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I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

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    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Aug 8, 2013

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    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F Sep 20, 2009

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    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox 31-35, F Nov 30, 2011

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    I Dnt Now Why

    i mean i am comfertble with alot of my friends but i still dont tell then alot when im upset most of the time i dont even i now im doing it i would really just like to stop i mean i know things dont have to always be pretty including me but it gets anoying
    emogurl399 emogurl399 18-21, F Dec 22, 2009

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    TRUST No One

    I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. I KEEP EVERYONE AT A DISTANCE FOR MY OWN SAFETY. IT'S TOTALLY NECESSARY. I'VE BEEN TRESPASSED ON BY EVERY FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD EXCEPT ONE. SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT IF YOU ARE A FRIEND YOU WILL 'FORGIVE' BUT FORGIVING JUST GAVE LEEWAY FOR THEM TO TRESPASS...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth 41-45 3 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2008

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    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    As long as I can remember I have always been the one that everyone picked on and made fun of. Because of that I learned to withdraw within myself and keep everything inside, never...
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    I'm pissed at my self no one else.I am a big failure in life.I cant even accomplish half of the goals i set for my self,and i only had 3. I have missed my finale dead line .I look...
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    I've never been good enough and I hate myself for it. When other kids were having a dandy time with their fathers. Mine was out cheating on my mom and doing drugs. I hate people...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 18

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    How long has it been now? Four, no, five years sice you left me. Five years since I lied in bed for days while you packed your things. Five years since I last saw you. But still I...
    stillhet stillhet 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Well not really at "peace" but ive been so calm and i feel just very neutral ever since ive been back from the mental clinic. Im so neutral its almost boring sometimes like i could...
    Insomniac77 Insomniac77 16-17, M Jul 21

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    Lately my husband meet new friends and spending time with them more often. He doesn't use to drink and if he has morning work he don't want to stay late, but then now he would...
    qtalice qtalice 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Hi, I'm 18 years old and I hate my self sometimes. It shouldn't be this way and I don't want it to be this way, but is this way. I feel as if I've disappointed my family. Most...
    Youngblood27 Youngblood27 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    i have been married to the same man for almost 14 years. i really love him but his sex drive is almost more than i can handle so when he keeps persisting i make him pay not always...
    warden2000 warden2000 31-35, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hey everyone. I want to just put this message out there. Many of us, including myself, have been helped by this site and some of the wonderful people who are a part of it. But...
    cyndercrys cyndercrys 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have had so much going on in my life and I'm only 14!! I have another friend that has been suicidal and she cuts as well. She tried to commit suicide four times now and it's...
    Isabugy Isabugy 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I'm sad / disappointed my husband and I will never have a baby or move. I realized this today when I was looking through a house real estate book one said in a certain school...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    It is my fault, largely. This idea has been hammered home for a very long time. It is part of my conditioning, my programme. They sure believe it. In many ways, so do I.
    macabrEnigma macabrEnigma 18-21, T 1 Response Jul 9

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    Yeah just want to keep sleeping.. And sleeping and sleeping..
    ThePeach ThePeach 26-30, F Jul 15

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    I mess up everything. I hurt everyone. Idk. I'm just a destroyer and that's all I'll ever be.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    when they're not even anything to do with me!!! WTF
    mypath43 mypath43 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I'm afraid the pain I've gone through in life has made me to damaged to love
    DeLos1985 DeLos1985 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 10

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    Random fact number 1) I haven't had a boyfriend in 7 years. :/ I've have friends with benefits, just not a actual boyfriend :( kinda sad really haha!
    Zoewithoutthei Zoewithoutthei 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 10

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    I thought I could change but so far everything has proven to me I'm not able to and now I just want an escapee a drug.
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I haven't even been aware of this. Life is so useless and people only pretend they love you. It is hard to be aware of the true. It is hard to be an adult. It is hard to grow up...
    hisamedusssa hisamedusssa 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Okay if we're talking about like sexually inappropriate then yeah lol I do that a lot but I also act out at inappropriate times too. But I laugh at myself for it:)
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Fainting’s not, perhaps, such a big deal, unless it happens to you often or if the circumstances are traumatic. Neither of these things applies to me. I have fainted only once in...
    Macmann Macmann 56-60, M Jul 14

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    There is just something delicious about the knowledge the that my lover and I are foregoing protection and taking that big risky step... the possibilities that we'll end up...
    nascent45 nascent45 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    Life sucks. I feel like I have no purpose here. I want to die on the floor. If I had acess to a gun, I would be dead. I hate the fact that I can't like myself. I hate that whenever...
    kitkat923 kitkat923 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    Hi, I'm 16 this year. I just really need someone who can relate to me. I hate myself so much. I hate everything about myself. And this is why. I'm Asian so ever since I was young...
    jyjho jyjho 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 14

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    As of late, my life hasn't been what I would consider to be optimal; I distanced myself from the only person that I have had any inkling of romantic attraction to, bickered with my...
    woahwoahpotato woahwoahpotato 13-15 Jul 5

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    I don't know what to do!! :( I don't know!! Did I forgive him or did I simply hide him in my memories? When I was 11, my parents were invited to spend some time with friends...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    Especially right now. So much going on in my life and sometimes when I hold it all in for too long, I lash out! Why am I like this? I hate myself for this
    Laserbeam18 Laserbeam18 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I am grateful that I have found this site. Before joining this site, I was heartbroken and very lost. So I decided to find an online forum where I can talk to people who been...
    yomy1603 yomy1603 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Sad, but True... July 28, 2014 Have you ever had someone in your life that has been hard to love? I don't mean they are "unlovable"...just that they make it difficult with their...
    JustaMann JustaMann 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    I just have these awkward mannerisms that I don't know how to get rid of, which makes me dislike myself sometimes. I just hope for the day I don't make people uncomfortable for the...
    mahnouls mahnouls 16-17 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Regardless of what anyone says, and regardless of what she might have put me through. She carried me in her stomach for nine months of her life and tried her best to give me...
    s4dlyeverafter s4dlyeverafter 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I feel kind of bad because I was chasing my dog around with a hose to make him stop barking since no other methods seem to work. He was cowering because he already fears water and...
    Bonkerzz Bonkerzz 13-15, F Jul 20

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    Lack of common sense kills me.It seems to be everyone get their way on doing what a duck they want...with no consequences whatsoever.But there are consequences...their state of...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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