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I Sometimes Hurt Myself

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    I have been a cutter for about 2 years now. I was caught a few weeks ago and now my wrists are checked on a weekly bases. Of course they are too stupid to check my hips and legs. I love the feel of the corner of the blade cutting into my skin and watching the blood leak out of...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2010

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    I have trichotillomania

    and recently it has gotten worse due a traumatic event in my life
    lolitaxSweetie lolitaxSweetie 18-21, F Jul 14

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    Like when making coffee,

    if I'm not careful, I burn myself. DX And today I hit my elbow on my desk in class today. I'm sick and now I have a bruised elbow. Great way to start the week. Lol.
    Cigarettegirl91 Cigarettegirl91 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    The Hate I Have For Myself...

         I don't know when it started... feels like awhile ago. But I've started to hate myself. I've started to realize how gross and messed up I really am, and how much a terrible person I am. I'm awful. I'm disgusting, gullible, stupid, lazy, and selfish.     I punish...
    screamingstranger screamingstranger 13-15, F 1 Response May 8, 2012

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    Do You Really Understand The Emotional Hurt ?

    Do people really know what we go through? They are so quick to judge you just because they find out what goes on. But do they really know what is happening ? No, they don't . They will never understand the emotional lain and the feeling that no one cares . People don't understand...
    Dreamwishes Dreamwishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2012

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    Promises Make Perfect?

    When I was in fifth grade I started cutting. My friend found out, grabbed a piece of glass and slashed his arm four times, deep. He said he wouldn't stop if I didn't. It hurt me so much watching that blood dripping down his arm and down into the soil then watching an ambulance...
    TurnThePaige TurnThePaige 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    Sometimes I feel like I want to kill myself,

    that feeling just randomly hits me at full force and i feel like my life is out of control so i cut myself or burn or sometimes I starve myself just to think and feel about something else, to get my mind off of it.
    IHateYourSmile IHateYourSmile 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    The Scars Of A Broken Child

    i remember when i was a kid. the first time i lost a wrestling match i was ten years old.  my father  drove me home from the meet and when we got to the house he hit me so hard in the face that one of my teeth fell out and my nose began bleeding. he told me that if i...
    deathonsummersday deathonsummersday 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 17, 2010

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    The Only Reason I'm Hurting Is Because Of The Cut

    My dad walked out a fortnight ago, the 11th of December 2009 to be exact. He came into my room before he left to remind me that he still loved me. It wasn’t until he’d left my room that I woke up enough to realise that he was leaving. For the next week I lived in a bit of a...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21, 2011

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    Strong Enough

    When I get severely stressed out I scratch myself. Not little scratch marks, but long painful lines along my thighs. My nails Are nearly three quarters of and inch long (just the tips). I started doing this almost two years ago, when I was at a point where I could feel nothing...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Sep 27, 2012

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    I Hit Myself

    I don't do the typical cutting thing anymore, it doesn't get my anger at myself out. I punch myself really hard all over my body but mainly on my arms and legs. I stopped doing this for a bout 6 months while I was severely anorexic because the aching hunger was enough for me to...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    I Don't Cut Or Burn Or Anything Like That... I Could Never.

    All I do is scratch my body all over before I go to bed every night. I only leave the white/light red scratches. They're always gone by morning. I don't want to bleed all over my sheets.
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2012

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    I do not cut myself It makes too much mess I

    don't drink very often It just makes me act dumb I cannot commit suicide Those I love would never forgive I cannot get another to kill me Believe me I have tried I cannot burn myself I have enough scars already And so I bang my head It rarely makes a mess It helps me to forget...
    mrweerd mrweerd 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    It Made Me Feel Better.

    my bf is quite blunt and he will say I'm kind of fat. I hate my weight and it hurts my feelings a lot. Im very emotional. And I hate that so when I get really upset I used to bang my head into the wall because all I could focus on after that was the knot on my head. But I...
    imjustlikeyou imjustlikeyou 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    I Have Been a Scratcher

    Since about eighth or ninth grade, I have been a scratcher on and off. I was really stressed out about something, and my friend showed me that she scratched herself with a safety pin after sanitizing it with fire. I thought that sounded great since I needed a release, so I...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2008

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    Staying Strong

    I used to cut myself when i was stressed or upset. i stopped when my sis and my mom found out and made me promise to get help. i did and now its been almost 2 years since i stopped cutting im glad i stopped. my sister started cutting and now she comes to me for help instead after...
    Heartbroken122 Heartbroken122 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 13, 2012

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    I Think Everyone Hurts Themselves...

    maybe not physically but emotionally or spiritually or whatever else. I used to hurt myself physically but not anymore. But I do hurt myself with I guess other people's help? I don't like it, but I guess its just a habit, or if I feel the need to cry and I can't cry. Not sure...
    butterfly46107 butterfly46107 31-35, F Nov 12, 2013

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    Buildup

    I thinkbefore it was my way of just making me pay attention to watever i was doing, justa quick smack across the face like a lady would give a rude man. over time it's gotten worse tho, lately ive had a repeated moments where the stress was overbearing on me and i needed the...
    WolfintheWillows WolfintheWillows 18-21, M Sep 26, 2012

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    If Only...

    I only hurt myself when I'm angry. When I feel a little victimized. I still don't really know why because I don't really have a reason. I know why I started doing it, but not why I continue. You see when I was 13-14 I became depressed. And I thought, since I was getting sad and...
    hurts2much hurts2much 18-21, F Nov 6, 2010

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    Guess More Extremy

    I used to love to do things just for the risk of death
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 20, 2013

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    Hurt

    when i am feeling really depressed, i take a sharp object and start scratching at my skin until i cant stand it anymore. it relieves me and calms me down.
    waitingsolong waitingsolong 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 22, 2007

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    Sometimes I just get

    so upset and feel like nobody loves me or cares for me and I will cut myself. Once I've done it I relax...
    katherinapmts katherinapmts 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo 26-30, F Feb 1

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    Trying To Destroy My Kidneys

    I'm trying to get some form of kidney damage. I've quit drinking water, all I drink is soda and Kool-aid (which has a lot of water in it... I'll probably cut that out). I would love for the phosphoric acid to eat away at anything inside me. I really want to feel the sharp...
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    Honestly, I don't know what to do. I try my best to ignore myself, but this is only detrimental. I'm in love with one of my oldest and closest friends. But I can't be with her. If...
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    Not always true, but yes I do try loving myself the way I am. I have tried so hard to lose weight, done so many exercise regimes and diets, but nothing works. We recently found out...
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    Maybe if I was a cold hard ***** to people then I wouldn't get hurt constantly, but my soul is to nice. I try not to care but it's to hard cause I'm just way too nice.
    imyourbunny imyourbunny 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Please forgive me . I will go crazy soon . Maybe i was feeling crazy then or im just really stupid for being jealous . I am sorry . Its hard to control emotions and i find it more...
    EternallyEphemeral EternallyEphemeral 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    I smile while I'm really freaking out on the inside. sometimes I just feel like randomly crying. I have bills piling up and I'm freaking out about how I'm going to pay them. I work...
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    I don't like myself I hate how I look !
    dreamyspider dreamyspider 16-17, M 10 hrs ago

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    When I was in middle high school, friends was everything. They came first before everything. I remembered defending my friends and involve in fighting. I don't care if you're a boy...
    inspirit05 inspirit05 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    It happens at night when I'm sleeping. I find I have them depending on my pain levels that day. I know i am having one I awake from sleep, my fingers move crazy (sometimes clicking...
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    I have cut myself before but it was only by accident. I was throwing a coke can full of sand at a rock for the second time and slice my finger open completely :( all that hard work...
    CD51031 CD51031 13-15, F 17 hrs ago

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    I Don't Mean To Hurt Anybody... Yet, still, I manage. Especially hurting myself. Cuz, damn, I'm in pain. Serious, serious pain. Excruciating pain. And I simply don't know...
    AdoraGel AdoraGel 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Not a day goes by were i think about my first girlfriend ,my best girlfriend who would have soon been my fiancee . Five years since that night since that car accident. five years...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    hifuckedupworld hifuckedupworld 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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