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I Sometimes Feel Like Taking My Own Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 251 People

    Not Exactly, But Sort Of

    I don't plan suicides or write notes or cry out for help, but not a day goes by when I don't find myself wishing I was dead. I'll die soon I hope, don't know how, just hope it's not much longer.
    Musical Musical 36-40, M 7 Responses Sep 23, 2010

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    I Have It All Figured Out

    I figured out the perfect way to take myself out. My parents employ me as a contractor to take care of all the property that they own, and they just got a new property that has asbestos insulation that is exposed. I'm going to spend a couple of nights there and then when I don...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    I Want To....

    Sometimes I really just want to do it and that's it. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know that killing myself is not the right answer to dealing with things.. but sometimes.. I just don't care. I just don't have the guts to.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    Alone

    if i dont have time in my day to just sit and relax  i feel overwhemled. but being alone with my thoughts scares me. being alone with my thoughts is not something a recovery cutter should be aloud to do. will anyting stop me from listening to the vocies in my head and...
    stasiamt stasiamt 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2010

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    Title Doesn'T Matter!

    I broke my neck just before my 20th birthday and the rest is history ! I won't Go into the details of the physical needs of a Quad to save you the unbelievable, Inhumane, Unconstitutional Crap I have to deal with starting the second I wake up every day! I sleep with a box cutter...
    CyaNextLife CyaNextLife 51-55 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    Mindless Chatter

    I’m such a failure with no success in life You can compare it to trimming off fat using a butter knife With a go nowhere job and no future hope I make excuses delaying my suicide I’m such a stupid fucken joke As a father I failed And I’m no longer a solider any more...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Dec 4, 2011

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    Quarterly before seroquel.

    More when done trying seroquel.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 20

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    Consumed

    There is not a day, minute, or second that goes by that somewhere deep ( or maybe not so deep) in my mind that a clever plan to end my own life is being hatched. It's become so second nature that I only stop to toy with the ideas as a form of entertainment- a puzzle. I want very...
    EmoDragonfly EmoDragonfly 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2011

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    System Error

    The sound of brokenness is heard best As the razors slicing through thick flesh Carving an “X” upon my chest Over a vacant cavity where a heart once rest Distraught in mind, body and soul It’s a hundred and four outside yet I still feel cold I’m just walking dead in the...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    End My Life

    I have always had the urge to just end my life and stop living this life and any life that follows this one!! I have gone as far as to hurt myself before but never to the extent of permant damage to myself!   Now more than ever the urges to just quit life and...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    I have sucaidal thoughts most days

    but don't tell anyone.
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F Mar 21

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    Trying

    I have tried to do it more than once... Just a couple of days ago I tried... I slit my wrist.... I have shot myself in my cheast.. I have OD I have dont a lot... I just dont seem to beable to die... I want to to die now... but I dont thank that I can... I wish I was gone... No...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    Overwhelmed

    The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting...
    EmmyL EmmyL 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    Want To Give Up

    I am tired of fighting. I no longer wish to live. I think about hurting myself everyday.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    Yea...

    i feel like i want to just end it all even though i know i would never have the guts to do it. i have been parying to god practicly yelling at him saying "why dont you just end it already! just kill me damit! i dont care if i go to hell just kill me! towmarow if you have to...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Aug 28, 2009

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    When I Got Nothing to Do

    I am the type of person that needs a daily job. I need something to do, a purpose. Without it, I'm so ******* bored, lonely and depressed I do once in a while on a dark cold night consider taking my own life. Luckily I haven't done it yet. I just really need a job soon.
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    End It All

    I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth. If I don't trust...
    Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Falling Dreams.

    Sometimes depression places you into an apathetic daze and you can't really focus or contemplate on anything. You feel so out of touch, almost as if you're in a strange lucid dream. Ever have one of those dreams where you don't realise you've fallen asleep but all of a sudden you...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Life Is It Worth Living???

    Why, Why,Why me??? My life is a mess I messed it up and trusting in God also screwed me up. My life from the beginning was not the best I was fat and tall and made fun of, then in my teenage years I got even fatter due to some hormonal stuff in my body, I had acne and got even...
    Cutestuff2 Cutestuff2 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9, 2013

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    Losing Hope

    I think the majority of the people who have either posted in this group or become a member of it - will most likely understand what I'm talking about. As painful bits & pieces of our own personal lives begin to crumble, and still so many things continue to remain unchanged. If...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Remorse

    its been about 5 years ive been alone in my mind after some things ive gone threw i realised no one ever really cares without some kind of reason even if its just being nosy. so my story is a long walk with a shell, that shell is my body but the emotions have long gone, i still...
    anemptycup anemptycup 22-25 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    A lot of people my age (16) already party like animals and they drink. Some smoke. They have dated and had their first kiss. Some of them have even had their first time ( I think...
    adriana0102 adriana0102 16-17, F 5 Responses May 8

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    A lot of times in my life I feel like a loser. My family life has been kind of rough for me growing up and I haven't had a lot of the advantages that a lot of other kids my age...
    chloe41399 chloe41399 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    Guys I need some help and some advise. Be kind please I'm very fragile. 6 weeks ago my boyfriend and best friend of two years left me. Heartbroken doesn't even begin to cover it...
    Lostnemo Lostnemo 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4

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    Often times I feel like a failure, I'm 22 and working a dead end job. I still live with my parents even despite saying when I was younger that I would not. I flunked college in one...
    Cavsanada Cavsanada 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    Sometimes due to my past experiences, I think like I'm just wasting space on earth like I'm a nothing, not normal. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere.
    Lizandavan Lizandavan 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I can't believe this but I'm actually considering breaking up w my boyfriend...especially after tonight- it was an idea before, but tonight through his actions it seemed like he...
    Fidge3 Fidge3 22-25, F 1 Response May 9

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    What do I do? What should I be doing? For almost a year I've done absolutely nothing to improve my life. After my old life collapsed all I've done was repair the basic package, I...
    OneHowlToTheMoon OneHowlToTheMoon 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I feel like I can be overly impatient with people sometimes. Sometimes I let the littlest of things annoy the absolute hell out of me. Occasionally I'm just not in the mood to...
    Bumblelion Bumblelion 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel like people tend to brush me off and not take my serious sometimes. People dont include me in activities and i seem to always be on my own. It really sucks
    dfe213 dfe213 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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    Sometimes I look at my messy house & just get overwhelmed. I feel like it's an outward reflection of my inward messiness. :( Cleaning just usually isn't my priority. Finding peace...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    Black Sheep Of The Family I have always felt like the black sheep of the family who just didn't live up to what was expected of me .I am the middle child and always felt out of...
    nakednudist nakednudist 46-50, M May 13

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    When I was younger, I knew I was different than all the other kids. I always believed in more than just this life. I felt more and understood more than the kids my age. Most adults...
    twentyout24 twentyout24 16-17 1 Response May 14

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    sometimes i feel like all the things in life are going to end in someday and all the silly things that people care about to much is nothing
    linadabaghie linadabaghie 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    It's a weird thing that I have... I used to be very social, and still am to a certain extent. I associate with people at school and such, but these days I never feel like talking...
    naeramarth1 naeramarth1 16-17, M Apr 26

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    When I was little, I was everything. One day it was happiness, the next day I would become something completely different. Right now, I am sadness. But in a couple hours, I will be...
    haleymarr haleymarr 13-15, F 1 Response May 10

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    having someone so close to you, you feel a nobility to do the right thing, to care and justify their wrongs. What happens when the person in question takes advantage of that, uses...
    WindupKitten WindupKitten 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I really feel like I'm cursed. My life is so complicated ugh
    BrokenBeauty2 BrokenBeauty2 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm a young woman and while it appears I'm blessed, I'm not. All my life, I've been suffering from several tragedies and heartaches. Ever since I was six and visited New York, I...
    sorrow21 sorrow21 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    I'm a young woman and while it appears I'm blessed, I'm not. All my life, I've been suffering from several tragedies and heartaches. Ever since I was six and visited New York, I...
    sorrow21 sorrow21 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I want to be so much more than I am now. I thought I would be independent and confident by now, but I don't even have the confidence to make my own decisions. I think I feel like...
    eccentricpython eccentricpython 22-25, F 4 Responses May 2

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    Recently I came into possession of a young rabbit which was orphaned by my uncle's puppy who just wanted to play and doesn't know his own strength yet. My outer family doesn't know...
    MemiosLostWolf MemiosLostWolf 16-17 2 days ago

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    Recently I came into possession of a young rabbit which was orphaned by my uncle's puppy who just wanted to play and doesn't know his own strength yet. My outer family doesn't know...
    MemiosLostWolf MemiosLostWolf 16-17 2 days ago

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