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I Sometimes Hurt Myself

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    The Hate I Have For Myself...

         I don't know when it started... feels like awhile ago. But I've started to hate myself. I've started to realize how gross and messed up I really am, and how much a terrible person I am. I'm awful. I'm disgusting, gullible, stupid, lazy, and selfish.     I punish...
    screamingstranger screamingstranger 13-15, F 1 Response May 8, 2012

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    Buildup

    I thinkbefore it was my way of just making me pay attention to watever i was doing, justa quick smack across the face like a lady would give a rude man. over time it's gotten worse tho, lately ive had a repeated moments where the stress was overbearing on me and i needed the...
    WolfintheWillows WolfintheWillows 18-21, M Sep 26, 2012

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    Trying To Destroy My Kidneys

    I'm trying to get some form of kidney damage. I've quit drinking water, all I drink is soda and Kool-aid (which has a lot of water in it... I'll probably cut that out). I would love for the phosphoric acid to eat away at anything inside me. I really want to feel the sharp...
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    I Have Been a Scratcher

    Since about eighth or ninth grade, I have been a scratcher on and off. I was really stressed out about something, and my friend showed me that she scratched herself with a safety pin after sanitizing it with fire. I thought that sounded great since I needed a release, so I...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2008

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    I do not cut myself It makes too much mess I

    don't drink very often It just makes me act dumb I cannot commit suicide Those I love would never forgive I cannot get another to kill me Believe me I have tried I cannot burn myself I have enough scars already And so I bang my head It rarely makes a mess It helps me to forget...
    mrweerd mrweerd 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    It Made Me Feel Better.

    my bf is quite blunt and he will say I'm kind of fat. I hate my weight and it hurts my feelings a lot. Im very emotional. And I hate that so when I get really upset I used to bang my head into the wall because all I could focus on after that was the knot on my head. But I...
    imjustlikeyou imjustlikeyou 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    The Scars Of A Broken Child

    i remember when i was a kid. the first time i lost a wrestling match i was ten years old.  my father  drove me home from the meet and when we got to the house he hit me so hard in the face that one of my teeth fell out and my nose began bleeding. he told me that if i...
    deathonsummersday deathonsummersday 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 17, 2010

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    If Only...

    I only hurt myself when I'm angry. When I feel a little victimized. I still don't really know why because I don't really have a reason. I know why I started doing it, but not why I continue. You see when I was 13-14 I became depressed. And I thought, since I was getting sad and...
    hurts2much hurts2much 18-21, F Nov 6, 2010

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    Staying Strong

    I used to cut myself when i was stressed or upset. i stopped when my sis and my mom found out and made me promise to get help. i did and now its been almost 2 years since i stopped cutting im glad i stopped. my sister started cutting and now she comes to me for help instead after...
    mistresslex mistresslex 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2012

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    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo 26-30, F Feb 1

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    I Hit Myself

    I don't do the typical cutting thing anymore, it doesn't get my anger at myself out. I punch myself really hard all over my body but mainly on my arms and legs. I stopped doing this for a bout 6 months while I was severely anorexic because the aching hunger was enough for me to...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    Do You Really Understand The Emotional Hurt ?

    Do people really know what we go through? They are so quick to judge you just because they find out what goes on. But do they really know what is happening ? No, they don't . They will never understand the emotional lain and the feeling that no one cares . People don't understand...
    Dreamwishes Dreamwishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2012

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    Strong Enough

    When I get severely stressed out I scratch myself. Not little scratch marks, but long painful lines along my thighs. My nails Are nearly three quarters of and inch long (just the tips). I started doing this almost two years ago, when I was at a point where I could feel nothing...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Sep 27, 2012

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    Guess More Extremy

    I used to love to do things just for the risk of death
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 20, 2013

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    Like when making coffee,

    if I'm not careful, I burn myself. DX And today I hit my elbow on my desk in class today. I'm sick and now I have a bruised elbow. Great way to start the week. Lol.
    Cigarettegirl91 Cigarettegirl91 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    Sometimes I just get

    so upset and feel like nobody loves me or cares for me and I will cut myself. Once I've done it I relax...
    katherinapmts katherinapmts 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    I Think Everyone Hurts Themselves...

    maybe not physically but emotionally or spiritually or whatever else. I used to hurt myself physically but not anymore. But I do hurt myself with I guess other people's help? I don't like it, but I guess its just a habit, or if I feel the need to cry and I can't cry. Not sure...
    butterfly46107 butterfly46107 31-35, F Nov 12, 2013

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    I Don't Cut Or Burn Or Anything Like That... I Could Never.

    All I do is scratch my body all over before I go to bed every night. I only leave the white/light red scratches. They're always gone by morning. I don't want to bleed all over my sheets.
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2012

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    Hurt

    when i am feeling really depressed, i take a sharp object and start scratching at my skin until i cant stand it anymore. it relieves me and calms me down.
    waitingsolong waitingsolong 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 22, 2007

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    Promises Make Perfect?

    When I was in fifth grade I started cutting. My friend found out, grabbed a piece of glass and slashed his arm four times, deep. He said he wouldn't stop if I didn't. It hurt me so much watching that blood dripping down his arm and down into the soil then watching an ambulance...
    TurnThePaige TurnThePaige 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    The Only Reason I'm Hurting Is Because Of The Cut

    My dad walked out a fortnight ago, the 11th of December 2009 to be exact. He came into my room before he left to remind me that he still loved me. It wasn’t until he’d left my room that I woke up enough to realise that he was leaving. For the next week I lived in a bit of a...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21, 2011

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    Everyday...

    I have been a cutter for about 2 years now. I was caught a few weeks ago and now my wrists are checked on a weekly bases. Of course they are too stupid to check my hips and legs. I love the feel of the corner of the blade cutting into my skin and watching the blood leak out of...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2010

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    I relapsed, again. From 11 back down to 0.
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    It's been 5 months, but the urge never goes away.... How do you distract yourself??
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    I hide away in my shower at home, my parents always yell at me and I'm tired of it. right now I'm in the shower its where I go when I need support on ep, can anyone help?
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    In lot of ways....i´m really creative when it comes to that
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 5 Responses Mar 31

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    It's just one of those days. My blade is dull though.
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 16-17, M 5 Responses Apr 7

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    I feel so ******* anxious...like, I just wanna gouge my eyes out and rip the flesh off my face. I feel like I'm gonna throw up. My stomach feels like it's gonna crawl out of my...
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    I have since I was in 6th grade. I was starting to really take in the fact that I was adopted. I didn't understand at the time it was for the best. I've been pushed and pulled in...
    BornBroken BornBroken 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I've struggled with depression since I was 7 or 8. I handled it by pretending it wasn't happening and didn't talk about it. Honestly I don't think anyone knew when I was younger...
    transtastic transtastic 18-21, T 4 Responses Apr 19

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    Being forced to choose between the guy you love and who loves you, and someone that can physically hold you and temporarily make you feel loved... Even though I'm so unsure if i...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Apr 19

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    Why.Must.I.Be.Here? I can't handle myself. I just can't... I'm so done and over myself.. I sell myself short, I disrespect myself, I intentionally hurt myself... I'm all sorts...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    I don't say what I want, so I never get what I want. I have alcohol hidden in the house. I have a secret lover. I have a journal that no one can read. I do not tell people my...
    Directionless450 Directionless450 41-45, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I'm miserable. I crave the love of a family so bad it hurts.
    RelentlesslyPassionate RelentlesslyPassionate 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    Even when I stopped gaining, my trousers feel tight and sometimes they rip when I try to get up after dinner Did I really get so fat that I need to give up on jeans? ;P
    stelarring stelarring 18-21, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    On the outside, I am all smiles. I seem like a happy-go-lucky person that has time to be friendly towards everyone. It wouldn't be off to assume I have an amazing life for how...
    Shirogane Shirogane 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Some people like this about me, and other people don't, but I do come across as insensitive sometimes... I basically sometimes just say what I think. This can rub people up the...
    pixieowl pixieowl 26-30, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I have been hurt many times in my life but i can understand why. Im normally anxious and it doesnt make people attracted to a coward who fears people. I still figure out why im so...
    tokyo60s tokyo60s 31-35, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    People stay sticks and stones will break your bones but names will never hurt you. Well hate to tell you but they lie. Names hurt even if it's just a joke to them. it can have...
    RandomFanGirl RandomFanGirl 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    1. I am creative. 2. I am sensitive emotionally. 3. I am into details and can express myself really well, some say I am rather eloquent and articulate. 4. I am very friendly... it...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Apr 5

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    I dont know why. Everything just hurts. Not physically, but emotionally. I just hurt so much and I don't know why. I mean. So many happy things are always happening to me. Yet I...
    shhyoudontknowme shhyoudontknowme 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    So recently I have done all I know to do to make this mother-in-law/daughter-in-law relationship work. I am well rooted in church and trying to do right and I want a good...
    HerworstEnemy HerworstEnemy 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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