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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,984 People

    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Trying to cope with this knot in my chest

    without cutting myself, so I'm heading to the gym again. What do you do if you don't want to cut but you feel like you're on the edge? Because cutting and smoking are the only things that seem to alleviate the weight now a days. Happy Monday.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    I cut my self for the first time in about 4

    years I was hoping I would never cut again it was triggered by the loss of someone close to me I feel so ashamed
    JClove33 JClove33 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I can't even stay clean

    for one freaking day. I don't think I'll ever get over this
    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    a poem for you My battle scars are dark

    and mental, hard to find with the naked eyes. The cuts u see up my arms are nothing compared to the gashes u'd find running down my thighs. You might be startled to observe the violent side to the imaginary conversations of my silent mind, Praying for sleep but too afraid to...
    quietlucy quietlucy 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I'm gonna try to explain the feeling,

    okay, so you know how when you know you have to take a bandaid off? How when you start taking it off, it kinda hurts, but you know you have to? But once you take it off you feel so much better, and free? That's exactly what it feels like
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    she sat in her room cutting her wrist.

    she didnt know why or for what but she just knew she had to cut
    blossomingangel blossomingangel 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I wore short sleeves today

    for the first time in months. I didn't even think about it. I looked down eventually, and realized that my scars are barely visible now. Thank goodness. For some people they don't go away, and they're nothing to be ashamed of. I'm just glad that they aren't going to be something...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M Jan 23

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    "Other times, I look at my scars

    and see something else: a girl who was trying to cope with something horrible that she should never have had to live through at all. My scars show pain and suffering, but they also show my will to survive. They're part of my history that'll always be there." I don't know who...
    llIPanadIll llIPanadIll 13-15, F Jan 22

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    i do this often and plz dont say "ur hurting

    others" because i aint only me and there is no one who cares no family no friends no love and as a stranger who just reads this and says "i care" that is very frustrating because i know u dont, you dont know me and thats probably the only thing you reply then you go about your...
    warcraftlover16 warcraftlover16 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2015

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    I self harm whenever I'm in a bad mood.

    I put all my anger into cutting my arm.
    RainbowCrayon666 RainbowCrayon666 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    Cut myself again today.

    I keep telling myself **** will get better, but it never actually does.
    BornMysterious BornMysterious 16-17, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I'm almost a week clean

    so I'm kind of proud of myself for that
    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I just started to self harm a few days ago.

    ..my parents still don't know... It burned like my arm was on fire but I liked the pain...i don't know why I do this to myself...i don't know why I'm typing this whatever you don't care...bye
    LonleyWolf99 LonleyWolf99 16-17, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2015

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    I am fighting the erge to cut

    as deep as possible I keep screwing everything up the people I care about more than life are walking away I just feel like I'm worthless
    JClove33 JClove33 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    Sometimes at night I cut

    until I fall asleep.
    RainbowCrayon666 RainbowCrayon666 16-17, F Jan 24

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    My mom just found out

    that I self harm tonight. I went to practice earlier today and one of my friends saw my wrist and she told my mom. My mom walked into my room and demanded to see my wrists. Well, automatically I broke down in tears. She asked me why, and how, and when it started. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 4, 2015

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    Went to dinner with some friends tonight

    and we talked about the hashtag "cut for Zayn" and half way through someone started showing pictures of what it looked like and thankfully my friend was like, "no, thats really triggering for people, put it away." but it was too late and now I'm supper triggered. Trying not to...
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F Jan 23

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    whenever someone mentions self harm I tense up

    worried they'll find out my secret
    tamzin100 tamzin100 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 24, 2015

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    I really want to cut

    and I don't know what to do everyone will be so disappointed in me but I just can't deal with things anymore
    Ging94 Ging94 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    A reminder of my place in this world.

    Weak, sad and pathetic. Clean for only about 2 weeks. Trigger? The thought of facing people from the past. Having to admit and face my failures. Realising what an embarrassment I am. Seeing the expectations in other people's eyes that I don't meet. Etc etc etc... Day 0 starts...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27, 2015

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    Just f**ked up. Ruined all of my hard work not

    doing it. I just give up... whats the point, all I ever do is just **** up? What's the point to keep continuing whatever I am doing. I'm just losing this whole battle, now I am just throwing in the flag...
    IWillGo IWillGo 18-21, F Aug 3, 2015

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I self harm a lot. I hate my parents

    and bullies. I care about my future and I want to be an attorney. I battle with depression.
    sievert sievert 13-15, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    People self harm for different reasons.

    For some it's for attention. For others out there, like many of my close friends, other EPers and me, it helps. We do not seek for your attention. We do not take photos of our scars and post them on Facebook. We fight internally, every day and every night. If you gave us a...
    ThatPyroChick ThatPyroChick 16-17, F Jan 25

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    llIPanadIll llIPanadIll 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    It was the cat, I swear.

    I burnt myself on the stove, I swear. I'm fine, I swear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    WhyNotMe555 WhyNotMe555 18-21, F Feb 1

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    I managed to stop cutting

    for almost 2 years... now because of where im living... who i am living with... i have started again and ive also started drinking almost daily. i dont usually drink so for me to be doing this is very out of character. i want to stop but i feel i cant survive without either of...
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    slit your wrist and cut your thighs.

    fake a smile and dry your eyes.hate yourself and hate your life wlcome to my world of lies
    blossomingangel blossomingangel 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    Relapse after three months clean.

    I'm disappointed in myself.
    consciousmindlessness consciousmindlessness 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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