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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 2,746 People

    A new burn on my shin,

    cuts on my shoulder and my wrist, and reopened a few older ones. Felt nice. Afraid for tomorrow night, when I probably won't get a chance for anything and also coincidentally when I'll need it so bad. I can't understand why people online always say 'don't hurt yourself you're...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 17

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Trigger warning!!! I did words today

    for the first time. I wasn't really thinking while I did it. It just kind of happened. They hurt like hell but atleast now I'm marked by how I am.
    Imjustdone Imjustdone 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    Earlier today I had struck myself in the

    forehead with my clenched up palm and I felt like I was seeing stars. I don't think I have a concussion, since it wasn't too hard, but I did hear a little knocking sound on my head. I don't think I have too many signs of a concussion. Sometimes I smack myself really hard in the...
    Iwanttofuckingkillmyself Iwanttofuckingkillmyself 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    7 weeks clean!! The thoughts are starting to

    stop and I am slowly becoming better at fighting the urges! Telling someone in person helped me a lot! The people here on ep also helped a lot and I want to thank all of you for being supportive of me! Hopefully I won't fall into the temptation I may have down the road but for...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    A Poem.

    An empty room, an empty girl Sitting silently on the floor Her sleeve rolled up, exposing skin She drags the blade and presses in The pain it brings cannot compare To the joy she knows will soon be there It's worth the scars that never heal For just a moment, not to feel
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    Extremely bad night..

    everything is running through my mind at once. :(
    MikBlack13 MikBlack13 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    Why is it always looked at

    so negatively? I don't think it's a bad thing at all. I think if you tell somebody cutting is a horrible thing to do, chances are you'll make them feel worse because they do it and then they'll go cut even more. Where as if you let them know you're there for them, and not...
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I probably shouldn't be cutting in the living

    room, where my dad could wake up and walk in on me at any moment but I'm past the point of really caring. I know he won't wake up. I know I can hide them. Blood doesn't exactly show up well on a black shirt. I'm sitting here. And so that's where I am. Getting risky. Used...
    TheRosesAreDead TheRosesAreDead 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I either drink or cut myself to sleep

    because I miss my love
    0love 0love 18-21 4 Responses Jul 22

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    Abuse

    She never smiles, her pain she hides. She stares blankly, only in herself she confides. she doesn't let anyone in, too afraid to take the risk. If you looked, you'd see the bruises, the scabs and the scars on her wrist. She has been abuse for too long. Insanity has taken it's...
    RecoveringAddict RecoveringAddict 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    And tonight We lay in tears Dragging the

    stainless steel down your wrist Watching your skin open up Watching the bloodshot red rush out Watching the pain you had, Slowly go away
    prettybr0wneyes prettybr0wneyes 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    I started self harming

    when I was about 9, but it sort of faded out. Maybe 6 months ago I started up again and this time around it's stuck. Sometimes, when something bad is happening I can calm myself down just by saying 'its fine, you can go cut/burn later'. I like bruising and burning cus they're...
    JustOldLight JustOldLight 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Someone. Idk. I need someone.

    I have I put it all out. Before I do something I'll regret. No. I won't. But could use help.
    SelfBattle SelfBattle 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Ok so this is more of a question.

    .. I'm going to Sarasota in 2 weeks but I wanna cut before I go.... But how do u hide cuts? I usually cut my stomach and wrists... I go to the pool as often as possible but idk... Should I cut somewhere else or...? And I'll probably have those cuts during my vacation
    LesboFourtrisShipper LesboFourtrisShipper 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    Today I saw a girl with cuts on her whists.

    I wanted to give her a hug :( but I can't talk to people .-.
    emotionalyana emotionalyana 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Started In Grade 6, Now I'M A Sophomore In High School

    I started self harming in 6th grade - my first year of middle school. I count myself lucky because I've never really been bullied... My self harm stemmed from self-hate, anxiety, depression, parental issues etc. It started with harsh snaps on my wrist and thighs with thick hair...
    TheCrookedYoung TheCrookedYoung 16-17, F 9 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F Dec 11, 2013

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    I finally told someone about my depression,

    anxiety and suicidal thoughts but I still can't get enough nerve to tell them I cut but I feel so much better to tell someone I know all of this!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 18

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    As hard as I try I can never escape the

    beautiful feeling of that beautiful red crimson running down my arm. No matter what I do my body craves that feeling of freedom I get every time I cut. I can't escape the need I feel for it, like some people need their drugs or alcohol, I need that razor, I love it and it is one...
    mmccarth mmccarth 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I gave myself a day and a half.

    A break from the physical pain. But tonight I needed it. Soooo now one one side there is a patch of cuts, none too deep, but enough to make it look like one big scrape. On the other side, there's a single cut, long and deep. For a minute or two, I didn't think I'd be able to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 19

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    Self harm isn't just a blade that's silver.

    Is silver tounge and cheek( of mice an men) it's the thoughts we let ruin us. It's what we forget. I think everyone self harms in some way. But ha I should keep in mind this feeling of happiness is just living it out! Live out every minute f happiness people live it !!
    SelfBattle SelfBattle 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I find self harming utterly stupid.

    Why don't you take a look at the bed you sleep on, the good you eat, the roof you have over your head. If you have problems why don't you just deal with them. Every scar you make is just another problem to deal with, another memory. If you self harm just stop and GET HELP.
    ChaoticCaroline ChaoticCaroline 13-15, F 15 Responses 4 days ago

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TearsBecomeSnow TearsBecomeSnow 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I had a dream a while ago,

    in which i was talking to myself, and i told myself that i loved locking myself away in the dark, running a blade across my skin and thinking about what it was that really made me bleed...
    GallowsBaby GallowsBaby 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Tonight marks five weeks

    since my last relapse! I realized telling someone helps a lot! It gave me someone to talk to that I knew in person!(I appreciated everyone here on ep, don't take me wrong) telling someone made me know that if I can gain the strength to tell someone my biggest secret, I can fight...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    I'm losing myself deeper

    and deeper to it. I feel so numb and depressed but at the same time I look happy and normal on the outside. But really all I want to do is to be at home in my room with my blade and just cut until I can finally feel something, even though the something is pain. It's better then...
    yourscarsarebeautiful yourscarsarebeautiful 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 18

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    I suffer from anxiety

    and depression and I get these mood swings that make me depressed and they get worse and worse everytime I have one. Today they got so bad I self harmed for the first time.. It hurt like hell but it made me forget about the depression so I kept cutting.. I didn't cut too deep...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 20

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    Last summer, I broke my own wrist on purpose.

    .. And I have the urge to do it again...
    KianaNicole1010 KianaNicole1010 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    People don't understand I don't do it to kill

    myself I do it to save myself
    sg123457 sg123457 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    Last year, my addiction to cutting myself had

    begun. I would cut myself in the shower, locked in a bathroom at school or at home, and anytime I felt that I was losing grip. I doubt it would have really mattered where I was. At that time, I had lost an incredibly important person in my life. I was a senior at one of the most...
    nhammoud nhammoud 18-21, F 17 Responses Jan 23

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3

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    I used to love harming

    now I don't like it but I'm still addicted to it and it truly helps. I just don't like the look on my arms and legs after.
    ruledbydepression ruledbydepression 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Tonight is just one of those nights

    where you feel depressed and lonely for no reason. Feeling like no one cares about you. Feeling like you're the other one in this world. I want to cry but the tears just don't come. I want a hug but no one is around. I need someone. I need something... and but I don't know what...
    aloneinsidehappyoutside aloneinsidehappyoutside 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I have a serious question.

    I'm getting a surgery done in my (girl area). Anyways I have several (deep) self harm scars than weren't there the last time I was under the knife. (A couple months ago). What do I tell the dr? I CANT hide them. Help!
    EvilSnowWhite EvilSnowWhite 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Have My Reasons

    Life is never easy, death is even harder. Through all my time I have only knowing pain. People always go on about how hard their life is. Many go on about how they would cut themselves if they lost their boy friend or girl friend. More say that those that self harm are attention...
    CrimsonSnow CrimsonSnow 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18

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    Not too long, a couple months.

    Never really bad either, but at one point not too long ago i decided to open up about it and tell my boyfriend. I never thought it would upset him as much as it did, and whenever we talk about it he seems to get kinda mad and gets this disapproving tone with me. I dont blame him...
    AngelWitAShotgun AngelWitAShotgun 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 18

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