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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,541 People

    I can feel it creeping back,

    when there is nothing to do thats all I think about. I cant control it anymore, and I can't hide it anymore, there is no one to lean on, no one that listens. I just need help, I have stopped for months, but now its different, he's back, I dont know whats going to happen.
    ImNoAngel99 ImNoAngel99 13-15, F 57 mins ago

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    iluvdlb iluvdlb 13-15, F 1 Response May 14

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I was clean for six months.

    Six freaking months. But I'm weak, and now I'm not. I feel ashamed, yet I have no intention of stopping. I'm giving up.
    BlackenedIrises BlackenedIrises 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Just carved F-AG into my hip

    because I'm so worthlessly stupid you wouldn't believe it. I have a bunch of bruises and I just couldn't stand feeling achy and gross anymore so I fixed it. Sort of. Anyway I'm not freaking out so much anymore, so there's that at least.
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    If we cut for attention,

    why do we try so hard to hide it? You don't understand it unless you've been through the things we have. <3
    MemoryLane1137 MemoryLane1137 16-17, F 1 Response May 11

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I haven't cut for 2 weeks

    and I relapsed it's so upsetting but at the same time I want more
    wolf124 wolf124 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    I can't go very long without cutting anymore.

    I get the urge to cut in the middle of class, and so I cut under the desk.
    WhereThereIsHope WhereThereIsHope 18-21, F 3 Responses May 12

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    I cut a few day ago and I don't know how I'm

    gunna cover them. My uncle invited my family down to the lake and my dad is making me go which means more of my family is going to be there and idk how to cover them I mean I've got a few bracelets but that won't cover them. HELP ME!!!!
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    How am I supposed to get these damn screws off?

    ! I'm going CRAZY! I have to cut! :(
    Lovelybaby18 Lovelybaby18 18-21, F 1 Response May 2

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    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    u know what. i feel like i derserve it.

    i feel like im failing everyone i feel like i shouldn't do it but i just ....... i don't know the right words for it but i feel like i derserve the abusiveness that my guardian throws at me or the lies my parents tell me or the backstabbing or the other little things that hurt...
    drowningandfalling drowningandfalling 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    Goodbye 4 days clean.

    ........ :'( waiting for my parents to leave the house so I can cut.
    Lovelybaby18 Lovelybaby18 18-21, F 3 Responses May 7

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    Drawing on myself really is therapeutic.

    I just can't do it around my bad scars because that tends to be triggering for me.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I can't stop it's getting

    so bad. I need help. My legs are getting so bad . I just can't stop this. I'm so empty.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So.. I just came on here.

    . Anyway. Yes I self harm.. If anyone needs help or someone to talk to message me. Please❤️
    HisPrincess343 HisPrincess343 13-15, F 1 Response May 7

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I've Been self harming

    since I was 8 and I was clean for one month until yesterday morning...I feel worthless
    EmRiddell EmRiddell 13-15, F 1 Response May 6

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    I've been pondering this.

    . am I stronger for not cutting or cutting?
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Today my dad got a glimpse of the cuts on my

    arm. I work hard to cover them up but sometimes my sleeve rolls up and one or two of them become visible. Even though we were at my cousins college graduation he took it upon himself to grab my left arm and yank it towards himself to get a better view, all the wile the entire...
    antihero98 antihero98 16-17, F 1 Response May 3

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 8 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I want to tell my friends

    who know about my past self harm problem that I'm cutting again so I can have some sort of support, some sort of freedom from this weight that's crushing me, but I'm scared they'll report me, get me sent to therapy again. I'm so torn.
    BlackenedIrises BlackenedIrises 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10, 2014

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    Am I stronger for not cutting

    or cutting? Which pain makes me stronger and better?
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    So yesterday I was going to cut my thighs with

    a brand new box cutter for the first time in months...after awhile of thinking things over and calming myself down....I finally decided that cutting myself again wasn't going to solve anything.... But then I stood up.... As I stood up from the chair the knife went into my boob...
    Nothingicandoaboutit Nothingicandoaboutit 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I don't do it to try

    and die, I don't do it to punish myself. I just do it to feel something other than emptiness. it never scars and doesn't always bleed but it makes me feel better and more alive
    tamsin100 tamsin100 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    You know my Name not my story.

    You see my smile but it's not real. You see me happy but I'm hurting. I self harm. Know one understands the struggle I go through to get up everyday... I hate the fact that people make fun of others for self harming or act like it's not a big de. Well it is. I also suffer from...
    Madimac Madimac 13-15, F 1 Response May 11

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    I recently turned 30,

    and I have self harming since 12 yrs of age, on and off. I've gone months to years without insistent. However, self harming s always there like a companion that is always be there to make you feel better, if you can't take any more. I will be honest, I have no intention of...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 26-30, F May 15

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Its a addiction that

    even i don't understand and its blood makes me excited am i crazy? That it does not horrid me?
    deaththinker911 deaththinker911 16-17, M 3 Responses May 14

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I sometimes find myself surprised

    that I didn't self-harm earlier on in my life because there’s so many reason why I would have; a) because giving myself physical pain could help suppress a much more powerful and destructive pain, emotion; b) pain can make it feel as though nothing else matters and all my...
    lunightandday lunightandday 18-21, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.