I Sometimes Feel Numb

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 562 People

    Cut Off Switch: Poetry I Wrote During My Darkest Days

    Where is the cut off switch? The point where I can stop. I just want to go blank. An empty, blank screen. A black hole. Endless. I want to slip away until I feel nothing. Nothing at all. I want to power off. stop thinking. Just stop thinking. Depression would insure that I felt...
    loveismyweapon94 loveismyweapon94
    22-25, F
    Feb 25, 2013

    There are times when I just stare at the wall

    realize how much I've been through and know how much it hurts be I've cried and hurt so much that at times i feel numb and it feels wrong to not be able to feel anything at all.
    jjeello jjeello
    18-21, F
    Jul 20, 2014

    Don't Know What's Wrong

    I don't know how I feel right now my feelings are so confused , I get so emotional and cry myself out then I feel so numb like I'm empty inside . I really hate that feeling it's like I'm dead or something . I want to do something about it but I don't know what to do .
    Imaginary2009 Imaginary2009
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2010
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    2 Responses Jun 12, 2015


    I used to be able to cry easily, now im so full of emotions and it's killing me. My mum went into hospital i didnt cry, my mum is everything to me and if i lost her i would vanish. I feel like someone is always pulling me under water and im gasping for air. I feel alone even...
    insake insake
    18-21, F
    May 7, 2009

    Unexpected Indifference

    Although I do my best to keep up my spirits, sometimes I can have a spell of unexpected indifference. Maybe it's a variation of a blue mood. I don't know. My indifference comes like this -- usually after a spell of sadness or angry depression, I will just not care about anything...
    SylphNoir SylphNoir
    18-21, F
    Aug 18, 2011

    I feel numb, like perhaps I grew unable to feel

    pain or pleasure. It feels like there is just not enough tension in life's energies, things are sagging and aged. I'd cut myself to feel something, the sting, the warm fluid covering my arm. I know that's not a good thought though. I'd get plastered and fake a smile, but that's...
    EmmaVonStauf EmmaVonStauf
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2014
    jjaynes01 jjaynes01
    22-25, M
    Jun 16, 2015

    I like the numb feeling tho,

    I guess sometimes I think its a numb feeling when really its just that I have not thought of things that I normally do in awhile. Then when I start thinking about them about issues, loss that could have been prevented I want the numb feeling back. Am I alone in this?
    Chicgeekgal Chicgeekgal
    26-30, F
    Aug 18, 2014

    Right now I feel numb.

    Like an emotional limbo. It feels like I'm walking through clouds of mist. Nothing seems real. Even dreams appear more real. It's weird.
    js246 js246
    26-30, F
    Jan 15, 2016


    Deep anger. Im so angry i can barely think. How come I can't feel! I don't show emotion! Why!? I have two settings, depressed, and nothing. answer c because its always okay to put c. It's not the best answer, but it's not wrong. It's not happiness, it's not sadness, anger, or...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 7, 2013

    Nothing Bad Is Happening.

    Nothing shocks me. Nothing makes me mad. I take everything with a grain of salt. So, you're stealing my friends. So, you're bullying me. So, you're saying mean things about me again. So, I failed a test. So, I have no future. I don't care anymore. I accept it. I accept it all...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies
    61-65, M
    Nov 14, 2012

    Apathy Is Better Than Constant Sadness.

    I've found comfort in apathy. The less I care, the happier I am. Is my motto. I live by it. When I was young and energetic and wanted to change the world for the better I had no idea why people would chose to be apathetic. Now I understand. Apathy soothes me. When I work my...
    4vrUnique 4vrUnique
    6 Responses Dec 12, 2009

    ive never felt so numb

    as i do today. No motivation for anything at the moment. can i just stay in bed please?
    OmegaSky OmegaSky
    18-21, M
    Jan 27, 2016

    Lately-meaning the past 6 months I have felt

    disconnected from my life. Like I'm just going through the motions not really thinking I just feel numb sometimes. I don't know what's wrong with me.
    Roseoverboard Roseoverboard
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 28, 2014

    You Are Amazing, I'M Just... Not.

    When I look into your light brown eyes, I feel as if it were the first time on our first date looking into them, the power you have over me is a great deal.. And you know it. It sucks when the person you love thinks you suck. And has no problem saying it I know that I can just...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace
    18-21, F
    May 26, 2013

    Today I feel so numb

    that I can't even cry I just feel so empty inside
    krazkcatlady3085 krazkcatlady3085
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    Numb Is The Best Thing I Have Ever Felt

    For most of my life, I have been able to totally block out everything. Maybe not within my own mind, but everything outside, all the people around me. I have lost close friends, had family members die, and didn't feel a thing. Its been that way for almost ten years. It didn't...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

    Like Now....

    I am finding it hard to write lately. I think it's because I have gone numb and so my feelings have deadened somewhat. I need to use my feelings to write so I haven't wrote as much as I would like. Right now, I am in a position where I kind of feel things are extremely difficult...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 27, 2012

    Bittersweet Lemon I Got

    When I think back to when I was a kid, I can't remember being happy.. And I don't know why. And then I thought.. I've always been unhappy. My family has many issues that now I know effected me; screaming and yelling, name calling, blaming, frustration. I remember it all. I...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace
    18-21, F
    Jun 5, 2013

    Feeling Numb: Good/Not So Good...My Experience Is..

    Feeling numb is comfortable to me... I really don't think it's healthy to make a habit of it though...Right now i'm in one of my "numb" state of minds where I just "switch off" my mind and just.. don't think of anything. It's peaceful, but I don't think it's healthy. I hate it...
    Daydreamz Daydreamz
    18-21, F
    Mar 15, 2013

    I'm feeling either content

    or numb...either way, I hope this lasts..
    yoru1234 yoru1234
    18-21, F
    Jan 12, 2016

    What's wrong with me?

    Why can't I be happy, why can't I be sad? Why don't I feel anything?! There's nothing to look forward to. Nothing to be happy about, plenty to be sad about. Why am I like this? I can see things I could be happy about, and for a while, I am. But it all goes away so quickly...
    drowninginsaltwater drowninginsaltwater
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    God loves you...and me too.

    It's hard to see it sometimes, but its there...even in your deepest bought of depression, hurt or disappointment like mine. (Atheist need not respond.)
    SelfishShellfish SelfishShellfish
    41-45, F
    May 4, 2015

    I feel numb like the thought

    that no one cares and no one will ever take the time to care numb's my body and feel non existing
    annoying143 annoying143
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

    But It Still Hurts

    I recently learned that some men like me get hardened by life, and we don't feel much, but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. It still hurts. It's emotional leprosy. You may not feel anything but you are still getting destroyed. I started to connect many things to the "blank...
    Excellency Excellency
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 23, 2011

    Emotional distance seems simple.

    It has evolved into a defence that has led to a cold senseless state of numbness. From this point, there are only few intances that seem to revive me back to life. It feels normal, to feel nothing for so long. Normal or not, this seems to be true for me at times.
    kittylin kittylin
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2014

    At this point im just over feelings,

    when im in a good mood i know its only a matter of time till its destroyed, frustration and sadness i don't see their propose. I care about others. On some small level but i can no longer show it, platonic feelings for my friends,romantic feelings for my significant other any...
    kingphoenixx kingphoenixx
    22-25, F
    May 3, 2015

    I'm beginning to feel numb,

    This isn't who I am
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 25, 2015

    lately...i know depression has hold

    but i cant feel. its like all emotions are stuffed in a box. i can hear the faintest scratching and whining but its hard to identify what specific feeling they belong to. i only know depression is the cause as that is what i recognize as a faint echo. i dont think its a good...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Mar 16, 2016

    After All I Have Been Through...

    After all I have been through, I am almost always numb... I wish I wasn't but its something that just likes to stay. Sometimes the only thing I can feel during my numb sessions is anger.... which I don't know where it comes from... But most of my numb sessions just leave me numb...
    Ice95 Ice95
    22-25, F
    Mar 12, 2013
    izzieebee izzieebee
    16-17, F
    Jun 10, 2015

    A Heartbreaking Is The Loudest Silence I've Ever Experienced.

    As I lay here awake and sobbing what seems to be loud in my silent room.. I know your sleeping soundly with out a care.. My heart hurts, my head hurts, my eyes are swollen, and I feel like I'm under water because I can't breath. My heart is broken and I know that it will forever...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace
    18-21, F
    Sep 6, 2013

    I just want to curl up with someone i love

    and have them hold me. I feel so numb and low right now. Why cant i just be happy.
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2016


    I think that apathy and numbness is worse than anything else. I don't suppose it's true apathy 'cause I know I'm upset, but I don't express it - I don't cry, I don't scream, I don't shout. For so long I was constantly on the verge of tears but not once did I cry. I still...
    SaharaOdeil SaharaOdeil
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 22, 2008

    Numbness can be scary,

    especially if you have a history of dissociation. A common way of dealing with it is self harm, but here are some more healthy ways to feel something. If you have anything else to add, please do! - Hold a cold ice cube. - Take a hot shower. If you’re worried that you may...
    InhuldibleCrelk InhuldibleCrelk
    Aug 25, 2014

    Where's The Map?

    Where do I belong?  Sometimes I am too lost and confused to know.  How can I hold on when I don’t know what I am holding on to?  How do I take a leap of faith into the darkness of the abyss? I wonder.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    9 Responses Sep 23, 2011


    I'm not quite numb at the moment.When I realized the certain amount of apathy I had developed I felt something akin to remorse so I can't be too numb,can I?People I love are turning into memories before my very senses and I can't say that I care or even really miss them.I...
    MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans
    Dec 12, 2009

    I feel numbness in my heart

    and chest like there's nothing there, like a black hole, leading to the abyss..
    brownzugar brownzugar
    18-21, M
    Aug 4, 2014

    Should I Worry? Please Answer

    Should i worry about my suicide thoughts? I'am not sure if i'am serious with my thoughts of killing myself. I'am not afraid to die and for the past few days the first thought that comes to my mind when i wake up is wishing i was dead. I have also been searching a lot in the...
    theCherrypoo theCherrypoo
    1 Response Jun 18, 2010

    Love Is What My Heart Wants, Understanding Is What My Soul Craves.

    Love is something I guess I've never really understood.. I know what it feels like, and I know what it feels like to get your heart broken. But for me, love and a broken heart just blurs together, I can't say I wish I never loved you because then I'd miss out on knowing a...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace
    18-21, F
    Sep 6, 2013
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