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I Sometimes Feel Numb

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    There are times when I just stare at the wall

    realize how much I've been through and know how much it hurts be I've cried and hurt so much that at times i feel numb and it feels wrong to not be able to feel anything at all.
    jjeello jjeello 18-21, F Jul 20

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    Like Now....

    I am finding it hard to write lately. I think it's because I have gone numb and so my feelings have deadened somewhat. I need to use my feelings to write so I haven't wrote as much as I would like. Right now, I am in a position where I kind of feel things are extremely difficult...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Mar 27, 2012

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    Numb? Yes.. I Do Feel This Way

    too. Not all the time.SM
    mother1983 mother1983 26-30, F Sep 24, 2011

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    Hmm

    I'm not quite numb at the moment.When I realized the certain amount of apathy I had developed I felt something akin to remorse so I can't be too numb,can I?People I love are turning into memories before my very senses and I can't say that I care or even really miss them.I...
    MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans MoonBeamsMadeOfJellyBeans 18-21 Dec 12, 2009

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    Yeah... It Happens To Me Sometimes

    Since all my close friends had to go back to school early, i've been feeling numb and not having much of a social life... It sucks feeling nothing all the time. :( That's partly why i've turned to legal drugs like Salvia and 5-HTP. Plus being numb all the time makes me feel...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12 22-25, T Jan 26, 2012

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    In certain times when I guess I was supposed to

    feel an emotion I just dont. I get in a "blank" state, and just observe as some far away spectator. Im not certain if it is a defence mechanism but Its been useful in my life, as well as a barrier.
    RadRen RadRen 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Apathy Is Better Than Constant Sadness.

    I've found comfort in apathy. The less I care, the happier I am. Is my motto. I live by it. When I was young and energetic and wanted to change the world for the better I had no idea why people would chose to be apathetic. Now I understand. Apathy soothes me. When I work my...
    4vrUnique 4vrUnique 46-50 6 Responses Dec 12, 2009

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    Shock

    Deep anger. Im so angry i can barely think. How come I can't feel! I don't show emotion! Why!? I have two settings, depressed, and nothing. answer c because its always okay to put c. It's not the best answer, but it's not wrong. It's not happiness, it's not sadness, anger, or...
    Missing22Aquarius Missing22Aquarius 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    Cut Off Switch: Poetry I Wrote During My Darkest Days

    Where is the cut off switch? The point where I can stop. I just want to go blank. An empty, blank screen. A black hole. Endless. I want to slip away until I feel nothing. Nothing at all. I want to power off. stop thinking. Just stop thinking. Depression would insure that I felt...
    loveismyweapon94 loveismyweapon94 18-21, F Feb 25, 2013

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    I feel numb, like perhaps I grew unable to feel

    pain or pleasure. It feels like there is just not enough tension in life's energies, things are sagging and aged. I'd cut myself to feel something, the sting, the warm fluid covering my arm. I know that's not a good thought though. I'd get plastered and fake a smile, but that's...
    EmmaVonStauf EmmaVonStauf 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    But It Still Hurts

    I recently learned that some men like me get hardened by life, and we don't feel much, but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. It still hurts. It's emotional leprosy. You may not feel anything but you are still getting destroyed. I started to connect many things to the "blank...
    Excellency Excellency 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 23, 2011

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    Nothing Bad Is Happening.

    Nothing shocks me. Nothing makes me mad. I take everything with a grain of salt. So, you're stealing my friends. So, you're bullying me. So, you're saying mean things about me again. So, I failed a test. So, I have no future. I don't care anymore. I accept it. I accept it all...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 56-60, M Nov 14, 2012

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    A Heartbreaking Is The Loudest Silence I've Ever Experienced.

    As I lay here awake and sobbing what seems to be loud in my silent room.. I know your sleeping soundly with out a care.. My heart hurts, my head hurts, my eyes are swollen, and I feel like I'm under water because I can't breath. My heart is broken and I know that it will forever...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Sep 6, 2013

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    Don't Know What's Wrong

    I don't know how I feel right now my feelings are so confused , I get so emotional and cry myself out then I feel so numb like I'm empty inside . I really hate that feeling it's like I'm dead or something . I want to do something about it but I don't know what to do .
    Imaginary2009 Imaginary2009 18-21, F Dec 2, 2010

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    Numb Sensations

    they seem to occur in my toes and back at times and I hate the feeling I often have felt emotionally numb!
    IceEntice IceEntice 36-40, F Mar 20, 2013

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    Unexpected Indifference

    Although I do my best to keep up my spirits, sometimes I can have a spell of unexpected indifference. Maybe it's a variation of a blue mood. I don't know. My indifference comes like this -- usually after a spell of sadness or angry depression, I will just not care about anything...
    SylphNoir SylphNoir 18-21, F Aug 18, 2011

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    I Can't Believe This Is Happening.

     When I was younger, I wanted to be like this. I was going though the whole "emo" phase and I thought it was so cool. All the "emo" kids I looked up to always talked about feeling numb. I never knew what they were talking about, though. But now, I feel like a sociopath. It's...
    kankuro kankuro 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2012

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    Bittersweet Lemon I Got

    When I think back to when I was a kid, I can't remember being happy.. And I don't know why. And then I thought.. I've always been unhappy. My family has many issues that now I know effected me; screaming and yelling, name calling, blaming, frustration. I remember it all. I...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Jun 5, 2013

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    You Are Amazing, I'M Just... Not.

    When I look into your light brown eyes, I feel as if it were the first time on our first date looking into them, the power you have over me is a great deal.. And you know it. It sucks when the person you love thinks you suck. And has no problem saying it I know that I can just...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F May 26, 2013

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    Numb.

    I used to be able to cry easily, now im so full of emotions and it's killing me. My mum went into hospital i didnt cry, my mum is everything to me and if i lost her i would vanish. I feel like someone is always pulling me under water and im gasping for air. I feel alone even...
    insake insake 18-21, F May 7, 2009

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    The Two Months

    For the passed two months, I have been in this empty void in my heart and mind. The best way to desrib it to you is, its like being the tin man from Wizard of Oz. If you could knock on my chest it would sound like an old aluminum trash can. I feel like I dont have a heart inside...
    martymcfly1274 martymcfly1274 36-40, M Sep 24, 2011

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    Pretty Numb

    hey people who are reading this story :D so im pretty bored and feeling numb like a cloud in the sky just floating there, making funny shapes x) haaha i saw this cloud that looked like a lobster and a fish. im just cant really think, "the lights on but nobody is home" is what...
    messedupgirl167 messedupgirl167 16-17, F Oct 2, 2012

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    Should I Worry? Please Answer

    Should i worry about my suicide thoughts? I'am not sure if i'am serious with my thoughts of killing myself. I'am not afraid to die and for the past few days the first thought that comes to my mind when i wake up is wishing i was dead. I have also been searching a lot in the...
    theCherrypoo theCherrypoo 26-30 1 Response Jun 18, 2010

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    Escaping

    There are times when I feel numb. I can still show emotion as I got really good at pretending everything was ok.  I find it easier to deal with life and the hurt, anger, and disappointment I am feeling on a regular basis.  I am done trying to express myself those that are in...
    missamberlawrence missamberlawrence 31-35, F Sep 23, 2012

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    Numb

    Sometimes, my emotions overwhelm me. When this happens, I cannot operate. The dichotomy withinn me is that I feel both everything and nothing at the same time.Does this make sense to anyone out there?
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    Numb Is The Best Thing I Have Ever Felt

    For most of my life, I have been able to totally block out everything. Maybe not within my own mind, but everything outside, all the people around me. I have lost close friends, had family members die, and didn't feel a thing. Its been that way for almost ten years. It didn't...
    brandi0r000 brandi0r000 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    Love Is What My Heart Wants, Understanding Is What My Soul Craves.

    Love is something I guess I've never really understood.. I know what it feels like, and I know what it feels like to get your heart broken. But for me, love and a broken heart just blurs together, I can't say I wish I never loved you because then I'd miss out on knowing a...
    Hoping4peace Hoping4peace 18-21, F Sep 6, 2013

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    Where's The Map?

    Where do I belong?  Sometimes I am too lost and confused to know.  How can I hold on when I don’t know what I am holding on to?  How do I take a leap of faith into the darkness of the abyss? I wonder.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 13 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Does anyone else just get this insane feeling

    of numbness. It doesn't hurt or anything I just don't feel anything unless it's extremely painful. I kinda like it though better to feel nothing than to be in extreme pain...right?
    thegroundisup thegroundisup 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Lately-meaning the past 6 months I have felt

    disconnected from my life. Like I'm just going through the motions not really thinking I just feel numb sometimes. I don't know what's wrong with me.
    Roseoverboard Roseoverboard 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    Apathy.

    I think that apathy and numbness is worse than anything else. I don't suppose it's true apathy 'cause I know I'm upset, but I don't express it - I don't cry, I don't scream, I don't shout. For so long I was constantly on the verge of tears but not once did I cry. I still...
    SaharaOdeil SaharaOdeil 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2008

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    I feel like I've been through

    so much and go through so much each day. Sometimes it's so much I do not bother sharing or talking about because - for me talking has never solved any of my problems. Perhaps made them worse. Ep just allows me to "vent", when I want I guess. Anyway, I sometimes feel numb when I...
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F Jul 20

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    After All I Have Been Through...

    After all I have been through, I am almost always numb... I wish I wasn't but its something that just likes to stay. Sometimes the only thing I can feel during my numb sessions is anger.... which I don't know where it comes from... But most of my numb sessions just leave me numb...
    Ice95 Ice95 18-21, F Mar 12, 2013

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    Feeling Numb: Good/Not So Good...My Experience Is..

    Feeling numb is comfortable to me... I really don't think it's healthy to make a habit of it though...Right now i'm in one of my "numb" state of minds where I just "switch off" my mind and just.. don't think of anything. It's peaceful, but I don't think it's healthy. I hate it...
    Daydreamz Daydreamz 18-21, F Mar 15, 2013

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    it's weird .. even though I've lived by myself with me and my dad for 14 years , until now I suddenly feel really lonely Maybe it's because I miss my friends form school since I'm...
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    This kind of feeling that makes me feel sad actually =[
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    Do you believe in soulmates? If so ever wondered where your one was? On a remote island maybe? At your work or school? maybe they your best friend Or maybe they weren't even born...
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    Have you ever taken a shower and no matter how hot the water was you just couldn't feel it? I mean you could see the thick billows of steam swarming in the air and your skin was...
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    I wonder sometimes if I never meet a partner will this lonely feeling ever go away. Can I be happy and feel loved by someone who's not really mine.
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    Hotfairy1980 Hotfairy1980 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    You know when you want something to happen but your not sure how it will happen. So you dream about that something and you know that you cant really live there but its OK for a...
    jellybean113 jellybean113 41-45, F Jul 17

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    nadsxo2 nadsxo2 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    MissButterfly007 MissButterfly007 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I moved across the country with at the time my best friend. It's been three years and I have yet to make any close friends. I feel alone. For a long time I wanted to go back home...
    Smallwonder102 Smallwonder102 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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