I Should Probably Be Dead By Now

Somehow, I'm still standing 792 People

    The War....

    I'll make it fast. Burned 36% last at one point 100% of lungs( lung transplant refuse) coma 82 days and 9 months in the hospital.... Dr said never talk/ walk/ breath out O2 and live past a year with out lung transplant. That was in 07 feel great work out 3 hrs a day. Talk fine...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 28, 2013

    Drugs And Car Accidents

    I've been in three car accidents. I was driving in all three. Two of the times the car was totalled. One of which was at highway speeds. All witnesses thought we were all dead for sure. The car was crushed. I mixed a bunch of pills with rum. I wasn't trying to kill myself...
    Sleepwalker Sleepwalker
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 9, 2006

    Another Failed Experiment

    Either at the hands of others or of my own devices, I feel like that carton of milk that's two weeks out of code in your refrigerator - I've exceeded my shelf life. It's not as dramatic or drastic for me as it is for others, but I have successfully cheated death a few of times...
    failedexperiment failedexperiment
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Jun 7, 2009

    Death Has Past Me By For Now

    There are about 4 times that have happened in my life, that I should have been killed. For what ever reason, I was spared for another day, another year and I am still breathing. That has made me appreciate the life I have been given, a life that has been somewhat of a struggle...
    rowenbumble rowenbumble
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Mar 30, 2012


    I really should be dead by now.  I used & abused myself for so long I don't really have any damn good reason to still be walking this earth.  Sometimes all I do is ask why?  No one ever answers.
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    But I'm Glad That I'm Not!

    I have been thinking... any normal person who had tried suicide, as many times as I had, would have been GONE. It was just by the grace of the universe, that I had survived. Something refuses to let me die before my time. =p I have tried suicide over twenty times. I feel guilty...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 8, 2009


     ~ By my own hand most likely. I should have died in a car crash when I was 5, according to an ouija board my mom did when she was 16. I tried to kill myself when I was 17 & was put in a home for troubled girls under 24hr suicide watch. I have spent the last 20 years of...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 23, 2009

    Night Out That Went Very Wrong

    I was on a night out, i was 17 (under-age to be drinking, yes i know) at the end of the night me and my friends were heading to the taxi rank when a friend stopped to talk to a girl (typical), next thing i seen was her (possible Boyfriend) start to choke my friend. from behind...
    Ianb123 Ianb123
    1 Response Apr 4, 2011

    I was never supposed to be born.

    My mother got her period only one time a year, so physically, it was nearly impossible for her to have a child. The doctors told her it wouldn't happen. To try and regulate her health, they put her on injectable birth control medication, which even further reduced her chances...
    adulaire adulaire
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 25, 2013

    iv always thought i would be apart of the "27

    club" since i was 5. my mother has always tried to tell me not ti think like that, but i seriously just have this feeling in me that i will die at 27.
    noonoo91 noonoo91
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2015

    Yeah My Freinds Tease Me All T...

    Yeah my freinds tease me all the time about my driving skills.  Honestly I don't get it.  Stop at a few green lights and run a couple red ones and your labeled for life!
    lisaj0410 lisaj0410
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 18, 2007

    One Day My Luck Might Run Out....

    Well my story is the same as everyone elses.... Lets see. - I should have died at the age 15 but the gun misfired - I should have died at the age of 16-18 due to the large amount of heroin I put into my veins - I should have died when I got stabbed in the leg. Luckily I the...
    Silver01ta Silver01ta
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Apr 4, 2008

    I Should...

     I should be... I'm not dead at all.. I died for two whole minutes... But the doctors saved me... I should also be dead after all the overdoses.... To many overdoses and I haven't lost my life... After all the beatings from my dad and uncle... I should be after all...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Sep 6, 2008

    Guess I Went Through Though Times

    i didnt think i would see past my eighteenth birthday because i suffered some really bad experiences and went through a really destructive phase, i had no friends, was into some really bad things - smoking etc. i survived it and now here i am, ready to take my life throws at me...
    Donalh Donalh
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 17, 2008

    Oh Yeah

     yeah definately. like theres so many times now i should have died. from the car accidents i was in wen i was little. to the time i got caught int he bus doors, plus so many other times. i should be dea like a thousand times over. 
    Casper92 Casper92
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2009

    Had a Wild Life

    during my teenage years i was running wild, shoplifting, doing drugs, just whatever i felt like doing right or wrong.  on one occasion me and this other girl i just met who had escaped from a juvenile girls home hitchhiked to florida.  one of the cars we got into for a...
    zombiegirl5 zombiegirl5
    1 Response Jun 11, 2009

    I Should Be...

    But I'm not. As long as I have such unfinished business to attend to. As long as I have a dream to accomplish. As long as I still have a reason. I still have a reason. I still have business, and I still have a dream.
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 2, 2008

    I'm Lucky I Guess.

    I have pierced my lung, twice, been shot, been stabbed multiple times, and fallen from the sixth story of an apartment complex. I have been run over by over 40 different types of cars, at least 200 times. I'm either the luckiest man alive or I'm cursed. I've never broken a bone...
    BurstofLife BurstofLife
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 21, 2011

    Accident Prone But Also Lucky

    I have decided to make this my first post to remind myself of how lucky I am to be alive and functioning. When I was younger I must have spent half my life in hospital with various ailments, almost all of which were accidentally self inflicted. For your reading enjoyment, here...
    UniquebutnotAlone UniquebutnotAlone
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2011

    I Have Haunted My Own House.

    Hey Folks:      I am a survivor of eight major surgeries, a couple score procedures and I don't remember how many other medical misadventures.  I have had problems with my guts as long as I can remember.       Most of my life I had gone to doctors and been told they...
    OldBikr OldBikr
    1 Response Feb 5, 2012

    Whole Life

    I was not a planned birth, an accident and been having them ever since. I didn't think I would live past 30 and now hope to make it to 50.I have fallen out of a moving car, hit by a falling tree, and burnt. I feel like death has been hunting me down. Somehow I have avoided him...
    Badina Badina
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2012

    You Killed Me !!

    You killed me !!!! It's so hard to understand reasons , destiny, hope, faith, beliefs It's hard to understand The motion of time The complexion of events The words just said How can I live ? How I'm still breathing? How I'm here , if the pain it's dragging me down every time...
    Mags40 Mags40
    41-45, F
    Sep 4, 2013

    The Man Who Never Was

    September 12th, 1986 at nearly midnight a woman is rushed into emergency delivery as every parent's worse dream comes true. Their child might not make it before even having a fighting chance. The exact due date was elusive as it was, but the child was far premature as it was. A...
    Lex8track Lex8track
    26-30, M
    Sep 13, 2013

    Drowning Over Again, Oding Beyond Belief

    Why am I still alive, how am I still alive? I've only OD'ed about a hundred times on sleeping meds. I've jumped off trees, tried to lie on the road. I fail at swimming and somehow when I'm just almost at the end of my life, a new energy, a new calm washes over, and then I can...
    Lillith29 Lillith29
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 28, 2012

    People Seem To Want Me Dead....

    Some people lately have been telling me to go die... And that the world would be better without me... Maybe it's true... I feel like where I go to school no on really likes me... maybe a few people... but whatever i'm worthless honestly. I don't know what to do in life anymore...
    AngryLittlePrincess AngryLittlePrincess
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2012

    Cheated The Reaper

    I won't go into violence at the hands of my father; I'm not sure I could count the times he nearly shoved me into the Reaper's cold grip.I will mention the near-death experience I had while being treated for aplastic anemia.  That I was one of six people in a million that...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2012

    By God's Grace

    When I was 5 I suddenly became very ill. I went to the hospital in my city and they hadnt a clue to what was going on. I was throwing up the rainbow. Then my doctor walks in and looks at me (screaming my head off) and then looks at my mom and tells her in his heavy Indian accent...
    EmpathicThespian EmpathicThespian
    18-21, F
    Aug 5, 2012

    I shouldn't be alive.

    I don't see how. My parents fight way too much. I've tried suicide and I've even taking different pills at once...multiple and nothing has happened. I'm depression and I don't wanna live. Why am I still alive? That's what I wanna know.
    raykay1998 raykay1998
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2014

    I survived meningitis

    when I was 3, I had a lung infection which made me really ill when I was 17 and I have attempted numerous times to kill myself. And I'm still here... Should I not be dead by now? Is this life's way of telling me that I do have a purpose in life? That I do have something to...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 13, 2014

    With some of the medical problems I've had,

    I probably should be dead by now. But, I've been blessed, plus I'm not ready to give up yet.
    JoPaVa123 JoPaVa123
    56-60, M
    Aug 10, 2015

    I've attempt suicide a few times.

    3 of which landed me in the hospital (yes, both). I even fail at ending my own life. I saw it as God wanting me to live for a propose one day. Maybe, maybe not.
    ahhokayyy ahhokayyy
    18-21, F
    Aug 11, 2015
    Acquire Acquire
    18-21, M
    Aug 9, 2015

    I Have Uncontrolled Diabetes

    I have had uncontrolled diabetes for 5 years now. I feel like I'm just waiting for my body to shut down and die. I want to have it under control but I don't want to do anything. I just want it to fix its self. I'm lazy but I feel if God wants me here He'll keep me here. I've been...
    AnnNat AnnNat
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2011

    Soap Opera

    if i tried to sell my autobiography, not even the soap opera folks would believe it to be real. 1.  my mother was in the middle of renal (kidney) failure when i was conceived.  that we both survived my birth is impressive.  i was born several weeks early, and...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2007

    200 Pound Block of Ice Landed On My Head.

    I live in upstate ny and the winters here can be rough.  One winter when I was 8 there was a lot of sleet along with several feet of snow which left at least a 10inch deep layer of ice on the roof.  it was warm and sunny finally so I was outside...
    karmadea karmadea
    2 Responses Sep 10, 2008

    I Was Dead && Brought Back

    Tuesdy night i was just fed up with life and all the ****** drama. Well i was talkin to people on aim and then i just outta no where decided to start takin my medication again. Well i was like i dunno maybe i will take a few extra, i never thought anything would actually happen...
    tragedyhappens tragedyhappens
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 16, 2008

    My Suicides

    ive tried to kill myself 8times and im 15 life sucks but i am still alive by some miracle
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Sep 18, 2007

    Swallowed a Lot of Gunk When I...

    Swallowed a lot of gunk when I was born and had to be sucked out - but that was about it
    lostbird lostbird
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2007


    anorexia. self-injury. suside thoughts/attempts. never thought id be alive this far ...
    vicky13 vicky13
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 23, 2008

    I'm Still Here!

     I have no idea why i'm still here. I've tried to kill myself a bunch of times-failed.I had OD on pills a couple of times and i'm still here.i lead a life of excess and stuff that could have kill me. Sometimes i wonder why am i here, like my actions says "i hate this...
    andreinac13 andreinac13
    22-25, F
    Oct 12, 2008

    Yep - Have Been Spared

    I have randomly walked out in front of numerous pink city buses in Belfast city centre, as keep forgetting it is not a pedestrain zone but a buses only zone. I was told if I went to Africa, I would not come home alive- I went the next day, came home a few days later still alive...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 13, 2008


    But I obviously am not. So let's just make the best of it ;)
    deleted deleted
    Jan 17, 2008

    I'm Still Here

    With everything that I done and all the places I've been I sometimes wonder why I've survived as long as I have....
    deleted deleted
    Oct 12, 2008

    Somehow Survived

     When I was 22 years old, I was returning home late one night. Had been out with some friends and had 2 beers that night. At the time, I was living out away from the city and was driving down this beautiful two lane road. There were a number of lakes out where I lived and...
    keithseeker keithseeker
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Jul 18, 2008

    Haha Sure. but So F...

    Haha sure. But so far I've been blessed with life!
    bracingthetide bracingthetide
    18-21, F
    May 18, 2007


    I've: Driven drunk so many times Driven stoned soooo many times Driven on all kinds of pills including sleeping pills and heavy narcotics Driven really really tired Driven with a hurt neck so I couldn't turn my head Drive 80mph on the highway all the time Have gotten...
    Warmthoughtsofyou04 Warmthoughtsofyou04
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 4, 2008

    Say Thanks

    Say ThanksLosing my mind in an effort to see reasonsReasons not yet read in-between the seasonsI mentally wander while I ponderAs daunting demons leap from nowhereAppearing to torture me with their greedGreed for my dirty selfFor my soul, my soul is not in this world for you to...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel
    18-21, F
    Jan 19, 2010

    Its a Relief to Be Alive

    I have been through so much and caused myself so much harm.. i have put myself in situations where it was do or die and i did them. I have over dosed multiple times and i have done worse possble things than that.. i have gone out past curfew in unsafe cities, walked the streets...
    tragedyhappens tragedyhappens
    26-30, F
    Nov 12, 2007

    Looking Back

        Well to start things out my last tour in Iraq my Humvee was blown up not once but two times... I've been in a mid air crash with another sky diver and knock out... I came to a nine hundred feet and was able to open my parachute....and the list goes on and on...
    longgun longgun
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Jul 30, 2008


    Sometimes I feel like I should be dead by now. I've been in and out of psych wards for the past couple of years. The first time I tried to kill myself, I took an overdose. Sometimes I feel like I'm just stalling. I've wanted to kill myself for a while. The one thing keeping me...
    paperalias paperalias
    22-25, F
    May 27, 2008

    It's a Joke My Mom Doesnt Think Is Funny

    My brother and sister and I always joke to my mom that God has it out for us Kids. My sister was almost kidnapped by a photographer when she was 6 months old. A lady called my mom asking if she wanted baby pictures for her new baby, mom interviewed her but decided they didn't...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 13, 2008

    Too Many Close Calls

    I've had a lot of close calls through the years - and not just the ones I was trying to orchestrate myself. I drowned as a kid - actually did die that time, but the bastards resuscitated me. I was almost struck by lightening when I was 5, but I moved out of the way because...
    eyes eyes
    31-35, F
    Jun 12, 2008

    As For My Death, It Is Hard To Talk About

    As for my death, it is hard to talk about—not because it is painful or anything like that, though. As Theodore Roethke said, “We learn by going where we have to go.” And that is all life is—the experience of going where we go. There is no shame in dying or even in dying...
    bodyofwords bodyofwords
    4 Responses Apr 20, 2011

    I Should Probably Be Dead By Now.....

    I should Probably be Dead By Now. I mean, I have had many suicide attempts, and I have been in a terrible accident. I mean, I am really superised that I am even alive, and I kinda hate that I am sometimes. BroknWings
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 18, 2009


    The amount of stupid things I've done... From staying round guys houses when I'd just met them... To going for walks at 2 in the morning and not bothering to tell anyone where I'm going. Not to mention my proper crazy dad. It's a miracle my mum didn't miscarry me. She was...
    SaharaOdeil SaharaOdeil
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2008

    9 Lives???

    Considering the fact that my mom was in the early stages of renal failure when she conceived me, it's mildly amazing I was even born.  Since then I've been in 2 or 3 bad auto accidents, had a couple life-threatening allergic reactions to perscription drugs, a severe (and...
    MossAgate MossAgate
    31-35, F
    Aug 6, 2010

    Maybe Soon

    I don't know. i'm not getting any better. It's just going like it always has in my body and mind. I feel drained and weak, dead inside sometimes. My anxiety and depression are too much, it's been so many years and years, I an't remember a time before I was depressed. Things have...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2007

    Maybe...but What Do I Know

    i turned blue when i was two for a week..no thank to the help of dr..i broke ny neck and was knocked unconciouse..once again ,good job dr..in a bad car wreck.but hey,it makes for some good conversation!
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2009

    Don't Know How I'm Still Alive

    well when i was 7 i came down with a disease called encephalitis and this is a brain disease with attacks your spinal cord and goes to your brain. i was in a coma for 6 weeks and i was paralyzed from the neck down. i eventually got better slowly and then when i was 11 i developed...
    bnichols4 bnichols4
    1 Response May 14, 2011


    Anorexia is a b***h. But hey, I'm a fighter. Which is why I have kicked it in the cahonies. For now.
    beebopINblue beebopINblue
    18-21, F
    Nov 29, 2008
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