I Selfharm a Lot

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 190 People

    Relapse?

    My wrists are perfectly cleand but I'm feeling so bad and I'm so triggered right now that I want to grab a razor and slice my wrists.
    letmediepleasee letmediepleasee
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2013
    apples93 apples93
    22-25, F
    Mar 12, 2015

    ok so im a cutter no I don't want help

    nor do I want to stop so pls don't give me the don't do it crap... ok so my Q is... I have some old scars that were fairly deep and I didn't put strips on them when I first did it so now they are not very neat and kinda gape open... if I was to cut over them and care for them...
    liveforthehigh liveforthehigh
    31-35, F
    Dec 17, 2013

    Although

    less than I used to. I'm down to only one kind of self harm that i do regularly. And I think I've even skipped days (not often though). so, slow prgoress is still progress. But I don't tell anyone. People just don't understand that sort of thing. Unless they do it themselves...
    anadude anadude
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 11, 2009

    I'm not telling my story in this expirence

    or why I started to self harm, because to be quite honest I don't think I'm ready for that yet. I will only be sharing my expirence with my self harm at the moment. so it all started about a year and a half ago when a huge issue hit my life and I had no other way to cope. at...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout
    13-15, F
    1 Response Aug 3, 2014

    Sometimes it's just so hard to put down the

    razor, lighter, cigarette, knife, or whatever it is. I guess I'm just not strong enough.
    SummerLove13 SummerLove13
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 15, 2013
    xxcourtxxqueen xxcourtxxqueen
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 29, 2015

    well... i've cut my veins.

    hoping i'll die soom
    kelleh kelleh
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

    Guys you will find me in these experience

    department quite a bit. When it comes to not being strong enough, whose definition are we using yours or somebody else who just doesn't get why we do what we do. Nobody who self-harms to me is a weak person and I will never say that anybody is, because I have been dealing with...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell
    41-45, M
    Dec 16, 2013

    It's Started Again and Now I Can't Stop & I'm Scared.

     My self harm used to be way over the top to the point that last year I nearly died. I managed to stop for 6 months but now the past two weeks I have started again - I am not doing it to kill myself or for attention, but I wish I hadn't started again as I know I always take...
    stcaradog stcaradog
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2009

    It Wasnt Soposed Too Get This Bad

    when i was little i thought people who did that kind of stuff too them selfs where grade a freaks but i have issues with alot my hole fam douse drugs besides me my mom my dad even my brother and with the stress of school it often became alot too deal with and on valtines day when...
    emogurl399 emogurl399
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 15, 2009
    Justaghost127 Justaghost127
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2015
    kelleh kelleh
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2015

    Death And Despair

    You start off one or two little scratches promising yourself that you won't ever hurt your body again , except from a week later when you do a few more then two days later then the next night, you forget that promise you made to yourself and become completly focused on that one...
    Constantserenity Constantserenity
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2013

    Step By Step

    Hi im 17 years old and i only recently found this site , i thought about commenting on other peoples stories but then i decided it would better if i started off by telling my own first ! Im still in school and things have been hard but they are starting to look up , no matter...
    lucylux1x lucylux1x
    18-21
    1 Response Jan 24, 2012

    I'm a bi girl, still in the closet.

    I have a crush on my female teacher and I'm in love with my best friend. I'm selfharm because of all of this and I just want someone to talk to? Anyone? x
    katemicheal katemicheal
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2015

    I need help. I don't wear makeup,

    but I need to cover up fresh cuts! Someone help! Please!
    fallingapartdeeply fallingapartdeeply
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2015

    My Scars

    I've been self harming for about 6 months now, and lately it's gotten worse. I use to just break the skin, now I cut deep. I've also began burning. I wish I had the courage to get help, I don't wanna live like this anymore, but every time I try to stop something happens to make...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 13, 2013

    Im Way Passed Pyscho

    You know how when u first started and said u would stop and you do then bamm 2 months later u get that razor out and just start attacking your skin. My arms would be cover in scars then ill make new ones and then people say i cant because of my race makes me feel so ... alone...
    NinaBlithe NinaBlithe
    18-21, F
    May 16, 2013

    I self harm and most people know how bad it is

    but my psychiatrist keeps saying you'll stop one day. It's been 12 years does it ever stop?
    emimay99 emimay99
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 8, 2015

    Hi i'm Noah and i cut a lot

    but i hate the looks of sympathy i get in public any idea how to hide scars well a lot of scars? If you do message me please it would help a lot.
    NoahBarwell4 NoahBarwell4
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

    Describe What It's Like To Cut.

    Well, go to the beach. And walk into the water blindfolded. You just keep walking, you don't know where you're going. You just know that you're going deeper. Depression has blinded you. All you know is you're going deeper. Now just keep going until you drown. You want air, you...
    WinterBlack WinterBlack
    13-15
    Nov 27, 2013

    I started cutting my wrists about a year ago

    and haven't been able to stop.I started because some stuff was going on at my home and I was being bullied at school.It started as just a "one time thing" and, then it went to just one more time,and then...well I started to do it every night.Now I keep a razor on me at all times...
    Tara13Webb Tara13Webb
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

    Most of the time, I just blast suicide silence

    and the thoughts go away, but it hasn't been helping lately and I've been doing it more. Ive stopped eating recently and every time I eat I do it again. I'm not specifying because I use different methods.
    CheyTemptress CheyTemptress
    13-15, F
    Apr 22, 2015
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 14
    ilytatelangdon ilytatelangdon
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2014

    i have been self harming

    for my whole life i remember a time when i was 3 and i got in trouble i ran to my room and started to scratch my arms my face any visible skin over and over until i saw blood.
    wolfiewarmheart wolfiewarmheart
    18-21, F
    Feb 23, 2014

    Hi my name is Noah and i used to love life i

    smiled i laughed and i had tons of friends but i'm not sure what happend one day i woke up and i felt awful so i played it out for a few days but i didnt get better so my parents brought me to the hospital and i was diagnosed with severe depression and for all you people who...
    noahbarwell noahbarwell
    70+, M
    Apr 3, 2014

    I started to self harm 4 months ago.

    It was never suppose to be anything, the first time i did it i just did it to see how it felt. Then as things got worse, the selfharming increased. And now every time something bad happens to me, I turn to my razor for help.
    Xocathy Xocathy
    26-30, F
    Dec 8, 2013

    I was doing really good with my thoughts

    and trying my hardest to not be sad but lately I've just been in some sort of funk and I'll just feel sad out of no where. It's mostly at night, even after hanging out with my friends that day (which ****** off my mom) I don't want to do anything like hurting myself again but I...
    ItsNeverEnding ItsNeverEnding
    16-17, F
    Sep 12, 2015

    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    13-15, F
    Jan 24

    Pain Is Killing Me

    I have 20 fresh cuts just from 3 days I'm slowly Dieing I'm to broken why can to just die I was ment to I almost died when I was born I should have died then I'm just one big misstake
    brokengirl3 brokengirl3
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

    I go thru living hell ngl,

    People think tha bullyin people & makin people feel like **** will help their appearance when it really doesn't! They look like fools, Buh they hurt the victim so much that they harm theirselves or even worse Try to end their own life... I shud kno how bein the victim feels...
    LivingDead123 LivingDead123
    13-15, F
    Feb 1, 2015
    starr1616 starr1616
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 16

    I cut and bruise a lot.

    I especially bruise in summer where I can play it off at least better than cuts. I've been on suicide watch at hospitals in the past. I don't know why I feel like a deserve this pain but I feel it's true and I'm okay with it because in the end it heals so much faster than the...
    alexvalen alexvalen
    18-21, F
    Jul 9, 2014

    I Battle With Self-harm, Depression And Anxiety Everyday, Here's My Story

    When i was 5 my Parents decided to split up after years of arguments that me and My brother experienced, i remember the day clearly, my Dad was on the Doorstep crying his heart out, whilst my Mum was packing the Car infuriated, it was terrible i loved my parents so much at that...
    Mustangtiger Mustangtiger
    18-21, F
    Aug 31, 2013

    I cant stop... I dont know what to do.

    Im crying i hate my life
    PierceTheGreen PierceTheGreen
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 12, 2014
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