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I Smile to Hide the Pain

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    Inappropriate Smiles and Laughter

    Over there years I have had to tell my story to proffesionals and sometimes friends.  There has been alot of intense pain in my history.  I would often find my self smiling, laughing or giggling about the worst moments in my life.  I know that those reactions were...
    danielle17374 danielle17374 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    I Smile To Hide The Pain

    I am too young to have this problem but " I Smile to Hide the Pain ", I always wanted my friend will comfort me or someone will understand me and I can count on that I can say all my problems and she will help me to solve it but unfortunately THERE'S NO ONE . I'm always a happy...
    sadbuthappyperson sadbuthappyperson 13-15 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    A The Presence Of Pain I Lie With A Smile.

    Pain.. yes, that horrible pain that makes you feel a knot in your throat; as you hold down the cravings to cry, to let yourself go to, just give up and stop smiling. I have too, felt this. I hide my pain smiling, acting casual, holding back what I really want to say. I often get...
    OutcastedDaughter OutcastedDaughter 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2011

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    We All Do to Some Degree

    I think we all smile and grin and bear it to some form or fashion.  Like how many times do people ask you a day how you are doing and you just smile and say fine.  In reality at times you are like my day has sucked and I hate somebody.  As a society it tends to be...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F Sep 15, 2008

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    A Smile, A Mask Of Happiness

    I wear my happy mask always. I take it off when i am completely alone, with my music blasting and maybe something to ease the pain. But, even around my friends, boyfriend, coworkers, and my son I hide away all my pain behind a poorly-faked smile. I can never really express why i...
    unholysiren unholysiren 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    A Simple Smile No one ever wants to know about

    behind the scenes. Like if you go to see a movie, you only want to know about it not what happened to make it. So for example, if you are happy no one will know about how you cry every night. Or if you are popular, they won't ask about how you got that bruise. If you are...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 16-17, F Feb 11

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    Look Happy

    I am disabled .I suffer with a crumbling spine and a heart murmer due to a hole in the back of my heart .I suffer with all sorts of things related to this and over the last 6/7 years my outlook on life aint so positive .I suffer with chronic depression ,agrophobia and...
    beastman111 beastman111 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    Smile And Nod

    That's I did growing up smile and nod or wave at the pretty people for they will never know that deep down inside is a little girl crying out In pain she sobs and cry deep down behind that cute smile every one goes aww for I wish you could see the pain but I can't stop smiling I...
    brokenandalone brokenandalone 18-21, F Oct 23, 2010

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    No One Knows A Fake Smile ..

    I have a pretty complicated life but i can't show my feelings iv'e not been able to for a long time i have to stay strong for everyone else i hold together my family with just simply smiling even when inside i feel like im about to explode with emotions, i am glad i am the one in...
    staystrongangel13 staystrongangel13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2013

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    Liar

    I'm laughing and smiling but behind those fake smiles and that forced laughter, I'm hurting like crazy. I'm falling apart, breaking, but still, I keep smiling cause' I don't want anyone to know how badly I'm actually hurting, I don't want anyone to see me like this, I don't want...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2013

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    Smiling Laughing Eyes sparkling A sign of

    happiness? Lies They’re all lies Beneath that smile is a frown Underneath that laughing is crying Those sparkling eyes They’re ready to start glistening, pouring down that face. That sunshine that you see, is actually the darkness screaming capturing, those living souls The...
    Secretdiary92 Secretdiary92 18-21, F Feb 2

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    Alone

    From childhood’s hour I have not been As others were—I have not seen As others saw—I could not bring My passions from a common spring— From the same source I have not taken My sorrow—I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone— And all I lov’d—I lov...
    anb251999 anb251999 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    Keep Smiling

    Im trying, im really trying not to show you how much your words cut into me and to keep smiling and laughing it off and I really dont know how you believe me each and every time because to me the smile and the laughs and the jokes get faker and faker all the time am I really that...
    LittleLilyLove LittleLilyLove 18-21, F Jul 8, 2013

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    My Sis

    My sister was raped at the age 13 and i whatche it happen i didnt want to but the person who raped her was my boyfriends brotherr what was i suposed to do... but me and him broke up but this past summer he asked me out and while we were dating that same day we started dating he...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    I Smile All the Time..

    I dont necessarily smile to hide pain, but I do smile to hide the painful awkwardness of social situations http://when-the-dog-bites.blogspot.com/    
    thepeaceful1 thepeaceful1 16-17 1 Response Sep 15, 2008

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlove22 cheerlove22 13-15, F May 1, 2012

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    A Smile Is A Good Musk

    Well i'm always smiling to people to hide what i really feel,i don't want them to see me weak.....................
    kaaty kaaty 20, F 3 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    Pretender

    Sometimes, you have to pretend that you're happy and fine until you realize that your pretention has become your strength to move on. and that's what I'm doing.
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2010

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 2 Responses May 2, 2012

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    From the outside looking in I am always happy; from the inside looking out, not so much.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    Behind The Smile

    I smile at work so everyone thinks I'm okay. I smile at home so my family wont worry. I smile infront of boyfriend so he wont suspect something is wrong. I smile all day long for hope that maybe one day my outside smile will reflect how i feel on the inside. Sometimes it hurts so...
    Panda223344 Panda223344 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2009

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    It Hurts Sometimes

    at school (high scool) i am this happy bubbly energetic outgoing person who is always happy. inside i am on the verge of tears, stressed and been through/going through SO MUCH. this emotion is concealed in me by a thin layer always on the verge of snapping. i am so used to...
    sashimi0894 sashimi0894 13-15, F Feb 24, 2010

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    TRUE. It somehow scares me how I can still

    smile even when im in a total mess. How I can laugh and pretend things are fine when they aren't. How I managed to survive day after day of my really hard depressing life. Sometimes I question myself if im just fooling myself whenever I smile. Because I pretend everything is...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    The Pain

    When one has witnessed death beyond what one of extreme strength can handle they will know how I feel. When one witnesses it happen to everything and everyone they have ever loved they will understand what suffering is. When one has no one to help or when everyone is scared of...
    Cuddleswrathchild Cuddleswrathchild 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 8, 2012

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    Sometimes It Hurts Too Much

    I often find myself smiling for no reason at all. My mother used to attest that this was a sign of weakness. I told my mother I smiled when I became nervous, but inside I felt something deeper. I usually think about what my point is in this world. Do these friendships really...
    Nimzo33 Nimzo33 70+ 1 Response Dec 12, 2009

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    Smile And Act Like You Zoned Out

    I just got dumped and he said he still liked me and he still loved me! I was sitting ini class remembering those words and i guess i looked really depressed because my said "are you ok i'm worried about you" i completly didn't know what to say so i said "Uh huh i just zoned out...
    SaveMeByShineDown SaveMeByShineDown 13-15, F Mar 24, 2011

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    I Hurt!!! But Dammit, I Still Smile!

    I get really tired sometimes of being the smiley, happy, bouncy person that people expect me to be.  That's what I am most of the time.  I genuinely am usually happy.  But here's the thing....I'm in a very turbulent relationship and sometimes I just don't...
    tinkerbell75 tinkerbell75 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I just cant stop - im always smiling. Im like a joker (but i dont kill people) Smiling all the time has its pros and cons. Pros: people smile back! (Sometimes) and its nice to see...
    ninjadentistinspace ninjadentistinspace 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Many times this has happened to me. I have had to fake my smiles just to make sure others had no idea I was hurting inside. It's hard when you have to hold in your pain and sorrow...
    Morenita79 Morenita79 31-35, F Aug 3

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    I was always told to smile with my teeth and I just hate my smile regardless because this is what it looks like when I do.
    kelsey0616 kelsey0616 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I will smile I will laugh, I will never show you my pain, I will never show you my tears
    reg212 reg212 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day . ~ by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
    jbp20 jbp20 18-21, F 51 mins ago

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    You know you're on ur period when your back pack has bottles of ibuprofen and a hot water bottle just in case the pain gets too intense. Honestly, **** periods.
    TallyO TallyO 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    A few years back, it dawned on me that people smile at me ... even people I would pass on the street. Little kids would spontaneously say "hi!". Several times caught ladies...
    MaskedRascal MaskedRascal 36-40, M Aug 17

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    mom: you never do anything for me. me: i fake a smile, i hide my problems from you to avoid getting you stressed, i cover my scars, i dont talk to you so i wont irritate you , and...
    CaliforniaPsycho CaliforniaPsycho 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    People don't know what I have been through, what I have done and things I have seen. They think they know me. They think they can just solve it by talking. A fake smile can...
    HayellsDorion HayellsDorion 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Everyone, I wish I could heal your aching hearts I wish I could be the pillow your head tries to rest on every night. I wish I could be the song you try to sing to get through...
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F Aug 2

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    I hate revealing emotions but I'm fed up pretending I'm happy. It's just easier than letting people see how **** I feel. But it's getting to difficult to keep up. Trying to...
    Shiningstar26 Shiningstar26 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Everyone Don't be sad I'll make you smile Don't doubt your looks I'll tell you you're beautiful Don't be scared I'll cover your eyes Don't think you're alone I'll be by your...
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    Okay so yes this is a short story, but it revolves around a big influence in my life. A bit of background, before last year I knew I had a half Sister but had never met her. Well...
    jasmyne88 jasmyne88 22-25, M Aug 1

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    Life is becoming unbearable...and I just don't know what to do next...the worst part is I don't know how to let people in...our house is about to be auctioned a house with so many...
    CurvyandChic CurvyandChic 22-25, F Aug 6

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    My mom is in a very abusive relationship ... 2 days ago she got in a fight with her husband in which he threw her phone out of the window while he was driving, took her head and...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    So much has happened in just a year. It all started when I was informed that my "family" who has abused me in the past were planning to abuse me again and make me a slave. It was...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I’ve been trying to figure out how to write this for a month now. Every time I start, I always get off track or start to sound a little depressing. Although I suppose that’s...
    jphegan jphegan 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    So, it's been 3 months since my boyfriend broke up with me. We were together for almost a year. He is two years younger than me. He broke up with me over text. I remember calling...
    Mitsuko15 Mitsuko15 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 20

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    If I die it won't feel this way anymore I will feel better it will take all my pain away I won't be a burden anymore
    nadirah96 nadirah96 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    A smile: the simple movements of the muscles A single smile can turn ones day from hell to alright, but a huge smile means that whoever they thought of or whoever made them smile...
    Meeppeep Meeppeep 16-17, M Aug 18

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    I had been dating this girl for two years, she was my life support seriously. My break up wasn't exactly the normal kind, more bitter and depressing. When I first met Tanya I was...
    HalfARainbow HalfARainbow 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 3

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    For who I am and how I act, I think about my death every day. But I always smile, speak with a soft voice, and be nice... I hate it so much.
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F Aug 10

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    I overheard a conversation as I walked past two women in a quick mart today. The was saying "I don't smile unless I really need to" I stopped and said "aw c'mon and smiled at her...
    Here4u72 Here4u72 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 11

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