I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 22, 2009

    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

    I protect myself so heavily

    that I never let anything out. It's like I just can't talk to people because I truly don't trust that they'll keep it to themselves. I even suspect this of people I don't even know. I just can't talk to people. It's caused my heart to be so loaded with stuff that I can barely...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 18, 2014

    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Nov 17, 2013

    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl
    61-65, F
    2 Responses Nov 9, 2008

    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever
    13-15, F
    Aug 23, 2012

    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth
    41-45
    2 Responses Nov 12, 2008

    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox
    31-35, F
    Nov 30, 2011

    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998
    26-30, F
    Sep 20, 2009

    I Dnt Now Why

    i mean i am comfertble with alot of my friends but i still dont tell then alot when im upset most of the time i dont even i now im doing it i would really just like to stop i mean i know things dont have to always be pretty including me but it gets anoying
    emogurl399 emogurl399
    18-21, F
    Dec 22, 2009

    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234
    46-50, F
    Aug 8, 2013

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