I should have known better to let you back in after you hurt me that one time. I should have know better than to trust you like I did before. I should have known better than to be friends with you again. I don’t know why I let you back it, but now I am kicking myself in the...
up person i am. i start to think i might deserve better and i get reminded that i dont.
i write and write and write ....i try create but it all comes out a scream. ive shredded myself trying to find value but all ive found is pain. i cannot see worth in others eyes. i see a...
like I'm the only one
And I believe you for that moment
But once I'm all alone I replay it in my head
And it just doesn't feel right
My mind screams that you're too good for me
But my heart just won't let you get away from me
We're not together but I wish we could be
I should know better than loving a depressed person who can not be with me.
I should know better than arguing with my parents about everything that is unimportant in this life.
I should know better than always wanting the last word.
I should know better than buying things I...
but I'm in a cage.
I want to be free, but my tethers hold firm.
What happened to ME? How did I get so lost? Is this happiness I have found even real? Sustainable? Am I looking outside when I should be searching inside?
I don't need saving, but I do need to feel like I'm ok.
I was stupid to believe I could trust you again, I was stupid to believe the words, "I'll never hurt you and throw you away again" actually were the ******* truth, and not something just to be said. I should have known better to let you back in, and start to trust you again...