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I Sometimes Feel Like Taking My Own Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 249 People

    Life Is It Worth Living???

    Why, Why,Why me??? My life is a mess I messed it up and trusting in God also screwed me up. My life from the beginning was not the best I was fat and tall and made fun of, then in my teenage years I got even fatter due to some hormonal stuff in my body, I had acne and got even...
    Cutestuff2 Cutestuff2 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9, 2013

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    End It All

    I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth. If I don't trust...
    Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Mindless Chatter

    I’m such a failure with no success in life You can compare it to trimming off fat using a butter knife With a go nowhere job and no future hope I make excuses delaying my suicide I’m such a stupid fucken joke As a father I failed And I’m no longer a solider any more...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Dec 4, 2011

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    Not Exactly, But Sort Of

    I don't plan suicides or write notes or cry out for help, but not a day goes by when I don't find myself wishing I was dead. I'll die soon I hope, don't know how, just hope it's not much longer.
    Musical Musical 36-40, M 7 Responses Sep 23, 2010

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    Quarterly before seroquel.

    More when done trying seroquel.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Mar 20

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    Overwhelmed

    The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting...
    EmmyL EmmyL 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    I Have It All Figured Out

    I figured out the perfect way to take myself out. My parents employ me as a contractor to take care of all the property that they own, and they just got a new property that has asbestos insulation that is exposed. I'm going to spend a couple of nights there and then when I don...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    Title Doesn'T Matter!

    I broke my neck just before my 20th birthday and the rest is history ! I won't Go into the details of the physical needs of a Quad to save you the unbelievable, Inhumane, Unconstitutional Crap I have to deal with starting the second I wake up every day! I sleep with a box cutter...
    CyaNextLife CyaNextLife 51-55 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    Consumed

    There is not a day, minute, or second that goes by that somewhere deep ( or maybe not so deep) in my mind that a clever plan to end my own life is being hatched. It's become so second nature that I only stop to toy with the ideas as a form of entertainment- a puzzle. I want very...
    EmoDragonfly EmoDragonfly 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2011

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    System Error

    The sound of brokenness is heard best As the razors slicing through thick flesh Carving an “X” upon my chest Over a vacant cavity where a heart once rest Distraught in mind, body and soul It’s a hundred and four outside yet I still feel cold I’m just walking dead in the...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Falling Dreams.

    Sometimes depression places you into an apathetic daze and you can't really focus or contemplate on anything. You feel so out of touch, almost as if you're in a strange lucid dream. Ever have one of those dreams where you don't realise you've fallen asleep but all of a sudden you...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Want To Give Up

    I am tired of fighting. I no longer wish to live. I think about hurting myself everyday.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    When I Got Nothing to Do

    I am the type of person that needs a daily job. I need something to do, a purpose. Without it, I'm so ******* bored, lonely and depressed I do once in a while on a dark cold night consider taking my own life. Luckily I haven't done it yet. I just really need a job soon.
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    Remorse

    its been about 5 years ive been alone in my mind after some things ive gone threw i realised no one ever really cares without some kind of reason even if its just being nosy. so my story is a long walk with a shell, that shell is my body but the emotions have long gone, i still...
    anemptycup anemptycup 22-25 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    Alone

    if i dont have time in my day to just sit and relax  i feel overwhemled. but being alone with my thoughts scares me. being alone with my thoughts is not something a recovery cutter should be aloud to do. will anyting stop me from listening to the vocies in my head and...
    stasiamt stasiamt 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2010

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    Trying

    I have tried to do it more than once... Just a couple of days ago I tried... I slit my wrist.... I have shot myself in my cheast.. I have OD I have dont a lot... I just dont seem to beable to die... I want to to die now... but I dont thank that I can... I wish I was gone... No...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    Yea...

    i feel like i want to just end it all even though i know i would never have the guts to do it. i have been parying to god practicly yelling at him saying "why dont you just end it already! just kill me damit! i dont care if i go to hell just kill me! towmarow if you have to...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Aug 28, 2009

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    Losing Hope

    I think the majority of the people who have either posted in this group or become a member of it - will most likely understand what I'm talking about. As painful bits & pieces of our own personal lives begin to crumble, and still so many things continue to remain unchanged. If...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    I have sucaidal thoughts most days

    but don't tell anyone.
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F Mar 21

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    I Want To....

    Sometimes I really just want to do it and that's it. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know that killing myself is not the right answer to dealing with things.. but sometimes.. I just don't care. I just don't have the guts to.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    End My Life

    I have always had the urge to just end my life and stop living this life and any life that follows this one!! I have gone as far as to hurt myself before but never to the extent of permant damage to myself!   Now more than ever the urges to just quit life and...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    Life: you work until you die. That's about it. You're "suppose to" go to college, you're suppose to get a degree, you're suppose to get married, you're suppose to have kids... All...
    beautifulloner beautifulloner 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't know why but I always feel like there has to be more to life than what I have and it makes me feel pretty down a lot of the time. I feel lost and that I'm not really doing...
    Ella147 Ella147 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    In a society that has destroyed all adventure, the only adventure left is to destroy that society
    thejuicytriangle thejuicytriangle 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I want to die, I feel like inviting any possible form of death because I feel that if I were gone... people would be better off. ...I want to die because I keep letting myself get...
    DaffodilDeary95 DaffodilDeary95 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I feel like my true nature has been suppressed over years of conditioning by my parents and society. I feel like there is an intense frustration and fear at the core of my being...
    ThisAnimalIsFree ThisAnimalIsFree 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I do bother people. I feel like sometimes people only talk to me because it's something to do. I end up becoming atleast in my eyes an obligation or a burden in some way. I try to...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    They bring me down for being a pushover in their eyes, but when I try being the true "me" before I went into depression, they see it as fake. They see that "random burst of...
    kristy99 kristy99 22-25 6 days ago

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    Sometimes I feel like people think I'm a "weenie". My god brother is a year older than me but way cooler, he was/ would probably super popular in high school because he's hot. He's...
    FutureVet2014 FutureVet2014 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I have been trying to maintain control over my life, but I'm starting to lose my grip on control. I see my school mates having much better and happier lives than me. They have...
    EddieNashton EddieNashton 13-15, M a week ago

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    A little background info first I am 24 years old, Hispanic, and come from a very traditional and very much practicing catholic family. Oh and I have a fear of confrontation. My...
    lnj1112 lnj1112 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Not sometimes.. For me it's everytime!!!
    halohai halohai 18-21, F Jul 19

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    I feel like no one understands me, that as hard as I try to open up to people and trust in people, they just don't understand me. Maybe its because I am so guarded all the time...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I feel like now its hard for anybody to understand hoe how I feel. I am sensative in general but also being pregnant more sensative.I feel like no one who isnt pregnant understands...
    muffin30 muffin30 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I don't know why, but for months now I just have eaten barely one or two things a day. I feel hungry often, but I just don't care enough to actually eat. I'm worried I might be...
    oeN4 oeN4 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I feel like a massive **** head. All I ever do is drink, take drugs, party and come to work looking and feeling like garbage. I just have such a crap attitude these days. I feel...
    DazzleX DazzleX 18-21, M Jul 16

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    I can't say I like Disney because they would say grow out of it, stop being childish. I can't speak my interest in crime stories because of my slight interest in law cause they...
    CrescientStar CrescientStar 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    After I don't know how many years of bottling up my emotions and everything it feels like the bottle is near its tipping point. Like I'm going to explode but I can't even do that...
    LAlbertoG LAlbertoG 22-25, M Jul 14

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    i literally have the worst time deciding things. like im always to feelings at once or have to polar opposite thoughts about the same subject!?
    Mavalyn Mavalyn 13-15, F Jul 13

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