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I Selfharm a Lot

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    I started to self harm 4 months ago.

    It was never suppose to be anything, the first time i did it i just did it to see how it felt. Then as things got worse, the selfharming increased. And now every time something bad happens to me, I turn to my razor for help.
    Xocathy Xocathy 26-30, F Dec 8, 2013

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    ilytatelangdon ilytatelangdon 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    My Scars

    I've been self harming for about 6 months now, and lately it's gotten worse. I use to just break the skin, now I cut deep. I've also began burning. I wish I had the courage to get help, I don't wanna live like this anymore, but every time I try to stop something happens to make...
    Kakepielovemuffin Kakepielovemuffin 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    I started cutting my wrists about a year ago

    and haven't been able to stop.I started because some stuff was going on at my home and I was being bullied at school.It started as just a "one time thing" and, then it went to just one more time,and then...well I started to do it every night.Now I keep a razor on me at all times...
    Tara13Webb Tara13Webb 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    Step By Step

    Hi im 17 years old and i only recently found this site , i thought about commenting on other peoples stories but then i decided it would better if i started off by telling my own first ! Im still in school and things have been hard but they are starting to look up , no matter...
    lucylux1x lucylux1x 18-21 1 Response Jan 24, 2012

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    i have been self harming

    for my whole life i remember a time when i was 3 and i got in trouble i ran to my room and started to scratch my arms my face any visible skin over and over until i saw blood.
    wolfiewarmheart wolfiewarmheart 18-21, F Feb 23

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    It Wasnt Soposed Too Get This Bad

    when i was little i thought people who did that kind of stuff too them selfs where grade a freaks but i have issues with alot my hole fam douse drugs besides me my mom my dad even my brother and with the stress of school it often became alot too deal with and on valtines day when...
    emogurl399 emogurl399 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 15, 2009

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    Death And Despair

    You start off one or two little scratches promising yourself that you won't ever hurt your body again , except from a week later when you do a few more then two days later then the next night, you forget that promise you made to yourself and become completly focused on that one...
    Constantserenity Constantserenity 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2013

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    Hi i'm Noah and i cut a lot

    but i hate the looks of sympathy i get in public any idea how to hide scars well a lot of scars? If you do message me please it would help a lot.
    NoahBarwell4 NoahBarwell4 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I cant stop... I dont know what to do.

    Im crying i hate my life
    PierceTheGreen PierceTheGreen 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    ok so im a cutter no I don't want help

    nor do I want to stop so pls don't give me the don't do it crap... ok so my Q is... I have some old scars that were fairly deep and I didn't put strips on them when I first did it so now they are not very neat and kinda gape open... if I was to cut over them and care for them...
    liveforthehigh liveforthehigh 31-35, F Dec 17, 2013

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    Relapse?

    My wrists are perfectly cleand but I'm feeling so bad and I'm so triggered right now that I want to grab a razor and slice my wrists.
    letmediepleasee letmediepleasee 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    Although

    less than I used to. I'm down to only one kind of self harm that i do regularly. And I think I've even skipped days (not often though). so, slow prgoress is still progress. But I don't tell anyone. People just don't understand that sort of thing. Unless they do it themselves...
    anadude anadude 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 11, 2009

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    Guys you will find me in these experience

    department quite a bit. When it comes to not being strong enough, whose definition are we using yours or somebody else who just doesn't get why we do what we do. Nobody who self-harms to me is a weak person and I will never say that anybody is, because I have been dealing with...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M Dec 16, 2013

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    It's Started Again and Now I Can't Stop & I'm Scared.

     My self harm used to be way over the top to the point that last year I nearly died. I managed to stop for 6 months but now the past two weeks I have started again - I am not doing it to kill myself or for attention, but I wish I hadn't started again as I know I always take...
    stcaradog stcaradog 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

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    Pain Is Killing Me

    I have 20 fresh cuts just from 3 days I'm slowly Dieing I'm to broken why can to just die I was ment to I almost died when I was born I should have died then I'm just one big misstake
    brokengirl3 brokengirl3 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Hi my name is Noah and i used to love life i

    smiled i laughed and i had tons of friends but i'm not sure what happend one day i woke up and i felt awful so i played it out for a few days but i didnt get better so my parents brought me to the hospital and i was diagnosed with severe depression and for all you people who...
    noahbarwell noahbarwell 70+, M Apr 3

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    Im Way Passed Pyscho

    You know how when u first started and said u would stop and you do then bamm 2 months later u get that razor out and just start attacking your skin. My arms would be cover in scars then ill make new ones and then people say i cant because of my race makes me feel so ... alone...
    NinaBlithe NinaBlithe 16-17, F May 16, 2013

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    Describe What It's Like To Cut.

    Well, go to the beach. And walk into the water blindfolded. You just keep walking, you don't know where you're going. You just know that you're going deeper. Depression has blinded you. All you know is you're going deeper. Now just keep going until you drown. You want air, you...
    WinterBlack WinterBlack 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 27, 2013

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    I'm not telling my story in this expirence

    or why I started to self harm, because to be quite honest I don't think I'm ready for that yet. I will only be sharing my expirence with my self harm at the moment. so it all started about a year and a half ago when a huge issue hit my life and I had no other way to cope. at...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    Sometimes it's just so hard to put down the

    razor, lighter, cigarette, knife, or whatever it is. I guess I'm just not strong enough.
    SummerLove13 SummerLove13 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2013

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    I Battle With Self-harm, Depression And Anxiety Everyday, Here's My Story

    When i was 5 my Parents decided to split up after years of arguments that me and My brother experienced, i remember the day clearly, my Dad was on the Doorstep crying his heart out, whilst my Mum was packing the Car infuriated, it was terrible i loved my parents so much at that...
    Mustangtiger Mustangtiger 16-17, F Aug 31, 2013

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    I cut and bruise a lot.

    I especially bruise in summer where I can play it off at least better than cuts. I've been on suicide watch at hospitals in the past. I don't know why I feel like a deserve this pain but I feel it's true and I'm okay with it because in the end it heals so much faster than the...
    alexvalen alexvalen 16-17, F Jul 9

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    I relapsed last Thursday. After over four months I couldn't take it anymore. The abuse, the bullying, the fuckups. I gave up and gave in. My mom found out that Monday because I...
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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26

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    I started selfharming August 27, 2013 It was just a few little scratches on my wrist and I liked it, so I kept doing it. They hardly even bled but it helped alot my mom saw them...
    Fatteristheshit Fatteristheshit 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    Well.. My mum doesn't really talk to me.. She's always busy with stuff.. I feel like she doesn't care about me :( I mean.. I selfharm and she doesn't know but I'm really afraid to...
    francesca12345 francesca12345 13-15, F 9 Responses Oct 11

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    Two years ago I discovered instagram. About a month after I started really getting into it, I came across this page owned by a girl around my age, a lot like me (depressed...
    mugzib mugzib 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    I can't handle things anymore... I always used to say SelfHarm was pointless and that you cause more damage to yourself... But lately I've felt like I've got the weight of the...
    misinka111 misinka111 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    Not much selfharming anymore because it became too noticable, so now it has been 3 attempts of overdosing and all i did was feel extremely sick. This happened all on my 'bad' days
    leavinginjuly leavinginjuly 16-17, F 3 days ago

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