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I Sometimes Feel Like Taking My Own Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 230 People

    Not Exactly, But Sort Of

    I don't plan suicides or write notes or cry out for help, but not a day goes by when I don't find myself wishing I was dead. I'll die soon I hope, don't know how, just hope it's not much longer.
    Musical Musical 36-40, M 7 Responses Sep 23, 2010

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    Remorse

    its been about 5 years ive been alone in my mind after some things ive gone threw i realised no one ever really cares without some kind of reason even if its just being nosy. so my story is a long walk with a shell, that shell is my body but the emotions have long gone, i still...
    anemptycup anemptycup 22-25 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    I Have It All Figured Out

    I figured out the perfect way to take myself out. My parents employ me as a contractor to take care of all the property that they own, and they just got a new property that has asbestos insulation that is exposed. I'm going to spend a couple of nights there and then when I don...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    End My Life

    I have always had the urge to just end my life and stop living this life and any life that follows this one!! I have gone as far as to hurt myself before but never to the extent of permant damage to myself!   Now more than ever the urges to just quit life and...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    Trying

    I have tried to do it more than once... Just a couple of days ago I tried... I slit my wrist.... I have shot myself in my cheast.. I have OD I have dont a lot... I just dont seem to beable to die... I want to to die now... but I dont thank that I can... I wish I was gone... No...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    Alone

    if i dont have time in my day to just sit and relax  i feel overwhemled. but being alone with my thoughts scares me. being alone with my thoughts is not something a recovery cutter should be aloud to do. will anyting stop me from listening to the vocies in my head and...
    stasiamt stasiamt 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2010

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    System Error

    The sound of brokenness is heard best As the razors slicing through thick flesh Carving an “X” upon my chest Over a vacant cavity where a heart once rest Distraught in mind, body and soul It’s a hundred and four outside yet I still feel cold I’m just walking dead in the...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Life Is It Worth Living???

    Why, Why,Why me??? My life is a mess I messed it up and trusting in God also screwed me up. My life from the beginning was not the best I was fat and tall and made fun of, then in my teenage years I got even fatter due to some hormonal stuff in my body, I had acne and got even...
    Cutestuff2 Cutestuff2 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9, 2013

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    Title Doesn'T Matter!

    I broke my neck just before my 20th birthday and the rest is history ! I won't Go into the details of the physical needs of a Quad to save you the unbelievable, Inhumane, Unconstitutional Crap I have to deal with starting the second I wake up every day! I sleep with a box cutter...
    CyaNextLife CyaNextLife 51-55 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    When I Got Nothing to Do

    I am the type of person that needs a daily job. I need something to do, a purpose. Without it, I'm so ******* bored, lonely and depressed I do once in a while on a dark cold night consider taking my own life. Luckily I haven't done it yet. I just really need a job soon.
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    Want To Give Up

    I am tired of fighting. I no longer wish to live. I think about hurting myself everyday.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    I Want To....

    Sometimes I really just want to do it and that's it. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know that killing myself is not the right answer to dealing with things.. but sometimes.. I just don't care. I just don't have the guts to.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    Yea...

    i feel like i want to just end it all even though i know i would never have the guts to do it. i have been parying to god practicly yelling at him saying "why dont you just end it already! just kill me damit! i dont care if i go to hell just kill me! towmarow if you have to...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Aug 28, 2009

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    Overwhelmed

    The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting...
    EmmyL EmmyL 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    End It All

    I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth. If I don't trust...
    Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Mindless Chatter

    I’m such a failure with no success in life You can compare it to trimming off fat using a butter knife With a go nowhere job and no future hope I make excuses delaying my suicide I’m such a stupid fucken joke As a father I failed And I’m no longer a solider any more...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Dec 4, 2011

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    Consumed

    There is not a day, minute, or second that goes by that somewhere deep ( or maybe not so deep) in my mind that a clever plan to end my own life is being hatched. It's become so second nature that I only stop to toy with the ideas as a form of entertainment- a puzzle. I want very...
    EmoDragonfly EmoDragonfly 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2011

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    Falling Dreams.

    Sometimes depression places you into an apathetic daze and you can't really focus or contemplate on anything. You feel so out of touch, almost as if you're in a strange lucid dream. Ever have one of those dreams where you don't realise you've fallen asleep but all of a sudden you...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Losing Hope

    I think the majority of the people who have either posted in this group or become a member of it - will most likely understand what I'm talking about. As painful bits & pieces of our own personal lives begin to crumble, and still so many things continue to remain unchanged. If...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    I am turning 41 years old in 2 weeks and when I look back at my life I keeping asking myself the same question over and over. I do not know why I was born or brought into this...
    ShyGuyInFL ShyGuyInFL 36-40, M 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I don't know why but sometimes a fit of rage develops in me bursting to get out, and the bad part is that I feel like destroying the world but this feeling in me quickly dissapears...
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    So I'm in 8th grade and basically in 6th grade this girl, (Lets call her Shelby) Shelby and (Lets call her Makayla) Shelby and Makayla were best friends. As well as in 7th grade...
    PastelOreos447 PastelOreos447 13-15, F Jan 2

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    I feel like running because no one gets me, I'm still in the closet & came out to some friends. & my family treats me like bullshit for some reason... yess i have an iPhone, iPad...
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    This is true I feel like the world is a agents me and every one hates me and that people don't want to know me
    thebigscottishguy thebigscottishguy 22-25, M Jan 9

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    not in such a bad way as most people on here would probably say... I can tell I think very differently than most people. I often have friends trying to pick my brain. I've never...
    bubbscoug bubbscoug 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Yesterday once again so much anger and rage grew inside me that I cannot explain felt like destroying everything in my path felt like moving into a cave !!
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I keep to myself a lot now. Sucks because I usually just end up crying at night
    uh2behonest uh2behonest 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I'm ready, I'm doing it . Im not looking back . Don't worry it won't be for long , hopefully god guides me through this.
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    pls read it i always tried to stay away from everything because nothing seen to be good for me... i don't hang round people or use social media much because i never felt good or...
    alwaysfeltlost alwaysfeltlost 18-21, F Jan 21

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    I don't know if it's actually the solution, I'm just curious if this is all an illusion and completely fed up and sick of people. Every person, any person. I hate being looked at...
    sunkern sunkern 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Living in the Deep South way in the country part living a country life where blue jeans and boots are a must, I'm wondering if I live a sheltered life. These ppl in the city, like...
    Cricket75 Cricket75 36-40, F 3 hrs ago

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    So here I am in this situation. I'm a bit all over the place right now. Like I feel like screaming and crying and laughing at the same time but hopefully this too shall pass. I try...
    Khaleesi18 Khaleesi18 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I only ever visit this site to catch up with a few select people or to say what I can never say to anyone in my life. Sometimes it is all tooo much. Sometimes I look at my life and...
    imsoradalecki imsoradalecki 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    The hidden secret of life I mean. I myself don’t know what I mean. I have a huge trusting problem. The problem is not that I don’t trust anyone but that I trust EVERYONE. I...
    avnn avnn 16-17, F Jan 21

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    I use to have hopes and dreams, and somewhere along the way they just keep getting crushed over and over. I feel like I was meant to do more than working for someone else to get...
    FellidayaFiresong FellidayaFiresong 31-35, F Jan 19

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    Idk, it's just awkward and weird taking to them about personal things. I can talk to my siblings, especially my little sister, about stuff, but my parents are a different story...
    Julez3 Julez3 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I am going to turn 30 in couple of days. There is not much enthusiasm. I don't know why I get sad on my birthday. Even if I try to be very cheerful for my well wishers, I can't...
    FallenAngelStar FallenAngelStar 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My ex told me things I had done. People Say he lies. He lied a lot. I was the one dumped so I'm the monster right? I don't know who's more afraid- him seeing me or me going on...
    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I work in the hospitality industry and I have started my carrier as as an Agent but after a five years of working in this industry I have moved from a hotel to other one for...
    Yassan Yassan 26-30, M Jan 5

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    Hi I suffer from hard to deal with ocd, when I was diagnosed about 7 years ago I was really struggling and my binge drinking got even worst and I used alcohol as a means to deal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 13

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    when im watching movies , the characters in it seem so special. they all have there own personality and talents and they have a life. im so boring compared to everyone I have no...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    For anybody who doesn't know the real me: I feel as if everybody does it. We all put an exterior out there that promotes our best features. Nobody wants to be that angry, annoying...
    findingfae findingfae 18-21, F Jan 19

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    I'm new to the group of friends I have right now and I can't help but feel left out sometimes. They're all great people, but sometimes I feel like I'm intruding, or like I'm not...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    sometimes, I think to myself.. what is the point of even trying in the world any more if people just result in not liking me in the end. i'm a very nice person and i try to belong...
    tirwin6471 tirwin6471 16-17, F Jan 16

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    I feel like my life has no meaning and therefor I should not continue this dreadful path. I think that people have as much right to die as to live. Why should suicidal thoughts...
    nuttyduck nuttyduck 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hello everyone. Up until this point (for several years) I have decided to stay silent and observe posts similar to this one. Now, here on this website, on thos particular group it...
    Abufihamat Abufihamat 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's this kind of sadness that is starting to consume me whole. I've tried fighting it off on my own for as long as possible, but I'm getting tired. I'm just miserable all the time...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 day ago

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