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I Self-harm

For those who self-harm and want to share their stories. 3,537 People

    And, after 7 years of self-harm,

    I came to the conclusion, I had to be a masochist. Every step I took from then on, confirmed that conclusion. I felt like I finally understood this part of me. It was allways confusion before that. Questions. Why? Why are you doing that? You shouldn't do it. But since that day...
    kami2 kami2 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    My Selfharm Story

    My names Brianna, my selfharming started when I was 13, then I never really understood what it was all about, but the more I read about it and seen pictures I then started to get an idea. It began when I was going with this boy, after a month into our relationship I told him that...
    briannaduffy briannaduffy 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I suppose I can leave this group now.

    I've been clean for just under 2 months and I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm at the best I've been for a while. It hasn't been hard. Funnily enough, the first step towards recovery was kickstarted when I attempted suicide. Hospitals aren't the nicest in the world, however, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I'm going to talk about something

    which is really important to me. I'm going to talk about self harm. This is serious. Self harm isn't a game. People like me don't do this for attention or something like that, no... We're just in pain. And we just need some help. We just want to live again. So please, If u know...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    and I'm only posting about this

    because i'm so fed up of being categorized as an attention seeker, an Emo, fed up of people telling me it's "only a phase" just because i'm 17. Yes, i understand part of my depression- and by depression i mean an actual clinical issue, i'm not a bit sad because my boyfriend...
    abiwakefield abiwakefield 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I Am Sad.

    I'm listening to slow, beautiful instrumental music in a darkly-lit room. I slowly roll back my sleeve, exposing my pale forearm. With one hand I hold my sharpest pair of scissors, and with the other I gently finger the blades, then open them wide. Bringing the fine point of the...
    noonewouldriotforless noonewouldriotforless 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    I think ppl should know

    that the words they say hurts the are as sharp as any blade :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10, 2014

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    Drawing on myself really is therapeutic.

    I just can't do it around my bad scars because that tends to be triggering for me.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    So.. I just came on here.

    . Anyway. Yes I self harm.. If anyone needs help or someone to talk to message me. Please❤️
    HisPrincess343 HisPrincess343 13-15, F 1 Response May 7

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    I Always Promise Myself It'll Be The Last Time.

    Hi, my name is Elan. And this isn't your typical self harm story, I never really had severe depression, I have always been so happy, so chatty, so giggly. But then, one day, in 2010 I think it was, something in me just snapped. It was my little brother's birthday and I realised...
    ellsbells99 ellsbells99 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    Just carved F-AG into my hip

    because I'm so worthlessly stupid you wouldn't believe it. I have a bunch of bruises and I just couldn't stand feeling achy and gross anymore so I fixed it. Sort of. Anyway I'm not freaking out so much anymore, so there's that at least.
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Butterfies

    I'm 16 years old and i started cutting myself at the top of my right thigh in the summer holidays of 2012, so not that long ago, 3 and a half months? god it feels like longer...i had been down for a while about many things in my life and had honestly thought about cutting myself...
    butterflies123 butterflies123 16-17 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I cut myself half because I'm depressed

    but half because I love doing it it makes me horny
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 25

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    I sometimes find myself surprised

    that I didn't self-harm earlier on in my life because there’s so many reason why I would have; a) because giving myself physical pain could help suppress a much more powerful and destructive pain, emotion; b) pain can make it feel as though nothing else matters and all my...
    lunightandday lunightandday 18-21, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Days clean: Purging- 1 Cutting- 1 Fraught off

    the urges all day. So tempted right now. Got a really stress inducing conversation right before I was about to go to sleep. Hopefully I can nod off before my mind starts playing tricks on me.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    I cut a few day ago and I don't know how I'm

    gunna cover them. My uncle invited my family down to the lake and my dad is making me go which means more of my family is going to be there and idk how to cover them I mean I've got a few bracelets but that won't cover them. HELP ME!!!!
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    u know what. i feel like i derserve it.

    i feel like im failing everyone i feel like i shouldn't do it but i just ....... i don't know the right words for it but i feel like i derserve the abusiveness that my guardian throws at me or the lies my parents tell me or the backstabbing or the other little things that hurt...
    drowningandfalling drowningandfalling 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    Cut again today after school.

    Why can't people just look past the way someone looks and dresses before they judge? It's kinda stupid.
    EmotionalEmoBoy EmotionalEmoBoy 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    If you don't understand my silence You will

    never understand my words.
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    How am I supposed to get these damn screws off?

    ! I'm going CRAZY! I have to cut! :(
    Lovelybaby18 Lovelybaby18 18-21, F 1 Response May 2

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    "If you're strong enough to draw

    that blade across your skin, if you're strong enough to take those pills when you think you're alone, if you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan, if you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend, you are strong enough, to live."
    indecisivebye indecisivebye 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    It's sad how a cold, lifeless,

    piece of metal can dictate so much of out lives. But I may not believe in myself, but I believe in all of you. Stay strong.
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    People dont understand

    why we cut and it makes me sick how people think, Oh your strong enough and ur weak minded. Its not true! We've been through A lot and we dont give a damn what u think!
    0R71 0R71 13-15 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    I'm trying the Butterfly Project.

    For any of you who don't know what it is: Its when you draw a butterfly on wherever you self harm, and you write a name of anyone who wants you to stop. You can't wash these butterflies off. If you cut while the butterfly is on your arm, it dies. If you don't, it lives.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I can't stop it's getting

    so bad. I need help. My legs are getting so bad . I just can't stop this. I'm so empty.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I can't go very long without cutting anymore.

    I get the urge to cut in the middle of class, and so I cut under the desk.
    WhereThereIsHope WhereThereIsHope 18-21, F 3 Responses May 12

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    I don't do it to try

    and die, I don't do it to punish myself. I just do it to feel something other than emptiness. it never scars and doesn't always bleed but it makes me feel better and more alive
    tamsin100 tamsin100 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    It has been roughly 3 minutes

    since I last cut .... Whoop whoop go me !!
    PurpleRose95 PurpleRose95 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I've Been self harming

    since I was 8 and I was clean for one month until yesterday morning...I feel worthless
    EmRiddell EmRiddell 13-15, F 1 Response May 6

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    I've been clean for a month now,

    pleased. Let's keep this going.
    worshipsleep worshipsleep 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    People that don't understand the feeling of

    self harm think it's 'disgusting' but they don't know how you really feel. Wanna know what it feels like? It's relief, relief from how you feel, takes your mind off things, it makes me feel human again. It's so wrong but it feels so right. It's a mental addiction. If anyone...
    cam2476 cam2476 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    One cut Two cuts Three cuts Four.

    .. The voice in my head whispers "Do one more." One turns to two and two becomes five Soon I've done so many I'm risking my life It's okay though Who would care if I'm gone Sure some would cry, but, they'd move on I slice a bit deeper feeling the pain My head swimming It's a...
    Trish12321 Trish12321 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I had a dream: I woke up on the couch at my

    Nana's house. The first thing on my mind was a razor blade. I got up and rummaged through my stuff, until my fingers found the little piece of metal who had become my only friend. This time would be just like the first. But when I pulled up my sleeves, showing my wrists in all...
    sincerelymetes sincerelymetes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    The solid flow in blood glides down my wrist

    For the reasons why I cannot list I live in silence, for I would yell But my life is one big secret I cannot tell The blood stained sheets, however, tell it all They tell the sleepless nights with no one to call With nowhere to hide And only one to confide The blood stops, but...
    Anyone5 Anyone5 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Am I stronger for not cutting

    or cutting? Which pain makes me stronger and better?
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I cut myself with a knife

    and say it was the cat. I vry myself to
    shmexylexy shmexylexy 13-15, F May 19

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    Goodbye 4 days clean.

    ........ :'( waiting for my parents to leave the house so I can cut.
    Lovelybaby18 Lovelybaby18 18-21, F 3 Responses May 7

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    My Self Harm Story

    First of all, I am a 34 year old Male and I Self Harm. I don't really know what led to this, but I have many factors. I have had Bipolar since I was young, and also had to deal with a lot, so any of those things could have been a factor I guess. My mother got severe brain...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    If we cut for attention,

    why do we try so hard to hide it? You don't understand it unless you've been through the things we have. <3
    MemoryLane1137 MemoryLane1137 16-17, F 1 Response May 11

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    You know my Name not my story.

    You see my smile but it's not real. You see me happy but I'm hurting. I self harm. Know one understands the struggle I go through to get up everyday... I hate the fact that people make fun of others for self harming or act like it's not a big de. Well it is. I also suffer from...
    Madimac Madimac 13-15, F 1 Response May 11

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    I recently turned 30,

    and I have self harming since 12 yrs of age, on and off. I've gone months to years without insistent. However, self harming s always there like a companion that is always be there to make you feel better, if you can't take any more. I will be honest, I have no intention of...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 26-30, F May 15

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    What I'm thinking right

    now is how I can harm myself. Maybe I should punch a brick wall or burn myself. Maybe just use my pocket knife or a razor. Choices Choices
    thatyoungmetalhead thatyoungmetalhead 16-17, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Today, I am 1 week clean,

    hopefully I can keep it up!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    I just self harmed after over a year of not

    doing it. I felt like I needed the release so I wouldn't do anything worse than that.
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F May 14

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    I haven't cut for 2 weeks

    and I relapsed it's so upsetting but at the same time I want more