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I Sometimes Feel Like Taking My Own Life

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    Losing Hope

    I think the majority of the people who have either posted in this group or become a member of it - will most likely understand what I'm talking about. As painful bits & pieces of our own personal lives begin to crumble, and still so many things continue to remain unchanged. If...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Trying

    I have tried to do it more than once... Just a couple of days ago I tried... I slit my wrist.... I have shot myself in my cheast.. I have OD I have dont a lot... I just dont seem to beable to die... I want to to die now... but I dont thank that I can... I wish I was gone... No...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    I Want To....

    Sometimes I really just want to do it and that's it. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know that killing myself is not the right answer to dealing with things.. but sometimes.. I just don't care. I just don't have the guts to.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    Falling Dreams.

    Sometimes depression places you into an apathetic daze and you can't really focus or contemplate on anything. You feel so out of touch, almost as if you're in a strange lucid dream. Ever have one of those dreams where you don't realise you've fallen asleep but all of a sudden you...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    End It All

    I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth. If I don't trust...
    Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Life Is It Worth Living???

    Why, Why,Why me??? My life is a mess I messed it up and trusting in God also screwed me up. My life from the beginning was not the best I was fat and tall and made fun of, then in my teenage years I got even fatter due to some hormonal stuff in my body, I had acne and got even...
    Cutestuff2 Cutestuff2 18-21, F 2 Responses May 9, 2013

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    Title Doesn'T Matter!

    I broke my neck just before my 20th birthday and the rest is history ! I won't Go into the details of the physical needs of a Quad to save you the unbelievable, Inhumane, Unconstitutional Crap I have to deal with starting the second I wake up every day! I sleep with a box cutter...
    CyaNextLife CyaNextLife 51-55 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    Alone

    if i dont have time in my day to just sit and relax  i feel overwhemled. but being alone with my thoughts scares me. being alone with my thoughts is not something a recovery cutter should be aloud to do. will anyting stop me from listening to the vocies in my head and...
    stasiamt stasiamt 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2010

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    System Error

    The sound of brokenness is heard best As the razors slicing through thick flesh Carving an “X” upon my chest Over a vacant cavity where a heart once rest Distraught in mind, body and soul It’s a hundred and four outside yet I still feel cold I’m just walking dead in the...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Overwhelmed

    The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting...
    EmmyL EmmyL 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    Boom. . .

    Pick up the gun, finger on the trigger, gun to my head Boom If only it were that easy, somebody always comes in to the room or something interrupts when you are seconds away from blowing out your brains! Even trying to bleed to death, something happens, somebody puts their nose...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Want To Give Up

    I am tired of fighting. I no longer wish to live. I think about hurting myself everyday.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    Yea...

    i feel like i want to just end it all even though i know i would never have the guts to do it. i have been parying to god practicly yelling at him saying "why dont you just end it already! just kill me damit! i dont care if i go to hell just kill me! towmarow if you have to...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T Aug 28, 2009

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    Consumed

    There is not a day, minute, or second that goes by that somewhere deep ( or maybe not so deep) in my mind that a clever plan to end my own life is being hatched. It's become so second nature that I only stop to toy with the ideas as a form of entertainment- a puzzle. I want very...
    EmoDragonfly EmoDragonfly 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2011

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    When I Got Nothing to Do

    I am the type of person that needs a daily job. I need something to do, a purpose. Without it, I'm so ******* bored, lonely and depressed I do once in a while on a dark cold night consider taking my own life. Luckily I haven't done it yet. I just really need a job soon.
    Melody08 Melody08 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    End My Life

    I have always had the urge to just end my life and stop living this life and any life that follows this one!! I have gone as far as to hurt myself before but never to the extent of permant damage to myself!   Now more than ever the urges to just quit life and...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    Mindless Chatter

    I’m such a failure with no success in life You can compare it to trimming off fat using a butter knife With a go nowhere job and no future hope I make excuses delaying my suicide I’m such a stupid fucken joke As a father I failed And I’m no longer a solider any more...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Dec 4, 2011

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    Remorse

    its been about 5 years ive been alone in my mind after some things ive gone threw i realised no one ever really cares without some kind of reason even if its just being nosy. so my story is a long walk with a shell, that shell is my body but the emotions have long gone, i still...
    anemptycup anemptycup 22-25 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    I Have It All Figured Out

    I figured out the perfect way to take myself out. My parents employ me as a contractor to take care of all the property that they own, and they just got a new property that has asbestos insulation that is exposed. I'm going to spend a couple of nights there and then when I don...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    Not Exactly, But Sort Of

    I don't plan suicides or write notes or cry out for help, but not a day goes by when I don't find myself wishing I was dead. I'll die soon I hope, don't know how, just hope it's not much longer.
    Musical Musical 36-40, M 7 Responses Sep 23, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I dont know what to do! Im 33 years old and im lonely. I have a husband and family and relatives but im still lonely in my heart. I never had good friends. All the girls in my teen...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F Jul 8

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    You know when you want something to happen but your not sure how it will happen. So you dream about that something and you know that you cant really live there but its OK for a...
    jellybean113 jellybean113 41-45, F Jul 17

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    That's Okay. Why do I want to be a part of a homogenised lump that can not think or feel as individuals? I forgive those who have been hurt or cajoled into living acceptably. I am...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I know he/they all have talked to me online before about my 'issues' but it seems to go nowhere. I just need to find more things to do otherwise I'm an empty shell.
    Yleng Yleng 26-30, F Jul 20

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    Ok so my step brother and I don't get along very well, and I know that I don't start the fights because even my dad has told me that he gets in his nerves and he is a very...
    geneticgeorge geneticgeorge 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    I feel awful saying this but a friend of mine has decided because of various issues to move out of his houseshare early, came to me yesterday and said can you put me up for three...
    elphaba2309 elphaba2309 22-25, F 21 hrs ago

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    I just turned one when my parents divorced so it wasn't hard for me to get over that since I don't remember when my parents even were together. A few years later my dad met my step...
    ahk16 ahk16 13-15, F 22 hrs ago

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    I don't even know where to start mainly because all my life I've been an outcast. When I was young my real father left me and so my mom worked a lot to keep food on the table and...
    Arwenlethena Arwenlethena 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I really feel like my friends don't really need me sometimes. They just need someone to talk to about there problems to me other than that they don't really talk to me.
    justinbartolome justinbartolome 13-15, M 10 hrs ago

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    For the past 8 years of my 'life' I have suffered with severe anxiety and depression. They say it's meant to get better, but every day just gets harder. I'm almost starting to feel...
    36chambers86 36chambers86 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    All my life things have been weird for me. I've always been in-tuned with the paranormal world; e.i., I have had bizarre dreams, I seen shadow people, I have been touched by things...
    Celticrose1991 Celticrose1991 22-25 1 Response 4 days ago

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    He's not my husband yet, we are getting married in October, but sometimes I wish we weren't. I'm so torn in my own mind I can't even think. Over the last few years, I've been...
    wantingtobehappy84 wantingtobehappy84 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 11

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    Sometimes I can't help but feel like a failure and that I'm letting my dad down. All he talks about is how I wanted to go to Harvard, be a doctor, got straight A's. Part of me...
    XFallingAngelX XFallingAngelX 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    This is the first time I am sharing my story. Exactly as I said before, I feel like I live in Hell. Hell on Earth, that is. Now, let me tell you why. First of all, I have a large...
    Mymin Mymin 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F Jul 3

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    It’s as if I came to live with a friend 18 months ago and I have long since worn out my welcome; now everyone is wondering when I’ll finally find my own place and leave them to...
    annadee annadee 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    God I wish I had a friend. I feel like I need someone to tell me that I am okay, that things will get better if I try. I guess I don't believe in myself anymore... sometimes I...
    crazyhobo crazyhobo 26-30 1 Response Jul 8

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    I'm so tired of loving people who only toss me crumbs. My H loves me in a lukewarm, old-man kind of way - but there's no passion in it. We haven't had sex since March. My...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Haha, I feel weird writing this but, I've always wondered this. Obviously I know what it feels like to women, but I've always been curious as to what guys feels when they're having...
    AjLeePunk AjLeePunk 22-25, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I haven't been diagnosed with anything yet but I'm pretty sure I have an anxiety disorder. I've been anxious for months now and panic attacks with it. I feel like Im slowly dying...
    ElephantCozmo ElephantCozmo 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    She's 10 years older than me and has a seven year old despite our different ages and lives we're still as close as I would say best friends. Anyhow over the last year I would say I...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I can't fight this feeling anymore.sometimes i feel like i wanna tell her how i feel,but i know she won't feel the same.at the same time i don't want to freak her out.but this...
    urbanmellow urbanmellow 22-25, F Jul 8

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    It's more like, I can't seem to find any 'mould' to fit into. I have social anxiety disorder which makes me paranoid about what others think about me. That clashes with my...
    TheBratPrince TheBratPrince 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    not my fault just feel like I am forget feel I know I am especially when someone u love says something u never though they would
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I feel so different from everyone else and I feel like I have never had a true friend and I don't know why...
    thatonerox thatonerox 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    This is mainly because people don't want to talk about the big stuff. People just be scratchin' the surface of everything. Everything is superficial. Everywhere I go. And I sure am...
    nadsxo2 nadsxo2 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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