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I Sometimes Have Thoughts That Frighten Me

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    Ugly thoughts, thoughts

    that have no place in my hand, for they are cruel in nature, and that's not who I want to be. Thoughts full of rage and subdued hatred, it's something that shocks me, but then, I just accept it, if that's how I really feel, then so be it.
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13 13-15, F Jan 15

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    Confusion

    what is this mist of confusion? what are theses vapors of dark?I must escape from this pain, I can't hide, can't run away from it, can't do anything but to watch and wait.Wait to feel this confusion overtake me then leave again. It always comes and goes, the time of wich i never...
    wolfwhisperer wolfwhisperer 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2010

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    Why?

    Why are my thoughts so cruel to me? Recently, they have been so bad that the moment they pop into my head, I instantly break down... Why mind? Why do you think of such horrible things..?
    monaroo97071 monaroo97071 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2013

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    Idk

    idk , everything seemed so real , then reality hit me , but it was to late
    BillyBonnie BillyBonnie 18-21 Nov 15, 2013

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    Lingering Thoughts

    I have an over active imagination...i used to carve words into my skin...sometimes i wonder what kind of pictures i could draw with a razorblade.....i haven't done things like that in months..but the thought lingers
    gummybear13 gummybear13 18-21, F Feb 18, 2013

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    Too Often I Guess

    They will never truly go away... no matter what meds I take or what happiness I find I feel that darkness every day. It's something I've grown up with, a part of me like my freckles. Just something that I know is there and I may not always give it attention or acknowledge its...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 24, 2008

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    I tend to have these irrational thoughts in my

    head everyday and I have been dealing with this since freshman year in high school; mind you that I'm a college freshman now and 19 years old. My mind can obsess over anything such as how I am laughing, making conversation, how things are happening, or even making actions. It's...
    SearchingForABetterDay SearchingForABetterDay 18-21, M Nov 20, 2015

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    But It Is Justified

    My frightening thought is due to the anger i have at my husband for his emotional affairs, lieing, and blaming me for his lack of being a man and doing the right thing. What is it, i want to cut his balls off and hang them from the ceiling fan so he can watch them go round and...
    Grits4life Grits4life 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 23, 2009

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    Sometimes....

    I do sometimes have thoughts that frighten me, though it happens less & less frequently. Up until this time last year all I ever had were thoughts that frightened me. Suicide was really the only thing that was ever on my mind & it got to the point that I just...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 28, 2008

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    Specially about people

    who insist in using abbreviations like they are still using a Nokia 3310. You have a full keyboard. Just type words!
    izzypie izzypie 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    I Just Dont Know Wth Happened

    it all started with one simple idea and then it just took of from there : /
    BillyBonnie BillyBonnie 18-21 Nov 15, 2013

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    Idk

    i dont want to get anyone involved , and i wont , no need to get them involved in anything , this is gonna be my mess
    BillyBonnie BillyBonnie 18-21 Nov 15, 2013

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    Battle..? Strange Thoughts..

    I have strange thoughts that frighten me lately.. they've grown worse in the past few months.. I have thoughts that a battle is approaching.. and the feeling that I have to help fight in it. These thoughts tell me that I have to fight soon, and that if I fail the world will fall...
    kittenoftheblade kittenoftheblade 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 27, 2008

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    Only One Right Now

    The only thought that scares me atm is a life without you.....................
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 23, 2009

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    This Is True.

    My thoughts are so powerful- so powerful my friend believes in that whole "good things come to you by good thoughts," she belives that I have the power to control my life with my thoughts. She thinks when something happens to me, it's that I brought it on myself. Like if I was...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2011

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    I do sometimes. Most times I have them when I'm tired and just plain cranky
    aby2015 aby2015 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    She is hurting and needs prayers or thoughts
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    I can't stop picking at scabs and acne, especially on my scalp and inside my ears. It's so embarrassing when I can't stop worrying over a spot in class because I know everyone else...
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    I have a love hate relationships with narcissists. I was raised by them, conditioned by them, dated plenty of them. I sort of feel bad for narcissists because they are the easiest...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    That's because sometimes I like to sleep!!!!
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    Since I experience sleep paralysis and I start hallucinating people and thins, why not hallucinate seeing the people I miss and can't be with, anyone who is far from me... wouldn't...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Lets say you have been kidnapped. You can call on the characters from one television show, to make a rescue attempt. Which show or movie would you pick?
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    I put up with her because I love her she is my only sister but she is so selfish. She never thought about anyone but herself. I don't trust her because she stole from me money...
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    More than sometimes I I'm right now. But it takes me an hour or more. I like to edge 15 or 20 times
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    Have you ever sat with your friends and just known that you're the least important in the group and it won't matter if you were there or not ? Yeah.
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    If you have a problem trusting someones sincerity, do them a favour and don't waste their time in long drawn conversations pretending to nod along at the time. The issue could...
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