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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 2,284 People

    Couldn't even make it 7 days,

    17 more scars to add.
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 13-15, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I cut for the first time yesterday.

    ..I'm ashamed. And I need help. But I can't tell my mom. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm torn apart inside, and so confused...
    XxSempiternalxX XxSempiternalxX 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I started about 7 months ago.

    Right now I'm two weeks clean and trying to keep it up. My parents are trying to find me a therapist for my depression and I don't want to keep my self harm a secret from them so they would tell my parents eventually. I really wish my parents didn't have to know. I hate...
    darkanddesolate darkanddesolate 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I finally told my mom

    after 3 months of contemplating, about how I've been feeling... she's going to get me help. It feels like a weight has been lifted of my shoulders...
    deadinside0220 deadinside0220 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    sarah1928 sarah1928 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Seven days clean, does not seem long

    unless you are working on stopping, the urge is stronger than ever today!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Who knows that she’s artistic on her arms?

    Who is truly and honestly blinded by her charms? The “art” she lines up on her wrist Just show hurt covered up by the heavy mist How does this happen to someone so loved? Feel the need to release the pain through blood when push comes to shove How can someone so trusted feel...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    It’s funny how as a kid you think everything

    will change That there’s such a wide range Of what you could’ve been When everyone you know sees you as a perfect ten And you don’t want to disappoint them But yet everyday you go out on a limb You open that cabinet and pull out a prescription To fulfill the rights of...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TeenyTheTwisted TeenyTheTwisted 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 13-15, F 9 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    It seems that I need to sometimes

    and I feel no shame. I'm meeting others like me too. I'm smiling.
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    shell8810 shell8810 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel the ache of my scars,

    calling me to give them what they want. I feel no pain, but maybe that's because there's nothing to gain except for relief. Am I proud of what I do? No. Do I want to stop? Yes. Can I stop. No.
    Wishingtobegone Wishingtobegone 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    How can it be that someone can singlehandedly

    ruin your life by making you cut, but is also the one reason you can't kill yourself...
    yelnaX yelnaX 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Hushabye Baby

    Close your eyes and go to sleep And dream of all the things that made you weep You just want all the pain to end All your life you've had to pretend Beautiful blade shines so bright Looking at all the blood and loving the sight Hushabye baby, Your almost there You dont...
    ProudByChoice ProudByChoice 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 16

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    I have been self harming

    since I was at least 12/13 I would burn my ears with my straighteners sometimes and then eventually I started cutting myself, I was fine for almost a year then everything went down hill again, I got bullied for my appearance and had very few friends/people to talk to, everything...
    jxnnaa jxnnaa 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I try to stop. I was clean

    for a while but then I got shoved into lockers and walls and threatened. I'm trying to stop and all I want is people who understand
    Nonbelieverssuck Nonbelieverssuck 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    I don't self harm but

    if you need help i would :)
    rocky1maged rocky1maged 16-17, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Last year, my addiction to cutting myself had

    begun. I would cut myself in the shower, locked in a bathroom at school or at home, and anytime I felt that I was losing grip. I doubt it would have really mattered where I was. At that time, I had lost an incredibly important person in my life. I was a senior at one of the most...
    nhammoud nhammoud 18-21, F 19 Responses Jan 23

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2012

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    Today, I was with the love of my life.

    ..he had his hand on my hip and at first he didn't notice. But he rubbed his hand over it a little and said "What are those?" Of course, I said nothing. But he knows I cut. He immediately grabbed me and held me and told me everything will be ok, and his voice sounded funny, so I...
    ArtistLove16 ArtistLove16 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    A Poem.

    An empty room, an empty girl Sitting silently on the floor Her sleeve rolled up, exposing skin She drags the blade and presses in The pain it brings cannot compare To the joy she knows will soon be there It's worth the scars that never heal For just a moment, not to feel
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    Been doing this since I was 13- I was clean

    for three years but relapsed my sophomore year of college. I've been hospitalized three times. I think I'm getting worse but unlike past relapsed I haven't told a soul.
    adorabletwist adorabletwist 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Cutting: A Love/Hate Relationship

    I love it. The sweet, relaxing sting of the blade. The bright red blood that drips out. But I know I need to stop and I always tell myself to. But every night, I convince myself to do it. And in that moment, it's beautiful and calming, and I'm happy. Then I go back to being...
    sunny1818 sunny1818 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I was thinking about cutting

    after an emotional day...not wanting to do it for once, just thinking about it in general. And i wrote this. If someone were to ask me why I cut, I could answer it in a million different ways. Because there isn't just one reason, it's not a simple explanation like some people...
    ArtistLove16 ArtistLove16 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    I'm two weeks clean today .

    My wrist is begging to be open . I need to cut & I don't even know why anymore . I do because I have to . It's like my mind is making me . I do it if I eat or slip up or get yelled at . I do it just to make sure I'm actually alive . It's a struggle everyday & I just want to take...
    awkwardprincess98 awkwardprincess98 16-17, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    starve to see blood, to run a razor over my

    skin, and it takes over any strength I have to say no. A smile appears on my face as soon as I cut. I want to go deeper, see more blood, I want the thrill of hitting my vein and dying. I feel so alone, I cant take the pain anymore, I feel so empty and worthless all the time...
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    It's truly sadistic how much I love the sight

    of my own blood. I don't think I will ever be able to overcome this addiction. How I've progressed into this so forcefully over the last 2 years is truly horrifying. I don't know what to do anymore...
    FreeMyHeart FreeMyHeart 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I physically can not stop.

    I won't let myself not do it, I deserve it
    deadinside0220 deadinside0220 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I want to tell someone I cut

    but I don't know how to start or what to say, please help!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 13-15, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 11

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    She developed an addiction Nevertheless to a

    prescription Furthermore, she was enticed By an invisible vice That no one could see Or did they just not want it to be? She can’t look at herself anymore Not to say that she could before To open the door, she twist the knob Only to lock it shut just to sob She’s nothing to...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I have been self harming

    for a long time, not exactly sure how many years but it started in elementary school. I never realized those was self harm tendencies till not too long ago. As a child when I got mad or upset I'd hit myself in the legs and arms very hard, I'd dig my fingernails into my skin, I'd...
    trippyprincess trippyprincess 13-15, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    neverthoughtiwould neverthoughtiwould 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I started self harming at the age of 13.

    I'm 16 now, and still continue every know and then when I feel like things are just too much. But what really makes me mad is when people assume we self harm for attention. If we wanted attention, why would we be hiding the cuts and scars we don't want people to find out about...
    thatonecheerleader thatonecheerleader 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    deadinside0220 deadinside0220 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It has been about 3 years now

    and I am still self-harming. I have tried time and time again to quit, but I can't. Every time I try, something happens and I just go back to the self-harm. I need help...
    xxbrokengirl98xx xxbrokengirl98xx 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm having some issues right now.

    I don't think Sam (the guy I've been talking to) really wants to talk to me anymore. I think he's just waiting for prom to be over with and then he's gonna leave... I really want to cut right now but I'm trying to quit. I just don't know what to do.
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 10 hrs ago

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    Abuse

    She never smiles, her pain she hides. She stares blankly, only in herself she confides. she doesn't let anyone in, too afraid to take the risk. If you looked, you'd see the bruises, the scabs and the scars on her wrist. She has been abuse for too long. Insanity has taken it's...
    RecoveringAddict RecoveringAddict 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    5 days clean all down the drain.

    Well atleast I feel better now.
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Not often. Just when I have a really bad day,

    which have been less and less. But I think about it a lot and sometimes I just want to but I have enough self control to say no thankfully. But since I kind of (kind of) understand if anyone wants to talk I'm here :)
    heyguysss heyguysss 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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