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I Smile to Hide the Pain

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    I Hurt!!! But Dammit, I Still Smile!

    I get really tired sometimes of being the smiley, happy, bouncy person that people expect me to be.  That's what I am most of the time.  I genuinely am usually happy.  But here's the thing....I'm in a very turbulent relationship and sometimes I just don't...
    tinkerbell75 tinkerbell75 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2009

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    Smiling Laughing Eyes sparkling A sign of

    happiness? Lies They’re all lies Beneath that smile is a frown Underneath that laughing is crying Those sparkling eyes They’re ready to start glistening, pouring down that face. That sunshine that you see, is actually the darkness screaming capturing, those living souls The...
    Secretdiary92 Secretdiary92 18-21, F Feb 2, 2014

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    A The Presence Of Pain I Lie With A Smile.

    Pain.. yes, that horrible pain that makes you feel a knot in your throat; as you hold down the cravings to cry, to let yourself go to, just give up and stop smiling. I have too, felt this. I hide my pain smiling, acting casual, holding back what I really want to say. I often get...
    OutcastedDaughter OutcastedDaughter 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2011

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    TRUE. It somehow scares me how I can still

    smile even when im in a total mess. How I can laugh and pretend things are fine when they aren't. How I managed to survive day after day of my really hard depressing life. Sometimes I question myself if im just fooling myself whenever I smile. Because I pretend everything is...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 11, 2014

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    permafrost21 permafrost21 22-25, F Jan 1

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    I want to find someone

    that will love me and fight for me no matter how hard the situation is. I want to find someone that will never let me go and treat me right. I want to find someone that will help me to forget about him. The guy that always broke his promises. The guy that left me for no reason...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 8, 2015

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    I Smile All the Time..

    I dont necessarily smile to hide pain, but I do smile to hide the painful awkwardness of social situations http://when-the-dog-bites.blogspot.com/    
    thepeaceful1 thepeaceful1 16-17 1 Response Sep 15, 2008

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    A Smile Is A Good Musk

    Well i'm always smiling to people to hide what i really feel,i don't want them to see me weak.....................
    kaaty kaaty 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    Sometimes It Hurts Too Much

    I often find myself smiling for no reason at all. My mother used to attest that this was a sign of weakness. I told my mother I smiled when I became nervous, but inside I felt something deeper. I usually think about what my point is in this world. Do these friendships really...
    Nimzo33 Nimzo33 66-70 1 Response Dec 12, 2009

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    Inappropriate Smiles and Laughter

    Over there years I have had to tell my story to proffesionals and sometimes friends.  There has been alot of intense pain in my history.  I would often find my self smiling, laughing or giggling about the worst moments in my life.  I know that those reactions were...
    danielle17374 danielle17374 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    Behind The Smile

    I smile at work so everyone thinks I'm okay. I smile at home so my family wont worry. I smile infront of boyfriend so he wont suspect something is wrong. I smile all day long for hope that maybe one day my outside smile will reflect how i feel on the inside. Sometimes it hurts so...
    Panda223344 Panda223344 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2009

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    Smile And Act Like You Zoned Out

    I just got dumped and he said he still liked me and he still loved me! I was sitting ini class remembering those words and i guess i looked really depressed because my said "are you ok i'm worried about you" i completly didn't know what to say so i said "Uh huh i just zoned out...
    SaveMeByShineDown SaveMeByShineDown 13-15, F Mar 24, 2011

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    The Pain

    When one has witnessed death beyond what one of extreme strength can handle they will know how I feel. When one witnesses it happen to everything and everyone they have ever loved they will understand what suffering is. When one has no one to help or when everyone is scared of...
    Cuddleswrathchild Cuddleswrathchild 18-21, M Oct 8, 2012

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    I usually hide most of my feelings

    because I feel two things: 1) I'll bother people with my problems and 2) because sometimes I feel that no one will be able to help. I usually try my best to suck it in, and try not to appear so sad or angry. Most times it gets the best of me, so my smiles don't always work, but...
    MsFuzzWuzzOreoCat MsFuzzWuzzOreoCat 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2015

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlove22 cheerlove22 13-15, F May 1, 2012

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    I smile as if I'm not hurt.

    I smile as if I'm not in pain. I laugh as if everything's alright. I pretend to be okay though I am really not. People around me, see me as a jolly person. They were right somehow but I could define myself more as a fake one. I fake everything about me when I am in front of them...
    MarvelousMe MarvelousMe 16-17, F Dec 31, 2015

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    Im tired of chasing someone

    who dont care at all.
    MissProcastinator MissProcastinator 13-15, F Sep 26, 2015

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    My Sis

    My sister was raped at the age 13 and i whatche it happen i didnt want to but the person who raped her was my boyfriends brotherr what was i suposed to do... but me and him broke up but this past summer he asked me out and while we were dating that same day we started dating he...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    A Smile, A Mask Of Happiness

    I wear my happy mask always. I take it off when i am completely alone, with my music blasting and maybe something to ease the pain. But, even around my friends, boyfriend, coworkers, and my son I hide away all my pain behind a poorly-faked smile. I can never really express why i...
    unholysiren unholysiren 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    LadymaKali LadymaKali 13-15, F Aug 8, 2015

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    Liar

    I'm laughing and smiling but behind those fake smiles and that forced laughter, I'm hurting like crazy. I'm falling apart, breaking, but still, I keep smiling cause' I don't want anyone to know how badly I'm actually hurting, I don't want anyone to see me like this, I don't want...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2013

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    A Simple Smile No one ever wants to know about

    behind the scenes. Like if you go to see a movie, you only want to know about it not what happened to make it. So for example, if you are happy no one will know about how you cry every night. Or if you are popular, they won't ask about how you got that bruise. If you are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 11, 2014

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    I Smile To Hide The Pain

    I am too young to have this problem but " I Smile to Hide the Pain ", I always wanted my friend will comfort me or someone will understand me and I can count on that I can say all my problems and she will help me to solve it but unfortunately THERE'S NO ONE . I'm always a happy...
    sadbuthappyperson sadbuthappyperson 13-15 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    It Hurts Sometimes

    at school (high scool) i am this happy bubbly energetic outgoing person who is always happy. inside i am on the verge of tears, stressed and been through/going through SO MUCH. this emotion is concealed in me by a thin layer always on the verge of snapping. i am so used to...
    sashimi0894 sashimi0894 13-15, F Feb 24, 2010

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    Keep Smiling

    Im trying, im really trying not to show you how much your words cut into me and to keep smiling and laughing it off and I really dont know how you believe me each and every time because to me the smile and the laughs and the jokes get faker and faker all the time am I really that...
    LittleLilyLove LittleLilyLove 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2013

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    No One Knows A Fake Smile ..

    I have a pretty complicated life but i can't show my feelings iv'e not been able to for a long time i have to stay strong for everyone else i hold together my family with just simply smiling even when inside i feel like im about to explode with emotions, i am glad i am the one in...
    staystrongangel13 staystrongangel13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2013

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    June 2, 2015. last day i cut.

    .. I seriously ****** up this time... he's my everything and I just let him go. I let him leave... he cut because of me! he had to go to the hospital to get more blood because of me... he says it's not because of me, but i know it's because of me... now look there's a knife...
    izzyvw27 izzyvw27 16-17, F Aug 27, 2015

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    I have 3 different smiles: 1- I'm happy

    and couldn't care less 2- I hate you/ my fake smile 3- I need someone to help me, the pain is too much, I'm about to explode in tears!
    naisua11 naisua11 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 15, 2015

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    From the outside looking in I am always happy; from the inside looking out, not so much.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    We All Do to Some Degree

    I think we all smile and grin and bear it to some form or fashion.  Like how many times do people ask you a day how you are doing and you just smile and say fine.  In reality at times you are like my day has sucked and I hate somebody.  As a society it tends to be...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F Sep 15, 2008

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    i act like a tough girl

    who can stand on her own two feet but, i fall apart on the inside
    knight97 knight97 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2015

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    Smile And Nod

    That's I did growing up smile and nod or wave at the pretty people for they will never know that deep down inside is a little girl crying out In pain she sobs and cry deep down behind that cute smile every one goes aww for I wish you could see the pain but I can't stop smiling I...
    brokenandalone brokenandalone 18-21, F Oct 23, 2010

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    My smile hides my pain

    and thoughts People have to be polite don't they???
    Michelle41011 Michelle41011 41-45, T Aug 2, 2015

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    i smile to hide the pain,

    like my profile, a minion pic. i used it to hide my sadness,
    AlexandraSandy AlexandraSandy 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 8, 2015

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    Look Happy

    I am disabled .I suffer with a crumbling spine and a heart murmer due to a hole in the back of my heart .I suffer with all sorts of things related to this and over the last 6/7 years my outlook on life aint so positive .I suffer with chronic depression ,agrophobia and...
    beastman111 beastman111 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 2 Responses May 2, 2012

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    is life even worth living anymore?

    I hate myself I'm so ugly and fat and nobody wants me I'm useless here. I can't smile to hide the pain anymore. I'm drowning in pain and emptiness.
    NothingsForever NothingsForever 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2015

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    I've gotten so good at it i

    even fool myself most of the time
    knight97 knight97 18-21, F Aug 7, 2015

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    Pretender

    Sometimes, you have to pretend that you're happy and fine until you realize that your pretention has become your strength to move on. and that's what I'm doing.
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2010

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    I'm so done with this cover up.

    I don't feel good mentally and now I couldn't care less who knows my secret. I hate how I have to put on a show everyday just so other people don't feel bad for me. I'm just done.
    mickey123xp mickey123xp 16-17, F Sep 28, 2015

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