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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,459 People

    All I want to do is cut

    and cover my body in cuts so I can look at them and see what I deserve. I don't like it when they heal. I want then their permenantly. I need more.
    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant 18-21, F Mar 17

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    when I get so angry and pissed

    that I want to hurt something, I have to hurt myself because I know that if I break anything in this house my aunt will have my ***.
    beautifulhybrid beautifulhybrid 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    The pain feels really good right now.

    I'm probably just being overdramatic or whatever but I'm not having a good night, not even for any particular reason. Things are just generally ****** right now.
    SheSaid15 SheSaid15 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    I have an appointment soon,

    so I gotta keep my arms clean, but recently I've just felt like I /need/ to, it's so hard to ignore... I have things to district me but, doesn't seem to be working anymore
    TheUntrainedSubmissive TheUntrainedSubmissive 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    I have self harmed since I was about 15

    and it has steadily got worse. I hate the pain of self harm now although I think I used to use it to calm me down. It's better to feel physical pain than emotional pain. Now I still self harm when I can't cope with my emotions but the thing I like about it is my scars. I want...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    I tried again but i gotta stop

    because sometimes i say "one cut only" then it turns into one to two then three to four. I lose control when i cut myself sometimes. I sometimes don't get the support. Im mainly alone with no one to help me or talk to me sometimes. :/
    XxShyGirlxx XxShyGirlxx 13-15, F Mar 17

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    I can't stop pinching my hands.

    Now they've turned blue and it feels like they're burning.
    StEaMa StEaMa 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    I wonder if any could love someone with

    as many scars as I have on my body..
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 6

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    I've been really really really struggling lately

    and have started self harming again
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    Life to me is pointless,

    the people you love will hurt you.. Even if they don't mean to. The person you want so bad to care won't because you're too ****** up or not good enough for them. You're left with nothing so you turn to that blade again. Will it ever get better? People keep saying yes, but my...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    Just spent a while calming down

    after I cut and purged, I feel so ashamed of my self because usually i bandage my cuts or stop the bleeding but I just laid there, is there really any reason for me to live? Does any one really care??
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I struggle with cutting myself,

    and I have cuts all over my entire body.
    Believera Believera 13-15, F Mar 16

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 16-17, F 11 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    I miss cutting myself

    but I can't because my parents hid blades from me
    lauj16 lauj16 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I had to cut , but not to deep,

    I start to bleed, I feel my pain start to drain. I cut my self, but not to deep for punishment ,because I am to blame, I had cut , but not to deep, to ease the the pain, I could not tame. I had to cut, but not to deep.
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M Mar 1

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    Been a month abstinent

    but today I cracked. I'm too weak for words.
    HansFizzlebeef HansFizzlebeef 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Shaywen Shaywen 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    i relapsed badly this time,

    i thought i would be ok
    fuckedupbacon fuckedupbacon 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    i pull my hair out.. started in age of 7 maybe

    earlier but i don't know for sure, now i'm about to turn 15 it hasn't stopped. No pity needed i'm not here for that, just want to talk
    browndeadeyes browndeadeyes 13-15, F Mar 6

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    I relapsed... not too badly but,

    I just can't pretend I'm okay anymore
    TheUntrainedSubmissive TheUntrainedSubmissive 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Its not something I would tell anyone.

    But seeing as I'm anonymous here, it feels easier to say. To be honest. At first, I didn't know what I was doing. I thought that self harm was normal. It seemed that way. Now its something that quite literally ruins me. I've gone from trying to get myself ill on purpose (as a 5...
    shhyoudontknowme shhyoudontknowme 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    I hit myself, I've always bruiced very easily

    so no one ever questions it... I used to cut myself but try to do things I dont have to explain instead.
    StEaMa StEaMa 22-25, F Mar 7

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18, 2014