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I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

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    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2008

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    I Dnt Now Why

    i mean i am comfertble with alot of my friends but i still dont tell then alot when im upset most of the time i dont even i now im doing it i would really just like to stop i mean i know things dont have to always be pretty including me but it gets anoying
    emogurl399 emogurl399 18-21, F Dec 22, 2009

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    TRUST No One

    I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. I KEEP EVERYONE AT A DISTANCE FOR MY OWN SAFETY. IT'S TOTALLY NECESSARY. I'VE BEEN TRESPASSED ON BY EVERY FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD EXCEPT ONE. SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT IF YOU ARE A FRIEND YOU WILL 'FORGIVE' BUT FORGIVING JUST GAVE LEEWAY FOR THEM TO TRESPASS...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F Sep 20, 2009

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    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox 31-35, F Nov 30, 2011

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    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth 41-45 3 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Aug 8, 2013

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    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Everything is my fault. I drive people away because I automatically assume they're pissed off at me or that they hate me. I get terrified of anger towards me and actually by...
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    I worry that I am not my boyfriends type. All of his other girlfriends have looked a certain way and seem nothing like me. We have been together over a year and he acts like he's...
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    I know it's a bad thing to do, and I've heard it from so many people that I can't fix everything. I know I can't, but when something goes wrong I always think about what I could've...
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    I have been selling sex after I dropped out of college to support my family & myself I use to sell my body on backpage then they start arresting girl so I quit and then became a...
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    Of course I'm going to blame myself, its pretty much down to me that stuff goes wrong most times anyway, not going to blame anyone else for my unending screw ups and causing just...
    Waywardsilence Waywardsilence 41-45, M Sep 14

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    I may not be young for much longer, but I can always be beautiful forever loving myself and continuously striving to be a better person. If that's more than enough for me, then it...
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    Today in class, we talked about how most people in this culture unknowingly practice "The Trance of Unworthiness". Its basically our radical self criticism that plays on default...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F Sep 13

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    I'm a bad bad ugly man. .
    tarkovsky tarkovsky 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    “Don’t allow someone to have the power to occupy your thoughts. If they don’t find you worth the effort or the time, why should you waste yours?” Donna Lynn Hope
    mo0se809 mo0se809 46-50, M 13 hrs ago

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    I just want to close my eyes and never wake up.
    123jewels456 123jewels456 13-15, F Sep 1

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    When I'm sad I sleep a lot? O.o
    bR0k3nWings bR0k3nWings 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    or at least I will try to.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 16-17, F Sep 13

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    I'm am a chicken nugget and I embrace it.
    GenericChickenNugget GenericChickenNugget 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    Not being cocky but My flab is fab 👌👌
    brookiebear3011 brookiebear3011 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    I do everything wrong and am the burden in everyone's lives.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    Just be yourself And smile as the way you live on earth Don't give a **** on haters Just give them a middle finger and smile 😁
    ZesMe21 ZesMe21 13-15, F 22 hrs ago

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    The world continues to move around me. The chatter, the frenzy, the seeking, the competition. What is it that each of us is striving for? How many are even aware? Or are we just...
    mistletoe41 mistletoe41 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    Thomas Cook Airways – airport protection suggestions - As continues to be documented, new safety specifications happen to be released that should have an affect on some...
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    I use razorblades to hurt myself, 'cause, sometimes, I'm so sad I'm in real pain. I have scars all over my wrists, so I'm always wearing a hoodie or jacket. I live in one of the...
    mymasochismtango mymasochismtango 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 13

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    I can often be quite a private person, and it really discomforts me when others intrude on my private things. Even just when someone asks to see my phone to check their number, I...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M Sep 10

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    I forget the days as the nights close in they all seem to run together now. For reasons unknown to me the medication agreement I have accepted Has placed me in a mellow zone, free...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 13

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    I don't except who I am and how I feel about...some things. *blushes* Sometimes I ask myself, "Why?" Sometimes I feel like it's all my fault.
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    Well, this isn't really a past experience but here goes... Since I left college, the people who I thought were my friends are ignoring me and sometimes it really feels like I'm...
    smify123146 smify123146 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion. I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show...
    Hbee1980 Hbee1980 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 23

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    This past summer (summer 2014) has been by far one of the most terrible I have ever had to live through. Luckily, someone famous once said that bad experiences are there to be...
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    Do I love myself?! I have started wondering do I really love myself? I mean of course I do I'm adorable! At least that's what I always say. But do I really love who I am, am I...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I do... I know I am. But I have days, weeks... Where I just cry. I don't think I'm strong enough to continue sometimes. I want to forget the past. I want to accept my life...
    Tihtil Tihtil 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My friends and I were talking the other day, drifting from one topic to another, until we found ourselves talking about touching one's self. Basically I don't know them well and...
    pleadingsorry pleadingsorry 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I record myself mastur bating.. I love to watch myselfx.
    Angelwuvsyu Angelwuvsyu 16-17, F 16 Responses Aug 31

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    In actual fact, he remained seem his full existence. Then There exists Strength. It had been mentioned of him that he was a "busy" horse, always Lively and desirous to go. When...
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