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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,708 People

    I self harm and yet I'm not ashamed of my scars

    nor do I hide them any more. I used to cut on my arm till one drunk night I cut so deep I gave my self permanent nerve damage in my left arm. after that night I started cutting my chest. witch all the scars look like I've been in some knife fights. I haven't cut in awhile. yet I...
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M a week ago

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I feel like a ******* psycho!

    I'm with my family at breakfast and I don't have my knife on me. this is such a ****** feeling, I don't even know how to process it.
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    Relapsed the other night.

    I used a rope and rubbed it back and forth over my ankle...didn't think I went as deep as I did. Now I can't wear shorts or go to the beach since it's so obvious of what it is :/ I hate myself.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 1 Response Aug 8

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    I miss it. I miss it every day.

    Every day, I make the decision to not cut myself over and over again. And I'm tired of making it. I have razors in my room for the day I need them again, my most reliable friends. For a long time, they were my only comfort. So much so, that nothing else helps. There are no...
    CigaretteEater CigaretteEater 18-21 Jul 4

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    I only do it every couple of years,

    it seems. But lately it's frequent. Not enough to do major damage or leave big scars. I can't afford to have anyone find out right now. I guess that's a good thing because it keeps them small
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M Aug 4

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    i am feeling very restless

    and have so many thiugbts rright now. the main one which i cannot seem to shake is how badly i want to selh harm. its all i think about i dont know how to shake it.....
    rachlin50 rachlin50 22-25, F Aug 4

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    tamzin100 tamzin100 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    I want to cut again so ******* badly.

    I'm dying to use that razor on my skin and see all that blood. It's been months. I need a breather. But I'm sick of disappointing my fiancé. I don't know what to do anymore.
    NikkiWeasley NikkiWeasley 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    One night about 1 year ago,

    I stabbed myself in the thigh twice to self harm. I was cutting my wrist with a razor, then I realised I wanted to feel more pain so I snuck into the kitchen, grabbed the biggest knife there was and went outside. At that point I was texting my friend telling her I was about to...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    If we cut for attention,

    why do we try so hard to hide it? You don't understand it unless you've been through the things we have. <3
    MemoryLane1137 MemoryLane1137 16-17, F 1 Response May 11

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    I'm early 20s and self harm

    when I feel very overwhelmed by emotion or my surrounding. Not often but it is something I've struggled with for years. Since puberty. Just sayin I'm here if anyone needs a strangers support. (:
    Lhokw Lhokw 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    I tried to stop self harming

    and I went two weeks but then I did it again last night...
    dcook6 dcook6 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    I guess I can say I used to,

    I've been clean or whatever the word is for a **** loadda time maybe a few months (probably jyxned myself and will probably do it tonight cuz jynxs suck the Pokemon and the thing)
    SpiritOfOrpheus SpiritOfOrpheus 16-17, M Aug 2

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    I just started to self harm a few days ago.

    ..my parents still don't know... It burned like my arm was on fire but I liked the pain...i don't know why I do this to myself...i don't know why I'm typing this whatever you don't care...bye
    LonleyWolf99 LonleyWolf99 16-17, F 7 Responses Jun 13

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    I did it three times in a day last weekend.

    I don't know what's happening, everything has gone to ****. I'm falling apart
    xGNFx xGNFx 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 1

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I relapsed yesterday

    after like a month or so. It's been rough lately, and I don't really know what to do about it anymore
    keshanahr keshanahr 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I've been clean from cutting myself

    for 10 weeks now. The urges are only getting worse but I keep telling myself it's not worth losing all my progress. As I was watching this movie, I was struggling with the urge to go get a blade, so I started scratching the top of my hand. It's not bleeding, but it does have a...
    Todashiko Todashiko 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    It was the cat, I swear.

    I burnt myself on the stove, I swear. I'm fine, I swear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 1

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    My mom found out about the self harming

    and is now always looking for scars and cuts. So I have found another way. Stuff like staying up till really early morning, not drinking enough water and then holding my hands in boiling water can do the trick. Also walking on burning hot asphalt or sharp stones can help...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    cheesecrackers99 cheesecrackers99 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I self harm . buts its been a long while

    since I have.. yet right now I could cut deeper then I ever have.. I just keep screwing up my life . digging a hole deeper and deeper.. to the point I am now were I just want to end it all.. I try telling my self its all gonna be OK.. it will get better. then I mess up again...
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 4

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I found a new way to self harm

    and it has went unknown plz don't try it could get u really sick but I don't care
    wolf124 wolf124 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    I haven't cut in a few months

    but something about today really set me off...I only ha r one cut and it's not that bad but I promised my friend I wouldn't and she told me if u cut she would cut ans she cuts really deep and I don't wanna tell her I cut cause shell cut and I ca.t say anything otherwise...but I...
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    Laceyxv Laceyxv 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Just f**ked up. Ruined all of my hard work not

    doing it. I just give up... whats the point, all I ever do is just **** up? What's the point to keep continuing whatever I am doing. I'm just losing this whole battle, now I am just throwing in the flag...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F Aug 3

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    Just bought my first lighter,

    I've been using matches so far
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    Damnit. cut again today

    after a month. thankfully their not deep, but still a whole month.
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M Aug 3

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    Started when I was 14.

    . Now I'm 18 but still can't stop
    Sayuri96 Sayuri96 18-21, F Aug 15

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    ****, three days in a row.

    I guess I'm back to a bad habit. I've had to wear a bunch of bracelets because it's summer and I can't wear long sleeves. If anyone here can help me figure out how to cover them up please let me know. I have no idea what to do. When I'm doing it, I'm not thinking clearly...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 6

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