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I Sometimes Hide Within Myself For Protection

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    True.

    ..tends to happen when things aren't going well in my life. I have always been this way. If I don't have positive things to report or good things to speak of, it seems I would rather not speak at all. I don't like to complain and Im a realist, so its very hard for me to put on a...
    NiftySox NiftySox 31-35, F Nov 30, 2011

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    Feel I Will Be Rejected Or Ridiculed Otherwise....

    Like today. I run my own daycare at work and also do some hours in the after school club some afternoons to make up hours and get extra money. I am almost 26 but most people say I look 17 or 18. The people I work with in the after school club are roughly around these ages so they...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    Afraid

    To tell people how I really feel and keep quiet even around family. I hide myself because I feel there is no one else like me and will never find someone else. Thoughts are kept silent to everyone except my counselor.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    I Do It All the Time...

    It's just part of me. I never show my feelings. I'm so afraid I will get hurt.
    amoabetty amoabetty 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    My Sheild...

    My bodys like a shell, a scarred shell that hides teh true me. the shell shoes me as rough around teh edges and mayeb insensitive at times and shows someone thats cold and doesnt care. Thats the opposite of me though. despite em hiding behind a shell i also hide behind my imental...
    hurtingforever hurtingforever 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    Often

    I do hide within myself for protection.And I suppose that when I do this, it seems to others that I am trying to push them away.I wish they would understand that when I distance myself, it is because I can't handle the feelings I am having. Hiding within myself allows me to lick...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Hide Away

    Hide away inside Every Feeling, Care, Need, and Desire Just Listen- But don't hear too much. Grasp- If you feel you can reach. But don't hold onto anything- Because someone will always take it away. Hide away inside Every wish, dream and fear. Reach when you need- But never need...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Aug 8, 2013

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    I Rarely Spill My Guts

    I  am certain we all keep a lot in.Some people have their better half to confide in. Best friends and family, who will understand  your emotions. If you have none of the former then it gets tough. I keep things to myself. I feel weak if I complain. Oddly, I don't ...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2008

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    Me Too

    i so hide within myself, even to my husband. i'm afraid of losing him or anyone for that matter. i've lost so many people in my life close to me. who's next?
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F Sep 20, 2009

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    Concusion

    I ALMOST DROWNDED AT A LAKE AND WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL SOMETHING CHANGED ABOUT ME.THE CHILD ABUSING STEP_MOTHER CAME TO VISIT AND TAKE ME HOME I LOOKED AT HER AND THE DOC AND SAID NO,I WAS NOT FEELING RIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO STAY TO GET AWAY FROM THEM SADOs. I ONCE DREW A...
    thelambsink thelambsink 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    Overloaded

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking or being in the presence of anyone. I just wanna be silent, not speak a single word, and keep to myself. Sometimes I lock myself in my room. I even isolate myself from my family. This is my way of protecting myself.
    4everlost23 4everlost23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    Behind the Gate

    I think a lot of people hide within to feel safe. I feel that it is a self preservation skill that some people learned very early. When things are too chaotic on the outside it is far easier to go behind the internal mind gate and keep  our emotions and fears  and...
    wickedisamyth wickedisamyth 41-45 3 Responses Nov 12, 2008

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    TRUST No One

    I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. I KEEP EVERYONE AT A DISTANCE FOR MY OWN SAFETY. IT'S TOTALLY NECESSARY. I'VE BEEN TRESPASSED ON BY EVERY FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD EXCEPT ONE. SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT IF YOU ARE A FRIEND YOU WILL 'FORGIVE' BUT FORGIVING JUST GAVE LEEWAY FOR THEM TO TRESPASS...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    I Hide When Iam Hurt

    I hide deep with in myself when i gt hurt i smile smile smile when i feel the pain inside ive always been told from my mother shut up or i'll give you something to cry about . what a thing to tell your child ...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2009

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    Sorry for that. I know that's tough. I will listen if it'll help. Anyone. I'm just that way. I care. 😊
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