I Shut Down When I'M Upset

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    Solitaire for 5 hours straight?

    There is something wrong here
    Maerie Maerie
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    It's not really like I "shut down,

    " but when I'm upset, I'm always nervous to say something I will most likely regret later. So to avoid this, I end up shutting down and keeping my mouth shut. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2015

    every time I greet my co worker morning

    or afternoon and no responding I feel very upset then I just continue my work without talking.
    gloryglory1984 gloryglory1984
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    I just bottle up my emotions

    until they overflow
    Justwondering223 Justwondering223
    16-17, F
    Aug 29, 2015

    I'm upset because I rather suffer

    for eternity than to let a guy in my heart. There is a guy who I think is interested in me and I will not make anything easy for him. Its like he is putting so much effort but I step all over it because I'm so insecure and I doubt a lot. I know eventually he will give up. I...
    magnumopus666 magnumopus666
    22-25, F
    Feb 14, 2016

    I was worried last night trying to figure out

    why my old friend didn't come see me like he said he was. I rehearsed our last conversation a hundred times I re-winded it, paused it, fast forwarded it and still could not get it. I didn't have his number. I had mixed opinions. Until I just shut down! I wouldn't eat my dinner...
    Babeondwy Babeondwy
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    I can feel when I have gotten to a place

    where anything is about to start flying out my mouth because I'm passed, depending on the situation I might let it but then again I might decide to let u live and go on wit my life...do u know how much bail money u have to have these days?!
    Sweetpea2010 Sweetpea2010
    22-25, F
    Nov 10, 2015

    I'll literally just not talk

    or I'll just say k to everything in I'll lock myself in a room and just listen to music
    imlivingbutdead imlivingbutdead
    18-21, F
    Nov 10, 2015

    When I get upset I shut down.

    I go silent and don't talk very much. I'll be in that type of mood where I just hate everyone except like, one or two people because the world is full of monsters with friendly faces. The don't really care. They're only curious. In many ways, I prefer my own company. It gives me...
    shymic shymic
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 6, 2014

    I just become quiet and listless.

    But I can't shut out those who want to be there for me and help.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Nov 9, 2015

    Unfortunatly I do shut down.

    Its a PTSD thing. I deal with it in my head in my own way. Nothing against said person talking to me. Its me and I know Im an issue.
    deleted deleted
    Aug 1, 2015

    It's a bad habit. I can usually go a bit

    before shutting down, but not long. I don't talk. I don't eat. I don't sleep. I stare at walls and out windows.
    16-17, T
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    I completely shut down

    when I am upset. I spend a good amount of time self pitying and then I shake it off and move on... When I am upset, I do not like to be disturbed. I do not like to talk to other people. I do not like to be bothered. It annoys me. Just leave me to myself. I know some...
    deleted deleted
    May 22, 2015

    I just sit in my room quietly

    and think about the problem that's making me feel upset, I don't want to see anyone, because I need the time to myself. I just have to calm down and regain my neutral mood, it's what I always do. Or I just stay in my dream world for a while, that works too....
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2016

    I hate that I cry when I'm frustrated.

    People think I cry because they hurt me but its really just because I'm trying really hard not to kill them
    Tovar Tovar
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Aug 3, 2015

    I am still in dream..

    . I like to I expecting Everyday I wanna have coffee and cigarettes in my dream....
    skyglad skyglad
    26-30, M
    Apr 15, 2016

    I've lost a lot of the "fight" in me

    since I've gotten older. There are days when I'm just too tired to take a stand. Maybe it's depression, but it just doesn't seem worth it anymore to argue when nothing changes..
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 19, 2015

    If I am upset or depressed about something I

    shut myself down from people because its my way of protecting myself. I have been hurt so many times in the past that I cannot take it anymore so I close down from people. I hate that I feel like this but that is what depression does to you.
    xxxMickeyMouse22xxx xxxMickeyMouse22xxx
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015

    I hate this so much about myself.

    I am usually very outgoing and bubbly. Well that's not true but that's what I act when I'm not being me which is most of the time. The problem is that when I get upset I shut down I get very close to breaking something expensive. Like right now I'm in camp and I am kinda like...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs
    22-25, F
    Jul 21, 2014

    Wow I honestly thought I was the only one to

    ever do this I **** down completely- I lose all energy, focus, hope, everything. All gone. It's terrible. Even knowing how blessed I am if someone upsets me even if they have the type of character that makes me shudder and cringe they reduce me to wanting to get off this planet...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    Nov 22, 2015

    May not be the best answer,

    but once I get upset I completely go silent. I guess I just don't like confrontation. I've been told by others I need to "stand up for myself" more, but I just don't like prolonging argument. Sometimes I have argued with the best of the loud mouths, but that is the exception...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 18, 2016

    Silence Is My Answer

    Whenever I get upset or just not in the mood, I become quiet. I shut people down, I'm in my own little world and I wish no one would bother me. Because if I speak, it would come out rude, impolite or harsh. When I'm upset I keep it to myself, so when someone try to make me open...
    aclicheword aclicheword
    22-25, F
    Sep 5, 2013

    When I get upset I shut down

    and don't know what to say. I keep quiet, I figure it's what's best so that I don't make the situation worse. But at the moment I'm dying inside.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2015

    I haven't been on here in a while,

    but I'm gonna try to come back... I'm ready to crawl into a corner in a cold room with a blanket, listen to sad and calm music, and cry myself to sleep. I wish I could rant to someone, but I feel like I would bug them, or that everyone is busy.
    MagicalWeirdo MagicalWeirdo
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    I totally shut down..

    . and I ignore everyone and everything.. and always have my headphones on and my music up.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 11, 2015

    When I shut down, I'm not myself at all.

    It's more of a deep dark void that takes over my body. I have no emotion what so ever and if you talk to me I will not respond, I just sit there. Once I've stayed in my room for 8 days and have only gone out to use the bathroom and shower otherwise I'd be laying on my bed...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    It's not that I don't wanna share my feelings,

    it's more that I can't. Every time I open my mouth to explain, I clam up. It's easier to turn it all off and not feel anything than to feel bad.
    ksnaps ksnaps
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2014

    I tune every sound out.

    Once I do that, you can yell and scream or set everything on fire; I'll just sit in a corner and shut myself in my shell. This is the reason I am not good at arguing with people or handling stress. This is the reason I don't have a proper job.
    Demonizer Demonizer
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2015

    When I get upset, I feel like this tightening

    on my chest, like I can't breathe, and depending on how upset I am I usually have a panic attack. Either that or I cry so much I pass out from exhaustion. After that, I'm left with numbness. I don't feel anything, I just go onto autopilot. I remember once when it was really bad...
    Azzyyy Azzyyy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2014

    It's a defense mechanism,

    it's a way to escape reality by running.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2016

    I may have a personality

    that was probably shaped by my young life experiences. I have 5 older brothers and my parents are in a menage a trois with Jim Beam.I'm the youngest who makes no headway in making demands. If you rage, they ignore you. So, when I'm upset, I am conditioned to shut up and fume. In...
    9minute 9minute
    18-21, M
    Mar 24, 2016

    I'm so upset, I just want to shut everything off

    and stay away from everyone. i need newspapers for moving. my husband didn't want me getting any. i just spent my money on 3. I'm not upset because I had to use my money, it's how he told me about it. that "just because he got paid doesn't mean we go spend money." i told him...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    Sep 10, 2015

    The pain is too much to feel,

    I'm lost in this destroyed world of pain and destruction. Everyone's souls are corrupted. My heart hurts. I feel isolated from humanity. I'm shutting down every feeling in my body and brain. I cry every night because no one can comfort me. No one can cry with me. I'm all alone...
    Void16 Void16
    18-21, F
    Dec 6, 2015

    I went thru a vary dark time in late April may.

    It seemed like every 3 days I had a new crisis that I had to deal with urgently and immediately. These ranged from car money job family sickness. Oddly enough the family sickness is what kept me going all the other things I was like I need to check out. But then I was...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2015
    beyoutifulbliss beyoutifulbliss
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 9, 2014

    I Too Simply Shut Down When I'm Upset.

    .I Do So,Simply,Because, Things Are Often Said and Done In The Heat Of "Battle" That Can't Be Undone or Unsaid Once They're Out There. Being,One Whose Been Abused Verbally & Psychologically. I Know For A Fact That These Things Same As Any Abuse Can Hurt & Cut Far Deeper Than...
    46-50, M
    Mar 14, 2016

    I wouldn't say I'm upset

    but just tired and not the kind that sleep cures. Ready for a shut down and a recharge.
    beautifullybroken29 beautifullybroken29
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Dec 18, 2015

    I shut down when I'm hurt too

    or feel wronged in some way. I completely shut down I don't talk I just hide my feelings and emotions so that person doesn't hurt me or see what I'm really feeling. but I stay shut down to that person for awhile its hard to open back up to the person. I don't like that I do this...
    Alexismarie9314 Alexismarie9314
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2016

    This is learned behavior from childhood.

    I was typically seen and not heard by my mother. It developed into a coping mechanism that seems hard to change. If something does not go the way I think it should, I simply block it out and focus on something else.
    birdwings77 birdwings77
    26-30, F
    Sep 29, 2015
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