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I Sit In Bed And Cry, So No One Else Has To See My Tears

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    My father raised me to believe

    that crying is a form of weakness. I've been feeling very alone for about a week now. Everywhere I go, I'm seeing happy ******* couples. It's driving me insane. At night I've been downright sobbing into my pillow. It hurts. I hate it. I feel weak and useless.
    Devinamaria Devinamaria 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    ami101 ami101 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 11

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    Is it right to cry myself to sleep?

    I do it every night. Hell, I'm crying right now. Why am I so strong in front of other people am never tell them my secrets so I have to deal with them alone, but I break down as soon as I am alone. I can't help it, if anyone was in my position you would cry too. I'm just crying...
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    My Brother Told Me To Save My Tears For Someone Better Than The Guys I Was Mixing With

    now I save them for myself really.... I have not met anyone who deserves my tears as much as me yet... even though I have cried for people I have never even met.... like Princess Diana when she died I cried.. I cried over Prince William having that accident... I cried for people...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 22, 2011

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    Pain

    I am in pain My family doesn’t realize I pull a straight face in front of them They wouldn’t understand why I am this way I am different at school My parents push me way to much I have gone through so much **** in just 4 years I was betrayed by my longest friend I was...
    RacerGurl16 RacerGurl16 18-21, F Feb 28, 2013

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    Been Taught That Its A Weakness

    i have always tried to cry alone, not even cry if i can my parents have told me since i can remember to not cry, cry was a sign of weakness and weak was not in our vocablury. also i cry alone, because i never had anyone to cry to, never anyone to share my feelings with. i hate...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    I just feel like there is

    so much going on at times I cannot deal with it. So I just lay in my bed an cry. I feel like this is my story an one day it will be my song. Is it really possible to be happy an so unhappy at the same time? I am forever on a roller coaster an I ready for a different ride.
    tladybug tladybug 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    A Month

    For the last month, I been crying myself to sleep. I dunno why but i'm just crying...I just feel completely sad inside... never felt like this before. I cry every night and during the day I put on my brave face. I can't breakdown....I just can't...I don't want no one to see me...
    DamensWalker81 DamensWalker81 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2010

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    I crying! I'm crying my heart out right now.

    I just can't do this anymore! It's hurts too much! I don't know what to do! Just when I thought I could shed no more tears, well I was wrong! Please help me. I'm always alone for this but I just can't anymore! Besides it's not like there's a meaning to life anyways! We meet make...
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    Alone

    When I'm left with nothing to do, I find myself crying. I don't know why, I'm not really depressed or anything. I have a mean mom, so the only thing I have in life is this iPod I bought with my own money. I'm writing this with it right now. I've gone long enough in life...
    Crossdressingprincess Crossdressingprincess 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 3, 2011

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    Sometimes I go in my room,

    close my door behind me, and just lay in my bed and cry. Nobody has to know. I call it silent tears. It's just between my pillow and I. There comes a point in time when you can no longer keep it inside.
    BrowningEmpress BrowningEmpress 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2014

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    I do this every single night,

    while listening to sad music. None of my friends know that I'm this bad, only I know. I'm just so alone.. I'm so empty..
    josh2k josh2k 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 3, 2014

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    Yes so I can be stronger

    so no one has to see I don't have to add on to problems
    TMNT18 TMNT18 18-21, F Jan 7

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    BurnMyDread BurnMyDread 18-21, F Apr 11

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    i cry every night silently due to myself

    sharing a room with my two younger sisters. i cry in the school toilets and whenever my parents arent around... i just cry and come out as if nothings happened... because people rely on me so i need to keep strong
    5203am 5203am 18-21, F Mar 10, 2014

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    I Just Can'T Handle This For Much Longer.

    I was having a pretty good day. Got to see I got good grades and it was nice out. When i was walking home i noticed my dads car was there (My parents are seperated). I went inside and he looked pissed. Let me say that the kitchen was clean, the only thing was the pan cabinet was...
    lovelyjxox lovelyjxox 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 24, 2013

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    People don't think I notice,

    that I don't feel, that I don't care, that I'm not afraid, that I can't feel pain..... Maybe because it's true. I'm the demon of my nightmares, the shadowy figure. But nobody knows the real me. I cry alone And nobody knows I cry every night Tonight I'm having a girls night...
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    I do this everyday, every night,

    while thinking about how I seem to chase nice and good people off. I cry because I am disparaged for my sexual orientation, and would be hated by family and friends that don't already know about it. I hate how I can't change anything in my life, and I am on the verge of losing...
    Drifter15 Drifter15 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 11, 2014

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    i don't know why but

    for me its always easier to cry alone because no one sees when i cry in public Is anyone else like that?
    mythlover mythlover 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I Hate My Life........One Blunder................Another Let Down.............No Success.............Always A Downer!

    There were happy times in my life but I can't remember any of them because they are clouded by all the unhappy times. By the way I am 35 years old and have been living a crappy life since I can remember. One of the things that I have always wanted to do was help people who were...
    jphinn jphinn 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 19, 2013

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    I just want to help people constantly

    so I don't have to worry about anything I'm going through
    ohmyrachael ohmyrachael 18-21, F Jun 15, 2014

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    Cry. Forgive. Learn. Move on.

    Let your tears water the seeds of your future happiness...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F Jan 16

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    My room. It's the only place I can cry.

    It's the only place I can let out what I'm really feeling.. I might seem ok. But I'm not. I can be real in my own little world. Listening to music and trying to drown out the world.. Trying to drown out my feelings. Try try try... Probably my least favorite word. Cause it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    When I was younger I would cry in my bed room

    and listen to simple plan on repeat pretty loudly so no one would hear me. Welcome to my life really touched me
    SecondStars SecondStars 18-21, F Jun 15, 2014

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    If I could not go back to school I would.

    I would just stay home. Just stay home... Not have to be picked on, called names, laughed at.... I just wish this didn't happen to me. Like sereously... What did I ever to to you guys to deserve this!?
    kleopard88 kleopard88 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2014

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    Not On Public

    I often cry on my bed whenever I tackle a bad, awful, hurting, humiliating and creepy moment. I seldom show my tears in public or infront of many people or friends. I just don't like to be look pity in their sight, it's not about I don't appreciate their care but I just don...
    MauGuju03 MauGuju03 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2010

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    So Yesterday Was My Birthday...

    and no one remembered. I take care of my grandmother my father and I rasie my brother. I almost never have time for my own thoughts let alone my own life. They are ungrateful for the fact that I serve their ever beck & call, and that if it weren't for me the adults would be in a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 22, 2011

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    U know what! I find myself sitting in this

    chair every night, on EP and crying my life out! Literally! Sometimes I think I can't cry any more and then more tears come out. I just can't control any of this! My life is driving me insane! I am insane! I don't know what to do! I don't think I ever have!
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 11, 2014

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    Of Course

    I don't want anyone to see me cry, I don't want anyone to have to suffer with me, or care about what's wrong with me. That's too much to ask of anyone. I sit in my bed so my pride remain intact and uninjured. I cry until I sleep, no matter what time of day. It's better that way...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2011

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    Any Time Now

    It is a strange thing, my life I guess asking 'why' has become a cliche I'm not ashamed to admit that i cried though i'm a guy makes you wonder what could possibly make a grown man cry? Any time now, I could be leaving the only regret I will have is being reckless & inconsiderate...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 4, 2011

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    My Face Says One Thing But My Heart Says Another.

    I guess I have always cried on my own it's a way of hiding the pain. I am a young carer so I have learned to ignore people who make fun of my family but deep down I feel hurt. I seem to be stronger around other people as I don't want to burden them with what I am feeling so it is...
    A1107 A1107 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    I hate my life... it's just too much!

    !! here i am... staring at the wall, crying once again... i dnt know how many days has it been since i started crying every night.. did i do something wrong?? why is my life like this?? why do i have to experience pain and hurt and disappointment over and over and over again?! i...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    I often cry myself to sleep, more than usual lately, I am going through a whole lot right now, especially with my family, there has been a lot of stress, and during the day I smile...
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    its one of the great things in life lol
    awesomeguy3125 awesomeguy3125 26-30, M 13 hrs ago

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    tonight, i just can't stop the tears, i wish there was an off button somewhere, to make them stop, been crying all night, now going to go get into bed, and prob cry some more...
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    My boyfriend is going to be in the military and will be gone for the next several months... I really truly try to stay strong, but I can't always do it. I can't tell him that I...
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