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I Sometimes Hurt Myself

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    Strong Enough

    When I get severely stressed out I scratch myself. Not little scratch marks, but long painful lines along my thighs. My nails Are nearly three quarters of and inch long (just the tips). I started doing this almost two years ago, when I was at a point where I could feel nothing...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Sep 27, 2012

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    The Only Reason I'm Hurting Is Because Of The Cut

    My dad walked out a fortnight ago, the 11th of December 2009 to be exact. He came into my room before he left to remind me that he still loved me. It wasn’t until he’d left my room that I woke up enough to realise that he was leaving. For the next week I lived in a bit of a...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21, 2011

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    Sometimes I just get

    so upset and feel like nobody loves me or cares for me and I will cut myself. Once I've done it I relax...
    katherinapmts katherinapmts 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    Hurt

    when i am feeling really depressed, i take a sharp object and start scratching at my skin until i cant stand it anymore. it relieves me and calms me down.
    waitingsolong waitingsolong 16-18, M 2 Responses Oct 22, 2007

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    Like when making coffee,

    if I'm not careful, I burn myself. DX And today I hit my elbow on my desk in class today. I'm sick and now I have a bruised elbow. Great way to start the week. Lol.
    Cigarettegirl91 Cigarettegirl91 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    I Hit Myself

    I don't do the typical cutting thing anymore, it doesn't get my anger at myself out. I punch myself really hard all over my body but mainly on my arms and legs. I stopped doing this for a bout 6 months while I was severely anorexic because the aching hunger was enough for me to...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    Everyday...

    I have been a cutter for about 2 years now. I was caught a few weeks ago and now my wrists are checked on a weekly bases. Of course they are too stupid to check my hips and legs. I love the feel of the corner of the blade cutting into my skin and watching the blood leak out of...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2010

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    Promises Make Perfect?

    When I was in fifth grade I started cutting. My friend found out, grabbed a piece of glass and slashed his arm four times, deep. He said he wouldn't stop if I didn't. It hurt me so much watching that blood dripping down his arm and down into the soil then watching an ambulance...
    TurnThePaige TurnThePaige 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    Buildup

    I thinkbefore it was my way of just making me pay attention to watever i was doing, justa quick smack across the face like a lady would give a rude man. over time it's gotten worse tho, lately ive had a repeated moments where the stress was overbearing on me and i needed the...
    WolfintheWillows WolfintheWillows 18-21, M Sep 26, 2012

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    I Don't Cut Or Burn Or Anything Like That... I Could Never.

    All I do is scratch my body all over before I go to bed every night. I only leave the white/light red scratches. They're always gone by morning. I don't want to bleed all over my sheets.
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2012

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    The Hate I Have For Myself...

         I don't know when it started... feels like awhile ago. But I've started to hate myself. I've started to realize how gross and messed up I really am, and how much a terrible person I am. I'm awful. I'm disgusting, gullible, stupid, lazy, and selfish.     I punish...
    screamingstranger screamingstranger 13-15, F 1 Response May 8, 2012

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    Staying Strong

    I used to cut myself when i was stressed or upset. i stopped when my sis and my mom found out and made me promise to get help. i did and now its been almost 2 years since i stopped cutting im glad i stopped. my sister started cutting and now she comes to me for help instead after...
    mistresslex mistresslex 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2012

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    Trying To Destroy My Kidneys

    I'm trying to get some form of kidney damage. I've quit drinking water, all I drink is soda and Kool-aid (which has a lot of water in it... I'll probably cut that out). I would love for the phosphoric acid to eat away at anything inside me. I really want to feel the sharp...
    itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    I Think Everyone Hurts Themselves...

    maybe not physically but emotionally or spiritually or whatever else. I used to hurt myself physically but not anymore. But I do hurt myself with I guess other people's help? I don't like it, but I guess its just a habit, or if I feel the need to cry and I can't cry. Not sure...
    butterfly46107 butterfly46107 31-35, F Nov 12, 2013

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    I Have Been a Scratcher

    Since about eighth or ninth grade, I have been a scratcher on and off. I was really stressed out about something, and my friend showed me that she scratched herself with a safety pin after sanitizing it with fire. I thought that sounded great since I needed a release, so I...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2008

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    The Scars Of A Broken Child

    i remember when i was a kid. the first time i lost a wrestling match i was ten years old.  my father  drove me home from the meet and when we got to the house he hit me so hard in the face that one of my teeth fell out and my nose began bleeding. he told me that if i...
    deathonsummersday deathonsummersday 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 17, 2010

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    Do You Really Understand The Emotional Hurt ?

    Do people really know what we go through? They are so quick to judge you just because they find out what goes on. But do they really know what is happening ? No, they don't . They will never understand the emotional lain and the feeling that no one cares . People don't understand...
    Dreamwishes Dreamwishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2012

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    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo 26-30, F Feb 1

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    It Made Me Feel Better.

    my bf is quite blunt and he will say I'm kind of fat. I hate my weight and it hurts my feelings a lot. Im very emotional. And I hate that so when I get really upset I used to bang my head into the wall because all I could focus on after that was the knot on my head. But I...
    imjustlikeyou imjustlikeyou 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    If Only...

    I only hurt myself when I'm angry. When I feel a little victimized. I still don't really know why because I don't really have a reason. I know why I started doing it, but not why I continue. You see when I was 13-14 I became depressed. And I thought, since I was getting sad and...
    hurts2much hurts2much 18-21, F Nov 6, 2010

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    Guess More Extremy

    I used to love to do things just for the risk of death
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 20, 2013

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    I do not cut myself It makes too much mess I

    don't drink very often It just makes me act dumb I cannot commit suicide Those I love would never forgive I cannot get another to kill me Believe me I have tried I cannot burn myself I have enough scars already And so I bang my head It rarely makes a mess It helps me to forget...
    mrweerd mrweerd 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it...
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    I feel as though I should do something to myself and put my life at risk.. What's going onnn
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    I know I shouldn't...I mean there is no real reason to....but the numbness is washing over and I just want to so bad...
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F Feb 1

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    Mostly emotional. I keep going back to the past, try to reason with old friend/boyfriends. It just turns out terrible.
    Mathclass1999 Mathclass1999 13-15, F Feb 4

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    I'm stupidly clumsy and always do things that come back to bite me later.
    UnfinishedStar UnfinishedStar 18-21, F Feb 5

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    Sometimes I am afraid of myself... I am afraid that I will grow up to be a murderer. This is a legitamate fear that is on my mind constantly. Normal people don't worry they will...
    Mewl Mewl 18-21, F a week ago

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    ...Heh. It's true. I always end up somehow hurting myself, and I don't mean to. It's pretty funny, actually. On the second day of school last year, I was really nervous, and I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 a week ago

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    Right now I feel so overwhelmed... As I cry into my pillow, the urge to hurt myself grows strong and stronger... I'm not happy.. I've acted happy so well that I've fooled myself...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    I'm 14 but I can say I have fallen in love and broke my own heart because I had to break up the one I fell in love with he's was too old for me and everyone was saying I had to for...
    WeridGirlRawr WeridGirlRawr 13-15, F Jan 27

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    It's nice to draw on myself. It helps when I feel like hurting myself, but I just start drawing until I completely forget I ever wanted to cut.
    x0lynn x0lynn 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    I thought I didn't have anything else to do. I grabbed the blade and cut my thighs my wrists and anywhere else I could think of. I started and I couldn't stop. It's like something...
    ErIng9971 ErIng9971 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 12

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    Eye gazing I know full well, when I am truly looking at someone and when I’m not. So I went through a phase where I experienced my own disconnectedness from… my soul centre...
    Injoy1767 Injoy1767 46-50, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    life is full of bs. happiness is a lie. and peace is an unreachable goal. every day I get more and more cuts. my life is going down a downward spiral. what made me special is...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 55 mins ago

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    Hey guys. I wrote this as a letter ill never send. let me know what you think? I stopped writing for a while, mostly because, well, I wanted to block out how I had been feeling...
    abbylynn98 abbylynn98 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 28

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    I am apathetic, insensitive and nearly emotionless yet sometimes I would be so emotionally sensitive with random outbreaks of random tears, laughter and anger. Sometimes I could...
    littleowlet littleowlet 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 13

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    I want to break down and slash my wrist and watch the blood hit the ground. I think to myself, what urges this on? Why am I so depressed, so angry, confused, upset. I just wanna...
    fade77 fade77 16-17, F Jan 28

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    1. Can't even describe the years of pain I went through during school. High school until I left at age 16 was one of the most painful times of my life. The depth of bullying and...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Jan 29

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    Sometimes. I know that sounds dramatic, but I guess hating anything is dramatic. Maybe I should use the word despise? It just sometimes I truly do hate myself though. I hate...
    abcdefgh19 abcdefgh19 22-25, F Feb 2

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    I don’t know what I am doing with my life anymore. Where to start with what sucks most, I am not sure. Right now I can not pinpoint the root cause of my unhappiness but it seems...
    unknown0605 unknown0605 22-25, F Feb 10

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    I can be bear it if other people hurts me unless it's those people that are important to me.. it's another story that leave me teary-eyed.
    Janelle15 Janelle15 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    Girls easily fall in love but having a hard time to move on.. so please if you're going to hurt us, leave us alone.
    KarenIsMyName KarenIsMyName 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    For those who worry about being hurt - follow the advice above. I have always believed this to be true...
    Liverpool47 Liverpool47 41-45, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I can't do anything. I'm worthless. I cry over things that don't matter, and for the things that do, I'm emotionless. Soulless. Heartless. I'm too quick to forgive people. I don...
    DrowningInRed DrowningInRed 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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