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I Smile to Hide the Pain

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    Liar

    I'm laughing and smiling but behind those fake smiles and that forced laughter, I'm hurting like crazy. I'm falling apart, breaking, but still, I keep smiling cause' I don't want anyone to know how badly I'm actually hurting, I don't want anyone to see me like this, I don't want...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2013

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    I Hurt!!! But Dammit, I Still Smile!

    I get really tired sometimes of being the smiley, happy, bouncy person that people expect me to be.  That's what I am most of the time.  I genuinely am usually happy.  But here's the thing....I'm in a very turbulent relationship and sometimes I just don't...
    tinkerbell75 tinkerbell75 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2009

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    Sometimes It Hurts Too Much

    I often find myself smiling for no reason at all. My mother used to attest that this was a sign of weakness. I told my mother I smiled when I became nervous, but inside I felt something deeper. I usually think about what my point is in this world. Do these friendships really...
    Nimzo33 Nimzo33 70+ 1 Response Dec 12, 2009

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    Behind The Smile

    I smile at work so everyone thinks I'm okay. I smile at home so my family wont worry. I smile infront of boyfriend so he wont suspect something is wrong. I smile all day long for hope that maybe one day my outside smile will reflect how i feel on the inside. Sometimes it hurts so...
    Panda223344 Panda223344 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2009

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    Keep Smiling

    Im trying, im really trying not to show you how much your words cut into me and to keep smiling and laughing it off and I really dont know how you believe me each and every time because to me the smile and the laughs and the jokes get faker and faker all the time am I really that...
    LittleLilyLove LittleLilyLove 18-21, F Jul 8, 2013

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    No One Knows A Fake Smile ..

    I have a pretty complicated life but i can't show my feelings iv'e not been able to for a long time i have to stay strong for everyone else i hold together my family with just simply smiling even when inside i feel like im about to explode with emotions, i am glad i am the one in...
    staystrongangel13 staystrongangel13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2013

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    Smile And Act Like You Zoned Out

    I just got dumped and he said he still liked me and he still loved me! I was sitting ini class remembering those words and i guess i looked really depressed because my said "are you ok i'm worried about you" i completly didn't know what to say so i said "Uh huh i just zoned out...
    SaveMeByShineDown SaveMeByShineDown 13-15, F Mar 24, 2011

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    Smiling Laughing Eyes sparkling A sign of

    happiness? Lies They’re all lies Beneath that smile is a frown Underneath that laughing is crying Those sparkling eyes They’re ready to start glistening, pouring down that face. That sunshine that you see, is actually the darkness screaming capturing, those living souls The...
    Secretdiary92 Secretdiary92 18-21, F Feb 2

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 2 Responses May 2, 2012

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    TRUE. It somehow scares me how I can still

    smile even when im in a total mess. How I can laugh and pretend things are fine when they aren't. How I managed to survive day after day of my really hard depressing life. Sometimes I question myself if im just fooling myself whenever I smile. Because I pretend everything is...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    Pretender

    Sometimes, you have to pretend that you're happy and fine until you realize that your pretention has become your strength to move on. and that's what I'm doing.
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2010

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlove22 cheerlove22 13-15, F May 1, 2012

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    A Smile Is A Good Musk

    Well i'm always smiling to people to hide what i really feel,i don't want them to see me weak.....................
    kaaty kaaty 20, F 3 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    A The Presence Of Pain I Lie With A Smile.

    Pain.. yes, that horrible pain that makes you feel a knot in your throat; as you hold down the cravings to cry, to let yourself go to, just give up and stop smiling. I have too, felt this. I hide my pain smiling, acting casual, holding back what I really want to say. I often get...
    OutcastedDaughter OutcastedDaughter 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2011

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    Smile And Nod

    That's I did growing up smile and nod or wave at the pretty people for they will never know that deep down inside is a little girl crying out In pain she sobs and cry deep down behind that cute smile every one goes aww for I wish you could see the pain but I can't stop smiling I...
    brokenandalone brokenandalone 18-21, F Oct 23, 2010

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    Look Happy

    I am disabled .I suffer with a crumbling spine and a heart murmer due to a hole in the back of my heart .I suffer with all sorts of things related to this and over the last 6/7 years my outlook on life aint so positive .I suffer with chronic depression ,agrophobia and...
    beastman111 beastman111 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    It Hurts Sometimes

    at school (high scool) i am this happy bubbly energetic outgoing person who is always happy. inside i am on the verge of tears, stressed and been through/going through SO MUCH. this emotion is concealed in me by a thin layer always on the verge of snapping. i am so used to...
    sashimi0894 sashimi0894 13-15, F Feb 24, 2010

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    Inappropriate Smiles and Laughter

    Over there years I have had to tell my story to proffesionals and sometimes friends.  There has been alot of intense pain in my history.  I would often find my self smiling, laughing or giggling about the worst moments in my life.  I know that those reactions were...
    danielle17374 danielle17374 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    I Smile To Hide The Pain

    I am too young to have this problem but " I Smile to Hide the Pain ", I always wanted my friend will comfort me or someone will understand me and I can count on that I can say all my problems and she will help me to solve it but unfortunately THERE'S NO ONE . I'm always a happy...
    sadbuthappyperson sadbuthappyperson 13-15 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    A Smile, A Mask Of Happiness

    I wear my happy mask always. I take it off when i am completely alone, with my music blasting and maybe something to ease the pain. But, even around my friends, boyfriend, coworkers, and my son I hide away all my pain behind a poorly-faked smile. I can never really express why i...
    unholysiren unholysiren 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    The Pain

    When one has witnessed death beyond what one of extreme strength can handle they will know how I feel. When one witnesses it happen to everything and everyone they have ever loved they will understand what suffering is. When one has no one to help or when everyone is scared of...
    Cuddleswrathchild Cuddleswrathchild 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 8, 2012

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    Alone

    From childhood’s hour I have not been As others were—I have not seen As others saw—I could not bring My passions from a common spring— From the same source I have not taken My sorrow—I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone— And all I lov’d—I lov...
    anb251999 anb251999 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    My Sis

    My sister was raped at the age 13 and i whatche it happen i didnt want to but the person who raped her was my boyfriends brotherr what was i suposed to do... but me and him broke up but this past summer he asked me out and while we were dating that same day we started dating he...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    We All Do to Some Degree

    I think we all smile and grin and bear it to some form or fashion.  Like how many times do people ask you a day how you are doing and you just smile and say fine.  In reality at times you are like my day has sucked and I hate somebody.  As a society it tends to be...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F Sep 15, 2008

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    A Simple Smile No one ever wants to know about

    behind the scenes. Like if you go to see a movie, you only want to know about it not what happened to make it. So for example, if you are happy no one will know about how you cry every night. Or if you are popular, they won't ask about how you got that bruise. If you are...
    TearsBecomeSnow TearsBecomeSnow 16-17, F Feb 11

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    I Smile All the Time..

    I dont necessarily smile to hide pain, but I do smile to hide the painful awkwardness of social situations http://when-the-dog-bites.blogspot.com/    
    thepeaceful1 thepeaceful1 16-17 1 Response Sep 15, 2008

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    From the outside looking in I am always happy; from the inside looking out, not so much.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    In my worst times , I like to get up take a deep breath and smile this smile is an attempt to hide pain may be one day I can heal and forget that I have lost the love of my life...
    Alicedreams Alicedreams 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I hate when people (strangers) randomly ask me to smile. It is not my fault. I do not smile and this trait that I have will always show that I am angry even if I am not angry...
    unapersonadeestemundo unapersonadeestemundo 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Everyone thinks that im such a happy person...that I have it all together They say I look innocent and sweet. Strong But I'm not smh My smile is my mask and I put it on everyday...
    Tiffany199221 Tiffany199221 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I'm trying hard to lose weight and get in shape, but my back pain is really making it difficult. I have two weeks until my first Veterans Assosciation pain management visit. I've...
    mohawkmom mohawkmom 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    I always try to hide the bad inside of me and act like everything is okay😞but I don't know why:/
    darecassy darecassy 13-15, F Jul 2

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    There was once a time where I smile my brightest. Nowadays, not so much. Whenever I did smile, I always end up heartbroken, disappointed, or hurt some time later, not shortly...
    bkf2 bkf2 22-25, M a week ago

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    Basically I got into a huge fight with my best friend. We both said some mean things but I'm sure I said the meanest things. I brought up a guy she likes and said "that's why he...
    swimmer20166 swimmer20166 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Honestly I don't know how to smile like a true genuine smile, but it always works I faked my smile so many times I honestly do not know how to smile.... And I don't really care
    PaulinaaaO PaulinaaaO 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    One time i remember my teacher asked us all at the creative writing club to write 12 poems. So i wrote 12 poems and te teacher read them all.. Then my teacher asked me with a...
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F Jul 16

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    Julia :) I dont know if I can write a post worthy of you. You have been an awesome friend...though you are gone for the summer, I hope you read this when you return and it can...
    popuptarget popuptarget 46-50, M 22 hrs ago

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    Yes, I can fake a smile...am good at it. I can be pretentious. I'd been doing it in my real life for years. But I cannot fake myself. (laughs) I am not here to create a bogus...
    0nOpalsMind 0nOpalsMind 41-45, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I fake a smile when ppl are around..
    explorer102012 explorer102012 31-35, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    So I found my aunts journals today. They were her cancer journals. She wrote in them from 2002 - 2005. She wrote down e everyday of her life with cancer. Every bit of pain she went...
    CeBeY1 CeBeY1 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I play paintball. Not the recreational kind of play. I play tournament style speedball. It's so much fun, I've put a lot of my hard earned money into it, and then my dad has put...
    Cwins165 Cwins165 13-15, M 14 hrs ago

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    I started painting my wife's nails, felt all girlie setting on floor doing her toes and told her so. She suggested my girlie feelings should stick around and then instructed me to...
    CdKimmi CdKimmi 61-65, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I changed my personality 3 times since I was born, cuz if I stayed the same I would've killed myself when I was 9. The first time i changed my personality was because of my...
    Kirakat14 Kirakat14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    I don't know why I try to convince everyone I am alright. Why can't I just be honest when someone asks me how I am doing without feeling like I have to hide my feelings. I'm scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 21

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    As of today I find myself thinking is being in this much pain worth it. I know god only gives you what you can handle but somedays I can't handle all the pain. I could never not be...
    karienight karienight 26-30, F Jul 18

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    My friends who I write to often are the best...they all have done much to keep me from giving into my gloomy nature. All are the most amazing people ive ever met. While im sure...
    popuptarget popuptarget 46-50, M 1 day ago

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    Bright colors yet to be painted everywhere.. the beige-grey walls of my spinning, humming prison cell screaming out to me, beckoning my senses in seductive whispers and commanding...
    pretender1326 pretender1326 26-30, M Jul 11

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    I just found this site. Every story I read sounds like my own. My wife is the love of my life. My everything. The past two years I have seen her go from an amazingly passionate and...
    dempag dempag 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    On the outside he smiled,but In the inside,he's shattered...
    ScarsNeverHeal ScarsNeverHeal 13-15, M Jul 8

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    I've been depressed for about 8-9 years and I've just kept it my secret. No one really knows, not my friends, family, I haven't even seen a doctor or anyone I just keep it to...
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 11

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