda want to stop.
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F a week ago

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    People don't understand I don't do it to kill

    myself I do it to save myself
    sg123457 sg123457 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 6

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    You would think at 19 I would be able to move

    past it but I still struggle with it. Its been over 70 days since I last cut but I burned just a few nights ago. I'm just so done with this addiction.
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I had been clean because of him.

    He was the only one there when I started in the beginning and he knew everything. Now he hates me and everyday I break a little more. I'm just tired of it all and I don't know how much longer I can stay away from cutting. It relieves the pain. I am just so broken that even he...
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've started cutting again today.

    I can't take the pain anymore.
    PokeyPringle PokeyPringle 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 7

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    Had to deal with bullshit people at the

    university. Haven't been hitting my head. But I scratched the **** outta my arm. At least it's not my head.
    misanthropemeow misanthropemeow 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    15 small cuts to the palm last night.

    I wasn't sad or overwhelmed, I have no idea why I did it but to be honest I don't care. I wasn't cutting deep enough to make it bleed but on the last one I accidentally cut too deep because I was using a pocket knife and it's sharp as ****. I actually plan on cutting near my...
    DarknessFalls101 DarknessFalls101 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    i can't stop self-harming,

    and i'm tired of it. I will get anxiety real bad, like I'll sweat, start trembling, my adrenaline pumps, sometimes I can't breath and start hyperventilating, and I used to start scratching my arm over and over and over again until I was bleeding. I have a scar on both arms and...
    killeyj killeyj 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My mom threw all of mine away

    after I bought so many. I was planning on using them after I got home from the hospital but we just moved and my room doesn't lock so it's basically ******* torture not being able to cut, burn, bruise, or hurt myself in general and the urges are so damn strong.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    I'm zero days clean again.

    I hate how people think that self harming is just cutting because it's not. I scratch. Today was the first time that I actually drew blood. It wasn't much but it was still some. I felt like I needed to do this at the time but now I feel so stupid for doing it.
    bvbandmcr bvbandmcr 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M Nov 13

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    I was walking around my house with cuts on my

    left arm from 3/4 up my arm to my wrist... I forgot to put on a long sleeve and I sat on the couch, looked down and saw my cuts. I panicked a little inside... I bolted to my room and threw on a sweater. But I'm so relieved cause I don't think anyone saw (my whole family is up...
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F Nov 8

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    My first time I was in the bathroom crying,

    looking at the mirror. I took off all my clothes, nd just started to scratch at my skin, nd if I had any pimples or something I'd pop it. Then I started to do it more often but instead used needles, and poked myself with it, nd curve circles on my chest. I started to cut, but my...
    Tognoni2 Tognoni2 13-15, F a week ago

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    it's weird because when I'm in

    that mood I really crave a cigarette, even though I've never smoked before. It's like my body is addicted to this toxic feeling and I need a fix
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    Today i cutt again at shool my social teacher

    was angry at the whole class for studying social study at english class and made the english teacher leave the class so he failed the whole class by tearing the test paper i was so upset so i cutt in the bathroom the next subject is biology and guess what"s the lesson it"s...
    reginacs reginacs 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F