I Smile Even Though I Am Sad

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    I've been doing this

    for as long as I can remember. I find it hard to cry infront of people or talk about my feelings. I fear being judged,ridiculed or misunderstood. The feelings I have are so complicated for anyone to understand. I loathe pity from people. There is difference between feeling...
    Susana1985 Susana1985
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2014

    Sometimes I forget what made me sad to begin

    with. Its like if you keep pretending you are fine, then soon you will believe it. I never see the point in dwelling on the bad moments in life, instead I work hard to get ahead to give myself a better life.
    CryoticLove CryoticLove
    18-21, F
    Apr 9, 2015

    The sun did not rise today.

    .. My skin did not feel its warmth. My soul did not feel it's comfort. My mind is full of shadows of the past. Darkness surrounds me...my hurt like tiny shards of glass being pushed into my skin... My eyes blink away the tears that threaten to fall...my smile hides the hurt...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2015

    Hey WORLD! I am sad. So much worries

    and troubles. I cannot bear all this. I want to leave this cruel world. REST IN PEACE!
    TheMostHandsomeGuyMe TheMostHandsomeGuyMe
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

    People think this is Awful: to smile

    when you are sad. But it's not. It's life. 100 percent of people on earth do this. There are two types of feelings: rational and irrational. Those who insist they don't haven't had to deal with tragedy and do not have complicated emotions where they are facing death and joy in...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    Mar 6

    My Husband Passed Away in My Arm's,

    2/19/16 in our Rented Home of 7 Years. We Rent from his Sister. The minute Louie Died, My Sister in-law told me " You have to Move, you can't Stay here anymore!!!" on 3/1/16 She Taped on My Door a "3 Day Pay or Quit" & a "60 Day Vacate" I am all Alone, on S.S.I. ($889 per Month...
    fancy61 fancy61
    51-55
    2 Responses Mar 21
    richie161 richie161
    16-17, M
    Dec 30, 2015

    I'm never happy anymore

    but I smile either way. I smile because I don't want to make people feel the same way . Also I've learned that if you are or act angry around other people they can take that into there personality and you can also make them hate you. I've also learned to show no emotion or...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 10

    Well at least I try to.

    .. Sometimes I fail to do it,but that's rare,unless my day has been super bad or I am having a PMS! ;) Other than that it always works. These days I keep thinking how would I have performed if I was a professional actress!! And the answer that flashes in my mind is "I would...
    lonelysoulPam lonelysoulPam
    41-45, F
    4 Responses May 28, 2014

    She pulls the brush through her long dark hair.

    ...preparing her self for work...lets a big sigh out and says to her self "Do I have to?" she dreaded the out side world, but she knew she could not hide from it, she had to be in it to survive.....She touches up her face...sharpens those dark eyes up a little more...they are...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2015

    I just found out my grandpa almost passed away

    this past week. He's doing better then he was. I have been with him today for most of my day. He's lost so much weight it makes me wanna cry. But I'll be here to see him every day. Spend as much time as I can. While we have time.
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    I'm at my most vulnerable right now.

    Kind of sucks but good at the same time. 5:42am February 19th.
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    5 Responses Feb 19

    Real men neither cheat

    nor abuse women
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2015

    Seriously, I was teary-eyed during class.

    If I could get out of my head, getting through the day would be much easier. I mean, I annoy myself for fu(k's sake.
    DreamOfAFox DreamOfAFox
    13-15, F
    Apr 6

    i feel depressed all the time.

    people expect me to be good at everything just because i get good grades and going to Harvard Uni next year but people never ask how i really feel.
    08RoseBlack 08RoseBlack
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Jan 29, 2015

    I always put on a smile

    and act happy infront of everyone when deep down Im really kinda sad. I just dont want my friends to worry
    Katiedollx Katiedollx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2015

    Have you ever had a strong sense of foreboding

    only to find out that a good friend has cancer? Happened to me a couple weeks ago.. Now my friend has to see a surgeon, have tests, biopsies..surgery.. Please send huge wishes for a full recovery for him..
    VanTraveller VanTraveller
    51-55, F
    Nov 9, 2015

    I am always trying to be okay

    although I am not. And it sucks. Really.
    TjDee TjDee
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2015

    Journal Entry: March 12, 2013

    My heart got shattered into pieces all over again. But this time it was sharper. It hurt more. It's excruciating. I fell again for someone beautiful. Some one i thought was like me. Some one who i thought understood me. But today, in the mist of all my pain, there was  a light...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites
    16-17, F
    Apr 27, 2013

    I think it is a bit weird,

    how I'm laughing 24*7 but the truth is, I feel unexplainably sad most of the time. The loneliness and pent up emotions hurt me now. I want to socialise but don't want to socialise.
    ExperiencesAndNotMistakes ExperiencesAndNotMistakes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 2, 2015

    Well I finally did. I cannot afford to

    literally express my feelings at home. Mom won't understand because she says that she is the victim of God know what. And what started it all is that I asked for a ride home, and she said sure. She was late, so I asked again, and apparently I had an attitude and hung up on her...
    Dylanhgh Dylanhgh
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015

    this is how i feel im super emotional

    and i don't knoe why i take it out on my fiancee i don't knoe how he deals with all my emotions and still wants too be with me im a mess lol
    treasure91 treasure91
    22-25, F
    Mar 18

    Why should I show my real emotions?

    No one cares anyway. All they do is just point and laugh or say I'm just an attention-craving b****. They want me gone and dead. "You're just a fake, b****'' ''You're nothing" "Stop acting you're special." " The day you're gone will be be the happiest day the world have been...
    colourflame colourflame
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2015

    I always smile, even

    when I'm sad..even more when I'm sad maybe. A smile makes good people happy, a scowl makes good people sad. If life sucks, if I'm hurting, then I've got more reason than ever to try to make the world around me a better place. Something as simple as a smile begets joy, and once...
    thatonewoman thatonewoman
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Sep 24, 2014
    satyamsingh8041997 satyamsingh8041997
    18-21, M
    Feb 19

    Next week, I'll be signing the settlement

    agreement, which will bind me from seeking any further help from the law enforcement or filing a lawsuit against him in the future, in exchange of a small amount of monetary compensation which only covers the cost of my attorney's fee. My attorney believes I'm making the right...
    Letmebee Letmebee
    22-25, F
    Apr 3

    You don't need to know my feelings.

    They're mine to deal with. You say you're sorry, but you can't really do anything about what I am going through. Leave me be and I'll come back around; I always do. Let me deal with my sadness alone. You may be able to see through my fake smile, but I don't want your...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 23, 2015

    Though i am sad I smile

    because I don't want others to be sad seeing my horrible situation some times.
    abhishek25 abhishek25
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2015

    Smile. Pretend to be happy.

    It makes everyone else happy.
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446
    13-15, T
    1 Response Dec 28, 2015

    Cause I don't want to let the people know

    that I'm weak. I'm so fragile inside but luckily I can fake well with my smile and my humors.
    FinnyFunny FinnyFunny
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jun 14, 2014

    it's so sad to know that those people

    who told you they care about you is now ignoring you as if they never knew you. As if you've never been part of their lives. As if you never exist.
    DeathThrone DeathThrone
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2015

    I go about my day and then find myself on the

    brink of tears. Like right now. I feel like such an outsider all the time, looking in. People have real relationships with other people and I'm stuck on the surface. I don't know how to be close to people, I can only be pleasant and reasonably alright to spend time with. I hate...
    ajcam ajcam
    22-25, F
    Apr 3

    I'm done with life tbh.

    I have this aching feeling in my chest and I don't know why I just want to die.
    Angel2345 Angel2345
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 6

    like my mom says "smile

    even if your breaking apart inside and hold your head up high never let them see that your sad." im breaking im sad im lonely im tired im done with life but no one cares
    ilovetturtles ilovetturtles
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Feb 7

    When you realize the experience "I Am LeahLovee

    Album" has three "song" dedicated to one person unintentionally. Memories back.
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    Mar 6

    Not that I'm sad now,

    but I do hide my sadness now and again. I don't like pretending that I'm sad but I don't like pretending I'm happy either!
    SeanaO SeanaO
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2015
    gaxle gaxle
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 10
    unknowngirlvasquez unknowngirlvasquez
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 23, 2014

    The hardest moment are not those

    when tears flow from eyes. It's when you have to hide the tears in your eyes with a smile on your lips.
    heartless0000 heartless0000
    18-21, M
    Feb 23

    Sometimes you have to just sit back

    and smile. because if you don't, it just hurts. I have a daughter that never took care of herself after an auto accident. she had head trauma. So, I have to deal with several things that keep coming back. She was 15. now older and a mother and wife. Makes me ask questions of...
    IGWMH IGWMH
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Mar 6

    I met this guy online in April.

    He's my best friend now. He was as wrecked as could be. We dated and only broke up last month. T'was me who broke up. He's okay now. Tables are turning. I did so much to make his world better. Now things are looking better for him and things are getting worse for me. He pointed...
    AlexisOwO AlexisOwO
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 10, 2015

    I am filled with such sadness at times

    that it is hard for me to breath. There is this lump in my throat. I feel like I could cry for hours about so many things, but then I think of my daughter and how much that would scare and sadden her, so I ignore that urge, but the lump doesn't go away. it's an ever present ache...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 25, 2014

    Everyone says I have a lovely big smile

    and that I'm such a happy person but I guess I smile a lot because I never want anyone to go through the pain I'm going thru and if I tell them why I'm sad they don't know what to do only just feel sorry for me which I don't want so I'd rather smile and pretend everything's okay...
    PositiveStateOfMind PositiveStateOfMind
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 3

    Love hurts...it sucks.

    I can sit here and say I don't need it, but that would be a lie. I need Human contact, to be held, someone to tell me everything will be ok. Im not perfect....but who is. I love unconditionally, why is finding the same kind of love so hard....
    addict408 addict408
    26-30, F
    Oct 15, 2015

    I just am not the type of person

    who shows my sadness. Because when I do, I feel like I am seek attention and is begging for sympathy.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Nov 26, 2014
    kitticat007 kitticat007
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

    Smiling takes all the sadness away,

    I don't have room in my heart for nasty rude ignorant people who are unhappy with themselves ...
    freespiritgal2777 freespiritgal2777
    26-30, F
    Mar 3, 2014

    This is stupid and I don't know

    why it's bothering me so much. I have an ex, I'm going to call him C2 because it makes sense. He's always been like a best friend since we broke up 4 years ago. I've helped him in his relationships, he's helped me in mine, he's more helped me. He's always been there, even down...
    leftbehind2011 leftbehind2011
    18-21, F
    Oct 3, 2015

    Hello everyone:) I'm happy

    and looking forward to meet new friends from this site. could you help me to feel better because sometimes i felt alone.
    kittytehy kittytehy
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2015

    I smile through the pain

    while im at school but behind closed doors people dont even know the half
    depressedsinceforever depressedsinceforever
    16-17, F
    Oct 23, 2015

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