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I Sometimes Feel Numb

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    I feel numb, like perhaps I grew unable to feel

    pain or pleasure. It feels like there is just not enough tension in life's energies, things are sagging and aged. I'd cut myself to feel something, the sting, the warm fluid covering my arm. I know that's not a good thought though. I'd get plastered and fake a smile, but that's...
    EmmaVonStauf EmmaVonStauf 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    Cut Off Switch: Poetry I Wrote During My Darkest Days

    Where is the cut off switch? The point where I can stop. I just want to go blank. An empty, blank screen. A black hole. Endless. I want to slip away until I feel nothing. Nothing at all. I want to power off. stop thinking. Just stop thinking. Depression would insure that I felt...
    loveismyweapon94 loveismyweapon94 18-21, F Feb 25, 2013

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    Should I Worry? Please Answer

    Should i worry about my suicide thoughts? I'am not sure if i'am serious with my thoughts of killing myself. I'am not afraid to die and for the past few days the first thought that comes to my mind when i wake up is wishing i was dead. I have also been searching a lot in the...
    theCherrypoo theCherrypoo 26-30 1 Response Jun 18, 2010

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    Apathy Is Better Than Constant Sadness.

    I've found comfort in apathy. The less I care, the happier I am. Is my motto. I live by it. When I was young and energetic and wanted to change the world for the better I had no idea why people would chose to be apathetic. Now I understand. Apathy soothes me. When I work my...
    4vrUnique 4vrUnique 46-50 6 Responses Dec 12, 2009

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    Like Now....

    I am finding it hard to write lately. I think it's because I have gone numb and so my feelings have deadened somewhat. I need to use my feelings to write so I haven't wrote as much as I would like. Right now, I am in a position where I kind of feel things are extremely difficult...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Mar 27, 2012

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    Escaping

    There are times when I feel numb. I can still show emotion as I got really good at pretending everything was ok.  I find it easier to deal with life and the hurt, anger, and disappointment I am feeling on a regular basis.  I am done trying to express myself those that are in...
    missamberlawrence missamberlawrence 31-35, F Sep 23, 2012

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    After All I Have Been Through...

    After all I have been through, I am almost always numb... I wish I wasn't but its something that just likes to stay. Sometimes the only thing I can feel during my numb sessions is anger.... which I don't know where it comes from... But most of my numb sessions just leave me numb...
    Ice95 Ice95 18-21, F Mar 12, 2013

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    Does anyone else just get this insane feeling

    of numbness. It doesn't hurt or anything I just don't feel anything unless it's extremely painful. I kinda like it though better to feel nothing than to be in extreme pain...right?
    thegroundisup thegroundisup 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Numb Is The Best Thing I Have Ever Felt

    For most of my life, I have been able to totally block out everything. Maybe not within my own mind, but everything outside, all the people around me. I have lost close friends, had family members die, and didn't feel a thing. Its been that way for almost ten years. It didn't...
    brandi0r000 brandi0r000 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    Unexpected Indifference

    Although I do my best to keep up my spirits, sometimes I can have a spell of unexpected indifference. Maybe it's a variation of a blue mood. I don't know. My indifference comes like this -- usually after a spell of sadness or angry depression, I will just not care about anything...
    SylphNoir SylphNoir 18-21, F Aug 18, 2011

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    Lately-meaning the past 6 months I have felt

    disconnected from my life. Like I'm just going through the motions not really thinking I just feel numb sometimes. I don't know what's wrong with me.
    Roseoverboard Roseoverboard 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    Numb? Yes.. I Do Feel This Way

    too. Not all the time.SM
    mother1983 mother1983 26-30, F Sep 24, 2011

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    Hmm

    I'm not quite numb at the moment.When I realized the certain amount of apathy I had developed I felt something akin to remorse so I can't be too numb,can I?People I love are turning into memories before my very senses and I can't say that I care or even really miss them.I...
    MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans 18-21 Dec 12, 2009

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    I Can't Believe This Is Happening.

     When I was younger, I wanted to be like this. I was going though the whole "emo" phase and I thought it was so cool. All the "emo" kids I looked up to always talked about feeling numb. I never knew what they were talking about, though. But now, I feel like a sociopath. It's...
    kankuro kankuro 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2012

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    I just sat there,tuning them out

    and in over and over. Just there...while they scream their hate and how I ****** things up,again. How he regrets me, how she worries of me with her tired heart. I should feel something...something. No, I just stare at the pretty mantel and imagine myself smelling the flowers...
    RadRen RadRen 22-25, F Feb 18

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    Apathy.

    I think that apathy and numbness is worse than anything else. I don't suppose it's true apathy 'cause I know I'm upset, but I don't express it - I don't cry, I don't scream, I don't shout. For so long I was constantly on the verge of tears but not once did I cry. I still...
    SaharaOdeil SaharaOdeil 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2008

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    Nothing Bad Is Happening.

    Nothing shocks me. Nothing makes me mad. I take everything with a grain of salt. So, you're stealing my friends. So, you're bullying me. So, you're saying mean things about me again. So, I failed a test. So, I have no future. I don't care anymore. I accept it. I accept it all...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 56-60, M Nov 14, 2012

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    Numb.

    I used to be able to cry easily, now im so full of emotions and it's killing me. My mum went into hospital i didnt cry, my mum is everything to me and if i lost her i would vanish. I feel like someone is always pulling me under water and im gasping for air. I feel alone even...
    insake insake 18-21, F May 7, 2009

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    Yeah... It Happens To Me Sometimes

    Since all my close friends had to go back to school early, i've been feeling numb and not having much of a social life... It sucks feeling nothing all the time. :( That's partly why i've turned to legal drugs like Salvia and 5-HTP. Plus being numb all the time makes me feel...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12 22-25, T Jan 26, 2012

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    Where's The Map?

    Where do I belong?  Sometimes I am too lost and confused to know.  How can I hold on when I don’t know what I am holding on to?  How do I take a leap of faith into the darkness of the abyss? I wonder.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 13 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Pretty Numb

    hey people who are reading this story :D so im pretty bored and feeling numb like a cloud in the sky just floating there, making funny shapes x) haaha i saw this cloud that looked like a lobster and a fish. im just cant really think, "the lights on but nobody is home" is what...
    messedupgirl167 messedupgirl167 16-17, F Oct 2, 2012

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    You Are Amazing, I'M Just... Not.

    When I look into your light brown eyes, I feel as if it were the first time on our first date looking into them, the power you have over me is a great deal.. And you know it. It sucks when the person you love thinks you suck. And has no problem saying it I know that I can just...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F May 26, 2013

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    Love Is What My Heart Wants, Understanding Is What My Soul Craves.

    Love is something I guess I've never really understood.. I know what it feels like, and I know what it feels like to get your heart broken. But for me, love and a broken heart just blurs together, I can't say I wish I never loved you because then I'd miss out on knowing a...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Sep 6, 2013

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    A Heartbreaking Is The Loudest Silence I've Ever Experienced.

    As I lay here awake and sobbing what seems to be loud in my silent room.. I know your sleeping soundly with out a care.. My heart hurts, my head hurts, my eyes are swollen, and I feel like I'm under water because I can't breath. My heart is broken and I know that it will forever...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Sep 6, 2013

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    Bittersweet Lemon I Got

    When I think back to when I was a kid, I can't remember being happy.. And I don't know why. And then I thought.. I've always been unhappy. My family has many issues that now I know effected me; screaming and yelling, name calling, blaming, frustration. I remember it all. I...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Jun 5, 2013

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    Don't Know What's Wrong

    I don't know how I feel right now my feelings are so confused , I get so emotional and cry myself out then I feel so numb like I'm empty inside . I really hate that feeling it's like I'm dead or something . I want to do something about it but I don't know what to do .
    Imaginary2009 Imaginary2009 18-21, F Dec 2, 2010

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    In certain times when I guess I was supposed to

    feel an emotion I just dont. I get in a "blank" state, and just observe as some far away spectator. Im not certain if it is a defence mechanism but Its been useful in my life, as well as a barrier.
    RadRen RadRen 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Shock

    Deep anger. Im so angry i can barely think. How come I can't feel! I don't show emotion! Why!? I have two settings, depressed, and nothing. answer c because its always okay to put c. It's not the best answer, but it's not wrong. It's not happiness, it's not sadness, anger, or...
    Missing22Aquarius Missing22Aquarius 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    But It Still Hurts

    I recently learned that some men like me get hardened by life, and we don't feel much, but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. It still hurts. It's emotional leprosy. You may not feel anything but you are still getting destroyed. I started to connect many things to the "blank...
    Excellency Excellency 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 23, 2011

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    Numb

    Sometimes, my emotions overwhelm me. When this happens, I cannot operate. The dichotomy withinn me is that I feel both everything and nothing at the same time.Does this make sense to anyone out there?
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    Feeling Numb: Good/Not So Good...My Experience Is..

    Feeling numb is comfortable to me... I really don't think it's healthy to make a habit of it though...Right now i'm in one of my "numb" state of minds where I just "switch off" my mind and just.. don't think of anything. It's peaceful, but I don't think it's healthy. I hate it...
    Daydreamz Daydreamz 18-21, F Mar 15, 2013

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    Sometimes I just don't know what I'm looking for I don't know what I want I feel like wandering around the woods by myself and just going in one direction till I discover something...
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    What if they leave me too? Everyone seems to leave.... its so hard to open up sometimes
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    I hate the word crazy, but my entire life, I've been weird. I've always looked at things from an entirely different perspective. Just makes me wonder sometimes.
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    Does it happen to everyone? Or is it just me. I'm not sure but one thing I do know is that I feel like no one truly likes me. I like to think Im a good person, that I'm nice and...
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    Yes, and worthless. I cant say I have a big social circle, because I'm not a socialite, which is a conscious decision, because I know (not from experience) that the more friends...
    MetalheadIntro MetalheadIntro 13-15, F Mar 31

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    I feel i do not belong in society. I have unique ways of looking at things, i have high hopes and aspirations and i feel a lot of that is rejected by society. "Be like us and do...
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    I have very little friends and my family is no help .... They make me feel like **** ... well my friends don't but they do not know all of me .... And my grandma isn't proud of me...
    emmawinterfrost emmawinterfrost 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    For the past few months it feels like I'm not really living. It's like I've got some kind of daily routine and it doesn't require any emotions. I'm getting scared now because so...
    Lizz7 Lizz7 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I find myself seeing other happy couples and honestly feel like giving up, it comes so easy to others. I want that happiness, comfort and love.
    Hidebehindtherain Hidebehindtherain 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    Being bored and lonely at night is one of the worst feelings ever.
    nordicgirl nordicgirl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I found The Constant Gardener and Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind to reflect how I feel about love, I only know it in the rear view mirror.
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    I feel like this all the time, just waiting around hoping one day something will happen out of my life, I'm wanting to go in army hopefully by next year I will be in there making...
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    I live so far away from my family and friends. I have no friends currently since I moved here I'm sad cause my S/O doesn't even talk to me as much anymore. I keep feeling bottled...
    browneyedgirl10 browneyedgirl10 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. I want to tell someone but I also don't want to put the burden on them by telling them my problems. I wish I had someone I could talk to...
    ejc018 ejc018 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    More like always. I am a high school student and at school I reay do feel like I do not belong anywhere. Everyone is doing better on tests then me, everyone is making friends way...
    Girlinthefloweredskirt Girlinthefloweredskirt 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I know I'm not the only one who feels it.
    XDeathXNoteX XDeathXNoteX 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Your betrayal beating me down, down, into the ground.... Oh well
    Gardener1 Gardener1 22-25, M Mar 26

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