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I Sometimes Get Scared Of Myself

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    Cutting Helps The Pain,

    I have been an on and off cutter for many years, don't get me wrong I know it's not good and I know I shouldn't do it however when things are at there worse and I'm in the lowest darkness place it just seems to happen to help with any pain that I'm experiencing.im going to get...
    Feb 17, 2013

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    I Get This Feeling!

    Sometimes I can get to emotional and get hurt and its that kind of pain I hate the most, and so I want to go to that all to familiar place and cut it out, I haven't done that in so long. But the urge when I am in my darkness or hurting is always there, I don't think once you have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 19, 2010

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