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I Sometimes Feel Numb

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    I feel numbness in my heart

    and chest like there's nothing there, like a black hole, leading to the abyss..
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M Aug 4

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    Numb.

    I used to be able to cry easily, now im so full of emotions and it's killing me. My mum went into hospital i didnt cry, my mum is everything to me and if i lost her i would vanish. I feel like someone is always pulling me under water and im gasping for air. I feel alone even...
    insake insake 18-21, F May 7, 2009

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    In certain times when I guess I was supposed to

    feel an emotion I just dont. I get in a "blank" state, and just observe as some far away spectator. Im not certain if it is a defence mechanism but Its been useful in my life, as well as a barrier.
    RadRen RadRen 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Feeling Numb: Good/Not So Good...My Experience Is..

    Feeling numb is comfortable to me... I really don't think it's healthy to make a habit of it though...Right now i'm in one of my "numb" state of minds where I just "switch off" my mind and just.. don't think of anything. It's peaceful, but I don't think it's healthy. I hate it...
    Daydreamz Daydreamz 18-21, F Mar 15, 2013

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    Yeah... It Happens To Me Sometimes

    Since all my close friends had to go back to school early, i've been feeling numb and not having much of a social life... It sucks feeling nothing all the time. :( That's partly why i've turned to legal drugs like Salvia and 5-HTP. Plus being numb all the time makes me feel...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12 22-25, T Jan 26, 2012

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    There are times when I just stare at the wall

    realize how much I've been through and know how much it hurts be I've cried and hurt so much that at times i feel numb and it feels wrong to not be able to feel anything at all.
    jjeello jjeello 18-21, F Jul 20

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    Lately-meaning the past 6 months I have felt

    disconnected from my life. Like I'm just going through the motions not really thinking I just feel numb sometimes. I don't know what's wrong with me.
    Roseoverboard Roseoverboard 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    Emotional distance seems simple.

    It has evolved into a defence that has led to a cold senseless state of numbness. From this point, there are only few intances that seem to revive me back to life. It feels normal, to feel nothing for so long. Normal or not, this seems to be true for me at times.
    kittylin kittylin 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    Should I Worry? Please Answer

    Should i worry about my suicide thoughts? I'am not sure if i'am serious with my thoughts of killing myself. I'am not afraid to die and for the past few days the first thought that comes to my mind when i wake up is wishing i was dead. I have also been searching a lot in the...
    theCherrypoo theCherrypoo 26-30 1 Response Jun 18, 2010

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    Numb Is The Best Thing I Have Ever Felt

    For most of my life, I have been able to totally block out everything. Maybe not within my own mind, but everything outside, all the people around me. I have lost close friends, had family members die, and didn't feel a thing. Its been that way for almost ten years. It didn't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    Pretty Numb

    hey people who are reading this story :D so im pretty bored and feeling numb like a cloud in the sky just floating there, making funny shapes x) haaha i saw this cloud that looked like a lobster and a fish. im just cant really think, "the lights on but nobody is home" is what...
    messedupgirl167 messedupgirl167 16-17, F Oct 2, 2012

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    Like Now....

    I am finding it hard to write lately. I think it's because I have gone numb and so my feelings have deadened somewhat. I need to use my feelings to write so I haven't wrote as much as I would like. Right now, I am in a position where I kind of feel things are extremely difficult...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Mar 27, 2012

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    After All I Have Been Through...

    After all I have been through, I am almost always numb... I wish I wasn't but its something that just likes to stay. Sometimes the only thing I can feel during my numb sessions is anger.... which I don't know where it comes from... But most of my numb sessions just leave me numb...
    Ice95 Ice95 18-21, F Mar 12, 2013

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    Apathy.

    I think that apathy and numbness is worse than anything else. I don't suppose it's true apathy 'cause I know I'm upset, but I don't express it - I don't cry, I don't scream, I don't shout. For so long I was constantly on the verge of tears but not once did I cry. I still...
    SaharaOdeil SaharaOdeil 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2008

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    I have felt numb in the face

    and a few times my body. I used to smoke cigarettes and when I smoked a lot I got those feelings. It's weird.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F Aug 18

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    Bittersweet Lemon I Got

    When I think back to when I was a kid, I can't remember being happy.. And I don't know why. And then I thought.. I've always been unhappy. My family has many issues that now I know effected me; screaming and yelling, name calling, blaming, frustration. I remember it all. I...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Jun 5, 2013

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    Shock

    Deep anger. Im so angry i can barely think. How come I can't feel! I don't show emotion! Why!? I have two settings, depressed, and nothing. answer c because its always okay to put c. It's not the best answer, but it's not wrong. It's not happiness, it's not sadness, anger, or...
    Missing22Aquarius Missing22Aquarius 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    I feel numb, like perhaps I grew unable to feel

    pain or pleasure. It feels like there is just not enough tension in life's energies, things are sagging and aged. I'd cut myself to feel something, the sting, the warm fluid covering my arm. I know that's not a good thought though. I'd get plastered and fake a smile, but that's...
    EmmaVonStauf EmmaVonStauf 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Love Is What My Heart Wants, Understanding Is What My Soul Craves.

    Love is something I guess I've never really understood.. I know what it feels like, and I know what it feels like to get your heart broken. But for me, love and a broken heart just blurs together, I can't say I wish I never loved you because then I'd miss out on knowing a...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Sep 6, 2013

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    Escaping

    There are times when I feel numb. I can still show emotion as I got really good at pretending everything was ok.  I find it easier to deal with life and the hurt, anger, and disappointment I am feeling on a regular basis.  I am done trying to express myself those that are in...
    missamberlawrence missamberlawrence 31-35, F Sep 23, 2012

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    I feel numb like the thought

    that no one cares and no one will ever take the time to care numb's my body and feel non existing
    annoying143 annoying143 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Hmm

    I'm not quite numb at the moment.When I realized the certain amount of apathy I had developed I felt something akin to remorse so I can't be too numb,can I?People I love are turning into memories before my very senses and I can't say that I care or even really miss them.I...
    MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans 18-21 Dec 12, 2009

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    A Heartbreaking Is The Loudest Silence I've Ever Experienced.

    As I lay here awake and sobbing what seems to be loud in my silent room.. I know your sleeping soundly with out a care.. My heart hurts, my head hurts, my eyes are swollen, and I feel like I'm under water because I can't breath. My heart is broken and I know that it will forever...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Sep 6, 2013

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    I Can't Believe This Is Happening.

     When I was younger, I wanted to be like this. I was going though the whole "emo" phase and I thought it was so cool. All the "emo" kids I looked up to always talked about feeling numb. I never knew what they were talking about, though. But now, I feel like a sociopath. It's...
    kankuro kankuro 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2012

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    Numbness can be scary,

    especially if you have a history of dissociation. A common way of dealing with it is self harm, but here are some more healthy ways to feel something. If you have anything else to add, please do! - Hold a cold ice cube. - Take a hot shower. If you’re worried that you may...
    InhuldibleCrelk InhuldibleCrelk 36-40 Aug 25

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    But It Still Hurts

    I recently learned that some men like me get hardened by life, and we don't feel much, but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. It still hurts. It's emotional leprosy. You may not feel anything but you are still getting destroyed. I started to connect many things to the "blank...
    Excellency Excellency 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 23, 2011

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    Numb

    Sometimes, my emotions overwhelm me. When this happens, I cannot operate. The dichotomy withinn me is that I feel both everything and nothing at the same time.Does this make sense to anyone out there?
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    Nothing Bad Is Happening.

    Nothing shocks me. Nothing makes me mad. I take everything with a grain of salt. So, you're stealing my friends. So, you're bullying me. So, you're saying mean things about me again. So, I failed a test. So, I have no future. I don't care anymore. I accept it. I accept it all...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 56-60, M Nov 14, 2012

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    Numb? Yes.. I Do Feel This Way

    too. Not all the time.SM
    mother1983 mother1983 26-30, F Sep 24, 2011

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    Cut Off Switch: Poetry I Wrote During My Darkest Days

    Where is the cut off switch? The point where I can stop. I just want to go blank. An empty, blank screen. A black hole. Endless. I want to slip away until I feel nothing. Nothing at all. I want to power off. stop thinking. Just stop thinking. Depression would insure that I felt...
    loveismyweapon94 loveismyweapon94 18-21, F Feb 25, 2013

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    I like the numb feeling tho,

    I guess sometimes I think its a numb feeling when really its just that I have not thought of things that I normally do in awhile. Then when I start thinking about them about issues, loss that could have been prevented I want the numb feeling back. Am I alone in this?
    Chicgeekgal Chicgeekgal 22-25, F Aug 18

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    Apathy Is Better Than Constant Sadness.

    I've found comfort in apathy. The less I care, the happier I am. Is my motto. I live by it. When I was young and energetic and wanted to change the world for the better I had no idea why people would chose to be apathetic. Now I understand. Apathy soothes me. When I work my...
    4vrUnique 4vrUnique 46-50 6 Responses Dec 12, 2009

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    Don't Know What's Wrong

    I don't know how I feel right now my feelings are so confused , I get so emotional and cry myself out then I feel so numb like I'm empty inside . I really hate that feeling it's like I'm dead or something . I want to do something about it but I don't know what to do .
    Imaginary2009 Imaginary2009 18-21, F Dec 2, 2010

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    Does anyone else just get this insane feeling

    of numbness. It doesn't hurt or anything I just don't feel anything unless it's extremely painful. I kinda like it though better to feel nothing than to be in extreme pain...right?
    thegroundisup thegroundisup 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Numb Sensations

    they seem to occur in my toes and back at times and I hate the feeling I often have felt emotionally numb!
    IceEntice IceEntice 36-40, F Mar 20, 2013

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    You Are Amazing, I'M Just... Not.

    When I look into your light brown eyes, I feel as if it were the first time on our first date looking into them, the power you have over me is a great deal.. And you know it. It sucks when the person you love thinks you suck. And has no problem saying it I know that I can just...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F May 26, 2013

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    Where's The Map?

    Where do I belong?  Sometimes I am too lost and confused to know.  How can I hold on when I don’t know what I am holding on to?  How do I take a leap of faith into the darkness of the abyss? I wonder.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 13 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Waves, coming and going back to the ocean,

    sometimes my emotions are like that like it will kill me by worrying me that much and sometimes i don't care at all about anything.
    visibleme visibleme 18-21 Aug 1

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    Unexpected Indifference

    Although I do my best to keep up my spirits, sometimes I can have a spell of unexpected indifference. Maybe it's a variation of a blue mood. I don't know. My indifference comes like this -- usually after a spell of sadness or angry depression, I will just not care about anything...
    SylphNoir SylphNoir 18-21, F Aug 18, 2011

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    Feeling numb makes me forget all the worries and pain. It feels so good to feel free. To feel like theres nothing wrong. Nothing to worry. Nothing to feel. It feels so great to...
    elel110993 elel110993 18-21, F Oct 18

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    I am starting to feel this way... Just numb towards life, towards people, towards my own thoughts, to pain.. Just numb in general really!!! And is frustrating and it just makes me...
    catho catho 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel trapped by life, because I have a number of obstacles like my social anxiety which often prevents me from socializing with other people. I don't often get out much only to...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    The deepness within, begging to belong. The fullness that is nonexistent, but craved so badly. The silent pleading to speak, share, truly connect. The empty heart, that is...
    ThoughtFulMoments ThoughtFulMoments 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 10

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    Always have. its odd...when it comes to situations at home, when it gets critical, i stay calm and don't cry,...and sometimes laugh when things get too serious. Its like i don't...
    suziewuzie suziewuzie 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 10

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    yesterday i officially broke up from a 3 yr relationship that i feel totally numb now that its empty inside because i felt like we have everything in common and he cheated on me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 19

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    I miss someone very near and dear to my heart. This person is way too amazing to ever forget about. We talk every day and facetime when we can. But that's only half of what I'm...
    Devilscar Devilscar 18-21, M Oct 5

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    Hey everybody, I'm new to this Experience Project. Anyways, I just wanted to express that lately I feel like I have lost some friends. The "best friends" that I thought I had some...
    iloveleague iloveleague 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    It's like the roof is blown off my house and every now and then it moonsoons..,and everything is soaking wet. That pounding ice cold rain is how my soul feels when I feel the ache...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    sometimes I feel like a huge waste of space
    Edshort43 Edshort43 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 19

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    I am a 37 years old, I am married and I have a son .At this moment I was searching on google the most fast ways to suicide.I dont feel happy with what I have.I dont love my husband...
    nynusha nynusha 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 3

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    I'm writing this story called Melody Dawn and it consumes my life! I fantasize about it everyday. It feels silly bc it almost reminds me of when I had imaginary friends. I can hear...
    SacredMelody SacredMelody 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    Especially late at night when I can't sleep like tonight.Every one in the house is asleep. I'm awake and I'm forced to be alone with my thoughts.I hate being alone with my thoughts...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 12