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I Smile to Hide the Pain

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    Pretender

    Sometimes, you have to pretend that you're happy and fine until you realize that your pretention has become your strength to move on. and that's what I'm doing.
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2010

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    Sometimes It Hurts Too Much

    I often find myself smiling for no reason at all. My mother used to attest that this was a sign of weakness. I told my mother I smiled when I became nervous, but inside I felt something deeper. I usually think about what my point is in this world. Do these friendships really...
    Nimzo33 Nimzo33 70+ 1 Response Dec 12, 2009

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    A Smile, A Mask Of Happiness

    I wear my happy mask always. I take it off when i am completely alone, with my music blasting and maybe something to ease the pain. But, even around my friends, boyfriend, coworkers, and my son I hide away all my pain behind a poorly-faked smile. I can never really express why i...
    unholysiren unholysiren 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    TRUE. It somehow scares me how I can still

    smile even when im in a total mess. How I can laugh and pretend things are fine when they aren't. How I managed to survive day after day of my really hard depressing life. Sometimes I question myself if im just fooling myself whenever I smile. Because I pretend everything is...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    Smile And Nod

    That's I did growing up smile and nod or wave at the pretty people for they will never know that deep down inside is a little girl crying out In pain she sobs and cry deep down behind that cute smile every one goes aww for I wish you could see the pain but I can't stop smiling I...
    brokenandalone brokenandalone 18-21, F Oct 23, 2010

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    My Sis

    My sister was raped at the age 13 and i whatche it happen i didnt want to but the person who raped her was my boyfriends brotherr what was i suposed to do... but me and him broke up but this past summer he asked me out and while we were dating that same day we started dating he...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    Behind The Smile

    I smile at work so everyone thinks I'm okay. I smile at home so my family wont worry. I smile infront of boyfriend so he wont suspect something is wrong. I smile all day long for hope that maybe one day my outside smile will reflect how i feel on the inside. Sometimes it hurts so...
    Panda223344 Panda223344 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2009

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    I Smile To Hide The Pain

    I am too young to have this problem but " I Smile to Hide the Pain ", I always wanted my friend will comfort me or someone will understand me and I can count on that I can say all my problems and she will help me to solve it but unfortunately THERE'S NO ONE . I'm always a happy...
    sadbuthappyperson sadbuthappyperson 13-15 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    A The Presence Of Pain I Lie With A Smile.

    Pain.. yes, that horrible pain that makes you feel a knot in your throat; as you hold down the cravings to cry, to let yourself go to, just give up and stop smiling. I have too, felt this. I hide my pain smiling, acting casual, holding back what I really want to say. I often get...
    OutcastedDaughter OutcastedDaughter 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2011

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    Smiling Laughing Eyes sparkling A sign of

    happiness? Lies They’re all lies Beneath that smile is a frown Underneath that laughing is crying Those sparkling eyes They’re ready to start glistening, pouring down that face. That sunshine that you see, is actually the darkness screaming capturing, those living souls The...
    Secretdiary92 Secretdiary92 18-21, F Feb 2

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    Alone

    From childhood’s hour I have not been As others were—I have not seen As others saw—I could not bring My passions from a common spring— From the same source I have not taken My sorrow—I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone— And all I lov’d—I lov...
    anb251999 anb251999 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    A Simple Smile No one ever wants to know about

    behind the scenes. Like if you go to see a movie, you only want to know about it not what happened to make it. So for example, if you are happy no one will know about how you cry every night. Or if you are popular, they won't ask about how you got that bruise. If you are...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F Feb 11

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    We All Do to Some Degree

    I think we all smile and grin and bear it to some form or fashion.  Like how many times do people ask you a day how you are doing and you just smile and say fine.  In reality at times you are like my day has sucked and I hate somebody.  As a society it tends to be...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F Sep 15, 2008

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    No One Knows A Fake Smile ..

    I have a pretty complicated life but i can't show my feelings iv'e not been able to for a long time i have to stay strong for everyone else i hold together my family with just simply smiling even when inside i feel like im about to explode with emotions, i am glad i am the one in...
    staystrongangel13 staystrongangel13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2013

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    From the outside looking in I am always happy; from the inside looking out, not so much.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    Look Happy

    I am disabled .I suffer with a crumbling spine and a heart murmer due to a hole in the back of my heart .I suffer with all sorts of things related to this and over the last 6/7 years my outlook on life aint so positive .I suffer with chronic depression ,agrophobia and...
    beastman111 beastman111 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    The Pain

    When one has witnessed death beyond what one of extreme strength can handle they will know how I feel. When one witnesses it happen to everything and everyone they have ever loved they will understand what suffering is. When one has no one to help or when everyone is scared of...
    Cuddleswrathchild Cuddleswrathchild 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 8, 2012

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    Keep Smiling

    Im trying, im really trying not to show you how much your words cut into me and to keep smiling and laughing it off and I really dont know how you believe me each and every time because to me the smile and the laughs and the jokes get faker and faker all the time am I really that...
    LittleLilyLove LittleLilyLove 18-21, F Jul 8, 2013

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    Liar

    I'm laughing and smiling but behind those fake smiles and that forced laughter, I'm hurting like crazy. I'm falling apart, breaking, but still, I keep smiling cause' I don't want anyone to know how badly I'm actually hurting, I don't want anyone to see me like this, I don't want...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2013

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    Inappropriate Smiles and Laughter

    Over there years I have had to tell my story to proffesionals and sometimes friends.  There has been alot of intense pain in my history.  I would often find my self smiling, laughing or giggling about the worst moments in my life.  I know that those reactions were...
    danielle17374 danielle17374 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    Smile And Act Like You Zoned Out

    I just got dumped and he said he still liked me and he still loved me! I was sitting ini class remembering those words and i guess i looked really depressed because my said "are you ok i'm worried about you" i completly didn't know what to say so i said "Uh huh i just zoned out...
    SaveMeByShineDown SaveMeByShineDown 13-15, F Mar 24, 2011

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlove22 cheerlove22 13-15, F May 1, 2012

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    A Smile Is A Good Musk

    Well i'm always smiling to people to hide what i really feel,i don't want them to see me weak.....................
    kaaty kaaty 20, F 3 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    It Hurts Sometimes

    at school (high scool) i am this happy bubbly energetic outgoing person who is always happy. inside i am on the verge of tears, stressed and been through/going through SO MUCH. this emotion is concealed in me by a thin layer always on the verge of snapping. i am so used to...
    sashimi0894 sashimi0894 13-15, F Feb 24, 2010

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    I Smile All the Time..

    I dont necessarily smile to hide pain, but I do smile to hide the painful awkwardness of social situations http://when-the-dog-bites.blogspot.com/    
    thepeaceful1 thepeaceful1 16-17 1 Response Sep 15, 2008

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    I Hurt!!! But Dammit, I Still Smile!

    I get really tired sometimes of being the smiley, happy, bouncy person that people expect me to be.  That's what I am most of the time.  I genuinely am usually happy.  But here's the thing....I'm in a very turbulent relationship and sometimes I just don't...
    tinkerbell75 tinkerbell75 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2009

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 2 Responses May 2, 2012

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    "Mask" By, me Everyday I try to hide, behind the mask that covers my inside. A smile, a laugh, an I'm okay. Keeps them from seeing the pain I hide away. But sometimes a mask is...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I Smile Even Though I Am Sad, as it hides my pain and none makes me tearful by asking why I'm sad. Some people still recognise my sadness behind melancholic smile, but I try to...
    sad12hana sad12hana 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    I do this all the time I always but on a fake smile and when people ask" are you ok?"I say "I'll be fine " because I don't like to bother anyone with my problems when they have...
    Rach1544 Rach1544 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 6

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    Ever since I got this job 3 summers ago, once in a while when you come back on that line, I get to see you. Everytime I see you, I smile. If only you knew how happy I get when I...
    DaddysGirl24 DaddysGirl24 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    Every day I wake up and I wish I hadn't. I smile for my daughter, for my cousin who lives with me, for my boyfriend, my co workers. You name it I smile and I say I'm fine. But no...
    Eve92 Eve92 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Sometimes my fake smile comes so easily to me that I believe it myself. Until I'm alone and my smile fades away.. then I remember. Or other days I smile while I'm inwardly...
    AlysonBlack AlysonBlack 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I was thinking about all the violence and bloodshed this past week..The terrible senseless slaughter of innocents in Pakistan and the Middle East. I guess as much as we try and...
    prettyface1 prettyface1 46-50, F 10 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    It's surprising how much a fake smile and a simple 'I'm Fine' can hide.
    MusicSavesMyLife MusicSavesMyLife 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Faking a smile, pretending to be happy, always acting as if being the tough character when I'm not, feels broken inside, alone, feels unloved... Always trying to stretch a smile on...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    because it's easier to fake a smile than explaining why you're sad.....
    lovabledoll lovabledoll 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 8

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    When im sad.... I put on a happy smile When im upset.... I chuckle or simply laugh When i get caught crying.... i simply make up a stupid reason why i am crying. but still no one...
    TheWiseRedOwl TheWiseRedOwl 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 24

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    I smile too, through pain, hard times and happy times. It's just easier to smile than frown I suppose. My smiles has covered many a hard time I have been through and when I have...
    namgal namgal 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 13

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    sylvia. everyday since she betrayed me. nothing but nightmares and pain of losing my soulmate of 4 yeqr one who knew everything about u n vice versa n every dream ect. the one who...
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M Dec 1

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    This will be my last post about him... There was this guy i met here in ep. We had fun and so i thought. I haven't talk to him for 2 days cause im hurting.... im hurting because he...
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I always try to make others happy,I like to share my happiness, but I m scared to share my pain..I just can not.
    drizle drizle 18-21, F Dec 10

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    when I was little my dad beat me and yelled not to cry...Or else I would get more... Perhaps that's how this all started then throughout my teen years I've had a few mentally...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I fake a smiley also because I dont want to bother people with them. I feel that the people around me have their own kind of problem to worry about. so I don't want to add my own...
    JN96 JN96 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    It gives me unbearable pain when I see others hurting. I always try my hardest to help them, and I will do absolutely anything in my power to make them smile again.
    msharleenquinzel msharleenquinzel 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    I love, love, love getting my nails done! I will hide my hands if my nails are not done....so serious!
    Refugeblue83 Refugeblue83 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I wish people wouldn't hide behind a different picture on here. I have mine out in the open because I like being honest with people about anything and everything concerning me. Yes...
    meli347 meli347 13-15, F Nov 30

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    Why was I stupid and cut myself there? Instead of somewhere where I could hide it better? Why am I so stupid??
    xXxbluejeanbabyxXx xXxbluejeanbabyxXx 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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