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I Sometimes Feel So Hopeless That I Cannot Even Hope For Hope

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    Hope hasn't done a thing

    for me but make me look stupid. Hope shouldn't even exist because I don't think it's real anymore. God has been teasing me all my life. There's no hope for hope anymore. Why am I even here?
    rayray87 rayray87 26-30, F Sep 9, 2014

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    False.

    False as the fake nails, fake eyelashes, fake **** and *** padding on a ho. That's how fake and false the hope is, that some people throw at me. They're just shooting from the hip, they don't know me, my bad luck, the long odds... There is no hope for hope. Prove it, or lose it...
    Sinjintiger Sinjintiger 41-45, M Sep 17, 2013

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