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I Smile to Hide the Pain

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    Liar

    I'm laughing and smiling but behind those fake smiles and that forced laughter, I'm hurting like crazy. I'm falling apart, breaking, but still, I keep smiling cause' I don't want anyone to know how badly I'm actually hurting, I don't want anyone to see me like this, I don't want...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2013

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    Keep Smiling

    Im trying, im really trying not to show you how much your words cut into me and to keep smiling and laughing it off and I really dont know how you believe me each and every time because to me the smile and the laughs and the jokes get faker and faker all the time am I really that...
    LittleLilyLove LittleLilyLove 18-21, F Jul 8, 2013

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    Smiling Laughing Eyes sparkling A sign of

    happiness? Lies They’re all lies Beneath that smile is a frown Underneath that laughing is crying Those sparkling eyes They’re ready to start glistening, pouring down that face. That sunshine that you see, is actually the darkness screaming capturing, those living souls The...
    Secretdiary92 Secretdiary92 18-21, F Feb 2, 2014

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    We All Do to Some Degree

    I think we all smile and grin and bear it to some form or fashion.  Like how many times do people ask you a day how you are doing and you just smile and say fine.  In reality at times you are like my day has sucked and I hate somebody.  As a society it tends to be...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F Sep 15, 2008

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    No One Knows A Fake Smile ..

    I have a pretty complicated life but i can't show my feelings iv'e not been able to for a long time i have to stay strong for everyone else i hold together my family with just simply smiling even when inside i feel like im about to explode with emotions, i am glad i am the one in...
    staystrongangel13 staystrongangel13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2013

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    A Smile Is A Good Musk

    Well i'm always smiling to people to hide what i really feel,i don't want them to see me weak.....................
    kaaty kaaty 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 2 Responses May 2, 2012

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    I Hurt!!! But Dammit, I Still Smile!

    I get really tired sometimes of being the smiley, happy, bouncy person that people expect me to be.  That's what I am most of the time.  I genuinely am usually happy.  But here's the thing....I'm in a very turbulent relationship and sometimes I just don't...
    tinkerbell75 tinkerbell75 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2009

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    Pretender

    Sometimes, you have to pretend that you're happy and fine until you realize that your pretention has become your strength to move on. and that's what I'm doing.
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2010

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    Look Happy

    I am disabled .I suffer with a crumbling spine and a heart murmer due to a hole in the back of my heart .I suffer with all sorts of things related to this and over the last 6/7 years my outlook on life aint so positive .I suffer with chronic depression ,agrophobia and...
    beastman111 beastman111 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    My Sis

    My sister was raped at the age 13 and i whatche it happen i didnt want to but the person who raped her was my boyfriends brotherr what was i suposed to do... but me and him broke up but this past summer he asked me out and while we were dating that same day we started dating he...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    Smile And Act Like You Zoned Out

    I just got dumped and he said he still liked me and he still loved me! I was sitting ini class remembering those words and i guess i looked really depressed because my said "are you ok i'm worried about you" i completly didn't know what to say so i said "Uh huh i just zoned out...
    SaveMeByShineDown SaveMeByShineDown 13-15, F Mar 24, 2011

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    I Smile All the Time..

    I dont necessarily smile to hide pain, but I do smile to hide the painful awkwardness of social situations http://when-the-dog-bites.blogspot.com/    
    thepeaceful1 thepeaceful1 16-17 1 Response Sep 15, 2008

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    The Pain

    When one has witnessed death beyond what one of extreme strength can handle they will know how I feel. When one witnesses it happen to everything and everyone they have ever loved they will understand what suffering is. When one has no one to help or when everyone is scared of...
    Cuddleswrathchild Cuddleswrathchild 18-21, M Oct 8, 2012

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    Alone

    From childhood’s hour I have not been As others were—I have not seen As others saw—I could not bring My passions from a common spring— From the same source I have not taken My sorrow—I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone— And all I lov’d—I lov...
    anb251999 anb251999 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    Sometimes It Hurts Too Much

    I often find myself smiling for no reason at all. My mother used to attest that this was a sign of weakness. I told my mother I smiled when I became nervous, but inside I felt something deeper. I usually think about what my point is in this world. Do these friendships really...
    Nimzo33 Nimzo33 66-70 1 Response Dec 12, 2009

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    A Simple Smile No one ever wants to know about

    behind the scenes. Like if you go to see a movie, you only want to know about it not what happened to make it. So for example, if you are happy no one will know about how you cry every night. Or if you are popular, they won't ask about how you got that bruise. If you are...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F Feb 11, 2014

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlove22 cheerlove22 13-15, F May 1, 2012

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    Inappropriate Smiles and Laughter

    Over there years I have had to tell my story to proffesionals and sometimes friends.  There has been alot of intense pain in my history.  I would often find my self smiling, laughing or giggling about the worst moments in my life.  I know that those reactions were...
    danielle17374 danielle17374 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    From the outside looking in I am always happy; from the inside looking out, not so much.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    Behind The Smile

    I smile at work so everyone thinks I'm okay. I smile at home so my family wont worry. I smile infront of boyfriend so he wont suspect something is wrong. I smile all day long for hope that maybe one day my outside smile will reflect how i feel on the inside. Sometimes it hurts so...
    Panda223344 Panda223344 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2009

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    Smile And Nod

    That's I did growing up smile and nod or wave at the pretty people for they will never know that deep down inside is a little girl crying out In pain she sobs and cry deep down behind that cute smile every one goes aww for I wish you could see the pain but I can't stop smiling I...
    brokenandalone brokenandalone 18-21, F Oct 23, 2010

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    It Hurts Sometimes

    at school (high scool) i am this happy bubbly energetic outgoing person who is always happy. inside i am on the verge of tears, stressed and been through/going through SO MUCH. this emotion is concealed in me by a thin layer always on the verge of snapping. i am so used to...
    sashimi0894 sashimi0894 13-15, F Feb 24, 2010

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    A The Presence Of Pain I Lie With A Smile.

    Pain.. yes, that horrible pain that makes you feel a knot in your throat; as you hold down the cravings to cry, to let yourself go to, just give up and stop smiling. I have too, felt this. I hide my pain smiling, acting casual, holding back what I really want to say. I often get...
    OutcastedDaughter OutcastedDaughter 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2011

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    I Smile To Hide The Pain

    I am too young to have this problem but " I Smile to Hide the Pain ", I always wanted my friend will comfort me or someone will understand me and I can count on that I can say all my problems and she will help me to solve it but unfortunately THERE'S NO ONE . I'm always a happy...
    sadbuthappyperson sadbuthappyperson 13-15 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    A Smile, A Mask Of Happiness

    I wear my happy mask always. I take it off when i am completely alone, with my music blasting and maybe something to ease the pain. But, even around my friends, boyfriend, coworkers, and my son I hide away all my pain behind a poorly-faked smile. I can never really express why i...
    unholysiren unholysiren 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    TRUE. It somehow scares me how I can still

    smile even when im in a total mess. How I can laugh and pretend things are fine when they aren't. How I managed to survive day after day of my really hard depressing life. Sometimes I question myself if im just fooling myself whenever I smile. Because I pretend everything is...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F Feb 11, 2014

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    The prettiest smile hide the deepest secret. The prettiest eyes cried the most tears. And the kindest heart felt the most pain.
    KarenDew KarenDew 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    Well, they say the biggest smile hides the darkest secret...and i agree with that... I try everyday making people smile and making their day good.. But im actually waiting for...
    rexplayton rexplayton 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    I would evade the questions, find excuses, lies. - Where'd you get that bruise from? - Oh just playing sports.. - What's wrong? You seem sad. - Nothing. Just haven't done my...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    everyday i where a fake smile so no one know the real pain i go through everyday
    haileeboo1202 haileeboo1202 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    I have suicidal thoughts and I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I just joke and smile and run because then you don't have to face the pain. Any tips?
    EmJinks83 EmJinks83 18-21, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I smile to hide sadness. It really helps though because smiling releases endorphins making me happier. It gives credit to the statement fake it till you make it.
    Thespistx Thespistx 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    why do u hide I hide because if I show that I am troubled my group will jump on to make me feel better but I'm know as a leader of leaders they look to me for strength
    ggbeauty ggbeauty 16-17 2 Responses Mar 5

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    I was diagnosed with it three years ago. I slowly started to realize that my level of pain probably wasn’t in the average range when it increased with each day. I sometimes...
    mishale80 mishale80 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I wake up every morning not boing what today will bring I don't wake up with smile no nor a frown but I no if someone see me sad they will ask questions so I go into the bathroom...
    Sarajackson2000 Sarajackson2000 18-21 1 Response Mar 6

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    A smile that hides a thousand tears. And although you wanna breakdown you keep pushing through with a smile on your face like nothing's wrong
    Comeflywithme23 Comeflywithme23 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    i love painting but it takes a lot of patience.. I prefer drawing is easiest... I've got about 3paintings and 3/4 drawings from long ago was about 17 yrs old i think.. anyway...
    mergirl123 mergirl123 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I wish people wouldn't hide their sadness. I understand sometimes you feel like you'd be burdening someone or you feel like nobody cares. But bottling things up is very dangerous...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I did not know a fake smile can hide so much inside i don't know how much longer i can keep my feelings locked up inside me
    iqra765 iqra765 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    This is Happy Kayla, see her face, When things go wrong I put her in place, No one can tell when you see her smile, That I'm dying inside all the while.
    terrywill15 terrywill15 18-21, F Mar 2

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    I miss being with you all the time. :( but no one cares even you. So, I fake a smile.
    SkylaDee SkylaDee 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    Im very good in faking. When the sun is up above, I always wear a smile on my face but when the sun is hiding, tears are flowing down. I think all the hurts that I am feeling can...
    avienavie avienavie 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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