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I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

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    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth 41-45 3 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F Sep 20, 2009

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    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2008

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    I protect myself so heavily

    that I never let anything out. It's like I just can't talk to people because I truly don't trust that they'll keep it to themselves. I even suspect this of people I don't even know. I just can't talk to people. It's caused my heart to be so loaded with stuff that I can barely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Aug 8, 2013

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    I Dnt Now Why

    i mean i am comfertble with alot of my friends but i still dont tell then alot when im upset most of the time i dont even i now im doing it i would really just like to stop i mean i know things dont have to always be pretty including me but it gets anoying
    emogurl399 emogurl399 18-21, F Dec 22, 2009

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    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox 31-35, F Nov 30, 2011

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    Really, I only wanted to share one thing that I was thinking right now, but I always have things I want to share and then forget to do so. 1. What I eat is determined by whether...
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    I have really bad attachment and trust issues and sometimes I'm grateful for them because they save me from getting myself hurt or heartbroken but sometimes I hate them because I...
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    Ive been with my boyfriend for 3 years and we were officially engaged for 5 months. He got a job at another state and I moved with him because we were engaged and our families knew...
    brokenandempty brokenandempty 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    From past few weeks I am feeling this . I don't know whether it's good or bad. But I want to sleep and never wake up. But the grace and will of God may be something different...
    uniqueguy91 uniqueguy91 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Often, lately, there are mornings I wake and I just pray to be able to go back to sleep. I just don't feel like I've slept, and I am sure I will be lethargic and lame. I would...
    Wishart95 Wishart95 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Not exactly forever but I wish I could sleep for a year and a half and wake up and see that all my exams are overx
    Mahsa99 Mahsa99 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Heey~^^! I am here to share my story~ Soo... I am 16 years old and i cut for first time two weeks ago... ( I've just downloaded the app. I used it before, but i delete my profile...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 days ago

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    accepting yourself is the most hard thing to do.... how can i overcome this problem. :/
    yan2 yan2 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The feeling of not wanting waking up and going outside the bed, as if it hugs you none stop and protects you with it's warmth.
    ninacu ninacu 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    M Search For Enlightenment A friend and I were talking today about our dreams. I have asked many people in my life about what their biggest dreams are. Most say earn enough to...
    texaspilot texaspilot 46-50, M 12 Responses 6 days ago

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    not to make too much of it...i have a long way to go. talking has finally started to put things together. pieces of the past that provided the vital "why"? why do i do what i do...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    I've had a real epiphany over this last week. The last two years have been really terrible and I've been wallowing and drifting following a relationship breakdown. This affected me...
    Burnley123 Burnley123 31-35, M 8 Responses Feb 4

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    It always feel like I'm being watched and judged by everything I do or say. Most of the time, I try and ignore that looming feeling but other times it just sort've..gets to me. It...
    ApatheticSpark ApatheticSpark 13-15, F Feb 3

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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 3

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    I always mess up everything. I think too far ahead, I'm too hopeful.. but at the same time you say I'm too pessimistic.. it's either I'm too pessimistic or I'm too optimistic. you...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I am a recovering male anorexic who has been in outpatient therapy since March of last year. Back in June, I wasn't improving at all, and was starting to get very sick. It got to...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    I keep trying to forget what I did. The night my dad died I left the room. He was on hospice and he was at home. I hired someone to care for him 24 hours a day but I gave him...
    strawberyblond strawberyblond 70+, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    I made a promise to myself, one that I haven't kept. me and my mom never had a good relationship, and this particular day after picking me up from my dad's she went to shower after...
    pricklytickk pricklytickk 22-25, F Feb 1

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    An open letter to myself for when I am ready to recover: Strange how the urge to start a new life creates incentive to end the current. It is not humanity that makes the world seem...
    Myplethora Myplethora 22-25, F Feb 1

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    It's not a religious reason. Its just my reasons. My choice to wait till marriage. That's all
    Mars000 Mars000 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I am a recovering male anorexic, and I just finished an outpatient treatment program for eating disorders. On the whole, it wasn’t a helpful program. I may be at a healthy weight...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I'm 19 and I just recently got caught stealing from Macy's over $175 worth of merchandise . This was my first time because I seen my friend do it and get away with it many times I...
    Boyer17 Boyer17 18-21, F Jan 31

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    I deal with a lot of self-hatred and disgust. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling awful all the time. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling broken. My life is practically perfect...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 31

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    Do you ever just feel like a disappointment? I'm just so fed up with how I'm turning out I feel like such a failure when I see my friends bringing in a load of money and driving...
    SarcasticCxnt SarcasticCxnt 18-21 Jan 30

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    After not meeting the requirements for a college that I was determined to attend, I hit my typical state of mind that I'd never be good enough for anything. Or at least until I...
    Aujrennae Aujrennae 16-17, F 1 Response