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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 2,234 People

    How confused you must be.

    Finding love in the blood that you bleed.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 6

    I'm tired. I have trouble sleeping.

    I'm stressed and pretty depressed. I can't get the urge to cut out of my mind. I need a cigarette. Or a bottle of wine. Or my boyfriend. I miss my boyfriend. I'm sad. That's all.
    Kodokuna Kodokuna
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 10

    When a person says your stupid

    for cutting ect. that person doesn't know how much pain you are in and how hard your battle is..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 2

    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

    I have been 3 weeks clean

    but my urges are so strong that i might break it.
    ieatmexicans ieatmexicans
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 15
    Gay3aaa Gay3aaa
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 25

    I just found a razor blade

    and relapsed again. The fact that I have a blade in my possession again terrifies me but at the same time makes me feel more secure, more safe. I know I should get rid of it but I won't be able to bring myself to do that. I've spent so long numbing the depression and anxiety...
    love11915 love11915
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 8

    Im going to self harm.

    For the fitst time in months
    deej200 deej200
    36-40, M
    1 Response Mar 26

    Yesterday I started going back to cutting

    but this time it's deeper and worse then before... But who cares.. I need the pain, it makes me feel.. Human and Alive
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    So today I cut myself

    for the first time in several years. In a way I kind of feel bad about it, but in another way I don't. It's like, I know it is something I shouldn't do, but when the choices are cut my leg or cut my throat.... Whatta ya do? My life is just so stressful. My marriage is in the...
    AbiAndrews AbiAndrews
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Apr 1

    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 5, 2015

    I burned my self and i regret it

    and im avraid how the people around me will react to this, heres a pic do you think this will leave big scars? Or wil it heal good? Please help me if it heals good il just hide it untill its healed
    Adeadmanwalking Adeadmanwalking
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Mar 20

    I screwed up last night.

    ..... I cut pretty bad last night and I feel really bad about it now.
    jvanalstine15 jvanalstine15
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 31

    started again today. I can't think

    why I stopped. the only issue is scarring and having to hide it.
    madeline979 madeline979
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 13

    its gotten to a point

    where the pain itself is soothing and pleasant.
    selkieteeth selkieteeth
    22-25, T
    Mar 10

    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2015

    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 20, 2013

    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 8, 2012

    I've been having a really rough time

    as of late with my depression and loneliness and i told myself i would never self harm until i realized that me with holding food so id be hungry and with holding sleep because i deserved it because i was unhappy was a form of self-harm. i.... did something else a couple days...
    HPlover3949 HPlover3949
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 2

    I've reset my recovery.

    it's now been 0 days. but I feel good now... I feel alive. Might sound a little sadistic lol.. but cutting does help. I've fighting two sides of viewpoints here though. My sometimes desire to recover fully, and my constant side that wants to hurt me every day. Don't know which...
    Mau5ington Mau5ington
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 14

    I stab myself with needles.

    Some places bleed alot some not so much. Once I spurted blood, kind of scary but I wanted to do it again...
    NekkidJoe NekkidJoe
    56-60, M
    Mar 15

    If you're sad, please read this.

    I stopped cutting on May 16, 2015. I relapsed once last month. But honestly, I'm surprised I made it this far without killing myself. I give my thanks and my life to the anti-depressants. However, even after I started taking them, the urge to cut was hard to overcome, just like...
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 18

    Scratched and punched the **** out of my leg,

    rammed my head into the wall, forgot to eat all day, not motivated enough to drink water. Over nothing!!!! My fav
    selkieteeth selkieteeth
    22-25, T
    Mar 5

    As much as I hate to admit

    but I miss see the cuts and the blood on my left wrists but since I promise not to harm again, I feel like I'm gonna explode into pieces again..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 9, 2015

    A site that I have found

    that I might look into after EP is closed is http://www.supportgroups.com/ . It seems to have categories similar to this one. I may not join, but if people were looking for support in this area after EP, this might be an option.
    Myzery Myzery
    31-35, F
    Apr 11

    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2014
    js246 js246
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 28

    I'm gonna try to explain the feeling,

    okay, so you know how when you know you have to take a bandaid off? How when you start taking it off, it kinda hurts, but you know you have to? But once you take it off you feel so much better, and free? That's exactly what it feels like
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 6, 2015

    I'm rather disappointed in myself,

    seeing as before today, I had gone almost FOUR MONTHS (November 8!) since self-injuring. But today, I broke my proud streak and self-injured myself again, and I can't stop. Every time I leave class, I run to the restroom and do it over and over. Midterms have me so stressed that...
    Boulier Boulier
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 1
    Mau5ington Mau5ington
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 27

    I stopped about three months ago.

    Stopping was not fun, and it didn't make my life any better, tbh. I've started again, because I just got a new box cutter. And because my life was hell when I stopped and I had no other satisfactory way of letting out my feelings.
    022qwert 022qwert
    18-21, F
    Mar 16

    I miss it. I miss it every day.

    Every day, I make the decision to not cut myself over and over again. And I'm tired of making it. I have razors in my room for the day I need them again, my most reliable friends. For a long time, they were my only comfort. So much so, that nothing else helps. There are no...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 4, 2015

    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

    Trying to cope with this knot in my chest

    without cutting myself, so I'm heading to the gym again. What do you do if you don't want to cut but you feel like you're on the edge? Because cutting and smoking are the only things that seem to alleviate the weight now a days. Happy Monday.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jul 20, 2015

    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2015

    I used to cut back when I was a teenager

    but I stopped round about the time I turned 16. For the past two weeks the urge to start again became to feel overwhelming and on Monday I just stopped fighting. Honestly I don't regret it. I know a lot of people may not agree with me on this one but I felt some emotional...
    TheGirlFromJupiter TheGirlFromJupiter
    18-21, F
    Mar 2

    It was the cat, I swear.

    I burnt myself on the stove, I swear. I'm fine, I swear.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2015
    Piercedprincess17 Piercedprincess17
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Apr 9

    Just f**ked up. Ruined all of my hard work not

    doing it. I just give up... whats the point, all I ever do is just **** up? What's the point to keep continuing whatever I am doing. I'm just losing this whole battle, now I am just throwing in the flag...
    WentAway WentAway
    18-21, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    I punch myself. A lot.

    Usually on my arms. Once I get into it I can actually hit quite hard. Often I'll just focus on one spot and hit it repeatedly. After a while the bruises start to show, but I like bruises so I almost never try to hide them. Sometimes instead of the arms I'll punch myself in the...
    ZeroShadow ZeroShadow
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 12

    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jun 7, 2014
    Laceyxv Laceyxv
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    I used to self-harm mostly during my middle

    school years. I've never cut myself before but I used to hit myself into things really hard and punch walls and break some stuff in my house when I'm sad or angry. I don't do that anymore, I've become alot more patient and calm through the months, but although I could still get...
    Tagstar2000 Tagstar2000
    13-15, M
    Mar 18

    punchin myself in the head is instantly calming

    bc of that dazed feel after lol **** me
    selkieteeth selkieteeth
    22-25, T
    Mar 26

    Ah yes, after 3 refreshing weeks of being clean.

    Anytime I see my cuts, or scars, I have a nostalgic moment of remembering the great feeling of being a little girl with no worry in the world. What happened.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Sep 30, 2015

    I made it 3 months which is the longest I've

    ever gone but I'm worried about that. When I was younger, my moms boyfriend would hold me down and cut up my arms and then burn them. He wouldn't stop until I agreed with everything he was saying about me. Things like "I'm worthless, no one cares about me, and that I deserve it...
    Blurryface5936 Blurryface5936
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 15
    sm1ttay sm1ttay
    16-17, M
    5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

    I need help or someone to talk to

    as I'm not doing very good at the moment
    ct1991 ct1991
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 13

    My mom just found out

    that I self harm tonight. I went to practice earlier today and one of my friends saw my wrist and she told my mom. My mom walked into my room and demanded to see my wrists. Well, automatically I broke down in tears. She asked me why, and how, and when it started. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Oct 4, 2015

    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

    I want to cave. When I'm awake with my thoughts

    like this I just want to give in and watch the blood. Whether I scratch or scrape or cut... It doesn't matter. But I've been trying to resist, for my fiancé. Tonight I don't want to try anymore though. Just give up.
    twistedxalice twistedxalice
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 14
    sm1ttay sm1ttay
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

    I wore short sleeves today

    for the first time in months. I didn't even think about it. I looked down eventually, and realized that my scars are barely visible now. Thank goodness. For some people they don't go away, and they're nothing to be ashamed of. I'm just glad that they aren't going to be something...
    starling156 starling156
    18-21, M
    Jan 23

    I'm craving to slit my skin open right now.

    .. it's so strong and it came out of nowhere.
    Mau5ington Mau5ington
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 15
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