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I Sometimes Feel Like Taking My Own Life

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    I have sucaidal thoughts most days

    but don't tell anyone.
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 18-21, F Mar 21

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    End My Life

    I have always had the urge to just end my life and stop living this life and any life that follows this one!! I have gone as far as to hurt myself before but never to the extent of permant damage to myself!   Now more than ever the urges to just quit life and...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    End It All

    I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth. If I don't trust...
    Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Want To Give Up

    I am tired of fighting. I no longer wish to live. I think about hurting myself everyday.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    Yea...

    i feel like i want to just end it all even though i know i would never have the guts to do it. i have been parying to god practicly yelling at him saying "why dont you just end it already! just kill me damit! i dont care if i go to hell just kill me! towmarow if you have to...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Aug 28, 2009

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    Mindless Chatter

    I’m such a failure with no success in life You can compare it to trimming off fat using a butter knife With a go nowhere job and no future hope I make excuses delaying my suicide I’m such a stupid fucken joke As a father I failed And I’m no longer a solider any more...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Dec 4, 2011

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    When I Got Nothing to Do

    I am the type of person that needs a daily job. I need something to do, a purpose. Without it, I'm so ******* bored, lonely and depressed I do once in a while on a dark cold night consider taking my own life. Luckily I haven't done it yet. I just really need a job soon.
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    Consumed

    There is not a day, minute, or second that goes by that somewhere deep ( or maybe not so deep) in my mind that a clever plan to end my own life is being hatched. It's become so second nature that I only stop to toy with the ideas as a form of entertainment- a puzzle. I want very...
    EmoDragonfly EmoDragonfly 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2011

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    Falling Dreams.

    Sometimes depression places you into an apathetic daze and you can't really focus or contemplate on anything. You feel so out of touch, almost as if you're in a strange lucid dream. Ever have one of those dreams where you don't realise you've fallen asleep but all of a sudden you...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    I Want To....

    Sometimes I really just want to do it and that's it. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know that killing myself is not the right answer to dealing with things.. but sometimes.. I just don't care. I just don't have the guts to.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    Title Doesn'T Matter!

    I broke my neck just before my 20th birthday and the rest is history ! I won't Go into the details of the physical needs of a Quad to save you the unbelievable, Inhumane, Unconstitutional Crap I have to deal with starting the second I wake up every day! I sleep with a box cutter...
    CyaNextLife CyaNextLife 51-55 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    I Have It All Figured Out

    I figured out the perfect way to take myself out. My parents employ me as a contractor to take care of all the property that they own, and they just got a new property that has asbestos insulation that is exposed. I'm going to spend a couple of nights there and then when I don...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    Not Exactly, But Sort Of

    I don't plan suicides or write notes or cry out for help, but not a day goes by when I don't find myself wishing I was dead. I'll die soon I hope, don't know how, just hope it's not much longer.
    Musical Musical 36-40, M 7 Responses Sep 23, 2010

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    Quarterly before seroquel.

    More when done trying seroquel.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Mar 20

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    Remorse

    its been about 5 years ive been alone in my mind after some things ive gone threw i realised no one ever really cares without some kind of reason even if its just being nosy. so my story is a long walk with a shell, that shell is my body but the emotions have long gone, i still...
    anemptycup anemptycup 22-25 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    Alone

    if i dont have time in my day to just sit and relax  i feel overwhemled. but being alone with my thoughts scares me. being alone with my thoughts is not something a recovery cutter should be aloud to do. will anyting stop me from listening to the vocies in my head and...
    stasiamt stasiamt 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2010

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    Trying

    I have tried to do it more than once... Just a couple of days ago I tried... I slit my wrist.... I have shot myself in my cheast.. I have OD I have dont a lot... I just dont seem to beable to die... I want to to die now... but I dont thank that I can... I wish I was gone... No...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    Losing Hope

    I think the majority of the people who have either posted in this group or become a member of it - will most likely understand what I'm talking about. As painful bits & pieces of our own personal lives begin to crumble, and still so many things continue to remain unchanged. If...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Overwhelmed

    The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting...
    EmmyL EmmyL 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    Life Is It Worth Living???

    Why, Why,Why me??? My life is a mess I messed it up and trusting in God also screwed me up. My life from the beginning was not the best I was fat and tall and made fun of, then in my teenage years I got even fatter due to some hormonal stuff in my body, I had acne and got even...
    Cutestuff2 Cutestuff2 22-25, F 1 Response May 9, 2013

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    System Error

    The sound of brokenness is heard best As the razors slicing through thick flesh Carving an “X” upon my chest Over a vacant cavity where a heart once rest Distraught in mind, body and soul It’s a hundred and four outside yet I still feel cold I’m just walking dead in the...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    An old memory just came back to me.... I had a fight with my best friend in high school and we never really spoke after that fight. I was in the school newspaper office on the...
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    I am ready to end my life I can't stand it anymore. U mite do it I hate my life and everything.
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    I am tired with my family not accepting me as a gamer, an atheist and a feminist. They keep criticizing me for not living in the real world, say games are for kids and teenagers...
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    I feel like my dad thinks that I am an angle and he always disappoint me he never ask me what I like to do in my life he thinks I am not good at anything he never approve my love...
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    I always had a good relationship with all of my class mates. I was actually pretty popular back then and I never let other people decide for me who i should hangout with and with...
    XbulletproofX XbulletproofX 13-15, F a week ago

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    Or maybe just just whole human society, I feel like I am a spectator, I feel like I'm studying the human race without belonging to it, not implying that I am above it, just...
    aPossibleFriend aPossibleFriend 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I feel like...the way I am causes so much trouble for you...I hate myself for not being able to do anything...and making you go so far... Sometimes, I wonder if you really find...
    hiirou hiirou 18-21 Aug 22

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    ever had a such a strong feeling of disbelieve in everything you do? mostly about your self? that's what I am feeling. I don't feel like a good person, I feel like I should be...
    Zineq Zineq 16-17, F Aug 21

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    I'm not in pain. I'm not angry. I'm not pregnant. I'm not hungry. I'm not tired. I'm not scared. I'm not happy. I'm not upset. For some reason, no matter what the situation, I just...
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    I totally feel like giving up sometimes, unfortunately, I have to keep going coz giving up isn't an option, no matter how I feel. if I made decisions based on my feelings??? wow...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I know I do, I've always been the less popular friend out of any group of friends I've had. My friends even just admitted to me that they wait till something they are going through...
    BroadwayAddict BroadwayAddict 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Sometimes, I get these moments.... Even when I'm reading books, taking a shower, or studying, I have these thoughts that flit through my mind; "God, I'm such a failure... Is there...
    twylarose twylarose 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    When one of my friends hurt me so bad, it tears me up inside. Even if it was not meant too, it goes in and takes my feelings out in shock. In disbelief, I'm so hurt and in shock. I...
    ghost25 ghost25 16-17, M Aug 19

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