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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,985 People

    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2015

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    whenever someone mentions self harm I tense up

    worried they'll find out my secret
    tamzin100 tamzin100 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 24, 2015

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27, 2015

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    I'm fighting the urge to cut

    so bad, cuz tonight it ain't no telling how deep I might go.
    quietlucy quietlucy 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Just f**ked up. Ruined all of my hard work not

    doing it. I just give up... whats the point, all I ever do is just **** up? What's the point to keep continuing whatever I am doing. I'm just losing this whole battle, now I am just throwing in the flag...
    IWillGo IWillGo 18-21, F Aug 3, 2015

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    I'm gonna try to explain the feeling,

    okay, so you know how when you know you have to take a bandaid off? How when you start taking it off, it kinda hurts, but you know you have to? But once you take it off you feel so much better, and free? That's exactly what it feels like
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    I'll be honest. I've never had the urge to cut.

    I prefer to play with fire. It's something about the flame hitting my skin makes me feel, I don't know, I guess, better. I know it's a terrible coping method, but I guess I could be doing worse.
    AverageWeirdo AverageWeirdo 13-15, M Feb 5

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    I miss it. I miss it every day.

    Every day, I make the decision to not cut myself over and over again. And I'm tired of making it. I have razors in my room for the day I need them again, my most reliable friends. For a long time, they were my only comfort. So much so, that nothing else helps. There are no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 4, 2015

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    she sat in her room cutting her wrist.

    she didnt know why or for what but she just knew she had to cut
    blossomingangel blossomingangel 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    I am scratching myself

    and I don't care
    enguyen619 enguyen619 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I wore short sleeves today

    for the first time in months. I didn't even think about it. I looked down eventually, and realized that my scars are barely visible now. Thank goodness. For some people they don't go away, and they're nothing to be ashamed of. I'm just glad that they aren't going to be something...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M Jan 23

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    Went to dinner with some friends tonight

    and we talked about the hashtag "cut for Zayn" and half way through someone started showing pictures of what it looked like and thankfully my friend was like, "no, thats really triggering for people, put it away." but it was too late and now I'm supper triggered. Trying not to...
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F Jan 23

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    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly 13-15, F Jan 24

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    So.. Finally after about 3-4 months my partner

    saw cuts on my arm this morning. I dont understand how he didnt see it sooner because its not like i was een trying to hide them. Now I feel like im even more invisible and unimportant than usual.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2015

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    I can't even stay clean

    for one freaking day. I don't think I'll ever get over this
    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    My mom just found out

    that I self harm tonight. I went to practice earlier today and one of my friends saw my wrist and she told my mom. My mom walked into my room and demanded to see my wrists. Well, automatically I broke down in tears. She asked me why, and how, and when it started. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 4, 2015

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    It was the cat, I swear.

    I burnt myself on the stove, I swear. I'm fine, I swear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    I self harm a lot. I hate my parents

    and bullies. I care about my future and I want to be an attorney. I battle with depression.
    sievert sievert 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    I have cuts all over mu left leg,

    and they itch really badly.
    selfharmer101 selfharmer101 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    slit your wrist and cut your thighs.

    fake a smile and dry your eyes.hate yourself and hate your life wlcome to my world of lies
    blossomingangel blossomingangel 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 16-17, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I am fighting the erge to cut

    as deep as possible I keep screwing everything up the people I care about more than life are walking away I just feel like I'm worthless
    JClove33 JClove33 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    a poem for you My battle scars are dark

    and mental, hard to find with the naked eyes. The cuts u see up my arms are nothing compared to the gashes u'd find running down my thighs. You might be startled to observe the violent side to the imaginary conversations of my silent mind, Praying for sleep but too afraid to...
    quietlucy quietlucy 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    A reminder of my place in this world.

    Weak, sad and pathetic. Clean for only about 2 weeks. Trigger? The thought of facing people from the past. Having to admit and face my failures. Realising what an embarrassment I am. Seeing the expectations in other people's eyes that I don't meet. Etc etc etc... Day 0 starts...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    llIPanadIll llIPanadIll 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Last night I ruined it my clean streak.

    I wish it was so addictive. I'm a mess
    jess965 jess965 13-15, F Jan 25

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I just started to self harm a few days ago.

    ..my parents still don't know... It burned like my arm was on fire but I liked the pain...i don't know why I do this to myself...i don't know why I'm typing this whatever you don't care...bye
    LonleyWolf99 LonleyWolf99 16-17, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2015

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    People self harm for different reasons.

    For some it's for attention. For others out there, like many of my close friends, other EPers and me, it helps. We do not seek for your attention. We do not take photos of our scars and post them on Facebook. We fight internally, every day and every night. If you gave us a...
    ThatPyroChick ThatPyroChick 16-17, F Jan 25

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I managed to stop cutting

    for almost 2 years... now because of where im living... who i am living with... i have started again and ive also started drinking almost daily. i dont usually drink so for me to be doing this is very out of character. i want to stop but i feel i cant survive without either of...
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Relapse after three months clean.

    I'm disappointed in myself.
    consciousmindlessness consciousmindlessness 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Trying to cope with this knot in my chest

    without cutting myself, so I'm heading to the gym again. What do you do if you don't want to cut but you feel like you're on the edge? Because cutting and smoking are the only things that seem to alleviate the weight now a days. Happy Monday.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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