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I Sometimes Hurt Myself

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    Trying To Destroy My Kidneys

    I'm trying to get some form of kidney damage. I've quit drinking water, all I drink is soda and Kool-aid (which has a lot of water in it... I'll probably cut that out). I would love for the phosphoric acid to eat away at anything inside me. I really want to feel the sharp...
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    Guess More Extremy

    I used to love to do things just for the risk of death
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 20, 2013

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    It Made Me Feel Better.

    my bf is quite blunt and he will say I'm kind of fat. I hate my weight and it hurts my feelings a lot. Im very emotional. And I hate that so when I get really upset I used to bang my head into the wall because all I could focus on after that was the knot on my head. But I...
    imjustlikeyou imjustlikeyou 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    Like when making coffee,

    if I'm not careful, I burn myself. DX And today I hit my elbow on my desk in class today. I'm sick and now I have a bruised elbow. Great way to start the week. Lol.
    Cigarettegirl91 Cigarettegirl91 22-25, F Mar 4

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    The Scars Of A Broken Child

    i remember when i was a kid. the first time i lost a wrestling match i was ten years old.  my father  drove me home from the meet and when we got to the house he hit me so hard in the face that one of my teeth fell out and my nose began bleeding. he told me that if i...
    deathonsummersday deathonsummersday 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 17, 2010

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    Do You Really Understand The Emotional Hurt ?

    Do people really know what we go through? They are so quick to judge you just because they find out what goes on. But do they really know what is happening ? No, they don't . They will never understand the emotional lain and the feeling that no one cares . People don't understand...
    Dreamwishes Dreamwishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2012

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    I Think Everyone Hurts Themselves...

    maybe not physically but emotionally or spiritually or whatever else. I used to hurt myself physically but not anymore. But I do hurt myself with I guess other people's help? I don't like it, but I guess its just a habit, or if I feel the need to cry and I can't cry. Not sure...
    butterfly46107 butterfly46107 31-35, F Nov 12, 2013

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    The Hate I Have For Myself...

         I don't know when it started... feels like awhile ago. But I've started to hate myself. I've started to realize how gross and messed up I really am, and how much a terrible person I am. I'm awful. I'm disgusting, gullible, stupid, lazy, and selfish.     I punish...
    screamingstranger screamingstranger 13-15, F 1 Response May 8, 2012

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    Buildup

    I thinkbefore it was my way of just making me pay attention to watever i was doing, justa quick smack across the face like a lady would give a rude man. over time it's gotten worse tho, lately ive had a repeated moments where the stress was overbearing on me and i needed the...
    WolfintheWillows WolfintheWillows 18-21, M Sep 26, 2012

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    Staying Strong

    I used to cut myself when i was stressed or upset. i stopped when my sis and my mom found out and made me promise to get help. i did and now its been almost 2 years since i stopped cutting im glad i stopped. my sister started cutting and now she comes to me for help instead after...
    mistresslex mistresslex 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2012

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    Promises Make Perfect?

    When I was in fifth grade I started cutting. My friend found out, grabbed a piece of glass and slashed his arm four times, deep. He said he wouldn't stop if I didn't. It hurt me so much watching that blood dripping down his arm and down into the soil then watching an ambulance...
    TurnThePaige TurnThePaige 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    I Hit Myself

    I don't do the typical cutting thing anymore, it doesn't get my anger at myself out. I punch myself really hard all over my body but mainly on my arms and legs. I stopped doing this for a bout 6 months while I was severely anorexic because the aching hunger was enough for me to...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    I Don't Cut Or Burn Or Anything Like That... I Could Never.

    All I do is scratch my body all over before I go to bed every night. I only leave the white/light red scratches. They're always gone by morning. I don't want to bleed all over my sheets.
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2012

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    Everyday...

    I have been a cutter for about 2 years now. I was caught a few weeks ago and now my wrists are checked on a weekly bases. Of course they are too stupid to check my hips and legs. I love the feel of the corner of the blade cutting into my skin and watching the blood leak out of...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2010

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    If Only...

    I only hurt myself when I'm angry. When I feel a little victimized. I still don't really know why because I don't really have a reason. I know why I started doing it, but not why I continue. You see when I was 13-14 I became depressed. And I thought, since I was getting sad and...
    hurts2much hurts2much 18-21, F Nov 6, 2010

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    I Have Been a Scratcher

    Since about eighth or ninth grade, I have been a scratcher on and off. I was really stressed out about something, and my friend showed me that she scratched herself with a safety pin after sanitizing it with fire. I thought that sounded great since I needed a release, so I...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2008

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    Sometimes I just get

    so upset and feel like nobody loves me or cares for me and I will cut myself. Once I've done it I relax...
    katherinapmts katherinapmts 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    Strong Enough

    When I get severely stressed out I scratch myself. Not little scratch marks, but long painful lines along my thighs. My nails Are nearly three quarters of and inch long (just the tips). I started doing this almost two years ago, when I was at a point where I could feel nothing...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Sep 27, 2012

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    The Only Reason I'm Hurting Is Because Of The Cut

    My dad walked out a fortnight ago, the 11th of December 2009 to be exact. He came into my room before he left to remind me that he still loved me. It wasn’t until he’d left my room that I woke up enough to realise that he was leaving. For the next week I lived in a bit of a...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21, 2011

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    Hurt

    when i am feeling really depressed, i take a sharp object and start scratching at my skin until i cant stand it anymore. it relieves me and calms me down.
    waitingsolong waitingsolong 16-18, M 2 Responses Oct 22, 2007

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    Related Experiences

    When I get frustrated or extremely upset or argue with someone I want to hurt myself. Its mainly when I argue with my close friends and mother. I feel so bad about things I said or...
    kleox7x kleox7x 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I use razorblades to hurt myself, 'cause, sometimes, I'm so sad I'm in real pain. I have scars all over my wrists, so I'm always wearing a hoodie or jacket. I live in one of the...
    mymasochismtango mymasochismtango 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hurt myself because it feels good to me and me and my best friend Alpha will continue to hurt other people see I like to make people feel my pain and my hurt that's why I hurt...
    dangerousperson dangerousperson 26-30, M Sep 1

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    I have started doing risky things - mainly meeting strangers for sex - to hurt myself. And it's working. I've been lucky so far that the men have been safe. But I keep pushing...
    chumiloons chumiloons 41-45, F Sep 4

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    I hurt myself todayTo see if I still feelI focus on the painThe only thing that's realThe needle tears a holeThe old familiar stingTry to kill it all awayBut I remember everything...
    deepgreenwood deepgreenwood 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    Well, this isn't really a past experience but here goes... Since I left college, the people who I thought were my friends are ignoring me and sometimes it really feels like I'm...
    smify123146 smify123146 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    Every day i do the same stupid ****. Cutting of burning myself because its a release. Then i get angry at myself for cutting and then cut more to release that anger. Im stupid...
    RazorToMySkin RazorToMySkin 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    I mean, why would I go looking for subliminal messages, anyway? I suddenly feel like if I ever got the idea to become a singer that if I were the only one that doesn't worship...
    YuriXWolfram86 YuriXWolfram86 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    Dreams of moments past are just that dreams Yet when they speak to you in volumes repetitively It's hard not to get lost in their meaning and story once more I see many a scenario...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 11

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    I read something sad today from a friend who is now in a similar situation as i was this time last year and my heart goes out to her. As it was a time when i myself felt so very...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    Maybe it's the fact I work all the time just to survive, but what am I surviving. An empty life. A boring life. A life that goes from work to sleep back to work again. Out of the...
    Humming247 Humming247 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 28

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    I'm trying to find my own version of happiness and a life that feels right for me. I have so many sides of me I'm trying to fit all together. I consider myself relatively traveled...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 28

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    Around 7 months ago I hurt someone in a very bad way and I mean seriously bad. I hurt him and I was denied the chance to apologise to him, regardless whether he forgave me or not...
    GirlWithTheRedHair2013 GirlWithTheRedHair2013 16-17, F Aug 24

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    Your probably mot going to understand this But im to tired to hurt myself like. I want to go to sleep But im still going to try I feel like i have to I have to prove this
    KovusShame KovusShame 13-15, F Sep 2

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    ive been self harming for a few years now... I told my family that I stopped a few months ago, but its even worse now. I love seeing blood, especially if its my own. the pain helps...
    ashtonx3 ashtonx3 16-17, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    http://youtu.be/HWRF2U1QW4o One of my favorite Korean song...it made me realize what I had is merely an infatuation...otherwise it would have hurt like this...anyway love the song...
    Quentine Quentine 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    Fiance and I have discussed about whether we should do an intimate one or not. I thought we had already set ourselves to do a destination wedding, with a (sort of happy middle). We...
    lylac lylac 26-30, F 8 mins ago

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    When I was younger I had a huge crush on this boy in my school. It was at that time when the boys hadn't hit puberty yet but some of the girls had, and I was one of the lucky few...
    dontyouforget dontyouforget 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    A lot of us do it, and so do I. I internalize, and bottle up all my anger, frustration, hate, and resentment. I just keep it inside, all to myself untill finally I can't take it...
    shaaka shaaka 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    Sometimes I feel worthless, unwanted and unloved, especially unloved. For the last few weeks it's getting more often. But why is that? Don't get me wrong, not everything in my life...
    Gammler Gammler 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    Sometimes the pain doesn't hit me until late at night Then it cradles me, sings to me Coos to me words of its infinite false knowledge Laughing when it hurts Receiving pleasure...
    NeverForgeIt NeverForgeIt 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    I did it again. I hurt my friends's feelings. Not the normal "I didn't think that it would hurt them". What I said would hurt anyone in their situation. I just didn't care at the...
    Savi0r Savi0r 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    ..my heart hurts a lot tonight. i really wish i could turn it off. disconnect and be able to breathe for one moment.
    VoloNoscere VoloNoscere 22-25, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    It's like a trigger goes off in my head... And I completely shut down when I feel I've been wronged or hurt in some way sometimes I don't even realize im doing it's like my heart...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    I crave the destruction those around me. Often enough I feel waves of hatred just rippling through me, I get chills of disgust and the urge to hurt and destroy the few...
    IAmWhoIAmWhoAmI IAmWhoIAmWhoAmI 18-21, F Aug 22

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    Obviously I've been hurt many times.. but I'll never forget one of those times.. I still remember the pain as if it was yesterday.. I still feel the pain sometimes.. I used to be...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 1

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    I look at myself sometimes and wonder why I'm still here. Many moments in my past I could have easily stumbled further than I have. It has become quite a battle to journey through...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    Sometimes when I sleep, I see you in my dreams. I'm still with you, I don't know what it means. Those mornings after I see you, I remember when I do. It ruins my whole day, because...
    justderek justderek 22-25, M 3 days ago

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