Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,313 People

    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm afraid to tell an one I broke w promise I

    ment to keep but I could handle it
    XximalonexX XximalonexX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 13

    Your Response

    Cancel

    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    hxlils hxlils 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Today my sister was talking to my brother how

    she wanted to kill her self today .. I was gonna kill my self but I can't cuz I need to be here for her just a little bit longer
    painfullyloving painfullyloving 16-17, F Jan 16

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel
    greysluver greysluver 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 14

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 16-17, F 11 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My mom saw a huge scar running from my wrist

    halfways to my elbow and she said that if I stop cutting I could get a tattoo next Christmas.
    greysluver greysluver 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel
    suicidalwreck suicidalwreck 16-17, F Jan 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    violetwinters violetwinters 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

    Your Response

    Cancel

    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I self harmed thinking it would help

    and tbh it did and I've been told it doesn't by people who've never been sad or depressed in the way I have. I've also told my mom and she took me to the hospital which made me trust her even less with my secrets.
    WorthlessXlove WorthlessXlove 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 9

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My friends say I should tell my mom

    that I cut, but she's the real reason that I do it. I can't find any other way to get out all the hurt I'm feeling so cutting is my only option right now
    lizzieso815 lizzieso815 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    i really want to cut.

    but my new therapist (who i don't really like) made me promise not to. but right now that promise can't stop me because i am going through HELL.
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    BeautifulBeginnings BeautifulBeginnings 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    As long as my boyfriend is in the same room,

    I cannot self harm. I need him to go so I can hurt myself. I am desperate for release. He got what he wanted, now I have to self harm. I need him to leave!
    BloodRedRiver BloodRedRiver 22-25, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I still cut, I am drunk on my self-hatred,

    and the scars are the stars in my sky tonight.
    tooscaredtocare tooscaredtocare 18-21, F Jan 13

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I didn't know what I was doing

    until it was too late. I just wanted the pain to stop. The pain never really stops. It just gets sucked in and it makes room for the new physical pain. But as soon as that pain starts to fade away the pain hits back with such force that it overwhelms me. Last night I spend most...
    hxlils hxlils 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I had been doing so well in recovery from

    self-harm for almost 5 years. And then a bomb was dropped. I found out that my little sister, who I went to inpatient treatment for (for self-harm and an eating disorder) is getting married. It may not sound like a big deal, but she's 19. And her fiancé? 32 going on 33. She...
    doggiemom90 doggiemom90 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 6

    Your Response

    Cancel

    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hospitalised 8 times

    now 😒 people say I cut too deep but my body is covered in scars, so what is deep
    ragedstoner ragedstoner 13-15, M 12 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    hi guys. so, i'm in a bit of a pickle.

    i cut and still wear short-sleeves (i'm not totally sure why). anywho.... i'm meeting with one of my new professors tomorrow to discuss my asperger's with him. i made a pretty insane cut on my arm (it's long and really obvious). he already said that what ever i tell him...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm going to end up hurting myself again soon.

    Maybe I can wait out today, but it's only a matter of time.
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 16

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A few days a go I had been 3 months clean

    but I ruined it. I became so frustrated and anxious and I had to cut, and when I did, I ended up cutting too deep. I freaked out and my mom drove me to the hospital and I had to get stitches and I was put on a different anti-depressant. I can't believe I ruined my 3 months clean...
    originalitydied originalitydied 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've been trying soooooooooo hard lately

    and I haven't cut myself in a few weeks already. The reason is for an important event but it has been so damn hard I can't even tell you. I'm just about going crazy because I haven't been able to cut to take the stress away from a few things in my life right now
    lovelyy25 lovelyy25 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Why am I such a screw up?

    At least I know I can do one thing... Haven't cut this deep in a while so it stings a bit. I know the pain is the purpose, but I'm just here for the blood.
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I love seeing blood. Red,

    pretty, watery, blood. The voices tell me to cut deeper. I do. Until the blood soaks my hand. And I fall asleep. I love blood.
    geckolover22 geckolover22 22-25, F Jan 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My legs are probably going to stick to my

    blanket in the morning (because blood is the best glue), but who ******* cares?
    AzuraSkies AzuraSkies 16-17 3 Responses Jan 10

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've been itching to cut again

    for days. I was like clean for 5 months already. Now i snap rubber bands on my wrist to inflict pain but it still is not enough. Urgh. I really want to cut again.
    darkskulldeath darkskulldeath 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm doing something called ' the butterfly

    project ' you have to draw a butterfly on you write names of people you care about and let it fade away nataurly if u cut before its completely gone you kill it.... So before I drew the butterfly I cut about 12 more (like 24 more actually) then drew the butterfly I hope it helps...
    BiXwolfsXbears BiXwolfsXbears 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Relapsed the other day.

    I cut a J into my knee, just like my best friend who relapsed and cut an E into her thigh
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 2 Responses