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I Sometimes Feel Like Taking My Own Life

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    Want To Give Up

    I am tired of fighting. I no longer wish to live. I think about hurting myself everyday.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    Title Doesn'T Matter!

    I broke my neck just before my 20th birthday and the rest is history ! I won't Go into the details of the physical needs of a Quad to save you the unbelievable, Inhumane, Unconstitutional Crap I have to deal with starting the second I wake up every day! I sleep with a box cutter...
    CyaNextLife CyaNextLife 51-55 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    Overwhelmed

    The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting...
    EmmyL EmmyL 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    I Want To....

    Sometimes I really just want to do it and that's it. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know that killing myself is not the right answer to dealing with things.. but sometimes.. I just don't care. I just don't have the guts to.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    Yea...

    i feel like i want to just end it all even though i know i would never have the guts to do it. i have been parying to god practicly yelling at him saying "why dont you just end it already! just kill me damit! i dont care if i go to hell just kill me! towmarow if you have to...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Aug 28, 2009

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    System Error

    The sound of brokenness is heard best As the razors slicing through thick flesh Carving an “X” upon my chest Over a vacant cavity where a heart once rest Distraught in mind, body and soul It’s a hundred and four outside yet I still feel cold I’m just walking dead in the...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Boom. . .

    Pick up the gun, finger on the trigger, gun to my head Boom If only it were that easy, somebody always comes in to the room or something interrupts when you are seconds away from blowing out your brains! Even trying to bleed to death, something happens, somebody puts their nose...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    When I Got Nothing to Do

    I am the type of person that needs a daily job. I need something to do, a purpose. Without it, I'm so ******* bored, lonely and depressed I do once in a while on a dark cold night consider taking my own life. Luckily I haven't done it yet. I just really need a job soon.
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    Life Is It Worth Living???

    Why, Why,Why me??? My life is a mess I messed it up and trusting in God also screwed me up. My life from the beginning was not the best I was fat and tall and made fun of, then in my teenage years I got even fatter due to some hormonal stuff in my body, I had acne and got even...
    Cutestuff2 Cutestuff2 18-21, F 2 Responses May 9, 2013

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    Not Exactly, But Sort Of

    I don't plan suicides or write notes or cry out for help, but not a day goes by when I don't find myself wishing I was dead. I'll die soon I hope, don't know how, just hope it's not much longer.
    Musical Musical 36-40, M 7 Responses Sep 23, 2010

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    Remorse

    its been about 5 years ive been alone in my mind after some things ive gone threw i realised no one ever really cares without some kind of reason even if its just being nosy. so my story is a long walk with a shell, that shell is my body but the emotions have long gone, i still...
    anemptycup anemptycup 22-25 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    Falling Dreams.

    Sometimes depression places you into an apathetic daze and you can't really focus or contemplate on anything. You feel so out of touch, almost as if you're in a strange lucid dream. Ever have one of those dreams where you don't realise you've fallen asleep but all of a sudden you...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Mindless Chatter

    I’m such a failure with no success in life You can compare it to trimming off fat using a butter knife With a go nowhere job and no future hope I make excuses delaying my suicide I’m such a stupid fucken joke As a father I failed And I’m no longer a solider any more...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Dec 4, 2011

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    End It All

    I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth. If I don't trust...
    Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    End My Life

    I have always had the urge to just end my life and stop living this life and any life that follows this one!! I have gone as far as to hurt myself before but never to the extent of permant damage to myself!   Now more than ever the urges to just quit life and...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    Trying

    I have tried to do it more than once... Just a couple of days ago I tried... I slit my wrist.... I have shot myself in my cheast.. I have OD I have dont a lot... I just dont seem to beable to die... I want to to die now... but I dont thank that I can... I wish I was gone... No...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    Alone

    if i dont have time in my day to just sit and relax  i feel overwhemled. but being alone with my thoughts scares me. being alone with my thoughts is not something a recovery cutter should be aloud to do. will anyting stop me from listening to the vocies in my head and...
    stasiamt stasiamt 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2010

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    Losing Hope

    I think the majority of the people who have either posted in this group or become a member of it - will most likely understand what I'm talking about. As painful bits & pieces of our own personal lives begin to crumble, and still so many things continue to remain unchanged. If...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Consumed

    There is not a day, minute, or second that goes by that somewhere deep ( or maybe not so deep) in my mind that a clever plan to end my own life is being hatched. It's become so second nature that I only stop to toy with the ideas as a form of entertainment- a puzzle. I want very...
    EmoDragonfly EmoDragonfly 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2011

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    I Have It All Figured Out

    I figured out the perfect way to take myself out. My parents employ me as a contractor to take care of all the property that they own, and they just got a new property that has asbestos insulation that is exposed. I'm going to spend a couple of nights there and then when I don...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I feel like I was meant for something greater than just living. I don't know how to put it, I guess I just feel like I don't belong.
    michael9666 michael9666 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    I definitely get that presence feeling right now. Home alone...Feels like someone from the shadows is watching me.
    Riukkuyo Riukkuyo 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I feel like that, like I don't belong here. There's no one I relate to, or understands me or have the same interest in things as me. But I suck it up. And push on, and Pray I'll...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I really do feel like I should crawl into a hole by myself and just watch The Cosby Show until I die.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M Sep 6

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    The sheep feeling is what I reject the most.Everybody doing stuff coz they are meant to do it. Focking hell what a boring life...I like to see it from a different perspective.I...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    If Society knew my dating life... Mother~Hes too old for you! Father~He better treat you good! Guys my age~Eww, go away you piece of trash. Girls my age~OMG go find your sugar...
    InnerEgo InnerEgo 16-17, T Sep 6

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    I deleting and scared sometimes. I have a phobia for needles and doctors, but I could really really use a firm no nonsense "you're going but I promise to comfort you if you cry...
    cheekyhannah cheekyhannah 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 16

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    My day started with a little hope in My heart. That died halfway through the day. Its foolish to ever get hopeful! I have tried to become the Person everyone wanted me to be...
    monah monah 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I can't stay or walk with one person cause i don't have any topic to talk with except that one have. It feels awkward. Can someone guide me?
    Karara0 Karara0 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I've always felt like an outsider and am trying to figure out my place in this world
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Almost always, when I go out in public I find myself laughing at people. There at morons everywhere. It's incredible. I love laughing, but it's so exhausting especially because I...
    jakeypooh17 jakeypooh17 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    When you are ignored!!!!!!!!!!
    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F Sep 2

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    All i want to do is to scream out all the anger, frustration and anxiety.
    afreespirit afreespirit 18-21, M a week ago

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    I'm crying right now... Ugh
    Aepeth Aepeth 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    The other day I was at school and when I got back I looked at my mother straight in the eyes and told her: Mom, I'm tired of being social. And headed to my room. Yeah. :/ don't ask...
    LadyWhatever LadyWhatever 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm what people call a loner.And I actually enjoy being a loner,it's just that there are times when I want to be part of something.
    JoeyNight JoeyNight 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I am socially awkward and I can't talk with people in person..
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 8 Responses 2 days ago

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    Especially at night if my curtains are open. I get scared.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Ahead: Stupid rant My freshman year of high school, I met one girl and pretty much stuck to her side until I made my own friends, which were basically everyone she was friends...
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    Sometime I think I should just give up on the possibility of me and him. I met him a month or more ago. What started out as something that made me so hopeful has turned into more...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    You ever get the feeling like you are on borrowed time? I do, I have been depressed all my life with the exception of the last two years. These last two years have been amazing...
    Shellback1992 Shellback1992 41-45, M 5 days ago

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    There you go, I feel like a failure sometimes no matter how hard I try not to quit. My whole life I feel like I been going in circles. Like no matter what I do to try to succeed in...
    MrKool82 MrKool82 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 17

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    For the past two weeks, I don’t think I’ve dreamed once-or if I have, I don’t remember it. That probably doesn’t seem all that significant… Except for me. It’s made...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    Two things I don't understand in life. I don't know why God made me and why He loves me. I've betrayed Him so many times. Two things I know in life. He made me and bought me back...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    Hi. My I like to go by Snow. Well I'll keep the story shorter than what it truly is. Well I currently do no live with my mother, she lives in another town nearby with my grandma...
    SnowKittyRosa SnowKittyRosa 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    Let me first start off by saying I am a natural worrier. By this, I mean my life wouldn't feel right or I would be bored if I didn't worry. Granted, it takes its' toll on me but I...
    Cherrybean84 Cherrybean84 26-30, F Sep 13

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    When I was 5 years old I created kind of a realm in my imagination that I went to all the time and no one could ever understand it...this wasn't any normal pretend game this was...
    Zalbaar Zalbaar 13-15, M Sep 13

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    Whenever I get a bad grade, like I did today (D - one point from C!), my mom totally freaks out. She confronts me and talk about how bad the grade is and then she starts talking...
    ParkerFewer ParkerFewer 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I don't just feel like no one understands me, I know that no one understands me. It's so hard being in this family, in this school, in this world. My family invalidates my feelings...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 Sep 16

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