I Sometimes Feel Like I'm Just Killing Time

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    Killing Time Until What?

    That is what I cannot figure out. I catch myself killing time, but why, what am I waiting for? Why do I have so much time to kill anyway, will I regret this when I am 85? Ok, now I am making myself feel bad...
    Ozzygrl Ozzygrl
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2008

    Always

    Because I don't feel happy with my life, instead of trying to change my life for better, I kill time till life is over! I am so lazy.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    3 Responses May 3, 2009

    Feels Like This Alot

    sometimes i am too cynical and it seems that life is just painting by numbers and that everything i do is prescripted or entirely irrelevant and deeply unsatisfying, this is fleeting thankfully i always look for avenues to distract me from this way of thinking
    Donalh Donalh
    22-25, M
    Sep 12, 2008

    Just to Smile

    Part of me knows this is true, but another part of me questions that. What comes after death, nobody knows. But hopefully all I've done here hasn't been a waste of time. But I know I do waste a lot of time doing things i shouldn't but somehow it gives me comfort, and gives me a...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 3, 2008

    It Happens Sometimes, Even ...

    It happens sometimes, even if I must admit that honestly, I'm very busy most of the time!
    PurpleQueen PurpleQueen
    36-40, F
    Mar 20, 2009

    When I Do Nothin' At All ...

    I know that time is precious .. but sometimes Im just too lazy to do anything but lie in bed and enjoy EP .. lol ..
    DollyDiva DollyDiva
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jan 10, 2010

    Late, Uh Uh

    Im already in my 20s but I haven't reached my goals yet.
    MissDiss MissDiss
    22-25
    Oct 29, 2011

    I Fell Like That a Lot.&nbs...

    I fell like that a lot.  The last few months, I'm really making it a goal to change that.  I'm getting more involved with my passions,, Music, Animals, ect, and trying to make more use of time, as it is a precious thing that shouldn't be taken for granted.
    justANNIE justANNIE
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2009

    Killing Time

    No fancy words this time, I dont wanna kill time i wanna rule time, make time my own, be its boss. For most days pass way to slow, as if im waiting for something to happen, but what! Time creeps up on me and before i know im old and its over, that i dont want either, so which...
    Gaspar1111 Gaspar1111
    31-35, M
    Mar 28, 2010

    All the time...looking

    for something that i know it's not here...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 15, 2015

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