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I Sometimes Can't Talk About Whats Hurting Me

When the words just won't come out 6,810 People

    I cant speak, I can't write sometimes.

    because I am starting to shaking and feeling cold. I feel like something is sitting on my chest when I remember what I am going through. hopelessness is all around me in those times. I try to breath, stay away from the razor, scissors and knives. I count to ten, then more breath...
    darklotus01 darklotus01 13-15, T 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Heart is just like a mirror,

    once it is broken, it will never be fixed. So handle it with care :)
    EndlessDesire EndlessDesire 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    These memories are eating me from the inside

    out. Warnings are cruel. What is in my mind does not line up with reality. I can not be near anyone if my feelings just get in the way
    Redstrings Redstrings 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2015

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    bellecc11 bellecc11 26-30, F Jul 7, 2015

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    I try to talk about what's hurting me.

    .. But I don't like talking about myself.
    ItzPuppeh ItzPuppeh 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    coz I usually mis-interpreted

    whenever I am telling other what I really felt. They usually expect that I SHOULD understand anything and everything !!! So much that it hurts me inside but I have to be strong enough to accept that I am doing it for the love and care for them. But it's tiring for everybody's...
    myheartwants myheartwants 36-40, F Jan 11

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    When Will The Hurt Stop

    I somehow manage to find something to feel hopeful, positive about where my daughter's health problems and all that goes with it are concerned.  I do it for two reasons.  It's the only way I can keep going another day and it's important to me for her to see me upbeat so I can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Feb 10, 2012

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    Strangled

    I don't bottle things up... not intentionally at least. I have somebody that I would like to share everything with, someone whom I trust completely, but it seems that sometimes the words just won't come. As much as I trust this person, I find that I can't even trust myself...
    hacky2012 hacky2012 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14, 2012

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    It's almost as if the walls of defence forbid

    any further assault on the maiden within.
    PeterSp8 PeterSp8 46-50, M Jun 11, 2015

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    "Stick and stones may break your bones

    but words will never hurt me." but "The tongue can shatter souls". What contradicting things both is true but words really can shatter or bind someone's soul. Words can't hurt you physically but if you spend every day of your life being abused by words, it hurts more than being...
    middlechild274 middlechild274 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    You ask me how I am, I say I'm not feeling the

    best.. im not fine. it takes so much of me to answer that in honesty. But then you ask me why.. what happened... I smile my tears away... i want to tell you that if you've just been paying attention to me or even listening to me for all the times we've talked, then maybe you...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    Scared shitless, alone I stand!

    Hurting for the answers that I will never have. Lift my head high and carry on, with or without letting it out.
    Froggy420 Froggy420 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2015

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    Uku7777 Uku7777 18-21, M Dec 26, 2015

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    I'm not sure if people are

    unintentionally/unknowingly being mean and that i'm just so sensitive. That's why i had to bottle things up inside.
    karishaCB karishaCB 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2015

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    If you believe in God,

    or nothing or some other deity, I feel like it's a cruel piece in our genetic make up for us to seek companionship. It's something we have no control over, someone else wanting us. It just leaves a hole in you where someone should be but no one wants to be, and the unfilled...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Yes, its quite offen

    that I can't tell people who are really close to me that they are hurting me ... just because I wouldn't want them to be hurt by my saying so.
    toohottoresist toohottoresist 36-40, M 5 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    i love her more than I love myself,

    we fight so much about little things and I'm tired. there's no more "faults" or any more "blame games", both of us equally contribute to tearing each other down. we can lay in the same bed for hours just making each other angry. I'm tired. I want peace, just emotional peace and...
    rastaflip713 rastaflip713 18-21, F Nov 30, 2014

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    Because I'm scared people are going to think

    I'm too sensitive and depressing to be around with...
    Letmebee Letmebee 22-25, F 3 Responses May 9, 2015

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    most people can't handle it,

    and I can't bear to see the pain, fear, confusion if I do start explaining. Sometimes I don't have the words, its only a feeling and too difficult to describe.
    goodwitchofthenorth goodwitchofthenorth 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    I can't ever. I find it

    so embarrassing that my friends might realise I have emotions. emotions are embarrassing. I'm not comfortable with letting people know I'm not indifferent. its embarrassing to know people know I might have cried about a certain thing or felt bad about a certain thing. that's why...
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    I can't express the feelings I'm feeling right

    now. Maybe lonely, depressed, or overwhelmed. I usually go on ep to help others when they're feeling down, and I post when I'm feeling down. But I feel stuck in my life right now, and I feel like I'm in a never ending circle. Everyday I wake up go to school, come home and do...
    CSCE720 CSCE720 13-15, F Apr 30, 2014

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    I believe that the heart does go on the path,

    but once it is broken; the pain, scar and gaps between another's heart has been tearing apart and unable to seal back.
    EndlessDesire EndlessDesire 18-21, M Jan 8

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    My Dad passed away, suddenly,

    last year. The year before-I lost my brother and my grandfather. I have 3 kids and am married. When my dad died, I took off 2 weeks from a job I loved and when I went back, I just couldn't do it anymore. I was in sales. Always smiling. Always friendly. Always helpful. Always...
    justathought2014 justathought2014 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    What is the point? no one wants to hear it

    or see it, o I push all deep down inside.When asked what is wrong, I will try to explain and begin to the see the non interested looks of whom I am to confide in, so I just stop and say nothing, walk around like every thing is just peachy keen....give people what they want...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    So me and my gf where in public

    and since she's not out but I kissed her in front of these girls that she try's so hard to impress so that the won't call her gay and now the mess with her and she's so depressed she was talking about if she was gone would I missed her and I don't know who to tell or talk to I...
    lexinwonderland lexinwonderland 16-17, F Nov 29, 2014

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    I just wanna escape my thoughts

    and numb them....... they're so strong..... nothing works...... which made me turn to suicide but that obviously didn't work...... I'm stuck...... I want my thoughts to dissipate.....
    InfiniteDreaming InfiniteDreaming 18-21, F May 25, 2015

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    The other night I finally reached out

    and talked to an anonymous help chat for victims of sexual assault. I have been living with my story for years and it was very helpful to tell someone and finally admit that I was sexually assaulted. I have felt guilt and shame that I was involved in the situation. I said no, no...
    TexasBrian TexasBrian 36-40, M 2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

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    Always Put On A Front.

    No matter how I am feeling, I always put a smile on my face and bury the pain away. I am known at work for always smiling. People comment on my smile, they like it so much. Say it is nice when I come through work smiling every morning. Yet they would be amazed if they knew how...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I hate my life. I can't talk about my problems

    to people.. I can't talk about my awful job, or the situations I'm in, I can't tell anyone what trouble I'm in, what problems I'm facing, or what I'm gonna do, or how I'm gonna get out of them. I'm always in trouble. ALWAYS. I'm always in trouble. I am trying, I am always trying...
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 4 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    Gina1993 Gina1993 22-25, F Jul 3, 2015

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    Maybe One Day

    I wish I found it easy to talk about everything but I avoid talking about the things that really hurt me a lot of the time. I'd rather keep it inside, away from the people who love me so I don't bother or burden them. I don't trust easily, even less than before with what has...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 7 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    It's hard. But I eventually tell someone

    trustable about how I feel.
    Music4Us Music4Us 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    brigetter brigetter 26-30, F Jan 6

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    It's hard to express my feelings to others

    verbally because I can't really trust people . Find it easier to express pain and emotion through writing
    ChrisMackin ChrisMackin 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6, 2014

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    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    bethccaa bethccaa 26-30, F Dec 24, 2015

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    My Fake Mother decided to stay home,

    yet again this week. Lord Jesus Christ, I do not know what I did to deserve this, but she WILL terrorize me all day today because this woman is NOT my real Mother. Read my other stories for more info. Every week she stays home at least one or two days. I really and truly don't...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Jul 2, 2015

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    lola992 lola992 22-25, F 11 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I'm so done, I can't even.

    .. I'm just tired, I just want to die, I'm going. soon, I've made up my mind. I've decided it's for the best, it's gonna hello people, it'll help me move of all
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2015

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    Putting it into words is the hardest part about

    talking to someone who wants to know why I'm hurting inside.. If I could, I would open up my heart and let everything gush out all at once, but something is stopping me. I don't know what it is.. It just makes me freeze up and push everything down deeper into the infinite, black...
    cynicalsmile cynicalsmile 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    So I finally broke down in front of my parents,

    a complete mental breakdown. they wanted to know what's going on and I told them about 10% of the truth. why can't I ever seem to open up and let it all go. why am I so protected. why do I have trust issues with everyone. I can't even come close to telling my sister, who is the...
    TexasBrian TexasBrian 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 25, 2015

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    It's a bit different though.

    I do have someone I tell everything to and she knows who she is. Aside from that I really can't be bothered to talk about my problems. Sometimes I post them on here anyways. Typing helps me clear my mind
    Raptax231 Raptax231 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 16, 2014

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    I generally don't. I have a therapist

    that I'm contemplating leaving because honestly I can't even talk to the guy. my mouth opens but no words come out. every time I've opened up to anyone they've ****** me over or worse. I don't think I'll ever get over it either.
    Nmetb Nmetb 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2015

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    Talk about your feelings.

    ...... Good or bad feelings need expression, freedom to reveal themselves it's not good to hide behind a smile when your heart is breaking, by letting out your feelings your pain is released and your able to reconstruct your life, think of other things that will make you happy...
    Lydia66 Lydia66 46-50, F 29 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    Today, I'm going to try.

    My spouse is a narcissistic as*hole. When,he is angry, he verbally abuses me. I am the main wage earner. I work nights. I constantly have this used against me in arguments. His mental illness(es) are used, by him, as tools of guilt. I am not allowed to expect him to help care...
    Lloorrii2 Lloorrii2 41-45, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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