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I Sometimes Have Thoughts That Frighten Me

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    Sometimes....

    I do sometimes have thoughts that frighten me, though it happens less & less frequently. Up until this time last year all I ever had were thoughts that frightened me. Suicide was really the only thing that was ever on my mind & it got to the point that I just...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 28, 2008

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    Confusion

    what is this mist of confusion? what are theses vapors of dark?I must escape from this pain, I can't hide, can't run away from it, can't do anything but to watch and wait.Wait to feel this confusion overtake me then leave again. It always comes and goes, the time of wich i never...
    wolfwhisperer wolfwhisperer 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2010

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    Only One Right Now

    The only thought that scares me atm is a life without you.....................
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 23, 2009

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    Idk

    i dont want to get anyone involved , and i wont , no need to get them involved in anything , this is gonna be my mess
    BillyBonnie BillyBonnie 18-21 Nov 15, 2013

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    Why?

    Why are my thoughts so cruel to me? Recently, they have been so bad that the moment they pop into my head, I instantly break down... Why mind? Why do you think of such horrible things..?
    monaroo97071 monaroo97071 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2013

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    Lingering Thoughts

    I have an over active imagination...i used to carve words into my skin...sometimes i wonder what kind of pictures i could draw with a razorblade.....i haven't done things like that in months..but the thought lingers
    gummybear13 gummybear13 18-21, F Feb 18, 2013

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    I Just Dont Know Wth Happened

    it all started with one simple idea and then it just took of from there : /
    BillyBonnie BillyBonnie 18-21 Nov 15, 2013

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    This Is True.

    My thoughts are so powerful- so powerful my friend believes in that whole "good things come to you by good thoughts," she belives that I have the power to control my life with my thoughts. She thinks when something happens to me, it's that I brought it on myself. Like if I was...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2011

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    Idk

    idk , everything seemed so real , then reality hit me , but it was to late
    BillyBonnie BillyBonnie 18-21 Nov 15, 2013

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    Battle..? Strange Thoughts..

    I have strange thoughts that frighten me lately.. they've grown worse in the past few months.. I have thoughts that a battle is approaching.. and the feeling that I have to help fight in it. These thoughts tell me that I have to fight soon, and that if I fail the world will fall...
    kittenoftheblade kittenoftheblade 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 27, 2008

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    But It Is Justified

    My frightening thought is due to the anger i have at my husband for his emotional affairs, lieing, and blaming me for his lack of being a man and doing the right thing. What is it, i want to cut his balls off and hang them from the ceiling fan so he can watch them go round and...
    Grits4life Grits4life 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 23, 2009

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    It's Like They Are Not Even Mine...

    Am I really the one who thinks up those thoughts? Am I? Or is it someone else... someone else inside of me?
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 20, 2009

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    Too Often I Guess

    They will never truly go away... no matter what meds I take or what happiness I find I feel that darkness every day. It's something I've grown up with, a part of me like my freckles. Just something that I know is there and I may not always give it attention or acknowledge its...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 24, 2008

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    While I don't want to die I have thoughts of leaving Of jumping off a cliff I've slept with the girlfriend of a convicted murderer biker Just to push the limits of what if I ride...
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    drummergirl602 drummergirl602 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 7

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    I had one last night, i can't remember how it began. But it involved a friend from school who i still talk to. I was at her house, and somehow eded up in bed with her. not in a...
    Anth9012 Anth9012 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I had one last night, i can't remember how it began. But it involved a friend from school who i still talk to. I was at her house, and somehow eded up in bed with her. not in a...
    Anth9012 Anth9012 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    Please help. I'm currently experiencing dark thoughts, dark thoughts about just running away. I love all my Children but they have no respect for anything I have ever done for...
    RockingLikeAFetus RockingLikeAFetus 31-35, F 26 mins ago

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    As you all know there was a man in my life who persecuted me and made my life a living hell . I wish if I was a talented author to write the whole story with all the details but...
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    It borders on a year now, that I have had nightmares almost every night. My mind has been plagued by insecurity... And with it, came the nightmares. I wish I had the typical...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Apparently I have an accent or speak odd to people. Apparently I don't pronounce my words correctly... I guess sometimes they don't come out correctly. Like haven't = 'aven't or he...
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Yes I do it makes me upset with myself i have been able to cope with it but sometimes I burst into a firecracker and I just feel terrible. :(
    yeahis18 yeahis18 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    My Husband recently purchased 2 new dinner-out dresses for me. One is white and the other is black.This dress will be worn for a very special anniversary dinner out. He has chosen...
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    Time and space...reality.. Why am I in that specific place right now? Why are you reading my story , being questioned by it after a specific time..again.. How can everything be so...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 8

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    i was in love with a girl when i was in 9th grade..,i always used to stare that girl and she too.,but sometimes ago i saw her with an other guy in our class,it hurt me a lot that...
    xandrays xandrays 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    Whenever I have a bad experience in my life I cut myself off from all my friends until I am over it. This seems to be the only way for me to get through what I need to get through...
    BlueRose77 BlueRose77 36-40, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    “For me, trees have always been the most penetrating preachers. I revere them when they live in tribes and families, in forests and groves. And even more I revere them when they...
    yellowsoul yellowsoul 51-55, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    Sometimes I think to myself I might be happier if I had faith, hope, beliefs. I did at one point. Then I discovered I had a mind of my own, used for processing thoughts and ideas...
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 13

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    I still have a lot to learn and explore about EP right now, so pardon me if this particular experience isn't what the site is about. I stumbled across the internet for about an...
    Kiddinq Kiddinq 18-21, F Nov 6

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    My recent retreat time was really useful. I have found though that I get overwhelmed with the sheer amount going on in life, and thereby distracted. It definitely helps me to be...
    sometimeslonelytoo sometimeslonelytoo 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    I have no idea how certain thoughts pop into my head... Sometimes disturbing, sometimes entertaining, often just plain strange.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 11

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    Last night I went on a date. It didn't go so well. And I am so, so, so grateful for my journey over recent times because I can absolutely recognise now that it has changed me for...
    willbefreeiwill willbefreeiwill 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 15

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    I find it extremely difficult to cope sometimes with this, so much so panic attacks take over and my words fail me in conversations! The fact I have landscaping business means not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 16

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    I think at times, we all feel like suicide might be an option. Maybe we're upset, and say it out of frustration and anger hoping someone will care. Sometimes we say it because we...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 16

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    I've hallucinated a few times this year but didn't think much of it. Have been waiting for a referral to a psychiatrist as I identified alot with the symptoms of bipolar. Now I'm...
    animamia animamia 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    Sometimes I spend hours awake just thinking about anything and everything and the next day im so tired i cant function properly. Sometimes its bad but sometimes it helps as I come...
    Amy107 Amy107 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    (continued) During September of my sophomore year of high school, I was put under for six hours while a team of surgeons inserted a twelve inch steel rod under my rib cage...
    austinbaird austinbaird 18-21, M Nov 17

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