I Should Probably Be Dead By Now

Somehow, I'm still standing 792 People

    You Killed Me !!

    You killed me !!!! It's so hard to understand reasons , destiny, hope, faith, beliefs It's hard to understand The motion of time The complexion of events The words just said How can I live ? How I'm still breathing? How I'm here , if the pain it's dragging me down every time...
    Mags40 Mags40
    41-45, F
    Sep 4, 2013
    weirdo523 weirdo523
    13-15, F
    Aug 10, 2015


     ~ By my own hand most likely. I should have died in a car crash when I was 5, according to an ouija board my mom did when she was 16. I tried to kill myself when I was 17 & was put in a home for troubled girls under 24hr suicide watch. I have spent the last 20 years of...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 23, 2009

    I Have Haunted My Own House.

    Hey Folks:      I am a survivor of eight major surgeries, a couple score procedures and I don't remember how many other medical misadventures.  I have had problems with my guts as long as I can remember.       Most of my life I had gone to doctors and been told they...
    OldBikr OldBikr
    1 Response Feb 5, 2012

    It turns out i cant even die properly.

    .. People smile and reassure me "it wasnt meant to be, youre here for a reason" Theyre wrong.
    deleted deleted
    Aug 9, 2015

    I was never meant to get out of my early 20's

    alive. That's what I was told when I first started in Kern County Mental Health in Bakersfield over 18 years ago. They were right on that point because the road and speed I was going and my mouth running like it was and saying things that didn't need to be said, I'm very lucky...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell
    41-45, M
    Apr 9, 2014

    With some of the medical problems I've had,

    I probably should be dead by now. But, I've been blessed, plus I'm not ready to give up yet.
    JoPaVa123 JoPaVa123
    56-60, M
    Aug 10, 2015
    KentGirl29 KentGirl29
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015

    Accident Prone But Also Lucky

    I have decided to make this my first post to remind myself of how lucky I am to be alive and functioning. When I was younger I must have spent half my life in hospital with various ailments, almost all of which were accidentally self inflicted. For your reading enjoyment, here...
    UniquebutnotAlone UniquebutnotAlone
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2011

    I Should...

     I should be... I'm not dead at all.. I died for two whole minutes... But the doctors saved me... I should also be dead after all the overdoses.... To many overdoses and I haven't lost my life... After all the beatings from my dad and uncle... I should be after all...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Sep 6, 2008

    Everytime I found myself behind the wheel,

    I always wondered how many times the car would roll if I just sped up and hit a curb.
    krytokate krytokate
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 15, 2014

    just venting.. I have friends,

    I have fun, I have a family who loves me so much. is it wrong to feel so sad inside? I try to give myself excuses of why it's okay to feel like this. I know it's selfish to think about but I can't help but think about suicide
    ladadedade ladadedade
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2014

    I survived meningitis

    when I was 3, I had a lung infection which made me really ill when I was 17 and I have attempted numerous times to kill myself. And I'm still here... Should I not be dead by now? Is this life's way of telling me that I do have a purpose in life? That I do have something to...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 13, 2014

    Guess I Went Through Though Times

    i didnt think i would see past my eighteenth birthday because i suffered some really bad experiences and went through a really destructive phase, i had no friends, was into some really bad things - smoking etc. i survived it and now here i am, ready to take my life throws at me...
    Donalh Donalh
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 17, 2008

    Drugs And Car Accidents

    I've been in three car accidents. I was driving in all three. Two of the times the car was totalled. One of which was at highway speeds. All witnesses thought we were all dead for sure. The car was crushed. I mixed a bunch of pills with rum. I wasn't trying to kill myself...
    Sleepwalker Sleepwalker
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 9, 2006

    I'm Lucky I Guess.

    I have pierced my lung, twice, been shot, been stabbed multiple times, and fallen from the sixth story of an apartment complex. I have been run over by over 40 different types of cars, at least 200 times. I'm either the luckiest man alive or I'm cursed. I've never broken a bone...
    BurstofLife BurstofLife
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 21, 2011


    I really should be dead by now.  I used & abused myself for so long I don't really have any damn good reason to still be walking this earth.  Sometimes all I do is ask why?  No one ever answers.
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    Drowning Over Again, Oding Beyond Belief

    Why am I still alive, how am I still alive? I've only OD'ed about a hundred times on sleeping meds. I've jumped off trees, tried to lie on the road. I fail at swimming and somehow when I'm just almost at the end of my life, a new energy, a new calm washes over, and then I can...
    Lillith29 Lillith29
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 28, 2012

    Lost And Alone

    A couple years ago I was depressed. Sounds silly for a teenager to be, but I was. I had experienced a traumatizing rape situation. I was feeling so down that I didn't care about myself. At all. I just wanted to get away. So one night I took my parents car and drove off... and I...
    chantieluvs chantieluvs
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2013

    Death Has Past Me By For Now

    There are about 4 times that have happened in my life, that I should have been killed. For what ever reason, I was spared for another day, another year and I am still breathing. That has made me appreciate the life I have been given, a life that has been somewhat of a struggle...
    rowenbumble rowenbumble
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Mar 30, 2012

    But I'm Glad That I'm Not!

    I have been thinking... any normal person who had tried suicide, as many times as I had, would have been GONE. It was just by the grace of the universe, that I had survived. Something refuses to let me die before my time. =p I have tried suicide over twenty times. I feel guilty...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 8, 2009

    The Man Who Never Was

    September 12th, 1986 at nearly midnight a woman is rushed into emergency delivery as every parent's worse dream comes true. Their child might not make it before even having a fighting chance. The exact due date was elusive as it was, but the child was far premature as it was. A...
    Lex8track Lex8track
    26-30, M
    Sep 13, 2013

    Shxt Was Crazy

    when i was born i wouldnt have made it if my aunt hadnt made my mom go to the hospital. it freaks me out to think about but i got over it...well about two days ago i was in a car crash...the car flipped 3 times on a briidge. if it had flipped one more time we would have flipped...
    cmgz cmgz
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2012

    I have had many near death experiences.

    I was actually a 'mistake' (though my mum says I was just an 'unexpected gift' :-) ) and when I was a baby (about 2 weeks old) I was very sick. My skin became transparent & my cry was raspy. My mom took me to the hospital but it was full. The man working there told her to come...
    cityfolk cityfolk
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2014

    People Seem To Want Me Dead....

    Some people lately have been telling me to go die... And that the world would be better without me... Maybe it's true... I feel like where I go to school no on really likes me... maybe a few people... but whatever i'm worthless honestly. I don't know what to do in life anymore...
    AngryLittlePrincess AngryLittlePrincess
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2012

    I Should Be...

    But I'm not. As long as I have such unfinished business to attend to. As long as I have a dream to accomplish. As long as I still have a reason. I still have a reason. I still have business, and I still have a dream.
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 2, 2008

    One Day My Luck Might Run Out....

    Well my story is the same as everyone elses.... Lets see. - I should have died at the age 15 but the gun misfired - I should have died at the age of 16-18 due to the large amount of heroin I put into my veins - I should have died when I got stabbed in the leg. Luckily I the...
    Silver01ta Silver01ta
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Apr 4, 2008

    Another Failed Experiment

    Either at the hands of others or of my own devices, I feel like that carton of milk that's two weeks out of code in your refrigerator - I've exceeded my shelf life. It's not as dramatic or drastic for me as it is for others, but I have successfully cheated death a few of times...
    failedexperiment failedexperiment
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Jun 7, 2009

    The War....

    I'll make it fast. Burned 36% last at one point 100% of lungs( lung transplant refuse) coma 82 days and 9 months in the hospital.... Dr said never talk/ walk/ breath out O2 and live past a year with out lung transplant. That was in 07 feel great work out 3 hrs a day. Talk fine...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 28, 2013

    iv always thought i would be apart of the "27

    club" since i was 5. my mother has always tried to tell me not ti think like that, but i seriously just have this feeling in me that i will die at 27.
    noonoo91 noonoo91
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2015

    Oh Yeah

     yeah definately. like theres so many times now i should have died. from the car accidents i was in wen i was little. to the time i got caught int he bus doors, plus so many other times. i should be dea like a thousand times over. 
    Casper92 Casper92
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2009
    Acquire Acquire
    18-21, M
    Aug 9, 2015

    I shouldn't be alive.

    I don't see how. My parents fight way too much. I've tried suicide and I've even taking different pills at once...multiple and nothing has happened. I'm depression and I don't wanna live. Why am I still alive? That's what I wanna know.
    raykay1998 raykay1998
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2014

    While walking through the closed scrap yard

    with my boy toy one Saturday evening, we both heard then felt a bullet go who zing between us and we stood there shocked not knowing which direction it came from... On another occasion I was held hostage for 30 very long hours by a spun out crazy gun n knife twitting tweaker...
    crystalkat crystalkat
    56-60, F
    Mar 20, 2014

    Yeah My Freinds Tease Me All T...

    Yeah my freinds tease me all the time about my driving skills.  Honestly I don't get it.  Stop at a few green lights and run a couple red ones and your labeled for life!
    lisaj0410 lisaj0410
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 18, 2007

    Cheated The Reaper

    I won't go into violence at the hands of my father; I'm not sure I could count the times he nearly shoved me into the Reaper's cold grip.I will mention the near-death experience I had while being treated for aplastic anemia.  That I was one of six people in a million that...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2012

    I'm so overwhelmed with school work

    and I have a feeling I'm going to fail out of college now.. I don't know what I have going for me. everything would be so much easier if I just weren't here
    ladadedade ladadedade
    22-25, F
    Mar 24, 2014

    By God's Grace

    When I was 5 I suddenly became very ill. I went to the hospital in my city and they hadnt a clue to what was going on. I was throwing up the rainbow. Then my doctor walks in and looks at me (screaming my head off) and then looks at my mom and tells her in his heavy Indian accent...
    EmpathicThespian EmpathicThespian
    18-21, F
    Aug 5, 2012

    Deaths Door Step

    I was one of those idiot little girls who would play around and get hurt a lot. When I was six I was playing out side on a swing when I fell off backwards and a pitchfork, yes a pitchfork punctured my skull, brain matter oozed out Before any real serious damage was done, the...
    JaneValentine JaneValentine
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

    Night Out That Went Very Wrong

    I was on a night out, i was 17 (under-age to be drinking, yes i know) at the end of the night me and my friends were heading to the taxi rank when a friend stopped to talk to a girl (typical), next thing i seen was her (possible Boyfriend) start to choke my friend. from behind...
    Ianb123 Ianb123
    1 Response Apr 4, 2011

    I've attempt suicide a few times.

    3 of which landed me in the hospital (yes, both). I even fail at ending my own life. I saw it as God wanting me to live for a propose one day. Maybe, maybe not.
    ahhokayyy ahhokayyy
    18-21, F
    Aug 11, 2015

    I was never supposed to be born.

    My mother got her period only one time a year, so physically, it was nearly impossible for her to have a child. The doctors told her it wouldn't happen. To try and regulate her health, they put her on injectable birth control medication, which even further reduced her chances...
    adulaire adulaire
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 25, 2013

    Had a Wild Life

    during my teenage years i was running wild, shoplifting, doing drugs, just whatever i felt like doing right or wrong.  on one occasion me and this other girl i just met who had escaped from a juvenile girls home hitchhiked to florida.  one of the cars we got into for a...
    zombiegirl5 zombiegirl5
    1 Response Jun 11, 2009
    IntellectPeanut IntellectPeanut
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2014

    Whole Life

    I was not a planned birth, an accident and been having them ever since. I didn't think I would live past 30 and now hope to make it to 50.I have fallen out of a moving car, hit by a falling tree, and burnt. I feel like death has been hunting me down. Somehow I have avoided him...
    Badina Badina
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2012
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