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I Shut Down When Life Becomes Overwhelming

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    It gives me a moment to calm down

    and think about everything before continuing with my life.
    Coolgirl16 Coolgirl16 16-17, F Mar 5

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    College Stress

    When I was doing my A Levels earlier this year,I had a mountain of coursework to complete in a week,and I was stressed out with my boyfriend and the relationship with my best mate,who felt that I was drifting away from God because I was engaging in a sexual relationship...
    orangeblossom89 orangeblossom89 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2008

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    Cheeks2014 Cheeks2014 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    Just found out my dads cancer is back.

    .. I can't do this... He is one of the few people who understands how I feel about life... I can't do this... The doctor said if it comes back within 5 years his life prognosis doesn't look good... Melanoma.... I can't loose him when life is just starting to turn around for us...
    maggielue maggielue 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 6

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    I have a very promising career.

    .. But, most of the time.. Things are happening too fast.. I am trying to keep up, I really do... I even surpass my targets.. But way deep down, I am tired. I just wish that things would slow down a bit. I want to enjoy my life. I don't want to be the cause of my own downfall...
    maleficent08 maleficent08 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    When I feel overwhelmed I just want run

    and hide. I want to go in the woods or a quiet beach and sit a look at nature. I keep everything looking good on the outside (work) and shut down on the personal side.
    smurphette smurphette 31-35, F Sep 23

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    I Am Shutting Down

      I just cant do it any more pretend isam not hurting becalse iam . iam sutting down emotionally becalse all this is driving me crazy and the more I get hurt the more I don’t know how many times I can come back from being hurt iam tired iam week today . I cant play...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F Jul 13, 2008

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    Shutting down I swallow my voice,

    so it won't interrupt my thoughts. Then pull on my invisibility cloak Becoming a temporary recluse Quiet and thoughtful Seeking the switch to spark me up again.
    TreasureofT TreasureofT 36-40, F Aug 10

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    I'm the little black weeble bug that rolls into a ball when touched. I hide with hopes that it will all disappear but generally when I open my eyes the monsters have only grown. It's worse when they get so big that I can't possibly fight back and then the cycle begins.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2008

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    Days like today...one of those

    where I just sit and wonder what's the point? I mean I try and try and nothing. Why am I sticking around when there's nothing but pain. At times I try to distance myself from him and shut all my feelings off, but I can't. For some reason I get pulled right back in to it. I...
    alesha1 alesha1 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I want to leave my fiancé of 6 yrs.

    I feel as though we are not progressing. When I try to talk to him about my needs his males them sound trivial. He always promises things will get better but I been hearing that for 4 yrs now. Apart from financial difficulty, parental roles, and our jobs taking up out time n...
    reasonseasonlifetime reasonseasonlifetime 26-30, F Mar 22

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    A Secret Harmonic Emotion

    And so I stood alone, did not cry for audience because there was no one that could take me home. I felt like I was dying on my own stage. Blissfully dancing to my secret harmonic emotion. I just let myself go, swaying to the sound of silence. Like a creature of innocence left to...
    MadamSinwell MadamSinwell 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2013

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    Whenever I get really upset, I just try to sleep for as long as I can. Sometimes I wish somebody would just knock me unconscious for a few days.
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F Nov 21, 2007

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    So Tired Of Everything

    My mom was a alcoholic and a pill head for 12 years of my 13 year old life, shes still a pill head though she wont admit it. But i shut everyone out even the people i love. I recently have started to starve myself to take the place of cutting, if i cant have control of my wrists...
    Hunterjumperctr Hunterjumperctr 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    When life is too much

    for me I do not handle it well at all. I go through waves of emotions in less than an hour. I become very depressed, then that depression turns to anger, then the anger turns to regret but I become so hard on myself i get angry all over again-this time at myself, then that turns...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Back And Forth Forever

    I feel unsatisfied. I know exactly what to say, and exactly what I should be doing... yet I can't bring myself to say it. I shut down and wait too long. I let thoughts build up, while I break down. I just get so overwhelmed with everything that's going on that sometimes I can't...
    magickalveneer magickalveneer 22-25, F 21 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    I took a personality test today.

    Apparently my type is INFP. It was pretty scary accurate. It told me I was a good writer, so I think I'm going to become one. I haven't been sure of many things in my life. But one thing I have known for quite a while is that I love writing. There is something about it that...
    okjackie okjackie 16-17, F Oct 6

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    I wish I could figure out whats wrong with me,

    I can't stop pushing people away (unintentionally) and I had a really great evening yesterday and I don't have the motivation anymore to even tell my best friend about it :/ I just randomly get hateful and depressed and I hate it :(
    GreyWolf2014 GreyWolf2014 16-17, F May 5

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    Just Like The Picture... Just.. Not.. Naked.

    Long story short, a few months ago, I stopped talking, to anyone, my parents, my friends, the outside world.  And I shut down. I slept all day, all night. My mom and dad would try to talk to me, and I would go in to a position similar to the picture, and would not move. It felt...
    Heyitsval Heyitsval 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 16, 2011

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    I'm struggling to keep it together

    but I'm on the verge of shutting down. So many things to deal with. I feel like I'm falling apart.
    DeletedDeletedDeleted DeletedDeletedDeleted 26-30, F 7 Responses Mar 26

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    It's not like I can't handle my ****.

    I will handle business if I have to, but it most likely won't be the same quality it would be if the issue were the only issue going on. Once there is more than one issue pinging around in my head, I feel like they gain momentum and never slow down. Molecules and atoms pinging...
    Luckylotus013 Luckylotus013 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I thought things were going good lately

    until the other day my uncle took really unwell and got taken to hospital and that set my emotions off with everything and now as I lay here in bed writing this I ponder what is in store for me tomorrow and the next day.
    Dg135 Dg135 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 7, 2013

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    I sit on the bathroom floor trying to collect

    my thoughts. My body shaking, choking on my tears. The thoughts whiz around in my head till I find something to focus on. I start ticking off the number of times I've felt this way. I can't seem to bring myself to understand why I feel this way. I feel exposed. I feel like when...
    momomonster23 momomonster23 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28

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    It's all psychological

    and I know I can control it but I don't want to. I want it to lead me to where I'm supposed to be.
    ILoveYourSmile ILoveYourSmile 13-15, F Mar 6

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    Dont Know Why!

    Whenever something in my life overwhelms me....I just want to crawl up in a corner and shut everything and everyone out. I am feeling this way right now. I dont feel like sleeping....I dont feel like dealing with anything or anyone. When I feel like Im falling apart I just want...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 13, 2008

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    My Life From Abuse To Healing

    my life is so much better i have my own house its almost been 2 years my deperssion is better i am still in councling , from the abuse from my childhood and 20 years with a abusive man . i am in a happy marrage of almost 5 years , now iam a auther of the book the shades of grace...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F Aug 14, 2010

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    In an occasional space of rarity the stillness

    in my aloneness comforts me. Listening to the sound of my own soft breathing and rhythmic heartbeat brings a tranquility to my restless mind. I hold tight because these things never last very long with me. With my eyes closed I sink into my own sensibilities basking in the...
    MrsSpock78 MrsSpock78 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 27

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    I am so overwhelmed and am shutting down.

    I don't even know where to begin... My family is very dysfunctional with severe enmeshment and co-dependency issues, which is why I probably fell in love with a controlling man who is both physically and mentally abusive... He has lived with me for other a year now, barely...
    VegasOnyxxx VegasOnyxxx 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 17

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    One of the worst things I do,

    and it puts me behind so much. I wish I knew how to just calmly handle everything going on, but instead, I get depressed, emotional, angry, and cold.. Is there anyone out there that I can talk to? :(
    JaidIsAWildflower JaidIsAWildflower 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 2

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    Sleep Time

    When things get to be too much I go to sleep for a while. My mind closes out the world and I shut down and hive myself a break. It is my coping mechanism and seems to work for my needs. It is that or I am just in isolation for a little while and do not want to see anyone...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 5, 2008

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    Dark Seas Ahead.

    I opened my eyes this morning looking for rainbows and sunshine but once again I faced the darkness. I try to put up the happy front but that just seems to make the darkness overwhelm me further. The dark water engulfs my body drowning me in the deepest sorrow.  I try to...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    I just can't keep up with everything.

    There is too much to do, and too many goals that need to be accomplished, and too many things I need to fix about myself. And all the while I just want to retreat and be still. I wish I wasn't such a perfectionist so that every little thing that isn't perfect wouldn't add to my...
    seejoule seejoule 22-25, F Oct 28

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    I haven't left my house in 3 days.

    I've felt overwhelmed and depressed. I'm probably in trouble at work because Friday I couldn't bring myself to go in. I'm also falling behind because of how I'm feeling. I haven't slept or ate right in weeks. Knowing I have to go out that door and face the world today is the...
    Sassynchic Sassynchic 31-35, F 4 Responses May 5

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    So i haven't been on here lately

    because I've felt super stressed out and a little depressed. I don't know what to do anymore.
    ThatWallflower ThatWallflower 18-21, F Jun 20

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    Can't see any light today.

    Just going through motions. No connected to reality numbness overwhelming me.
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 31-35, F Sep 13

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    Exhausted

    exhausted mentally of the world around me... seems like laziness and bitterness has swallowed the entirety of man kind.... seems like everyone only thinks of themselves... what is this black whole we call humanity? One day someones your "best friend" and the next no where to be...
    IzabelKincade IzabelKincade 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 1, 2013

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    Withdrawn

    It's an involuntary reflex, as natural as recoiling from a flame.  As soon as life offends my senses, I'm gone.  I struggle to stay aware, but awareness is painful.  I know the correct actions, but do not act on my instincts.  I sink deep into bad...
    Egoberd Egoberd 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    I Regress

    At times when life becomes too difficult for me to face, I run and hide within myself and seemingly regress to an earlier stage of emotional development.  I sometimes feel like a child in need of loving care and there's no one to give it to me.  Therefore, I just wait...
    trixi trixi 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 3, 2008

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    I Want To Be Alone....i Think

    Suffering with depression and PTSD for eight years....the medication merry-go-round. When things start getting to be too much for me to deal with, when things start going wrong...spiraling out of control, when my anxiety is through the sky, I usually find a place just to be alone...
    ilove2tri ilove2tri 51-55, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    Breakdown...

    there are days that are just sooo hard...when i just want to listen to music, and sleep...or just try to block my mind off things, and be away from people...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2008

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    Rise Of The Dead Man

    Six years ago life became: so overwhelming, so brutal, so difficult to handle that I shut down. I died inside and the ruthless, coldblooded, methodical almost masochistic personality that arose in my place was a dead man walking. My life reached a nightmare state where my dreams...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    It's All Good!

    I don't mean it's good to shut down and disconnect with life and love ones. When I shut down, I shut down body, soul and mind. I lay around, and become a zombie. But good does come from my shut downs. While I am in this mode, all of a sudden, I hear the voice of reason, love...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 13, 2011

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    My parents are trying to talk me out in moving

    to another school in another city. This is going to be the second time but they don't understand how hard it is for me to cope with a new environment again. Now, I'm currently blocking them out since they don't understand anything but putting up a new business in that place, it...
    despitebeingdifferent despitebeingdifferent 18-21, F 1 Response May 20

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    Wasn't like this before.

    I could tackle any problem. But life is truly hell now, and I don't even know where to start. And my inability to impact change in my own life irritates me, which makes me unhappier...welcome to my vicious circle.
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 36-40, F Oct 20

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