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I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

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    TRUST No One

    I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. I KEEP EVERYONE AT A DISTANCE FOR MY OWN SAFETY. IT'S TOTALLY NECESSARY. I'VE BEEN TRESPASSED ON BY EVERY FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD EXCEPT ONE. SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT IF YOU ARE A FRIEND YOU WILL 'FORGIVE' BUT FORGIVING JUST GAVE LEEWAY FOR THEM TO TRESPASS...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    I Dnt Now Why

    i mean i am comfertble with alot of my friends but i still dont tell then alot when im upset most of the time i dont even i now im doing it i would really just like to stop i mean i know things dont have to always be pretty including me but it gets anoying
    emogurl399 emogurl399 18-21, F Dec 22, 2009

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    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Aug 8, 2013

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    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox 31-35, F Nov 30, 2011

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2008

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    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F Sep 20, 2009

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    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth 41-45 3 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    for years i have been watching hidden voyeur videos on net, and i regret every time i see anything like that. i hate myself for watching someone unknown and i wish if i could just...
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    1. I always try to order something different, but always end up ordering the same thing. 2. People love to share their troubles with me; I hate sharing my troubles with anyone 3...
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    Back in high school , I had a teacher who was very nice , attractive as i saw him , and i really liked him , sometimes i felt like he liked me too , cause he always treated me...
    SaturnSavior SaturnSavior 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    "These people are all ******* crazy" I just found myself mumbling
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    I don't know why... But the feeling is awful. I don't know what to do, so I try to hold back the tears; thinking "Why the hell do I feel like crying for no reason?! I'm just out...
    NicoBunny6 NicoBunny6 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    Basically all I've been doing lately is going to work, coming home, getting high and sleeping. I don't even bother to put makeup on and my hair is an absolute mess. I shower every...
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    I know I'll never kiss you But I can't stop thinking of your lips on mine I know I'll never hug you But I can't stop imagining being snug between your arms I know I'll never make...
    covetanother covetanother 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    Had a bad day at work today. Something happened that was out if my control. But I still blame myself and feel I caused it. I don't want to return to work. ( I'm a midwife)
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    I wish I could just stay in bed and sleep for like two months.. Or more.
    SunshineH316 SunshineH316 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    I'm honestly done with people, either except me completely for the person I am or don't accept me at all.
    livinliferight6 livinliferight6 16-17, F Sep 25

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    People after people get disappointed in me.. And for what.. ? Everything..
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    It's kind of a muscle memory for me. It started when I was little when my mother would berate me for every little thing I did wrong. Then she blames me for doing things I actually...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F Oct 15

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    Well I'm not but I did and I would like to encourage all of you who are standing up to all the pressure of society and peer group and saving yourself for your future husband and...
    MrsSThomas MrsSThomas 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Well I'm not but I did and I would like to encourage all of you who are standing up to all the pressure of society and peer group and saving yourself for your husband (or wife) and...
    MrsSThomas MrsSThomas 36-40, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    This time it was big .... I'm walking away and letting someone have their happily ever after ..... I really do not deserve one of my own.
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    *** note: I do not want pity or attention. I simply just want to get this out of my system. Feel free to judge me, I don't care. There's nothing you can say that I haven't told...
    justmebta justmebta 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I know I am opening myself up for possible abuse. And I acknowledge we all have a different story. Being married for 24 years and having my wife leave me over a year ago, I became...
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    once there was a guy who message me this "hii, youve probably heard this a million times but i think youre suuuper cute :p" this amaze me a little 'cause he give a different...
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