I Sit In Bed And Cry, So No One Else Has To See My Tears

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    My pillow could probably tell you more about me

    than anyone or anything else. All the tears I've cried...they all tell a story. 😪
    jessipanda jessipanda
    18-21, F
    Sep 26, 2015

    Any Time Now

    It is a strange thing, my life I guess asking 'why' has become a cliche I'm not ashamed to admit that i cried though i'm a guy makes you wonder what could possibly make a grown man cry? Any time now, I could be leaving the only regret I will have is being reckless & inconsiderate...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 4, 2011

    I do this every single night,

    while listening to sad music. None of my friends know that I'm this bad, only I know. I'm just so alone.. I'm so empty..
    josh2k josh2k
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 3, 2014
    ami101 ami101
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 11, 2015

    Why cry alone? I've done it,

    but I dont have a problem letting people know that Im upset and crying around others is showing your not afraid to appear vulnerable. I dont see a value in hiding my feelings. What good does a sunny outer disposition do when your cold and dark and sad inside? Let out your...
    somewearntme somewearntme
    46-50, M
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015

    A Month

    For the last month, I been crying myself to sleep. I dunno why but i'm just crying...I just feel completely sad inside... never felt like this before. I cry every night and during the day I put on my brave face. I can't breakdown....I just can't...I don't want no one to see me...
    DamensWalker81 DamensWalker81
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2010

    My room. It's the only place I can cry.

    It's the only place I can let out what I'm really feeling.. I might seem ok. But I'm not. I can be real in my own little world. Listening to music and trying to drown out the world.. Trying to drown out my feelings. Try try try... Probably my least favorite word. Cause it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014

    who do I go to when I'm sad?

    I feel like the biggest burden to the one I love the most.
    silentsimp silentsimp
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2016

    I just feel like there is

    so much going on at times I cannot deal with it. So I just lay in my bed an cry. I feel like this is my story an one day it will be my song. Is it really possible to be happy an so unhappy at the same time? I am forever on a roller coaster an I ready for a different ride.
    tladybug tladybug
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 22, 2013

    i cry every night silently due to myself

    sharing a room with my two younger sisters. i cry in the school toilets and whenever my parents arent around... i just cry and come out as if nothings happened... because people rely on me so i need to keep strong
    5203am 5203am
    18-21, F
    Mar 10, 2014

    People don't think I notice,

    that I don't feel, that I don't care, that I'm not afraid, that I can't feel pain..... Maybe because it's true. I'm the demon of my nightmares, the shadowy figure. But nobody knows the real me. I cry alone And nobody knows I cry every night Tonight I'm having a girls night...
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Apr 13, 2014

    U know what! I find myself sitting in this

    chair every night, on EP and crying my life out! Literally! Sometimes I think I can't cry any more and then more tears come out. I just can't control any of this! My life is driving me insane! I am insane! I don't know what to do! I don't think I ever have!
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2014

    I do this everyday, every night,

    while thinking about how I seem to chase nice and good people off. I cry because I am disparaged for my sexual orientation, and would be hated by family and friends that don't already know about it. I hate how I can't change anything in my life, and I am on the verge of losing...
    Drifter15 Drifter15
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 11, 2014

    Is it right to cry myself to sleep?

    I do it every night. Hell, I'm crying right now. Why am I so strong in front of other people am never tell them my secrets so I have to deal with them alone, but I break down as soon as I am alone. I can't help it, if anyone was in my position you would cry too. I'm just crying...
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

    Been Taught That Its A Weakness

    i have always tried to cry alone, not even cry if i can my parents have told me since i can remember to not cry, cry was a sign of weakness and weak was not in our vocablury. also i cry alone, because i never had anyone to cry to, never anyone to share my feelings with. i hate...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2011

    My Brother Told Me To Save My Tears For Someone Better Than The Guys I Was Mixing With

    now I save them for myself really.... I have not met anyone who deserves my tears as much as me yet... even though I have cried for people I have never even met.... like Princess Diana when she died I cried.. I cried over Prince William having that accident... I cried for people...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Oct 22, 2011

    today I was in a meeting

    and all of a sudden I started to shake my PTSD showed up I have been crying since not because the memories just because I promised not to self harm again and I really want to feel the blade slice through my skin
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    I Hate My Life........One Blunder................Another Let Down.............No Success.............Always A Downer!

    There were happy times in my life but I can't remember any of them because they are clouded by all the unhappy times. By the way I am 35 years old and have been living a crappy life since I can remember. One of the things that I have always wanted to do was help people who were...
    jphinn jphinn
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2013
    AfterFall AfterFall
    22-25, F
    Apr 11, 2015

    Sometimes I go in my room,

    close my door behind me, and just lay in my bed and cry. Nobody has to know. I call it silent tears. It's just between my pillow and I. There comes a point in time when you can no longer keep it inside.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 10, 2014

    It's been extremely hard

    for me the past years. I cry almost every week now, sometimes even fall asleep crying. Being gay is one of the hardest and loneliest thing in my life right now. I haven't been in a relationship in 6 years now and the longest one, the only one, lasted 2 weeks. I'm so sad all the...
    dufresnerj dufresnerj
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015

    I hate my life... it's just too much!

    !! here i am... staring at the wall, crying once again... i dnt know how many days has it been since i started crying every night.. did i do something wrong?? why is my life like this?? why do i have to experience pain and hurt and disappointment over and over and over again?! i...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 27, 2013

    I've also figured out a way to cry silently,

    so no one can hear me and ask me what's wrong. I would talk to them about what's bothering me, but I hold too many secrets from them, so I can't fully express what's on my mind.
    hiddenkitty hiddenkitty
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    I crying! I'm crying my heart out right now.

    I just can't do this anymore! It's hurts too much! I don't know what to do! Just when I thought I could shed no more tears, well I was wrong! Please help me. I'm always alone for this but I just can't anymore! Besides it's not like there's a meaning to life anyways! We meet make...
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    I Just Can'T Handle This For Much Longer.

    I was having a pretty good day. Got to see I got good grades and it was nice out. When i was walking home i noticed my dads car was there (My parents are seperated). I went inside and he looked pissed. Let me say that the kitchen was clean, the only thing was the pan cabinet was...
    lovelyjxox lovelyjxox
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 24, 2013

    i don't know why but

    for me its always easier to cry alone because no one sees when i cry in public Is anyone else like that?
    mythlover mythlover
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2015

    My Face Says One Thing But My Heart Says Another.

    I guess I have always cried on my own it's a way of hiding the pain. I am a young carer so I have learned to ignore people who make fun of my family but deep down I feel hurt. I seem to be stronger around other people as I don't want to burden them with what I am feeling so it is...
    A1107 A1107
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2011

    I just want to help people constantly

    so I don't have to worry about anything I'm going through
    ohmyrachael ohmyrachael
    18-21, F
    Jun 15, 2014

    My father raised me to believe

    that crying is a form of weakness. I've been feeling very alone for about a week now. Everywhere I go, I'm seeing happy ******* couples. It's driving me insane. At night I've been downright sobbing into my pillow. It hurts. I hate it. I feel weak and useless.
    Devinamaria Devinamaria
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Jan 19, 2014

    Does anyone else feel like life is falling apart

    and all you wanna do is stay in bed and watch everything go on around you? I'm so stressed and depressed I feel like giving up
    humboldtmermaid humboldtmermaid
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2015

    theres not a night I wont fall asleep in a

    puddle of my tears why an I so upset all the time I dont even know the real reason. what a great feeling to have since I was 14
    imalittlemessedup imalittlemessedup
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    I dislike displaying my tears to others.

    ... After all they would feel sympathy and for some, I don't want to give them the pleasure of hurting me.
    111rosy560 111rosy560
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 26, 2015

    If I could not go back to school I would.

    I would just stay home. Just stay home... Not have to be picked on, called names, laughed at.... I just wish this didn't happen to me. Like sereously... What did I ever to to you guys to deserve this!?
    kleopard88 kleopard88
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 3, 2014

    I don't let people see cause I don't think they

    care. there's noting they can do either
    MeloTail MeloTail
    16-17, F
    Dec 2, 2015

    Of Course

    I don't want anyone to see me cry, I don't want anyone to have to suffer with me, or care about what's wrong with me. That's too much to ask of anyone. I sit in my bed so my pride remain intact and uninjured. I cry until I sleep, no matter what time of day. It's better that way...
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 3, 2011

    Yes so I can be stronger

    so no one has to see I don't have to add on to problems
    TMNT18 TMNT18
    18-21, F
    Jan 7, 2015
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