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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,673 People

    I self harm . buts its been a long while

    since I have.. yet right now I could cut deeper then I ever have.. I just keep screwing up my life . digging a hole deeper and deeper.. to the point I am now were I just want to end it all.. I try telling my self its all gonna be OK.. it will get better. then I mess up again...
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    For about two to three years,

    I have self-harmed. Mostly cutting, but I also punched myself, punched objects, starved and made myself throw up {not sure if that the last two are classed as self harm or whatever}. Anyway, I'm not one of those emo kids or a person who self-harms for attention. I would still...
    luciethedepressedllama luciethedepressedllama 16-17, F a week ago

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    I can feel it pulling me under again.

    two days clean but I don't think I can do it, it's so hard
    tamsin100 tamsin100 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    Trying to cope with this knot in my chest

    without cutting myself, so I'm heading to the gym again. What do you do if you don't want to cut but you feel like you're on the edge? Because cutting and smoking are the only things that seem to alleviate the weight now a days. Happy Monday.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 10 Responses Jul 20

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    I only do it every couple of years,

    it seems. But lately it's frequent. Not enough to do major damage or leave big scars. I can't afford to have anyone find out right now. I guess that's a good thing because it keeps them small
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 3 hrs ago

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    I haven't yet, but I think I am close to

    starting. I hate it when my mum just yells for no reason. Imagine you call her and call her (i don't mean by a phone or any kind of technology) and she doesn't answer and so i keep calling till she yells what?! like shes angry, well that's one thing, well that rarely happens...
    GalacticDaniel GalacticDaniel 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 25

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Hi, I'm Jaden. This is my story of self-harm.

    I'm 16 years old. When I was 8, I lost my Mum, Carolyn, of cancer. I missed her so much.. This caused my Dad major depression. He ended up moving out around three years after she died, so I was forced to live alone. When I turned 14, the battle began. I took out a razor...
    JadenSOS JadenSOS 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    My mom found out about the self harming

    and is now always looking for scars and cuts. So I have found another way. Stuff like staying up till really early morning, not drinking enough water and then holding my hands in boiling water can do the trick. Also walking on burning hot asphalt or sharp stones can help...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    my parents said I couldn't get a tattoo

    so I cut one into my skin instead
    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel 18-21, F Jul 15

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    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I was 2 days clean...

    Not any more 😭😭😭😭😭🔫kill me
    michaeldax10 michaeldax10 18-21, M Jul 12

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Just bought my first lighter,

    I've been using matches so far
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    I miss it. I miss it every day.

    Every day, I make the decision to not cut myself over and over again. And I'm tired of making it. I have razors in my room for the day I need them again, my most reliable friends. For a long time, they were my only comfort. So much so, that nothing else helps. There are no...
    CigaretteEater CigaretteEater 18-21 Jul 4

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    Someone help me, what's an alternative

    for self harm that doesn't involve me hurting my self... If that makes sense
    cheyemarie cheyemarie 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 16

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    I want to cut again so ******* badly.

    I'm dying to use that razor on my skin and see all that blood. It's been months. I need a breather. But I'm sick of disappointing my fiancé. I don't know what to do anymore.
    NikkiWeasley NikkiWeasley 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I guess I can say I used to,

    I've been clean or whatever the word is for a **** loadda time maybe a few months (probably jyxned myself and will probably do it tonight cuz jynxs suck the Pokemon and the thing)
    SpiritOfOrpheus SpiritOfOrpheus 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I don't know what happened,

    I just lost control and went down hill. Those are recent, and hopefully those will be the last ones ever
    xBleedMeDryx xBleedMeDryx 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    i am feeling very restless

    and have so many thiugbts rright now. the main one which i cannot seem to shake is how badly i want to selh harm. its all i think about i dont know how to shake it.....
    rachlin50 rachlin50 22-25, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    I tried to stop self harming

    and I went two weeks but then I did it again last night...
    dcook6 dcook6 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Just cut again for the first time in months.

    Today I went to go look at some student housing apartments but because I don't make 3x the rent I have to get a co-signer. My dad is the only option I have but he refuses to co sign for me. He knows it's not a good idea if I stay home but he's not making it any easier for me to...
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F Jul 25

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    Damnit. cut again today

    after a month. thankfully their not deep, but still a whole month.
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I know what you're going through

    so if anyone needs someone to talk to I'm here for ya.
    masterjai masterjai 22-25, M Jul 13

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    Just f**ked up. Ruined all of my hard work not

    doing it. I just give up... whats the point, all I ever do is just **** up? What's the point to keep continuing whatever I am doing. I'm just losing this whole battle, now I am just throwing in the flag...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I've got a history of self harming

    but my method has changed as I got older. When I was 15ish, my method of release was cutting with the sharp point of a maths compass (unusual I know but it did the job and didn't leave the same permanent marks as a blade would have). Gradually I progressed to hitting myself in...
    Anon0188 Anon0188 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    I burned myself with my cigarette.

    It helps me forget about everything else because all I do is focus on the pain. It helps me still know that I'm alive. See those 2 black dots?
    xoxoxxooxoxo xoxoxxooxoxo 18-21, M Jul 13

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    i have self harmed for over a year now

    and i am trying to stop but no matter how hard i try i end up failing and the cuts just get deeper and deeper and i dont what to do, my mum checks my arms, i constantly feel like a waste of space and a freak, makes me wonder if i should just listen to people
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 22

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    It was the cat, I swear.

    I burnt myself on the stove, I swear. I'm fine, I swear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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