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I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

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    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Aug 8, 2013

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    I Dnt Now Why

    i mean i am comfertble with alot of my friends but i still dont tell then alot when im upset most of the time i dont even i now im doing it i would really just like to stop i mean i know things dont have to always be pretty including me but it gets anoying
    emogurl399 emogurl399 18-21, F Dec 22, 2009

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    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox 31-35, F Nov 30, 2011

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    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    I protect myself so heavily

    that I never let anything out. It's like I just can't talk to people because I truly don't trust that they'll keep it to themselves. I even suspect this of people I don't even know. I just can't talk to people. It's caused my heart to be so loaded with stuff that I can barely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F Sep 20, 2009

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    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth 41-45 3 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2008

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    Pudgylp Pudgylp 16-17, M 13 hrs ago

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    Then again I am someone's alter personality. I must help him so I must stay inside this body however I do sometimes wonder what it would be like to have my own body
    vladimirfoote vladimirfoote 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I wish that I could constantly live within that small window of time where I'm just starting to wake up but consciousness hasn't quite kicked in yet. That's always the time in...
    SplendidChai SplendidChai 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I have had depression for quite some years thoughts of feeling no good. And like I'm worthless but now I have support and love within myself b
    Nikkilight25 Nikkilight25 22-25 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I need so much sleep right now lmao
    17Olives 17Olives 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The Power of expression I am 27. Uptill now, I felt that I have been very expressive in sharing what I feel. I felt I am straightforward. But when I look back, I realized that it...
    Xpressionist Xpressionist 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    what a wonderful feeling so free such happy days.
    ftx1 ftx1 51-55, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm really depressed so I don't have reasons. It just happens
    erxnio erxnio 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    Just about the time I think I have everything in my life under control, I realize I don't, not really. Then I begin to think about why I don't. That leads me to a thinking of a...
    comeonletsgo comeonletsgo 61-65, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to hide in the forest by a waterfall. Live off the land. Wake up in the morning only to answer to my self and Mother Nature. That would be utter bliss for a while
    Dobesir Dobesir 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I should probably go to sleep now, but all I can do is think and I can't get rest from my own thoughts, I Have a lot of **** on my mind and tonight I've been thinking about...
    sunshineh13 sunshineh13 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I work constantly. I feel that I'm being used because I never say no. I'm tired. I'm low. I've lost friends because they think I 'brown nose' my bosses when all I do is the work I...
    Tinkfraggle Tinkfraggle 41-45 a week ago

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    over and over and over again. I don't want to think about this. screaming and yelling and pain over and over again. rotten deep within,build up your walls again.over and over and...
    catacomb catacomb 66-70 Aug 21

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    I'm not in pain. I'm not angry. I'm not pregnant. I'm not hungry. I'm not tired. I'm not scared. I'm not happy. I'm not upset. For some reason, no matter what the situation, I just...
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    Any male or female ! Who like like to cross dress an male ! As an dulhan ! For the day? With all the ornimants! Any budy intreast in doing so plz pig me out ! Ian ready to come...
    Anjumsultana Anjumsultana 36-40, F Aug 20

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    When one of my friends hurt me so bad, it tears me up inside. Even if it was not meant too, it goes in and takes my feelings out in shock. In disbelief, I'm so hurt and in shock. I...
    ghost25 ghost25 16-17, M Aug 19

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    So I know it's a good day when I wake up and actually want to get out of bed.
    AlwaysInMyHead247 AlwaysInMyHead247 46-50, M Aug 19

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    Whenever I don't particularly have things planned for a day, I can not get up.
    17Olives 17Olives 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Yes, hope you find someone who will not hurt u. Unlike me, I made u sad all the time.
    Lexis91 Lexis91 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    I guess it's because there's some sadness built up.. When I was a kid I got diagnosed with cancer & was told I wouldn't survive (even at this age I have nightmares of being told...
    Yazlo Yazlo 18-21, M Aug 17

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    i just really wish i could dream forever, because my nightmares i dream about... are nothing to the nightmare im living when im awake, im always scared of myself, of what i might...
    GabrielBois95 GabrielBois95 18-21, M Aug 17

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    Yeah... I miss her deeply today and I just want to cry its very hard to deal with her not being here. I was supposed to be there for her but I was too late she was already gone...
    TeenmommyNikki TeenmommyNikki 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    It's my main goal here. & I'm so disappointed that pervs have made this an unsafe place. They ruined it! I can't say I was molested by my uncle without some bozo trying to get off...
    WinkWink78 WinkWink78 36-40, F Aug 16

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    I have lost so many dear friends. Some for me being gay, some because I wasn't attractive enough to advance to romance, and so on. All of the flawed cogs in these relationship...
    beautifulbizarre beautifulbizarre 16-17, F Aug 16

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