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I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 243 People

    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    The title says it all.

    I can't express how deeply I feel about this, but I'll try anyway. I'm the same with every other people on Earth who had similar situations. I can only be myself when I'm alone. That's when I feel very secure with myself and able to breathe without pressure. When the clock hits...
    IloveAutumn115 IloveAutumn115 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    I Dnt Now Why

    i mean i am comfertble with alot of my friends but i still dont tell then alot when im upset most of the time i dont even i now im doing it i would really just like to stop i mean i know things dont have to always be pretty including me but it gets anoying
    emogurl399 emogurl399 18-21, F Dec 22, 2009

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    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    TRUST No One

    I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. I KEEP EVERYONE AT A DISTANCE FOR MY OWN SAFETY. IT'S TOTALLY NECESSARY. I'VE BEEN TRESPASSED ON BY EVERY FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD EXCEPT ONE. SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT IF YOU ARE A FRIEND YOU WILL 'FORGIVE' BUT FORGIVING JUST GAVE LEEWAY FOR THEM TO TRESPASS...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox 31-35, F Nov 30, 2011

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    I protect myself so heavily

    that I never let anything out. It's like I just can't talk to people because I truly don't trust that they'll keep it to themselves. I even suspect this of people I don't even know. I just can't talk to people. It's caused my heart to be so loaded with stuff that I can barely...
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F Sep 20, 2009

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    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2008

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    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Aug 8, 2013

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth 41-45 3 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    No matter how much he hurt me I still tend to love him even more. I said I will give all my love for him and I think I did. Because during December 2014, I realized it's been two...
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    I blame myself when things don't go right even if its not my fault because the only one who can fix the problem is myself. also sometimes its good to vent but who wants to listen...
    me0883 me0883 22-25, M Apr 6

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    I always whished to sleep and not to wake up the next day.....but obviously I get up n hope for things to get better....I'm from a middle class family who suffers and struggles to...
    Lolitha794 Lolitha794 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I so love sleeping that sometimes I want to sleep forever... lol
    ajdream ajdream 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was home alone today and depressed about life.I heard cutting helps people who are depressed.So I got a new razor and cut my upper arm 5 times.This is when I realized my...
    ironpack ironpack 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I just want to sleep forever and live in my dreams and never wake up to deal with this world
    saftyg saftyg 13-15, F Mar 18

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    Its crazy im always stressing. I stress everyday because I put the blame on myself alot
    dawwnn dawwnn 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    If I could just sleep forever I could pretend to be with you
    brokenhearted89 brokenhearted89 22-25, F Mar 22

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    I am almost 20. I have a boyfriend, I live with him. My family bought me an expensive flat in a capital city last year, because I moved here to study. The studies are not going...
    vaguelyarabic vaguelyarabic 31-35, F Apr 1

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    Nate came to my house Saturday because my mom invited him inside when she saw him with chris. AND he had the nerve to bring in his new girlfriend in my home too! But I tried to...
    ChildOfHarmony ChildOfHarmony 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I know it wasn't my fault... WHY do I still blame myself... I feel like I messed up some how in this whole situation
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    im so sick of existing and not living. i feel like im half vegetable. sleeping is one of the few things i enjoy, its my escape. escape forever? maybe
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I am really wanting to sleep forever tonight. I usually hate being negative but my anxiety is really bad and I just want it all to stop.
    DaniellaSage DaniellaSage 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm a single mom, still in high school, 21 Years old & always exhausted. I wish I can sleep forever lol
    alexis94 alexis94 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My ex broke up with me, and I felt awful, he said that it was because he needed space because of his depression, but before he said that, he said "Before we were dating, I really...
    callXmeXrose callXmeXrose 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    My life is so bad at the moment I want to wish away my days
    Kitty2413 Kitty2413 13-15, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Wow I never knew other people thought this too... It is slightly reassuring to find im not the only one. But the down side is how frequently this thought comes into my mind.... It...
    JustSomeDewd JustSomeDewd 18-21, M Mar 25

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    I don't want to get up and go to school. My bed is so warm.
    camillem33 camillem33 16-17, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I dont need someone else in my life who only knows of constantly blaming me....already have enoug
    tiya78 tiya78 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    .Yes, that's my face in the photo. My girlfriend took the picture. I love the picture. It shows me doing something I love doing. What more do I need to say about it?
    FruitSlice FruitSlice 41-45, M Mar 27

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    It's not your fault...clearly...it's not your fault...you stood up against the world and took an oath not to give up when the going gets rough...you knew it all along...so it's...
    N22B N22B 26-30, M Mar 30

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    If he's in a mood and responds negatively it hurts real bad, I'm sure I've done wrong and need to change or he won't care & love me or maybe he just doesn't :(
    Aagatha Aagatha 36-40, F Apr 7

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    I'm so ******* tired of being a friendly person all the time. Those moments when I feel like punching that person in the gut cuz they're too narrow-minded and rude.... What could I...
    DarkLoser DarkLoser 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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