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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,450 People

    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    i pull my hair out.. started in age of 7 maybe

    earlier but i don't know for sure, now i'm about to turn 15 it hasn't stopped. No pity needed i'm not here for that, just want to talk
    browndeadeyes browndeadeyes 13-15, F Mar 6

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    That feeling when you cut deep

    and you start feeling a little dizzy and nauseous and when the bleeding stops you can see the thin violet vein(s)
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I hit myself, I've always bruiced very easily

    so no one ever questions it... I used to cut myself but try to do things I dont have to explain instead.
    StEaMa StEaMa 22-25, F Mar 7

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    NikolaTesla1 NikolaTesla1 70+, M Mar 13

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    I know it's bad but its the pain it makes me

    feel soooo good it makes me forget about all the dicks in my life
    silverstrike silverstrike 13-15, M Feb 26

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    Well, it's been about 2 weeks sense the last

    time I cut.Some would say self-harm is an addiction, and some would say it is a habbit. Either way, both are hard to break. But, they are very posible to end.Self-harm is a form of coping, but not a good one. It gives us a way to forget about our troubles and everything that is...
    screaminginshadows screaminginshadows 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I've had trouble with hurting myself

    since I was 13. I have tried to stop, and have succeeded for a while, but I find it nearly impossible to quit for good. Sometimes I think it's healthy, and I question why people wouldn't cut to release their pain. But other times I find that it's a downward spiral. Sometimes I...
    openskies441 openskies441 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Life to me is pointless,

    the people you love will hurt you.. Even if they don't mean to. The person you want so bad to care won't because you're too ****** up or not good enough for them. You're left with nothing so you turn to that blade again. Will it ever get better? People keep saying yes, but my...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    I just hate feeling alone

    and I hate being so insecure and all those rude comments just get to me sometimes.I've got cuts on my arms.I literally have no space to cut anymore and I just feel like I can't do anything anymore.It feels like I should give up.
    Lizebeth92813 Lizebeth92813 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    How I See Self Harm

    The pain we feel inside, it is worse than any form of physical pain, it eats at you from the inside. Ever feel like nothing is right? That there is no way out? This feeling it, has not words to describe it. It kills you inside, it feels like a never ending torture. So what is the...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    I was 3 watch my dad make swiping movements

    with a knife and then throw it .. don't think he cut but don't know.. its probably why when I needed an escape from the pain I went to a blade.. only memory I have of him before mom sent him packing..
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 28

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    I have been self harming on

    and off since I was 14. It started when my mum met her new fella but wasn't that bad. I then did it again when my friend passed away at 16. And have been battling with depression and anxiety ever since. I hate people who think we do it for attention as it is nothing like that...
    silentbe89 silentbe89 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    when I get so angry and pissed

    that I want to hurt something, I have to hurt myself because I know that if I break anything in this house my aunt will have my ***.
    beautifulhybrid beautifulhybrid 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    Yeah. Who would? Looks a bit gay no?

    Well guess what, he cuts himself because you people make him do it. He cuts himself because of your atrocities and bullying. Because of your ignorance and hate. You made him hate himself and now he finds the solution in the blood and in the scars he have. You, society, are the...
    YoureMyDemonMyDemise YoureMyDemonMyDemise 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Telling someone who self-harms to "just stop

    doing it" is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing
    blondechick0130 blondechick0130 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    I had to cut , but not to deep,

    I start to bleed, I feel my pain start to drain. I cut my self, but not to deep for punishment ,because I am to blame, I had cut , but not to deep, to ease the the pain, I could not tame. I had to cut, but not to deep.
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M Mar 1

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I have an appointment soon,

    so I gotta keep my arms clean, but recently I've just felt like I /need/ to, it's so hard to ignore... I have things to district me but, doesn't seem to be working anymore
    TheUntrainedSubmissive TheUntrainedSubmissive 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I wonder if any could love someone with

    as many scars as I have on my body..
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 6

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    Its not something I would tell anyone.

    But seeing as I'm anonymous here, it feels easier to say. To be honest. At first, I didn't know what I was doing. I thought that self harm was normal. It seemed that way. Now its something that quite literally ruins me. I've gone from trying to get myself ill on purpose (as a 5...
    shhyoudontknowme shhyoudontknowme 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Relapse

    I was a week clean but I relapsed. I noticed with school and all, cutting my wrist will draw attention so I messed up my thighs. I feel like this is the only escape.
    alondraa alondraa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    The pain feels really good right now.

    I'm probably just being overdramatic or whatever but I'm not having a good night, not even for any particular reason. Things are just generally ****** right now.
    SheSaid15 SheSaid15 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I cut only where my watch covers it.

    There is a centimetre wide space on my wrist absolutely covered in cuts.
    alicebro alicebro 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    My cousin tells me I should do what she does

    and get tattoos and piercings and that's how I should get my self harm ... I didn't know I had money coming out of my *** to buy all these tattoos when I'm in pain that I want to cut ... Now I just have to hide them I guess
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    They keep finding my cuts

    so I tried burning but it was so painful!
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F Mar 6

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    god dang I'm so on the Verge right

    now of cutting the crap out of my self..
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 11

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    never have before I have a blade in hand

    but I am to scared to anyone wana help me out n convince me one way or another?
    killerjrm killerjrm 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 26

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    I don't do it because I'm sad

    or hate myself or whatever, because I don't. I just like the pain. I'm a weird person.
    b3ckaa b3ckaa 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    I struggle with cutting myself,

    and I have cuts all over my entire body.
    Believera Believera 13-15, F Mar 16

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    I tried again but i gotta stop

    because sometimes i say "one cut only" then it turns into one to two then three to four. I lose control when i cut myself sometimes. I sometimes don't get the support. Im mainly alone with no one to help me or talk to me sometimes. :/
    SkilletFan01 SkilletFan01 13-15, F Mar 17

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    I feel I always screw up

    and must punish my self.. so I do
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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