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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,705 People

    Just bought my first lighter,

    I've been using matches so far
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    I relapsed yesterday

    after like a month or so. It's been rough lately, and I don't really know what to do about it anymore
    keshanahr keshanahr 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 1 Response Aug 8

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Started when I was 14.

    . Now I'm 18 but still can't stop
    Sayuri96 Sayuri96 18-21, F Aug 15

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    My mom found out about the self harming

    and is now always looking for scars and cuts. So I have found another way. Stuff like staying up till really early morning, not drinking enough water and then holding my hands in boiling water can do the trick. Also walking on burning hot asphalt or sharp stones can help...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    Just f**ked up. Ruined all of my hard work not

    doing it. I just give up... whats the point, all I ever do is just **** up? What's the point to keep continuing whatever I am doing. I'm just losing this whole battle, now I am just throwing in the flag...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F Aug 3

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    For about two to three years,

    I have self-harmed. Mostly cutting, but I also punched myself, punched objects, starved and made myself throw up {not sure if that the last two are classed as self harm or whatever}. Anyway, I'm not one of those emo kids or a person who self-harms for attention. I would still...
    luciethedepressedllama luciethedepressedllama 16-17, F Jul 28

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    cheesecrackers99 cheesecrackers99 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't cut in a few months

    but something about today really set me off...I only ha r one cut and it's not that bad but I promised my friend I wouldn't and she told me if u cut she would cut ans she cuts really deep and I don't wanna tell her I cut cause shell cut and I ca.t say anything otherwise...but I...
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I started when I was 11 years old.

    I still struggle to this day, it only got worse and worse. It's so hard to kick the addiction, I can't begin to explain it.
    MissRainDrops97 MissRainDrops97 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    I've just started again

    but I want to stop. Does anyone have any tips on what to do instead of self harming because my old isn't working as much now.
    JoshKilbride2 JoshKilbride2 13-15, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I feel like a ******* psycho!

    I'm with my family at breakfast and I don't have my knife on me. this is such a ****** feeling, I don't even know how to process it.
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    Laceyxv Laceyxv 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    I self harm and yet I'm not ashamed of my scars

    nor do I hide them any more. I used to cut on my arm till one drunk night I cut so deep I gave my self permanent nerve damage in my left arm. after that night I started cutting my chest. witch all the scars look like I've been in some knife fights. I haven't cut in awhile. yet I...
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Relapsed the other night.

    I used a rope and rubbed it back and forth over my ankle...didn't think I went as deep as I did. Now I can't wear shorts or go to the beach since it's so obvious of what it is :/ I hate myself.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    tamzin100 tamzin100 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    Yes I do selfharm. I have been through recovery

    3 times but all times failed because I can't stay clean for that long. I have a therapist but I don't see him often because I don't really like opening up to people. Any advice for recovery? Any advice for overcoming Selfharm, Anxiety, Depression and Things like that. I don't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 14

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I just started to self harm a few days ago.

    ..my parents still don't know... It burned like my arm was on fire but I liked the pain...i don't know why I do this to myself...i don't know why I'm typing this whatever you don't care...bye
    LonleyWolf99 LonleyWolf99 16-17, F 7 Responses Jun 13

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    Damnit. cut again today

    after a month. thankfully their not deep, but still a whole month.
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M Aug 3

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    I've been clean from cutting myself

    for 10 weeks now. The urges are only getting worse but I keep telling myself it's not worth losing all my progress. As I was watching this movie, I was struggling with the urge to go get a blade, so I started scratching the top of my hand. It's not bleeding, but it does have a...
    Todashiko Todashiko 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    ****, three days in a row.

    I guess I'm back to a bad habit. I've had to wear a bunch of bracelets because it's summer and I can't wear long sleeves. If anyone here can help me figure out how to cover them up please let me know. I have no idea what to do. When I'm doing it, I'm not thinking clearly...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Trying to cope with this knot in my chest

    without cutting myself, so I'm heading to the gym again. What do you do if you don't want to cut but you feel like you're on the edge? Because cutting and smoking are the only things that seem to alleviate the weight now a days. Happy Monday.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 20

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    I miss it. I miss it every day.

    Every day, I make the decision to not cut myself over and over again. And I'm tired of making it. I have razors in my room for the day I need them again, my most reliable friends. For a long time, they were my only comfort. So much so, that nothing else helps. There are no...
    CigaretteEater CigaretteEater 18-21 Jul 4

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    I've got a history of self harming

    but my method has changed as I got older. When I was 15ish, my method of release was cutting with the sharp point of a maths compass (unusual I know but it did the job and didn't leave the same permanent marks as a blade would have). Gradually I progressed to hitting myself in...
    Anon0188 Anon0188 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    It was the cat, I swear.

    I burnt myself on the stove, I swear. I'm fine, I swear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 1

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    If we cut for attention,

    why do we try so hard to hide it? You don't understand it unless you've been through the things we have. <3
    MemoryLane1137 MemoryLane1137 16-17, F 1 Response May 11

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