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I Smile to Hide the Pain

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlove22 cheerlove22 13-15, F May 1, 2012

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    Sometimes It Hurts Too Much

    I often find myself smiling for no reason at all. My mother used to attest that this was a sign of weakness. I told my mother I smiled when I became nervous, but inside I felt something deeper. I usually think about what my point is in this world. Do these friendships really...
    Nimzo33 Nimzo33 66-70 1 Response Dec 12, 2009

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    A Smile, A Mask Of Happiness

    I wear my happy mask always. I take it off when i am completely alone, with my music blasting and maybe something to ease the pain. But, even around my friends, boyfriend, coworkers, and my son I hide away all my pain behind a poorly-faked smile. I can never really express why i...
    unholysiren unholysiren 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    Liar

    I'm laughing and smiling but behind those fake smiles and that forced laughter, I'm hurting like crazy. I'm falling apart, breaking, but still, I keep smiling cause' I don't want anyone to know how badly I'm actually hurting, I don't want anyone to see me like this, I don't want...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2013

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    It Hurts Sometimes

    at school (high scool) i am this happy bubbly energetic outgoing person who is always happy. inside i am on the verge of tears, stressed and been through/going through SO MUCH. this emotion is concealed in me by a thin layer always on the verge of snapping. i am so used to...
    sashimi0894 sashimi0894 13-15, F Feb 24, 2010

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    Pretender

    Sometimes, you have to pretend that you're happy and fine until you realize that your pretention has become your strength to move on. and that's what I'm doing.
    dazzlingeyes dazzlingeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2010

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    A Simple Smile No one ever wants to know about

    behind the scenes. Like if you go to see a movie, you only want to know about it not what happened to make it. So for example, if you are happy no one will know about how you cry every night. Or if you are popular, they won't ask about how you got that bruise. If you are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 11, 2014

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    I Smile To Hide The Pain

    I am too young to have this problem but " I Smile to Hide the Pain ", I always wanted my friend will comfort me or someone will understand me and I can count on that I can say all my problems and she will help me to solve it but unfortunately THERE'S NO ONE . I'm always a happy...
    sadbuthappyperson sadbuthappyperson 13-15 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    We All Do to Some Degree

    I think we all smile and grin and bear it to some form or fashion.  Like how many times do people ask you a day how you are doing and you just smile and say fine.  In reality at times you are like my day has sucked and I hate somebody.  As a society it tends to be...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F Sep 15, 2008

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    A Smile Is A Good Musk

    Well i'm always smiling to people to hide what i really feel,i don't want them to see me weak.....................
    kaaty kaaty 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    The Pain

    When one has witnessed death beyond what one of extreme strength can handle they will know how I feel. When one witnesses it happen to everything and everyone they have ever loved they will understand what suffering is. When one has no one to help or when everyone is scared of...
    Cuddleswrathchild Cuddleswrathchild 18-21, M Oct 8, 2012

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    Behind The Smile

    I smile at work so everyone thinks I'm okay. I smile at home so my family wont worry. I smile infront of boyfriend so he wont suspect something is wrong. I smile all day long for hope that maybe one day my outside smile will reflect how i feel on the inside. Sometimes it hurts so...
    Panda223344 Panda223344 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2009

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    Inappropriate Smiles and Laughter

    Over there years I have had to tell my story to proffesionals and sometimes friends.  There has been alot of intense pain in my history.  I would often find my self smiling, laughing or giggling about the worst moments in my life.  I know that those reactions were...
    danielle17374 danielle17374 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    No One Knows A Fake Smile ..

    I have a pretty complicated life but i can't show my feelings iv'e not been able to for a long time i have to stay strong for everyone else i hold together my family with just simply smiling even when inside i feel like im about to explode with emotions, i am glad i am the one in...
    staystrongangel13 staystrongangel13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2013

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    Look Happy

    I am disabled .I suffer with a crumbling spine and a heart murmer due to a hole in the back of my heart .I suffer with all sorts of things related to this and over the last 6/7 years my outlook on life aint so positive .I suffer with chronic depression ,agrophobia and...
    beastman111 beastman111 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    Keep Smiling

    Im trying, im really trying not to show you how much your words cut into me and to keep smiling and laughing it off and I really dont know how you believe me each and every time because to me the smile and the laughs and the jokes get faker and faker all the time am I really that...
    LittleLilyLove LittleLilyLove 18-21, F Jul 8, 2013

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    My Sis

    My sister was raped at the age 13 and i whatche it happen i didnt want to but the person who raped her was my boyfriends brotherr what was i suposed to do... but me and him broke up but this past summer he asked me out and while we were dating that same day we started dating he...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    I Smile All the Time..

    I dont necessarily smile to hide pain, but I do smile to hide the painful awkwardness of social situations http://when-the-dog-bites.blogspot.com/    
    thepeaceful1 thepeaceful1 16-17 1 Response Sep 15, 2008

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    From the outside looking in I am always happy; from the inside looking out, not so much.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    Smiling Laughing Eyes sparkling A sign of

    happiness? Lies They’re all lies Beneath that smile is a frown Underneath that laughing is crying Those sparkling eyes They’re ready to start glistening, pouring down that face. That sunshine that you see, is actually the darkness screaming capturing, those living souls The...
    Secretdiary92 Secretdiary92 18-21, F Feb 2, 2014

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    Smile And Act Like You Zoned Out

    I just got dumped and he said he still liked me and he still loved me! I was sitting ini class remembering those words and i guess i looked really depressed because my said "are you ok i'm worried about you" i completly didn't know what to say so i said "Uh huh i just zoned out...
    SaveMeByShineDown SaveMeByShineDown 13-15, F Mar 24, 2011

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    Smile And Nod

    That's I did growing up smile and nod or wave at the pretty people for they will never know that deep down inside is a little girl crying out In pain she sobs and cry deep down behind that cute smile every one goes aww for I wish you could see the pain but I can't stop smiling I...
    brokenandalone brokenandalone 18-21, F Oct 23, 2010

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    A The Presence Of Pain I Lie With A Smile.

    Pain.. yes, that horrible pain that makes you feel a knot in your throat; as you hold down the cravings to cry, to let yourself go to, just give up and stop smiling. I have too, felt this. I hide my pain smiling, acting casual, holding back what I really want to say. I often get...
    OutcastedDaughter OutcastedDaughter 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2011

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    I Hurt!!! But Dammit, I Still Smile!

    I get really tired sometimes of being the smiley, happy, bouncy person that people expect me to be.  That's what I am most of the time.  I genuinely am usually happy.  But here's the thing....I'm in a very turbulent relationship and sometimes I just don't...
    tinkerbell75 tinkerbell75 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2009

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    Bully

    so theres this girl my school and shes always picking in me an dmy friends but mostly me an di dont know why but latley shes been hitting me and today at school i by mistake bumped into her and she said that i did it on purpose but i didnt.... and at cheer her mom and my mom got...
    cheerlover223 cheerlover223 13-15, F 2 Responses May 2, 2012

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    TRUE. It somehow scares me how I can still

    smile even when im in a total mess. How I can laugh and pretend things are fine when they aren't. How I managed to survive day after day of my really hard depressing life. Sometimes I question myself if im just fooling myself whenever I smile. Because I pretend everything is...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F Feb 11, 2014

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    This pain in my chest is killing me. No.. It's making want to kill myselfff
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 26 mins ago

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    surrounded by people and no one knows I am depressed, heartbroken, and just at rock bottom......but at least my smile brightens their day
    siobhansweetness siobhansweetness 26-30, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    It's so hard today not to hide it. My boyfriend finally admitted he'd just rather go to sleep than be intimate with me and thinks I make things stressful when I bring up the fact...
    SereneThoughts SereneThoughts 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Well yes, I think anyone depressed tries to hide it
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 5 hrs ago

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    Yes I do! It's a couple of days but shoot make me smile! Did things I never done before. But still afraid or paranoid about it.
    Oceandock19 Oceandock19 41-45, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I paint my nails orange the most :P
    Nya25 Nya25 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    Another morning waking up exhausted & aching all over........I have M.E. and I'm off work again due to not being able to find the energy to even put my socks on! I've been told one...
    colby4 colby4 46-50, F 16 hrs ago

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    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M 17 hrs ago

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    Before I never painted, colored or anything. Got into it after my mother's suicide. Now I can look at something that would be hideous and think I can turn that into something...
    JustaSimpleSoul JustaSimpleSoul 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    When I smile, laugh or express happiness, it feels almost fake ..because no one knows the sadness in my heart. I can hide it from them, and let the world around me be a distraction...
    MissNexp MissNexp 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I sometimes fake smile to hide my sadness I feel like the sadness will not end due to a loss of the love of my life due to my own mental issues/demons I wish I could smile & mean...
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96 36-40, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Since the day you've been gone i do fake a smile to hide my sadness... i don't want the people around me specially my loves ones to know that am still not doing fine since you've...
    realhappiness realhappiness 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I lock my door so when Im crying people won't just walk in.. and everytime I hear a knock, I get up and check my face in the mirror so noone can tell. Opening the door is the...
    MysticThornwolf MysticThornwolf 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    just smile it'll all be ok....
    Chaospi2 Chaospi2 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    It's just the easy way out of things. Fake a smile and you don't have to explain to someone your whole life story and why you're just so ******* broken inside. I'd rather not get...
    niahhydra niahhydra 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Heart feels empty , badly broken guess cause of my own mistakes and flaws , my faith is shaken almost shattered and heart aches eyes want to cry i am a recluse i want to hide want...
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I wish to get over all this pain inside my heart and soul and especially those people who come into my life care about me I open my heart and tell everything then one day they hit...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've been hanging out with friends, for a week straight, and the whole time I've wanted to cry. My internalized racism always finds a way to destroy me in ways that I've never...
    Avidnerd Avidnerd 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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