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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,197 People

    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    I used to self harm, it was difficult to stop

    but I'm doing well. I went through a difficult time and considered taking my own life. It is scary to think it was only a few months ago. I am here to help, I may be young but I know it's hard and If anyone needs a friend I'm here to talk.
    J3N11 J3N11 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    My birthday is Saturday

    and I have these. A year ago I didn't have them. A lot has changed
    BeautifulBeginnings BeautifulBeginnings 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    I haven't been on here in a while,

    I've cut myself 5 times since I've not been on....am just so lonely.....Sometimes I just want to leave see who would look for me
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Dec 9

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16

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    I wanted to stop for

    so long, I sought help, but what do I do if I don't want to stop? I just got done bleeding & the pain & numbness is gone.
    cryingInSilence cryingInSilence 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3

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    so earlier today at school I was in the hallway.

    it's always really hot where my locker is, so I pushed my sleeves up not thinking of the cuts and scars on my wrists. and this boy walked up to me and said "hey what happened to your wrists?" and I said "a razor" because most people already know that I cut and they avoid me for...
    deathISpainless deathISpainless 13-15, F Dec 3

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    not really an experience

    but I learned today that the reason cutting is so addicting is because when we cut, our body releases endorphins. endorphins minimize pain by providing a sense of well-being when our bodies experience pain. it soothes and energizes us so we can get out of harms way. but once...
    deathISpainless deathISpainless 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    i have to go have a blood test tomorrow

    and im worried about my mum seeing the cuts on my wrists
    wantthistoend wantthistoend 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 10

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    Well last November is my last cut.

    I hate to know every time I cut I feel relief and I didn't feel the pain.
    laineswift13 laineswift13 18-21, F Dec 9

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    RogueStrikerSXA RogueStrikerSXA 13-15, M 5 Responses May 29

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    In exactly 10 days it will be one year

    since I started cutting. While I can't say that my attempts to stop altogether haven't been the most successful, it has been a month since my relapse and I'm hoping that I can stay clean through this patch of memory lane. Not exactly for me but for the two people I met on here...
    YouShallNotPass21 YouShallNotPass21 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    ThatGirlR ThatGirlR 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    they dont get that getting mad at me makes the

    feelings worse, the thoughts worse and the cutting worse
    wantthistoend wantthistoend 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18

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    People don't understand I don't do it to kill

    myself I do it to save myself
    sg123457 sg123457 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 6

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    wantthistoend wantthistoend 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I never really understood

    why people cut, I never understood how physical pain can take away all the emotional pain within a person. Well until yesterday. My mother is a hostile woman, she has grabbed me by the throat before, and most recently smashed my phone using a stainless steel cleaver. My home...
    falsebeingwithin falsebeingwithin 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    mysticalgem mysticalgem 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    My paintbrush my paint brush shines silver my

    paint is red when I am painting my hand may quiver my paint has stained my bed I have thoughts that tend to stay I have thoughts that don't go away scarlet pictures shine so bright as paint in the moonlight I keep my art a secret from everyone I keep it hidden from the sun...
    AlyShine AlyShine 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 16-17, F 11 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    BeautifulBeginnings BeautifulBeginnings 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I drove away a friend today.

    .. they tried to take away my blades and I wouldn't let them... they told me that they want to help me but can't unless I want to be helped. I know that and I do want help but I can't seem to stop cutting right now... it takes away my pain and gives me a delicious reprieve from...
    AlysonBlack AlysonBlack 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Trying to fight it doesn't work.

    It's become an addiction again. It's a strange kind of pain. But at the same time, it's a good pain.
    ThatTattooedGirl ThatTattooedGirl 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'd be lying if I said

    that I tried not to. I've been thinking about it all day. This time I just opened up old cuts. It's good enough for now. :p
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F Dec 3

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    lindseysway lindseysway 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm starting too. Just sick of the emotions I

    have, but the worst part, I'm afraid on what it could do to me as a person, mentally and physically. I have not told anyone... Ugh it's just so hard
    xpizzabox101 xpizzabox101 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    7 days. 7 freaking days.

    That's how long I stopped for this time. I'm so pathetic. Apparently I should've disposed of my razor blades. I hate myself.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    69 days clean but so close to breaking lately,

    every day is a struggle except for today and probably the rest of the week since its exam week and I can study instead of having to see people!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I've just told my best guy friend of 3 years

    that I self harm, and he said that we should talk about it tomorrow. I'm just not sure if I did the right thing. what if he changes his view on me, or tell all his friends about it?
    averageme1 averageme1 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    I didn't start self harming

    until about a year ago. Every bad thing that could happen in my life, HAPPENED. The fact that I'm gay too just makes the fact worse because I have so much to contain.. this is the only way I relieve myself of all this pain inside.
    fernaaans fernaaans 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    If my body is my own.

    ...then why can't I cut it up?
    thatone6 thatone6 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    Today I went to talk with therapist in my

    school. Im feeling so good and I really want to stop with cutting and forget my past and move on.
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago