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I Smile Even Though I Am Sad

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    I always put on a smile

    and act happy infront of everyone when deep down Im really kinda sad. I just dont want my friends to worry
    Katiedollx Katiedollx 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I just found out my grandpa almost passed away

    this past week. He's doing better then he was. I have been with him today for most of my day. He's lost so much weight it makes me wanna cry. But I'll be here to see him every day. Spend as much time as I can. While we have time.
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    im so done with life,

    i just wanna die wauw
    lorebriers lorebriers 18-21, F 2 Responses May 2

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    unknowngirlvasquez unknowngirlvasquez 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 23, 2014

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    Well I finally did. I cannot afford to

    literally express my feelings at home. Mom won't understand because she says that she is the victim of God know what. And what started it all is that I asked for a ride home, and she said sure. She was late, so I asked again, and apparently I had an attitude and hung up on her...
    Dylanhgh Dylanhgh 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 1

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    Sometimes I forget what made me sad to begin

    with. Its like if you keep pretending you are fine, then soon you will believe it. I never see the point in dwelling on the bad moments in life, instead I work hard to get ahead to give myself a better life.
    CryoticLove CryoticLove 18-21, F Apr 9

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    claninzx claninzx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    Journal Entry: March 12, 2013

    My heart got shattered into pieces all over again. But this time it was sharper. It hurt more. It's excruciating. I fell again for someone beautiful. Some one i thought was like me. Some one who i thought understood me. But today, in the mist of all my pain, there was  a light...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 16-17, F Apr 27, 2013

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    Dear family, You are my world,

    so much that I can't bear to tell you how empty I am feeling inside. At the end of the day I cry because I can't bear to do it in front of you. Dear brother, I wake up everyday wondering if you're okay. I almost lost you, and it still haunts me. I feel like I failed you. Dear...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 29

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    Because by that I can make others happy

    and I think that's most important
    StrawBracelet StrawBracelet 18-21, F Dec 12, 2014

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    Smiling takes all the sadness away,

    I don't have room in my heart for nasty rude ignorant people who are unhappy with themselves ...
    freespiritgal2777 freespiritgal2777 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 3, 2014

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    I just am not the type of person

    who shows my sadness. Because when I do, I feel like I am seek attention and is begging for sympathy.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I've been doing this

    for as long as I can remember. I find it hard to cry infront of people or talk about my feelings. I fear being judged,ridiculed or misunderstood. The feelings I have are so complicated for anyone to understand. I loathe pity from people. There is difference between feeling...
    Susana1985 Susana1985 26-30, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    I am filled with such sadness at times

    that it is hard for me to breath. There is this lump in my throat. I feel like I could cry for hours about so many things, but then I think of my daughter and how much that would scare and sadden her, so I ignore that urge, but the lump doesn't go away. it's an ever present ache...
    MelMel68 MelMel68 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2014

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    The sun did not rise today.

    .. My skin did not feel its warmth. My soul did not feel it's comfort. My mind is full of shadows of the past. Darkness surrounds me...my hurt like tiny shards of glass being pushed into my skin... My eyes blink away the tears that threaten to fall...my smile hides the hurt...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    I try an get on with things

    as normal. But I miss those Who I love the most. Miss my dead wife, miss my dead mum. Sometime think I'm tired of this. I wanna b with people I love, I'd never kills myself but I feel life is soooooooo long sometimes. Daily grind of getting up. Trying to get some money together...
    Widower1 Widower1 31-35 2 Responses Aug 7

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 17

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    "If I were to die how would it be done?

    Would I spend my days in silence, Or splendor's living son? Wear a nice Hawaiian shirt, party down the block, Dance beneath the moonlight with a girl whose gaze I'd lock? Or drink myself to heaven, spend time in a spell, Take revenge on all who made my life a living hell...
    EurydiceKallos EurydiceKallos 18-21, F Jul 16

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    Well at least I try to.

    .. Sometimes I fail to do it,but that's rare,unless my day has been super bad or I am having a PMS! ;) Other than that it always works. These days I keep thinking how would I have performed if I was a professional actress!! And the answer that flashes in my mind is "I would...
    lonelysoulPam lonelysoulPam 41-45, F 6 Responses May 28, 2014

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    people who abandoned me.

    ...even tho they promised to stay......it hurts.......i smile because m parents don't know amd dont understand.....they know about me having online friends, but they dont understand what my online friends mean to me.....they never will understand
    InabaTewi InabaTewi 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 9

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    Some friendships come

    and go and it's painful to see and feel them slip away. Like most things in life this may not happen overnight but slowly and so subtle that we may not even notice. I wish there was something that would make it possible to hold on, to not let that happen. Perhaps it's a change...
    luce05 luce05 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    *smile* Yeah im fine.

    ... No, dont worry. Lol just a bit tired.... How many times have i said those lines... I sit here alone... Suffering... It's a been a long time, old friend.... I haven't felt this sad in a long time... Idek fuc**** why(srry for language), but i feel like a scum right now...
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    I always smile, even

    when I'm sad..even more when I'm sad maybe. A smile makes good people happy, a scowl makes good people sad. If life sucks, if I'm hurting, then I've got more reason than ever to try to make the world around me a better place. Something as simple as a smile begets joy, and once...
    thatonewoman thatonewoman 26-30, F 7 Responses Sep 24, 2014

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    kitticat007 kitticat007 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    it's so sad to know that those people

    who told you they care about you is now ignoring you as if they never knew you. As if you've never been part of their lives. As if you never exist.
    DeathThrone DeathThrone 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I'm fed up with bullshit.

    So so do tired of inhaling oxygen into the friendship and you just trow me a bone when it suits ya. I feel conned, lied and almost betrayed...not by a lover not betrayed that way but I was foolish enough to think I could make friends. I really should have known differently...
    cheekyhannah36 cheekyhannah36 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 9

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    I read somewhere that the answer is smiling.

    Smile when you're sad. Smile when you're alone. Smile when you're mad. Smile even if you don't want to. Try it. It makes everything a little bit better. Not a lot, but even little things count. Or maybe you'll just feel a little bit better because you kinda look stupid. Laugh it...
    Ishdee Ishdee 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2014

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    i feel depressed all the time.

    people expect me to be good at everything just because i get good grades and going to Harvard Uni next year but people never ask how i really feel.
    08RoseBlack 08RoseBlack 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 29

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    Everyone, I love you!

    do not think you are alone!! I will be by your side and hold your hand as we all fight together <3333333
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 22-25, F Aug 12, 2014

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    Why should I show my real emotions?

    No one cares anyway. All they do is just point and laugh or say I'm just an attention-craving b****. They want me gone and dead. "You're just a fake, b****'' ''You're nothing" "Stop acting you're special." " The day you're gone will be be the happiest day the world have been...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    You can only take so much.

    And when you lose it, that's when everyone realizes. They realize when it's too late. They judge you for what only they realize without knowing the full story. And it hurts. Everyone has a breaking point, but not everyone has seen it. They can be scared to show it. When...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Jan 16

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    Talking is my way of expressing myself,

    then somebody really close to me told me to stop because she dont want to hear my voice anymore. So I shut my mouth up. I dont often get offended yet this is unbearable.
    avienavie avienavie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    I love my parents to death,

    but sometimes I feel like they hate me. They yell, and cuss at me, but I know It's because of me. I shouldn't do mean or bad things to provoke them. So many people hurt me (coaches in sports, parents, other kids,) and I try not to care. I just take it and pretend it's all ok. I...
    MadisonFox00 MadisonFox00 13-15, F Apr 22

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    Mostly. Things are getting worse on my end

    as far as family goes. My mother is most definitely talking to other men and referring to my dad (her husband) as her "ex" in text messages. Really breaks my heart. I was always so used to being close to my family, now every time we talk it's like we get into huge arguments, and...
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    Hello, my name is Laurentiu

    and I'll be 18 next mounth on the 16 of july. My father abandoned me and my mom since my birth, so I grew up without the leading of a father. Since I was very little I observed that people used to avoid me in a way or another. I used to play alone and watch to them how they...
    b16laurentiu b16laurentiu 18-21, M Jun 27

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    I am always trying to be okay

    although I am not. And it sucks. Really.
    TjDee TjDee 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    She pulls the brush through her long dark hair.

    ...preparing her self for work...lets a big sigh out and says to her self "Do I have to?" she dreaded the out side world, but she knew she could not hide from it, she had to be in it to survive.....She touches up her face...sharpens those dark eyes up a little more...they are...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    Even when I'm sad I smile.

    I like to think things will get better.
    Frannyj Frannyj 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 8, 2014

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    To this day I still put on a fake smile on my

    face every single day. Honestly I'm so good at that people can't even tell when I'm happy or sad. Its almost like what one of my friends told me.... The most damaged people are the wisest people The loneliest people are the kindest people The saddest people smile the brights! I...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M Dec 26, 2013

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    You don't need to know my feelings.

    They're mine to deal with. You say you're sorry, but you can't really do anything about what I am going through. Leave me be and I'll come back around; I always do. Let me deal with my sadness alone. You may be able to see through my fake smile, but I don't want your...
    RetardedGixer RetardedGixer 41-45, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    "Smile if there's anything you want Please tell

    me how it feels to live in a million dreams Smile if there's anything you want Whenever you come around you're surely the only one.." Atomic Swing
    Kardia Kardia 36-40 1 Response Mar 10

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    Sometime you THINK you could do it.

    Smile, just smile. That's because it haven't reach the explode bottom. But when it does, all the pressure all the emotion, all the words you heard, all the things you seen, EVERYTHING, you had suppress it once. It all comes back like it just happened a moment ago. It's tsunami...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 21

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    Sometimes all you can do is look in the mirror

    and remind yourself to keep going.. Just another night I get to cry myself to sleep.
    LoveCures09 LoveCures09 22-25, F Sep 14, 2014

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    I met this guy online in April.

    He's my best friend now. He was as wrecked as could be. We dated and only broke up last month. T'was me who broke up. He's okay now. Tables are turning. I did so much to make his world better. Now things are looking better for him and things are getting worse for me. He pointed...
    AlexisOwO AlexisOwO 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    I'm smiling... That's a lie Inside I'm crying

    but I bear the false I bear everything they throw So? I smile to please them To please me? Not so much The dream that still dares to live in me Is crawling for mercy The "Me" I've been trying to live is fighting for mercy Breathing. Exhaling. Living. Really Living It's not...
    EurydiceKallos EurydiceKallos 18-21, F Jun 28