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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,400 People

    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I cut only where my watch covers it.

    There is a centimetre wide space on my wrist absolutely covered in cuts.
    alicebro alicebro 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 16-17, F 11 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I have cut myself for almost 2 years.

    Most of the time it was because of my dad. He has slapped me twice has hit me and he doesn't let me talk back to him. If I do talk back he hits me. One time he hit me that I cut so deep that now there is an ugly scar on my stomach. My wrist is covered in scars. Sometimes I want...
    Bloom42540 Bloom42540 16-17, F Feb 5

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    I cut , I'm a cutter,

    feels good to release's the pain I can't deal with.. Has nothing to do with dieing or for attention. I have scared my body. I mask the scars I have inside with the ones on the out.. Cutting may not solve my problems. It may make people see me as weak. But I'm not weak I'm...
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I used to cut my left wrist freshman year of

    college because I thought it felt good. I didn't know why it felt good... I used to hate myself at that time very much! 18 was probably the worst age for me - I lost everything in a span of a year and never recovered, and nobody seemed to care or hear my cries. I want to start...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    So...umm...I have been self harming

    since I was 13...umm...I am getting worse and it feels like nobody gives a da*n about me...I feel soo alone
    CountryLover321 CountryLover321 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    I was clean four months

    now there's these 15 cuts help my life sucks and chill I'm not suicidal just need pain because I feel numb pain is the only thing I can feel
    Trappedinsadness Trappedinsadness 13-15, F Feb 17

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    Self harm has been my drug.

    And now i'm addicted. I've been 1 week clean but i got hurt and i relapsed. So **** it. I'm tired of getting hurt i'm tired of everything. It's just gonna be me and my blade now.
    xxxalyssabrownxxx xxxalyssabrownxxx 13-15, F Feb 20

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    well i have lots of scars.

    i started cutting in grade 7. i guess you can say i've been self-harming since i was young because i would pinch myself until i bled and just watched myself bleed. now if i cant find a blade i would take a safty pin put the edge near a fire until it was hot enough to burn myself...
    aishastewie aishastewie 13-15 2 Responses Feb 18

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    whenever I relapse I can see the disappointment

    on my shrinks face Yup that's me the disappointment
    ScreamingWhispers ScreamingWhispers 13-15, F Feb 3

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    My cousin tells me I should do what she does

    and get tattoos and piercings and that's how I should get my self harm ... I didn't know I had money coming out of my *** to buy all these tattoos when I'm in pain that I want to cut ... Now I just have to hide them I guess
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    i ended up self harming last night.

    .. and i still dont feel better
    maddymo23432 maddymo23432 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    I just hate feeling alone

    and I hate being so insecure and all those rude comments just get to me sometimes.I've got cuts on my arms.I literally have no space to cut anymore and I just feel like I can't do anything anymore.It feels like I should give up.
    Lizebeth92813 Lizebeth92813 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm doing something called ' the butterfly

    project ' you have to draw a butterfly on you write names of people you care about and let it fade away nataurly if u cut before its completely gone you kill it.... So before I drew the butterfly I cut about 12 more (like 24 more actually) then drew the butterfly I hope it helps...
    BiXwolfsXbears BiXwolfsXbears 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 26

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    Why am I such a screw up?

    At least I know I can do one thing... Haven't cut this deep in a while so it stings a bit. I know the pain is the purpose, but I'm just here for the blood.
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    I've been self harming

    since 7th grade. I'm currently a sophomore in Highschool and I don't do it as often but I still get strong urges to do it all the time. My mom knows that I used to do it and she made me see a therapist and tried to send me to a mental hospital. She tries to make me feel bad by...
    Gerardfuckinway Gerardfuckinway 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    I don't cut myself anymore.

    I bite my hand. I have to, I do it because I... When I get angry, I become powered by rage. I do it so I won't hurt anyone else. It hasn't left any scars yet, but I did accidentally bite through my skin las time... So there was some blood.
    UnfinishedStar UnfinishedStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I've cut again today.

    Only thing is when I cut the first time I felt like cutting again so I did and then I just couldn't stop the feeling of wanting to continue cutting. Something's wrong with me and I don't know what to do!
    eternalmusics2017 eternalmusics2017 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    Today. Now I'm liking across my bed room to the

    box where I keep all my scissors and cutters for school. And now I'm really considering taking one of them and mark myself again. The reason is simple im empty inside. It's not a cry for attention. I just want to feel anything else what what I'm feeling now.
    HiIAmHana HiIAmHana 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    I do it because I'm angry.

    I use it to take my anger out on myself. I do it because I'm stressed. It works as a distraction from all I have to deal with. I do it because I feel depressed. My depression has gotten worse lately. My reasons for doing it are not big but to me they can be overwhelming. I've...
    eternalmusics2017 eternalmusics2017 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    I know it's bad but its the pain it makes me

    feel soooo good it makes me forget about all the dicks in my life
    silverstrike silverstrike 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    0zzy2597 0zzy2597 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    This picture is of the plaster i had to make

    because u cant buy any big enough. I've massively relapsed. About 2 weeks ago I had a fight with my best friend and to release the pain I cut. Now I'm cutting every day. I've tried elastic bands,I've tried glow sticks an everything else. I need help This is starting to really...
    ElCharlotte ElCharlotte 13-15, F Feb 11

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    never have before I have a blade in hand

    but I am to scared to anyone wana help me out n convince me one way or another?
    killerjrm killerjrm 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I don't necessarily mean cutting.

    I used to cut- I still do occasionally- but I'm trying not to do that anymore because I don't want to leave scars. I have other ways to hurt myself. I know some of the reasons I do it, but a lot of the time I can't work out why.
    EverythingYouNeverKnew EverythingYouNeverKnew 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    Lately I've been feeling depressed,

    lonely, insecure, anxious, all of that stuff... I feel like I annoy many people just by being alive; it's been this way for a while. I always sense people talking behind my back. I'm always happy and wild around people, but that's to hide how I'm actually dead on the inside. My...
    Erenjaegertitans Erenjaegertitans 13-15, F Feb 17

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    I have been self harming on

    and off since I was 14. It started when my mum met her new fella but wasn't that bad. I then did it again when my friend passed away at 16. And have been battling with depression and anxiety ever since. I hate people who think we do it for attention as it is nothing like that...
    silentbe89 silentbe89 22-25, F 4 days ago

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