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I Sometimes Feel Like Taking My Own Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 249 People

    Losing Hope

    I think the majority of the people who have either posted in this group or become a member of it - will most likely understand what I'm talking about. As painful bits & pieces of our own personal lives begin to crumble, and still so many things continue to remain unchanged. If...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Want To Give Up

    I am tired of fighting. I no longer wish to live. I think about hurting myself everyday.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    Mindless Chatter

    I’m such a failure with no success in life You can compare it to trimming off fat using a butter knife With a go nowhere job and no future hope I make excuses delaying my suicide I’m such a stupid fucken joke As a father I failed And I’m no longer a solider any more...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Dec 4, 2011

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    End My Life

    I have always had the urge to just end my life and stop living this life and any life that follows this one!! I have gone as far as to hurt myself before but never to the extent of permant damage to myself!   Now more than ever the urges to just quit life and...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    Title Doesn'T Matter!

    I broke my neck just before my 20th birthday and the rest is history ! I won't Go into the details of the physical needs of a Quad to save you the unbelievable, Inhumane, Unconstitutional Crap I have to deal with starting the second I wake up every day! I sleep with a box cutter...
    CyaNextLife CyaNextLife 51-55 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    I have sucaidal thoughts most days

    but don't tell anyone.
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F Mar 21

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    When I Got Nothing to Do

    I am the type of person that needs a daily job. I need something to do, a purpose. Without it, I'm so ******* bored, lonely and depressed I do once in a while on a dark cold night consider taking my own life. Luckily I haven't done it yet. I just really need a job soon.
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    Overwhelmed

    The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting...
    EmmyL EmmyL 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    I Have It All Figured Out

    I figured out the perfect way to take myself out. My parents employ me as a contractor to take care of all the property that they own, and they just got a new property that has asbestos insulation that is exposed. I'm going to spend a couple of nights there and then when I don...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    Life Is It Worth Living???

    Why, Why,Why me??? My life is a mess I messed it up and trusting in God also screwed me up. My life from the beginning was not the best I was fat and tall and made fun of, then in my teenage years I got even fatter due to some hormonal stuff in my body, I had acne and got even...
    Cutestuff2 Cutestuff2 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9, 2013

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    End It All

    I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth. If I don't trust...
    Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    System Error

    The sound of brokenness is heard best As the razors slicing through thick flesh Carving an “X” upon my chest Over a vacant cavity where a heart once rest Distraught in mind, body and soul It’s a hundred and four outside yet I still feel cold I’m just walking dead in the...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Trying

    I have tried to do it more than once... Just a couple of days ago I tried... I slit my wrist.... I have shot myself in my cheast.. I have OD I have dont a lot... I just dont seem to beable to die... I want to to die now... but I dont thank that I can... I wish I was gone... No...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    Remorse

    its been about 5 years ive been alone in my mind after some things ive gone threw i realised no one ever really cares without some kind of reason even if its just being nosy. so my story is a long walk with a shell, that shell is my body but the emotions have long gone, i still...
    anemptycup anemptycup 22-25 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    Yea...

    i feel like i want to just end it all even though i know i would never have the guts to do it. i have been parying to god practicly yelling at him saying "why dont you just end it already! just kill me damit! i dont care if i go to hell just kill me! towmarow if you have to...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Aug 28, 2009

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    Alone

    if i dont have time in my day to just sit and relax  i feel overwhemled. but being alone with my thoughts scares me. being alone with my thoughts is not something a recovery cutter should be aloud to do. will anyting stop me from listening to the vocies in my head and...
    stasiamt stasiamt 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2010

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    Consumed

    There is not a day, minute, or second that goes by that somewhere deep ( or maybe not so deep) in my mind that a clever plan to end my own life is being hatched. It's become so second nature that I only stop to toy with the ideas as a form of entertainment- a puzzle. I want very...
    EmoDragonfly EmoDragonfly 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2011

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    Falling Dreams.

    Sometimes depression places you into an apathetic daze and you can't really focus or contemplate on anything. You feel so out of touch, almost as if you're in a strange lucid dream. Ever have one of those dreams where you don't realise you've fallen asleep but all of a sudden you...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Not Exactly, But Sort Of

    I don't plan suicides or write notes or cry out for help, but not a day goes by when I don't find myself wishing I was dead. I'll die soon I hope, don't know how, just hope it's not much longer.
    Musical Musical 36-40, M 7 Responses Sep 23, 2010

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    Quarterly before seroquel.

    More when done trying seroquel.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Mar 20

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    I Want To....

    Sometimes I really just want to do it and that's it. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know that killing myself is not the right answer to dealing with things.. but sometimes.. I just don't care. I just don't have the guts to.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Yes. Exactly. This is the feeling I bear hold of. "I feel like nobody knows the real me." Why? Because. How could anybody know the real me if I lost her at age 12? It's been too...
    Saphhy195 Saphhy195 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    You think your over an ex, an ex that was was the worst possible role model for your children and always in trouble, playin, lying and all the things you just don't want in a...
    187Lockdown 187Lockdown 31-35, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I was on vacation and that gave me time to get a bird-view on my life and my choices. Sadly, I didn't see a pretty view. I allowed my feelings to mask my life views and for awhile...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    I have dayshavoo all the time. I witness death and the end of the world. I see people I love die in front of me . I feel so far away from the world but living in it. I go to church...
    Bustedox219 Bustedox219 26-30 15 hrs ago

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    The reason I don't feel good enough us that I see that she dated jerks who broke her heart and every time I helped her I even beat up my best friend because he broke up with her...
    milind3012 milind3012 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When I'm going to bed I have to walk upstairs and it's so dark I have to be careful so I don't crash into anything and then i start walking up the stairs to go to my room and when...
    xxemogirlxx xxemogirlxx 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have always come second best to my little sister and expected that but recently theres been a family break down and everyone is taking it out on me! No one in my family has ever...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 days ago

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    Hi, I am fifteen. The only doctor who has not told me it's all in my head or said it's anxiety issues suspects it's POTS. For the last year, my heart randomly starts racing at 150...
    Sethra53 Sethra53 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I almost always feel like I'm being judged. With my family members, friends, or people I don't even know. Sometimes I don't really care and I am able to forget about it because I...
    anonymoussssss321 anonymoussssss321 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    i truly dont want to be here anymore. all the memories. all the sadness attached. all my feelings that were just tossed to the curb. everything i lost. i want to run from myself...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    do to my disability I always have to ask people for help to do things sometimes I feel like I'm bothering my friends when I asked him to help me so I try and do things more myself...
    me0883 me0883 22-25, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    because I am very scared. I made someone very upset and indeed he has taken offense. Not exactly sure why I wrote this except I had to say it. I'm sorry Mr.
    Tstanley86 Tstanley86 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I just want to run away and do something, not wait, just go out and actually help the world, not learn how
    Ghosty1232 Ghosty1232 16-17 3 days ago

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    I always dreamed of running away. As kid I was secretly planning escape from my family. Having bag ready with only stuff I would need under my bed. I got pocket knife, sleeping...
    tripwithzip tripwithzip 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    One thing I always said about life in the back of my mind 'if there's nothing right then there's nothing left' I am realising that now lately as I feel I have sunk my quality of...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    sometimes when i feel low i really think they will be better without me i mean i feel like i m the odd one in them
    Dreck007 Dreck007 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I'm usually comfortable being a guy, and I identify as male most of the time. But there are some occasions where I look at myself and I feel like I should be a girl instead
    CokeandWhiskey CokeandWhiskey 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    [long story ahead because I need to get this off my chest] I have been struggling with solipsism my entire life. The people around me and my environment feels as though they are a...
    theflamechronicles theflamechronicles 18-21, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    I wonder how long it would take for someone to notice I'm gone.
    foreveralone22 foreveralone22 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Sometimes I would like to just grab my things and travel to a far away country. Just like that, without planning anything. Somewhere where no one knows me, where I do not have to...
    Darquessa Darquessa 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Sometimes I wonder if the life we are living is just a dream and if our real bodies/selves are asleep somewhere in another dimension. Our human bodies could be like the Naavi from...
    XxLionHeartxX XxLionHeartxX 18-21 1 Response 4 days ago

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    sometimes I just want to jump from the window.. just like that
    IceChocolate143 IceChocolate143 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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